What Led Up to My Transition?

[@ellepalmer]

Some people have been asking how to get in contact with me for help or other questions, so I made a Twitter. twitter.com/ellepalmer1

[@lisamartonegomez9812]

elle palmer I don’t have Twitter

[@lisamartonegomez9812]

Thank you!!!!

[@banjomutant]

Hey Elle, I love your videos, they really speak to me and i sympathize with you, I am in a somewhat similar position and I would love to get a chance to talk to you, it would mean a lot to me. I dont use twitter, do you have an email i can send to? or some other way?

[@GordonAitchJay]

@Jerry Donohue "I ended up in your situation like a girl with too much T by late teens, which at first just gave me an intense female sex drive." I'm curious, what do you mean by female sex drive, as opposed to just a sex drive?

[@Isaura21s]

You're awesome!

[@Jon75zzz]

Seems to be extremely common for therapists to just talk about themselves instead of helping you, I had one that would spend half our session ranting about her alcoholic dad.

[@ellepalmer]

Wow... I hope you were able to find someone who actually helps you. That's similar to how my therapist would act.

[@marcye3649]

I’m so sorry that happened to you both. I do hope you find someone who is competent in their job! That hour is for you and you alone. Any stories about the therapist should be short and a way to demonstrate something to help your situation (like- I was dealing with anxiety at one time too and I had to learn to challenge my thoughts, etc, but only sparingly, in my opinion). Looking for therapists that do scientifically-based treatments that target your symptoms are a good sign it’s a good therapy as well. ❤️

[@ChristenEve]

You sharing this helps me because I had a therapist who out of nowhere in one of our sessions started telling me that her she recently caught her husband cheating, even though she knew that was a huge trigger for me because of my divorced parents and the fears I had from that. I was stunned because she had spent countless sessions with me working through childhood trauma and abuse, only for her to be unprofessional and bring her private life into my session which was the very trigger I didn't need. I was sad for a long time because I actually liked her a lot and she had helped me through so many things, but after she did that I felt fractured and had horrible anxiety about seeing her again. You guys sharing your stories makes me feel not alone

[@marydiab6215]

Well here some hope for you all. I love my therapists, helped me threw so much. I've known him for 7 years now.he is family to me. He is so good.he actually listens. And Give the the solution/support and love that I need. He is so grate and I am sososososo grateful for him and grateful that he is my first and last therapist I stumbled upon.

[@pinkelephant4591]

Yeah I have had a therapist like this too. I also had a music teacher who just talked about his devorcie the whole time. 😂

[@christianeupton1327]

Girlhood is truly something to be survived

[@user-uf7mr7vz3k]

It truly is. Males will never know our struggle.

[@Ainator_]

@oktopustrainer agree

[@vivelise16]

@@user-uf7mr7vz3k honestly.

[@mikiofpersia]

@@user-uf7mr7vz3k Can you elaborate?

[@vernonbrechin4207]

I suggest that on average the two sexes are not as equal as we might like. There is a certain amount of PC perspectives that go beyond what is real. We are shaped by nature and by nurture. Some may claim that nature has almost nothing to do with the way the two sexes behave and relate. I'm a guy who is largely passive around woman. While growing up I was often reminded that guys are not likely to get far with most woman unless the guy takes the initiative, especially in initiating sex play. I wish that wasn't so but it seems to be the preferred approach for a great many women. Apparently that has changed somewhat but I still think a lot more progress can be made.

[@maxlmn99]

oh god, i feel the part about getting affected by internet misogyny/porn so hard. i was also born in 99 and came across that stuff around the same age and it definitely messed with me way more than i was able to conceptualize of at the time. kudos to you for overcoming all of this and being willing to talk about it, i'm loving your videos so far!

[@justathumb]

Mackenzie Leigh oh man, i honestly cant imagine how kids deal with growing up with the internet 😓 (i was 15 in 99) i got my first computer at 10, and it had msDOS! 😅 i just had 8-bit pixel games like duke nukem...i only got internet around 20 and it's fucking a lot to process even as an adult..i dont think any of us really grasp it fully..

[@ktt7027]

Fuck i thought I was the only one. SAME. I know it's not their fault ( i mean, kinda) but i really wish my parents restricted my internet use as a kid

[@rekieskatt]

I was also born in 99... a girl who played videogames since 2007... i still remember every pedophile and toxic misogynistic teen boy I’ve befriended. The only good memory i have is when i meet my boyfriend in that big pool of sick people. We’re now 5 years together and he helps me a lot with what i can hardly handle in the gaming community. Now as an adult I can definitely see in myself the stains of those toxic relationships I’ve had as a teen.

[@scarlet8078]

THIS! I'm a neuropsych & there's research into how how early exposure to porn may be fueling the wave of girls temporarily identifying as LGBTQIA+ (particularly trans). In some parts of the NYC metro area it's 1 of 4 girls identifying as LGBTQIA+ which is about five times higher than predicted and much higher than boys. We think the reason is girls are alarmed and unable to relate to how women are portrayed in straight porn & they're having bad & even traumatic early sexual experiences due to boys' exposure to porn.

[@maxlmn99]

@@scarlet8078 that's really interesting (and quite sad), is any of your work public right now?

[@puffin463]

Wow! '...transitioning for me was the ultimate form of self-harm...' Very powerful statement of feeling. Thanks for sharing your personal story and all the feelings/thoughts you went through when you were on that path,

[@xLiviPoox]

Can you upload a transition photo timeline? If you're comfortable with that. Like from female to male to now.

[@delirium1326]

I second this

[@vampir3doll]

I want to see photos also! Please 😄

[@TakeItSlowMo]

Olivia I was just going to ask the same thing!

[@xLiviPoox]

@Sarah Kelly just out of curiosity. That's why I said if she is comfortable cause if not, it's no big deal.

[@whitenoise3447]

Why is this a top comment?

[@michaelfernandez1838]

I should add that my 15 1/2 year old daughter is going through and experiencing the nearly exact same circumstances as you did. Your video will help me in talking to her own issues. Thank you!!

