Draw My Life | Emma WhispersRed | ASMR

[@WhispersRedASMR]

I'm not really sure what to say here! Other than I hope that at least one person gains something positive from my life experiences. This video kind of signifies a closing of a chapter and the start of a new for me. I hope you can join me on the next leg of the journey. The story I promised to tell a long time ago is at the end. If you can make it that far, here is your medal! 🥇 with love, what else is there? XX Emma XX

[@lanebreakerRBH]

WhispersRed ASMR I feel sad knowing you've experienced similar to me growing up. But nice that I feel like I have a bond with you because of it. I wouldnt wish this kind of experience on anyone. Narcissistic abuse is awful. Emotional manipulation is so so nasty and it makes me sad that so many people have experienced similar.

[@peachbaby100]

WhispersRed ASMR I had a VERY similar upbringing to yourself.. I have come out of it in pretty much the same way as you have portrayed.. the correct help etc eventually! I no longer feel alone and I can't get over the connection between our stories. I'm so happy (but sad) that we relate in this way but... wow Emma. I didn't know I could love and be grateful for someone I don't personally know... you are an inspiration to me. I'm lay in bed with tears just out of relief that I'm not alone. This community is the best medicine ❤️ thank you SO much for your stories Emma, you are beautiful inside and out xxx

[@thundertea]

WhispersRed ASMR thank you so so much for sharing this Emma! Yours is a heart-stirring story, beautifully presented and narrated in a very touching way. I still feel something grasping my throat from the moment you told about December 17th. Have less than 6 hours left for sleep now (time zone difference plays nasty tricks), but don't regret watching till the end one bit. May all your plans for the future be true one day. I am sure you will manage it as gracefully and with motherly care as you are doing now with your videos. I mean, I don't even have tingles, and I still watch every your video - just because you create such peaceful and soothing ambiance that all worries step back. Thank you a lot for your work and for sharing your beautiful personality with us.

[@jogun1]

WhispersRed ASMR I love this. Thank you for sharing Emma. What a life you've led. x

[@shelbybrown8840]

❤️❤️❤️

[@bobzeeshrimp]

"But don't worry, she grew up to be extremely boring and unattractive" Dang Emma I didn't know you were such a savage

[@janemervyn149]

I saw a thing therefore aliens timestamp plz :)

[@lydiarodgers]

Jane Mervyn 8:10 :)

[@LivingDeadGoth89]

I saw a thing therefore aliens when she said that I was like oh snap

[@kelskush6107]

Jeez 😂😂😂😂

[@fee_beezz]

I had to pause at this and laugh 😂

[@LukeBass1000]

Wow. Emma. What a story. This could 100% be a best selling book with a soft spoken audio book to go with it. Incredible. Thank you for sharing!

[@whysoserious2907]

LukeBass1000 she did it!

[@silvergirl3688]

“Learn to control empathy”......priceless advice for people like us.

[@TheMegadude123]

You sound like the perfect mother. I love my mom but she’s not as gentle and soft spoken as you are Emma. Sometimes when I watch your videos I imagine my mother is you. Don’t ever stop.

[@boofy4]

FreekGamer agreed

[@atapsfield2587]

This is so raw, emotional and vulnerable. I can't even express how much I respect, love and appreciate this and you. This has helped me heal, like all of your videos, and I think it's truly beautiful.

[@fayemurray138]

Stacey Maureen very well said and I completely agree!

[@angelamcerlean9655]

Emma I have never wrote anything before I have been watching your lovely videos for years now and they keep me peaceful happy and relaxed. I'm sorry u weren't valued with family and your friends didn't value your friendship enough to let you grow with them through life with the codes of friendship their loss, I have done the same I have experienced so much and have took lessons from them and grew with them. So I am happy you have peace within yourself now too. Thank you for gracing us all with your help understanding and relaxed atmosphere as you help me sleep and let go of stress at end of busy day. That was the best video very honest emotional and delightful with happy ending for your family. I am very confused about porn reference I do not get this at all it shows them in a harsh very strange light if this is what they call it I actually feel worried for them as people?? I would not give this any attention at all none!! A lot was very like myself and I too became a Mum in 2003 then 2005 and working jobs also so get what you mean about being spread thin. Thank you I can't sleep because of sciatica and slipped herniated discs and you honest give me distraction to listen to other than laying thinking of pain this helps me so very much. Well done on you success you deserve this and I wish you a lot of happiness and good fortune take care xxx

[@Disasterpiece7_]

Stacey Maureen I couldn't agree more! ❤

[@ammarsajid7284]

Angela Mcerlean what a beautiful comment. I wish you well..

[@tiamurrell963]

Well said dear Stacey Maureen, I could not say this better.

[@fab4109]

I literally want to hug you. Never in my life did I ever think I would cry during a ASMR video. Thank you so much for Sharing this.

[@sarahroadman3425]

I cried after hearing you and Nam reunited. Your story was very inspiring and I’m so grateful to have discovered your channel!!! I just lost my mom to cancer this year and I feel like you’ve really helped me heal and feel cared for like my mom used to do for me. I’m sorry to hear your mom wasn’t a positive person in your life. You’ve changed that pattern for your family! Thank you Emma ❤️❤️❤️

[@xyz-eg9bq]

Why didn’t you put the rings back on?

