dropping out of high school (speedpaint storytime)

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[@syrup5868]

This story inspires me to stop dropping out

[@KrispyKitty66]

stop dropping out or not drop out?

[@aartistanimations5766]

@@KrispyKitty66 maybe they mean stop skipping class?

[@syrup5868]

@@aartistanimations5766 yup

[@wilmotskylar]

400th like and WHAT THE-

[@user-me8fm5yf4n]

401 like ;)

[@aslan.c0m]

Dollieguts “My grade were ok… I got A’s and B’s” Me “WHAT THE FRICK I GOT A C WOO”

[@dragoncloud6870]

Hey fellow pusheen

[@nonspecificnonsense6780]

*me, only getting Ds and Fs:* ahaha..

[@SpittFiire]

weirdly enough as soon as I stopped caring about grades they started to increase.

[@MsDj03]

@@SpittFiire same

[@austrakarklina818]

Hah same.(sorry for the rant in the next part, I need to get this off my chest.) I used to be a straight a+ student and always took the most difficult classes, and then depression came and made me stop doing anything and I suddenly was a d student. I finished off the year with a c but my parents are still yelling at me for it.

[@melonmaiden2305]

Just goes to show school really isn't for everyone

[@user-me8fm5yf4n]

Melon Maiden yea

[@sa1em296]

To be honest, Your voice is so calming.

[@user-me8fm5yf4n]

Sa1em ikr she sounds like poppy

[@thatonepersonyouknowtheone7781]

it really is

[@starshames]

I was diagnosed with social anxiety in kindergarten, and have had steady therapy and treatment since then, but I still do have problems. I think you're strong for being able to get through with what you did and didn't have available for you at the time. You pushed through and got your GED, and you're going through your classes and seem to be really hardworking, even trying to land a few jobs. So seriously, good on you for that, I honestly wish I could get myself to do things and motivate myself

[@lucilovette5030]

I like your art, particularly that it seems to make you happy. I realized recently that I want happy with my art, ( I tried a lot of realistic pieces and got decent at it imo ) but after I realized why I wasn't drawing as good or as often I tried stylized art and fell in LOVE. I really like how you draw the hair in particular

[@anintruder4491]

I have social anxiety. I was diagnosed with it when I was about 5(just after prep). I still can't handle talking to people, and I usually feel uncomfortable when near someone I don't know too well.

[@number1kevinmacleodlistener]

Haha same, since 7th grade I've had these panic attacks where i would end up crying before i even got into the school. My anxiety/stress has gotten worse from then, I hope it will get better. And im glad you got help💖

[@heccuspeccus5638]

Man i wouldnt be able to drop out even if i needed too.... my mom would get reaL angry My mom also thinks mental disorders like anxiety and depression arent real and people need to “stop it”

[@nataliahall236]

dont drop out. please.

[@PP-hw1wt]

Poloroid Picturre agreed

[@spookyspider2820]

Heccus Peccus my dad thinks depression isn’t real. I think he wouldn’t think other things were real if my little brother wasn’t autistic along with other things. He’s not a jerk though I love him.

[@Sinc3r3ly]

Well you do want to stop them however you need therapy

[@pineapplesio]

@@Sinc3r3ly I've taken therapy it never helped so I'm a middle school drop out rn

[@florentina65]

I dropped out of elementary school, never regretted it 😤✊️

[@creepwatch6453]

you can drop out of elementary?

[@mybad44]

I didn't know that was legal

[@paperflowerspurplesky]

I'm pretty sure it's just a joke 😂

[@Honeyvanityy]

@@paperflowerspurplesky you can drop out to be homeschooled. If you stop being homeschooled it's considered a drop out

[@deercake3699]

THIS ISNT BIT LIFE

[@toomuchisntenough3581]

Good for you. Always glad to hear that its getting better! Good luck in college !

[@frozenfruit1500]

Tbh I don’t really talk to anyone at school either. During lunch, I kinda just chill in the bathroom.

[@joellelieb6899]

Your voice isn’t as monotone as the video where you talked about it

[@Gaxriel]

Maybe it's because she felt sorry when she was recording because of this Unfortunately I know it's a sad hypothesis ;w;

[@stoobergingerbell1441]

True

[@raintuna3232]

compared to one of her first videos where she talks from 9 months ago you (at least i) can barely tell her voice sounds 'monotone' but as you go through her vids it becomes more clear

[@joellelieb6899]

Nie maybe omg

[@hyperfujis]

v o i c e f a k i n g

[@rawrdotcom]

Your voice actually doesn't sound monotone at ALL in this video. I'm proud of you :)

[@user-me8fm5yf4n]

Kyung Mi Choi yeah it’s pretty cool that she could control it

[@hndough]

@@user-me8fm5yf4n ***they****

[@nevadash]

​@@user-me8fm5yf4n?

