Ex-Pastor Talks About How Sad It Was to Lose Jesus, But How Important it was in Self Discovery

[@edbok2751]

We're walking this with you, Timmy. Losing my belief in God began a period of sadness and depression over that loss that lasted about eight years. I am now fortunately past that period.

[@Sealust50]

The bad part for me is I was already depressed (for years) even before I started thinking christianity through (deconstructing). I got a double whammy from going through this, and it's terrible.

[@8thdayindependentfundament454]

Been There, Big Time 💰👋😎🤩👍

[@Godlovesyouunconditionally]

Personally I still believe in God but not the Christian God or any religious God. I like to believe in a God who is our best friend who we can run to anytime no matter what we’ve done, what we’re going through or even where our hearts are at and who wants us to enjoy our life and do what makes us happy all as long as we’re not hurting anyone else. I like to believe in a God who is the total opposite of the Christian God. I like to call myself a Humanistic Theist ❤

[@Sealust50]

@@Godlovesyouunconditionally I love that!!!

[@Godlovesyouunconditionally]

@@Sealust50maybe it was Christianity that was making you depressed. Believing that I and everyone else are sinners deserving of nothing better than burning alive forever in hell , the majority of people will be going to hell and it’s very easy for me to be one of many going there, also God is an angry monster who might curse me if I mess up, do something wrong, have the wrong heart, believe wrong etc, on top of all of that believing the way to not go to hell and not be cursed by God in this life is to give up everything I love for this monster I secretly hate even if my godly ego wants to say otherwise! I can’t think of anything more depressing than that ❤

[@hannahhodgins9516]

We should truly love ourselves. You didn’t lose a relationship with a made up deity. You had a beautiful relationship with yourself and will continue to have a wonderful relationship with yourself ✨✨

[@harmonychilden5326]

This!!❤

[@ProfoundThinker-c5z]

Do people need another excuse to be any more self-absorbed? I really don't think so. In the grand scheme, you don't matter and the relationship that you have with yourself is only of any concern to you. It is ephemeral and will slip away, like water through your hands.

[@Jesuslordoflords-y4m]

Won't be made up on judgment day

[@byron739]

Still sad dude, I(39yo) find out that JC is a hoax Last year; I miss him so bad...😢I ain't no atheist though, deist now.

[@ProfoundThinker-c5z]

@@byron739 What 'convinced' you he was a hoax?

[@joshuawilliams9152]

I'm so grateful for your videos, this one in particular. I left vocational ministry in 2017 and have been in a deconstructive process which has culminated in the last 2-3 years to deconversion. Thank you for touching on the grief and loss that can associate, particularly those of us who went to seminary and made a career of our faith. I live in the bible belt and it's encouraging to know there are others who have experienced what I have and more....who are ahead of me on the journey. Again, thanks man for your honesty and vulnerability. I'm still in the midst of that grief and working my way through it all.

[@renefinch]

Well ungrief yourself by picking up your bible daily and reading it!Its not hard!

[@sherlynhunt4813]

When I deconstructed it was a learning process of a few years. Jesus gradually floated away. I’ve come to believe that the supernatural experiences I had was my inner being all along. I still have her so I’m comforted by that. I’m actually happier than I’ve ever been. Seeing the rest of the world much clearer as well.

[@davidm1149]

Same here, but I assure you, I experienced the struggle of a lifetime. I found answers to two deep questions that i'd forgotten I'd even had. It was extraordinarily surprising. Everything about the churches seems to really need an overhaul.

[@TheSapphireSprit]

Keep it up Timmy. You’re doing great and helping many people process their grief or emptiness.

[@traog]

When my faith collapsed, it was about 6 hard months coming to accept that I couldn't get it back. When I finally let it go, I didn't think about it much, if someone would have asked I would have said I'm agnostic. Around 6 years later the internet became available I found out what atheist ment and I realized that is a lable that I connect with. I've been out nearly 30 years, almost 1/2 my life, it hasn't caused me much grief other than at the beginning.

[@anamariacastro5272]

this is good news, I deconverted 5 months ago and I'm dealing with an existential crisis. I'm sure it'll go away but it absolutely sucks!!

[@DIABOLICAL-6]

​@@anamariacastro5272 it will pass and experience of transcendental exists outside religion. You will be fine.

[@renefinch]

Why did it collapse?Dont just say it collapsed,anyone can say that.

[@braulindisla-elburrodelaba5361]

Our lives are going to be empty with out God😊​@anamariacastro5272

[@traog]

@renefinch I realized Christianity was make believe, after the better part of a decade of pursuing a relationship with the God of the universe, it was unexpectedly over.

[@karenmorris7674]

I love jesus with my whole heart and soul. I don't need anyone's remarks about this we all choose are way in life. I couldn't live a day on this earth without him.

[@RedLegPiper]

Amen

[@JudasMaccabeus1]

Actually you could. It’s just a choice.

[@riveratrackrunner]

Or with him. If he was real as he was in the Old Testament.

