Early Signs That We Were Gay | Sam Cushing

[@weecho4133]

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOW! This is relatable AF. It's pretty cool you're doing this, and I totally get what you said: All those experiences we're sort of bizarre because you feel so alienated, and it's great seeing that we've pretty much gone through the same. Great video, loved it!

[@samcushing]

Ahhh this makes me so happy! Yea it was seriously so cool for me to see all of these people from around the world doing legit the same things. Glad you enjoyed it, Luis :)

[@weecho4133]

Sam Cushing : It’s great, seeing that even tho we are all over the place, and all those situations felt isolating and had us at the edge; we’re all sort of connected through this experiences and that is all just, beautiful. Means we’re not alone, and the more we bring light to this, the less isolating this experiences will be for generations to come, and I just love that❤️ P.s. Hope you’re doing great, Sam! 😗

[@josesuarez5086]

@@samcushing Same question;under Jose's comment.

[@samcushing]

Friends - What'd you guys think of this week's video? Relatable? 🙃

[@Bonbon-C]

Very =)

[@Liam-wx4ww]

Fully

[@mataimijajo725]

Totally.....

[@guiacorreo1246]

Great!

[@umbrella0110]

Definitely. Especially the underwear aisle!

[@michaelbloesche4050]

Sam, I'm a psychologist and found your video excellent in terms of breaking some of the bonds LGBTQ people experience when thinking about their childhood behavior. You clearly showed all of us that we were not alone when we did many of the things we did as kids. If only we knew this when we were kids! But today's kids, by watching videos like this, will not feel like the Lone Ranger anymore. This means so much to all of us. Shout out to you and your friend for doing this excellent video.

[@samcushing]

Michael Bloesche Im so happy you saw value in this video! That was the intent. Do you have a lot of patients who struggle with these memories?

[@georgeswes4541]

Sam, trust me, you 10 time more attractive than Zac E.

[@samcushing]

Georges Wes pshhh I WISH! He’s still my guy :)

[@Rechard1107]

Beg 2 differ

[@georgeswes4541]

Sam a better version of him is still out there looking for someone exactly like you. Like attracts like so just believe it.

[@georgeswes4541]

Sam is definitely ok the worlds version of Zac E. Fire 🔥

[@NJB1920]

Agree

[@pokerface7744]

I could NEVER be friends with Sam without actually developing feelings for him! I mean, smart, funny, grounded and hot AF, like how can someone resist that! Jonah is some type of god to have managed that (and I'm glad because their friendship is goals)!

[@mikesawyer1336]

What your looking for at 6:13 -- That's how I know I'm gay... you melted me. Sam I really like your style. Your relatable interesting and offer solid advice to the community. You're a great role model. Keep it coming!

[@lancedalton9665]

I love Sam's deep voice! I listen to him read the phone book and love every second of it. 😍

[@ernichmatthysen4110]

18 years of my life, in an 11 minute video 🙌🏻 Emotional/Empowered by this! Nostalgic 😂🍃

[@vulcan2882]

I knew I was gay when I was 4 years old, my parents guessed it when I was around 9 years old. Granted at 4 I didn't know what being was, all I knew was that I like the boy next door. At age 10 I knew and understood what being gay was. Now at 28 soon to be 29 I know everything about it and my whole entire family is 100% supportive.

[@edgarcma]

this is really relatable. I used to do and try some of these things you've mentioned. I think this is like a process that every young gay child passes through.

[@TheDavinator1977]

It’s funny how scared and isolated we were kids when most other kids weren’t scared of anything. Now I don’t care who knows or what they think. Sometimes we need to be reminded of how far we have come. Great video guys!

[@1worldboi]

This video should be required viewing for all parents of little boys. Our experiences are universal, but we’re raised in isolation from each other. Parents and teachers, your kids need your support.

[@umbrella0110]

I knew I was gay when I watched Batman Forever and could not stop staring at Chris O'Donnell's Robin. I mean come on! Robin is so hot! Also, I couldn't stop looking at Chris Evans as the Human Torch in those trashy Fantastic Four movies. Chris Evans is still my man crush! #Cap

[@bradleydavenport7412]

Chris Evans is still totally HOT. Chris O'Donnell is still good looking too!!!

