Don’t look up to me.

[@AramiKasih]

Shit. This is good. I need it... "Fix what i can, adapt what i can't" and "Even broken crayons still color the same" 😢

[@danamangruen1486]

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[@mandattje]

What a wise man. I know what you mean. We will get there one day. Absolutely will be. You're worth it. ❤

[@RoarBears0624]

Even broken crayons still color the same. Brought me to tears, this is just beautiful.

[@jasmine.lavender]

Kai, as someone who has spent about half of their life in hospital I can tell you that student and first year nurses are my favourite. You’re earnest and willing to learn and kind; and even when my cannula is being changed and I’m bleeding everywhere because of blood thinners and the nurse didn’t get the Band-Aid on quick enough, I still love you guys. I’ve had nurses bring their students to me to ask if they can do a certain procedure because they need to do X amount to be proficient in it. I’ve had a lot of bruises and missed veins and even shocked young male nurses (back when I was in my 20s) walking into the bathroom to see me topless and stuck with my hands in the air and my shirt tangled in my IV line and machine (“Would … would your prefer I get a female nurse?” Me: “No thanks, just need to getting untangled” meanwhile my boobs are just staring him right in the face, poor guy). You guys are the ones that care the MOST. The ones who have been nursing for years might be quicker or more proficient or able to recognise that something that seems innocent is a sign of deterioration … but they’re usually more stuck in their way and tend to be less caring and more about structure. I know nurses are understaffed and underpaid and under appreciated by the higher ups, but just know that it’s YOU that makes the difference in your patients life. Even your smile could make the crankiest of patients happier (even if it is internally). Besides, how are we supposed to learn if we don’t make ‘mistakes’? You live and you learn. You’ve got this. We’re all cheering you on. Thank you for being so open and honest with us. It helps those of us who feel the same feel a little less alone. Sending you love from Australia 🐨

[@KongmengVang95]

Love this monologue! Kai, thanks for sharing so much of yourself with your viewers. It's very admirable thay you're able to be vulnerable in this monologue. Keep doing you, Kai! You're already a great nurse because your heart is in the right place. Don't quit now!

[@awkwardgeek7872]

I understand. It's hard to keep reassuring yourself too with " I did my best and that's enough and okay" and equally hard to constantly find ways to reapprove that from your surroundings. I have been slow too and do more than others for an average result. Its tiring but I think people like us are some of the most hopeful people I have met who don't fail to try hard in anything and are generous in love and understanding. That's not compensation I know ,but please do remember that❤

[@user-lu2ge7st6b]

You got this! It's fine, nursing isn't easy and it consistently changes.. it's about your attitude and be you. You're human

[@ilikkorea]

Thank you for this, I’m exactly the same way but as I get older I’m starting to realize that mistakes happen and the only way you can learn is going through it and how to deal with it in your way. There will never be a person who can make you really happy except you loving yourself and allowing to learn all the time! Don’t be hard on yourself we all love you🩷 and I know you got this! Just takes time. That’s what life is all about time. Love you always 🩷

[@Bellavimedia]

Aren't we all You speak to me . ❤. love your posts. Thanks for being so real . I resonate with all you say

[@AnnaliseHanesley]

These things just make you even more unique and special ❤

[@deepashreeroydutta8865]

That's why we look up to u, cause we r all humans and we learn from our mistakes

[@portia2406]

Seeing posts like this helps me so much with my mental health tbh cuz I feel like I'm not alone in this....yup I'm struggling rn a bit, actually a lot with my huge syllabus,final exams coming,and going thru a sem rn where I'm literally failing n humiliating myself at the vivas...1st yr of med has been insane for me,i feel like I've lost so much of time to adjusting n learning to this new thing and now there's family n peer pressure to deal with on top of the fact that I am friendless kinda cuz all i feel like is an outcast n the kid who literally sucks at studies....all in all,it's hard n i know it's nothing compared to what hardships r in store for me in the future but rn I am going thru them n it feels kinda like I'm in this alone sometimes...today i journaled abt how i can navigate this n end up giving a good finals n then what do I plan on doing in my free time...that made me feel so much better....reminder. to take time for urself is worth it when u need it,I did that n now I'm feeling much better...n taking baby steps ...this is enough if that's all we can do for today.

