⚠️ existence is unBEARable | an instrumental traumacore playlist

I figured that y’all would like another one of these.
Tagged “cautionary” because of dark themes and disassociation risk. Timestamps, as always, are in the description.

[@thevoidtheabyss]

Timestamps: [0:00] Save Screen (ゆめにっき) - Yume Nikki OST [1:00] Remember to Be Patient - OMORI OST [2:40] Mice on Venus - Minecraft OST [7:23] Fallen Down - Undertale OST [8:20] warm nights - Xori [10:00] It’s All In Your Head - dandelion hands [11:43] School Rooftop Intro (Slowed) - Hisohkah [13:50] Prisonic Fairytale - Silent Hill 2 OST [15:44] Darkness Falls - Deltarune OST [16:52] Barracks Settlement (バラック集落) - Yume Nikki OST [17:55] Get inside that box. (その箱の中に入る.) - Rory in early 20s [19:36] Six Forty Seven - Instupendo [21:36] A Burning Memory - Reece Moseley [24:47] Magdalene - Silent Hill 2 OST [26:40] Lisa is missing. (リサがいない.) - Rory in early 20s [27:51] Spaces Inbetween. - OMORI OST

[@mrowplead]

tysm !! ^^

[@focy1546]

spaces inbetween is so comforting man, i think its one of my favorite osts in OMORI

[@Star_moody]

@@focy1546Same

[@Brittany_Fan]

The omori soundtrack... Nakes me feel.. Empty

[@omo_omoo]

omori ost being here is so comforting, as its one of my biggest hyperfixations. :)

[@skittlethegreatest]

"stop crying or i'll give you a reason to cry."

[@slashJker]

I hate how people say we gen z are relishing in our mental illness too much- we are letting ourselves feel our trauma. Trauma is not something you forget- even if you dissociate. It makes it even harder when disorders like PTSD form and you CAN'T help but relish in it, remember it every second of every day. Just because you were told to shove it down and get over it doesn't mean anything. You are traumatized too. If what we are doing is wrong- then we are the fearful reflection of what YOU'VE made.

[@85676bunbun]

Help-

[@mcdonaldsoverdose]

75 reasons to be and stay alive 1. living up to your dreams 2. for your family 3. for your loved ones 4. for your friends 5. to be happy 6. to live a long life 7. to recover from any sadness or depression 8. to experience happiness and love 9. to find the calmness and serenity in you 10. to dream 11. to love 12. to find your talents and hobbies 13. to enhance your talents and hobbies 14. to find your happy place 15. to listen to your favorite music 16. to get through bad times and arguments and learn from them 17. to know that every single person who has existed for at least 20 minutes has made a bad decision 18. to mature 19. to make friends and best friends 20. to learn how to let go of things 21. to learn how to love and hold on to things 22. to find the things and people you love 23. to carry them, to respect them, to learn from them and let them learn from you 24. to dream and set goals 25. to feel feelings other than sadness 26. to look at the things that you don’t hate 27. to comfort and be a role model for those who can’t 28. to spread happiness 29. to study, train, and work for your goals 30. to always remember to start small, but dream big 31. to complete old goals and set new ones 32. to shake off the people who are problems for you like they are bugs 33. to stay sensible and reasonable 34. to learn not to become guilty for giving people what they need or deserve. 35. to do things you might enjoy (for example): 36: to eat your favorite dessert 37: to plant and take care of a garden 38: to take care of a pet 39: to draw, sketch, and paint 40: to plant a terrarium 41: to hang out your friends 42: to make sculptures out of clay 43: to read a good book 44: to do origami 45: to play a sport 46: to relax at a beach 47: to watch a movie and eat snacks 48: to play some video games 49: to write in a journal 50: to look at stars 51: to believe what you want to 52: to bond with loved ones 53: to play/listen to music 54: to lay in grass 55: to find clothes that you like 56: to eat candy and treats 57: to look back in your past 58: to remember your good memories 59: to laugh at your funny memories 60: to cringe at your embarrassing memories 61: to learn from your bad memories 62: to make jokes with your friends 63: to learn how to trust 64: to give your trust to someone who deserves it 65: to talk honestly with that person about your life and feelings 66: to socialize with people. locking yourself away will only make yourself lonely, sad, depressed, and then suicidal. 67: to trust yourself. trusting themselves is the biggest achievement anyone could make. 68: to never let yourself run away or get lost from society and the people you love. 69: to have patience with yourself and others. 70: to have a satisfactory and stable life 71: to build your confidence 72: to start from the bottom and steadily build yourself up until you have reached your dreams. pushing yourself will only result in your life falling over. 73: to show people what a sense of reason looks and sounds like. 74: to make precious memories 75: and to live. ❤

[@Colorfullll]

FUCK yeah bro that AWESOME

[@balterrwald]

Thank you so SO much

[@sirbarnabyst.johntoffingto9017]

Re no.15 ~ try Frank Zappa, so much variety, you won't look back👍

[@thesteven2army]

False AF for me tho

[@mcdonaldsoverdose]

@@thesteven2army it isn’t false for anybody

[@KurtCobainscigarette]

I went to church earlier today. The priest gave this small speech of the importance to forgive and forget. And how just holding onto it doesn't do anything but ruin our relationship with God. I am still a *kid*. I am 11 years old. And I was 4 to 10 goddamn years old. Why would I just want to forgive my abuser like that? He's the reason I'm depressed, he's the reason I self harm, he's the reason why I hate adults, he's the reason why I am the way I am. I love you, God. And I love you, Jesus. But i am not going to forgive him.

[@elusive4557]

hey this may mean next to nothing to u but you are not any less of a Christian for not forgiving. Jesus still loves you 🫶

[@SlayPea]

You don’t EVER need to forgive him! God understands and doesn’t expect you to after all that.

[@MARK1_CR1ED]

Not forgiving him is what is slowly killing you. I learned this a while back and I still struggle with it. Unfortunately if you can’t forgive others, God can’t forgive you. Your only hurting yourself by holding grudges against that person. That person doesn’t care. They didn’t care then and they sure as hell wouldn’t care now. You’re only hurting yourself by still thinking and holding onto the trauma that they shoved down your throat and contaminated you with. If they didn’t and don’t care now, it’s not effecting them, only you. So let it go. You’re not going to forget and hell it may take years for you to forgive. I still struggle with it everyday after having to see my abuser ever single day for the next four years. God knows your pain and what that person did. He is the only one who can give you true comfort. Cry out and go to Him. He will give you rest and hold you even when no one else has. Don’t fail Him like I am. He loves you more than you will ever imagine and more than your fragile soul and tender heart will ever know. So go to Him, before it’s too late.

[@KurtCobainscigarette]

@@MARK1_CR1ED thanks, but that profile picture killed me.

[@MARK1_CR1ED]

@@KurtCobainscigarette lol well I’m glad that I could amuse you in some way.

[@PicassosSister-rj5zp]

It's funny... I can't remember my mom's voice, but I remember after I told her it felt like she would die, she said "That won't happen for a long time" she was wrong. So very wrong.