[@EllaBooMusic]

Burst into tears at the comment your mum would say to you. It's as clear as day my mum saying that to me, exact same wording. Broke my heart.

[@DaniaDraws]

@Pam K. You don't like their behaviour,you don't like their choices ,no problem but when you say that you don't like your kids it's a whole different story, that's really mean.

[@zaraenneasmr2514]

THE END OF THIS VIDEO MAKES ME SO HAPPY!!!! It is so amazing that you and your love were able to work everything out and didn't throw the towel in. I had such a bad day and seeing the end of this video just turned my day around and made it a good one. You're an amazing woman, Emma and you continue to help and inspire me everyday.

[@thegibsons1870]

Zaraenne ASMR Nam waiting for Emma to finish filming to help her back inside made me cry!! It's so sweet.

[@amyknight5705]

Normally a silent viewer but thought this deserved a comment because it was so lovely to watch! I have so much admiration and respect for you for sharing your story and privileged that I've had the chance to hear it. You're an inspiration for the grace you've shown dealing with obstacles in your life, and I wish you and your family all the happiness and success in the world x

[@MackGeever]

Sweet Emma, thank you for trusting us enough to share your beautiful story. I normally am asleep by the end of the video, so I never comment. I was so enthralled by your words, and cried several times (mostly happy, but some understanding tears). I just really wanted to thank you from the bottom of my heart for all of the relaxation and calmness you've brought me, and I am so so happy you have found peace with your journey and your life. Thank you ❤

[@chloewilder1968]

"Everyone has a chapter they dont read aloud"

[@WhateverIsTrue01]

poetry

[@dellagrimble6284]

Emma I am in awe, I joined your Facebook group, I have had tingles since as early as I can remember! I thought I was the only one and strange, I have just discovered asmr over the Christmas period, immediately drawn to you! You are such an inspiration, love and hugs 💖 💖 💖

[@23Dawnay]

Except not only did she read it allowed but did so on a public platform.

[@sarahmccarthy4462]

Medina Rose if you don't like her which you clearly don't then why are you trolling

[@samuelmitchell9681]

@@sarahmccarthy4462 Uh all he did was mention that she did talk about that chapter in life. That doesnt mean he doesnt like whisper red. Your jumping to conclusions based on no evidence whatsoever. You need to learn to think critically because nothing he said indicates he has a problem with her or the video.

[@waryjelly]

as a daughter of a narcissistic mom i am so glad you shared your life with us and with me. i always feel like a crazy person when i try to describe my family and my mom. your ASMR videos are some of the only ones that calm me down and help me sleep. Thank you Emma

[@l.l.8731]

Jaqlynn iktf

[@veronicamamiful]

Jaqlynn narcissists love to create chaos and drama and then make themselves the victim! No Contact is the only answer with a narcissist! We can forgive but never forget!

[@hmm5663]

Jaqlynn I have a narcissistic dad and OMG it sucks so badddddddd

[@hmm5663]

But he's rich so I stay living with him

[@blablala3291]

Jaqlynn I know how you feel

[@eclarkson6070]

Your story was better then some Netflix original movies. Thanks for sharing.

[@WhitneyChappell]

I agree! It was lovely.

[@chrisnam1603]

totally so!:)

[@MonsieurEldritch]

Most*

[@LeDingueDeJeuxVideos]

*most

[@racmagray]

Emma I am completely lost for words. I've watched you for about 2 years now and it's funny how you think you know someone! I could never have believed you had led the life you have. As if I already didn't love and admire you so much, it's now increased 100 fold! You are such a brave and wonderful human and please know that we will never mistreat, disrespect or hurt you in any way like people have in the past. Strange to say to someone I've never met I know, but you have been such a huge part of my life the past two years and I know will continue to be so for a very long time. We are your people and we love you! Thank you so much for sharing xxx

[@suze144]

You have restored my faith in life and humanity in 1 hour 14 minutes and 48 seconds. Thank you Emma, I love you!

[@haelay24]

It's amazing how malicious, toxic, and just plain evil people can be. I'm glad you've been able to overcome all the difficulties and set boundaries with those people.

[@LisaIrby]

When I saw the time of this video I thought I'd watch a few minutes and that was it. I ended up watching the whole thing in one sitting and my DVR is still on pause from whatever I was watching on TV. You are amazing and now I understand why you are so good at what you do. You took the childhood pain of your mom and turned it into helping others. Basically you're giving us what you didn't get from your mom. You have a nurturing spirit and it all makes sense now. I completely agree with life troubles preparing you for the next chapters in life. You are a Godsend. God bless you Emma. You are adding years to millions of people's lives by helping people cope with anxiety, eliminate stress and relax. I wish you all the best and feel even more connected to you now that I know your story.

[@IvyFuld]

Completely blown away by the openness and honesty you shared by making the heartbreaking and beautiful video. You truly amaze me Emma. So happy to have discovered you last year. It's helped me, and I am sure countless others!