[@Marissaphi]

I know exactly how you feel, I have a disability and I always needed help and I make lots of mistakes as well while I'm at work or at home. Sometimes, I'd wish that I would be a normal person as well. Kai, you are not alone in this type of struggle. I hope that you will find a way to heal.

[@myazalea07]

True 💯%... Everyday is a continuous process of learning.. Don't be afraid of mistakes. It makes you a better person than yesterday. ❤

[@chasingdreams24]

I've felt like this my whole life until I got diagnosed with adhd at the age of 26. Now I'm learning I just need to go about things differently bc I learn different. There's loterally nothing wrong with it. If the way society is telling you to be doesn't work then maybe look deeper. Some therapy etc. too could help! I know I was EXHAUSTED daily just doing simple things and as an adult I still am switching careers up to find something that makes me happy but there's NOTHING wrong that.

[@xyriusd832]

The fact that you made it to being a nurse says a lot! We all learn different and truthfully it takes mistakes to learn from them and be better! I learned that in my last job. Mistakes were literally my lessons. Took me more than a year to finally be comfortable and feel like I knew exactly what I was doing.

[@ems_2024]

First-time commenter on your videos.... I really love your vulnerability here. Remember, our struggles are what shape us and help us grow! You're doing great ❤

[@sharmilabohoraa]

You are really the one who always motivate me... cause iam also a nursing student who always do a lot of mistakes...I cried so many times... sometimes wants to give up...but I must do for my family....

[@lilianpoon5580]

Mistakes means you are human 😊 Dun be so hard on urself

[@donnavillegas5539]

encapsulates this spirit of resilience, reminding us that even when we're bruised and battered by life's trials, we possess the capacity to continue making a positive impact❤ hugs to you !

[@sharilltaj2690]

That was flawlessly executed. love it and love you man

[@oishikhan9633]

This had me burst into tears...thanks for your words. I really needed it. You're definitely worth looking up to.

[@Aurealis0]

The part about the story not being over, completely agree. I always belittled myself and thought little of myself, always has been a bad habit of mine. Then my boyfriend passed away unexpectedly in December, his story was forced to finish, but mine is still going. It’s been hard but I’ve been learning to treat myself better, so I can see myself the way he saw me.

[@piyaja2588]

But your smile is so beautiful and I hope nothing takes away your beautiful smile ❤

[@louiseclarkashburn6664]

I was a radiation therapist for umpty-ump years. But it was HARD getting to where the right actions came naturally. If you screw up, it keeps you humble and makes you try harder. As long as you don’t quit, you will be a better nurse because of these trials. You can do it! And one day you will be the mentor for someone else who feels the way you do now. None of these lessons will be wasted!

[@sanfree1513]

You said it, “ I’ll get better!!” Yes you will, self reflection is your strength and moving forward is your second strength!! That’s life! You got it!!! 💜🫰🏽💜

[@michelechan4150]

started tearing up 😭 thank you i needed this

[@TheKindnessChronicles247]

You’re amazing! You were created in his image. Always know his plan is perfect. Ask him for guidance, he will never let you down. 🙏🏼♥️💪🏼🤗✝️🙌🏼🕊️🎉💯🙏🏼

[@K-PopAddict13]

I love this song. Amazing choice. This comes from the heart.

[@Senatria143]

You speak my mind..regardless everything,of you I still like who you really are.❤

[@user-wm7bb5fo1s]

You sound like a pro at giving inspiration and great advice. Keep going and don’t give up. It’s like that as a new grad. Pretty soon it becomes second nature being a nurse in their surroundings.

[@Maleyathequeen]

I’m here for you never give up pls ❤ even if you feel like it

[@chrislockwood1476]

Kiddo please don't beat yourself up. Stay strong and keep up the fight look how far you've gotten. We all make mistakes, we learn from them and it makes us stronger. Your story is a long way from ending. You are and always will be amazing.

