What is Really Considered a Suicidal Thought?

[@DrTraceyMarks]

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[@stateyourthesis]

TBH I went st8 to option 5, five months ago. Bc my family and best friend has already told me in passing how they feel about mental health. It makes me feel even more alone. I get from them, "yadda yadda...your energy isn't high enough.. blah blah blah..." wtf ever that means...I just want someone to listen!

[@bijulithapa3944]

I'm serious about it, doctor. I feel as if, one day in the near future , I may be driven to actually end my life. I'm seeing councilors for the issue , and all they have been able to give me is Antidepressants

[@MaddesG1]

I get this way and have propenzity for a plan.. I sometimes wish this was a warry warring period and i could die in combat actively.

[@briaralaric3487]

You probably dont care but does anybody know a method to get back into an instagram account..? I somehow lost my password. I appreciate any help you can give me.

[@baylorben6188]

@Briar Alaric instablaster =)

[@user-it5ej2xk1q]

'I dont wanna live but Im too scared to die'

[@delta-vk1me]

Sam cooke a change is gonna come i 🙏 for you

[@aiedigitalvisuals3486]

NF

[@julianne8497]

Same

[@kielerimpos6399]

same!

[@jaynestag95]

Are you afraid of being dead?

[@joeldecoster8816]

I asked for help.....got locked up in a psyche ward. Thrown in an isolation room, given a sedative, restrained, humiliatsd and traumatised, and given electric shock treatment. great help.

[@juelz4444]

Omg... this is horrifying. . I'm so sorry that you went through that during a time of needed support

[@brianbrenton1025]

That's what keeps many people from seeking help.

[@latrishabender2602]

this is why i dont reach to anyone

[@dollarbil9258]

This is why I keep my thoughts to myself

[@abdullahyounessi9485]

Their freaking supposed “treatment” and “help” makes people more suicidal. What a shame! What a shame! I found help by listening to Dr. Joe Dispenza and Dr. Wayne Dyer’s talks on line. Made much more sense to me than most of these therapists. I hope you give it a sincere try. The process and struggle will not be an easy one, but much more effective and real than these neatly packaged suggestions by the therapist. Wishing you all love and compassion

[@poisonmyrrh6497]

I've had two suicide attempts. The second one was very bad; I almost succeeded, and was hospitalized for ten days. As someone who has spent an inordinate amount of time dwelling on suicide, I can say this video is very accurate. Dr. Marks is my favorite mental health professional on KZbin. She's the greatest.

[@Violet-fg9db]

What have you done on your attempt ?

[@winterkyomoon7096]

@@Violet-fg9db Probably not the most appropriate question to ask.

[@elysianfields8461]

@@winterkyomoon7096 Totally agree with you on that! It's not a suitable question for this thread. *triggering per se.

[@jaynestag95]

The only reason I not doing it again is that my husband will be so hurt.😢

[@liljuz1981]

@@winterkyomoon7096 fu c u this is KZbin not aa meeting, welbutrin the way to go too bad they pumped my stomach live to tell the tale. zoloft won't do shit but make u feel weird venlafaxine in conjunction with some other random pills almost had me 🤣🤣🤣

[@AuthenticMentalHealth]

If you have suicidal thoughts you are NOT alone! Especially in communities like this and at Authentic Mental Health❤️

[@melvthebunny4858]

Hi @Authentic Mental Health ☺ how are you? I'm subscribed to you and I absolutely LOVE your channel. I really hope you're having a great day.

[@Rallemarkralle]

This dont help at all

[@i5m5bob]

I am completely alone. F*ck off.

[@liljuz1981]

Jim jones here let's team up

[@nathanrykers7588]

“Your not alone” I hate that saying.

[@lauragadille3384]

I'm glad I never commit sucide. My cat saved my life and I'm so grateful for that.

[@airpolygon2714]

Cats are wonderful companions! They are lovely beings to share your lives with. My cat gives a lot of meaning to my life and existence, and I couldn't do anything that would leave him hurting and alone. He really helps me to keep on going in the worst days

[@lauragadille3384]

@@airpolygon2714 best medicine ever

[@moniakameleon5932]

So sad that my 2 kitties are the reason why I won’t do it... so sad and so wonderful at the same time. But shitty that nobody cares. 😢😢😢

[@ChrisTina-ix1ig]

Ive been there twice with my dog. Crazy, how much leverage they have huh..

[@grenalien]

Is that her in your profile pic? Precious kits.

[@little_lion_heart9850]

This is really helpful! I made what I call my 'anti-suicide box' after I was hospitalized for an attempted suicide. I had my friends and family write letters I could read when I was headed toward that hopeless feeling to remind me why I need to stick around. I will work on this safety plan as well.

[@daceliepins9108]

This is awesome. Thank you for sharing. Will make my own box. 💖💖💖🙏🙏

[@brianbrenton1025]

Oh, you have family and friends! Lucky you!

[@irishgirl1753]

@@brianbrenton1025I’m alone

[@haizeljang]

I've planned lots of times, for different options of how i can kill myself. But I'm so afraid to do it then end up alive the next day.

[@alicerocks6120]

I feel this so much, i even have a mote ready.

[@DrTraceyMarks]

Maybe you could reflect on one person who is the most glad that you’re alive.

[@haizeljang]

@@DrTraceyMarks yes - thinking about my mom. But i'm not sure if I can hold it off much longer.

[@khabose2948]

@haizeljang - maybe you can drop everything else in life that doesn’t matter and start really exploring what will make you happy and what purpose you want to live for. I was having really dark thoughts at one point in my life and this is what I did. I looked at my environment and I changed EVERYTHING! I also started practicing Islam (faith). I’m not saying you have to do that but I got a lot of answers and the heaviness started lifting ... it took a little while because my mindset was crap at that point. I hope you choose life. You never know what is waiting you! How many lives you may touch. Peace brother!

[@haizeljang]

@@khabose2948 thank you for the kind words. I know you will see me as stubborn because I will say this again and again. That I don't see any purpose for my life, nor any hope of living it well. But thank you, I hope you find peace and happiness as well. ❤

[@shakiral32]

I think what really gets on my nerves os when you express your suicidal thoughts and people respond by saying what about friends/family, those that you will leave behind. It's like hello??? What about me? What about the struggle of having to live everyday in emotional pain, anger, frustration? Then it appears as if u are no longer living for yourself but either existing /living / to satisfy those same people and what sense does that make. If i don't see a future and i am not happy then why am I forcing myself to stick around and live for others. I am just speaking for myself.