[@umbrella0110]

@@bradleydavenport7412 Agree 💯! 👍🏽

[@mattnelson9010]

S A M E

[@eduardomerino8098]

Omg yassssss Chris O Donnell and Chris Evans were two of my many childhood gay crushes. I also crushed over Leonardo DiCaprio in Titanic and Christian Bale in The Dark Knight movies.

[@kennethkauzlaric8948]

This took me back to my childhood. I grew up pre-internet and I remember, when I was young, sneaking the JCPenney catalog into my bedroom at night and looking through the men's underwear pages.

[@axzyl]

aww i love you guys's friendship and how you're so comfortable with each other that you can hug, and touch each other without it being weird i wish i had that lol

[@andrewjackson5805]

Used my mom's eye shadow and nail polish. Took sisters Barbie and cut up my mom's sheets to make wedding dresses for her. Chubby, so tried on moms maternity dresses. This was all in the 60's and I did feel alone most of my life and used books to escape reality. I'm 64 and just came out in January of 2019.

[@Roxasora123]

Goddamn i hope you are alright sir, i wish you would never feel lonely again even if you are alone. Sometimes living alone is better than be with anyone especially if they can't accept us.

[@leonstevens1382]

If I were Zac Efron, I'd have a crush on Sam Cushing. Sam is hot enough to melt titanium!

[@renamartin6914]

Sam is hot enough to melt titanium,Leon Stevens.I would have to agree with you.

[@truerthanyouknow5978]

The men's underwear section in department stores were sacred spaces to me as a teen in Chicago. I felt like I could hear music there.

[@bryjoe8025]

The unresistable urge to cross my legs. Why is straight the default?!?

[@harrystyl9167]

Your number

[@Iceblade2230]

Seeing guys like Freddie Prince Jr when I was younger made me aware I was gay, seeing Sam now just reinforces it

[@garygreely7782]

You're right in the similarities that people have when they are young and they think that no one else does this and you don't want anyone to find out. A lot of the time people don't even know what it may mean, and for some of it, just a phase and they are straight. Great video and guest.

[@TheFitnessMarshall]

YES TO BREATHE ON ME

[@samcushing]

THE BEST!

[@dandanb03]

Probably my most played Britney song!

[@johnindy7164]

Very relatable and many of the same experiences. I have a pic of me around 9 yrs old holding a Barbie and my cousin's husband sitting next to me with a look of 'what the heck is this?'. I looked happy and then later in life started hiding feelings, etc. Sad what society does to us. Much better now! Thanks for a great channel. Enjoy you, this video and Jonah.

[@OLDS98]

This was informative hearing about the impact in people's lives and coming to terms with being gay and learning to express that openly. In the end.... we are not alone.

[@romand.8514]

I just wanna say.. 1st: this video is so entertaining. 2nd: I relate. 3rd: I loved the new intro, so original. 4th: tu hoodie está re copado. 5th: have a nice day.

[@immorley]

I can relate to almost all of these... and not gonna complain about a shirtless Sam moment:)

[@DADDYART1]

When I watch videos like this with you young guys today; I am a little jealous. I was in my twenties in the 80s when you had to hide the fact that you were gay from most people. AIDS was killing a lot of us and the straights were being told the it was God's wrath on the gays. Also, we had no internet. No gay KZbin videos. You young guys today don't realize how lucky you are! I am very happy for all of you!!

[@leonelfranciscofuxi4335]

"Using sister's tampons" what in the world xDDDD

[@MG19-r4l]

Leonel Francisco Fuxi where did he put them because like as a girl I’m confused

[@sarahcheesman3225]

Sick

[@princecharmingthemerman]

Leonel Francisco Fuxi ☠️🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

[@mattnelson9010]

I’m just gonna assume they were joking

[@richardbrandeis4879]

I could have a field day with that question Sam, but the funniest ( I was a late bloomer...lol ) had to be making out with a friend in high school. We were getting ready for the annual spring concert and this guy I had a crush on asked me if I wanted to see how the lighting system for the stage worked. I said sure. We walked behind these big curtains and he planted one on me and at that moment one of the visual arts teachers came around the corner and saw us in a full-on embrace. After feeling like deers caught in a car's headlights, she simply smiled and said, carry on boys and promptly walked in another direction....:)

[@beachesboy3168]

Great story, with a happy ending.