[@murd_bird]

good luck to you and your daughter

[@vianjelos]

I was dead set that I wanted to be a boy until 14, even at 14 I wasnt in love with being a woman but more so tolerant about it. I ended up being a hetero cis woman by 16 and at 26 I have no desire to be a man...for me the biggest reason for wanting to be a boy, when I look back now, was I was afraid to grow up...I saw my body that was of a woman and my face that was of a child and I would say "thats a really nice body for a woman but it doesnt feel like mine" I think my face is still more on the younger side, deffinatly dont look like these instagram women who look like grown adults in their 30s when they are 19...but I am comfortable in my body while having some insecurities that are normal. We all have our own time lines growing up amd maturing, and that can be scary..and being a woman can be especially scary as there are so many pressures on us to look and act a certain way not to mention the perceived vulnerbility of women where we are constantly told to be careful because we can be attacked and taken advatage of...so its natrual that some people will turn to being more masculin to aviod the dangers of womanhood. Then of course there are legitimate trans people, who even tho no one talks about it, also have momments when they question what they should do. Its a hard decision and at least your child has you to be understanding...I grew up in a hispanic house hold and I was not comfortable ever bringing up the idea of gender or trans to them..luckily I didnt need to in the end but its good to have parents that are open minded but cuatious and not pushing thier kids into one hole or the other.

[@murd_bird]

@@vianjelos youre right. especially about the last part. it's important that parents don't push their kids, but should guide them instead for him/her to figure things out themselves and be sure

[@goosiechild]

for the love of God, don't let her near any "therapists." psychiatry is the problem.

[@Isaura21s]

@@goosiechild you are right! Psychologist are sometimes ok. Psychiatrists NEVER!!!

[@noahpenny517]

I appreciate you telling your story in a way that doesn't invalidate trans folks. Typically detransition forums/content take the approach of invalidating all trans people because of their personal experience. whereas you tell your story for all of its nuance and transparency and necessary complexity, and you are just honest about what you experienced, what you felt, thought, the messages you recieved and where it led things. I'm glad you've figured out where you need to be and are on the journey to living in that. It helps to have more built-out stories like this, since so many detransition narratives support the complete removal of access to gender therapy to kids (which we know, is more likely to save the life of thousands of transgender kids than take cis kids through transition.) Thank you for sharing.

[@noahpenny517]

( I am a trans guy) Almost every time transphobic people try to tear me down, detransition is often used as "proof" of my "delusion"

[@lidahall5928]

Seriously? I've seen a few videos by people who detransition and I've never clocked them as "invalidating all trans folk". I mean, I have noticed that some have an understandable level of anger about the ethos behind the idea of transition and the cookie-cutter way in which the professionals involved in their particular case treated them, but to say that they invalidate trans people would really be a step too far, I think. That said, I've hardly seen them all.

[@Matt-bt2fn]

Elle, I think this is beautiful to watch and learn. You have a very respectful manner, you're honest, and kind. As a guy in the trans community I research about detransitioning because I want to understand better and help but there isn't much besides negative news. So, this is very helpful. Keep it up! Also, thank you for sharing your story, it sounded like you had a really rough past but I am glad you're still here.

[@jordynwhiting1609]

😞 one thing I would never wish to be again is a teenage girl, I barely made it out alive. And the internet is a bad place for children. Sorry you had to go through all of this shit but happy that you made it out too ❤️

[@jordynwhiting1609]

army kim of course, I meant more referring to the internet giving pedophiles and perverts easy access to children, as well as social media sites, gaming platforms, etc. growing and evolving so quickly that parents can’t keep up and do not realize the dangers of letting their children use the internet unsupervised, even if it’s something perceived as safe. I think it’s very important for children to have supervision while using the internet in all forms. This tale of older men and women preying on children via the internet is not new.

[@yoyoland8461]

This is why it’s important to talk to your children from an early age about trauma, and how to deal with it. To talk to them about your own traumas and mistakes in dealing with and what has worked. Be open with your children about pain. Stop hiding and pretending like pain is not a very real thing. (All this at age appropriate levels of course).

[@fejkrysia7951]

well said!

[@gauloise6442]

Online I will kind of be "internet trans" because if people think you are a guy, they tend to be nicer to you or not harrass you so much. I wonder if being online from a young age, girls can see pretending to be a guy as a kind of safety mechanism and that spills over into real life. Also, it took me a while as a teen to realize that a lot of my depression came with the onset of menstruation and changes in my cycle. now I know where I am in my cycle and push myself through those days when the depression hits. Maybe visiting a gyno and going on the pill to even out mood swings would have helped more than visiting a psychologist. Its weird that when you are depressed as a teen girl, they never even seem to take into consideration it could be your cycle and instead prescribe mood/psychological drugs, when the problem is hormonal. Anyways, good luck to you, you seem to have figured a lot out, in spite of the professionals!

[@lotsofteabutnonetodrink5843]

Interesting perspective of internet trans. I think that's prevalent for many growing up online.

[@bunnyteeth365]

I'm internet trans as well, but I know for sure I'm not ftm.

[@plentyofaudacity9710]

It obvious more guys pretend to be girls. Look at any profile with a hot chick with a girl user name. They have 200 subs with no videos, no playlists. So if you want comments to get likes, pretend to be a hot female.

[@augusta.5089]

gosh, i relate to you so much! when i was 13/14 all my best friends were guys and were all really geeky so we'd spend all our time on the internet and playing on minecraft servers and that. and the whole time because i was the only girl i'd just be inundated with all this stuff like "get back in the kitchen"/"make me a sammich bitch" and the bra strap snapping etc. plus like, the pop-up ads and the anime porn and ... yeah. a traumatic middle school experience. because i'm bisexual my attitude was weirdly always to play along and be like "haha yeah" like i was 'one of the guys' and it didn't include me somehow, but now i know i internalised all of that stuff. it's funny how at the time you don't feel like it's getting to you at all because you always have a comeback and it's just 'small stuff' and now that i'm 21 and looking back i'm like 'oh SHIT -- so That's why i didn't feel like a woman. because i was a sensitive kid constantly getting bombarded with these message that women aren't conceived of as 'people' in the same way men are'

[@rekieskatt]

Gemma Ann I can feel your pain.

[@murd_bird]

i hate when people say that kitchen shit. it just isnt even funny.

[@jtaimelamer255]

I feel you. You realize that you felt that way because you were more connected to males at that time. I went through the same thing in a close family, private religious school and two older brothers. My father is and was very alpha and I just didn’t connect with my mother so everything was male centered. I went through a few years during puberty where I was so upset with my gender because I felt ‘less than’ . It can be so confusing.

[@pinkelephant4591]

I can relate to this. Being bisexual, you can use your sexuality to convince yourself that somehow they are not talking about you.

