Euthanasia, Loss, and Grief of a Companion Cat

[@KDrop84]

My mom yelled at me cause I kept calling her after I lost my 17 year old cat. Told me it was just a cat. It crushed my soul . Like I wasn’t allowed to grieve. Please don’t ever allow anyone tell you your feelings aren’t valid. It made my grief worse. I loved my Tiger Lilly so much. She traveled with me and she loved everyone. She was my family. You have the right to grieve and I pray for everyone’s healing. ❤

[@AuntCathyPooh]

I'm so sorry you didn't get the support you needed when you needed it the most 😔💔 Sending you fierce but gentle hugs from this internet stranger 💜💜

[@pri.sci.lla.]

I am so sorry you had to go through that especially at such a tough time 💔 Tiger Lilly is always with you 🐾 🌈

[@lolcatz88]

I’m so sorry your mum doesn’t understand your pain! They are never “Just a cat”, they are family, our fur children. Yes we can get another after they pass, but that doesn’t lessen the grief we feel, or replace what we loved. Every cat has their own unique personality and soul, just like humans and all animals. I would never yell at my child for grieving over something she loved so dearly. Shame on your mum! RIP Tiger Lilly. Your mum will love you always! 🧡🤎🤍🩶🖤

[@wyndhamyip1629]

I’m so sorry about your 17-year-old cat Daughter so heartbreaking to hear remove your mum from your life not nice Grief pain is unlimited beyond sorry for your loss of your cat daughter Tiger Lilly loves you so much I think about and miss my cat daughter Licorice grief pain 5.0 😭😭😭😭😭😭💔💔💔

[@egirl622]

I'm sorry you mom did that to you. You have my deepest condolences, if that's any consolation.

[@alanefideler7234]

Nora McInerny said on her podcast "We celebrate and insist on living a good life, and no one talks about how wonderful it is to have a good death." I've worked in surgery for over ten years, and I can't stress enough how brave and how noble it is to give someone (pets included) a peaceful, calm, loving death. Edit: For anyone who is interested, the podcast is called "Terrible, Thanks for Asking". It's the antithesis of toxic positivity; people needing validation for their pain and suffering will find it there.

[@feliskathryn]

This is very helpful thank you ❤

[@mycreativeheart4159]

Thank you for your compassion and kind words.❤❤❤

[@jennamanning3011]

Thank you for this❤️

[@rebeccacamacho-sobczak4282]

Thank you.

[@WhoAmI2YouNow]

As a patient, I really want this to happen..

[@KauaiDee]

I didn’t realize this was the first time you lost a companion cat. You are able to articulate your grief and process so well. Sharing your pain and emotion on the internet is so brave. You gave Eloise an amazing life and such a dignified death. Much love to you and Andrew.

[@Legittoquit1]

Oh are you a genocide b too a bad Jew a killer of babies

[@donniewalters564]

Two days ago, I had to euthanize my cat Mrs. Norris. I grieved with you in this video as it's still raw and hard. My cat was 26 years old and I cried harder, longer and louder than any other loss of my life. Thank you for this video. I'm watching it a second time. 😥

[@HHAKitty]

Sorry you lost such a beloved pet.❤‍🩹

[@donniewalters564]

@@HHAKitty Thank you so much. It still pains me at times. ♥

[@elizam6091]

Even in death, my beloved senior cat , Mat never really left me. He will remain in my heart and soul forever and ever... Now Im bursting into tears..

[@nancyowens357]

Your description of “anticipatory grief” was the first time I’ve heard anyone say it out loud that way. I lost my 20 yr old “love of my life” kitty, Leo about 6 months ago. I remember vividly everything you described leading up to the euthanasia decision and the questioning of the timing on that choice. I really appreciate this conversation on quality of living and the gift we can give to alleviate suffering.

[@Juliaflo]

Twenty years. A long life.

[@Upper_echelon_exotics]

I'm sitting here with the love of my life kitty. Knowing that the end might not be that far away is tough. He's healthy as far as I can tell. He's only about 9 but there's no guarantee that I get him for 10-11 more years.

[@franketa76]

I am so sorry for your loss... anticipatory grief is so sad and frightening, especially after having booked the appointment for euthanasia, because you know that THIS is your last night with your pet, curled up in your arms or snoring peacefully next to you, your last breakfast with your beloved furbaby beside you, the last time hanging out together in your favorite spot, ... and you know there is nothing you can do about it. But you know that the decision you made for your pet comes from a place of deep love and respect and wanting their death to be as peaceful and calm as possible... And Leo, Eloise and all other pets that were given such a heatwrenching beautiful good bye just knew that they had an amazing day with treats, playing, endless pets and cuddles and then went to sleep, still feeling their loved ones around them.

[@joeomalley2835]

I've never heard of that term "anticipatory grief" but everything she says make so much sense when you are going through it. Sorry for the loss of your cat of 20 years. I had a similar experience with one of my mom's cats who was just going through so much at the end. By some miracle he had gotten better for about 6 months before he started declining again. He was a 20 year plus cat as well.

[@baekhyunee4320]

Eloise was so loved, and she knew that ❤

[@essencemylyfe]

❤❤❤❤

[@jondeare]

I loved Eloise...and all I got was a few clips on KZbin.

[@PhoneEnthusiast]

I thought I was ready to watch this, but I was sobbing by the end. Thank you for sharing this, truly. It's rare that a video can bring me to tears, but your story brought back unprocessed feelings of grief for cats I've lost that I didn't know I still carried years later, and helped me process them just a little more. Grief is grief, for any species, and we don't talk about it enough. It's comforting to hear another person talk about it in such a real and vulnerable way.

[@sl3772]

Same

[@jscho8674]

So beautifully said.

[@slametdinatadinata645]

I cannot cry

[@Counterbalance_]

I've read about a family who had lost their beloved cat, and they had hard time overcoming their grief, so they started going to a psychologist. She convinced them that if they wanted to get over it, they had to throw away everything that reminded them of the cat: the things he regularly used, as well as pictures, etc. I don't remember whether they did it or not, but I was so furious! That advice told me all I needed to know what she thought about the family and how she viewed pets. WTH? Would you discard everything that reminds you of your kid, sibling, grandparent or friend if they pass away? When I lost my cat that lived with me for 22 years, I thought I'd die with him. I have pictures of him on the wall and I'm so grateful for the love he'd given me.

[@slametdinatadinata645]

@@Counterbalance_ ok ok...

