Documenting some bad days

These couple days revealed in this video are actually pretty bad days for me. I am unable to think in the first half of the video and unable to function.
I have my good days and I would like to think that the good days outnumber the bad but it's hard to tell how I am going to feel from one day to the next. Usually the worst days I tend to be more musically creative and that is a benefit. Please help in any way you can at gofund.me/b874...
I am on disability but it's still hard. Not to mention my wife works hard and my contribution to her is very limited. I do the best I can but