DZ-1841 - Fill your backpack with precious stones

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Dear Rabbi, I see no light in my life. The amount of sufferings are so great that I cant bare anymore. I feel sinful, unwanted, hopless, n helpless as a traditional jew n I wonder why is this necessary when it leads me hating the inherited culture that my ancestors protected for so long. A culture that I had so much faith into now seems to me the fastest path to death, and pure darkness. Where is my precious stone?