[@belovedchild9812]

I had intrusive thoughts while in an emotionally abusive relationship. These included gory imagery and suicidal ideation. I never had those before until the abuse escalated. I went as far to lightly act out hanging myself. This scared me so I stopped immediate. I knew I didn’t want to die but I was at the end of my rope and desperate for relief. I worked with a therapist and worked on getting out of the relationship. Then I realized I had childhood trauma. I worked on that for the next 3 years. Now I’m happy and healthy and mostly healed from the childhood trauma. I have zero toxic people in my life and no longer experience intrusive thoughts or suicidal ideation. Could you please do a video on how toxic people can affect our physical and mental health? I love your videos. Thank you!

[@sB227zz]

I have passive suicidal thoughts and frequent rummination. I just wAnt to move on with my life and look forward to my future. Stay strong everyone, too are worth it and we are all in this together.

[@igorlinhu]

What’s the reason ? Work ,family ,poor social life?

[@yaninaalvarez8048]

I know it`s not related but I apreciate so much that you speak clear and calm...I love psychology topics but some videos may be a little overwhelming sometimes trying to gather as much information as they can... Hello from Chile.

[@DrTraceyMarks]

Hi and thanks for watching from Chile. i’m glad you have an interest in psychology topics and I’m glad my videos are helping to satisfy that interest.

[@jaynestag95]

Wales in Britain.👋

[@EricBZink]

Great video and topic! Losing a wife and father to suicide I always have an appreciation to videos that bring an awareness!

[@melodyrogers9473]

Hello driven. I feel for you. I'm sorry you've had this in your life. Please take care of yourself.

[@wendyleeconnelly2939]

so sorry for your losses. peace.

[@EricBZink]

Thanks it’s a process and a lot of grieving

[@DrTraceyMarks]

Gosh yes to lose two loved ones this way. I’m sorry you had to experience that.

[@bipolarbeinganddoing8070]

watching this tonight might be the thing that saved my life

[@sugarbella16]

Dr. Marks can you make a video on intrusive thoughts

[@DrTraceyMarks]

Yes I have that on my list. I'm not sure when i will get it done though

[@dr.c9461]

I get a lot of intrusive thoughts as well. That's why Mindfulness along with CBT is useful. Looking forward to seeing your video on this too.

[@HowdyMyDudes]

What are intrusive thoughts to you?

[@barb7124]

Every minute of every day I want to be dead. But I wont kill myself.

[@barb7124]

@Leopard-King why do I wish I was dead or why wont I kill myself

[@barb7124]

@Leopard-King depression I guess. Not sure. Life is just boring, meaningless and heart-breaking.

[@melvthebunny4858]

@@barb7124 it really sucks to hear that you're thinking about life that way..I really hope that you're thinking to see a therapist soon since I did and it makes me a lot better. Don't be hesitant, okay? Therapy can actually be really benificial. I'm sending you lots of love, support and good vibes 💜 and I really hope you'll find a great and understanding therapist. That's it for now. Take care.

[@TheRand20]

Barb DeSouza then don't make it boring. Go out, meet new friends or do what you love. don't ever give up because your life is precious

[@paulescue4478]

I'm the same except I have a plan and WILL see it through eventually.

[@beccaowens4843]

I've had multiple attempts, and the intrusive bad thoughts scream so much louder in my head than any good thoughts that could have been in there. I have tried repeatedly to get help, and I just give up. I just can't take the pain anymore.

[@MinniKND]

Somedays my cat is the most important thing in my life to keep up. This was realy helpfull. I'm gonna try to get a professional again.

[@DrTraceyMarks]

Good I’m glad it was helpful. Best wishes to you

[@lilawrence91]

Not to be mean, but if the only thing of value in your life is your cat, then you have a pretty pathetic existence. Here is the problem of "safety planning" and "suicide prevention" -- it's clinging to temporary, contingent factors. You might be forced to give up your cat and not be able to get a new one, your cat may (or rather, will) die. Here in NYC, people give up cats as often as they are forced to give up apartment furniture.

[@MinniKND]

@@lilawrence91 temporary factors help us get trough temporary suicide feelings. Thats why they work sometimes. Once we are able to reach for help we do it. And its ok to be clingy to temporary thing if thats what keeps you alive.

[@toasterwitch5499]

My cat was the only thing that made me happy,but he sadly died a few months ago.

[@leas_lifestyle]

+Toaster Witch I'm in the same situation. My cat was my source of purpose and happiness. Now he is gone I feel like everyday is a struggle :(

[@brendabiurq7394]

I hate when I feel suicidal. I remember I blacked out once and when I came back I was already bleeding and my arm was cut open. I called an old friend to help me close it (family in the medical field) and I promised that no matter how hard life gets I would do anything in my power to fight that “ empty” feeling. I recently had surgery I lost my baby... I felt that empty feeling and quickly dialed the suicide hotline and I cried and cried and cried. I’m grateful they were there. I have a therapist who is awesome and I just got another :) I’m excited and hopeful. Life is hard but we have to keep going!

[@mahimabankura4229]

Keep going gurll :)

[@WendyMisener]

I find your pragmatic approach to mental health issues very refreshing. I imagine this video is a question many of us have asked ourselves over the years. It’s comforting to understand the theory and categorization and also ways to establish a plan should someone find themselves seriously struggling. I’m more existential than active or passive suicidal. Sometimes labels help provide us with beneficial insight.

[@DrTraceyMarks]

Yes labels can provide insight and insight is key. Thanks for watching.

[@maxwellg.2755]

Can you please please PLEASE make a video about how people can manage an existential crisis/nihilistic depression?

[@selamkebede7162]

I have been on medication for a year, but my depression is not going anywhere, im feeling defeated because i really thought the medication would make me feel better

[@Contessa998]

Selam Kebede Same here. I’ve been on medication for years and I still struggle. I’m getting ready to give up

[@healthyone100]

i'm 69 and have bad depression, i'm a vegan exercise and pray pray pray, and i cry alot this worlds stinks!

[@eileendoherty2836]

dominick virgilio it’s very hard I know I’m 65 can’t sleep without meds and I think that causes dark thoughts😥😥sending hugs wish we could talk

[@alyssagrogan764]

Me too I'm going to be depressed forever:(

[@lynnes1864]

Different anti-depressants work in different ways and just because one is useless doesn't mean there isn't another one that could work for you. Plus, the pills are more effective if you are also getting therapy. A lot of therapists are doing video or phone therapy because of the pandemic.