[@cobu6290]

From that beautiful poem.... "Just think of her as living In the lives of those she touched. For nothing loved is ever lost, And she was loved so much." Goodbye Eloise ❤

[@kittiegroove]

I lost my 10 year old cat this morning after a brief fight with kidney failure. I am absolutely devastated. I chose to euthanize rather than proceed with surgery when her body was telling us it had had enough. Big grief for big love is such a beautiful way to put it, and as I’m sitting in a puddle of my own grief over the next few weeks I am going to try to remember this. Thank you.

[@lbarbados38]

I'm so sorry, it's SO hard. I wish you peace.

[@minarose3193]

I have my eldest senior feline he is 20 years old! I use all standard process supplements to support each organ along with immune boosters CBD and a natural species approach diet so no kibble. If you feed can make sure it’s non toxic lining and grain free. My future rescues I’m going to Start with natural care and I also netted my yard with catnets so I don’t have to vaccinate. I think this also contributed to him living past 20! No vaccines no pesticides

[@HHAKitty]

sorry you dealt with that.Hope you feel better!❤‍🩹

[@jessmendoza510]

(-Update-Having to let go of my 16 years old cat sucked just as bad if not worse . It’s been a month and I’m still in denial, I can’t and refuse to accept that he’s gone. Accepting it would make that horrible empty feeling come rushing back, I just don’t want to feel it. I don’t even remember what life was like before him 😞) Deciding to euthanize my two year old cat with pancreatic cancer was the hardest thing I’ve ever done. It was the one and only time ever, that I felt like I couldn’t handle life. I’ll never forget that feeling of complete despair. I am so very sorry for your loss of Eloise 💔

[@anastatiaholden216]

❤

[@cybercat29]

Please accept my deepest condolences on the passing of your dear sweet kitty 😭😿💔

[@andreitamh9853]

I've been there(just like u wrote...it was definitely the hardest decision ever)...I'm so sorry for your loss ❤

[@belindakorver8395]

Thank you for this video i lost some off my cats myself young and older. It is very important to grief yourself and the other cats. You both made a beautiful tribute to Eloise

[@Noorie79]

❤

[@heyitsbinx5452]

“It’s better to be a day too early than a day too late”. The kindest, most loving thing we can do is letting them go with dignity 💕

[@starrfaithfull6934]

You gave Eloise her best life and passing. My brother, a surgeon, always said that our pets believe in us--that we will always make things right for them. They trust us, their parents. Your love and compassion for Eloise was your gift to your sweet child. Having your vet into the familiarity of home is the kindest thing we can do. Animals don't fear death; we fear losing our loved ones--our babies. Thank you for easing her home. 💙

[@deesnider6304]

Losing my cats breaks me to a point that I have never experienced with losing people in my life. Not many would understand but I know that you would. so thank you. 💔

[@bodean2222]

Yes I am experiencing this loss right now of my beloved J.J. The pain is unlike anything I have ever experienced, and I am 60 years old. It has been unbearable. I have no more tears to cry.

[@SupTimone9]

Did this take anybody else multiple attempts to watch all the way through? I can’t imagine the grief Hannah and Andrew are feeling right now because this was so hard for me and I’ve never even met Eloise. I’m so sorry for your loss ❤

[@kaitlynwithakay]

I intended to watch it a little at a time, but I started sobbing and couldn’t bring myself to press pause

[@halloire]

I've already got tears in my eyes 6 minutes in, and my youngest kitten (8 months) is just laid on my chest and it's so hard to think that eventually it is something I'll be dealing with.

[@milyeros5187]

I am too empathetic (still working on it through therapy and help), so I am crying like if it were my cat. Sounds silly for me...

[@tharangadhanu6767]

I'm watching right now crying so hardly.I cant help my self..Hannah is so brave..bless her and Rest in peace eloise ❤❤❤

[@TimothyCollins]

I lost my wonderful Mothra just two days ago. She was 18 years old and had been with me for 17 years. It hurts. I am so glad that about 3 weeks ago I had this one Last Good Day. She came up on that day and was on my lap all day. She made muffins on be and head butted me and kissed and I talked and petted her and joked "what did I do so right to deserve this?". And it was almost the next day the decline hit. It was slow at first - less walking around and such. But in this last week she'd gotten to the point where she couldn't stand up. Her eyes no longer reacted to light. She couldn't control her... functions anymore. I so wanted the vet to tell me there was a magic injection to make her better but I knew there wasn't. And on tuesday night in my bedroom floor me and the vet made the decision and I held her and petted her as she went to sleep. It was the right thing to do and I am so glad we had that one Last Good Day. And that is the lesson here... cat, dog, parent, whoever... never miss that Last Good Day. Always cherish every second you get with whoever you love.

[@shalix333]

Imagine everyone could leave life so peacefully, safe and loved. Eloise was truly lucky to have you. I´m so sorry for your loss.

[@pesa9518]

It's so nice that the vet came to their home for this. I wish more vets offered that. Pets should be able to pass on in their safe, happy and calm space.

[@rebeccabrown5014]

I looked all over for hospice and in home euthanasia and none was available in our area. On June 5th, my beloved 15 year old cat, Saffron, had to be euthanized in the veterinary clinic. She cried all the way to the clinic and once there, even after the sedative, she heroically tried to get back into her carrier so we would bring her home. It was so traumatizing and I blame myself for her anything but peaceful death. I just couldn’t find any other option. 😢

[@Sagenmrr]

@@rebeccabrown5014 You did the very best you could. And remember, all of this only happened ONCE. Sometimes, the worst thing is going over a death over and over in your head. It happened only once. Your kitty was unhappy going to the vet, but most cats are, whether it's for a routine vaccine or a final goodbye. But the kitty didn't know. She was sedated, so she was somewhat calmed, and when she tried to climb back in her carrier to go home--she was showing that she loved you and trusted you to take her to where things were better. And you did that. Not in the way she expected, not in the way your loving heart would hope, but she couldn't know what you knew about her illness and her prognosis. You did the very best you could for Saffron, and you spared her a lot of suffering.

[@Felineintuition]

​@@SagenmrrThis is so touching! Your answer is just...everything!

[@janeoleary8454]

There are vets that only do this type if service

[@estiriaz]

@@Sagenmrr i know this is a reply to someone else and its been a long time, but thank you for saying this. i didnt know how much i needed to hear that. my lola hissed at the vet when they first started to sedate her and ran off my dad's lap so we had to swaddle her like when she'd fight her meds. i felt so horrible, i still do, and i've felt so scared she was mad at us for it. but she was sedated and she looked so relaxed before they took her back. i truly hope she knew how much we loved her.