[@misscurlyhead123]

Having just finished the video I am in awe. What an incredible woman you are and what a diverse life you have led, I am heartbroken to hear about your family life, your PTSD and the horrible situation involving your son but it is so incredible that despite these troubles you are such a kind and warm person who has helped so many others. You are loved by so many people Emma, you have helped so many and will continue to help so many others, ASMR thanks you and I personally thank you for all your help. We are made stronger by our experiences and the love that can come from them even if it is small, I wish you EVERY happiness in the future and thank you for sharing your story, I'm sure it will help those who may have similar experiences XX

[@angelalimerick]

"I found you guys". And we found you Emma, and you're amazing xxx

[@TheSingingVocologist]

It’s been a year and half since you released this, but I just now watched it. I had no idea that you’ve been through so much! This really moved me. I could feel your pain. I think a lot of us have been exposed to toxic family/friends and have suffered narcissistic abuse (Including me). I’m so happy that you had your awakening and were able to start your healing journey. I’m so happy for you. You are a beautiful soul. Thanking you for all you do in the tingle shed and for sharing it with us! Much love to you and your family! ❤️❤️❤️

[@alexanderbt1987]

I realize that you shared your story 6 years ago buy the time I've read it but I want to THANK YOU for sharing it and for letting us into your life. It's not easy to share our low times but by sharing, you help others to know they're not alone in to their own struggles. Your story gives hope to others and I truly appreciate you and everything you've done and continue to do for those around you and for the ASMR community. My wishes for you are that you get everything you dream of! You are a kind, gentle soul who wants nothing but to give back to others, to help others find peace and joy. You are a wonderful human being and I am so grateful that there are people like you in this world.

[@Birdladyyy]

Oh Emma, thank you for sharing your story with us even when it was difficult. I too have PTSD and your channel has helped me since I found it about two or three years ago. Thank you for being you wonderful, tingly, empathic self. We don't deserve you!!

[@Amysbiblereads]

Literally my mum has narcissistic tendencies. Stopped me from seeing my biological dad and therefore I lost him. He’s dead now. It’s horrendous. I felt every word of yours. Every single word. My brothers the favourite and I can’t be myself around them all. I have to conform. my channel is my sanctuary!!!!!! So I feel you!!!!! Sending love my British lady! (Nottingham girl here) xox

[@danaameson-jeffries8388]

I am a brummy! (Birmingham)

[@KellyMcnelly333]

💜💜💜 you are wonderful

[@danaameson-jeffries8388]

And I'm sorry for what happens 😕

[@mills7079]

Nottingham too!!

[@purplesunflower8242]

Your Dad will know everything Amy now he is in spirit .......and will love you even more peacexx

[@flamingogh_]

Trust me, you've been around a narcissist, and you doing ASMR is not narcissistic. You are allowed to love what you do, and if that is your wonderful ASMR, no one gets to take that away.

[@msunknownangel2011]

I truly admire you Emma. It's not easy to be such a kind and strong person after so much hardship. Please don't ever stop making videos, I watch you every night. I hope to visit your beautiful place when established. I just hope it's not out of my reach because I'm also good at being poor Haha

[@HonorSocietyRebel]

I absolutely appreciate you making this video, Emma. You're such a lovely person and I'm happy that you're apart of my life.

[@Sassygirl-kp5ii]

I love how your story doesn't end in a separation which dives into divorce. You actually did what a separation is supposed to do; find yourself in the mess and put yourselves back together, then resume. You are so strong, girl! And Nam sounds like a great guy. Your story is beautiful!

[@ellster127]

Everyone is different and getting back together isn't thr right option for everyone.

[@tigana]

Susannah Owen Sometimes seperation isn't right for people. Say your spouse is a narcissist and/or is abusive. Some problems just can't be resolved and there's no shame in protecting yourself

[@raindropp6458]

You sound sort of naive.

[@l.l.8731]

The majority of people don't value the sanctity of marriage anymore.

[@irenes7297]

Susannah Owen? Are you British? And a dancer? You look like a really really lovely guest I had named Susannah Owen who stayed at my place in Brooklyn (with her new husband) years ago! Wondering if it was you :) (either way, I hope you're well!)

[@maggiemusic777]

When this video popped up on my subscription feed I was like "oh no, an hour and 14 minutes, I'll never make it through." And here I am, what feels like a blink of an eye later, done watching your very brave presentation of your life. Thank you for sharing this with us ❤

[@nic3247]

I'm just getting round to this video. Thank you so much for sharing your story. So many things happen in our lives, and I truly believe the hard times make us as strong as we need to be. Very much needing to take a leaf out of your book and cut some people out of my life but finding it so hard to do, so thank you for the inspiration to stop allowing people to stay in my life that don't belong in it.

[@sjrescuelady]

Same!