[@kirk326]

Thank you dr. I appreciate your straightforward informative videos. The fact that you're not trying to sell something Ed's so much value and credibility and shows your sincerity. Thank you again

[@DrTraceyMarks]

You're welcome. Although I've been getting request to put this info into a book/workbook format which I just may do.

[@DoggyHateFire]

I'm a crisis worker and this is one of the best videos I've seen on suicidal thoughts.

[@enigmag9538]

Also, for me, cutting is simply a way to punish myself. Like when you or someone smacks you upside the head and says "how could i be so stupid". At times i become infuriated by my own actions, or inactions.

[@dianadansas9653]

Google and Pratice Self-Compassion everyday, please.

[@TinaLouise73]

I smoke fag after fag after fag! I starve myself stupid and pray my phisical body will one day be so weak it WILL give up on me in my sleep! I prsy wish n hope i leave this evil-live spelt backwards is evil and LIVED spelt backwards is devil! This realm is HELL

[@lacollins51]

I just can’t take this pain anymore. I’ve reached out to professionals, I’ve been told it’s illegal to commit suicide. Suicide hotline even sent the police! I truly can’t think of any other way to end the pain

[@foghornd1059]

Bro, I can understand you. Same goes to me here. I love my family. But in return, they just treat me like as I did not exist. The pain is killing me

[@HG-fs5fb]

Hey man Jesus loves you so much, you’re life is so valuable to him, he gave his life for yours. Reach out to him and he can save you. You literally have nothing to lose! I promise this will be the best thing you ever do

[@cryingintheclub8994]

I have active and passive suicidal thoughts, but I know I will never follow through every time I have them. Mostly I just lie in bed unable to move until the thought disappears.

[@eileendoherty2836]

crying in the club sending hugs and prayers 🤗🙏🤗

[@ardent9422]

You having made this video is the only help that I have, my environment and family are like kryptonite to me, I feel uncomfortable almost all the time and no one is safe for me to share anything with, because once you've shared they think you're weak or a target for manipulation.

[@nathanrykers7588]

Yep , I’ve reached out to those who I thought would care but it’s now official, I’m on my own .

[@louiselawrence9441]

My little girl 11 has just told me how sad she is. I'm not very educated on the subject but i do believe if you are in pain or sad or just want to end things, your not weak or selfish. having a hard time and in pain is different. Please go to someone. Anyone. We all know what the thoughts are. Try and remember 'death' is final and there is no coming back. There is a world out there for all of us. Strangers family friends animals. You have so much to offer. Please as a mum who is terrified at this very moment the world is a better place with all of you in it. Its nice to consider and love others and stay but more than anything don't be in pain ask for help. Write it down. Anything. Talk to someone to ease your pain. Your not alone either.x

[@catchmeifyoucan1095]

Be glad she had the courage to tell you so you can help her now, if I reached out when I was a child life would've been so different for me.

[@marcospinelli4380]

Tour hair is really gorgeous- I'm a brazilian psychiatrist and I love tour videos.

[@DrTraceyMarks]

Thank you very much. It’s good to hear from a colleague. Thanks for watching from Brazil best wishes with your work.

[@marcospinelli4380]

Thank you. You make difference.

[@michaelzeisler2257]

Very thoughtful of you talking about suicide and you are admiring her hair and you are a psychiatrist,

[@ruthwells3990]

Considering all the mass killings, drug addiction, and other addictions, it is easy to see our society is in MENTAL PAIN. I think we talk about having access to health care for all Americans, how bout access to MENTAL HEALTH CARE? Maybe then we could get to the root of people’s pain, and end all the afore mentioned illnesses and STOP SUICIDES. Thank you, I appreciate your services.

[@DrTraceyMarks]

Thank you Ruth 😊

[@ruthwells3990]

Elisa Castro I said access not free. Most insurance plans cover mental health care SEPARATELY. I have Blue Cross Blue Shield at my job but our mental health care is not covered through them, we have FREE mental health care up to so many sessions then you submit forms to re qualify for this service or pay out of pocket. I will say in closing, I am only discussing this country because that’s what my data is based on and I live in AMERICA!!!! And anytime ANY MONEY IS SPENT on any kind of health I believe it benefits the individual and society as a whole,my opinion. Much more is gained in preventing a crisis than waiting for the bombs to drop and cleaning afterwards. Have a blessed day

[@mimiyi3538]

She knows EXACTLY what im goin thru...thankies for this.

[@DrTraceyMarks]

You’re welcome

[@cathischoll7989]

I have a hard time soothing myself. I don't find anything pleasurable anymore. I am always in fear something awful is going to happen.

[@DrTraceyMarks]

I’m sorry Cathi. I hope you can get some help with that. You can start with a therapist.

[@kaykiss226]

@@DrTraceyMarks can you do a video on hypersexuality and sexual deviance related to mental illness and the difference between the two. Thank you 😊

[@nedaroshan4610]

My safety plan:listening to worship music sometimes some lyrics are just for your situation and you feel you’re not alone and he saves you from others or even from you yourself.remembering what things God has brought me out of,thinking about what caused that thought and if it’s related to my own deeds I stop doing it and if it’s related to others I stay away from them.and sometimes based on my situation if I can’t stay away from them I still keep listening to my worship music.❤️

[@DrTraceyMarks]

That sounds like a great plan.

[@LadyLove..]

Wow this gave me anxiety I get all these suicidal thoughts

[@enigmag9538]

I don't want out entirely for my own sake. I self-loathe and feel that in the long run my family would be much better off w/o me.

[@ashleymartinez4253]

Sometimes I get really down and feel like a burden and think about how my family will be better off without me. But then I talk myself out of it because my life is so easy compared to others suffering. Even though I have low self esteem I will keep living on and trying my best.

[@jwhippet8313]

Where I live, if you tell a doctor you have a plan, you must be committed. It keeps me from getting help bc I can't afford to miss work.

[@marleeshore1387]

Totally

[@JaimeBlackBird]

“No shoes on the beach” 😂 OMG thank you for including that funny little thing! I needed that giggle so badly

[@amandadavis3572]

My family doesn’t believe in depression! My moms response is “Get over it, you just need to snap out of it” or you’re being selfish! Very aggravating

[@Contessa998]

Amanda Davis Your mom is an ignorant, stupid bi***. I’m sorry Amanda you look like a sweet lady

[@DrTraceyMarks]

Family members and friends who don’t understand also don’t realize the damage they do with those kinds of comments.