[@CatherineButler-px9of]

I cried uncontrollably for weeks when I lost my cat. I'll always feel guilty that when it was time to let her go I couldn't hold her in her basket on the way to the vet as it was as if I was taking her to her death (even though she was in a bad way and suffering). The vet was amazing and I was with her when she passed. I miss her every day and my heart goes out to anyone who loses an animal.

[@abbyg3404]

I’m sorry for your loss.

[@skepticalmom2948]

I am old, I have lost many pet friends over the years, it never gets easier. They let you know when they are done with the pain, the refusal of food is it. I hope you heal soon, love yourself, allow yourself the time. Til you meet again in a different plane of existence. ❤

[@lonnarheaj]

At 64, I have had to say goodbye to many of our fur babies. You are absolutely correct: it never gets any easier to make that hard decision and say goodbye. I currently have two beloved, very senior feline ladies in the end stage of life. I know what's coming. 21 years just isn't enough time with someone you love.

[@eg-draw]

My cat stopped eating and we fed her forcefully for a month (kept wet food right in front of her little muzzle until she starts licking). Vet gave us special stimulating medicine and she started eating by her self! But after the diagnostic surgery she said “what's enough" and stop swallowing the food. Vets couldn't feed her and said we have to put special tube in her stomach. But I saw her eyes. Cancer was everywhere, her lungs weren't only one hosts anymore. My girl didn't deserve to suffer. We let her go.

[@user-rj1vj5wk9f]

Thank you for this post. My Fluffy who I nicknamed secretly 'Never Miss a Meal', stopped eating properly towards the last 2 weeks of her bladder cancer journey and deep down that's when I knew she was ready to go. I didn't want to face it so I was overly hopeful when she would drink the warm water her chicken was cooked in. She loved chicken water when she was well and still lapped it up when ill. Occasionally she would eat a little cat food but seeing food left in her bowl after every meal was a clear sign that she wasn't going to make it for much longer. I wanted to be sure not to do it too soon but also as Jackson Galaxy advises, Not on their worst day. Fluffy was put to sleep on 19 Aug 24 and even the night before I was bargaining thinking maybe she didn't need to 'go', but I knew it would only lead to more unpleasant painful symptoms. She went through a lot from the day of the diagnosis at the end of May up until 19 Aug. I managed to get the bleeding under control with herbs like Turkey Tail, Olive Leaf, Spirulina and Dandelion Root crushed and mixed in water but then the cancer must have spread because her urine was flowing in directions making her tummy and back legs wet. That lead to nappies and frequent showers and gentle blow drying and I knew we couldn't keep that going, it wasn't fair to her. She took to the nappies quickly and stopped protesting in the shower, which wasn't like her at all. She wasn't eating enough and her fur looked lack lustre, every now and then her feisty personality shone through but she was going downhill so I had to let her go. I wasn't sure about the food part, I thought it would be temporary but you're right, once they stop eating, its a message to us.

[@mariannaquiles9121]

I just had to put My Precious Greyski to sleep. She was 16 yrs old. Had kidney & liver failure. A. Infection & very dehydrated. I feel like I made the wrong decision. Depressed ~ Crying 😢 Everyday. I miss her soooo much. Beyond Heart Broken 💔 & Devastated. Till we meet again at The Rainbow 🌈 Bridge. I Love 💗 & Miss You 🥰 Sooooo Much Greyski. You made My Life Soooo Much Better …

[@heymaribellaa]

I’m so sorry for your loss. 10 weeks ago, I found a litter of abandoned kittens, with just one barely alive. We brought her in, not knowing what to do, and your videos saved us. I learned so much and I’m so proud, relieved, and in awe that I am able to say we saved her with your help. Thank you for what you do. ❤

[@barbarab1513]

Amém. Angel

[@Wally943]

The two rulers of my universe are getting up there in age (as I am also.) I’ve been fortunate to be the ones holding my previous pets as they went over the Rainbow Bridge. Even though I don’t plan on getting more after these two are gone, I have learned so much about kitten/cat care from Hannah. With what I’ve learned my two lead much better, and safer lives .

[@kerriemeinert5847]

Euthanasia is such a brave, selfless decision. The book, The Other Family Doctor, is written by a veterinarian who speaks about euthanasia and her personal experience with it from both sides. Thank you, Hannah, for sharing your experience with Eloise. Your relationship with her was so beautiful!

[@AbagailGrayce]

I read this book as well! it really made me less scared to think about the end of my pets’ lives, just by reading what she and her patients have experienced, and feeling validated about how much our fur friends mean to us.

[@whitneyv5096]

Thank you so much for this video. I lost my cat unexpectedly from cancer in April. The more you share your experience, it helps other cat guardians like me feel seen. He wasn't "just a cat", but someone I felt and feel soul connected to. I have had people shocked I'm still gutted over it but it's just as valid as the loss of a beloved human.

[@creatuitiveguru]

I hear you. I lost my dad in February of that year, and my mom in August of that year. I was fine. When I lost my first cat Sneakers in November of that year, I just crumpled. No one else seemed to get what I was feeling.

[@theflashgirl2057]

@@creatuitiveguru the last loss must ve been the last drop that broke you

[@yogawithkassandra]

My sweet baby Cleo was diagnosed with that exact same oral cancer yesterday and I'm in anticipatory grief hell. She's 12 years old and I really thought I'd have so much longer with her, I've had her since she was a tiny kitten. I'm devastated. The vet thinks we might have a few weeks, it's so hard.

[@ginniekinz5401]

so sorry 😢

[@marshallborder9089]

It is hell I know going though this , prayers...

[@Peekaboo123-o9z]

I recently lost my baby too, not from this same cancer but it was probably the worst things I’ve gone through, it’s gonna be tough but I hope you eventually come to peace with this and that you’re gonna be ok🩷

[@marshallborder9089]

🥲 So Sorry I'm in the grief process too.

[@katiedame6489]

Anticipatory grief is absolute hell. Sending love and hugs and strength for what will have to be done.

[@CatEyedGoddess]

My 16 yo baby was just diagnosed with kidney cancer. At 16 his treatments are minimum. I was told today, he is good for now. But, I just can’t bare the thought of losing him. He is everything to me, I fell in love with him the moment I saw him as a kitten. And for 16 years we have been thick as thieves. He got me through a severe depression and so much more. I feel like I failed him. Like, I didn’t take him for enough check ups or I should have taken him sooner. I’m not ready for him to walk across that bridge.