[@illuminelf]

Once it hit about 50:00 I could just hear so much relief in your voice and it make me tear up omgosh

[@eringryffin]

Oh Emma...I ended the video (all of it) in tears, not sad ones, but sort of healing ones. From your childhood to your and Nam's beautiful story together, you just hit many many nerves. Funny how we flocked together, the asmr community, and in the end we come from similar paths. As for your local community making comments and being small minded, let me tell you how brave and inspiring you are. I know for a fact that that kind of stupid pressure would stop me. You are incredible and I can't thank you enough for years of helping with my nocturnal anxiety. Here's to many more years of seeing your beautiful red mane, relaxing voice and friendly smile around. lots of love from the city. xxx

[@morgankylie254]

This video just goes to show that you never know what a person has gone through and don't judge a book by its cover. So beautiful and I was crying through the whole thing. The biggest message to me was standing up for yourself and being yourself. It truly inspired me.:) thank you so much Emma. You are amazing! ❤️hugs

[@joshuarojow9700]

As if Emma just made a grown man she's a tear.. it's true what they say a smile can hide a million feelings. This lady is A warrior.. so much respect for you Emma!

[@lgiovana22]

Thank you! You are brave so are all those that share so transparently. Thank you! This was healing! I adore you ❤

[@asmrhmm9028]

10/10 would go to the tingle retreat. Who's with me?

[@totallyrandomLLAUREN]

YASSS! EMMA!! TAKE MY MONEY!!!

[@MsLenaCali]

I’m in! 💯

[@peeeae]

I'm in

[@EmmaLouiseShepherd93]

You are so loved in this community and your bravery, strength and resilience is an inspiration to us all ❤️

[@kimjones2406]

You're an inspiration. I cried when you were talking about how you started doing ASMR videos. You've been through so much I admire you.

[@shelleymcneal8677]

This was so beautiful. I'm three years late but I watched the whole thing. We all love you so much Emma.

[@Lesley246]

I can't believe I sat and watched it all! GRIPPING!!! We are your people! Thank you!!

[@izzyyClemmensen]

Emma, I have never commented on one of your videos before (but I've been watching for about 2 years now), but I just need to say this: you are SO amazing. Your life has been so crazy, such a roller coaster, and you are so strong. Thank you so much for sharing your life with us, I feel so privileged to be let in on your experiences. Just like we were there for you, you have been there for us. You are inspirational. ❤️

[@AnnCee10]

Emma, you are an amazing, wonderful, and beautiful soul! How lucky we are to hear your stories and get to know you better. Thank you for everything you do for this community as you have helped many people just by being yourself (endearing and lovely). I truly appreciate you.

[@DivaAllyC]

Oh yes, being called ungrateful for not keeping quiet about poor treatment from a parent. I know it well

[@MegglesDorothy16]

I can relate too. I'm in tears. Thank you, Emma for sharing your story.

[@Margaret-q1s]

you used your family ~( mother) calling her on here is awful

[@jakebautista1390]

Me too

[@JSelby-ko4ub]

Margaret as if that’s any of your business or concerns you in any way...

[@gwenallwood]

Me too!!! :'(

[@veronicaave4787]

Emma I always sensed some sadness in your eyes I was always curious as to why. I'm tearing up Listening to this because through your candidness I can feel your pain, but you have blossomed and bloomed into such strength and beauty and it's truly inspiring thank you for sharing your life with us ❤️

[@whatacupcakee]

Thanks for making videos, you saved me for many sleepless nights while I was depressed. Been following you for few years. ❤️

[@sierraelizabeth3817]

I'm not crying, you're crying. 😭😭😭❤️❤️❤️

[@thegibsons1870]

Sierra Elizabeth IT'S ALLERGIES! lol 😭

[@littlecicek]

Screaming at the phone "me too, me too" and "you're not alone" I love our little ASMR gang! Xxx

[@alma2033]

I love how despite all the hard times you've had to go through, you're still this amazingly kind woman looking to help total strangers on the internet. You are such an inspiration. I wish you and your beautiful family the absolute best of the best in life and I sincerely hope that for the rest of your life you never have one more bad day. You are one heck of a strong woman, Emma. Thank you for sharing your story! ❤️

[@maisan5124]

Hi Emma :) I don't think you'll ever see this comment, but if you do I would like to tell you some things. Thank you so much for sharing your life with us. I'm writing through tears right now, so please excuse grammar or spelling mistakes. It was such an emotional story that I cant stop. I stumbled upon your videos about a year ago, when i was first interested in ASMR, and there wassomething about your voice that felt so nurturing and soothing that kept me clicking from one video to another. So many extraordinary things have happened in your life. You and your family are just so amazing to go through it and stick through it all together. There are so many things that I love about you. Your slightly lopsided smile is adorable. The moment you fell in love with Nam made me, as a Vietnamese person, feel loved for my dark hair and olive skin (Jack Butler is just a fun name i made up ^^). I find the fact that you named your son Bo to be so loving. Hearing about your accident and everything that followed was haunting and I am so proud and happy that you are in such a good place in life right now. I am so glad. I am so glad. And you make me want to believe in familial and romantic love. How families could be terrible, but also so loving. How romantic love could sometimes naturally fall away, but be rekindled through self-understanding. It seems hard to believe that all this really happened because it would be too much but honestly how can it be doubted? The kindness and happiness and loving and joy in every one of your videos inform the fact that you've really grown from all the terrible situations life and put you through. Dear god. I am always just so amazed by you. It would be a great pleasure to one day go to your tingle camp. It will come true, I believe in you and the others in the tingle community of ASMR. Others readig this terribly long comment, thank you for being here. Thank you for finding each other and me and creating such a lovely spot on the net for people like us. Just thank you. So much.