[@xFlamingCitrusx]

all of this is extremely relatable. the fact that women aren't perceived as people the same way men are... i definitely internalised that and then had to do some painful mental gymnastics to justify why i wasn't included in that assessment of women. has led to a lot of hating being female and questioning gender identity over the years. i still feel myself having misogynistic thoughts about myself and, even more troublingly, about other women. consciously i dont believe any of it but its still stuck in there and it hurts every day. i find myself wanting to wear cute and feminine things but the more feminine i present, the more inferior i feel.

[@berryandres3786]

I'm glad that you had the courage to transition and detransistion. You're helping a lot of people with these videos. I'm a closeted transguy and have been wondering if I'm actually trans. You've helped me confirm my feelings and so many others realize things about themselves ❤

[@tommywolfe3322]

Hi Elle, your story is riveting and I hope you make some more videos! I loved listening while my cat cuddled in my lap haha. You're very beautiful inside and out and seem like such a genuine person. I hope things are better for you now, its nice to hear you're in college! I'm 10 years older than you, and was on T for 4 years, and I'm still struggling with the permanent changes from hormones. Maybe you should do a video on how you're doing now, after being off T and living life as a woman again :)

[@ellepalmer]

Tommie Wolfe that’s the plan for my next video! Thanks for watching, I’m glad you liked it. I hope you’ve found some peace in your own life as well :)

[@skontheroad2666]

@@ellepalmer Hi! Have you considered setting up a gmail for people to reach out to you privately? Or is there already a way to do that? I would like to get into contact with you as I have some ideas that may help you and possibly others. Please let me know, thanks!

[@Billybloop]

I can relate to boys in school treating me like a sex object. It really traumatized me and some really bad things happened to me at school because of nasty boys. The school of course didn't pay any attention.

[@Dennis-nc3vw]

Yikes

[@wcsxwcsx]

Practically everything gets by school administrators.

[@craigharrelson2908]

I can’t imagine feeling that way, especially at such a young age. Glad you have found yourself. You’re a strong person. Keep growing and stay true to yourself. There’s plenty of people out there that need to hear your story.

[@madamedestcroix]

Thank you so much for sharing your testimony Elle. I think most people of older generations such as myself don't have a clue about what its like for younger people socialising in online spaces like the ones you've described and the impact that they can have on one's sense of self. I'm also really sorry to hear that you're doctor diagnosed you with anxiety and depression just after you started puberty, it just seems to me that set you up to have your distress medicalised and seen as something that was intrinsic to you when clearly there were a lot of social factors that were going on. I find it horrifying to hear of men grooming young girls online and society desperately needs to recognise this issue and find ways to prevent it from happening. Thank you again for so bravely sharing your story and I'm so glad to see that things are going much better for you these days.

[@pinkpeach3217]

de ste Croix this is a great point you make! I am a social worker and we do full day training sessions on risks involved being on the internet. So many children are given access to social media platforms and the World Wide Web which can result in a whole host of consequences. I wish more parents were aware and had boundaries to protect their children.

[@skontheroad2666]

@@pinkpeach3217 since you do this for a living and can make a difference...please understand that it goes beyond parents setting boundaries. Most kids are much smarter than their parents with regards to the internet. Yes, for kids under 11 or 12, we can still control most of what they see and do online. But if it is presented as scary and taboo it just makes some kids more curious and then they make it a point to seek out the restricted things. Any smart kid is curious. Once a parent realizes that they can't police their kids 100% of the time and instead, focuses more on raising good, sensible children who know the difference between right and wrong, make the right choices and most importantly, ask for help when they need it, that is when a parent is "doing their job." It is not just about teaching your kids to understand NO in certain situations and what is inappropriate for their current age. It is also about teaching them to understand and feel that they can be open with their parents and come to them with questions, no matter the situation--be it on the internet or out in the world. Please stress that in your seminars. I went to each one the PTA sponsored for each of my kids. Not once was it ever looked at from that perspective, yet we all feel it should have been. Thanks and good luck!

[@jringwood]

Watched both videos. I am just so impressed by your introspection, vulnerability, articulation, and honesty. I am an old white cis male. But due to many years in chemical addiction recovery, hundreds upon hundreds of recovery meetings, therapy etc., I am naturally tuned in and sympathetic to life challenges. Your story makes me optimistic about the success ultimately of your generation. Credit to Blair White for her interview as well. Definitely interested in further videos or information you have to share. Thank you so much. You are in my prayers.

[@valeriads6141]

So is no one gonna talk about the sweater? WE LOVE A MUTUAL HARRY STAN!! You go girl

[@smOVERCOMINGITALL]

The thing that resonates with me as a cis female who has never thought of transition is JUST HOW SIMILAR we are. your story is mine... but at my time going through all of this... transgender-ism... was not really... a thing. Like it was, but frankly it wasn't a solution to anything like it is now. As soon as i hit puberty i started wearing baggy clothes, my brothers clothes, doing "boy" things and it was bc i hated the attention i was getting from the boys in my grade. I also found porn at a very...very young age. As you do growing up in the new world of internet and computers in almost every home. I can not imagine... being born 7 years later and being EXACTLY the same way you were, depression, the feeling of hating my body, not wanting to be "feminine" all of that and having doctors tell my parents that transitioning is the solution. I'm telling you our childhoods are so fucking similar it's scary. I can say that during puberty and being "one of the guys" did make me question myself a little, but never to the point of being trans... bc like i said it wasn't as prevalent now... if i didn't hide my feelings and depression so well from my parents i would have probably been on anti-depressants for sure, but i would hide everything. Like, GOD it makes me so MAD at the 90's-00's sometimes that i am SO positive that the internet caused this wave of depression and insecurity in young girls like us. People call me a "boomer" (born in 92 LOL) bc i shit on the internet so much, but there is SUCH a strong link to depression and anxiety and self-harm and the way our parents... did parent us... that i find it SO frustrating. Idk. even though i never went through transition like you did i know exactly what you went through in those preteen and teen years. NO judgement here girl. I 100% get it.

[@dreamsofturtles1828]

I am 62 years old and relate to everything you said except for the porn and the trans stuff. I was not really aware of either of those, and ofc we did not have the internet. But otherwise the same, sadly. Harassed by boys i too wore baggy clothes and , really, sort of rejected femininity because i saw no positives in it. I am so sad young girls are still going thru this.

[@sharonannen8859]

Skallia Ray * Transsexual has never been a ‘thing’. We are real people, not someone’s fad. *

[@carkrueger]

This video should be mandatory viewing for every practicing therapist and psychiatrist globally. Game changing story. You are so brave.