[@amandadavis3572]

Dr. Tracey Marks you are absolutely correct! It’s very hurtful!

[@eileendoherty2836]

Amanda Davis yes same here

[@healthyone100]

i have depression i'm 69 and my 2 brothers have it runs in my family my father had i pray all the time!

[@Wolf21973]

I started having what I guess would be passive thoughts when I was 12. I'm 32 now and still find myself having them.

[@mrandersson2009]

I really dislike the trend in educational videos that they are all about helping yourself. Also address others to help the ones in need. To those who are not depressed: Be a true friend and be open to new friendships, enjoy your fellow Man's companionship and help them in need.

[@Blindfold-Me]

What if you have no friends or family that cares about you?

[@doc-jim]

Your worth is not determined by who can love you or not, you can build new relationships to help you cope, ultimately though it is in your efforts to take care of yourself, other people will give you a boost but it is not the answer, otherwise you will depend on them and there's a major pressure into living only for others and not yourself. I suggest Cognitive Behavioural Therapy methods to start a journey of introspection to make it so you rewire your critical thinking, which I assume makes decisions out of hatred towards yourself, CBT makes it so you slowly learn how to love yourself through critical thinking and, unless there's other conditions that you aren't unaware of affecting it, your emotions will catch up to finally love yourself. Best of luck, you are not alone and if you are right now you won't be forever, there's so many people out there and believe me when I say that there's a found family and friends for everyone.

[@AbdallaHefela]

Skill issue

[@johnmat4678]

60 years and hoping all these years it will get better. Its only gotten worse.

[@tomcleverley18]

Great video Dr. Marks! Anyone out there who is "waiting for the right time", please get help. No matter how alone you think that you are, someone will grieve for you. Someone else loves you! And if you just can't find them know that GOD loves you!!! Maybe a pet will help you too. Something to care for, and they are not going to judge you. GOD be with you

[@DrTraceyMarks]

Thanks Tom for the encouragement.

[@Contessa998]

My family would be happy if I killed myself. They don’t understand depression And I’m sure they think I’m a pain in the ass. So I continue to struggle every day I have a few friends who I can turn to, but it’s not the same as your family. I hate my family so much

[@AK-dh2mu]

I’m in the medical field ..I was having severe depression suicidal thoughts and I started researching and asking myself what have I been doing different .. PROBIOTICS! I realized I ran out of probiotics! As soon as I started taking them again I was able to start thinking logically again.. I started researching with our medical google and GUT HEALTH IS LINKED TO EMOTIONAL HEALTH!! your gut is linked to your vagus nerve which controls your emotions.. I read that your gut actually helps produce the feel good hormones so taking probiotics is essential for your EMOTIONAL WELL BEING! I feel SO MUCH better now.. still a little sad but not IRRATIONAL.. not suicidal ... and I feel like I can think straight. I use the target brand gummies and I take 2 or three a day. (They taste like candy.. only $9)

[@Lindaheal]

Lots of information coming out these days that support this. I've made rebuilding my gut health a priority, and have seen my suicidal thoughts significantly lessen. Emphasizing vegetables and fiber in my diet to build prebiotics, daily chia seed puddings made with greek yogurt and keifir instead of milk, minimizing sugar and carb intake have all been a big help. I also focus in keeping my inflammation level as low as possible as it tends to significantly affect my emotional health too.

[@keithdonohue4631]

Thank you so much for this. As a mental health care provider, I really appreciate the care that you put in to disseminating important information or diagnoses, treatments, and related topics.

[@DrTraceyMarks]

Thanks a lot Keith. I appreciate hearing this from a colleague

[@Flo-cy4xc]

Thank you so much for this very clear and precise answer ! I really like how you describe facts without being overdramatic or in the contrary playing it down: they're just facts. Thank you !

[@DrTraceyMarks]

You’re welcome. Yes you’re absolutely right there just facts. thanks for noticing that.

[@RainRemnant]

Have been having these thoughts ever since early teens, but the only thing that actually pushed me over the edge and made me try was when a boy or man would leave me... First time my mother found me on the kitchen floor, I was a teen and a boyfriend broke up with me. But now I'm 44 and my husband wants to leave me, and my mother isn't around anymore to catch me, or anyone else... If I make it through this I deserve a golden medal

[@shahodaali9385]

Idk if it could help but you’re worth isn’t defined with whom is by your side …only and ,mostly Allah matters

[@heidibaltom8138]

I like to think that if i can talk myself into believing im better off dead then i can talk myself into believing that im better off alive. It is litterally the same thing but it seems so much more difficult.

[@marieelisa1]

Thank you so much for expanding on this topic, I'm going to make my safety plan right now!

[@DrTraceyMarks]

Excellent. Glad to hear this. 👍🏼😊

[@mojeanin]

This is a really important video, thank you.

[@DrTraceyMarks]

You’re welcome Monika 😊

[@vanessazawaski8451]

Dr. Marks, Ive been in therapy for chronic health anxiety. I’m having existential thoughts coming out the blue, I’ll be in the middle of let’s say Cooking dinner then I will have these thoughts like what is this room I am, why I am here?like I’ve been in some time machine and transplanted into a different world. Is this normal with anxiety, I suffer from the disassociation with my anxiety. Side note: I appreciate what you do so much! I have a heart for those who are suffering Like I am. It takes a special person to do what you do. Thank you 🙏🏻

[@DrTraceyMarks]

Yes Sasha I would say that’s probably an extension of your health anxiety. It’s not about health but it’s got that same degree of worry. it’s like a variant of your health anxiety. also with anxiety you can get the realization and feeling as though you’re in a different reality. In case you haven’t seen and I did video on the personalization and the realization kzbin.info/www/bejne/q56kmIZ9iaylbq8

[@tekboi1984]

A few years ago, something inside me snapped. I haven't felt normal since winter of 2019. I used to be a high energy, super productive person. It seems that all my drive to work went first. I started questioning the point of it all. I have fallen so far behind on my responsibilities. At first it was when I tried to sit down and begin working on the stuff I'm behind on. Now I have invasive suicidal ideation for no apparent reason while I'm driving down the road. Dont even know what to do. I've tried to talk to my mom and wife about it but I don't want to burden them anymore. I'm trying to stay strong for my kids and pull myself through whatever this is that's happening to me.