[@AliciavanOossanen]

mary mai 7y5

[@mctempest9113]

Xxxx

[@zuzilichious]

Dear Emma, I watched the whole video and throughout it I had so many things on my mind that I wanted to say to you.. Or to say to the people who ever did you wrong in any way. But at the end I will just tell you this: You are an amazing, inspiring and totally badass woman and I wish you and your beautiful family all the best and all your dreams to come true! :) Thank you for all that you do for your viewers and for opening up to us

[@sassymomma7914]

Emma, I have no words other than thank you. I too suffer from PTSD, anxiety, and depression. After listening to your story, it makes me love you all the more. You are amazing.❤️🩷🩷🩷❤️

[@kaptainkayje]

Oh Emma. My heart is fit to break and burst at the same time. You are a very brave and strong woman. As someone who has suffered anxiety and depression your calming voice has helped me feel calm and helped me drift into many a peaceful sleep. You are my life saver at times. Thank you.

[@whatzittooya3873]

I'm so happy you and Nam found each other again in the end!😭

[@selvaggianeldeserto]

Riksu Mikälie yes yes yes 👍👍👍

[@rachel7196]

I know! Obviously this means that they're meant to be! Beautiful family. ❤❤

[@jocelynallen5086]

Me too!!! Best story ever

[@SheSaidWalkOnOver]

Started watching this as something to fall asleep to. 2 hours later (I rewound a few times) it's 2am and I'm riveted by your strength, patience, and generosity. Thank you for being a braver person than I knew existed. The story of you and Nam's relationship made me cry happy life-affirming tears. Life will always throw curve balls and challenges, I aspire to handle them like you. What an inspiration you are ❤️

[@HallieWood]

Omg Emma, I can’t possibly describe how healing this was for me on such a deep level. Thank you for your bravery in telling your story. I also grew up with a narcissistic parent, and am an empath. I’m just realizing now, that some people I have allowed in my adult life did not deserve it. It was absolutely projecting behavior when your friend called you a narcissist, and that’s exactly what my narcissist parent has called me, while projecting his own narcissism on me. My brother died a month ago and for some reason I haven’t been able to cry. Listening to this helped me to really cry, and feel like someone really understands, and feels the same pain. I also am a singer, and have been scared to really pursue it. I’ve been watching ASMR for 10 years and I’m thinking about starting a channel. Your bravery despite everything you’ve been through, is truly inspiring. Much love from, a kindred spirit: empath, singer, sensitive friend in LA

[@live2ride748]

I am left speechless after watching your video... you are a survivor, you're the exact model IMO of what to do in any abusive, damaging situation... thank you so much for being the biggest source of inspiration in my life right now. You did it, you got to the root of your issues and not only made it through but made every aspect of your life better. There are so many things you could have done to evade pain in your situation but you were strong enough to look your problems in the face and turn your life around. Now you are a positive source of bright, healing energy and continue to make the world a better place. Thank you so so much for doing what you love... you help in more ways than you can imagine.

[@SGsHoneyBee]

I just laid in bed and watched this... And it's beautiful. I was in tears more than once, and I'm glad everything worked out for you, Nam, Mia, and Bo. I feel like this had taught me so much more about you, but also, it showed me that moving out is a step I have to take. I've been living at my parents for about two years, now, my fiance died in November 2015, and I was forced to move back in... But I haven't really been able to save anything because I've been so focused on travelling, seeing historical sites, and such, and I still have nothing to move out with. But I see others do it... And I'm just not so brave. I'm afraid I will fail, I'm afraid I will fall. Hugs from Pennsylvania, USA! Thank you for your ASMR videos!

[@SGsHoneyBee]

I have sort of made it my goal to check things off my bucket list, thus the travelling. That's where my focus has been.

[@avaaa_m02]

i hope your life is better now 💕💕💕

[@andreac1358]

This video is an emotional rollercoaster. I'm so sorry that you had to go through so much, yet every single experience in life shapes us, makes us learn, makes us who we are. Thank you for sharing this with us, it must have been difficult for you. Lots of love from Barcelona! P.D. I still feel grateful for having you in my life, as a sleep-aid, as a stress-reliever... but most importantly, as an online friend.