[@MorrysIllusion]

it is weird and nice and idk... theres a whole lotta feelings ive gotten seeing ur videos as i am also a 1999 kid who expirienced (lognterm) sexual trauma online and also had a strong trans male moment at 14-16, i commented on ur other video- i never transitioned with T and im glad i didnt when i was 14 and came out as trans. im not cis, but i also am fully aware now that my feelings about gender were all due to that trauma i had. and seeing other FtMtF people who are saying they had the SAME sorta trauma is just. idk, i dont feel alone but it makes me also wonder why this has happened to so many. it is good to see your story out there so others like us can see the experience isnt rare.

[@sipnothx5868]

Morry's Illusion fuck me too. me too

[@danamaximilian3998]

Omg, there is so much to learn from you!! As a parent, I find everything you say being crucially important to be aware!! Thank you so much! My son is 10 y. o. and he is not spending much time on internet and he still watches thinks like Tinkerbell and the Beast...kids from school is laughing at him and the other boys told him he is not cool because he doesn't play online games... Well.. What can I say, maybe is for the best for him not being cool at 10. Thank you for tje the video, was very helpful in so many ways...

[@skontheroad2666]

Dana--as parents we always try to do the best we can...but sometimes it is helpful to take a step back and try to find a happy medium that one is comfortable with. While a 10 year old should absolutely be monitored when online, when a kid asks for "more", it is sometimes worth the time and effort to research it rather than saying no automatically. I am sure there are websites that review things like gaming sites. Just as the sites that exist that review movies and why they are rated as they have been and for what reason. Because ultimately, the teasing can do a lot of longterm damage and it is awful when a parent then ends up feeling guilty and focuses on "I was just doing my best. I did everything I was told. I thought I was doing the right thing" as the justification when they are blamed later (which is a terrible thing). As parents, we can't turn back time, just explore the situation with an open mind when presented with a challenging moment.

[@jextra1313]

I don't blame you for hating your gender after what happened. I hate that girls are treated like objects by so many men.

[@crowmagpie]

Isn't it telling that these kind of people tend to be trans?? Kinda obvious why

[@maxtaylor2395]

This is so unbelievably relatable. I went through a lot of these things and it can really traumatize girls. Thank you for talking about this.

[@gezh88]

This video is absolutely insanely good. This rocked my world. We had a lot of similar life events but with a slightly different timeline and very different details and shit. I’m blown away. Thankyou

[@diegodelgadillo5874]

I saw your other most recent video today and I’ve gotta say you come off very well spoken in both videos. I find this topic increasingly fascinating especially because it’s seems like everyone has a different perspective on it in general.

[@monstermash8399]

I know I'm gonna come off as an oldie (I was born in the 80s), but the Internet and social media has changed what youth is like so much. Not to say that kids weren't exposed to sex and discourse at young ages before, but the rabbit hole you can fall into, all within seconds via a device you carry in your pocket, is something I think we all need to be wary of. I know when I was ten, I was still running around a playground pretending to be an alien from another planet. I'd never even heard the word "porn" before, nor had any interest in dating or all that icky kissy grownup stuff, and if I'd stumbled back then on some of the things I've seen online now, it would've been pretty confusing and hard to process. As a trans man, this new push to constantly ask everyone to question their identity like trying on new hats worries me. "There's no wrong way to be trans, cis people have never even thought about these things (not true, I think everyone's wondered what being the opposite sex is like!), if you're not sure then just try it out and see - the effects of hormones are reversible so there's no harm in testing the waters." Finding who you are is great, and it is a journey for all of us. But some of this rhetoric can easily convince someone, especially someone who's already struggling with factors that are impacting their sense of self and well-being, that this is that road that's gonna fix everything. When you're seeing others so overjoyed at their progress, it certainly looks like the perfect route for escapism and starting over. And rather than breaking down gender roles and stereotypes, some parts of the trans community actually further cement them as proof that you're not aligned with how you were born. I'm not surprised that many detransitioners were FTM, as you were. Life as a woman, never mind an adolescent girl, is really hard - and the shaming that's implied over your bodies and their changes, while simultaneously being treated like a sex object, needs to change. Women are beautiful, and their minds AND bodies deserve just as much respect as men's. You're strong for overcoming the abuse and turmoil you've dealt with, and for being able to backtrack when you realized this wasn't the solution for you. I hope more folks will listen to what you have to say rather than demonize your experience.

[@gingergamer3270]

Yeah I was born in 96 but we didn't get internet in my house until I was about 15-16. It didn't affect me too much because I would just watch KZbin and play maths games. I played a lot of games to be honest. But I got out of highschool unscathed. Now kids are on the internet since before they can walk

[@valcomments3045]

I cannot believe you had free access to the internet at age 10. All parents need to watch this! The internet is dangerous for kids!

[@HemlockC]

Recently I'd been having qualms with my gender and I guess I needed to see things from another perspective as well and not rush into things so quickly. Thanks for being open with ur life! You're the first person I've watched who showed a different perspective!!

[@Gabriele1996-u6f]

I was so pissed off when I started puberty. Getting my first periods was so painful and seemed so unfair. The idea that this was going to be the rest of my life really pissed me off.

[@werlder]

The way you talk about this makes it a lot easier to understand. Much appreciated.

[@mememo3764]

Thank you for sharing! Girls need to hear this.

[@Izzy_iz_tired]

Even though I'm not trans I find this really insightful. It's an aspect of the trans conversation I'd never even heard of before. Sounds dumb but I didn't know people could/did regret transitioning. I'm a little horrified about how easy it is for very young people to get hormones now. Thank you so much for sharing your experience!!

[@joanmilano5302]

Thank you for your honesty. You are so well spoken. :-)

[@Punkrockpenguin2]

Agreed

[@adelinewurzer4533]

i relate to u a lot because i have a similar past. i was born in 1995 and i really think that if trans media was a huge thing when i was coming of age then i would've transitioned too. i discovered porn very early and was also sexually abused by grown men in my early teens. i also liked girls. i started wearing only men's clothing and i even shaved my head at one point. i was convinced i was a butch lesbian but i was actually a bisexual woman with sexual trauma who wasn't comfortable in tight clothing and having men look at me. i went to therapy and thankfully had some amazing therapists in my day. i am now very feminine and comfortable with that🥰 there is more than one way to be a woman! i still don't wear tight clothing though lol. i'm glad u came to terms with urself and have finally started to heal💖

[@salamsaleh6055]

You’re a breath a fresh air! So eloquent and honest!!! You’re helping so many people with your videos and transparency

[@scarlet8078]

Thanks for sharing your story to help girls struggling with trauma. I'm a neuropsych & can tell you that you're not alone in facing this. There's currently research into how exposure to porn may be fueling the wave of girls temporarily identifying as LGBTQIA+ (particularly trans). In some parts of the NYC metro area it's 1 of 4 girls identifying as LGBTQIA+ which is about five times higher than predicted and much higher than boys. There are multiple reasons. Girls often feel alarmed and unable to relate to how women are portrayed in porn & they have bad & even traumatic early sexual experiences due to boys' exposure to porn.