[@nailahcoetzee2736]

❤❤Truth..... Just keep moving forward.. You're brave.... I'm proud of you..... Sending you hugs

[@meganplaylist4460]

Too late! Kai, I am exactly the same way. I never thought I would ever see someone going through what I feel sometimes which is making mistakes and then feeling lost or not able to fix them. I'm the queen from another place who messes things up! But hey! It's okay! Your mental health may be struggling but I think you are amazing! Who cares if youre slow! So many of are (including me!) I struggled so much in school! I'm learning so slowly and still struggling now! Who cares if you needed extra help on tests so did I! If it helps it helps! You are new at being a nurse too! If those new nurses aren't making those little mistakes then they aren't learning and getting better! So keep pushing Kai! We love you! I love who you are too! So I will continue to flip my pages and struggle if you do too! And I'll continue to look up to you! You're just a role model to me I don't care if you want approval I'll give you both non approval and approval! So I will continue to look up to you because everything is worth it and your amazing don't doubt yourself! So I'll be staying here to look up to you and give you positivity because your mental health and yourself matter! ❤❤

[@guapojoey]

Brother I feel you 100% but we gotta keep on goin giving up is never a option

[@frankieshineiv2141]

YAAS Kai keep going LOVE YOU!!!!!! I want you to know personally as a teenage boy and outsider in a small town, I look up to you because you have so many amazing qualities+beneficial habits, and the dream lifestyle, I want. You're an amazing person and I feel greatly represented through you every time I watch your videos. Keep fighting and going at your own pace bro💛

[@kpoplover_noémie]

Why the heck does a nurse have such a beautiful way with words 😭😭 I need some lessons

[@Sandwich66133]

Crazy is that , you're truly an inspiration to me ...and ily

[@Anxxi888]

May you keep smiling like that forever.

[@Sisima13]

Sounds like someone we should look up to regardless 🤩

[@lucylock5892]

Just relax. You don't need approval from anyone and your career is just starting so mistakes will happen. You are in the learning and experiencing stage in life, not just in your career but just in life. That's the way it should be in your 20s and 30s. In your early 40s you'll figure it all out through trials and tribulations. In time you will know what you enjoy doing and making that your life long career and by then, you will also figure out where and how you want to live, if you want to start a family or not, buy a house or not, who you want in your life and who you don't. In the meantime, enjoy life and continue to be true to yourself. 😊

[@user-ms9ku3ut5w]

Your not alone I struggle the same as you were here for you you such a wise man and you are very lt❤

[@its_meeehearts]

that made me cry thats so sweet 😭😭

[@kaymillar6686]

Kai I have always said to junior nurses if any nurse tells you they haven’t made mistakes at work they are lying and if they genuinely think they have not after a couple of years qualified then that’s dangerous. We all make mistakes but you learn great lessons from each one.

[@hazelwitherspoon2721]

Kai, I have been and will continue to pray for you as you navigate failing forward.

[@ForeverSunshine-cv5fk]

Your smile is everything just smile and move on you are not alone and we love you

[@itsherdiary_infinity]

Thank you for this 🥺 Seriously I teared up watching this This is soo true about me ❤ I felt like my aura was talking to me Thank you for making me feel that I'm not alone in this loop ❤

[@heidievans5709]

From one new grad RN to another - we got this. Mistakes are gonna happen. Just forgive yourself for them, learn from them, and when going into a shift... "let go, let God". Gotta let him worry about the stuff we can't control and just try to do our best.

[@PatronSaintOfWitchFaeAndDemon]

Just remember the first year of your nursing job is the last year of nursing school. It’s applying everything you learned. And it starts back over with each department change. You’re not supposed to be good at anything on the first try. Everything takes practice and time. So, like you said, work on the things you can control, let go of the things you can’t, and learn from your mistakes. That’s definitely worthy of looking up to. Keep your head up! 💚

[@MinoshkaDominguez-hw5ww]

Awwww noooo never think any less of yourself you are a beautiful human being and you are definitely someone to look up too. Just cause you mess up does not mean you're not a good example for people!!! not everyone learns at the same pace. It's ok to be a slow learner as a matter of fact it is better because then you'll understand everything correctly even if you make mistakes that's fine because to learn something and become better you need to make mistakes no one is perfect and no one will ever be perfect so never look down at yourself. You got this and just keep your head up because you could do it and I believe in you dont bring yourself down and another thing it's ok to look over at someone to ask for approval that's not a bad thing but always remember that not everyone opinions matter and sometimes they don't help as much as your own opinion. Remember you are loved and always cared for and I hope everything gets better for you. ❤

[@diannemoore1123]

Just be yourself and keep doing what you're doing. We are all imperfect creatures and we all make mistakes. ❤❤❤

[@aboogiewahoodie]

You're not losing as long as you're trying. Remember that

[@Fienly0109]

Embrace all your mistake and don’t try to fit in. you already fit in yourself so just be…❤you’re beautiful.