[@catchmeifyoucan1095]

Speak to a therapist

[@theotherway1639]

The book "30 Days to Overcome Suicidal Thoughts" by Harper Daniels should be shared with all. Share it online for suicide awareness. You can save someone's life.

[@spacedrifterrrrr]

I'm a South African, and the suicide hotlines here aren't useful at all. The social workers usually refer callers to another hotline, and the same process happens again when calling the number they referred you to. Eventually, the caller gets told that they can't speak to a psychologist, because you need an official letter from a doctor stating that you have chronic depression. Then when you do go to a doctor to explain your situation, the doctor says that getting an official letter is not necessary and refers you back to the same hotline that didn't assist you. It is pretty disappointing to see that mental health is not taken seriously unless if money is involved, and I wish it could change. I hope things aren't like this in other countries too.

[@youtubynotme]

A man was struggling with a rather large stone. I knew he was tired and in desperate need of aid. He struggled against it's weight while trying to shuffle along, almost dropping it with every step. He seemed to be trying to reach deep down inside for the strength to carry on, but seemed to be failing. I decided I would be that strength he needed and offered to carry it for him. When he didn't respond I grabbed hold of the stone anyway. Being to weak to fight back, he relented and we walked along the path. I asked him where we were going and he said, "I've got a boat to sail, but I needed an anchor." Satisfied by this and sensing he was too weak for conversation I merely followed along. It was easy for me to carry this stone. It wasn't light, but I could handle it with ease. The worrys of the world couldn't slow me down. We got to the boat and it was beautiful. It was the most beautiful old sailboat I could imagine. It had two masts that looked like airplane wings and three different hulls. I had never seen a ship so unique. I told him it was a fantastic craft and while taking the stone offered me to stay and sail her. I leapt at the chance and climbed on board. He let me get her ready as he sat upon the center bow, securing his anchor chain to the stone. It couldn't have been easy, but he got it done. We soon had her free from the dock and we on our way to the open water. She was a beautiful craft to sail for sure. Everything about her was fantastic. She was as good as I could imagine a sailboat should be. And she was fast, oh was she fast. She could sail three times the speed of the wind and she sailed so smooth. I was so caught up in the sailing that I'd almost forgotten the man. He was sitting quietly, not saying a word and not looking around. He didn't seem to feel the wind nor the spray of the waves splashing off the bows. Concerned, I asked him if he was ok. The boat stopped. It stopped so suddenly when he turned the wheel that I almost forgot we were sailing. It didn't halt on a dime sure, but it slowed down faster than fast. I was dumbfounded. I had sailed before and never experienced that. Those wingsails turned sideways were amazing. Still in a daze I hadn't really noticed him move back up to the center bow. I quickly went up, now sure something must have broken. I did feel a bit embarrased. He was struggling with the stone again and when I joined him, motioned for it to go over the side. I dropped it over and the line started dropping. We watched for what seemed like a lifetime as the line unfurled over the edge. It was whipping back and forth in the water as it disappeared into the depths. The man then spoke for only the second time and his words I'll take to my grave. "I got it now" It was then I noticed the line from the stone led back to his legs. Some things in life happen so quickly that you almost only observe them. I observed his feet pulled out from under him but couldn't support his upper body. He slammed against the deck backwards and whipped out from the rails and into the sea. The water was cold and unforgiving as I sank beneath the surface. I once knew a man with a stone, who needed the strength from within.

[@ekoado3373]

Thank you Dr. Marks, it was actually relaxing listening to you.

[@DrTraceyMarks]

Thanks Denzel. 😊

[@jordanholstein8023]

I can never express how helpful your videos are Dr. Tracey.

[@drecion1]

Here in Australia we have a real problem with hospitals and suicidal patients. The doctors/nurses in ER do not like it and often reject you or send you home within minutes. Sometimes if you’re lucky they may give you Valium and send you on your way. Often after experience like this people don’t bother again with the hospital for help.

[@DrTraceyMarks]

That’s a real shame.

[@eileendoherty2836]

Citizen Wolf so sad😢😢😢😢😢

[@nickjohn2051]

I agree. Same here in Malaysia. If you go private hospital ER, most of them would divert you to government hospital. Because private hospital sometimes dont have psychiatry branch. And because only government hospital have big volume of patients, some of the treatments are subpar.

[@halohms]

Thanks for making these videos. I just discovered them. They are very helpful and I will be watching as many as I can. Family is the number 1 reason to remain here. You are correct that it is like a nuclear bomb. My cousin's spouse did it with a subway train and it has lasting effects especially to her children. Purpose of being here is for the family. Nothing else really matters in the end. I'm an atheist as well as everyone in my immediate family and we know that there isn't anything after this life. Thanks again.

[@BimmerWon]

I like to distract myself by driving over 100 mph on the highway and running red lights. I do that pretty much every day. Can’t think about death if I’m too busy trying not to crash.

[@jerichowhitlock]

Did not realize that my thoughts were so active, my doctor asked and I told him passive without understanding. I'll let him know, thank you for this video!

[@michellejudd5060]

Thankyou Dr Tracey my daughter I stay alive for her .

[@Contessa998]

Michelle judd I don’t have kids........huge mistake. I’m Trying to stay alive for my dog, but he has a very wonderful doggy daycare mom I could give him to.

[@DrTraceyMarks]

You’re welcome Michelle. Yes children are a strong anchor and reminder of what’s important

[@DrTraceyMarks]

@Mildred Peroni pets love deeply and get depressed. His daycare would be no substitute for you.

[@michellejudd5060]

Thankyou @@DrTraceyMarks .

[@healthyone100]

@@Contessa998 i have 2 beautiful cats!

[@mariacrush7451]

I should have seen this before. I was able to find a way to cope when my suicidal thoughts are around but it was a very unhealthy one. Once again, Thank you Dr. Marks for your amazing upload.

[@Contessa998]

Maria Crush You’re so beautiful. Don’t hurt yourself. And there in lies the problem with some People’s thinking. They think just because you are beautiful you have nothing to be unhappy about. I know I used to be very pretty and people would wonder why I am seeing a psychiatrist

[@mariacrush7451]

​@@Contessa998 Thank you Mildred. Compliments are quite hard to come by nowadays. It's good that you are getting the professional help you need. People always wonder. At one point in my life, I actually had to shut down almost everyone because I got tired explaining over and over about what's going on with me. Sure, some were really concerned about me and my decision was quite selfish but I found my peace there. I used to be a jolly, sociable and all-the-positive-traits kind of person and maybe people thought it was very unlikely for me to have some mental health concerns and I really struggled seeking professional help because of that.