[@carolcarol3938]

You are so brave in telling your story and I am sure it will help others who have experienced confusion about who they are and what that means. My heart breaks that your journey through life, so far, has had so many painful episodes and that someone so young has gone through this. But you have shown, and will continue to show your strength through your honesty and willingness to share both the bad and good that life can dish out. Trust yourself.

[@katd4vvg]

I must say I love your haircut and fringe!!! It really looks so lovely. Can't wait to see more content from you. Thank you for sharing your story with the world.

[@navabastanisarracino2306]

Thanks so much for your honest portrayal. I am learning so much. My friend's daughter is considering transitioning and I want to understand more and this is so helpful. Has made me think though how all issues that we are facing in society are very interconnected. The equality of men and women - treating people with respect - having a purpose, mental health and so on and so forth.

[@mariaschannel8143]

Your video is so informative, thank you! You describe so intelligently that you were in fact resisting the female role put on you by society and men who took you for granted as a sexual being (objectifying you). I’m wondering if you would like to make videos on the topics: - What are the things that you did that ultimately made you come to terms with your body and a being a woman (e.g. having periods, having breasts, being able to ignore/dralons with men’s sexual advances keeping healthy boundaries?). Your solution was transitioning, but what could be done instead of transitioning, in order to cope with the negative emotions you had against your being female? - What are the advice you would give a young girl today that is considering transitioning, who experience similar mental issues that you do (self-harm, anxiety, being diagnosed with ADHD/Autism etc, isolation, not going to school, social anxiety etc). - Lastly, what, based on your experience, is the advice you would give parents of a teenager that might be considering transitioning? Did you see videos of the Pique Resilience Project, GNC Centric and Benjamin Boyce? They are part of the same discussion! Thanks, again!

[@agirlfromanotherlight3367]

Ok girl. Too much talk. Yap it.

[@mariaschannel8143]

A Girl From Another Light Too many words for you? Then please don’t stress yourself reading or commenting unless you are read to contribute to the discussion..

[@theuniverseinpeace7306]

I also went trough anxiety and depression during puberty and also prior to puberty. I didn't like me being a girl. I wanted to be a boy. Because in my country boys where free to do anything and being a girl is like living life with to many restrictions. I even asked my mom how can I become a boy.i don't want to be a girl. When I was around 7 yr old kinda I used to pray God everyday at night to make me a boy in the morning. And when puberty hit this feeling got even more increased .. How did I cope up:- 1)My parents didn't give me access for internet , so I didn't know that Transition Is even a think 2) I used to visualise myself in future. How was it to be a boy. When visualising I found I would be happy being a boy but getting old as being a boy and dying as a man I didnt like that. When I visualise me being a girl I didn't like that at that present moment but my future being a woman having a family ( not meaning getting pregnant bcs, at that time I didn't like it) being with my grown up children as a mom(side note :- I didn't insert the character of husband or any man in it) getting old as a woman felt good and right for me. 3) dealing with depression:- I used cry a lot without anyone noticing me.it kinda helped. SELF LOVE:- though I hated myself being a girl at my childhood ,and half of my teen years . It got better through years. I used to repeat words like"I love myself" "I'm beautiful"etcc.. etc.. and just feel it for that moment though I hated myself. I never liked the attention I'm getting from boys to the point I felt like going out of my home is a big task. Things that I changed that helped me out of this self hatred:- I hated myself because I felt myself weak so 1) I builded my self confidence 2 )I became more bold and courageous person 3) I joined karate classes and most of the time I used to workout to get me strong ( I don't like having big muscle but I liked me being strong so I used to do exercise to build my strength ) 4) I started reading book of Robin Sharma, infinite thoughts magazine, secret teachings of Rhonda Byrne, and also some women achiver stories though there where not many that I could find. 5) I used to sometimes sit down at let me feel all those emotions that I'm feeling.though after that I would little better and also depressed at the same time 6) I didn't have much friends but somehow I found a girl and we had become close friend in school whenever I felt low I used to just go.( I was 14/15 yr old at this time) And spend time with her just talking some girl stuffs and hug her the whole time. She gave me the emotional support which even my mom didn't give at that time. Though not at all times because I can't invite her to my home she was a hostel students but still that helped me feel good about myself . And she loved herself. That made me think like if being a girl,weaker than me Physically (I was a sporty girl), she could love her then I also can. Moreover the way she loved herself made me to love myself and take care of myself. I love being a girl, and also being bisexual .I love me for who I am. And I'm happy about it. those tough days made me who I am. Thank you for reading. If it helped you let me know and hit a like

[@iBaudan]

I can’t believe how brave u are. I wish u the best in life. I wish I have a friend like u.

[@sjnjsoaps]

I saw your story on Blaire White. Your story is a brave one. You went through alot. Learned alot. I was glued to the screen listening to you.

[@debradavis3935]

Oh My Goodness Elle...so grateful you have survived everything you’ve gone through! You are so strong, so smart and such a lovely soul. You’re story resonates with me so much...my own self destructive and addictive behaviors have been overwhelming at times… I work hard at keeping them under control. I wish you all good things and hope that you continue to thrive on your journey of self-love. 💜💜💜