[@candimoomey1698]

I just lost both my 14 yr old Marie, and my 15 yr old Sam within a week and a half of each other. Loss is so hard, when those furbabies have been there through everything with you. My condolences, hon.

[@SecondEvilEx]

Sending you and your family my love. May you reunite with them someday

[@anastatiaholden216]

Lots of love to you. ❤

[@awoods1039]

I’m so very sorry for your loss.

[@attyddmorris9899]

Love to you. So sorry for your losses.

[@houstonka]

Two years ago i lost my cat of 17 years and my dog of 14 years only six days apart. Pain was unbearable, but it gets better with time. I still cry on some days and still miss them so much. Hugs to you my dear ❤‍🩹

[@leleprtk]

Oh Hannah, I’m so incredibly sorry 😢 Eloise was (and still is) such a bright star. My cat is 22 years old and I can feel she is slipping away, I’m nowhere near ready to say goodbye yet. We never are. All my love to you 💖

[@anastatiaholden216]

❤

[@slametdinatadinata645]

I cannot cry , Goodbye pets!

[@AussieCat111]

I lost my cat Isaac to squamous cell carcinoma in January 2022. He fought hard but it's such a terrible disease. I'm so sorry for your loss of Eloise, she seemed like a real sweetie.

[@cybercat29]

Please accept my deepest condolences on the passing of your dear sweet Issac 😭 😿 💔

[@AussieCat111]

@@cybercat29 Thank you for your kind message! He was a very sweet boy 🐱❤️

[@slametdinatadinata645]

What is squamous cell carcinoma?

[@PassionofDance212]

Do we know anything about how anyone can get it. 🥺 cancer in cats is just not fair

[@Walkinamaze]

I just lost my soulmate Cat to this. I’m so sorry for your loss. It is such a terrible thing to go through.

[@oneminutewonder77]

Thank you for acknowledging anticipatory grief. No one seems to understand that is arguably the hardest part. I've been tearing up every day for a week with my sixteen year old buddy. He's been having health issues over the last few months.

[@claudeclawsonne4510]

When I realised how special He was to me, I started anticipatng grief. So I had 14 years of grief and he's been gone ten years and I still cry when I think of him.

[@NinjaKittyBonks]

Losing our furrballs is BRUTAL 😭They are our family and we love them, but I always remind myself of the following. The sadness I feel, is directly proportionate to the love we shared 😿

[@mookins45]

"We would not grieve, if we did not love." -Q. Elizabeth Christmas message

[@meggarstang6761]

I've never sobbed so hard as I did when I had to help my first two rescue cats cross the rainbow bridge. I think of them often, even all these years later. My profound grief didn't put me off adopting another cat. There are so many sweet fluffs in need of our love.❤

[@michaeldemasi8677]

Your cat looked very similar to mine that my wife and I recently lost but Snowy was a male. We had him and his sibling cat Squeaky for almost 18 years. He passed then she past recently exactly 6 months after. I still grieve over both of them. Life is very different without them. I pray that everyone that loses their pets find comfort in knowing that they loved us as much as we loved them. I also believe we may see them again when it’s our time. Love and blessings to all.

[@deidrelorenz8307]

I'm so sorry for your loss. That's so sad. Your encouraging words helps a lot. We put down our chocolate lab, annie this past tuesday. Time helps will help & remembering fond memories our pets. Blessings.🎉

[@michaeldemasi8677]

Thank you. I’m sorry for you loss as well. Our pets are family. We will always remember them and miss them. But at least we got to spend much time with them and give them the love they gave us and more. I miss them every day. But no more because I don’t want this feeling of loss for either them or me.. Blessings to you .. We’ll see them again.. God is more than good.

[@monicabooth2812]

I'm so very sorry for the loss of your dear companion Eloise. As Vision so eloquently put it, "what is grief, if not love persevering?" Our pets are our family, and our love for them endures after they're gone. My kitty Sophie was my companion and when we had to be evacuated from our town during a wildfire, I forgot her litter box. She didn't use the bathroom for 24 hours until we could make it to a pet store to buy her one. A month later, I returned with her to help the municipality in its re-entry efforts. A week or so after I came back, she stopped eating and was throwing up bile. I knew something was very wrong because the next day, hour by hour I could see the skin inside her ears turn yellow. Thankfully a vet was back in town and I took her in, did bloodwork and a scan that revealed what looked like a large mass on her liver, which was likely cancer but also could have been a blockage. I was given the hardest choice: take her back to the town I evacuated to in order to do an invasive exploratory surgery that likely would only have confirmed the mass (if she even survived the trip or surgery) or put her to sleep then. She was suffering, and I was alone and working 17-hr days trying to help people navigate the most traumatizing moments of their lives. I decided to end her suffering, but I still feel guilt, and I still wonder if there was something that I did to cause it, like what if it was a blockage caused by that 24-hr period where she couldn't use the bathroom because I was so preoccupied with getting my family out of a town on fire that I forgot her litter box? Whether it was or wasn't, I know that I made the right decision for her with the circumstances and the resources I had, and I know that I gave her a good life. I still have her little paw print and pictures of her, my darling girl.

[@sallymater]

My cat’s name is Sophie too, she has kidney disease and unfortunately isn’t doing well. I understand your pain and am so sorry for your loss ❤️

[@1Thunderfire]

You did the absolute best you could and made sure that she was well-loved. And given the risks involved, it was better to ease her suffering without letting drag on, as hard and painful a decision as it may have been.

[@holocene2164]

I am so sorry for your loss. I can assure you you had nothing to do with it. If she had a mass on her liver, it probably was cancerous and those don't appear due to not urinating. Plus, I can assure you that your cat would have peed eventually even without her litter box. It had nothing to do with her mass. I'm sure your Sophie had a good life and was loved ❤ Wishing you all the best

[@EleanorandLorelei]

I'm in the anticipatory phase... my 18 year old Blondie baby has had kidney disease for nearly 6 years.. She's a tough old lady, but has declining rapidly. I'm balling right now thinking about her. thanks for being so candid about your feelings and experience. RIP Eloise

[@crazykittenlady]

Letting go of your suffering pet is the ultimate and greatest proof of love. Strength to you Hannah

[@ghoultiful]

Our 20-year-old cat passed because of a tumor on her spine. We were so worried that we wouldn't know when it was time but she let us know. She was just so done. Thank you for sharing this with us. I truly understand how hard it is

[@LauraSusanJohnson]

I lost my boy Ted in Nov 2021 to renal failure. I was his person and he loved me. He picked me. When you give an animal a wonderful life, you are their angel, you are their whole world. I'm glad you crossed paths with this lovely kitty. So sorry for this tremendous loss. 😢❤💐🐱

[@slametdinatadinata645]

What is renal failure?