[@FurEverFriend8699]

you are awesome believe me ❤ hope that you will not be too stressful or depressed.

[@SelenaMarie.]

Hello, Kai… I can feel your heart… 😭 Just know how much we luv you && God loves you too… Regardless, with how many times the crayons break… Love wins it all… that would never change… ILYSM, bestie!! 🥰🤗

[@Trins_world]

You got this❤ I want to be a nurse one day!❤❤

[@tomia860]

Don't think you should tell others not to look up to you. Your failures could help others avoid similar mistakes. Besides, failures are a part of a great succes story! So don't sweat it, rather reinforce the learnings from your failure so the same mistakes aren't repeated. You got this!!

[@R.M-mq5bc]

Do not adapt and change yourself for anything. You are the best person I have seen so far, because every time I watch your videos, I smile and feel happy❤.

[@BluSteel-9379]

You are a new nurse. You'll find your groove with time. Be easier on yourself. You got this. Take your time, ask questions if you are unsure. (A small pocket notebook can come in handy, for quick notes of those answers you'll need for future reference. Just breathe, do your best, and you'll find your way.

[@user-jn6je3nu2n]

Is ok as long as you don’t mess up anymore you’ll be strong, man, beautiful and not lonely

[@linalicious415]

❤ This was SO BEAUTIFUL & RELATABLE ❤

[@betaaquarii9155]

Your life is always trying to teach you something. When life is hard, it's teaching you what is broken. It's trying to wake you up. When life is good, it's teaching you what's working, what you need more of. There is always a lesson, a connection, a redirection, or an opportunity for growth. Pay attention! Even the people who look like they have it all together…. In reality No one knows what they're doing. Stop beating yourself up. Treat yourself with kindness and your life will change from the inside out.

[@saramcdorman2888]

Trust me, a LOT of us old nurses love our new grads ❤️ You remind us not to be jaded and why we became nurses to begin with. You’ll get there 😊 give yourself grace and treat yourself with kindness.

[@kristykohn1]

I love this ❤and you are amazing. Sending you Love and Sunshine Always ☀️ ❤

[@pallavibhosale1030]

The award of become a beautiful smile in others life.... Goes to you.. ❤😊🥰😇🤩

[@dianavega664]

I look up to you I’m a kid I learn from people like you and I’m not embarrassed by it I cry every night at a young age reminds myself of how many times I have been fucking up my life like it’s fucking written on my door “do not enter” I get it your worried I keep fucking up and idk how it express my emotions tho I keep trying bc of people like you it’s not my family that makes me wanna keep going it’s not friends it’s Jesus ok I’ll admit my family kinda helps but Jesus and people like you help me a lot I know god created us all like this for a reason but no matter how hard I try I keep fucking up Ive lost count of how many times I’ve thought and have cut myself idk what’s wrong thankfully I stopped the habit of cutting I just want you to know your a inspiration to me and 1.19 million of more people Ty for everything

[@andreatan7258]

All u can do is keep moving forward & taking one step at a time. At the end of the day, u do what u need to do for you whether if it is for happiness or security or both.. u do u.

[@juanitanjopse506]

So me but what matters is that we keep pushing everyday to be a better version of ourselves each day

[@clarymatos4607]

Dearest tormented life student be compassionate with yourself. You’re just starting practice makes perfection. Give yourself some patience. In due time it will all teach you to do better. GBU

[@grbapkr]

You should be looked up to. You have so many accomplishments that you should be proud of. Embrace who you have become and the journey you are on. If it's not the right fit then change it you have so many options. Don't ever doubt yourself. Look back at how far you have come!! ❤❤❤❤

[@shine6861]

Wow u r so good and wise I just love seeing ur videos

[@limogesceline]

The point is you don't give up and keep trying.... This is a valuable trait. And you slay while doing it which is a big plus.