[@raychell1]

when i was a kid i wasnt that girly at all, but tbh getting in the internet this early and the way women were referred as (like the get back to the kitchen thing) it definitely changed the way i saw myself, i kinda went into a "not like other girls" phase, and turned so hateful towards both girls and guys guys for being assholes to women, and women to not "understanding" they needed to stol being feminine and start being manly to be respected? idunno. it was twisted. then i was also mocked a bit and called a lesbian (my society was very mysoginistic and hkmophobic too at the time) and at the time i just went desperate cause i felt there was nothing I could 'do' to be recognited as a "person" and be respected as such? i had no idea what transition was at the time, and i was too religious to even consider anything non cis male and cis woman a real thing. But I bet if at that point if my life i was given the idea of transition i would've taken it, cause i just hated the idea of knowing that because i was a woman i was never gonna be brave or a hero, or be respected for anything other than my looks (and people would also harass me for being pretty so why even try...) and i hated guys so hardcore for this that being atracted to one was out if consideration its been around 10 years since all of that happened, I'm definitely cis and just learning how to be femenine cause it just turns out i absolutely love to present as femenine, and are actually atracted to guys. I had ti just talk and interact with more people irl, and not just the hateful closed reliigious group i was in and the internet.... but to be fair if it wasnt for the internet as well, i dont think i wouldve ever recovered. its crazy to think none of my issues had to do with how i saw my body, but the sole idea of trasition and being finally respected "as a guy" wouldve been enough for me ti pursue that path at the time

[@sipnothx5868]

raychell1 yeah. me too. fuck

[@AlpacaMade]

Where to start; thank you for education us regarding significant factors leading you to make decisions in the last ten years. On parenting and parental decisions; if we were honest with ourselves as adults, we would admit precisely what you have told us; pre-puberty through early adulthood is an especially delicate and difficult time. However; we tend to want to put those tests and trials and the pain associated with them, in the past and move on as adults. When confronted with our own past as parents of this age group, we say to ourselves; "Not gonna make those mistakes with my children..." I have a library full of questions I'm sure you will answer eventually. However, as a person who has challenges of my own; I found one hour, both videos, was enough to gain valuable perspective. I would ask/counsel if I were your parent or therapist; if you choose to continue educating with the level of honesty you have displayed, please consider only talking about the associated topics a half hour at a time. Reviewing traumatizing experiences puts one back in the trauma state for a period of time. FWIW, post recording I suggest doing something that brings you back into a balanced state. Something that forces you to either concentrate on one thing or is repetitive, soothing activity. Thank you again, best wishes for your future ;)

[@Eyesofmars2040]

You are going to help so many people. How brave you are to be so transparent.

[@mariammohamedelnaghi4605]

I’d listen to you for hours. Your story came just in time

[@iamtheirishgirl2]

I would like to applaud you. I’m a mom and I see how my children have struggled with their identity. It’s helpful to hear your journey. I am listening to your honesty and vulnerability and I am sure you are helping people all around the world. I hear you.

[@fourwaffle]

I see a lot of myself in you watching this video it hit me hard and almost made me cry quite a few times. I think you are so strong to have been through so much and so brave to speak out and be so true and honest, I can only hope to become even half the person you are ❤️ thank you so much, this video will resonate through me for the rest of my life ❤️

[@QueensFirst]

So the Internet played a huge part in you wanting to be a man? Now thats scary as a parent.

[@rodannnkekw2866]

That's why my parents won´t let me transition. Because they know this is caused by the internet, so they think that actually I'm not trans. But yes, it is scary.

[@squeakyfromme83]

@@rodannnkekw2866 just make sure to trust yourself and respect who you are, only then will you know how you want to live your life. No matter your choice, you deserve happiness, so think about what will make you happy. *by choice, I mean if you do think you are transgender, then you can decide if you want to transition.

[@diamoradiaz4287]

@@squeakyfromme83 it is not just a matter of thinking, it's a huge decision, long term therapy with a good professional would be the best course of action.

[@stacyeandrew2]

Thank goodness you listened to that fear!! A lot of children feel pressured and give in to meeting because they fear that connection being severed!! 🙈11 is such a young age.. I’m glad your safe!!🎉

[@Dennis-nc3vw]

Pro-tip: If the first time you get an idea is in a bout of teenage angst, it's probably a bad idea.

[@Gamezopher]

If that KZbinr/streamer still exists, you should expose that guy to protect other victims.

[@summerchild_]

Wow. Just wow. I had the same experience: depression at childhood, cutting myself, then an eating desorder, sexual abuse thorough the Internet, heating my female anatomy, then believing I was non binary, obssesing over it until i decided I was a trans dude. The only difference is that I never transitioned medically

[@summerchild_]

Hating no heating

[@sipnothx5868]

young_nhopeless me too except i don’t identify as cis personally ..but yeah like i feel like the internet really fucks us all up.

[@ciera4935]

same here, i felt like she sat down and told most of my life story

[@EmilyjMoore-od6fm]

Very brave and honest of you to share this. I agree with previous comment-- this gives greater understanding. It is one thing to read about this from professionals--a better thing to hear honest testimony. Great Job! 👍

[@NoFoxGvn]

You are such an adorable and pretty woman! 🥰 I’m glad you can tell your story to help those who are confused and struggling.

[@zoynasty]

you are so smart and strong to be talkjng about this! i have just now begun starting to process the fucked up shit i got myself into on the internet as a young little girly and im almost 30. keep talking , once you find your voice your pain doesnt have to be silenced anymore.

[@josephinesosingot-raisanen6743]

I remember after all these years at a young age during swimming class one boy would wait to pull down my swimsuit...I was so stressed out I dreaded it so much...luckily one day I had it so I physically slapped him and threatened to beat the sh...t out of him...He didnt do it again and I still love swimming today

[@IturrinoSofi]

Watching you was really inspiring, I have no doubt of my identity as a cis woman, but it was really interesting listening to you and your story... I couldn't stop thinking of my little girl who will someday be a teenager in this society, which is thankfully changing for the better in a lot of aspects. I related a lot when you talked about being frustrated about thinking men were reaching to you because they were interested in you as a person, and then realizing they just saw you as a sexual individual, an object. It still happens to me even at almost 28. Now I have a lot of emotional resources to deal with this, but I remember being a young woman hating being one because almost every man would approach with only one intention. And that's shit. I'm really glad you could realize about it later in the road and that you could work on it... Thank you so much for sharing. You're doing an amazing job.

[@endangeredgenus]

Please don't stop making videos! You have such a beautiful presence and way of expressing yourself. I would love to know more about you.

[@colinwatt9387]

Thanks for sharing your story, you've gone through a series of ordeals, especially for someone so young. I wish you the best.

[@JohnJones-id4lp]

Hearing this is heartbreaking... Especially when considering how many young girls this must be happening to online.

[@terrir7118]

Imagine a doctor giving a teenager hormones with the mental instability that came before that

[@crowmagpie]

Blame the system that forces doctors to do it or be fired for "trabsphobia"

[@EllaStone]

you worded it so masterfully. oh god. me in a nutshell. thank you elle.

