*EMOTIONAL & RAW* My Baby's First Day in Childcare UK | 10 Months Old in Childcare UK | HomeWithShan

Today I dropped George off for his first day in childcare... He's 10 months old and I was a bag of mixed emotions all day long!
It was hard dropping my baby off for his first day in childcare, part of me was so ready, and so was he... but another part of me just didn't want to leave him.
Fro 10 and a half months, I've been with him every single day, and now for 4 days a week, he's going to be in childcare.. life is about to change again and it's scary!!!
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[@hannah4133]

Oh I just want to reach through the screen and give you a massive hug! I was like this with my little one, first time I left him to go to work I just sat in the office car park and sobbed. When you go pick him up and he gives you the biggest smile, you will feel so much better. He will have had the best time. Do something nice for yourself today ❤️

[@laylasebbah943]

My daughter started nursery at 12 months old and I cried for 2 weeks straight. She’s now about to turn 2 years old and absolutely loves going, has built great relationships with the children and staff, and her development amazes me every day with the things she learns. It will get easier but how you feel is so normal!

[@DLM440]

I needed this comment ❤❤❤

[@laylasebbah943]

@@AliciaGonzalez-pk3mw not even sure why I’m bothering to reply as you clearly have no experience of sending your child to nursery. You think a 2 year old cannot build relationships with adults outside of their family home?! That’s totally untrue. Staying at home until your child goes to school can be a great option, but it’s not one size fits all. Your comment is not helpful, my daughter has just left nursery to start school and she misses the Superstars that looked after her during her time in nursery. No need to judge at all, be happy with your own choice, we are all different and all children are different too.

[@samanthawhitehead8683]

This made me cry! My little boy is 6 months and dreading leaving him already. Hope you are feeling better I bet George has had an amazing time and it will make your time together even more special when your with him! Good luck on starting back at work too. I visited my office yesterday with baby and that was daunting enough. 🙈 x

[@chloenew5854]

I know this is an old video now, but this was me this week! I completely felt the same but seeing your videos now and how nursery is just part of your routine has made it easier for me this week. Thank you for being so real, knowing you aren't the only one feeling like this helps!

[@hollieelizabethbryan802]

Oh Shan, I’m giving you a virtual hug right now! My baby girl is four months old and this video made me so emotional. From someone who works in childcare you did amazing! It’s the hardest job being a Mummy but you’re doing the right thing for your family xx

[@Tashazen0013]

I’m crying with you remembering how it feels and dreading doing it again in Jan. Going back to work and leaving my little girl was the hardest thing I have ever done. You almost go through a grieving process as everything is changing so much. But I promise you it becomes your new normal pretty quick. You got this mama xx

[@samanthalee6721]

I promise it does get easier….. With my first I went back to work when she was 7 months and with our second she is only 3.5 months and I’m back at work….. the first few days are the hardest. I remember being stuck in traffic and sobbing my heart out! It’s a total rollercoaster of emotions whenever you go back but honestly he (and you) will reap the benefits. It helps with the updates (and pictures too)…. You said it so well…. It’s for the benefit of you both…. And I 100% agree…sending you hugs xx

[@jineadcatnott3574]

Your not alone! Hope George enjoys his day & so do you! Think about how happy he will be when he sees your face when you pick him up! Another milestone complete! Good luck thinking of you 💞

[@cheryl.louise_]

You are so strong! I was almost in tears watching this, I remember that feeling with my son but it did get easier, now my daughter is 11 months and I do feel childcare is the best option for their development like you say, its just so hard isnt it. Because they have been with us for so long x

[@lambybb2937]

Its so hard leaving them, when you've been together all that time on maternity leave! It does get easier xx. Well done on showing real emotions 👍

[@eleanorbutterworth6177]

Aww you had me in tears! You reminded me of when my son started nursery. When you spend 24/7 with your child see every moment and they start nursery its difficult. Now my son loves nursery and developed so much. You are an amazing mum!! Hope you enjoyed the days to yourself x

[@chloepamphiilion1417]

I’m so blessed and lucky I work in a day care nursery and my 10 month old is able to come with me every day I couldn’t even begin to imagine leaving her 😢

[@AllyandBubbles]