[@DrTraceyMarks]

You're welcome Maria 😊

[@summertime2993]

I'm dark all the time all the way , my mind and my heart are just dark, to dark for someone to even care about it

[@metalmogul4691]

Suicidal thought can come with daily regularity. The thought controls all that you do. A life full of trauma, disaster, daily struggle and no real control can make the suicidal ideation much stronger than CBT, or mindfulness. I can put it this way by saying suicide is the minds way of safety escape.

[@55alive8]

Oh my goodness Dr Tracey this is a valued video. I recently had theses thoughts. But to get clarification about this in more depth it has bought light to my situation. I have a plane just like the one you described. I had to figure out what is the problem I have a lot of changes going on on my life. I retired from one job. I have three years in to retirement for the other one. My aging years. I hire a professional organizer to get rid of my years and years of clutter and focus on this as part of my plan to sustain a better life for myself. Without going into too much more details I found this was a trigger and it was hard letting go of my stuff. But as time do pass I know it will all get better And by sharing my crisis in a general way to my only child and two of my close friends and team support. This has help me be honest with my self and know I am not alone. This is common with a lot of my circle of friends and colleagues. So I choose to not to remain silent. Because when I do I don’t get the help that I need when I do. We don’t have to suffer in silence. I am worthy.

[@DrTraceyMarks]

Good for you. I’m so glad you have support around you. I think people don’t always realize how supportive people are willing to be if you just make them aware of what's going on

[@muhamedshahidpm8320]

I have taken an interview training 2 years ago, he has spent some 3 hours alone with me, trying to motivate me, in these chattings, he asked me one question, how many times did you thought of suicide, and I have answered always..., then he asked me why I am not trying for that, I told him, that I have to go to hell if I do that, so I am not doing that. Now I am an atheist, do I want to suicide, I don't know now. Some times I believe I don't have a future and some times I think, there are still a lot of beautiful things around us that can keep us happy. The toughest times are when I am having panic attacks. But somehow I am able to keep away from these thoughts in these days.

[@barbarahawkins7864]

MUHAMED SHAHID P M I’m praying you’ll have all you need to find true peace & love. 🙏🏻💕

[@joyaautrey2168]

My parents really didn't give a crap if I killed myself. My father told me that I wasn't allowed to talk about the abuse. When I told him that I would end of killing myself if I didn't talk about what happened to me, he told me that I had dilemma. When I told my sister that I was suicidal and needed her to stop abusing me, she didn't believe me. When I told my mom that I was suicidal, she sounded bored. I almost succeeded twice. I've tried many times. I've come close to making attempts more times than I can remember. An alternate identity would often take charge of my body dispose of the substances that I intended to kill myself with. I didn't know that I had DID, at the time and I think it saved my life. I didn't reach out to my friends, because I thought that if the family members who reached out to, didn't care, that my friends wouldn't. It was the most destructive identity that I have that got me out of this. She was suicidal, but she didn't want to be murdered by my husband. I was in denial about the fact that he was an extreme danger to me, but she wouldn't let me ignore it. She is the one that called a domestic violence shelter, when my husband was out of town. She is the one who called the cab to take me to meet the advocate who took me to the shelter. It was a male identity that grabbed weapons for the cab ride, in case my husband came from early and caught me leaving. I transferred to a confidential domestic violence shelter, far away from him and my family to make myself safe. I finally have hope. From a distance, I could see my parents for who they were and I decided that I am worth more than that. I still don't know what is getting me through this, but I faced with the possibility of being shot by the man who I was married to, made me want to live. I went to a lot of trouble to save my life and I couldn't end it, now. I cut off contact with everyone I ever knew and moved to an area that was completely unfamiliar to me. I have 13 personalities who give me unconditional love and support that was absent from most people around me, most of life, who I am responsible for. I have to take care of them. I was told that I would always be dependent on some one other than myself to survive, when in reality, I have had to depend on myself for survival from a young and can do it better, now that I am an adult. For the first time in 43 years, I am in charge of my life and nobody is going to take that away from me. I have a diagnosis of, DID, autism, bipolar disorder and complex PTSD, and I have kept myself fed, reached all the goals that I arrived in this city with. I found housing, in a city that is in a housing crisis, without any help from the people who said that I was not competent enough to do this, without them. They were wrong. I am not defective. I am not broken. I am not helpless. I am not unlikable. My father was wrong. When I tell people about the abuse, they believe me and a lot of people are not rejecting me. Being different, doesn't make defective. I have a great therapist and better medical care than I've ever had. Recovery from years of trauma will take a long time, but I have a good life to start living.

[@watcherwlc53]

It's definitely important to talk about the abuse. Use your therapy and any support groups you can find.

[@lv9265]

Hey, how are you doing now?

[@joyaautrey2168]

@@lv9265 I've been free from my family for a few years and I feel safe to talk about the abuse with out worrying about my father finding out and getting angry with me. I haven't had the urge to harm myself since 2019. Thank you 💚

[@michelekurlan6489]

Amy's question is chilling. Excellent list of steps and truth about the collateral damage suicide causes.

[@markdrost8458]

Doctor as of now you may think that I have put my cents in here well enough. It gives me great solace to be gifted with you whom I can state these matters to, you’re professional and a wealth of insight but you have heart as well, my present nurse practitioner and therapist are formal, emotionally uncommitted, not the kind of thing I’ve come to need in my experience with various treatment pros and I feel so much more safe with you here now, make me feel more safe whereas they make me feel afraid

[@krisquigley4497]

Mark Drost: I know exactly what you mean. Several years ago I was a bit depressed and mentioned it to my doctor. She then asked if I had a suicide plan to which I replied "Doesn't everyone?" Before I knew it I was in the emergency room seeing an idiot who I can't believe was a licensed therapist. I know my doctor thought she was doing the right thing but I remember thinking I'll keep my thoughts to myself from now on. I had to sit there in a johnny for nearly two hours; the only thing that trip did was make everything worse. Good luck to you and thanks for listening.

[@markdrost8458]

Don't keep your thoughts to yourself--practice Extreme Prejudice when dividing the treatment people between the empaths & the deadbrains--no one will take a stand for your requirements if you don't choose to fight, this is essential even if you've sunk to the lowest rungs of neurodiverse life

[@lorenawieshamm46]

All I wanna say is THANK YOU. You speak clearly, without judgement and filled with compassion. Thank you for helping us open up meaningful conversations around Mental Health.