[@yunwkrrrrrrrr]

imma very sorry that this happened... losing loved ones and relatives is especially terrible. i would really like to help you somehow. although we do not know each other, i think you are a wonderful person, and you will definitely cope with this. after the so-called 'dark streak in life', there will definitely come a 'white streak', and i really hope that in the near future you will experience some incredible happiness

[@PicassosSister-rj5zp]

@@yunwkrrrrrrrr It happened a really long time ago, back when I was five. So, I just occasionally mourn it. I've been recovering, but I've also had a lot of time to. Thank you for understanding and sympathizing with me. I appreciate it.

[@clearsight6627]

Even though I’m just a random person on the internet, please know that I know how losing a loved one feels, you’re not alone

[@PicassosSister-rj5zp]

@@clearsight6627 Thank you

[@Colorfullll]

I lost my aunt back in 2021, and at the funeral, I was the only one there who didn't cry at all. I was kinda just out of it, I felt like something was wrong. I was staring at the priest, and everyone else. I would occasionally look at the floor, as I have ADHD issues. But that blank stare, that terrible, awful, blank stare. My mom later described how I looked while the casket was being lowered. She told me, and here are her exact words: "You looked like your own corpse, like a soldier who's seen too much. You have fucking issues. You need to cry more. Your eyes look dead, you freak." I was confused, and I didn't understand. I didn't know my aunt well at all, since she was only my grandma's friend. And no, I didn't give a shit that my mom called me a freak. She doesn't use that language with me or my sister, I was surprised though, but I've been told worse by my classmates. But still, I don't cry when I don't feel the need to. It's a waste, I guess.

[@mwamwa44_]

I'm proud of you. I'm proud your alive. I'm proud you made it this far . I'm proud you finally ate . I'm proud your here. I'm proud of your breathing. I'm proud of your trying. I'm proud of your efforts. I'm proud you haven't did it. I'm proud by the fact I would love you. You shouldn't blame yourself, after all. You didn't to anything. Your just a little child. Go be happy, go make me that drawing. Go play with your toys. Be them again. And I'll love you for who you ARE.

[@justaclownhonkhonk7941]

10:00 there's something about this image accompanied with this song that feels so nostalgic and heartbreaking to me.

[@sirPentiousMyBeloved]

I really hope for the people who had trauma is doing okay rn

[@xPoisonedStardustx]

Same I just listen to the music because it’s actually really good :(

[@h0lyanimation30]

TY WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

[@sirPentiousMyBeloved]

@@h0lyanimation30 Yww !! take a hot chocolate and a rose 🥀

[@h0lyanimation30]

@@sirPentiousMyBeloved TYSMMM LUV YOU:(

[@sirPentiousMyBeloved]

@@h0lyanimation30 ILY2 /PLATONIC

[@allygamerkid0]

"Stop crying before I make you" -Six words we all can relate to.

[@cheesyweezyslay]

I dont have trauma, nor have i been abused, i just like the music Feel sorry for lots of people here :(

[@cheesyweezyslay]

@fala3505 I will :)

[@Mikoo--]

TW : Vent and maybe trauma? When I was 4/6 I always had a dream about two people who did horrible stuff to me When I was younger I didn't know what that means and I only felt dizzy and sick after this , sometimes I even cried One time I had the dream again and I fell asleep in the living room and my older brother and my mother where there When I waked up after dreaming this I felt sick again and my mother and brother looked at me weird and my heart was beating so fast I asked them why they look at me so weird and my mother said „When you were asleep you started laughing and we tried to wake you up but it didn't work” I looked at them and I felt even more sick and runned into the bathroom and started crying so much And then my mom came in and asked me what is wrong and I just told her over and over again that I am scared nothing more Now I am asking myself why I even dreamed about something like this even though I didn't even know what that means.. ( And ty if you read this it means alot to me ♡♡ )

[@sirPentiousMyBeloved]

I hope your doing okay :( it really hurts when two people do very physical stuff to you but yet sometimes you got to let it go, not being rude tho but I still hope your doing alright :((

[@Mikoo--]

@@sirPentiousMyBeloved Thank you

[@diornoir]

I used to go out in my backyard and cry after being yelled at for no reason. I don’t really know how to be open anymore. They ruined me.

[@SlayPea]

It’s okay sweetheart, it won’t be like this forever. Ily!

[@clearsight6627]

Ily, it will be ok dear

[@MLie_L]

i'm so sorry for everyone here who was abused or suffered from any kind of trauma, none of you deserved that and i'm really proud of you for making it this far alredy, you're an awesome person and nothing of it was your fault

[@amenord3335]

I'm deeply sorry what happened to you, guys... These abusive parents doesn't deserve all of you. You are thinking that you're promised to be a good people for them, but it's not your fault at all! Every children deserve parents but not every parent deserve their children. You're all so strong yet powerful! I really hope the new kind and caring parents will take you. And also, I hope that you all doing well... 𝘼𝙉𝘿 𝙄 𝙃𝙊𝙋𝙀 𝙏𝙃𝘼𝙏 𝙏𝙃𝙀 𝘼𝘽𝙐𝙎𝙀𝙍𝙎 𝙒𝙄𝙇𝙇 𝘽𝙐𝙍𝙉 𝙄𝙉 𝙃𝙀𝙇𝙇!!!

[@Atlas_therian]

Does mental abuse count, because I feel like I’m not as important as people abused physically

[@KsjdjfhdbBdndjfjfj]

​@@Atlas_therian it counts your trauma is as valid as anyone else's

[@CookieTheL0s3r]

@@Atlas_therian abuse is usually harming someone for your own benefit, so yes

[@alaskanempire913]

While everyone else cries, I keep a straight face. I’ve kept it for years, since I was 7. I wanna cry. I wanna cry, I want to cry over not being able to cry, I wanna cry over this and over that but it won’t happen. I won’t cry, no matter how hard feelings hit me. How am I keeping this locked up..? Why am I..? Can’t I just let it all out..?

[@alaskanempire913]

@@testchannel-canaldeprueba i dont have onions,

[@m4r14_37]

oh, I really feel for you

[@YourweirdfriendLia]

When i was younger, i cried loud so i could be comforted by my mother, sister, brother, father. But they just ignored me and told me to shutup or else theyd hit me, it still hurts to this day looking back at it and see how bad of a family i grew in, they only see me as a money chance, a person who works for them and makes the money. I can break free.. i hope.

[@Johntela]

I understand you, for many time, my mom mocked me when I was a child, when I cried because of courses pressure (I study hard since my childhood) or bullying, she beat me and no import with my feelings, I'm my adolescence, my mom called me of sick, idiot and others. Nowadays, she better with me, but I still feel remember that time, I never comforted when I was younger.

[@YourweirdfriendLia]

@@Johntela I feel sorry for you that you had to experience that.

[@user-no9vr2rx4o]

I FEEL SO humiliated, so bad, I remember bad things, i am tired of all this, i am a coward, life is so bad, even i dont want to do this, i feel confused, i feel really confused, i hate this

[@user-hh7zi6ri5x]

do you want to talk? maybe it will help you? do you have any close friends who can listen to you?