I’m 31 weeks pregnant and haven’t started my maternity leave yet. I’m already dreading the day I’ll have to drop my baby girl off at childcare to go back to work, and that’s not even for about a year 😭😭 Just crying with you here… damn hormones

[@georgiaevanda4479]

Me to! I’m also 31 weeks and I’m dreading it 😧

[@LeonieParker]

I feel you hun. I’ve got this all to come at the end of the month. I thought I’d be fine about it but I started tearing up when I was doing a nursery tour which shocked me. Xx

[@abzgail20]

Goosebumps! You madee cry too 😂😭 I was like that with my first but I've decided to quit my job after my 2nd baby. She's 8 months now so it's a different experience this time. Yay for growth and change, you'll adjust very soon. Big hug x

[@alexstiles3638]

I work in a nursery with my baby and I still cried when I took him for his first day! X

[@KimberlyLTrieu]

I have two weeks left of mat leave and I’m emotional already, specially after seeing what you went through today 😭. Thank you so much for sharing.

[@SP-ge7bu]

I’m sobbing 😢 I dread this day. Hope you’re ok Shan 💗 xxx

[@sarahdenham4459]

Shan - i’m emotional today for the opposite reason today and I cried with you. From a childless wanna be Mumma, It’s a massive step and you’re bound to feel lost and sad - but its another step in your wonderful lives. And the cuddles you get from George when you pick him up are going to be the best EVER! Thinking of you xx

[@Tashazen0013]

I really hope you get to have a baby really soon, sending you love and luck x

[@sarahdenham4459]

@@Tashazen0013 Thank you! Sadly after 5 failed IVF’s it’s not on the agenda but seeing and hearing about other munchkins still brings be happiness 🥺🥰

[@Tashazen0013]

@@sarahdenham4459 oh I’m so sorry to hear this, hopefully your baby will come to you another way as you sound like such a lovely person who would make a great Mama xx

[@nicolesurphlis1558]

Amber going to daycare after new year five day work s

[@rebekahtwigger5190]

From a childminders assistant’s perspective you did great! I hope George had a lovely first day! Xx

[@sabine46]

Omg, I'm in bits and my baby boy is only 5,5 months. Really not looking forward to going back to work. Wish we would win the lottery so I don't ever have to get back to work!

[@Maame321]

Ooh I thought I was the only one who has these thoughts... Glad to know I'm not alone x

[@TardsRe]

Ohhhh I'm the same & my boy is 4 months. So not looking forward to going back to work and leaving him 😩

[@fionacallaghan9164]

Oh Shan I can so relate to this. Alot of people think working mums have it easy and are sometimes selfish following their career- but the reality is its hard hard work emotionally, the guilt you have etc

[@sabine46]

And definitely don't consider your feelings and emotions ABNORMAL! It is a sign you have a deep intense love for your baby boy. It is normal and completely healthy! You fully grew this tiny boy inside of you for nine months! Then you gave birth to this wonderful, tiny human being! And then you gave all your love and affection for another 10 months, raising your amazing baby boy and watching him grow and develop and learn new skills! You are OK to have those feelings! Don't deny them! The thought alone, of my own baby boy going to that new stage, makes me want to cry and feel the same way you did! I think it would actually be abnormal if you didn't feel a thing!

[@hayleyfox3591]

You absolutely do not have to be upbeat and put a smile on your face for us. Motherhood is a constant rollercoaster of emotions. My husband always calls me the ice queen I’m not emotional, not a cryer at all…… fast forward to me after I’ve had a baby I’m SO much more emotional about everything. I think it’s completely normal for it to hit so hard. I’m not quite in your position yet as I’m still on mat leave but due back in Oct. My family are having him 3 days a week however I’m anticipating feeling the same even though he’s with family. I think it’s accepting that time of your life when it’s just the 2 of you all day every day is over. It’s a lot to get your head around 😢 You know he’ll absolutely thrive, you will really treasure the days you have together and just think how proud you should be of yourself for raising such a happy healthy beautiful little boy. Well done mumma ❤️

[@ashhetty1335]

Oh gosh, this is gonna be me when I have to go back to work. Like I won't even know who I am without him. Hugs.