[@REALcatmom]

@@slametdinatadinata645 kidney failure

[@pecan11]

I am a non believer as well, and I ABSOLUTELY LOVE your statement. “When u leave, you become a story.” I agree!!! Thank you for this video. It had me crying too but I believe you gave her the best life and best exit from this world! She was so loved!

[@samanthavdhoeven]

One of my cats, Daisy, had the same kind of cancer. It has already spread throughout her entire mouth. We went to the vet for just a check up and ended up leaving without her. No words can explain how much that hurt. I’m so sorry for your loss.

[@eileengabellini6935]

I am sorry for your loss.Saying good bye without preparation feels harder for me. Just loss my cat Brandy without preparation 2 Months ago. Some Days the grief still returns.

[@EastmanEditing]

​ @eileengabellini6935 I'm so sorry for both of your losses. I'm currently a new "mom" to a stray cat I adopted this summer. He has quite a few health issues so I knew going into it I would have to prepare for the worst, but he's been thoroughly enjoying his new life and so it's more than worth it. I have a vet appointment scheduled because he's been showing some potential symptoms of either an abscessed tooth or an oral tumor, though he's still eating and playing, but just a bit more tired than usual. Anyways, I'm curious if you don't mind me asking, was there any chance you could have taken your cat back home with you to spend a day or two more? Or were they that far gone (weren't eating, eliminating, etc...) when you took them in? I've heard a lot of stories saying they brought their pets in and left without them, and now I'm worried. Or was it more so that cancer/certain health issues can suddenly take a turn for the worse, so it's better to let them go if it's already too far along? This is in no way a judgmental question by the way. I want to make that very clear because nobody needs to be any harder on themselves for these heartbreaking decisions! It's more so that I can prepare myself if the time is sooner than I imagined. I do better knowing what I could possibly be going into...

[@domikm1767]

I so much understand you. My boxer girl, faithful companion in all life adventures, from kayaking to raising a child, had a strange shaking fit in the morning. In the afternoon I took her to the vet. I came back home with only a leash and a complete ruin in heart and mind. She had a brain tumor a size of a tennis ball, nobody ever suspected.

[@NatYourAverageNerd]

I understand your trauma here, friend. I took both my kitties into the vet's for their on-site groomer to give them their Spring/Summer haircuts, and I only came home with one several hours later. I've been in pain before and I've lost a family member tragically once during my life thus far, but nothing has broken my heart and shattered my entire spirit quite like losing my baby boy, Espresso Bean. He was three months away from his third birthday, his death was sudden and unexpected, and the only reason I'm able to hold myself together right now is because my older girl is surviving with me. I'm not suicidal, but I feel like if not for her, then I might not have the strength to keep moving forward with my life right now.

[@HHAKitty]

Sorry for all of that happening.Sending love and hugs ❤‍🩹

[@karacollins8036]

Hannah.. My soul kitty was diagnosed with squamous cell carcinoma two weeks ago, and my gosh how this video resonates with me. I spent 4 hours weeding yesterday! Please know that sharing your story is so significant and meaningful to someone like me. Especially right now. I just want to say thank you for opening up and being so vulnerable. You are truly making a difference.

[@mandimartin5521]

Thank you so much for being there for Eloise and making these tough decisions on her behalf. I'm always shocked at the amount of pet parents who choose to not be present for their animals' last moments. It's gut wrenching to know the fear and confusion of those last moments searching for their people.

[@NatYourAverageNerd]

My baby boy's death was sudden, but at the same time, I knew I would never forgive myself if I wasn't there with him when they gave him that shot. I knew in my heart that it was the right thing to do because he was in such immense pain, but he was also in my arms with my other kitty, his best friend, right there with him as he slipped away. I didn't want to let him go, but he was ready and his body was shutting down, so he knew it was his time even if I couldn't accept it. I refused to leave him alone, and I'm glad I made that choice.

[@birdy-vd8nv]

I’m so so sorry kittenlady. What you do is amazing and Eloise has been a big part of it so her loss is deeply felt. Thank you so much for sharing her with us and for telling all us with fur babies it’s okay to grieve in our way because so often it isn’t treated like a true loss when we share so much of our lives with them 🥺

[@slametdinatadinata645]

I dont cry at all

[@NatYourAverageNerd]

Personally, I think I have shared more of my life with my cats than I have any other human being in my life so far. They've seen me at my worst days. They've been with me during my best, too. They know all my silly little habits, my routines, my inclinations and shortcomings, etc. They know when I don't feel like cooking or when I feel like putting in more than five seconds of effort into my own meals. They always know when I'm done with the workday by me unplugging my computer station. I've lost one unexpectedly, but the one good thing I have right now is the other one, and she's helping me through this dark chapter of my life. I hope I can help her through it, too.

[@tjoekie1968]

It is always hard to say goodbye, even I still miss my old cat and it has been 12 years ago. Still miss him.

[@Yeaitsju]

I had to euthanize my cat two days ago now. She was 13. It was just five days after her birthday 😢. It was by far the hardest decision of my life for sure. I've never been so hurt in my life. I miss my baby ShayLynn sooooo so much she looks just like this 🐈 emoji. I'm just so broken. I’ve never cried so much before. Thank you for this video. For whoever is going through tough times please just stay strong. ShayLynn had an amazing life. From start to finish. She went so peacefully and she was so beautiful and I love that for her ♾️ShayLynn 🐈🪽

[@chroniclercherry5585]

I lost my best friend of 15 years just last year. Cancer diagnosis, very aggressive. I spent two weeks doing hospice care at home before I had to make the call. Making the decision was the worst thing I've ever had to do in my life. I'm so sorry for your loss

[@stillnooneahhahah]

Rest In Peace, Eloise 💜

[@sorapokeball]

In the last year I've lost three rescue cats, one of my German shepherds, and, one week ago, my mother. My heart goes out to you and everyone who's experienced loss recently.