[@stfnvc]

can’t wait for when he’s super famous and i can be like “i was there since day one y’all are not ogs”

[@chrisxiao2824]

Big shoutout from Taiwan!! Zac Efron definitely is everyone’s teenage crush🤣🤣🤣

[@BrycePierce]

Jona is giving me life. He is so funny. 😂😍

[@samcushing]

He gives me life everyday!!

[@christydolan6449]

Jona is funny, kind & smart! He’s the real deal 😃

[@Entropy285]

Sam, great video. For me, AOL instant messaging service AIM was my secret way to connect with others like me. I recall how my friends would pass around Victoria 's Secret magazines, but I would thumb through looking for the men's underwear section. I was a huge Abercrombie and Fitch fan, and yes, the underwear section left me fixated on the mannequin's crotch and the underwear models. When I started viewing girls as if they were my sister. My argument was that I respected them too much not to be a gentleman, but I never saw them in that light. When I enjoyed watching 'Designing Women' with my mom and the 'Golden Girls' with my grandmother. When during the holidays, I enjoyed staying in the kitchen, helping out, and cleaning up over watching football. Thanks for creating a positive place for people to share and feel validated. Keep up the good work Sam 👍🏼👍🏼

[@christydolan6449]

sCt T I love your story! 😘

[@pamplehouse]

I just watched your video and, OMG it feels good to not feel like a complete freak when I was discovering how different I was as a kid. Thanks for that 🧡

[@dereklittrel3216]

All of your videos are wonderful and are extremely helpful and make me feel more comfortable and confident in coming out and being myself.

[@christydolan6449]

Derek Littrel awesome! Remember, God doesn’t make a mistake!

[@shanelee2949]

6:11 The moment I wish I was that hand.

[@sarahcheesman3225]

Nasty this is not a sex channel

[@miguelhernandez6994]

I was featured! Love that. Thanks Sam! Love your videos

[@XtinaP123]

I think this video is great! Shows how many lgbt have similar experiences when they were younger and thought they were the only gay kid ever. Good job Sam! 👏🏻👏🏻

[@alexisdellaportas4107]

I don’t know why, but even I found this video (& other videos) relatable as a Bisexual lady... definitely could relate to the whole watching movies with parents & hoping I didn’t give myself away by reacting to the actors on screen ...especially true for watching Titanic(Jack& Rose) & High School Musical(Zac Efron & Vanessa H) ..😂!

[@anthonygabrish]

Hahaha so many relatable moments for sure! Love the videos Sam, keep them up for sure! Made my day! 😁

[@coachnut1]

Sam, you are amazing ! Great that you are so open and honest without being sensational-ist . By the way I melt listening to your voice and accent .. Best wishes from an old gay here in The United Kingdom xxxx

[@ifyoucanttakeitback615]

6:12 You're welcome ! 👀

[@harrystyl9167]

Hi number

[@EM-eb1lf]

Awe, big hugs to both of you for the message at the end. And sorry for all the comments, sorta was just spewing it out as I listened.

[@andrewkeaveney183]

What a beautiful ending! So positive & inspiring :) Thanks

[@tristanbohlmann]

Also when Jonah (sorry if I spelled it wrong!) said "it's so thick and tight" and Sam just looks at him and laughs! XDXD

[@samcushing]

Ufffff i couldn’t help it. Wouldn’t you have done the same?

[@tristanbohlmann]

Sam Cushing I would have done the EXACT same thing! 😂 It was awesome 😉

[@splendrouspropscosplay4249]

I am from Taiwan as well, just living in Canada, but I am currently in Taiwan when I watched this video actually . I am back for the holidays. The whole LGBT topics weren’t even talked about til recent years when Taiwan had the first pride parade. Even in the entertainment industry, which is still not totally transparent. Many Taiwanese celebrities still did directly said they’re gay/come out officially, but many people know they are, particularly by their actions and the way they speak.