[@jadedavison4440]

Oh I’ve watched your videos since the packing hospital bag…and I feel so sad for you in this. It’s all we’ve ever known being with our babies and especially through lockdown 24/7 with them. We’ve watched baby George grow into such a cute little boy! It’s a new chapter and this will be me in September 😭 Xxx

[@sammarshall8715]

Aww babe it's okay to be upset ❤ Iv been there, when you both get in routine it will feel much better I promise. It will be so good for you both - and particularly your sanity! 🥰 you've got this! xxx

[@robynoakes5006]

Sending all the love & hugs ❤️❤️

[@elfiemay]

Just had a cry with you. My baby boy will be starting nursery in October when I go back to work and I am so sad about it already. Sending hugs x

[@louisacoote2337]

My niece cried when she was first dropped off at the childminder’s and my sister felt so guilty! The childminder texted her a few minutes later to say my niece completely stopped as soon as my sister left, and she was having a lovely time!

[@misschelsealicious]

Omg I can’t even watch this. I’m tearing up and my baby is only 5 months old 😭😭😭 hope you’re ok! x

[@chelsealee8571]

My son goes to nursery when I go back in November and will be away from me for 5 days. And I cried watching you cry! I’m dreading it!

[@rachaelc5468]

I needed this. Thank you! 💕 My LO starts nursery on Friday and I’m dreading it. Was crying with you in this video! 🥺🥴

[@rebeccatownsend5892]

😢 even I cried for you! Sending hugs 🤗 x

[@TardsRe]

Ohhh I cried with you 😩 my boy is 4 months old and I dread this day. Stay strong you can do this x

[@louiseshirra8087]

Thought I was already subscribed to your chanel but just subscribed now. Been watching since you were pregnant with George. Awww I just started crying so much when you cried makes me think of how hard it is going to feel popping my little girl Jessica into childcare. She is 6 and half month old and I go back in 9 weeks to work. Hope you are all doing well now xx

[@lauraroberts7075]

Aww Shan, I get it. I cried at the idea of leaving Tommy to go work. If you know it's the right thing for you then it will get better ☺️ xxx

[@PrincessAlice2012xxx]

What you’re feeling is COMPLETELY NORMAL. I went back to work when my babies (I’ve got twin boys) hit 9-10 months and it’s the hardest thing ever. I’ve broke down in work a few times cos I felt guilt, hurt, and as if I’m missing out on them growing up. Allow yourself to cry 😢 it’s an emotional time for not just them but for you ❤️

[@gemmamansfield8865]

Aww sending you lots off hugs lovely leaving ur child is the hardest thing ever when my 4 year old first went to nursery at 2 I cried so much was pregnant aswell but was emotional then my second she went at 15 Months that was hardest thing ever as we couldn’t go in with her so cried again like a baby and again I was pregnant with 3rd it’s very hard but he will have best time ever does them good aswell , I’ll be a mess in sept as my oldest starts school Making me tear up thinking about it xxxx

[@HelloNewMe1996]

This is the first day take my baby in babycare. I cried a lot !! Can’t concentration on my desk !!!

[@kayleigh3111]

Welcome to the land of mum guilt 🥺 I remember that first full day I cried too lol but I was at work , I’m on baby no 2 and I’m dreading going back to work . It’s tough being a mum, just know your doing amazing xx

[@emmap1458]

I’ve just rewatched this while my daughter is at herfirst day at the childminders. Thank you so much for making this - makes me feel like I’m not alone

[@ts6333]

Aww it’s because he’s growing up it hurts don’t it I’m sure he’ll have a fantastic day tho xx

[@NatashaLeahOfficial]

Omg my 1 year old starts daycare only 1 day a week in 2 weeks and I feel like I’m doing the wrong thing but I know it’s for the best! It’s so hard girl you’re smashing it! I feel the exact same way! 😭♥️

[@jadedesombre5714]

Aw my baby is 9 months on Saturday. This must be so hard 😭 I feel like my daughter would benefit from childcare and me too but hurts to think about. You can’t win

[@samantharose6604]

Awww i love you... im sat watching this with my nearly 6 month old and need to go back to work soon due to finances 🥺 its going to hurt me so much xxxxx

[@shriyashrivastava5992]

I just left my son at nursery for the first day, he is 11 months. I can totally relate to you. You did so well. I hope my son settles in nicely since he was crying as I left and it broke my heart I actually contemplated life is it worth is anything in life more important just some existential que and guilt though you know you have a career they will their own person soon, it's good and everything But still hard Exactly as said