[@juderenard8273]

@@riveratrackrunnerI heard that

[@adrianazollo2688]

love your energy Im still deconstructing and its so crazy how delusional I was

[@renefinch]

Love the "buzz",some one else telling me just what I want to hear,1 John 1:8!

[@anamariacastro5272]

Timmy, you have no idea how relaxing, calming, soothing your videos are. I felt that while my husband and I were watching this, we were walking there listening to you. I deconverted last year in August and I had some anxiety attacks as soon as I realized all I had believed was false. But I overcame that initial crisis, and started feeling better. However, I've had a hard existential crisis since, I'm still dealing with it and it's not nice AT ALL!! You mentioned in your video that you went through counceling for two years, I'd really appreciate it if you could share what you felt, the thoughts that you usually had back then, why and when you decided to go to counceling, because I think not just me but many people would benefit from your sharing this piece of your journey. You are so brave and many people in your situation wouldn't have chosen to quit religion.

[@Polonez123-r4w]

It has been hard since I stopped believing. I feel disappointed that I let myself be fooled. Had I not believed, I would have made better choices in my life for myself. Now it seems it’s too late. It’s hard to move on and stop blaming myself. I miss thinking that someone was watching over me. I miss having hope that prayer might help. Of course, now I can see clearly prayer is not working. I have prayed for so many years. However, everything turned out exactly the opposite of what I asked for.

[@user-do9le6lc8y]

I can relate to that. I'm going through similar experiences.

[@Polonez123-r4w]

@ Since everything turned out exactly the opposite from what I asked for, sometimes I think it’s possible that this god exists and hates me. 🤷‍♂️ I wish I could move on and most likely I will but I need time. I also wish you all the best. I will pray for you. Just joking 🤣

[@findsharon]

On the other hand, you don't have to wonder why God let something bad happen to you, a loved one, or an innocent person. Sometimes bad things just happen. This time it might happen to a stranger, next time it might be someone you care about. It feels so freeing not to have to look for a secret message or purpose.

[@Polonez123-r4w]

@@findsharon Agreed. Also it was foolish to believe that there were secret codes or messages. Now it makes me even laugh at myself 😂😂😂

[@renefinch]

"Praying not working"Maybe your'e disappointed over your own foolishness Proverbs 19:3?

[@NormReynolds]

Timmy has been a tremendous help as I continue to deconstruct.

[@renefinch]

Pl read your bible regularly,then you wont desconstruct!

[@MikeGathercole]

I was raised as a Christian but as I got older it became more and more apparent that all religions are false. I got angry, I still am. And then I get called the evil one. Smh

[@EleanorsDish]

Your intro is always soo funny. Tongue talking, holy ghost rolling. LMAOO. I love your channel, Timmy. Such a breath of fresh air as someone who deconstructed and is now living my best life.

[@kjmav10135]

i still miss my friend Jesus, and I’ve been out of the faith since 2017.

[@ProfoundThinker-c5z]

Of course you do. Because else are you going to find once you are 'enlightened'? Emptiness, disillusionment and disappointment are all that others and contemporary society have to offer you. I'm always slightly amused when people talk as if they have traded one thing for another. No you haven't. You had something and now you have nothing.

[@not-a-cupid-stunt]

​​@@ProfoundThinker-c5zSo science & reason & evidence & facts & truth are nothing? That said, I guess Santa is actually something, someone...even if He isn't actually real. Magical thinking is a something I can well do without...as a grown up anyway.

[@not-a-cupid-stunt]

​​​@@ProfoundThinker-c5zGood luck with Santa. I hope He grants you the eternal life of your prayers. My 'nothing' is at least free of delusion, so that's something.

[@ProfoundThinker-c5z]

@@not-a-cupid-stunt I always have to laugh when I hear atheists adopt a position of supposed intellectual superiority. Leo Tolstoy was one of the greatest, if not the greatest, novelists of all time. Simeone Weil was one of the leading philosophers of the 20th century. Both were also committed Christians. Presumably you regard yourself as their intellectual superior? It's telling that the so-called 'intellects' of the 'new atheist' movement are/were actually not intellectuals at all. The likes of Harris, Hitchens and Dawkins would be regarded as third-rate intellects by the likes of Tolstoy and Weil.

[@kjmav10135]

@@ProfoundThinker-c5z It’s called trading delusion for reality. The benefits far outweigh the wistfulness. To quote Paul, I put away childish things.

[@stevewilliams3594]

I remember the second I realized That I had been following a lie. And how empty and scary that felt to realize it was all bullshit.

[@renefinch]

How did you "realize" that?Tell us.

[@whitemountainapache3297]

The worst thing is when you understand that there is something out there, something we can't fathom, but that maybe it or they use christianity as a kind of psy op/ trojan horse. That maybe everything is the inverted version of what we are told.

[@renefinch]

@@whitemountainapache3297Not at all,its not a game.Your life and soul depends on the Word of God the Bible.,directing everyone a choice to make,faith and obedience which leads to eternal life through Jesus Christ,Romans 6:23b,or sin and unbelief which leads to death Romans 6:23a.Revelation 20:11-15,21:8.