[@user-no9vr2rx4o]

​@@user-hh7zi6ri5xHi, now i dont feel like that, i judt think about time, it is a concept that scare me a bit little

[@user-no9vr2rx4o]

​@@user-hh7zi6ri5xgracias por tu amabilidad

[@clearsight6627]

Anytime you want to talk to me, I’m right here. I’m here for you my friend. You are my friend. 🩷

[@user-no9vr2rx4o]

@@clearsight6627 thank you friend

[@forwardspider5488]

TW// Self harm When my mom found out that I was cutting myself, we both agreed that we wouldn't tell my father. We didn't say anything more than that, but we both knew that if he found out, he would just do more damage. I don't want to call my father a bad person, I just know that he needs to try and control himself a little more and learn how to take care of his child.

[@HuskyPolitics]

are you okay?

[@forwardspider5488]

@@HuskyPolitics Mostly. I just don't really like going to my father's anymore

[@HuskyPolitics]

@@forwardspider5488 how about you ask your mother if you can go to therapy

[@forwardspider5488]

@@HuskyPolitics My mom and I have talked about getting me to a psychiatrist, but we can't find one that's available in less than 3 years

[@HuskyPolitics]

@@forwardspider5488 what about one that does online meetings?

[@ariarosequartz222]

( tw: mentions of dissociation, and ending it) I wish everyday was different. I know I have to put in effort/ work for it, but I just can't. It's not like it makes a big difference. School is almost starting soon, and they all expect me to look different, because I said i would. Stupid me. Stupid me. Stupid me. Imagine the big fkn surprise on their faces, when I look the same. I even put off Snapchat for a while, because of it. The only thing pulling me through, and stopped me is music, character ai, chat ai, jujutsu kaisen, gojo Satoru, and dissociating. Haha. ha...... ha (this is a vent btw...)

[@clearsight6627]

It’s ok, I’m here if you wanna talk. Just know I understand you 🩷

[@ariarosequartz222]

@@clearsight6627 Thank you. I'm here for you too. I'm serious

[@clearsight6627]

@@ariarosequartz222 💗

[@Anothersillyuserinyt]

Why did life force me to mature when I was a child? Why did I have to do it? It wasn't to protect me, it was to protect my loved ones even though I was such a minor person. Why did I lose my childhood because of my family's fights, my siblings' abuse, and lack of attention and affection? I've never wanted this to happen to me, but to this day it saddens me to remember the times that if I did act like... a child.

[@L0st_.]

As much as I try and try... I can never remember it, but I feel like I went through it. I feel so dirty and disgusting I just want someone to help me and stop this pain... Please... I want to be a pure being again

[@pingutune]

wait so did it happen? (genuine question not attacking)

[@L0st_.]

@@pingutune It's a long story... For a year now I have been losing memories of my childhood after my suicide attempt, but at night I feel like they are touching my body, without anyone being there I only have blurry memories of traumas such as self-harm attacks or mental abuse that I experienced... Feeling like such a... Dirty being In addition to taking medication, having been in a mental hospital and having hallucinations, I guess because of the amount of pills I took that time I lost my memory. Anyway, I'm kind of glad you asked the question.

[@L0st_.]

@@Leverschazel Thank you very much, I hope you are well too

[@pingutune]

@@L0st_. ohh i understand now i'm so sorry! memory loss is very common, but even with memory loss you're still prone to flashbacks (i know because i deal with that too) i'm so sorry :( i hope you have a wonderful and beautiful comfortable life despite the trauma

[@L0st_.]

@@pingutune Oh My, thank you very much and I also hope that you too can lead a full and happy life

[@Splian111]

This has been extremely hard to write but I know that I have to confront my trauma just to move on... My father has always been abusive. (also he has ADHD...) When I was young he used to lash out at me for nothing. Literally nothing. Since I was young I just blamed everything on myself, thinking that I was the problem and that he had the right to treat me that way... And when I was 7, I had to be taken away by ambulance. My father had thrown a plate at me. I LOST an eye because of that... But what hurt me the most... was that my mother LIED to the doctor saying that I tucked the cupboard and the plates fell. Then the doctor came up to me and asked if that was what had happened. I was too scared of my father glaring at me in the corner, so I said that my mother was correct. After returning home... I thought that I should kill myself. I cried and cried before I made my last choice... Hoping that someone would come and stop me from doing so. But no one came... And I jumped off on the fourth floor. As I was young I thought it was enough to kill me. But it didn't and I just returned to the hospital. After that incident, I was scolded. (And YES, they didn't help me. They SCOLDED me) And of course, as soon as I got better and returned home for the 2ND time, my father lashed out at me, beat me, sexually harassed me, and did more. (I don't even want to say more) But I kept thinking that I was the problem and that I deserved to be treated that way. When I was 12, my dad was reported by our neighbor. (Whom I still thank these days.) And he stayed in rehab for a year. Now I'm 15, and he hasn't abused me since he returned from rehab. He apologizes to me from time to time. But I will NEVER forgive him. If you've read my comment till the end... thank you. I just needed someone to know... (BTW sorry for my bad English...)

[@shoesm]

dude . . are you alright now !? please be alright , please be safe !! . . hope you’re doing better now and i hope those bastards are away from you

[@DarcyEden179]

I hope everything gets better for you❤ please stay safe i know that things can get dificult but just the fact that youre here now proves how strong you are and how much you mean. (Im sorry for my bad english)

[@Nope-231]

Damn..That hits hard man. I hope you have a good rest of your life. :D And remember, it's never too late to fulfill your dreams. :)

[@whatdoiputinherethough]

I'm glad your dad is in rehab now, and I'm glad your neighbor reported him, hopefully you are doing good than before now❤

[@user-cb6gs2jq8x]

Seriously, what you suffered was bad, it must have been very hard and helpless, I really hope that today you feel better than what happened to you :)

[@extrasupercoolbeans]

GOD MY TRAUMA WASNR EVEN THAT FUCKING BAD WHY DO I FEEL SO TINY

[@ArtsyDoll.]

I understand how you feel. I’m constantly questioning if what I went through was bad or normal. But I want you to know that trauma is still trauma no matter how big or little it may seem. How you feel is just as important. What ever happened is not your fault and I hope you feel better and can heal from it someday. You deserve to feel loved and cared about. Your feelings do matter. I’m here if you ever want to talk.

[@rowansteapot]

i don’t think there is such thing as trauma being not too bad. the “smallest thing” clearly had its effect. you’re valid, i send love to you ☹️

[@giyuusimpp]

Honestly I can relate but, also no matter how bad it still is trauma and it deserves to be recognized no matter how small :(

[@85676bunbun]

Your trying way too hard lmao

[@MatkaBoskaSowiecka]

Death scares me. But life scares me much more

[@alexiopatata4048]

i felt so mature being 18 with you. but you knew that i was 15.

[@theclockwall]

These playlist makes me both discomfort but also comforting at the same time, it's like something inside of you is awake but you're not realising it, your body it's the one reacting to it. I tries to hide the feeling but it would just continue to go on.