[@zaxsp1118]

Honestly it’s been refreshing to see this video. I can relate to too much of this video it’s nice to hear I wasn’t the only one.

[@Freemanjacobt]

this video is so cute and made me feel so much better about literally all those things i did and thought nobody else did haha

[@user-hs7wk7bn3g]

I was extremely socially awkward and didn’t have any friends really because of it, I remember thinking that I had no friends because I was gay and it made me feel really sad and uncomfortable. I’m still dealing with it now to be honest but it’s not as bad as it was before, I remember whenever I would have a conversation that clicked and flowed well I would think about it for the entire day and when I would mess up and say something dumb or stutter or if the conversation was awkward I would always think in my head what I could have said instead.

[@alvarochung4300]

Im sorry you felt that way, it sucks. I can relate to the social anxiety and being gay. Fortunately, i found some good friends whom even in silence there were no akwardness. Hope you find some good friends too. You are not alone in the struggle :)

[@billreed1606]

I like the all inclusive theme. I was fortunate enough to grow-up near a gay resort town, so I had place to explore. My single mom raised us to speak everything that was on my mind. She remarried when I was sixteen. I still see her new husband's jaw drop when at dinner I mentioned that I slept with my best friend, male. My mom's response was good (you're experimenting!). Her husband's response was silence. The experiment continues!

[@7652917]

OMG, this was so relatable. LOL. Luv u Sam. Great job. Keep the videos coming.

[@brandonmay6927]

Totally relatable. Everything sounded so familiar except for the clothes and make-up. But I was a fashionista wearing my Ralph Lauren and Lacoste. Habe a nice week everybody and live the life YOU choose.

[@michaelthurman1572]

An Observation: The content itself was fun and engaging, but I was distracted by so many cuts. It felt like you couldn't get through a sentence without cutting it multiple times. The time it takes to formulate a response can be just as relatable as the content/message itself.

[@michaeljohndennis2231]

3:27 older straight women also wanted to have gay men as friends, even in Royal Circles - both the late Queen Elizabeth II and Princess Diana became close friends with all their gay male royal servants and also had several other gay men as their closest friends

[@fffan11]

Most of these are very relatable, but I'm confused about that tampon one...

[@ridge9246]

lmao thought i was the only one in the comments 🤔🧐

[@Santi-zr5qd]

fffan11 we all are

[@BM-fb3jm]

fffan11 nosebleeds? Haha

[@samiam5189]

Love this video! First being raised by my grandmother and aunts. I remember watching them all get ready putting on makeup. When they left to work I was getting ready for school and put on makeup. My first grade teacher pulled me aside asked what was on my face. Blue eye shadow and lipstick natural color. Then I felt like hiding everything I did till my first time. Thank you for sharing! I didn't come out to my family till I was 33yrs old. My friends helped lift me up and supported me.

[@adamrayy7086]

Love your intro! It’s simple. Oh and my first gay experience was being in the room with my cousin playing barbie dolls til my came in the room and threw the barbies acting like I wasn’t playing with them 😂😂

[@francisfullon6715]

Hey.i can really relate to this and still i am struggling because i am afraid if what the people will trestor look at me.i am still closeted and i hope i can talk to someone whom i can trust with.thank you for this video Sam.i really appreciated it and relate with it.

[@craigwatkins5946]

I’m a bit older than you Sam, but I honestly think having crushes on tv actors/characters was a big one. I do however remember as a kid and not knowing completely what “gay” was and getting bullied for being gay in grade school as early as 4th grade. So it was a huge struggle growing up. The bullying didn’t stop until I graduated. I finally came out when I was 28. Then I kind of found relief, however in certain circles I still don’t mention that I’m gay.

[@JamJam-py2bg]

One thing that made me realize the most was watching The Charles’s Angels.