[@Mzalendo-v7i]

What keeps worrying me is how will my loved ones who believe, burry me when I die without that fake comfort and prayers that I went to heaven. I feel like they will be hurting even though I don't believe.

[@gullettr1]

I was a Christian but I couldn't understand why God couldn't just forgive people. I thought I was being a moron for thinking like that. I thought I was the only one.

[@tkat6442]

There must be a lot of us "only ones" scattered around, who thought that!

[@i.m.watching5536]

He does forgive people.

[@D.MarcelloRadice]

how much frustrated atheists they can be... they can not live without talking about twhat they do not even believe, because stcuked into a religious cult, and I susopect atheist apologists use advantages to keep them within. it always been a war of religions you can not live without, right, atheist? we are just tried of that... why do you even care? .

[@renefinch]

Learn to accept Gods thoughts and ways are higher than yours!Then later if you have any humility,you can find out why Jesus died!

[@i.m.watching5536]

@renefinch Greater is He.

[@davidhutchinson5233]

In the end all we have is ourselves and each other to face the realities of this Earthbound life. Thank you Mr. Gibson for shining the light on the path to awareness and rational thought.

[@renefinch]

You listen to Timmy,doesnt work that way,immediatly yes but after you pass away?Learn to think critically!Revelation 20:11-15!

[@psychekaleidoscope7665]

I wrote a song a long long time ago called Jesus dealing with this existential crisis, the lyrics are , “I met a man, his name was Jesus, he held my hand and kissed my crying eyes as you threw my heart into the door. I used to wonder wonder if he was real and then I realized he was, in my imagination I was saved by my imagination, yeah and butterflies flew, there were a billion or two red yellow and white, the sky was yellow , orange, a little purply pink and I thought I heard him say he painted it for me. Hush. And be. Hush. and be.

[@harmonychilden5326]

Love this!

[@phishtacosfishingandstuff2677]

The hardest thing for me is to tell people that I am not a believer. Im still not completely comfortable with talking about it. Especially not in todays political climate. For most of my life it seemed that politics and religion were two very separate things. I'm 70. Its been a long process. Still ongoing.

[@renefinch]

I know,youre bound up with fear and shame.Anyone ashamed of me I will be ashamed of him Jesus said!

[@phishtacosfishingandstuff2677]

@renefinch except that there is no Jesus.

[@renefinch]

@@phishtacosfishingandstuff2677 This is your huge problam along with mass pyschosis here,read your bible,starting with the Gospel of John, then get back to me.

[@renefinch]

@@phishtacosfishingandstuff2677 Dont just say it,tell us why your'e deceived!

[@KELLY-maybeiCudBeUrGirlfriend]

YAY! BONUS VIDEO!! And what a nice video it was!! Thank you so much for sharing that! And thank you for your channel and all your videos! And thank you for being YOU. ❤ And you have helped me than you will ever know. THANKS AGAIN!

[@winros]

That's what I am going through now... My heart feels empty. 2024 was hard for me. I lost my pomeranian Rosie and Jesus!😢 ✌🏻

[@Sealust50]

I understand. The hope of life everlasting is the absolute worst part for me. Actually, believing that I won't get to see and love on my cavalier king charles spaniel after we both pass is what I will feel the loss of the most. That's why I am trying to convince myself that there may be "another" form of existence after this one where I will still be able to be with him forever. ❤️🐶❤️🐶❤️🐶❤️

[@ProfoundThinker-c5z]

Are you honestly suggesting the two are comparable? I'm sure Rosie meant a lot to you but I'm pretty sure she wasn't the saviour of mankind.

[@Sealust50]

@@ProfoundThinker-c5z If her "Rosie" is ANYTHING like my "Preston" (my cavalier king charles spaniel), the answer is "yes" to some comparable degree because our fur babies "save" us in our day to day life here on this earth - their innocent, unconditional love is incomparable to any other love that exists. I personally don't care, BTW, what you think about my line of thinking either, just so you know.

[@ProfoundThinker-c5z]

@@Sealust50 It is sad when a pet passes on, as they do mean a lot to us. But please don't suggest it is in any way comparable to losing faith in the saviour of mankind, somebody who died so that we might live.

[@Sealust50]

@ProfoundThinker-c5z Before you start preaching to me, you need to give me proof of his/her/its existence. I won't wait because there is none for you to give.

[@Godlovesyouunconditionally]

Honestly I think leaving Christianity is the happiest thing ever. No more being scared of hell, no more being scared of God, no more worrying about pleasing God or not making God mad and no more feeling guilty about enjoying things Christianity says either God hates or at best you don’t deserve it because you’re a sinner ❤️

[@MikeGathercole]

It's the guilt and shame. I saw it destroy my father. Christianity is like a disease.

[@InquisitiveBible]

Yep, my belief in Hell was one of the first things I lost when I deconstructed, and it was liberating. The "love" of an invisible man cannot possibly compare to the horrors of eternal torture.

[@Royce_Rollz3]

Absolutely. It harbors so much fear and shame that holds you back from being able to do as much as you could’ve otherwise.

