Thank you for this conversation...3 months ago I found my 13yr old son dead on the floor in the morning, I worked desperately on him till the Ambos arrived, but in my heart I knew he has gone when I found him as he didn't look good. He died from an asthma attack. The trauma from that has scrambled my brain and the guilt of all the what ifs and should ofs, that I could of saved him if I'd tried harder in a million different ways, are the worst part by far 😢💔