[@depressedwaffle7004]

Damn i started skipping elementary school and am now working with ALOT of social workers/other stuff. So glad i'm not alone..

[@shortcxke]

i love your videos, your voice is especially soothing i'm also in college but a freshman rn c: i'd love more videos about college n your experience n stuff!

[@annaschneider225]

I'm taking a ged class too! I also dropped out because of anxiety and stress. I only dropped out for my senior year and people were really confused and some mad at me for "quitting so close". But I dont regret it at all. Glad you're okay too.

[@wummyworm]

i dropped out of hs and then college due to my mental and chronic physical illnesses, nd i'm a lab tech ! i did vocational school certifications instead of college (for now)... i'm a medical professional without degree school, it's not the end of the world!

[@Chunkiestlettuces]

I was in a similar situation and the best thing to do is to ask for help There are 1000s of kids (give or take) in your school and you’re not alone they are there to help I was skipping for weeks at a time and I was just getting worse, so I asked the school They got me into a program which was outside school but was still classified as “school” It was amazing! It was the first time in ages that I felt safe and happy. They worked with me on dealing with my anxiety and I made lifelong friendships with my peers (there was only around 7). They saved my life and I will never stop recommending this. If one thing doesn’t work, keep trying I promise that you will find your place and I hope you enjoy it as much as I enjoyed mine.

[@Mary-qk2rw]

I basically dropped out because of severe anxiety aswell. I'm going to take high school online now. It's very comforting to know that I'm not alone and that college will be better

[@bloodangelsheart]

Ohmygosh!! Ive been following you everywhere and had no idea you did youtube! Love your art and I'm glad your in a better place now

[@witcchy9392]

I dropped out of junior year recently. I constantly skipped school and i ended up skipping for a whole 2 weeks when my parents finally found out. My school promised so much for me like home school and sending me work while i go to a "school" specialized in mental health. Well none of that ever happened. They never sent work or teachers to my house and for a whole month they forgot about me and i was left in the dust. Then suddenly they wanted me to go back to school and i was so behind and got none of the help i needed that they gave me no choice but to drop out. Im 17 i dont have my license or even my permit, no job and no high school education. It feels impossible for me to get a job right now. I plan on getting my GED but i just keep pushing it back... im so nervous. This gives me some sort of hope knowing that im not alone. Ill push myself harder

[@tungstentitan]

im actually thinking abt dropping out of highschool rn and getting my ged- howd it go for u since u posted that 3 yrs ago?

[@dawn_pancake]

I also have social anxiety, though it’s minor, it’s still something. Good to know you’re getting better! ^^

[@blessyou1269]

bruh.... i dropped out as well, this is the exact same thing that happened to me, but i only went to one school, i skipped so often that i was forced to leave.. i regret it though because I've forgotten a lot, i don't think i'm going to be able to get into college.... i can't even do basic maths... i'm good at English though, at least my tutor says so...

[@motehz]

I'm glad you've gotten better!

[@Junosol543]

Hey, I’ve been admiring your art for a few years now and I absolutely love it and your content! I find that you are relatable and that I watch your videos when I need to calm down and I study your art style and colors a lot as I develop my own cartoon-chibi type style (I forgot the words lol) but yeah! I love your art and listening to your videos

[@ratkingmakesart]

I love ur voice it’s very calm and nice to listen to unlike a lot of people :7

[@loser6972]

I have the same anxiety, though I’m not in high school on the first day I just sat and cried until it was over I haven’t been to school since, I mostly just do homeschool.

[@soup8110]

your videos are so perfect to play while drawing or doing work. your voice is so relaxing v,v

[@CartoonKayla]

in austraila you MUST go to school until grade 10! so basicly 3/5 people leave and don’t come back. i think it’s a good choice cause your doing the things you enjoy and working on things you WILL use in real life, like drawing a bunch and improving for you career ( adleast for me )

[@CandyPawz]

I can relate to this a bit and I've been happier ever since I switched to homeschool A public school environment has never been good for me and there's been some grades that I skipped/didnt do the work all year because I was so mentally miserable I had a hard time even doing things like getting up in the morning

[@gen7122]

lemme just say something entirely not related to the topic of this video, but your art style is so adorable, like what the hek i think im in love

[@_peppoco_]

Adorable drawing

[@amber5522]

Me: About to think something about you My brain: *So she I MEAN THEY*

[@amber5522]

@a username if u don't know they are genderless :)

[@sussybaka6850]

I love the way you draw hair 💕

[@nabilamiah3814]

Dropped out of nursery school, never looked back ✊🏼

[@xzeebring7614]

I got social anxiety at 4th grade its horrible for me bug im glad someone i watch had it too :3 .