[@GregAnderson-r3k]

@@MikeGathercole absolutely, same for me. It's like a poison potion

[@GregAnderson-r3k]

@Godlovesyouunconditionally Christianity is really the root of all mental illness. I had ptsd and still have it because of this horrible poison potion that I drank.

[@AuroraBoarder1]

My journey to atheism took many years. I was living in a city which I loved fiercely, and a member of a wonderful church where the pastor saved my life twice. Negative economic circumstances forced me to leave, and relocate to a boring place. I had to be rescued by my brother. So I owe him something, right? Yet, i was forced to sit helpless while his daughter dropped out of high school to join a cult. Naturally, I kept asking God why He didn't allow things to work out in my beloved city, so my niece could have come to live with me there. Twelve years later, a counselor helped me realize perhaps there was no God. Reading literature written by His chosen ones (otherwise known as Holocaust survivors) also helped. I didn't feel particularly hurt; I was bewildered more than anything else. It was like, much ado about nothing. I have since become a Buddhist. Yes, I miss the church I used to know, but realize it's fantasy, like the land of Santa Claus for children. The most important thing for me to do now is face reality. I'm an adult; I can no longer afford to deal with life as a child.

[@Ohhello_itskat]

Christianity has this weird dichotomy where we're created in God's image and considered precious… But then at the same time we're sinners, can't do anything on our own and we're horrible people.....unless we have Jesus of course.

[@Royce_Rollz3]

Right!! It’s so double sided.

[@billyrobinson6803]

Heres how i see it we as Christians can and yes actually walk away from God and be filled with bitterness for a season but Jesus (God) NEVER LEAVES OR FORSAKES US even if were not finding ourselves living for God its been a ongoing experience for me for over 20 years now 😀 🙏

[@EasternDreamer615]

Beautiful background Timmy, you're a world away from my current location in the central Philippines. It's nice to see snow for a change.

[@lh1673]

I wasn’t sad but angry of myself why did I ever thank (while was a believer) someone invisible that predicted (like ones in Matt 24) the earth will be in chaos and this invisible one just will watch the chaos go on!

[@elephant_888]

💯💯💯 The pain was raw for a long time. Them having some Christian tell me it was because I wanted to sin, or I was never a real Christian made want to throw hands. People can be so ignorant, but that’s the human race, myself included. Thanks for the video good sir.

[@Royce_Rollz3]

Timmy, your channel has been a beacon of hope for all of us deconstructing. It can be very painful to have such a large aspect of your worldview shatter, but once you heal you realize it was more worth it to live in freedom with the truth rather than confined by comfortable lies. So, thank you so much. It’s always fun to listen to your videos!

[@anapaz8060]

Im so grateful you found the truth about religion. I work with the elderly and take them to their church of choice and attend each service, and I noticed it's more about community and comfort than faith.

[@NormReynolds]

I have turned away from religion, the "church," the so-called "word of God" after 50 years of believing. Between walking away from Christianity and denouncing the Republican party, ie. Donald Trump, I basically lost all of my friends. This seems like a tremendous cost, but it is well worth it knowing that I am free of all of the b.s.

[@AudreyJulian-u1o]

Thanks for your willingness to be open and vulnerable. It’s easy, I suppose, for some to say nothing was really lost if you never really had it, but this leaves out the reality that most of us face when we walk away. It takes courage to leave the tribe and stand alone, then deconstruct and begin to discover who we really are in the process. “To thine own self be true.”

[@godlesssss]

The letdown from Christianity is far-reaching. Now you are an outsider to the Christian cult members, about 60 to 70 percent of the U.S. population. Unfortunately, minds are hard to change. It is easier to fool someone than it is to convince them they have been fooled. What we (people with common sense) need is support groups to bring fellowship to us divergent free thinkers.

[@margaretfriedlein8561]

I couldn’t agree with you more. I am 70 and can’t rally tell my sibs about this change as the ones who are religious are very Catholic. I only have 2 that l can be real with. I have been on journey of self discovery for the last 5 years. When you become older and are alone because of death or divorce you often become invisible to Christian’s and our culture.

[@godlesssss]

@margaretfriedlein8561 Thanks for the reply, Margaret. I am 65, when I was 12, I lost my Christian religion. I have learned one man's delusion is called "insainity" a mass delusion is called "religion". Search "zeiguiest the greatest story ever told" You might like it. JQ

[@mender722]

I wonder how many pastors are still 'in the pulpit' because they have no other job opportunities, for a variety of reasons. That seems sad to me. That's why there is the Clergy Project.

[@katesirota2979]

I am a Christian and I am hoping to convert to Catholicism. I will never abandon my faith, but some of what you are saying in terms of the evangelical church culture that I grew up in rings true for me. I want to leave that behind.

[@ElizabethCox-z9o]

Good for you but I will say the Catholicism is no better. They're responsible for a lot of pain too.