[@jamescaldwell930]

I have had similar issues with my aunts since my mum died, which affected mine and my dads relationship, it has only now started to heal and my mum died 5 years ago. I will keep you in my prayers Emma. We all love you. Thank you for sharing your life with us xxx

[@ffionsara]

I don't usually comment on your videos, as truth be told I'm asleep by the end of them but this video made me express so many different emotions that I never thought I would experience before by watching a KZbin video, but to that I thank you. I can't believe how many times I cried during that. Your life story is just breath-taking but I can 100% relate to your family situations, I'm a victim of emotional abuse, and it's only now after seeing this video that I have the confidence to overcome this. You have made me see my life in a completely different perspective and I appreciate you for that. With a hand on my heart I can tell you that by reading most of these comments that you have thousands and thousands of amazing people right by your side. By watching your videos you would never believe the past you've had would happen to such an amazing, inspirational, kind (I really could go on) person, but I guess that's why they say that everyone has an untold story to be told. This was the best video I have ever seen in all of my life. It was so pure and deep, and I can well and truly say that I will be right here in the comments to support you! I'm sorry that you've had a rough life, but I promise you one day everything will make sense, you have become an amazing person from your past and I reckon you could one day inspire the whole entire world! Thank you for everything that you do for us, and the videos that you continue to make, thank you for providing me with the confidence I need and thank you for giving me a different outlook in life. I'm extremely grateful to you! Bye for now. I hope that you sleep well and that day by day you have a happier life, I know that sometimes life can be awful but somehow you have made the best of it! Thank you for spreading such kind and positive vibes and I'm forever thankful! Thanks again, and to anyone reading this I promise you that whatever your going through will get better!! xx ☺️

[@michelledb8989]

Ffion Sara what a wonderful comment. This expresses everything I am not articulate enough to say myself. Xx

[@geo7954]

I felt the exact same, i just didn't know how to express it, thank you!!

[@francosanson9623]

With this I realize that people who are most hurt end up being the kindest and transparent people you could ever know

[@lizrobards500]

It is true, that is often the way. Through suffering, you learn empathy and compassion for others. Unfortunately though, that is not always the case: for some reason some individuals go the other way and want to make other people suffer.

[@estiegoldmeier9893]

I've been watching ASMR videos for 5 years and could never bring myself to leave a comment on any of them. This video was so inspirational. I felt I couldn't not express that in a comment. You are an amazing woman and I have learnt so many lessons from this video alone. I wish you the best of luck in all your endeavours. Excited to see all of your projects come to fruition x

[@gooseguidedguitar6618]

“I love you, I just don’t like you” Oh Emma.. no mother should ever say this to her child :( I like you very much ❤️

[@ladyredl3210]

Mine says it everyday, sometimes in words sometimes not. No one can ever understand how that hurts,truly.

[@messkebir]

How does this make sense

[@ladyredl3210]

@@messkebir it doesn't people are just terrible sometimes.

[@messkebir]

@@ladyredl3210 Oh

[@akmkids]

My mom said to me when I was in junior high: “I have to love you, but I don’t have to like you.” I’ve never forgotten it. 😕

[@TheRealNikkiM1976]

Emma, I'll never forget my 3rd grade teacher... Sister Bernadette AKA Sr. Hates Kids. She used to beat my hand with a yardstick..i am a leftie and she said she'd "beat the devil out of me". I never understood why she hated me so, but thankfully I had other teachers that were wonderful. I was also bullied mercilessly by other girls...you know why?? I developed early . I got my boobs by age 10...my period at age 11, and these OTHER GIRLS bullied me for having my period. My period! Something they'd one day get too! Why girls are so evil towards each other I'll never understand. *I'm also born in the late 70s.

[@mariannelunenborg5890]

Dear Emma, i have never gave a reaction but i am in tears now, i am an only child with a mother with borderline, i recognize so much in your story! I am 50 years old but will always be unsure about myself and scared. Thank you so much for your hounest story, it gives me the feeling that there is someone outthere who understands me. Love from Holland!

[@gracie8545]

Marianne Lunenborg I also have a mother with borderline and I resonated with her story so much. It is such a horrible thing to grow up with, but finding that it was not my fault was such a relief and has changed my life for the better.

[@bayIees]

i want this in movie form

[@brianjonesgoldenstone3089]

baylee I was thinking exactly the same thing!!

[@jadep7042]

baylee same

[@enyamccarthy7849]

baylee yessssssssss

[@missib9257]

Same here! While I recognize this is your actual life, it was so moving and riveting! I initially thought it was going to be your standard, but excellent, calming down sort of video...how wrong I was. I couldn't stop listening and watching! You, my dear, Seriously, should either write a book or make a movie. I was captivated start-to-finish!

[@dedismukes]

I know you made this several years ago but I just now listened to it. Thank you for sharing your life story bit helps more than you could know. And thank you for this channel. You provide me peace, comfort and a happy distraction so that I can sleep. I can’t imagine anyone criticizing your ASMR work. You’re so talented and your work helps so many of us get through life. Thank you for all you do. I’ve tried many channels but you are the best. I wish you and your family a happy, healthy and prosperous future.

[@monkensnoop]

Dear Emma, you truly are a gift from Heaven & such a beautiful soul. Thank you for trusting us & sharing your story. Thank you for always being there for all of us despite the strife that was going on behind the scenes. From the bottom of my heart, thank you for being a constant source of support and calming light. I'm so grateful to have found your channel & for the countless times your videos have lulled my anxieties to sleep. You are an inspiration ❤

[@tigana]

Mia and I are a bit similar, I was the first person my little brother saw and I cut his umbilical cord. Also I think it's pretty badass that you wrote poems all over your exams. You're so unique and amazing

[@tigana]

Also I totally understand about the emotional manipulation and narcissism. I can't go into detail but it sucks

[@joanleary]

I think ASMR would be an excellent topic for a TedEx. It's how good ideas are spread these days. It's so important to so many people; I don't think anyone could deny the tingles are real at this point.