[@scootsoot8692]

I really love your voice its really unique!

[@dykula5017]

this resonates with me a lot lol. also got issues with depression mostly (diagnosed) at around 14-15 and my grades suffered accordingly. school was a very messed up enviroment and no one did anything so like. what did ppl expect.. but yeah somehow also got my license to study (is different where im from) after getting somewhat functioning again thanks to therapy and have to agree so much college/life after school is much less awful than regular school. they rlly do not care at all for teens who are obviously very troubled like,.... looking back it was so so obvious how awful i felt but it wasnt clear to myself because i just thought it was normal???? ? so yeah sry for the rant but basically @ everyone who can relate to a degree just wait til school is over hang in there it is much less draining and stuff but dont think it will solve all your problems obviously..

[@shush9071]

Haven't watched the video yet but I'm still excited! :D

[@monique4584]

This is exactly what happened to me, I’m homeschooled now.

[@azraeltarquin7946]

I don't know if your college does but most have a consoling center free to students. I would recommend starting there if you can't get medical attention elswhere

[@annemarieraneri3673]

This tells me to never drop out

[@levi3497]

I'm actually thinking about dropping out right now. I'm a junior right now and i have pretty crappy social anxiety. But... My family wants me to graduate. So, I think I'm gonna do online schooling, I'm hoping that it will help me. I'm not really shooting for the stars or anything, so I am probably going to a community college. And hopefully, just maybe, I can help myself personally a little.

[@charlieburns4045]

Your voice is amazing. I love it

[@YOURWRAITH]

They more you listen to her voice the more normal it becomes to you. Just like when you meet a person with a new accent it’s strange at first but after hearing it for a while it becomes normal. She’s not faking why would she?

[@manticoregalaxy4539]

I wish my parents would let me drop out. Ive been bullied all my high school years, but least for the past 2 years there hasn’t been a lot. School is definitely not a thing i enjoy a lot. Anyway, love your video, love your voice and wish you the best for everything

[@creepywaffles4783]

My anxiety has been like this since kindergarten I am always nauseous and I have depression and I take meds but I’m often sick and my friends pester me about it and they say that it’s just a small stomach ache and to be ok but it’s not and I just wanna have friends but I can’t I’m often told to be social by friends and I can’t really focus anymore and my grades stared depleting and that makes it worse

[@annalees.8073]

Im new to your videos, your very underrated! Iove your art!

[@paolapaola9919]

I honestly have general anxiety and I am pretty anxious about talking to people and protest to others my rights in general. There's been times when I try my best to say what I think and then I notice that that probably wasn't the best way to say it and people just shut me up in a really pasive aggresive way. So I kind of started to shut myself up to not make mistakes and for people not to dislike me in general. I kind of just wait for them to talk to me. Plus it happens sometimes that I want to talk to someone and I kind of just stare at them for a while trying to think of something to talk to them and I allways end up staring and them for too long to the point I kind of feel like I creep them out. There's been times when I feel like people don't really want to talk to me and just try theri best to fake they are listening. I also don't text that much to my classmates, I only text with like, one of the really. And with I or 2 frends. Despite I allways like I am being annoying. I am in High Scool btw. Anyone with the same or similar situation?

[@paolapaola9919]

@@partypoltergeist In my case I have "friends" and I will actualy like to have more friends, but tje problem is. I don't know how to make more firends, at least not anymore. But I do feel like that, Also thanks por your sharing your comment, I hope you get new true friends one day ♡

[@bqtter435]

You’re honestly doing so well with your voice expression I hope this isn’t offensive but great job

[@sleepybeagle25]

A lot of people be talking about “is she faking her voice” and I’m just thinking, I love her voice, I don’t care if she’s faking it or not (I don’t think she is doe, it would have no reason behind why)

[@sleepybeagle25]

mariarzyt oh it’s was in the highest liked comment in this video. I already knew it was because of her health reasons, I’m just saying I love her voice personally. I think monotone voices are so calming and nice and sweet.

[@mariarzyt_3D]

@@sleepybeagle25 aaa okay, I also think her voice sounds pretty nice. And those who complain can just speed up the vid to 1,25x, with that speed you notice that her voice isn't really monotonous, but her pitch ranges, it's just very slow. Don't know why people complain, she speaks clearly

[@MsDj03]

Your college sounds nice..