[@tamaralambert5251]

I cannot believe that Tulsa got nothing but freezing 🥶 wind, as close as we are to y'all! Stay warm. Love your channel❤

[@davidjohnzenocollins]

Praise the Lord! 🙂

[@davidjohnzenocollins]

Hey, look, just so you know, I'm only commenting to boost the algorithm. 🙂

[@tamaralambert5251]

@@davidjohnzenocollins same here 😊

[@scottlaux6934]

I felt like a sucker when I realized I had been lied to, but being raised catholic I never had the Jesus is my friend thing.

[@Mim39034]

I know exactly what you mean when you say you thought you'd always be a believer, I would never have imagined that I'd have taken a different route completely. It's such a bizarre feeling isn't it. And Christians can say what they want but they'll never understand unless they find themselves in the same position. Obviously it can happen to.any believer. It must have been a very difficult time for you, Timmy..Life changing!

[@timmygibsonkc]

It’s one of the best things that’s ever happened to me, leaving the faith that is! Wife and kids being the best!

[@braulindisla-elburrodelaba5361]

I also lost Jesus a while ago afterbeingaChristian for10 years. But I still believe he is real, I know he is real

[@greyguy69]

I have seen an angel and Jesus sitting on his white thrown. NO ONE can convince me he does not exist.

[@braulindisla-elburrodelaba5361]

I have my personal experience with God as well , and I know he is real, even though am not practicing my faith, cause I lost faith

[@ElizabethCox-z9o]

There are plenty of other people that would argue with you that they have seen other things. Did you have a near-death experience cuz that's not very biblical?

[@greyguy69]

@ElizabethCox-z9o no nde. 1993 I was awoken at 4.am. for a few weeks and lead to read scripture. One night I got upset and said I wasn't getting up cause I had a long drive to work and needed sleep. I had No choice had to get up. I felt odd. My body was changing. I felt my foreams, they felt immortal. I did not realize at the time, but, the lord was filling me with his spirit to be able to see in the spirit realm. I was pumped with energy and had a small living room and was pacing in circles. Suddenly someone grabs my arm and turns me around. There was a four foot tall angel with hands together like praying. The angel said Jesus is coming soon. Then the angel

[@greyguy69]

Then the angel turned to his left, still with praying hands, and said Jesus is coming soon. Then Jesus appears sitting on a white thrown. Jesus did not speak, Jesus leaned forward and justlo

[@greyguy69]

Just looked at me with emerald green eyes. Had a sachet with the KING OF KINGS across his chest and LORD OF LORDS across his thigh. Just like the word says. After a few seconds the vision was gone. Took me 3 days to feel normal again.i was an hvac tech a male living in an apartment. Nothing special about me. Why this vision happened I do not know. I t is100% true.

[@shaylanrubendavila6940]

Here in North Dakota that snow pile up is just another Monday lol!!

[@7h7o7p]

I'm 42. Many times I've considered quitting Jesus, not because he is not real, but cuz i dont want to keep his way. But then later i ponder n come to the conclusion that after wandering off I'm pretty sure i will return only more screwed up. That it's better keeping on. So that does mean I'm dead sure "this is it: the way" as Stanley Jones put it. Until i read that book i did have a problem truth being truth (ie good being good) n bad bad. Cheers. I believe we can each choose whatever we want as long as we are willing to bear the weight of our choices. Nothing is free. Regards all.

[@braulindisla-elburrodelaba5361]

I agree

[@FLOTILLA4852]

I’m pretty sure Jesus was a Hybrid Alien Being and he came to Earth to teach us about LOVE AND KINDNESS

[@PoeLemic]

Yes, it was hard for me to transition from being a hard-core Believer (HARD-CORE: nothing would shake my faith) to becoming an agnostic and then later admitting to myself, I'm an atheist.

[@phillip-england]

It was very sad. Great loss.

[@sandracampbell9822]

Brush creek…I was born and grew up in Kansas City and remember brush creek

[@haroldncillabryant6448]

It happens me to it broke my heart to walk away but he will for give us all he’s still there where we left him because he never leaves us we do the leavening we all can get back to Jesus he love us like no other

[@sarahbanks7376]

Hi! Enjoyed your walk. Nice to see your city! We have snow too in the uk. When i deconverted the first thing it reminded me of was when your parents first leave you home alone... Like the grown-ups have left the building! The second thing was relief... When bad stuff happened i now understood it as just sometimes 5h1t happens rather than I'd done something wrong against god or was being tested etc.