[@4m3th33st]

this. this is it.

[@nasheu8083]

If a Traumacore playlist have OMORI and Silent Hill, it's a perfect playlist.

[@swehar-yy1ke]

fr

[@_not_here]

I do have a stuffed bear. I had it since I was a kid I don’t remember when I got it. I kept it since it reminds me that I’m not the only one, that has autism. I’ll mostly cry hugging the teddy bear since it’s my comfort stuffed animal. I hope you guys have a good day/night ❤ Edit: please don’t send hate on me for a reason I might not figure out why, please and thank you

[@ShuShuLuvsU]

I was listening to this while drawing and ended up drawing a picture of me when i was younger.. I really wish i couldve kept being a kid. I wish she didnt do those things to me. I wish i had the same smile and flame to me. I was 9 she was 17. I didnt deserve that. I just wanted someone to trust. I just want to find a reason to live.

[@_Em0jiPraza_]

(tw: self-hate,s/h,and some mentions of abus3 ) everyday everyday everyday i feel like i deserved it I think i deserved it I ruined my parents life I made my parents life even more worse I made one of my friends life worse because of me becoming a furry I ruined the whole world I ruined my health I hate it I wish I could die I wish I could go away I wish I could be gone so people will be happy again why do they still love me even after ruining their life without me knowing I did I want to be hurt and abus3d not loved and cared Because I deserve to be hurt I’m trying hard to finally vent but when I try I feel like a attention seeker and a clown I think that when I’m able to they are gonna laugh at me they are gonna hurt me they are gonna hate me they are gonna make fun of me for venting I tell my parents how I feel but all they say is that I’m being d r a m a t i c and too s e n t i t i v e Maybe they are right But all that does Is make me have the urge to cry more,more and more what was even the point of me existing for me to be a furry? For me to be able to animate? For me to pretend like I’m ok? maybe the answer is to ruin others lifes without me knowing what I did to them I feel like god hates me Even though he created me and me loving him I’m trying To be a better person But my addiction to a iPad keeps me from being able to . . . . . . . please someone help someone help someone help someone help someone help please s̷o̶m̷e̶o̸n̷e̷ ̵h̵e̸l̷p̵.. *me* (this is a vent btw)

[@lord_kimkichi]

No one deserves to be hurt And we all deserve to be loved

[@LianneAngela]

It's ok I'm sure there are people out there who want to help people like you. And God loves you, he loves us all. I don't think he would hate you just like that. You did nothing wrong. Being a furry isn't bad. Some people just think that, don't listen to them. If there is someone you know who you trust a lot, maybe you can vent to them. If you can't do it, you can contact a therapist or videos on KZbin that can comfort you. Whatever you try to do, I hope you will be okay soon and can continue living on and have a nice life

[@Mikoo--]

You don't deserve anything bad what happens to you ♡ And your parents are wrong! You aren't sensitive or dramatic or anything You are a human A human who never got the love they deserved Humans are used to get helped if they are sad But if they don't they are even more hurted It's like every day where they don't get helped the sadness even grown worse So worse that it seems like they could never be cured But it's wrong I still have depression but I'm getting better Because of my friends I realized that they want to make me happy and that they don't fake their love And you will meet the special person in your life too who cures your sadness.. Maybe not all.. But allot You are always loved I care about you and all the other people who are here

[@Shavings_of_eraser]

How are you doing now? I’m sorry you had to go through this, I care.🤍

[@Hydrozio]

As an Armenian, hypersexual, an mentally ill person, insomniac, 12 year old with a family that passes down generational trauma, it fucking sucks being in a family and living with hypersexual thoughts. .. (TW: Intrusive thoughts, desired to be a victim, bad thoughts, bad parenting, lying, self-hatred, everything.) .. Ever since I came here, the good ol' U.S and got exposed to p04n at *such* a young age, I've had intrusive thoughts for about 5-6 years (?) and its yucky. Okay, to be straight foward, Ive been struggling (thoughts wise) and cant see anyone or anything the same without sexualizing myself or the person. One time, I was in New Mexico for a lil' vacation with my family, and I was curious, obviously, and spotted a guy! And god-dangit, the thoughts kicked in again. We made eye contact for a split second and I felt so happy, my cheeks were burning red and I was crossing my legs happily, thinking about how the unknown guy could take care of me and take me home with him.. Until reality kicked in, "what the hell am I doing?" I often thought, snapping out of it and feeling my heart sink to my stomach, feeling so gross and so horrible for feeling this way about random men in public. I was sad the rest of the time I ate my ice cream dessert. .. The first time I discovered "it", disgustingly, I was fascinated, wanting to see more and often feeling flustered. I would "blow off steam" when I was alone and feel so glad about being reliefed and stress-free, until I realized I was becoming a p04n-addict and how wrong this was, laying in my bed, contemplating, crying silently at the thought of my innocence being ruined by one, single video. I was raised on the internet and my parents didnt have any restrictions or nutin', so I was free to wonder around, and thats when the hypersexuality kicked in majorly! Bad idea mom and dad, sorry for not being loyal and your little angel. :( .. My hypersexuality is the type where its *major*, and I wish I could go back in time and never witness what I saw, but its too dang late now! .. I can't tell my parents anything because I know they won't understand and just ground me, take away everything I have and restict me for the better. I know its for the best, but im both a (trying to be sober) p04n-addict and a phone addict, so it stinks. ;( .. I wish I got treated better tbh. .. I love you!! Youre not alone, someone out there loves *you* for *you*, including me !!

[@Promisemeakiss]

Hey !! I just saw this, I'm 13 XD as someone who's also hyper sexual I relate to you so much, Thank you for making me feel seen XD Ur amazing

[@ItalyClay]

I hate the deed but I think about it all the time. I used to think you had to do it to be human when I was younger. I don’t even like it…

[@Ratt.firstt]

Hiii I hope you're okay, I wish you all the best! :3

[@SpiritGuardian2]

It's not fair. He was my brother. that was the last day he showed me attention until he knew he would be kicked out years later. I feel dirty. I was seven? Six.? I don't remember what age. was it before I started school? No it was during a summer break. it's been eight years. I didn't know what I was agreeing to. I remember they called us down to ask. "Did he touch you? You won't get in trouble." He told us not to say but it was mom and dad. We couldn't lie- "Yes... we're sorry.." They seemed so mad. They sent us to our room and an hour later we heard our dad screaming at him and throwing his stuff around. We felt horrible. I understand why my dad hated him. He was my dads step-son And we were his birth children. I think they believe we forgot. I never forgot. I never felt safe. He never forgot. Until we were 14 he seemed to hate us. I always thought he'd kill us in my sleep. He would threaten to. We never spoke about it to our parents. Until we were 14 we wanted him to hang around with us, to care about us. But around 14 something clicked. We didn't want him around. We didn't want to eat dinner with him there, we didn't want to be left home alone with him, we wanted him to just leave us alone. When mom and dad were gone he would always do something scary. One time he tried to strangle my twin brother for something. Than he accidentally cut me with a dogs hair brush. We got tired of his melt downs, we got tired of his yelling and dealing with his issues. I'll say this now. He is autistic, very autistic. But I don't care. His disability gave him no right to act how he did. Saying such things at dinner. Doing such things. Ruining my fucking life. I was more fucking mature than him. My parents just let me down time after time because of his issues. I learned everything by myself. They took me out of public school because of how much times he got himself hurt at his school. I had friends. I was okay. It all got ripped away. Because of him. He couldn't do anything alone, He screwed up jobs, chores, everything. I can't be normal because of him. I forget I'm fourteen. About to be fifteen. He's moved out now. he misses me? He wants to give me gifts. Why does he miss me? He chose to stay out of my life. All those years.