[@kathyr1516]

💔😰🙏🏼🌻

[@truffywuffwuff]

Ah Gid love you😢

[@dianeoneal1069]

I’m so very sorry…Lost my 13 yo malamute valentine’s day this year and i have two cats the exact same age plus one month and one who is a year younger they are all just a bit strange since Whiskeys loss…hang in there

[@holocene2164]

I am so sorry for your loss. Sending you hugs 🫂

[@dominicperri1313]

My cat was my soulmate and I just lost her and it is the worst trauma I have ever gone through. She was my world.

[@Daniela-xy3ow]

I am only 7 minutes into the video and already crying because one of my cats is currently not well at all and I fear that I may have to make the difficult decision to have him euthanised soon. Thank you for sharing your experience with us. My deepest condolences to you and everyone else who has ever lost a beloved pet ❤

[@sugarpie9492]

It's a gut puncher every single time for me. I've buried 3 amazing feline companions as an adult. But I always feel so lucky to have had them in my life and received their endless love. And then I get them cremated and then eventually bury their ashes under the rose bushes that they loved to sun themselves under so much in my backyard. ❤️

[@candimoomey1698]

I plan on doing this with some of my Sam's ashes.

[@JoanieBC]

My condolences. May you always remember her with a smile and a full heart.

[@Positivekitten]

It never gets easier, I’ve said goodbye so many times and I know I will have to do it again one day… My kitty Arwen is around 18, in good health now, but I know that day will come.

[@sineadmcnamara4418]

Big grief for big love is so apt. I lost my beloved cat Mal two days ago. The pain is acute. I can't stop crying. I feel lonely here without him. The apartment now just feels like that - an apartment - as opposed to the home he made it. I love him so much I'm crying as I type this 💔he lived with me here for 12 years after I got him from a wonderful cat charity here in Dublin (Ireland). They reckoned he was about 3 when he came to me. The day I brought him home I knew from him that he knew he was in his forever home. I'll never forget that. I will never forget him. He's irreplaceable. I loved him more than words can say. He was my most special someone. I am so thankful for our life together. Sleep well my little man, you were so loved 💕💕💕💕💕💕

[@cbw56]

I hope you're doing at least a little better now. I had to let my boy go today and it was the hardest thing I've ever had to do. Only 15 days ago I had no idea he even had an issue but found out he has SCC. He wasn't able to eat from the pain... I miss his cuddles so much right now. :(

[@blacksheep9497]

This has to be the most beautiful funeral for a cat that I've ever seen ❤😿

[@amaza888]

This video will help me one day. My soul cat is 8 yrs old and healthy. But of course, one day... My promise to him : I'll be with him to the end and we will avoid suffering. RIP Eloise, and sincere condoleances to you and Andrew. ❤

[@kellynorman3930]

As a former vet tech, this is such a beautiful explanation to the hardest and most loving decision we can make for our pets. I made the same decision for my own cat when the vet found a mass. She told us when it was time❤ Hugs to you!!!

[@donnasiracusa4700]

It is not just a cat. They are our family. We had to put Rusty boy to sleep on May 13 because he started with breathing issues after being diagnosed with hypothyroidism and a stroke. He was 16 years old. I am sorry you had to go through this also.😢

[@kateczerwenka6878]

Thank you so much for sharing this. After 21 years together, I had to say goodbye to my cat when he was diagnosed with cancer. He’s been gone two months now but I’m having such a hard time managing my grief; I often feel like I have to hide my despair since most people will say he was “just a cat”. Your story is very relatable to my experience and I found your words so comforting. Big grief for big love. ❤

[@keetahbrough]

don't hide away your grief. you animals wouldn't hide his or her grief, so don't cower to external pressure.

[@Nuthintosay]

3 weeks ago, i said goodbye to my chihuahua. It broke my heart. A week afterward, i got a cute, cute kitten who i fell in love within 2 hours. I miss chloe and cry and hurt, but glad and grateful to have panda, my new baby.

[@des3753]

She passed beautifully from a earthly sunbeam into a sunbeam in another realm to wait for your energy to join hers again. You gave her the kind of passing any of us would by blessed to have, I hope you feel pride in how amazing her life was up until the final second. 💜💜

[@meganlawton7061]

Jackson Galaxy recently used the word "disenfranchised" in describing our grief for our feline companions and I've often felt that way. So it's beautiful and validating when someone like yourself shares their grief and vulnerability. I cried with you and smiled when you said you recorded her purrs and toes and nose because I did the same thing leading up to the loss of my 20 year old love of my life. My sincerest condolences to you and your family and thank you for your sharing and all the work you do. (I used Lap Of Love and highly recommend.)

[@Wendy-cj5yz]

I am sorry for your loss of Eloise. She was special and remains engraved on your heart. Coming to the time when it’s time to say goodbye is hard for all our special fur friends. I have had a few pass over the years and I have always been with them. Loved in life, in their passing and in death. Today is hard, tomorrow you will still be wanting them to be there, next week your heart will feel warm. It gets easier but they are never forgotten ❤❤

[@user-rj1vj5wk9f]

I had to have my beloved kitty euthanised last year. We had one last week of time together, quiet time, all his favourite food and treats. On the day I went to the vet with a heavy heart. He was suffering so I had no choice. I held him in my lap in a cosy blanket and stayed with him until I couldn't because I was scared of feeling him go cold. I have a lovely urn with his photo beside it. Life is not the same without him but I have 17 years of memories and I am very glad that he was in my life.

[@kathyspet]

My precious Mr.Kitty 13 years left us last weekend from Cancer!! I just got his ashes Friday and immediately gave them to my daughter!! Her cat, he lived with us for the last 10 years because she wasn’t allow to have pets where she was living!! It’s such a enormous heart felt lost!! But I know Mr.Kitty’s soul will be with us forever!❤️❤️

[@semantics85]

Hannah, you are an Angel among us. I'm so sorry you had to finish Eloise's story. The quote that got me through my loss of my 15 year old soul kitty, Mittens, was "the size of the love, is the size of the grief." Legends never die! What a beautiful story, your sweet, sensitive Eloise has.

[@toria3843]

The description of her falling asleep in the the sunbeam was absolutely beautiful I cried like a baby. I think that it’s almost symbolic of the love and warmth she was surrounded by in her final moments. It makes me remember how pure animals really are and how lucky we are to be our pets owners. Thank you for sharing ❤️

[@keetahbrough]

animals do not belong to the human species. Animals belong to Mother Earth.. and they are here for their VERY OWN PURPOSE.. which has NOTHING to do with human beings.