[@anjealousanaconda9692]

I know

[@thomaswilke6312]

I am 17 years old and I love Shawn Mendes

[@sentoashnaidu3197]

Thomas Wilke meeeee tooooo I thought I was all alone

[@PureAloha78]

Thomas Wilke Shawn mendes is bae goals! He’s so handsome .

[@jacobneighbors6351]

I am 16 years old and I also love Shawn Mendes, period. lol

[@sentoashnaidu3197]

Damn Shawn is like damn goalsssss

[@jsonyap92]

I am 27 and i still love Shawn Mendes lol

[@EJW2003]

My dad would always send me to his room for time outs instead of mine (many toys in mine as well as sharing it with my siblings) and I always remember spending minutes just staring at the topless hunk on one of my dad’s fitness magazines. Jokes on him lol 😂

[@BryanSlettenrealtor]

Definitely relatable. I wore high heels and dresses as a young child. Now I know, I was definitely not the only one.

[@jonasalden29201]

My gay "play" never involved gender-related things like towels, Barbies, etc. I just remember looking at boys differently.

[@stephenmessano1847]

Question from an old gay (52) to the younger generations: Is a love of musical theatre still considered “gay”? Centuries ago, when I was a teenager, that was a dead giveaway. 🎶🎭 (Didn’t stop me from loving it!)

[@aymanel-jammal2588]

Great video. Very relatable. I also used to go to the men’s underwear section at the store to stare at models on the packages 🙈😊 Best Regards from Stockholm, Sweden 🇸🇪❤️

[@michaeljohndennis2231]

2:39 as an older Irish gay man now, at age 53, I still sleep with my beloved Paddington Bear (he’s so handsome) and my 40 other teddy bears in my queen sized bed, including Dafyd (my little Welsh friend), Edward, James, Polie & Pandy Bear - I’ve always had teddy bears since childhood and I can’t sleep without my teddy bear to cuddle with ❤❤❤❤

[@zeskiyo]

"So thick and so tight!" * both laugh * That's basically how BFFs work. 😂️

[@keeganhenry218]

HAH! I remember watching high school musical alone and pausing it when zac effron’s nipple showed in the scene where his dad was giving him a pep talk in the locker room 💚💚💚 be still my beating heart!

[@adamherrera8958]

Love that you chose to use your piano talent in your Intro!! I knew that would be a nice way to do it and make it special!! Nicely done 😊

[@samcushing]

Adam Herrera ahhhh thank YOUUU! That means a lot! I’ll try to post more v soon

[@adamherrera8958]

Totally look forward to it. I really enjoy your positive attitude and outlook, and must confess have a bit of a crush on ya too! 🥰

[@pantsuck11]

Thanks for including men of color in your videos! keep doing that and you'll go farther than many of the other LGBT youtubers here.

[@pokare]

Way to make everything wokey cokey. I’m sure Sam included his friend in his vid purely because of the colour of his friend’s skin 🙄

[@EmrysImmortal]

When I was four, my bored (and somewhat evil) sisters made me put on one of their old dresses to see if they could con the neighborhood kids into thinking I was the youngest girl. It didn't work, and I couldn't wait to get out of that forking thing.

[@L-mo]

I loved this chat and your friendship chemistry ❤️🌈

[@JakeSmith-dw5pg]

Such a great video Sam! Definitely got me reflecting & related to a good portion of it! Zac Efron in HSM - definitely! I remember stumbling across the TV series Queer as Folk and was so taken by it - I remember hiding in my bedroom and having the volume as low as I could to watch it. You producing some great videos mate. Thanks!

[@Lycecall]

Is embaracing if i say sam is one of mi firts gay experience? When i saw him play the piano in a video on another perfil on instragram because i did don't know who is he in that moment . I just fall in love. I can't jaja, and i told myself "this guy is more atractive than all my exgirlfriends" and my mind just blown. 🤣🤣🤣 i still in love sam. great vídeo. Yr better and better.

[@IRGhost0]

wait... i picked princess peach in super mario bros 2 but only because she was the absolute best character in every way. luigi had the best jumps but it was hard to control him. and mario and toad were crappy jumpers. princess peach had a good jump and a good float.

[@stilljt2864]

I’m super repressed by my family, but I can still relate to all of these.