[@No.1BlennyLover]

This was really helpful! Thank you for your time and effort Tracey :)

[@DrTraceyMarks]

You’re welcome. I’m so glad it was helpful 😊

[@allengreg5447]

"Life's journey is fraught with shadows and trials. Each step you take shapes the darkness within."

[@painful5429]

If you say certain things to your physician. like your plans for suicide, they can legally have you committed without your permission. So unless you are ready to be committed be very careful what you say.

[@stevemellenthin5994]

Am 77, a vet diagnosed with PTSD, several potentially life threatening conditions, and major mobility problems due to arthritis and injuries. I am in the VA system but it is falling apart because of funding shortages and COVID. Wife is perpetually yelling and screaming at me and has made implied threats to do harm to me because of mostly imagined infidelity. Son is obsessed with guns and shooting and seems to be mad at me at times - he is forty, living at home, and refuses to leave. Whether either will actually harm me is unclear. I am just worn out fighting my medical conditions and trying to keep my head above water. There isn't much joy in my life. So I have to wonder if it is all worth it.

[@Alex11V]

It is difficult man

[@ichangednametoamorecringyo1489]

I had thoughts of dying before and even almost tried one day but stopped myself. One thing that stops me is a story and characters I built in my head. My character's stories and entire beings will die if I die and they will be forgotten. recently though I have been trying to write and draw as much as I can of them because I keep itching to end it all. My mom doesn't believe in mental health and says god will take away sadness but I don't believe in god. She also constantly causes me to shut down and feel like I won't add anything to this world. I want to talk to my friends but she constantly wants to read my conversations and know what we talk about to the point I can't be overly comfortable with them. I don't trust my brother and doesn't understand me, I at least have my dad but sometimes he sides with my mom. Sorry for ranting I just want to write this out somewhere : |

[@williamastin9241]

I am 93 years old. I am in good health. I take no meds and I have no financial problems. I jusst feel that I have no reason to live. I have had a sucessful life. Great 63 marriage to a wonderfful mate. Four daughters all sucessful. I just do not feel a purpose to go on. I have already witnessed the death of a grand dauarhter , my number one daughter. Three younger brothers, my parents of course and all but one class mate and friend from my youth. I spent 20 years in the Military and held very responsible jobs after retiring from the Military. I feel as though it is all over. Old desires and likes are gone. I spend day after day doing nothing, oh I read some and do computer some and take a drive to just get out, but, I feel like this world is not my home any more.

[@YorkistRaven]

❤😢❤

[@senitadiaba6691]

Fantasy Escape Plan How doesn't anyone know when you're hurting that bad?

[@aconcretemoth9382]

Senita Diaba most people either willfully or subconsciously ignore warning signs, and people with long-term illness can accidentally push people away or hide the problem as a way of self-harm. primarily, mental health problems can be mistaken for just not being a pleasant person, and even family members can refuse to engage with mental health problems out of fear of doing something wrong, inadvertently ostracizing someone who needs them most. There are other reasons

[@krish.5823]

They don't care even when knowing.

[@TheRealCcE]

What if the person remained secretive and their own kids didn’t even know?

[@JaySantanaofficial]

@@TheRealCcE if u told em they'll tell u to do it in a arguement

[@harrynac6017]

I really don't understand people getting children. I'm under the impression a lot of people don't want to live. My mom has suicidal thoughts and expresses them to me. I support her, but also am angry. She gave me life, not the other way around. I always said that as long as my mom lives suicide is out of the question. I'm tired.

[@w.urlitzer1869]

I just don't want the pain every day.

[@ghostofthefallenvalkyrie3320]

What is it considered when you have passive suicidal thoughts but you know you won't kill yourself any time soon, but you already have a plan if it gets so bad you can't escape any other way? I know exactly how I'll want it to go, when exactly and what I'll do before. But at the moment I can still drag myself through it all.

[@marleeshore1387]

Same

[@angellee9307]

Not having to really know is best YALL💕

[@angellee9307]

To be the angriest person toward your own self is grievous. Don’t play around if you that hurt within your own heart. GET TO THERAPIST PLEASE. 💕💕

[@trexpaddock]

What if there is nothing, or no one, currently in your life that is important enough for you to stay alive? What if there is no help available in the place where you live? What if you have no support, no family, no close friends? What if you are unable to make phone calls? What if depression, and active suicidal thinking is all you have ever known? P.S. I do deeply appreciate your videos, they are generally wonderful (this one kind of kicked me in the teeth, however) and your thumbnails are always absolutely perfect. (The last time I tried to call the 'suicide hotline', back when I was still able to make phone calls at all, they yelled at me, and hung up on me. So . . . yeah.)

[@Contessa998]

trexpaddock The suicide hotline is a joke. I have called several times. All they do is try to comfort you for a minute and then they will want to get off the phone

[@trexpaddock]

@@Contessa998 Seems like the one in your area is much the same as the one here. Sad to hear.

[@BeingBetter]

I have had excellent experiences with a suicide message line on the internet. Very caring, had plenty of time, and free.

[@trexpaddock]

@@BeingBetter Links?

[@BeingBetter]

suicidepreventionlifeline.org/chat/

[@brightpage1020]

For the audience who might need a safety plan: Please consider staying with us. You might be more cared for or valued than you realize. You might be able to develop solutions that could be helpful from here if you reach out and get qualified assistance. What's more - the experience you are gaining now through your struggles and lessons you might learn through then could one day help inspire others to cope until help arrives or new ideas for viable solutions present themselves. I hope for you to find somebody or something to stay for until you value you as much again. I hope your voice helps inform and empower future sufferers. I hope you feel there is hope for you. You a remote valuable than you realize. I'm so glad you are here.

[@vickythecat1741]

Can you do a video on multiple PTSD diagnosises? Meaning suffering from it for different reasons; such as natural disasters and/or physical abuse/emotional abuse, bullying, war/conflict, illnesses, accidents etc. Thank you for the video. These plans, crisis plans as they are also often called, are VERY helpful indeed.