[@Dinklenutts]

You have that type of voice where when you do storytimes it's calming and nice. If you know what I mean 😂♥️ ( read your channel desc 🧀)

[@mista4life849]

I wanna drop out of school i have alot of reasons for why it's not for me but it's illegal here hopefully i'll drop out when i get to high school / things get better

[@PixelP0Rn27]

Her voice is so cool

[@abby_flowertale7802]

Dont listen to the jackass comments.u are a wonderful person and honestly I am happy u are doing good.

[@MarsMakes]

I have social anxiety and its causing me to miss a lot of school and im glad someone has gone through the same thing as me :')

[@stupidwitch748]

dropout gang

[@taral5856]

I currently am in high school and I was diagnosed with social anxiety about 8 months ago and I was thinking on dropping out for the same reasons. Now, would you say that it was worth it because everyone is forcing me to stay in school because "you won't get a job if you left school"?

[@claudiawes1484]

Your voice is getting better 👍

[@OuterSpace1204]

Love the video and art!

[@Mariebun]

Your voice it so Pretty!

[@cctinsley67]

Her voice sounds almost exactly like mine its freaking me out

[@TheGummybearunicorn]

college gang rise up

[@tyroneajj4985]

I think online school would be a good option

[@caprisunsess1753]

How th do you draw like that!?!? That's amazing!!!! My drawings are terrible!!!

[@caprisunsess1753]

Thanks for the tip, I'll keep it in mind! :)

[@dangdiddlydarnit5806]

Imma be real with you chief I'm planning to be a highschool drop out, In only in middle school right now but it feels like im not doing very good and i feel like school wont be for me, I feel like id drop out in grade 11 My plan is to become a youtuber yenno? So i can earn money and have fun doing it, It wouldnt be a wise choice if i dont actually become popular but yenno?its worth a try. Im planning to start my career in grade 9 or 10. I'll most likely do animation and gaming videos. I hope it'll work out for me.

[@user-vw4xp5nt9f]

It is EXTREMELY SUPER HARD to earn a living off KZbin. You should at least try to get a high school degree, because if you don't have one you will literally have no job options :(

[@hawkblood_art]

This is one of the worst things you could do ngl. At least try to get a proper degree. Otherwise relying purely on online presence for an income is already pretty risky. You will end up miserable with no job and income if that plan doesn't work out which is likely to be the case

[@dinofeino1811]

What pen settings do you use may I ask?

[@b8c6_]

Omg this is literally me right now.

[@spoodermon9438]

Oh..... i guess we have the same problem

[@lollicatanimated8326]

Finally I’m early! *does weird scream*

[@mowa3145]

me who hasnt gone to school in 2 weeks: ,,,,,

[@bumblewillow6898]

waits for someone to mention the video where she explained her "monotone voice" was uploaded 3 months after this video

[@MrDuLac]

Everyone has anxiety through high school. Lol no one wants to work in retail.

[@Mrowmeowmew]

Not everyone. An being diagnosed with anxiety is different than just generalized anxiety

[@ayeshamccargo315]

I like your voice :3

[@DummyDarling]

Whates a good way to study

[@yourlocal_drawerrrrrr]

i wanna drop out of school but 'm only 14 TWT

[@fartinfpooping8801]

I don't think it's a good idea to should drop out simply because you want to... 😅

[@unorthodoxic4691]

Don't. Unless you want finding a good paying job to be practically impossible, you should keep tryin.

[@takumiZI2]

< - - - - new subscriber

[@mirelcicko]

Yeah and you did horrible stuff in high school, we heard it all.

[@VintageSucculent]

Half of that was bullshit watch the video by ponder please it’s called “chimarma and DolleGutz Drama” it talks about the misinfo people spread about them

[@crunopa9449]

wtf ur that girl that got kicked from a server for promoting self harm HAHA

[@IKnowThatFeelBr0]

Spill it, mate. We gotta know

[@crunopa9449]

Zachiekat X i don’t know the whole story but there was this crew of artists and stuff who worked on a project (not giving details cause it’s pretty embarrassing) and she got kicked for promoting self harm

[@crunopa9449]

Lex oh sorry i thought if she used they/them pronouns she would therefore be a girl omg thank you

[@dahgurr4833]

wait, they still romanticize/promote self harm??? why am i not surprised.

[@kxfright]

You’re voice sound normal did you seriously just lie to us

[@hexogramd8430]

Rose dust she sounds montone here. Re listen. There isn’t much emotion behind any of her words. She sounds like she’s saying everything in the same pitch, and when she does try to express emotions sounds shaky and stilted. If I had to guess she’s forcing it here, and poorly.

[@marcosaraujo9554]

please do a face reveal

[@sdgetbyb44q3]

why are you tracing

[@reap3514]

pokuio it’s their art lol

[@Dinklenutts]

Tracing there art ;------;