[@yaboicoach]

Funniest part about these videos is the Christian ads i get throughout 😂

[@DIBBY40]

I left Christianity in the late 1980s. I still have a spiritual life; just not a Christian one. In fact Christian doctrines and ideology was actually toxic to me finding a genuine spiritual connection. It is a coercive, fear based religion that deifies a book, and divorces you from other humans who don't share the ideology. ❤

[@GregAnderson-r3k]

Beautifully said. Completely agree 100 percent 👏

[@r.a.b.1978]

Hi! New person here 😊 Interestingly i became a Christian 3 weeks before the lockdown I'm really struggling with the suffering part of the human experience and the harm caused by others to young humans etc Im going to watch the Wes Huff debate with Billy Carson im hoping it will turn me towards the faith i had only 5 years ago... ive detached somewhat with poor mental health I was involved for a while 25 years ago with vineyard church/ denomination. Waky thinking back on it retrospectively and other super Conservative churches got all swept up with the 'Toronto blessing ' They at the time got carried away with 'tongues' and the shaky wakey thing I think they came to their senses and realised it was delusional behaviour My friend is from your state she comes to Scotland often I'll mention or share a video of yours Best wishes

[@DisciplesOfGod7]

There are so many uncommitted Christians. God reveals in signs, symbols,dreams, voices, and mysterious coincidences. This man never should never have been a pastor of the flock. Dont expect communication with God without brokenness, and humility or strong commitment.

[@talonyoung6160]

Hopefully in near future we can discuss a Story Telling Gathering i am considering putting together, you would be a great addition. I also think you will really enjoy the variety of people who will be invited to speak. I suspect it will also feed your joy of learning new things too. I know where to find you...on your You Tube channel 😉 in that near future.

[@timmygibsonkc]

Thank you!

[@PabloMelendez1969]

Yeah, I believe that humans evolved mythology in order to actually create friends, allies, community. Absolutely everything about us is an evolved thing, because evolution serves to maintain survival. At one point, mythology became the best solution to a certain problem and it behooves us to understand what this problem was and is. I think mythology creates a country for the mind. As it is a virtual country, it is transmissible and shareable. Other people that live is in this country with you, share the same culture, the same language and the same worldview. Once you establish a country for many minds, you then, together, get to form a country in reality. I think these mental countries became very important when our most significant competitors in nature were other peoples, other cultures. I think this is why its such a natural role of Christianity, as well as other religions, to be the main force in the oppression and conquest of others, of people that live outside the faith. If religion is a potent way to coalesce in the face of a perceived enemy, it makes sense that American Christianity would pick Trump, a vicious, narcissistic criminal as its prophet/leader, but I digress. I think the character, is the most important object the human mind can handle. Therefore it makes sense for characters to be central in the building of mythologies. Important people in your life are characters in your mind, too. Your mother, your father, important people in your life, almost become little brains inside of yours, because these characters once assimilated, inform your every choice your every perception your entire life. Even when these persons depart, they remain in you, not just as memories, but as powerful agents of culture. This is why the Christ persists in our minds for those of us that had to emancipate ourselves from the mythology. Just like any other evolved adaptation, mythology has its limits. At a certain point it becomes inimical to survival. In my personal experience as a gay man, my mythology was asking me stop existing, for example. At 20 I came out, shortly after leaving the faith. At 55, I still have a Jesus character in my mind, that I think and interact with, not as a character as significant as my deceased father, but pretty constant and persistent still.

[@charlesderrick096.g]

Cool Timmy, My intuition tells me that you may have at one point focused inward and found that what was once seemed outside of you is now found within you like as in you found yourself or that you see the light that you are without having to seem to get it outside of yourself ....like as nonduality shares with us in that like alot have said ...we are all becons of the same light .....loving how you shine brother ...✌🏼💖

[@davek.3483]

Lifelong atheist here. Congratulations Tim! You have been reborn into the real world and you will be just fine. You will value life more because you now know that it ends.

[@NormReynolds]

How strange when life-long friends walk away as you share your deconstruction. Very sad.

[@billyrobinson6803]

The key to understanding our differences with us is in the New Testament Epistles of Apostle Paul The Old man vs the New man within us as born again Christians Romans 7:15-25 Amplified Bible

[@lewischave]

Some of the old testament stories like Jonah being trapped in the whale makes me question my faith. I am a moderate Christian however

[@timmygibsonkc]

That’s honest! Thank you for commenting!

[@lewischave]

@timmygibsonkc I became an atheist for a while but have started reading the bible and praying again. I'm on a topsie turvy journey. I spent a time in my life riding with outlaw bikers and consider Jesus an outlaw who was killed for trying to change people's perceptions about god

[@georgejunior2929]

I can relate as a former chaplain.

[@southerngirlraven7]

I’ve tried explaining my loss of believing in God somewhat like what happens when you are a kid, who no longer believes in Santa Claus… once you see the truth, you can’t go back to the fairy tale. Even though it’s a lot more fun. 🤷‍♀️

[@sandracampbell9822]

The es, it was sad and it will take time to work thru.

[@laurennoyb539]

Are you on a see-saw? Thanks for your videos!!

[@clarencehammer3556]

Yes, the idea that God or Jesus may not be real is very depressing.

[@joehorn1762]

Only if you started with that belief.

[@francelaferriere6106]

Not to me. What's depressing is people who still believe in it.

[@bikexdynasty8359]

Hello, thank you for being you.

[@MTTWynn22]

If someone tells you Jesus is their best friend tell them that your best friend is FDR.😂

[@Mike-oj1tm]

Cool video title, but also very relative, very relative. Never heard any deconstructing Christians phrase it quite like your video title & the " content" , - heart breaking feeling, for a while, I can " relate", 😊

[@williambock1821]

I think I see him over there behind a tree. It hard to lose a lucrative job. Older preachers who snap out of it are in a tricky situation.