[@sabinemcgee3413]

nowherestairs you are so right! EMMA- you should really consider to spread the topic on TED!!!!

[@motleygrewe]

I was thinking the same thing! Emma would be an amazing TED presenter and speaker.

[@shueysmissus]

Your life makes me realise how uninteresting mine has been to date! I think you are incredible and an inspiration xx

[@Ash-hi5hy]

That was extremely courageous of you to share your life story, Emma. And I so applaud you for that. I know you're going to achieve your hopes and dreams for the future. You're a beautiful soul inside and out and I wish nothing but the best for you, Nam, Mia, and Bo. Sending great big hugs your way from the States. Love you! 💜

[@maisbruh]

Wow Emma. I listened to this as I went on my daily walk and I ended up in tears. I'm so incredibly happy for you and your family. Idk what all to say but I feel so moved by your life story. Thank you thank you thank you for being vulnerable and sharing your life with us. I for one don't take that lightly.

[@WhisperAudiosASMR]

Im only at 12 minutes in, but the stark comparison to your relationship with your mother and your family to my own is shockingly similar, I had to pause a write something. My mother literally said the exact same thing to me as a child (when you said it, it sent shivers down my spine) and never did properly bond with me. (I have since found out that she has Narssassitic Parent Disorder) going to continue listening to this video, but I wanted to thank you for sharing your story with us. xxx

[@WhisperAudiosASMR]

Im now 48 minutes in and you've just mentioned Narcissistic behavioural traits. I literally have no words....Emma, I feel like I understand you so much better now. I feel like crying! xxxx

[@torideck344]

What an evil thing to say to a child. My heart goes out to the both of you

[@spoonsmcgee6365]

My mother also has narcissistic personality disorder I think. I'm only 15 and am currently living with her but I'll see how our rocky relationship goes

[@Natalie-te9vz]

I also relate to this quite well.. and I also have PTSD as a result of events involving my parents. They don't even try to speak to me. It still hurts a lot and I think always will..

[@juliecortez3575]

I love your Whisper Audios ASMR also.

[@rachelhouse6509]

You are amazing! It's incredible that you're so confident with yourself to share all of this with us, it goes to show that even the happiest of people have gone through hell and you're awesome, keep up the good work you're so amazing xxxx

[@lindsayannsings428]

I have been trying to finish this video for 5 days now, but your voice is so soothing, I keep falling asleep! I go back to where I last remember, and then I fall asleep again. I give up!

[@lindsayannsings428]

I did it! I finished it! You are such a strong and wonderful person. I don't even know you but I'm so proud of you. You deserve the happiness you have finally found

[@kait4087]

Lindsay Adamson omg literally same, been doing it for about 4 days and almost done

[@mizzwanned]

Me too!!

[@karynwhy]

i laughed so loudly when i heard you say "don't worry, she grew up to be extremely boring and unattractive."

[@fiberdyr]

Hahahaha me too ☺️

[@amandac761]

trash heap That was seriously one of the best parts lol

[@Vincisomething]

trash heap 😂😂

[@charliedeslegte1286]

Yes 😂😩

[@accidentallygraceful]

I had to rewind to make sure I heard her right 😂😍

[@stephaniem5988]

"I found my people", Emma I completely agree and love you so much, thank you for all you do. You made me cry ahh 💕

[@sassenachmovies4894]

Thanks for sharing 🙏 I can’t believe how much we have in common, but I suppose that explains why your videos are my favourites. Wishing you and your family all the best, all the time x

[@xkelliemariex1]

This brought me right to tears. Thank you for sharing your life with us. It only makes me love you more.

[@int3rn3tg1rl7]

SHE LOVED THE CURE THATS EVERYTHING OMG

[@hana-mg9kv]

OMG IKR

[@brookeconsole5719]

Heheh, cyoar...!

[@sammieevans6272]

Haha yess

[@oldaccount3185]

and the smiths and the stone roses as well.

[@missib9257]

Tori Amos! And every single band I listened to growing up. I was born in ( *whispers* '75 )....

[@amyyan4213]

I usually don't comment, but I thought I absolutely had to for this video. Emma, your story and journey is absolutely incredible. I would never have imagined that someone who has given so many people calm and peace of mind, went through a life this turbulent. The fact that you have made it so far, and made the best of each situation you've been in, is so admirable and listening to your story gave me a whole new level of respect for you. Thank you so so much, to the sun and back, to the stars and beyond, for your inner strength. For giving us a safe haven on KZbin, and for making such incredibly tingly content for us to enjoy and relax to. You are an amazing person, and I am so happy that I discovered your channel, and that you discovered such a warm community here on KZbin. Lots of love ❤️❤️❤️ and I hope your future days are full of tingles and happiness

[@jordanbrown5945]

Emma- Your videos have joined my life at a time where I have experienced more stress, anxiety, and depression than I ever have before. Your videos are life to me. Your story brought me to tears multiple times, and I am overwhelmed by your beautiful vulnerability. You are a gorgeous, kind, wonderful woman and you shine. Thank you thank you thank you.