[@franug]

this reinforces my preocupation of having kids and parents not even looking into what they do in the internet. I'm sad you encountered so many things and your parents ignoring all of that. I guess since I'm 31 and hence have been using the internet since I was young, I understand how fucking dangerous it is...I remember talking with older dudes in chatrooms back in the day and obviously I didn't understand it. But the internet was way...nicer? back in those days. Today it's just...insane. No wonder it affects young people so much. I think you're so brave for talking about all these things. I say without qualms that I would monitor everything my kid did if I'd have one , and my sister does it with my older nephew. I don't think there's any other way to do it. Young kids/teens need to be monitored with it before using it freely.

[@PurdeeScraps]

You are perfect! Our world failed you! Sending big hugs! Thank you for sharing your story. You are helping so many people!

[@aprilg4116]

Thank you so much. I was born in 94, I related to you completely. These stories are so important. Especially with how many people that detransition are ftm, there is definitely a pattern there we need to talk about as a society with women being exposed to so much vitriol, misogyny, and sexualization/sexual trauma from a young age via media and it contributing to our overall mental health. Much love. How did your parents react to your struggles growing up? Were they easy to talk to, supportive, easy to come out to? Just curious. I live in a very conservative and bleak place so I know that added a lot to my mental state too.

[@AllisonR1]

I can relate. I didn't transition, but I did cover myself in tattoos from a young age. I had a hard time as a kid and I thought maybe hiding my ugliness behind beautiful art work would make me better looking. Turns out I'm not actually bad looking and I never was. I internalized a lot of things I wasn't mature enough to cope with yet and made some permanent decisions based on it. Working on the regret from that lol. Your story helps more than you think! 🖤

[@Ardenaut]

Your mental health story is so similar to mine it’s scary, I feel your struggle so deeply. I never dealt with gender identity issues, but everything else hits so close to home. So glad you are doing better 💕

[@PninaU]

You're so pretty :) You seem so genuine and I love how you analyze yourself and your situation. I'm not struggling with my gender, but I do can relate with you in a way. Being a teenager is weird as hell. No one prepares you for that. I'm 25 and I'm still struggling to find my place in life. It's just really important to come to terms with oneself and analize what went "wrong" and try to change that to the better. Btw... I love your sweatshirt. I hope people treat you with kindness along the way ❤️

[@ilikepurplecowz]

I really hope everything is going better for you. You've had such a hard time, you deserve a break.

[@ALXaccount]

I am so sorry , my heart breaks for your struggles. I understand how you were misguided by your environment into transition. This isn't your fault, you were a vulnerable child and a victim of our time and of the intrinsic misogyny of our society . Although I never took any steps to transition I spent a lot of my teen years identifying and representing myself as non-binary. Inside I thought I was a boy but I was never brave enough to say it to my family. My insecurity about my feminity also developed around my middleschool years ( around 2005). Looking back a huge part of it is due to the fact that I was bullied by boys at school for my unattractiveness ( this mad me feel like a failure at being a girl and uncomfortable in my own skin ) while at the same time I was being sexually harassed by older men as my body started to develop. Also for me coming from a Latino and religious background I began wanting to be a boy simply because of my hatred for the traditional roles that were being imposed on me . I remember the exact day I got my period because of how mortified and disgusted I was . I believed my own womanhood to be a curse . Now at 27 after much struggle I have come to learn that what I actually suffered from was BPD and a case of crappy peers and family members. I admire you for coming out in public and being a voice for others in spite of the haters! You are so strong ! Best wishes in your healing journey !

[@ericvelazquez-sanchez5644]

Thank you for your honesty. This is definitely a power video that can assist many individuals trans or not.

[@BarkRuffalo]

Girl, mental health care is so f***ed up! What I can understand is that your doctors and therapists just tried to find a quick fix for your issues, not really address them and guide you through such a rough phase as is puberty. You're so intelligent to figure all this out almost entirely on your own, not many people are capable of such. Thank for opening up and sharing to the world your experience. You're amazingly brave! Wish you the best.

[@happytrails699]

This was very thoughtful, insightful. Thank you for sharing this. Very helpful.

[@sagegray]

It's crazy to me how drastically different our experiences with gender is. Obviously with me being ftm, and you being a detransitioner some things are going to be different. But I've known my entire life that I'm meant to be male, hell I decided at 12 that once I turned 18 I was going to transition. I feel like I knew way young, I never "wanted" to be male, I just am. I think before people decide to change their bodies completely with hormones, they need to listen to stories of detransitioners vs trans people.

[@jackiedaytona2434]

I had almost the exact same experience as you leading up to your transition, though I never questioned my gender identity, and one thing I also struggled with was attending school. Like you, I think I actually missed more middle school than I attended. I began feeling better in 9th grade, but I left school again halfway through my 10th grade year. Now i'm in college and I love school, but I think the main reason I struggled was my immense self-hatred and body dysmorphia. I also struggled with an eating disorder and body image and I always believed others viewed me in the same way I viewed myself. I couldn't stand the thought of other people, especially kids my age, seeing me. I think thats why school was so difficult. I finished high school online, and when I went to college, I really struggled at first with body image, but it's gotten better the longer I've attended.

[@pbbandit4324]

Thank you for sharing. I'm sorry you had to go through all of that. My parents are worried my desire for transition is for similar reasons to yours and they're so determined they're right, so I felt the need to do more research. I told them the first time when I was 17 and I'm 24 now. Knowing where you were coming from, I can say it's not my situation. If I'd transitioned at 17 when I first desperately wanted to, then maybe that argument could be made, but I've been working through all my issues and still feel the same.

[@rodricksteal1729]

i just hope that in future it's going to be a brain scan or something if that sort to even considering letting teenagers to transition. after 20 i guess you can do whatever you want, but before that doctors should be held responsible for the possible mistakes. it should not only be a quick psychiatric evaluation, but a neurological one.

[@sipnothx5868]

geez girl. i honestly relate to this so much. i knew transition wasnt for me ...but i do not feel a female and it really fucks me up like it sounds like nothing but i resonate with you so much when you internalized that misogyny so much you dont know yourself or what is going on. i had almost the exact same things happen to me ❤️

[@0007smitty]

I help run a local Transgender group. I understand your de transition. I think its important your videos they will help others. Thank you for your videos, Good luck in life keep smiling:)

[@debbiedebbie7754]

I'm glad you are feeling more comfortable with yourself and wish you a very happy life. ♥️

[@JaabaaYup]

With your videos ive realised that i may not be a trans man, but i might me non-binary. Idk yet what parts of transition i want to go thru, but i know i feel wrong as a woman, but also wrong as a male. I sill have to understand what parts of that feeling is due to traumo orr real disphoria. This will be a journey, but i will take my time, step by step, little steps so i can feel how im doing. Thank you for sharing❤

[@monsieurlestrange6193]

Good luck to you, Elle. I'm glad you're sharing your story with us. I've never had these experiences, and it just helps me understand others hearing this stuff. I'm glad you came out on top!