[@thetruth871]

Luke 8:13 - King James Version (KJV 1900) 13 They on the rock are they, which, when they hear, receive the word with joy; and these have no root, which for a while believe, and in time of temptation fall away.

[@StephenSinclair-d6n]

Here in the UK most ministers and vicars DONT believe in him in a supernatural sense. Or a historical sense....(not really. Its as I've commented before...its a bit 'king Arthur'). This complicates stuff. Good for you...

[@Manehoph]

You dont lose something you didnt have men

[@markschuette3770]

thats great you now know what you/we are- we are animals like all the others- totally dependent upon healthy/diverse ecosystems. and death is a good thing since its the end or pain and its food for the living. none of this is taught to our childeren or even teanagers, thus we are confused. this knowledge of what a human is can hopefully go world wide and help bring us all together to solve the great issues of our time.

[@XordonMonsanto]

I “deconstructed” years ago, and went back. Even read books about Evolution, etc. the last atheist book I read was The Christian Delusion by John Loftus. Listened to The Thinking Atheist podcast with Seth Andrews daily. Went back after a couple of years to Jesus Christ. I deconstructed from Calvinism/Lordship Salvation. I see you bro, but lumping all Christians as these “You need Jesus” types is dishonest. Maybe you were never saved. Maybe you’re saved and wandering. Idk. Following men will always lead you astray. But I get your testimony. What brought me back is the things I can’t deny. Testimonies. Seeing Christcwork in my life and the life of others. Christ is true. He who began a good work in you will complete it. Just like me.

[@freiagalacar5786]

I just think its sad when people reject God because the bible is flawed. It was passed down by oral traditions for almost a century, then edited and translated over time. It's bound to contain some inaccuracies or misinterpretations. God is real and He loves you. He wants the best for you. He wants you to be honest with yourself and love yourself, but He also longs for His love to be reciprocated.

[@TruthRevolution777]

He was married just watch the da Vinci code 😂😂😂

[@seriouslypagan6904]

Yeah, what Timmy said.

[@JamesRichardWiley]

Jesus is a man made character that appears in an ancient collection of Hebrew literature called The New Testament. The New Testament contains selected stories written about a miracle working godman that came down from the clouds thousands of years ago to save humanity.

[@D.MarcelloRadice]

how much frustrated atheists they can be... they can not live without talking about twhat they do not even believe, because stcuked into a religious cult, and I susopect atheist apologists use advantages to keep them within. it always been a war of religions you can not live without, right, atheist? we are just tried of that... why do you even care? .

[@D.MarcelloRadice]

I am so tired of you talking about what we believe and what you should not even care, got it?

[@whitemountainapache3297]

​@D.MarcelloRadiceYes Blud, he got it, he most defnitly god it.

[@billybobwombat2231]

Eating a mango under a shady tree in Oz, your snow looks kinda nice

[@NightsideOfParadise]

Looks nice but doesn't feel nice.

[@billybobwombat2231]

@NightsideOfParadise my mango tasted nice 🦘

[@anthonyp-gx3mk]

I’ve just discovered you, and find your journey interesting. Away from religious teachings but more on your connection or the connection you thought you had with god. Did you ever feel god, or gods love, or that prayer worked even if you didn’t get what you wanted. Or did you see this as more as positive thinking? Did you ever have supernatural experiences, or do you put that down to a scientific explanation.

[@davidm1149]

Congratulations on getting away from the institutional church, now it's time to learn who Jesus really is.

[@whittler0507]

I have lost a wife to cancer at a early age ..I have lost a wife to divorce ..I have lost a home to flooding and I have health problems ..But Jesus is Still Lord and Savior no matter what ..He is my eternal Salvation and my life .. I hope you find him again some day

[@thetruth871]

this is what real faith is all about brother? you remained me of the story of Job. The main message of the Book of Job is to trust in God's wisdom and character, even when suffering happens. The book's central character, Job, experiences suffering in many forms, including the loss of his property, family, and health. Job's friends try to offer simplistic answers to his questions about suffering, but God rebukes them. Instead, God invites Job to trust in his wisdom and character, and Job responds with humility and repentance. The Book of Job is a morality tale that teaches that God does not abandon his faithful in times of suffering, and that bad things happen for a greater purpose. It also shows that suffering is complex, and that people's suffering. God bless you brother

[@whittler0507]

@@thetruth871 Thank you but I know Job was even worse ..But thank you so much ..Our Lord Jesus is real

[@Bufford2024]

Same logic Judas used. Wierd .... hunh? 😮

[@JamesBach-hz1pc]

Christ is an Avatar A True Spiritual Master He abides permanently within the Universal Conciousness The lower house of Religion is what People get up to When they seek to bend Truth to their insecurity.

[@garyhershkowitz3435]

HI TIMMY!!!

[@whitemountainapache3297]

35 million views equates to about 200,000 adsense dollars.