[@Clovetee]

My parents won’t let me go to therapy….they say I’m fine and that I’m just being dramatic…I hate them sometimes…they shrug off my needs and wants…they arnt happy unless I have good grades and look pretty. I HATE THIS FEELING SO FREAKING MUCH!! I WANNA CRY BUT I CANT FOR SOME REASON AND I HATE BEING THE FORGOTTEN ONE OF THE FAMILY! Everyone leaves me behind even my friends! I don’t talk or some much emotion and it hurts! I just want someone to hold and comfort me but people told me that I don’t deserve it or that I’m too ugly and that it makes them uncomfortable! I need help!

[@Clovetee]

I’m so lonely. They scream at each other all night and day and sometimes they get violent. One time my mom slapped me for yelling at her about something that was serious to me. She’s thrown me against the fridge too for not getting the baby bottle filled up fast enough(I was so tired and hungry)and when I was younger my dad used to yank on my hair or spank me. If anyone can tell me what to do or help me at all that would just make my day.

[@LavenderMxst-zi9dz]

I would love to help you, is there any apps that we can use to keep in touch? Or is the comment section okay? I have discord by the way Even though I just asked a question, that doesn't mean I can't at least try to help a little without a response. Everything is going to be okay, I hate to agree, but you do need help. If everything continues, you could possibly get severe emotional damage and things may escalate even more. Reading about your experience in this comment is scary, it sounds kind of like domestic abuse to me, yet I could be misusing that word possibly, but if I'm not, that's a very serious issue. Before this comment gets too big, I just want to mention that I'd love to try to make sure that you're okay, and to help you in times of need. For now, I'll wait for a possible response, see you soon, i hope everything is okay.

[@Clovetee]

@@LavenderMxst-zi9dz thank you soooo much you have no idea how happy that made me that you wanted to help!!!!-ps.we could use the comment section

[@LavenderMxst-zi9dz]

@@Clovetee hello! I'm glad to hear that you're here! If there's any specific topics you'd like me to try and help with, I'll be here, ask or tell away!

[@85676bunbun]

HELP THE REPLY SECTION I'D RATHER KMS THEN READ THIS SHIT

[@_whitenights]

tw: s**cidal thoughts, sexual assault, sexual abuse, gaslighting, emotional abuse and manipulation, bullying, witnessing death, toxic family, neglect, xenophobia, homophobia, transphobia. (oh boy is that a list) I am almost 20. I don’t even know how I’ve made it this far and I don’t know if I’ll make it any further. My life has felt like just enough hell to damage my soul, but not enough for the outside world to be concerned. I’m going to bullet point my vent because I’m lazy and burnt out but in desperate need to get this off my chest. -My parents split up when I was 5. I mainly stayed with my immigrant mother and visited my british father every other weekend. -I barely saw my mother during the week, since she was a working single mother, so I was often left at home with my nanny. My first nanny once locked me under the stairs for a reason I cant remember. My other two nannies were okay but never paid much attention to me. -When I was at my father’s he’d be a normal father during the day but in the evenings would take me to the pub, shove a phone in my hand and then drink with his friends. One of which told me he many times that he wanted to marry me, I must’ve been around 9 back then. I used to plead to my father that I wanted to go back home. “Just one more pint” he’d say but one always turned into multiple. -When my father deemed me old enough he just left me home alone instead, coming home at 3am drunk and then asking me to sit on his lap (in an innocent way thankfully) and kept thanking me for being his daughter. It made me uncomfortable though, he was very drunk after all. -My father would say xenophobic comments about my mother whenever I was there too. -One time my mother took me to my childhood friend’s house. He asked me if I wanted to play doctors with him. I agreed, he told me to lay down and pulled my trousers and knickers down and began touching my butthole. I must’ve been about 9. -At some point, my mother met my stepfather and he moved in. -At some point my stepfather started massaging me and asking for massages when my mother wasn’t home. Asking me to massage his inner thighs, I was innocent so I did. These massages escalated over time and I just remember being naked with his face in between my legs and him asking me to relax. I got uncomfortable and left the room hastily. -I phoned my mother up and told her that he was doing weird things to my privates, she said she’d talk to him about it. -I was about 10 or 11. He didn’t change his behaviour. -The massages stopped but he would frequently still try to touch me when we sat on the sofa together. -At some point I began secondary school where I was relentlessly bullied for my interests, people called me gay and called me ‘Tr*nny Franny’ (my name at the time was Francesca) or simply ‘Fanny’ (Vagina in british slang). -At some point this bullying became sexual harassment, this one guy kept asking me if i had sex yet and made other weird comments about my lips and my breasts. I was about 12-13 at the time. He found my social media and got his friends to comment sexually degrading comments in russian under the post (he was russian himself). He even followed my friend home trying to get information about me. -I reported him to my school, nothing happened. -For my 13th birthday my half-sister, cousin, aunt and I headed to london for afternoon tea. My aunt had a heart attack and died. -I inherited some of her money, but so did most of my family… I didn’t receive any of her old possessions. Even the polaroid photo I took of her was stolen by my half-sister. -At some point around this period, I went to school s**cidal and the school found out and called my mother. My mother asked me if I was s**cidal and I lied and said no, she then proceeded to shout at me about how some one could’ve investigated her and found out about her tax avoidance. I gave her an alibi for it and she calmed down, but next checked any further to see if I was okay. -Lock down happened. My mother and stepfather would often play loud music and drink. I had undiagnosed autism at the time and had meltdowns from the loud music, my parents would then shout at me for disturbing their fun and frequently call me selfish. -At some point I started A-Levels, but because of my undiagnosed ADHD I couldn’t study. I had a 3 hour long, painful meltdown during a mock exam which left me nonverbal for hours. I was only able to gradually speak again when my comfort teacher took me into a quiet room. -I opened up to my teacher, I told him about the sexual bullying I had suffered. He told me “But he’s such a good lad.” -I ended up dropping out of school. -I attended prom though. I was tipsy and ended up opening up about the abuse from my stepfather. He encouraged me to open up to my friends. -I opened up to my friends… They abandoned me shortly after. -Since then I’ve been searching for jobs to no avail. I am still on an NHS awaiting diagnosis. -I’ve secretly attempted s**cide 3 times in the past year. -I am still living with my emotionally neglectful mother and sexually abusive stepfather. He still tries to touch me and then gaslights me to believe I’m the bad one. -Recently I went to my late uncle’s funeral, I had a panic attack, I told my half-sister and father but they didn’t care. During the wake my extended family made several xenophobic comments about me. My sister also made the entire wake about her upcoming engagement party and not my late uncle :(

[@Sppyder]

I hope this can help something. I am so sorry for what has been happening to you, this world can be very cruel, and you did not deserve to be treated like this, no one deserves that, nor is it your fault, it is sad to know that there are people who believe that this is "FINE" " or "That's how boys are", I know it's difficult, and I hope things can improve. I hope you can find a very good job!