[@a27064335]

omg. That's so excited! I never imagined that I will see a Taiwanese in your clip! That's awesome!

[@williamwillard3368]

was able to relate very much! Especially the self tanning cream I was so orange looking back at pictures of that time in my life it was so obvious. It was almost like me telling everyone I was gay by being the only orange person in the photos! I wanted them to know, but I could never bring myself to say the actual words.

[@sloopydroop]

It's not even fair how good looking you are. Like I know looks aren't everything. But god in heaven how is this even possible?

[@andrewblunt1243]

I'm losing it I'm losing it...absolutely losing it

[@zxxz43]

Thanks I'm a great deal older and had a real scary time in my youth, I still live straight, I don't think I could be as courageous as you. Will keep watching thanks.

[@pmn2821]

Grant you're not alone.

[@DavidKempster-pt1qq]

I relate so much of these!! Love you all guys xx

[@JimFeig]

Never played with makeup or pretend to have long hair. I did steal my fathers tools. But the underwear thing is relatable.

[@leomaragamao5550]

I like the way you smile and laugh !! Another fav. KZbinr

[@Drew_co66]

Your videos are so satisfying, i can’t look awayyy

[@mikeschulte4271]

I knew I was gay when I was in middle school and was looking at guys in the locker room and thought shirtless guys in their underwear were cute. I also hate when people in my family ask oh do u like any girls in school and I told my parents I was gay they were cool with it. My other relatives don’t know yet it’s always awkward. Can’t wait to come out to them. Good luck to anyone getting ready to come out

[@relentless41]

The love of kelly Clarkson's music and britney spears music I can relate to. Heck I even had both britney spears greatest hits cd and Cher's greatest hits CD

[@ericfigueroa5887]

I love your gay experience videos! You’re my new role model! Thanks for being your amazing self. Keep up the great work! 😍 can’t wait to see more!

[@efrainvelazquez943]

When nuns wore their full habit, Guess who would use his tighty-whities to cover his face and a black shirt as a veil? Me, of course! I loved dressing as a nun....As a habit, I would use a bath robe. I miss those days......way back in the 60s

[@mosichat]

Very cool, funny… and appropriate. So many relatable things.

[@jeffwatkins352]

Odd yet unsurprising. Decades older, my experience is/was so totally different from yours. I knew I loved men sexually when I was six years old. Son of a WWII war hero/rodeo cowboy turned cattle rancher, I was raised in rural Western America. A fight broke out on my kindergarten playground. The press of kids shoved me against a schoolyard wall. My crush pressed against me. His suede jacket’s perfume was overwhelming. His neck hairs glittered inches from my lips. What else can I say?

[@andreschezpik]

Sam, I had to stop the video (9:19) to write down this comment: I love your "dedo meñique" pointing up when you're drinking your cup of tea, lol.

[@davidcee8619]

Loved the pinkie extension when drinking tea. You've been to finishing school.

[@michaeljohndennis2231]

Hi Sam, I grew up in a little Irish village in Rural Republic of Ireland and I remember the local village hunk, who went around the village on his racing bike shirtless in summer - YUM YUM 😂 ❤❤❤❤❤

[@delizcas76]

Sam I like a lot the part where you both talk about isolated issues, and that we are not alone. Wow! 🔝💯 Wishing both the best. Extremely cool video! If possible, do a video playing the piano. Its sounds amazing you playing it.

[@NJB1920]

Love you guys. You're so hilarious 😂😂. I can really relate to some of storys. Especially yours Sam with dolls.

[@ridge9246]

omg i fell asleep waiting for your vid.💀 yeah im 20 and i remember doing some of the things mentioned 😂Sam your laugh is everything 😭

[@jhampton_]

I related this most of these SO much!! This was a great video! Glad we’re not alone when it comes to stuff like this... Also, can we PLEASE talk about your body & chest hair... oh boy 😍🤤 love you Sam 💖

[@xijinping3013]

I really like the inspiring message at the end of your videos~hope you will keep them in the future videos!

[@jamirdobson]

That picking princess peach one sat down in my spirit...