[@sharonms7]

Thank you so very much, Elle! As a parent I'm watching my child struggle also (now 16) I hear so many similarities between you both. This took so much courage, and I am humbled by just how brave you are for digging deep, and finding yourself as a beautiful person. Keep putting in the effort into you, self love is so important in life. I have watched every single one of your videos....and am in complete awe, and have much more awareness of this community now. I started off completely blind on the subject. Knowledge is power...and throughout life you just keep accumulating it, as you go forward. Stay strong beautiful light.

[@balsarmy]

I'm just a woman, but I relate to many things you are talking about. Thank you! Life is so difficult. Love yourself

[@useyourwords3286]

Honestly, you sound like the typical teenager. Puberty sucks but good friends make a difference. I was a tomboy but then developed early and just didnt want to be seen. I got picked on because I was this 12 year old girl with the body of a 20 year old woman. What helped my confidence was going to an all girl highschool. All the attention shifted from looks to performance. By the time I graduated I fully appreciated myself in all my womanhood. I gained tremendous confidence from that. I think its unfortunate nowadays that teenagers dont get to just go through teenage angst without being pushed into different genders. Being a girl/woman is hard. But women have a lot of power that some men really despise and try to control.

[@joanmaxine1]

You are very brave revealing yourself. I hope you are able to help other kids going through this. Your intelligence shines through and your honest introspection is refreshing. You have gifts to share in your life work. God bless.

[@SaucyJack88]

To be honest, aside from your voice, I would never have been able to tell you're a de-transitioner, you look like a natural feminine healthy woman to me, and I mean that.

[@taylorspeight6909]

Wow !!What you have to say is so important for what's happening right now in the world honestly... I really feel like your story can bring clarity to people transitioning but also people that know nothing about the topic...Thank you for sharing your story its powerful ... Also you are so beautiful and strong ❤ Keep using your voice !

[@nankidd3050]

Very brave to speak the truth.l feel you were very setup but you have come out on the other side.l feel you are going to be able to help so many that have similar journeys.bless you. Thank you.

[@radricster]

Thanks for putting yourself out there and sharing your struggles. I think there are many young people who might better understand they arn't alone in the emotional upheavals they're experiencing in their teen years thanks to you. Perhaps you could expand on the coping mechanisms you alluded to in the video that have helped you to get a handle on your issues. I'm sure your experiences give you a somewhat unique perspective on what it takes to live with mental illness.

[@dsriddle13]

I appreciate hearing your story. I can see common threads between yours and that of my 14 year old daughter. I’m not sure about any past trauma, as she holds her cards very close. My daughter too is extremely intelligent and manipulative. I know you don’t blame your parents and I appreciate that since there are so many people on both sides of this issue willing to eviscerate us for either not being good parents or for not fully supporting their requests to transition. But, if there is one thing (or two) that you wish your parents had done, would you mind sharing it in the hopes that it might help those of us trying navigate this issue with our kids?

[@ChimneySweep13]

Hi Elle! Not sure if you still read comments, but I'm curious about what the red flags are for people who might regret tansitioning. I'm a 18 year old ftm transguy, came out when I was 15 and I'm about to start hormones in the upcoming months. I wanna make sure this is the right path for me. I feel and think that it is, but I wanna be absolutely sure. What are the questions I should ask myself and what are some signs that transition might not be right for me? And about your voice, as I believe you've mentioned in your last video that you are self-concious about it, please don't feel hopeless! A lot of trans women are able to achieve more feminine or even completely passing voices by voice training. You can find videos for trans women that give you excersises you can do with your voice, and you can apply those for your situation. I think with your tone you'd be able to get a really nice feminine voice, you already have that smooth and gentle way of speaking so you can absolutely do it! And just wanted to say you look great and your story is really interesting, and thank you for sharing your darkest times with us to help us learn and think our decisions through. Stay safe!

[@aliya2260]

Milo Karkus Please don't do it. Puberty is just a phase. In 5 years time, you will be comfortable with your body. Taking testosterone will make you look very weird- not fully female, not fully male. Once you have completely gone through puberty, you WILL be comfortable with your body. I was not comfortable with my body when I was your age. If transitioning was a choice for me, I may have taken it. Thank god it was not an option back then. Now I am a happy woman, a wife, and a mother!

[@ChimneySweep13]

@@aliya2260 I'm sorry if it sounds rude, but whether I transition or not is going to be something I decide. I am fully aware of the arguements against it and for it, that's not what I'm curious about. I know puberty is a phase, and that's the reason I waited 3 years, and that's why I wanted to be an adult when I start transitioning, to be certain if it's for me. I'm curious about the red flags of possible future detransition. In my country, we need 3 different notes from 3 different doctors in order to start medical and legal transition. I already have 2 out of the 3, one more to go. I'm being treated by a psychologist and a psychiatrist, I'm trying to be as thorough as possible with making sure transitioning is for me. And I'd like to know red flags to consider as well. (Edit: spelling)

[@aliya2260]

Milo Karkus I'm so sorry. When you wrote "I wanna make sure this is the right path for me" I thought I would give you my experience, and thought that you are inviting opinions about it. If you're already familiar with the different perspectives, then that's great! Again, I'm sorry if I offended you.

[@ChimneySweep13]

@@aliya2260 You didn't offend me, don't worry about it, really! I'm curious about other people's opinions, but it's hard to tell who should and should not transition over the internet. That's why I believe sharing red flags, signs is more useful, as we can look for those in our own situation, as general advice does not always apply. Thank you for sharing your experience though, and once again I'm sorry if I sounded rude, and you didn't offend me.

[@aliya2260]

Milo Karkus Thank you dear.

[@michaelfernandez1838]

Thank you for sharing your story. Your wisdom and courage will undoubtedly help others with the same struggles

[@T2000-g4p]

Reminder this wont happen to all trans people, she didnt have gender dysphoria and werent really trans gender, as she said her self in blaire s video

[@psementalist]

You have incredible strength in courage thank you for sharing your testimony story on KZbin of how you transition. I'm a huge supporter and activist of the transgender community