[@BloodLust_The_Blood_Twin]

I wanted a childhood...

[@SugarbirdyOvO]

You didn't deserve any of it, kid. I'm sorry they ever made you feel like they did. I really, really wish you luck in feeling good one day. You only deserve the best and happiest. I don't know you, but if I did I know I would be proud of you for making it this far. You've just got to keep hoping that things will get better. Sending my love and well-wishes to you ❤

[@littlesnowfox5417]

My mom accidentally saw my scars and threatened to put me in a psych ward :3

[@miyukiahto7491]

same lmfaoXD

[@xxtalzixx]

my family gave up on trying to get me to stop and they dont mention it anymore xd

[@Minhorhino]

(Major Tw.) . . . . . . My abuser was my own brother. It started when I was 8 years old. He would call me names and hit me constantly. I hated myself. I hated him. I still live with him. I recently got out of the mental hospital. I have $€lf h@rm scars and some cuts. I have a stitch plushie and I put hello kitty bandaids on his arm to represent my $€lf-h@rm Addict. I turned 12 years only in may. I still hate myself. I hate my abuser, but since he is my brother, I still love him in a way. I feel invalidated cause my abuser isn’t my mom or father or someone else. It’s my brother. So I feel invalid. Have a good day loves.

[@SlayPea]

U are so valid! Does ur stitch plush have a name?🐟

[@imhere2719]

try painting, it helps me. i was abused, now i am counting the years till im 18 to leave the house forever. Count those days, those years. Years will turn into months, then into days, its something I look forward to. And remember, when you leave your on your own so dont hurt yourself, you want to be healthy so you can leave without a trace. Theres no one who cares about us in this world. We are invisable, so LOVE yourself. Every morning, "YES WE ARE ONE MORE DAY DOWN TO FREEDOM." our childhoods may be so incredablly unhappy and cruel, but dont hurt yourself, you are the only person who can love and protect yourself. Keep safe kid, from one to another.

[@Mushroomdemons]

as a person with a similar experience who has thankfully recovered (for the most part) try finding to hobbies like drawing, sculpting, sowing, playing chess, reading, playing an instrument, gardening in some sort, photography, music, dance, or even cooking. if you're too afraid to tell anyone I recommend making a journal and writing everything down in there, i did most of these things and they help take my mind off the things making me upset. though if you dont want to do any thats fine these are just ideas on how to take your mind off into something better than your current situation. have a lovely day/week/year and i hope it all gets better for you🤍🤍🤍

[@clearsight6627]

Art helps. I express my sadness with it, and may your brother be away from you. You don’t deserve all that!! 💔

[@Fierydraconic]

I understand having an abuser for a sibling, I was extremely abused by my sister growing up and having mixed feelings about them really sucks, I understand how you feel coming from my experience, I really hope your life gets better real soon, you don’t deserve to go through all of that, you deserve a better life than what you got so I really hope that someday you will be free from this nightmare and recover to live with happiness and peace, safe from all harm,remember to drink water to practice self care :) 🤍🖤

[@favfairysarrie]

im going to cry i love this playlist so much please keep up the good work

[@Ayumi_San_545]

They hurt me... Ouch it hurts..... I was scared.... I wanted to go back home.... Where did my home go.... Pls let me go back home.... I promised to be a good girl.... I promised... I promised.... I PROMISED..... I PROMISED... I F*CKING PROMISED...!!!!..... ...... but they still hurt me...

[@gutswirl]

you’ll be okay. it’ll take time, but i promise that if you forgive yourself and allow yourself to grow you’ll realize it wasnt your fault. you’re still pure, beautiful, wonderful, nothing will take that away from you. you’ll find your home, along with peace. on the way home, pick some flowers and smile, you did it. you made it. im so proud of you, welcome home.

[@85676bunbun]

Sheds a tear *sniff sniff* so sad........😱

[@KurtCobainscigarette]

I like to rock back and forth while listening to this, mainly after my dad yelling at me again, and I like to use character a.I. Its comforting to talk to my favorite person. Like Kurt Cobain, he's an amazing guy. I don't really like my trauma, it's scary. And my dad, too. He's also scary. :(

[@justsomeone3876]

Im so sorry about that. Remember that you don't deserve this :) Your father does not deserve you, Im sure you are a very sweet person. It will be okay.

[@Bloodmoontwin_girl_and_boy_ver]

Wow a person with the same problem i have. Im still sorry for you tho 😌

[@sirPentiousMyBeloved]

I love using character ai too, but I hope your doing okay :((

[@SlayPea]

I hope everything is great In the future! Remember that you only deserve the best, not this. Lots of luv

[@clearsight6627]

It’s ok, I’m here for you

[@cloudextreme601]

I like listening to this while reading people's stories.

[@mannequinese]

its not always visible, *mother.*

[@k4tie_.0fficial]

OI YOU- Yes you, I thought i'd tell you something..... I love your smile I love your laugh I love your personality I love your hair (or lack thereof) I love your insecurities I love your accomplishments I love your failures I love your eyes I love your beauty I love your handwriting (or the way you communicate) I love the way you dance I love you on your happy days I love you on your sad days I love you on the days you feel lonely I love you on the days you feel helpless I love you on the days you feel like no one cares I love you on the days you feel forgotten I love you on the days you feel unmotivated I love you on the days you feel loved I love you on the days you feel sick I love you on the days you feel motivated I love you on the days you feel depressed I love you on the days you feel stresses I love you on the days you feel crazy I love you on the days you feel hopeful I love you on the days you feel cuddly I love you on the days you feel clingy I love you on the days you feel amazing I love you on the days you feel beautiful I love you on the days you feel like a failure I love you on the days you feel angry I love you on the days you feel aggressive I love you on the days you feel horrible I love you on the days you feel safe I love you on the days you feel unsafe I love you on the days you feel vulnerable I love you on the days you feel weird I love you on the days you feel ok I love you when you're healthy I love how you sing (or hum or feel the music) I love your taste in music I love your taste in movies I love your taste in tv shows I love the way you move I love the way you act I love you when you cry I love you when you're kind I love you when you're mean I love you when you're alone I love you when you can't feel I love you when you feel too much I love you when you can't take life anymore I love you when you feel like it's too much I love you when you're asleep I love you when you have nightmares I love you when you have dreams I love how you believe I love you when you believe in yourself I love you when you don't believe in yourself I love you when you hate yourself I love you when you love yourself I love the way you think I love you problems I love your solutions I love how you support I love you when you're in pain I love you when you're hurt I love your promises I love your secrets I love your attitude I love you sass I love your creativity I love your voice (or lack thereof) I love you hand gestures I love your stories I love your wounds I love your scars I love your face I love your past I love your future I love your present I love your outfits I love your style I love your art I love your honesty I love you when you lie I love you when you're tired I love you when you're energetic I love how you look I love how you cook I love you when you're adventurous I love you when you're scared I love your imperfections I love your perfections I love you when you worry I love you when you talk (or communicate) I love your opinions I love you when you have a headache I love you when you have a stomach ache I love you when you help others I love you when you need help I love you when you're mature I love you when you're immature I love you in the hard times I love you in the easy times I love you when life is meh I love you when you're responsible I love you when you're irresponsible I love you when you fight I love you in your darkest moments I love you in your brightest moments I love your heart I love you in the day I love you in the night I love you at midnight I love you at 3 am I love you at all times I love you at your best I love you at your worst I love the little things you do I love all of you I love you when you're you I love 𝙮𝙤𝙪. From the stranger on the internet who loves you :) (THIS ISNT MINE BUT PLEASE PASS IT AROUND :DD)