[@EveryTongue]

You guys got a ton of snow! Timmy, what about the fulfilled prophecy in the Old Testament? Do that’s not make you think there’s something special about the Bible? I hope you have a peaceful day🙂‍↕️

[@thetruth871]

for all this people who have Deconstruct themselves, from Gods truth? what does it mean now? that you are free from sinning, lying, and committing adultery, and stealing, and have no Morality. After all now God means nothing to you now right ? will all this things really give you freedom to be happy? i don't thing so. You will be worst then before trust me. And do you know why? life is short, but eternity is forever.

[@markwarne5049]

Jesus said those on the side of truth will listen to him.Those who deconvert now believe their beliefs in God and the bible were just in their imagination and think they were deluded but that's only your belief ,many people still believe in Jesus and still follow Jesus and when we die we will see wether the atheists are right or wether the Christians are right wether the bible is fact or fiction wether God is real or a myth wether Jesus is the way the truth and the life who died and rose again or just a fictional character. Sadly some churches and church goers are not Christlike but if God is real they will be judged also.

[@PINKBOIKWEEN]

BEEN free of religion ☯️ for MANY years since I walked out the church or walked out a church with the last straw that I was actually visiting. I will not sit and tolerate damning people not give their last based on misinterpretation of scripture and well fantasy. Telling people that if they don't tithe that they will be cursed just like Jesus curse the fig tree. And that wasn't the only straw that was just the last one! 😂 Especially knowing that the money was going to the pastor! 🙄🙄 A broke congregation and a pocket field man who calls himself a man of God that would sit there and allow people to suffer for his expense, using a fable created by patriarchy in the first place. 💅🏻

[@garypascucci5797]

Hmmmm. Good luck. You'll find out if you were right or not someday... 🤞

[@prisonpov]

If he lost Him he never knew Him if he was a pastor he was probably teaching wrong doctrine so never had the annointing

[@timmygibsonkc]

Wrong!

[@supersawyer358]

Timmy.....i gotta know your opinion.....jones or aspinall?

[@clubadv]

These are a bit too slow to watch but I'm glad you're out there sharing on your story. Maybe step up to some real value content.

[@braulindisla-elburrodelaba5361]

Let me guess, lust destroyed your faith in Jesus.

[@rannveigandersen777]

It's sad hearing you say that your goal was to be famous like Joel Osteen. I think your goal as a pastor rather should have been to be like Jesus. But otherwise I understand you and I really think you are sencere. I think there are a lot of issues in the faith movement that has to be dealt with and that saddens God. Btw: You remind me of myself when I was 16 and started to doubt my belief in God. Just like you I felt I wasn't able to be honest to myself if I labeled myself a christian. I had never experienced God. And when I asked sencere questions to grown up christians about their belief they got offended and mad at me for doing so. But God is not like that. He easily answered all of my questions and he turned my life around when he revealed himself to me with his everlasting love. He will defenitely do the same to you and anybody else that asks of him. So in the future I picture you making videos of how God has revealed himself to you and transformed your life.🙏

[@elephant_888]

💯 my favorite songs are still Christian. 😢 Ugh.

[@teresasmith4383]

Timmy, you are my anti-pastor!

[@williamcooper8024]

You kinda described a scene from The Prophet, its like my bible but it has pictures! Also sequals and prequals kinda, Gibran is cool, reading him will help. I understand Jesus did/does exist, he doesn't answer my calls but if he existed then the same water flows through both your veins. Thats a simple truth, also like tears and like you can take this too far real quick. Read The Prophet if you want a chill time and not too many words or to talk to (god) etc... o777

[@carolyngartner6865]

You haven't lost Jesus. You've just lost your concept of who he was. You have realized he was not divine but a prophet. Now you can reconstruct your spiritual beliefs in a more positive, rational way.

[@sean_miller]

Bro he wasn’t that either. Why would I trade one form of nonsense for another? Jesus was just a man with human ideas. We don’t even know that his true teachings were because it’s all given to us through the writings of people with their own theological agendas. The gospels don’t even agree with each other on what he said or who he was. It’s all nonsense.

[@hannahhodgins9516]

@@carolyngartner6865 Jesus wasn’t wise in the slightest. Nor is the wisdoms exclusive to him

[@ProfoundThinker-c5z]

@@sean_miller Why would the gospels agree with each other? Are you aware of how divergent eye-witness testimonies become after a very, very short period of time? The gospels were written a substantial period of time after the events they describe and were probably written on the basis of second hand testimonies. You are fully entitled to object to Christianity. But please do try and think and do some basic research before you type.

[@sean_miller]

@@ProfoundThinker-c5z So you repeated the exact problem that I just articulated and then pretend like it’s not a problem? I like your last sentence too. It’s like you didn’t have anything actually insightful to say, so you had to explicitly state that you know something. 😂

[@ProfoundThinker-c5z]

@@sean_miller Let me phrase it more simply so you can understand, bro. If the gospels agreed on every small detail, it would actually be more problematic. Variations and even outright contradictions are entirely to be expected.