[@DrTraceyMarks]

thank you Vicki. I did a video on CPTSD which can result from multiple traumas usually beginning in childhood. Not sure if this is what you mean but if you haven’t watched it take a look and see if that addresses some of your questions. kzbin.info/www/bejne/bXrWaIhshrxro8U

[@kendraarnold5940]

When I was 16 yrs old, I was admitted for a week or two to a facility. As a foster child was in therapy & said I felt like life would be better without me in it. Said it to my psychiatrist. Did not leave that appointment. Locked the doors. I wasn't acting on it just how I've always felt. Still do. I'm 33.

[@sammylhpate9382]

Hang in there boo.

[@Jennifer_150]

I think the key is differentiating between those who are truly lucid and have long thought through the pros and cons of suicide, versus those who are capable of recovering from their suffering. If there’s hope of recovery, intervention is paramount, if not, we should be empathetic, understanding and forgiving of those who have given their all, but just can’t stand the torture of their existence anymore.

[@ghoulie1313666]

Thank you! I just needed to hear something/anything..

[@DrTraceyMarks]

You’re welcome. I’m glad you were able to watch this.

[@NickRyanBayon]

This made me feel worse, don't get me wrong the video is great but i realized as it said forming a plan that i have no one, no family or friends and that i don,'t have a reason at all to live i feel empty; no reason to live but because the few others want me to live. It's exhausting, it's s3lfish for others to expect you to live just for them while you suffer daily.

[@eileendoherty2836]

Flux it agree 😪😪

[@alextsignadze1138]

thank you so much for this, it really helps me a lot right now

[@AlexBradleyPopovich]

This entire video sounds like it was written by someone who has never been seriously ill. The point of suicide is to not be alive anymore. Someone who is truly suicidal is not seeking help- if they are actually seeking help then they don't actually want to do it. There are some exceptions, of course, but telling people who are suicidal to go to the ER or to create a safety plan is the dumbest thing I have heard on the matter. Those don't address the underlying problems that make someone not want to be alive and just reduce the likelihood that someone will escape their problems.

[@doc-jim]

What Dr. Tracey Marks is doing with this video is simply educating about what are different types of being suicidal and giving instructions to help people like us not to make a decision that is not going to be irreversible. She's fully aware this isn't a solution, the solution for people like me it is DEEPLY rooted, there's no answer for most people, there's a lot of consideration and work to recognise the issue of each individual alone..

[@doc-jim]

I don't speak for all people who are suicidal, let's make that clear, anyone reading this is welcome to take with a grain of salt my 2 cents. To completely neglect millions of valid reasons to stay alive was not a choice, people who are suicidal are in such a scarred and traumatised mental condition that it hurts to the point where all they are looking is for a way to stop the pain, whether that be taking their own life or healing. They want the pain to stop and it is not out of a genuine wish, what is happening is that they are BEGGING, DESPERATE to find anything to make their torture to end. It is not dumb, there's no sense of logic in the actions of somebody who is mentally ill, it's an illness, it just HAPPENS to them.

[@vapidculture]

Thank you for making this on my bday. I have an existential crisis each yr on this day. I know it's coming and try to prepare but I still struggle. I have used many of those methods mentioned in video in the past, it helps.

[@DrTraceyMarks]

Oh that’s great to know that it’s helpful. Happy birthday. I hope you had a great day. 🎂

[@GuillermoMartinez-zf2lj]

i have those thoughts and i just get scared because i dont want to do that but im scared ill act on my thoughts

[@ghoste_girll]

Currently in the same situation.. like i have moments where i swear i want to end it but im too much of a coward to even do it and it makes it all worse. Being alone and not having many friends in college makes this loneliness more painful

[@brightpage1020]

Thank you. This is a high risk time of year for ideators and suicidal thinkers. I appreciate you sharing this valuable content about making a safety plan. May I share this video on suicide prevention social media pages I volunteer on?

[@ray8326]

I get passive suicidal thoughts sometimes. It's something that comes and goes. However I started lexapro 2 weeks ago, and for the first time in my life, I started getting more active suicide thoughts that were super persistent and intrusive at the start of my second week. It really has started to scare me. I am also having a lot of other adverse effects from lexapro like eye pain/eye pressure, insomnia, and genital overactiveness, followed by genital numbness after a few days (all only on 5mg, half my intended dose), and so I called my pharmacist and with their permission, I stopped taking it yesterday. I see my doctor tomorrow. Having active suicidal thoughts were so different to me than the usual passive thoughts. It has been so scary and persistent. I started thinking about a plan of how to do it and when I could. I felt out of control of myself. I debated going to the ER. I know logically that not all medications are the same and that some will work different for some people, and that I should try something else, but my quality of life really nose dived even worse and very fast. I'm really scared of taking anti-depressants again, and I definitely do not want to take lexapro ever again.

[@Eflodur]

How did u went on with medication?

[@jamesmiller7159]

I think most of these people have no idea. They brought me back twice. 45 years life still sucks and it has no point or meaning. They will tell you it does but we are just a super tiny blip in time. It does not get better. And getting locked up , magic pills and a mountain of bills. You on your own again. Honest with your doctor or therapist and your back in starting all over.

[@gledwood9108]

Is there a name for the type of automatic suicidal thinking that persists after the depressive episode ends so you're still habitually thinking "I want to kill myself" even though the low mood is gone? It's like a learned coping mechanism that you continue to hold on to even after your mental health improves. It mostly seems to afflict people with recurrent depression or bipolar disorder. I was wondering if you could tell us any more about this...?

[@iampoisonpoisonivy]

I think those are intrusive thoughts

[@hendrickjohnson1929]

i deal with this often as well. i have yet to find a good solution for me personally but stay strong my friend, we'll get through this

[@jonneiss7562]

probably amygdala related. That is what causes PTSD. Locks the mind into a certain kind of thinking. I am pretty sure a therapist can help with that kind of issue. Very sorry about the difficulties. Take care.

[@Paleiko0630]

I have been dealing with that as well lately. It's like a nuke hitting you, blasting you into a two hour suicidal thinking trip and then it's just gone and I'm pretty much normal again. It's terrifying. I've thought of it as a pattern of thinking that I've learned during my long past major depression that sometimes reemerges. But it's also kind of reactive or like overreacting. I hope I'll find a therapist soon.

[@enigmag9538]

I've recently started watching psych related videos in an effort to gain a better understanding of myself. I'm glad i found your site b/c so far you give the most to the point explanations of what my issues seem to be, so, thank you.

[@CherieDeDieu]

I have depression and the only reason I am still alive is because of my faith in God and imagining the pain my death would cause my family. I have now learnt that these are passive suicidal thoughts because I have never acted on them even though I have literally made plans on how to do it.