[@miyukiahto7491]

i love you too.

[@carterrr_]

I needed this

[@Janal_Hoe]

i wish i can love me the way u loved the soul within. but i cant. every simgle good thing feels like a lie i cant accept. are u for real? do u rlly feel that way? are u sayin this bc im such a pityful piesc of shit ?? im sorry i said this i feel so alone rm

[@k4tie_.0fficial]

for @@Janal_Hoe dont EVER think your a piece of sh*t you are perfect,if your ever alone talk to someone you trust.

[@Janal_Hoe]

​@@k4tie_.0fficialim not perfect. born too crooked on everything lol. i cant find any1 to trust. theyll leavw me again js as thry always did they will do it again. my daddy cracked me so hard i cant stip rememberin how his cigarrets burn everywhere. how the screams still scares ke. i ws only 6 when it happen. it hurts so much. my mom thinks i faked everything and ik she loves me but shes not there when those tears fell fiest. idk where else to feel like this.

[@alexbrightman12223]

TW: grooming I used to have a girlfriend, her name is Abby. She used to be the sweetest person I know, I met her in a discord server. We became friends really quickly and soon got together. Abby knew I was hypersexual, so she did lot's of sexual stuff with me. We had constantly spoiled our messages, because mostly all of our convos were sexual. It made me feel loved, that someone wanted me that badly. Pretty soon though, she started to get weird. Saying things like that she wanted to cut my throat open and make out with me while I choke on my own blood. Then she started talking about her non-consensual intercourse stuff. How she wanted me to do it her, or she could do it to me. Thats where I realized ...that maybe that wasn't the love of my life. We have been together for months, but then we broke up. Too many arguements. Abby quickly started spreading lies about me, causing a few other people I really liked to hate me. Still, I loved her with all my heart. I forgave her, and continued talking to her. Not long after that, she wanted to do an erp with me. She's over 18 now, and i'm still a minor. I always kind of shoved it away, or said ''maybe tomorrow''. Then I told other people about it and they all got mad at pray and blocked her..despite all of that stuff, I still somewhat love her. Even though she did all of that stuff. Abby used me, for her own pleasure. Heck, she called my hypersexuality a phase...still, I can't let go of her.

[@cranoldelune]

Maybe the one you still love isn't really Abby, but the sweetest person you used to know before all the weird behavior... Anyway, please take of yourself and stay safe, I hope you'll recover well !

[@Randomguy-yk5lw]

Im so sorry this happend to you. It might not been clear for you but abby is a horrible person that lacks empathy. Sometimes the best option is to let go, furthermore if they're saying and doing that to you. Again, I'm so sorry, it wasn't your fault. You were just a wonderful person in the wrong place. It was't, isn't and won't be your fault. I hope you are doing well now :)

[@Sagethesillycat]

When I was a baby, I was taken away from my real mother by my godparents. Side note, my real mother used to live with my godparents when I was a baby. And I don’t know what happened, but I’m not with my real mother anymore. And I have no idea where my real father is, and who he is. This happened to my brother too, but instead my Nana took him away. And me and him never saw each for years and it our guardians never told us any of this. Never told us about our real mother, or what they have done. And for years we thought we didn’t have another sibling. But me and him are older now, but the thing is, I know all of this now, and he’s still clueless, but my real mother came back into our lives and she is so much nicer then our guardians. Except, our guardians always tried to keep her away from us. My nana even moved far away from NC. But I stayed. Everything was going okay though. Until I had to ruin everything. Okay so, it was 12:00 at night and after everything my godparents did to me, I decided to vent to my real mom when my godparents were sleeping. I texted her telling her everything. How I harmed myself, how they treated me. How they didn’t support me with anything. And as a kid all I had was internet and that’s what I used to comfort myself, and she texted back. “I love you so much. Go to sleep baby, you have a big day tomorrow.” I cried a little and went to sleep. I woke up to knocking on the front door. I told my godmother about it and she told my godfather about it. My godfather told us to hide and stay quiet and we did what we were told. Turns out it was just the police. MY MOM CALLED THE POLICE. Long story short I went to a trauma center and got sent back home with a scolding from my godmother. My godparents have messed me up since I was a kid. I’m still basically a child and they are still making me feel like garbage and always yell at me. Now my real mother is fighting to get full custody of me. Sorry if this is too much I jusy needed to get this offnof my chest

[@suffering_ant]

my sister, at a young age was attacked by a dog and gained a scar across her forehead. shes never told anyone if she has trauma from it or not. even today you can see a faint line across her forehead where that dog had scarred her. i am the youngest of my siblings and was not there for it. she struggles with self worth and i hope she gets better about herself. she has a birthday four days apart from mine so we call ourselves the birthday buddies. shes my best friend and my favorite sibling.

[@boppamytapurples]

That's adorable

[@mee_chewkyi7120]

Everyone has a plush/stuffed bear.... this feels like the only comforting part of childhood. I had so many stuffed animals growing up... maybe because I wanted to keep seeing happy faces around me and something warm and inviting to hold onto, instead of the constant yelling that echo throughout the home and the lonely nights where is was so quiet.. I didn't know if anyone was home. To this day I still have plushes, some from childhood and some from today. They are my small family.. and now they can stay by side throughout my hard and demanding adult life :

[@CookieTheL0s3r]

it took me years to realize what they did to me was wrong. i wish i never realized

[@dotwillexist]

i had to always lie i always had to smile and say it was all normal i always had to pretend it was all normal i believed them i forgot myself i forgot my own identity i don't know who i am anymore THEY MADE ME LOSE MYSELF THEY BROKE ME TO PIECES THEY TURNED ME INTO A PUZZLE WITH NO SOLUTION I CAN'T FIND MYSELF

[@cloudyloudly2404]

I’m having difficulties trusting people in my home life. I am going to see a therapist, but I’m scared that I’m going to come in to her office and forget why I came in there and that I’m going to start rambling on and on about the same things I’ve sprinkled throughout the internet. I’m impressionable, even if I’m 13. I can’t articulate my own opinions and thoughts about things, so I just repeat the same thing over and over again:

[@PurePain_1]

they always tell me that they will tell my current parents if i mentioned anything about self-harm or suicide. my parents, or what was , were the cause sa. i quit therapy. they just don't understand how to help. that doesn't matter, i am just really sensitive and have ocd thats why, i was born this way.