[@jonarse]

Sorry for your loss, I had to let my best friend Kobe (18.5 years) go back in Dec of 2021 and it was the worst day of my life, but the vet was great, they had a room well away from the main practice with a separate entrance where could go and just be alone with your companion at the end. I haven't cried that much in my entire life. I still to this day miss him, but he'd be happy that I've spent the last year socializing my semi-feral rescues into almost "normal" kitties. Still a work in progress, but they make me laugh every day with their weirdness.

[@Jen39x]

I had to think as I was telling my cat’s story that I’ve been in the same treatment room she was put to “sleep” in and never thought of it. That is the best evidence that I waited for the “right” time and was at peace with such a difficult decision

[@rebeccacamacho-sobczak4282]

You are an awesome human being!

[@Lohengrin1850]

My first cat is currently 15 and even though she's in good health I'm still worried, always. Thank you for sharing your story and sharing ways you were able to prepare and make the time special for the both of you.

[@sheyennemerritt3215]

My baby girl is 12... Shes my esa and idk how im going to ever lose her

[@caitlynreichert9584]

I lost my cat, Simba, 2 days ago after they found a mass in his brain 1 year ago almost to the day. He started showing signs of confusion and was scared and drooling. December of 2022 they gave him 4-5 months to live with it and we had him a whole extra 9 happy months and I'm so grateful for that time with him. Although we knew it would come eventually its still so difficult and the pain never goes away. We decided to put him to sleep because I didn't want him to suffer 💙

[@later_taters]

As someone who has lost a companion cat of nearly 20 years, who's family didn't decide to euthanise, but to wait until the very end, I thank you for this video. My family are very closed off in terms of expressing emotions, so grieving has been difficult. I wish we had euthanised our cat, witnessing pain and discomfort was heartbreaking. I would rather have fond memories of when they were healthy and happy rather than the ones i have. My kitty passed away in 2019, and it's still hard even now. Thank you for everything you do, Hannah.

[@daylehudson6810]

I'm so sorry your family made the cat go through all the pain and suffering before dyeing. So inhumane now days. They can give one shot to relax the cat then the next shot stops there heart. He can cremate them here also. You can scatter the ashes in an area she liked outside.

[@later_taters]

@daylehudson6810 my family decided without me that they would bury him in the back garden. It upset me that cremation or place of burial wasn't discussed as a family. I would have preferred a pet cemetery.

[@depresso18163]

I’m so very sorry for your loss, and so appreciative of this video. I broke down when you described how she fell asleep underneath a sunbeam. As someone who has made the euthanasia call too late, it was so heartwarming to know that Eloise didn’t suffer and had a beautiful ending. Wishing you strength and healing during this devastating time. ♥️

[@cennsa140driver]

Cats are part of our family. We miss them dearly.

[@Oshyano]

In 2017 I had to euthanize my dear baby girl. She was having lots of troubles with her digestive track, lost weight rapidly ( she has always been a skinny cat but she dropped her weight rapidly). It was the hardest thing I ever had to do. She was my ultimate dream cat, so sweet, loving, has been with me through hard times. My heart still aches for her, but it was the best choice since she was suffering so much. I'm just thankful I got to know her and give her a life worth living.

[@sabrinamaria2707]

I will NEVER let my cat suffer. When the time comes you will know. I also will NEVER allow my cats to die alone. I am always there when they pass and will NOT allow my cat to see me cry and in an upset state. I am there for them and will be strong FOR THEM. After they have passed then i can break down. Our cats give us so much we deserve to do right by them and be there for them till the very end. 😻😻😻

[@kimdawcatgirl]

Sorry for your deep loss! I lost two cats from oral cancer. One came from a barn and one was a rescue kitten. Pieter was euthanized and Sharon went suddenly before she had signs of distress. Pieter was put down at diagnosis because of the tumors position. The trip back to the vet would have been potentially horrible and painful. Better sooner than later. It's such a peaceful way for them to go. Better when they aren't struggling. You did right! You are very compassionate!

[@moonlitskyes]

what a blessed life you gave her. despite everything, I am glad you were able to prepare for everything in advance and spend those final moments with eloise in peace and comfort, sending her off in the most loving way possible. this video will undoubtedly help others with their own pet's hospice situation and grieving process, and I think that's just another part of the wonderful legacy that she left behind. rest in peace, eloise.

[@GeorgiaGrown90]

The loss of a beloved pet is a pain I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy. I am so sorry for your loss. Fly high little Eloise, fly high.

[@zimnizzle]

My heart is breaking for you. I lost my precious baby of thirteen years in January and had to take the step to let him go over rainbow bridge. I miss him every day. I am sorry for your loss, your heartbreak, and the empty place in your heart, home, and family. Thank you for taking such good care of your precious girl.

[@SalaciousScorpio69]

I cried at 15:40 When you showed the plush cat and explained how you put recording box of Eloise's purrs inside of it that's so sweet! 😭

[@NatYourAverageNerd]

Same here, that wrecked me. I've been thinking about getting a plush of my departed boy using as many reference photos of him as I can, but I'm still not sure if that's right for me. I want to, and maybe I'll decide that it is, but right now, I'm still processing a lot of emotions over his loss.

[@jeffj2495]

Me...and half the world is crying with you. The other half of the world doesn't know about this vid. It is so hard losing our companion kittehs. I hope your sweet Eloise flies high and lands gently at the Bridge. Eloise had a wonderful home and she was loved by all.

[@michelletabares5336]

Thank you for this video, Hannah. My childhood dogs were euthanized before I had a chance to get to say goodbye to them 12 years ago. Seeing all of the love, grace and consideration you put into Eloise’s goodbye was very cathartic for me to watch. Thank you for being so honest and vulnerable. All the best to you, Andrew and the kitties. 💖

[@stephanieshifrin4285]

Eloise was loved... she knew this with every fiber of her sweet being ❤ Much love to you, Andrew and the rest of your family ❤

[@Plumiscus]

I had to do this on Saturday with my beautiful Salem. He was a stray when my friend found him, a big beautiful black cat. He was estimated to be about 5 or 6 at the time. Had him for 12 years. When his back legs and hips gave out, I knew I had to make that decision. I let him go. Just so much grief, and missing him. Thank you for sharing your story

[@kale-bopp]

Seeing Eloise rub her face on her memorial flowers was the sign I needed to let my sweet dog go. Thank you. It’s my first time making this decision for a pet and I’ve been agonizing over it. I see a normal, happy moment and think it’s too early. But I see now that if I wait until those moments stop it’ll be too late. She deserves to go still knowing what comfort feels like. Thank you.