[@charlottehollands9070]

I hope you were okay and George had a lovely time! I have this to come a week on Monday. Little boy will only be 5 months old but I can't afford to take anymore time off 😭 xx

[@emmalouise8001]

Omg I’m crying now too! My baby is 6 months he starts nursery in December I’m not ready for it 😭

[@madepurelove7970]

Thank you for this video I am going through the same ❤

[@sophielouisetaylor4069]

Oh bless you!! I’m dreading this day, but like you say it’s great for them and Mama’s have got to earn money too 💪🏽💪🏽 xx

[@karenbarbaccia4026]

I was lucky enough many, many years ago not to have to go back to work full time (had a cleaning job for a couple of hours in the evenings) but my fantastic mum used to have my children for a few hours a week so I could catch up with housework. When they started play group, then pre-school, infants even junior, seniors 😂 every step was a wrench for me 😢 but you learn bit by bit you’ll have lovely quality time with George and appreciate him even more 🥰 my children now are 33,31and 25 also have 1 granddaughter 3 yrs old and a grandson due this December . Xxx

[@savvynorthernmummy2394]

I dropped my eldest daughter off for the first time and i cried and cried and had a scan for my second daughter that day and i literally cried to them aswell! Honestly so normal! I have 4 kids and i still get emotional of every stage! Xx

[@katanaclawz]

My 1 year old starts tomorrow. 1st time at daycare. 1st time with other caregiver since he was 7 months old and severely abused by his care giver while I was at work. I’m going to be sick

[@abigailbennetts610]

I understand completely how you feel. Our little one is starting next month (will be 5 and a half months); just wish I had more time with her. 😢

[@bookkeysuk]

I wish I could home school my baby, I cannot stand this. I can’t!

[@vandakampane1330]

I just cried with you😭😭😭 it's hard to be mum xx

[@christinafox8928]

Just going through this right now. It's so hard i'm in bits. I just feel like my baby has gone now. 😢

[@clarisafabillo1230]

I feel the pain as a working mom we want the best for our child.. 😞

[@jennyupabove]

I'm about to go through this and I'm absolutely dreading it. We're putting my daughter in nursery and I'm already not impressed with them as they've been a bit bad with organising settling in days and things. It's too late to find an alternative and now I'm really upset about it all.

[@halloweellahere7602]

It's a hard time at the moment. Give them the benefit of the doubt. Don't get off to the wrong start with them or every interaction you have with them, even a year from now, will be plauged by their first impression of you. Friendly advice and I really don't comment on things. But I have the same problem but with a nurse at my surgery. Kept me waiting for half an hour in the sweltering heat when my baby was 3 months old because she thought I was 5 minutes late (they got the wrong time) so I said how terribly unfair it was to do that to a little baby in this heat and what a shame... Anyway now every fricking appointment is unnatural and just cringe tbh! So just some friendly advice :) hope they blow you away, keep me informed that would be lovely! :)

[@CherryPieBlog]

What I never realised was how much stuff they have to take with them. I always thought it was a case of they bring themselves and that’s it!

[@RaechelDesertQueen-ei7ip]

Awww 😢😢😢

[@RaechelDesertQueen-ei7ip]

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[@dianesgp]

Hug hug❤

[@bethdennis1006]

This made me cry 😭 I’ll be sending my son to childcare soon he will just over 8 months and I’m absolutely dreading it! He’ll love it but I won’t 💔 but need to work 😔 hope he had an amazing day!

[@phoenixscott2592]

What is your job?

[@sophiealways2674]

Please look at your suncream as a Nivea one has failed tests and children have been getting burnt 😞

[@catsforever3999]

Oh really. Which is a good one to go for?

[@sophiealways2674]

@@catsforever3999 it’s best to check the Which? Reviews for what is best. But it should have a 5star UV rating. I’ve heard the Aldi one is one of the best ones!

[@stephaniewilliams8397]

No hate at all by any means but won't you be better off giving up work? Don't all your wages go to the childminder? So sort of defeats the object! I'm due a little boy in 6 weeks and just curious! Xxxx

[@HomeWithShan]

I wouldn’t be able to afford my mortgage, bills or food without working unfortunately x