[@katemuffet3693]

Dear Emma, I watched this in instalments through the evening and morning until now. How brave you have been, and what a road you have taken to be here today. How strange it is for me to imagine people being cruel and unkind to someone who has brought me, and hundreds of thousands of others, such gentleness and peace. I hope with all my heart that you continue to build a tribe around you of warmth and creativity; that the good things you have put out into the world throughout your life begin to come back to you in unexpected and wonderful ways, and that the strength you have built within supports you through anything that comes your way. I'm just a regular listener, but I am so proud of all you've done and so excited to see what you do next. x

[@BarelyManaging]

Kate Muffet so well put - she's a beautiful soul

[@ainaank]

i really hate stories of broken family because mine is one , when you said you separated my heart broke and im crying at 5am in the morning BUT then you said y'all got back together and fall in love once again , i CRIED HARDER than ever , that made me so happy oh my gahd im so happy for you ! you deserve it

[@JenDoe1]

Oh Emma....this is by far the most moving, emotional, sensitive and articulate Draw my Life that I've EVER seen. Our life stories mirror each other. Down to playing instruments early on to being in the music industry in London in 2000! Along with everything else. I'm honestly blown away. Sound therapy, ptsd, etc. You are an amazing, strong and beautiful person - inside and out! Thank you for posting your story. You've given me the courage to go forward with some self-care I've been putting off. We love you soooo much, Emma! You are our shining star! 🌟 Sending you (and your family!) so many positive vibes and thoughts and all the love! ❤️💙💜💕

[@chrisdeman5696]

Wow Emma, what a story. I started the video to fall asleep and found myself crying at 3am. So much feelings came up. The relationship with your mother, your love and comfort in music, the negative energy of others and cutting them out of your life. So recognizable. Luckily like you I found my soulmate who saved me from that negativity. Thanks for sharing this and I send you and your love ones positive vibes and the very best 💜

[@kaelynb8016]

Emma, I don't normally comment on videos but I feel such a need to let you know what a blessing you are!! I am a single mom and have been for the past 8 1/2 years, but just recently my life has gotten extremely chaotic and hectic! With work being crazy and never feeling like I have enough hours in the day, the last couple of weeks I have not been able to watch any videos until now and can absolutely tell a difference in my life. When I watch your videos a peace and a calming comes over me and it's as if I'm spending time with a dear friend! Though I've never met you in person and we are oceans apart (I'm from Kentucky, USA) I feel a true connection to your spirit and energy and enjoy spending time watching your videos! You bring so many people happiness and please never ever forget how important you are!

[@alisonhorder5039]

This is the most life-affirming video I have ever seen. I relate with many of your struggles, including with family, and while I haven't come out of the pain and learned from them yet like you have, thank you for letting me know that it is possible.

[@delaneysays]

It must be a very scary thing to open up your life to strangers online but I appreciate that you did. There can be many great life lessons taken from your story. Thank you for all you do, we love you❤️

[@paulabentz5774]

Emma, I have been watching you for a couple of years. Like you, when an ASMR video popped up, I couldn’t believe there was such a thing. I’ve been tingling since childhood. Soft voices and gentle waterfalls were my go to, then. This Draw My Life video was fantastic. What a wonderful way to tell one’s story. I look forward to your retreat. Thank you. -Paula

[@atleastimgenuine3566]

Emma, I'm the most impatient person ever and I watched this whole video nearly in tears because of what you have gone through. I have deep respect for you. 😀😀😀

[@jackiesthirties]

Loved this so much! I cried when you talked about discovering ASMR and reconciling with your true love. Thank you for sharing and being so vulnerable here. Best of luck to you, Nam, and your family. I can't wait to witness the next chapter. 💗

[@sarundoinoue7692]

You are one of the loveliest people out there. I hope you all the best and to have the opportunity of finding new heights and strength within yourself 💕💕

[@paulcozart7110]

All blessings, prosperity, tranquility and harmony to you, your little family, your big “family” and all who read this. Cheers for your courage. Thank you. Just wonderful. Got me all teary. Thanks.

[@JSandwich13]

I was emotionally manipulated but not by a family member. This is really brave of you to share your story and what you've been through. I have depression and panic attacks and trouble sleeping so this was lovely to hear how you found ASMR and I'm glad you found us! I felt emotional watching this near the end. To see what you've been through. You seem incredibly strong. The situation with that family seems shocking and I'm angry for you that that happened to you and greatful that it's better now. Nam seems lovely it's heartwarming to see how you both have persevered and been there for each other. I wish you and your family a world of love.

[@alibolla]

Emma so glad you and Nam are back together, i've been with you for a few years and remember when the wedding ring came off and you said that you had things going on in your life, what a nice, happy and positive outcome, thanks for sharing!! xxxx

[@CelieGolightly]

The end of this video made me cry with joy! 😭❤️ You are such a strong woman and I'm so so happy you are at peace with your wonderful family. You are so loved and so valued! Thank you for all you do ❤️

[@ciarasimpson2640]

Emma , you are a warrior and have helped me through my hardest times....its not much but thank you ❤