[@angeh9995]

Dear Hannah and Andrew, I’m so sorry to hear about the loss of your beloved Eloise. As someone who has had to make these hard decisions for most of the beloved cats in my life, thank you for sharing your journey so honestly and gracefully. After only losing our very dear 15 year old cat, Deano, last September with a very quick end of life decision after nursing him for many years through a medical condition this was very raw for me. Only two weeks ago we adopted two year old rescue sisters, whose previous owner had passed away several months ago. Whilst I’m delighted to have them in our lives I was surprised by a new wave of grief for Deano. I’ve just sat gently with it, and given myself permission to grieve the loss of those many years of knowing each quirk of each others personality. I’m allowing myself time to get to know my new girls, not forcing that closeness (impossible with most cats anyway) and learning what makes them who they are, and gradually, naturally letting that love grow between us. As I write this both my new girls are curled up asleep against my legs in bed, after we’ve spent the afternoon together in the sunshine. It’s also been beautiful to watch my teenage kids form new relationships with the girls, something very different from when they were tiny and we had new cats.

[@teenytries6290]

That was beautiful, I wish you many happy years with your new girls

[@dg12317]

I had to let go of my cat of 18 years last week. I described my body as “sad Jello”. She was very loving and comforting to me. Your video was very relatable and kind. I love hearing about the reality of the trauma of making that choice to cut your time with them short. I appreciate it. Much peace to you.

[@faithbahadurian46]

I am sitting here crying with you. What a perfect, loving transition you gave her, though! I still feel horror for the fear my last cat experienced at the end because the vet did not sufficiently sedate him before administering the fatal injection, so he briefly struggled and howled. I still feel guilty and traumatized.

[@TerribleTerribleAd]

For what it's worth, there are involuntary reactions that come with it that can look a lot like struggling. He may not have truly been aware at all.

[@faithbahadurian46]

@@TerribleTerribleAd Thank you for this comforting note.

[@Mollyjean2014]

One thing that gets me through this is that I know I will see my babies again. They are waiting for me. I am a believer.

[@RubyG-o2u]

I'm so sorry hannah, you will see Eloise again, and the good part of this video is, i can see that you loved her so much and that you miss her, Eloise had a AWESOME life with you, Andrew, and the kittens, and Coco. And i have never lost a cat before, but i know that it must hurt, and i'm so sorry. No matter how long we have with them its never long enough. R.I.P The Beautiful Feisty, Sweet, Cute, Amazing cat that we will never forget. Goodbye Eloise! We will never forget you!

[@littlemissshihtzu]

I'm so sorry that you had to say goodbye to Eloise! I had to euthanize my sick and elderly white cat who looked so much like Eloise when I was a college student and it was extremely difficult to say goodbye. This video will surely help many who are going through similar situations right now! Hugs to you! 💞

[@BtripleS]

I lost 3 cats in a 5 year time span. Two of these cats had FIP and declined so quickly that I barely had time to say goodbye. Eloise has been, and will continue to be loved by so many more people than you could possibly imagine. I am so sorry for your loss.❤️

[@catladykat__8381]

Saying goodbye to my Alice it's been the hardest thing I've ever done. I miss her I feel broken it's been 9 months and I'm still in so much pain 💔 Eloise, we love you so much sweet sweet lady

[@icannotbeseen]

When I was a teenager, I lost a pet rabbit, and back then, you know, we weren't really educated on things like this. nobody thought "man, this little friend who was lit up my life for years deserves to have her suffering ended while she is still alright" and we let her pass on her own because I did not want to let her go. it was many years ago and I still wish we had listened to the vet when they said that they could not help her and she's not fine. I dream about her sometimes still and it's all dreams that involve guilt (it was more than half my life ago). I light a candle on the anniversary of her passing every year and just say an "I love you" out loud. I have cats now and sort of "vowed" to never let them go through that. I want them to have what Eloise had, a beautiful death full of love where they are happy until the last moment. They deserve it. I'm glad I don't live in the "it's the 90s and pets are just pets" bubble anymore. They are family and friends who are by your side through all the good and bad things in life. I'm just glad that unlike with our human loved ones who may have to suffer consciously until the very end, we can let pets pass without pain or fear. It's a great gift. my cats will have it. (unless, of course, they pass away peacefully in their sleep with no illness leading up to it, fingers crossed.)

[@kathymccaul2637]

I cried along with you while watching your video. I am on my 5th cat in 53 years and every loss was just as raw as the last. But I totally agree with you that it is our last act of love for our furry family member. I got my first cat when I was 4 and lost her when I was 21. There are times I still miss her. Thank you for sharing your story. It will help someone.

[@carolynmcmaster7280]

For Mink, who lived for only two days but whose memory changes the world. For Badger, whose life is amazing and Leeni who loves him. For Fergie, who has lived longer than I would have thought possible and is still (to the best of my knowledge) going strong. Finally: for Eloise, because she was Eloise--and amazing. I can't physically do work for cats, because I'm severely disabled. But I can support your work on their behalf. Love and blessings to you always, Kitten Lady!

[@NWard1210]

From one cat parent to another, my deepest condolences for your loss. We lost our 17 year old boy to stomach cancer in 2015 and the grief has never gone away, I’ve just learned to breathe around it. For these small fluff balls, they leave spaces larger than they actually take up. Much love from the UK ❤

[@sheridanjay]

I had to say goodbye to my beloved dog, Phoebe, during COVID. It was awful as we had to make an appointment in advance with the vet but we did get to spend time with her afterwards. She was 15 and had some health issues and was still eating but she looked sad. It was a terrible decision to make. My heart goes out to all pet parents who have to do this. 😢

[@Kaylergh]

I wish I had watched this a year ago when I lost my boy. My experience was the opposite, it was unexpected and tragic, I'm full of regrets that still weigh very heavy on my heart, thank you for sharing such a vulnerable part of yourself with us to relate to and to help us feel less alone through our grief, I'm so sorry for your loss, Eloise was a beautiful girl

[@calicokitty333]

Thank you for speaking about this. I lost my sweet 7 year old black cat almost 8 months ago to lymphoma. Putting her down was one of the hardest things. Hearing you talk about the anticipatory grief was so helpful because i haven’t heard anyone else talk about it. I feel your pain and so happy you got those last few weeks with you. You truly cherish those moments forever. ❤️❤️❤️