Elijah Scott - STFU

[@Levirussellmusic]

Bro the beat and flow just perfect

[@unnoticediguess]

fire!!!

[@ElijahScottMusic]

Thank you bro

[@PurpleOnix53]

It’s still hard not to want to end it all. even when later it seems ridiculous that you even felt that way.Guess your right though.

[@ElijahScottMusic]

Every obstacle you face is actually for you, not against you. I feel the people who want to end it all are actually the smartest/oldest souls on the planet. I wish I had learned this when I was younger. I used to be very depressed, alone, and even contemplated suicide at 12. What I didn't know at the time though is that I was being prepared for something greater. My path I feel is helping others heal/wake up through my music and lyrics. but I wouldn't of been able to get to this place without having experienced pain myself. Does that make sense? We are all destined to do great things and we can't become the best version of ourselves without hardship, heartbreak, etc. Can't have light without dark. We all have a dark side, it's called the shadow. That shadow is in all of us so we can have free will, so it's important not to be upset or shame that side but to embrace it as well. Just know you are safe, you are loved, you are okay and the highest version of you is out there, waiting to be unlocked :) I feel like i'm rambling haha my bad.

[@PurpleOnix53]

@@ElijahScottMusic I understand. My mom’s have told me similar things and I’m overall fine but I think a lot of what I feel is cause I’m a teenager,cause of hormones and stuff like that.Sometimes I go in my room usually it’s at night when my parents are asleep. And there’s this overwhelming feeling of detachment from reality I thought it was a little kid thing but it still happens and it makes me feel empty and alone I wind up hurting myself usually choking and punching myself and having panic attacks I’ve told my parents about it and I’m getting better as I get older but even though I don’t hurt myself as often it doesn’t stop the feeling. I don’t care if you ramble. I like seeing what you have to say and I’ve known that all you experience is what builds you as a person. But it’s not what hurts me that makes me hurt. It’s what hurts my family. And a lot has. I try to help as much as I can but I always feel I’m only delaying when we crumble. And giving them false hope. My parents have little riches but they spoil me and my sister. Even when they say we have to be smart with are money they still throw it away on us.Even when she lost her job and Ida hit. And we have many pets who get sick and need care and one of my moms and my sister are disabled and need extra medical attention.Specifically my mom has a bad hip and needs a cane but my parents push themselves to hard. I feel like if we power through all the obstacles we’ll still be burned out in the end. I know it’ll all be some form of fine in the end and I think we’re finally starting to get out of the terrible things thrown at us ever since we moved but I guess I just wanted to vent. See what happens when you ramble!🤨You get it right back.

[@ElijahScottMusic]

@@PurpleOnix53 You're incredibly wise and very aware for being a teenager. You're an old soul for sure. It does sound like the light is coming through now instead of all that dark you all had to endure together. What's beautiful though is you all seem very close and that is priceless. Like no matter what, you all have each other. That alone is worth living for. I recommend working on as much self care as you can. Find out what makes you happy and start making sure you take care of that part of you, making sure you're having a little bit of fun, laughing, getting sun, going for a walk, etc. Inviting your mom for a walk or something, little things like that go a long way. And hugs. it's also awesome you're able to zoom out and have a wide perspective of the whole situation - you recognize that even when they dont have much, they give you more than they can, because that's one of their love languages. Keep being an awesome child to them, show them love, but most importantly, love yourself. Love your situation. Be grateful you're alive. Also to help put things into perspective, I read this recently. "For you to be born today from 12 previous generations, you needed 4,094 ancestors over the last 400 years. How many struggles, battles, difficulties, sadness, happiness, love stories, expressions of hope for the future, did your ancestors have to undergo for you to exist in this present moment? "

[@PurpleOnix53]

@@ElijahScottMusic Thank you Elijah. Your very nice and obviously wise. And yes I’m aware and I guess I am an old soul. I actually was born a few years before you came on KZbin, I read it wrong. Maybe I’m an old soul because I wasn’t around people my age. My teachers didn’t make me do my school work and I took advantage of it. They said that I should be put on medicine to behave. And they told me my parents were sisters, witch is a total lie. So I was pulled out of public school and was home schooled ever since second grade. I was a burden cause of my constant lies,and the fact that I would wake up in the middle of the night screaming from night terrors. I didn’t have any friends and I convinced myself that I had to be strong and shouldn’t feel emotional or cry. They always have spoiled us ever since we were little even though I was hell. One of my parents became stay at home mom and the other worked like crazy and sometimes worked hours that didn’t let her get sleep. We had to live with my grandma for a year cause things were messed with the moving situation. I wound up not lying as much, I didn’t like lying but it was a habit. I wound up getting friends in a home school group we would go to sketch day and d&d but it broke up a few years later. Right before Covid. Then lock down happened but I was fine cause I had been able to go on KZbin a few months before. Things pretty much stayed the same. I had no sports,love,or friends. But yeah I have my family and we are really close now. My mom lost her job cause a different company owns it now Ida hit and a tree hit are house wile we were in it and water started coming in me and one mom sopped as much up as possible for hours but it was no use and most of our house was messed up so we were technically homeless for awhile tho a lady paid for us to stay in a camper at a campsite then some hotels then a camper at our house the poor cats and dogs had to stay at the house though. We’d make multiple trips every day to take care of our cats and dogs. The whole process finally ended a bit before Christmas. My mom has a better job than even before they see her worth. And I know what I want to be when it’s time, a stunt actor. So I started aerial yoga and in June I’ll be 18 and be able to start fencing, to train for stunt school. The biggest things now are for me to study for a big test, and for my mom to get hip surgery. You say to love myself and I’m sure I will but I’m just happy I don’t hate myself anymore. Honestly I have little opinion on me. I’m my soul in a flesh robot, and I can be all the good things if I put effort into it. I don’t know much of my ancestors just that everyone’s racist but my immediate family, my grandpa was the drummer in a band, my great grandma is so toxic that my grandma committed suicide and that there’s addiction in are blood and that we are French Irish and some other stuff. On my sisters side though, fun fact our great great great, I think grandma was married to a guy in a mafia. heh lol tmi I know,I just like talking.