[@Deathnote-k]

Nobody’s perfect! We all make mistakes and we can fix them!!❤️🌹

[@pauluzu5395]

Если человек ошибается, это значит, что он что-то делает Человек, который не ошибается, не делает Ничего ✌😌

[@user-gz5ct4vl4o]

What you said was pretty sad but at the end made me cry because it is so freaking true and I've always messed up I have made so many mistakes my whole life all 15 years I mean I am 15 years old but I've made so many mistakes that I feel very guilty about and when you say don't look up to you I should look up to you there's people that do look up to you by the way and I am a slow learner too you aren't the only one and it's okay but not okay I mean it messes up with your head but at the end I'll be okay❤❤❤❤❤😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊 it's all worth it I mean😢😢😢😢 everybody makes mistakes and it's bad to make mistakes but it's also a good thing to make mistakes. I can't say though I really hope it gets better for you and everybody who has the same problem as you and stuff like that so to everybody who reads this I am sorry but just to let you know it's going to be okay it will get better I promise❤😊

[@user-ov9yd8no6x]

never give up man keep going

[@Musty.Monster]

Just be happy when times are bad try your hardest to push and I know it’s hard but just keep going I believe in you😊

[@MaggieMeyers-mp5ii]

but i do look up to you bc of ur mistakes and how u over come them, keep up the good work! and ily so much

[@Ally-lvs-u]

I wish I could think the way you did I’m so selfish of myself and mess everything up and when I heard these words I was inspired by the way you think positively about yourself even though you mess up many times I’m going to 6th grade this year and last school year I was getting bad grades in school bad grades for me are C’s and lower and It was the first time I ever got bad grades and everyone else were looking up to me and I felt empty and used but you inspired me to always learn from my past mistakes that Made me very miserable

[@linexp274]

Your awesome keep up the good work! ❤️

[@shlapplgt]

I'm a slow learner to i have to have help with learning it's okay it's just one of are special things about us❤😊😊

[@Kai_sister]

I look up to you. Idc what you tell me! You’re my idol cause you can actually notice these mistakes and mishaps. You can learn to change yourself when most cant. You’re awesome. Always remember that 💞👍🏼

[@ava_ava909]

bro needs to write a book. i would buy it x10

[@kyutie36]

Always think positive! Do your best that's all that matters..nobody's perfect we all make mistakes. We learn from it. There is always a light at the end of the tunnel. Take care ❤

[@Skystarler12]

I'd look up to you because despite all that, your strong, your caring, your loving, ALOT of people would not be able to do that, ALOT of people just start drinking and Poppin pills, so people should look up to you,I know I do ❤❤

[@IvyanaHeight]

YOU ARE FREAKING INSPIRING‼️

[@ankitaverma82]

This feels relatable.

[@nerissaopina5145]

Mistake is the best teacher thats what other said because if you did mistakes you learned from it and you become stronger so next time you will face all the sequences of what you did of course you will need God because he is the one who guided us from our every day life so have faith in God and the true God name JEHOVAH HE will teach you the right way so you dont commit mistakes.

[@Fana-wm3bg]

Keep going and thanks for your words , it's kind of a push for others who face the similar situations..... broken crayons colour as brillant as normal ones❤❤

[@CloudyxMarshmallow]

Life is about making mistakes without them we would never be able to turn the next page nor learn

[@byanitasusilo]

Stil...i'm curious and glad if i watch your vids..lav uuuu..be brave and be yourself that i adored you!❤

[@AllTheStarsAreWatching]

Let me tell you something this is what I call..the... Perfect life 1:be urself 2-YOU❤ 3:ur personality ❤ And guess what I'm crazy more than anyone trust me In the end I'm still happy for being myself and let me tell you that you literally make my day you're kind of my lucky charm play watch your videos every time I'm sad or if I want to watch KZbin like literally you're really making me lucky a few days ago I was watching your videos than my mom came and told me we're going on vacation and today is the day of the vacation I'm going on that vacation because of you believe in yourself always❤...

[@sherlyv.h8497]

Hey bro, I'm a teenager with your same promblems now am in 11 grade in science i have a lot to study all the time i make many mistakes in my exams and in my life. All our mistakes making us an experienced person. . i had done many mistakes in my life i dont even like to remember it all the mistakes help me do right things or for don't mistaken anymore in that such thing. All the mistakes in our lfe lead to good❤

[@momsspaghetti-sd9sn]

Mistakes are normal!All humans make mistakes and the mistakes can make into a better person!!No matter how many mistakes you make please don't give up !!

[@Jayden-mi9hb]

I promise i am still in a place where i fuck up and it ends up saving my life just keep being you and dont let anyone else say otherwise

[@wenonahjudge2827]

Power on Kai. Rooting for you.

[@sadeepadilshan1543]

All the best buddy ❤

[@Kelsie-n7z]

Remember mistakes are the path to success just Remember we are all worth something every one of us!😁

[@KyleJones_TN]

New to your channel. Thanks for your journey.