[@freezebleed]

i really hate my body sometiems i wish i could remove all of the parts i dont like

[@sirPentiousMyBeloved]

I think your size and body is perfect(not in a weird or perverted way) and I know your perfect and amazing, hope your doing ok, love you xoxo kisses and hugz💗‼

[@SamyKittyAutiBi]

TW: kind of a vent of a bizarre dream I had regularly when I was 7/8 years old, and also the core of why is it so so SO difficult for me to thrust in anything. 😒 + - × ÷ So, I remember I had this dream about my mom helping me to clean myself and suddenly the cup she used to recollect the water was full of hairy tarantulas; they where all over my exposed body, getting in places they shouldn't be, in my ears, in my crotch and my eyes. The worst came when one of them entered my mouth, followed by a lot of them while my mother kept pouring more tarantulas in my body, I felt myself dying. At that time I still believed in God or at least I was very afraid of going to hell for not believing; I was watching my funeral from a cloud, my mom was crying like what you could saw in a common scene of a generic dramatic movie, and i couldn't help thinking about such a hypocrite she was being. I woke up crying and very angry, and that dream was abnormally usual The thing is that IRL my mom is the best person I know, the one I trust the most, and I can't help to think that I'm such a horrible batshit to ever think she would hurt me so bad on purpose. And yeah, at the time my dad wasn't the best to us(he often screamed and say ableist stuff when we didn't followed his instructions exactly as he thought they should be and in the way he tought was obvious to anyone, and he wouldn't stop until he realized he had gone too far, which the majority of times was when me and/or my mom were having a meltdown or shutdown), so my mom was and still is my only close friend, even with how my dad improved his behavior and regulation of his feeling of not being taken seriously, I'm still afraid he will judge me and my entertainment taste (music, series, you name it) and decide I'm like all the other people outside of this house who have been very cruel to atypical to persons like the *three of us* (like that DHMIS song haha ok no). I mean, I do believe there are good people out there, but my view of the people that surround me is very influenced by the way my dad educated me. I'm the kind of person that can label you silently as a common one, and because of it think you'll become dangerous to me if I ever show how alien I am. TW: this is just some feeling ranting and yada yada, very irrelevant. ^w^U + - × ÷ My sense of humor often sickens me, it's horrible yet I somehow know how to turn it into humor, not for everyone but for me. Things like "hey guys, this [____] is like acne, cause it never goes away totally". I'm even giggling at how many horrible stuff could go in there, but I know it's twisted and almost anyone could understand why that shit is funny to me. I don't think I should die, this hell that is my mind is enough punishment for such a monster I am. In fact, I think death is the most cowardly thing I could do to scape. And it isn't bad all the time tbh, right now the waves of this sorrow ocean are calm and warm. I just don't know how much time this will stay like this until something occurs and how much is left of my sanity so any irrelevant inconvenience won't turn me insane, trapped in an eternal meltdown, drowning forever in that sorrow ocean made of pure hysteria and helplessness.

[@user-no9vr2rx4o]

Since i was a kid, i have always felt time pass very fast or very slow, more fast, it is disturbing, i just want to feel time pass normally, why was reality so cruel with me?

[@tommycoopersmagiccarpetwea817]

Unfortunately, time, or our perception of it, appears to speed up with age. Can we change our perceptions? I Possibly.

[@user-no9vr2rx4o]

@@tommycoopersmagiccarpetwea817 it is sad

[@balterrwald]

I feel like there is no escape, i will never have rest or care and everything is worthless. Im 21 and im working 24/7 to make my family live. Some days ago my wife cut her veins. She is ok now and has stitches. But i am not okay. I need to be the strongest one, but already for a year or such my only wish is not to wake up in the morning. Im tired to be the strongest one, and i am not strong at all. My story was fucked up since my very childhood cuz of the abusive mother, both mentally and physically. My father drunk nearly always. I don't live with them but i can't help myself anymore. I had been to 3 mental hospitals and nothing helps, except i now have no right or power/courage to end my life.

[@luna-moth-zelena]

ive felt so alone thinking that I was the only one who felt like there was no escape. im glad to know i’m not though. This vent is very relatable to me. I absolutely adore your profile by the way. 🐾 I pray things get better for you.

[@MARK1_CR1ED]

I will never be clean again. They took it all away from me. My purity has been stripped, my innocence stolen and ripped to shreds right in front of me. But I am only to blame. People don’t know and neither will they understand. I deserve to suffer because I let what happen to me happen and fester inside of me. I am not a person anymore, I am simply a problem who always resorts to searching for all the rights things in all the horribly wrong places. I have failed my Shepard and now I am nothing. I am becoming nothing. I am what’s inside of the shadows. I have chosen this; therefore I should not be sad because this is truly all of my fault and only my fault. I could’ve done more, but I didn’t. I will never be enough. It’s never going to be enough no matter how hard I try. I will keep lying to myself and to others. And God doesn’t like liars. I don’t understand how God could love me now or even how He did then. I am failing and now I am letting what I fought for so long win. Now I am slowly fading to oblivion where one day I will wake up and the day will come where I will ultimately fade and pass on into nothing.

[@nik_nikkii]

that stupid smirk is one i'll never forget.

[@ikoishere276]

2:39 the text hurts so bady bro, whenever i think about it i just question my self if it was my fault it maybe happend bc of the way i was dressed or acted...

[@KUBBTART]

I can't believe he would do this to us...my own fucking dad... I feel so embarrassed to be related to such a horrible man...

[@user-un3gp3et9r]

I am deeply sorry for what you have to go through. I hope you are safe now and away from him. Have an amazing day 💝

[@Ratt.firstt]

I'm sorry for what you had to go through these years, I hope everything is okay with you at least now, I wish you all the best!

[@kittens7690]

Please I really want to help you. ❤ Read this and let me be your hope. 😊 When you feel hurt think that your feelings are shared with every person in the world, everyone is hurt in their way, everyone can relate to anyone in some way. And think that, Living is always worth, is not the worst or the best thing that can happen to you, it is the ONLY THING that CAN happen to you. Traverse this jungle alone or in company and know that everything is there to make you stronger. You are strong, I know it, keep going.

[@abbywhitt2736]

Why can’t I remember my own life?

[@Aurora99363]

Same

[@Laffedd_]

Typically, when the brain has been through excessive amount of trauma there will be 'spotty' parts of life. It is essentially a defense mechanism your brain is using.

[@Clovetee]

Omg I have something similar to this except I have memories I still know by heart that never happened.

[@d3ad_d3r3k]

Oh damn i thought i was the only one.. i can barely remember anything at all now. I feel you. I hope you’ll be okay❤

[@Laffedd_]

@@d3ad_d3r3k Same here, your brain is just trying to protect you I know it's scary now but it doesn't make what happened any less valid please remember that

[@-AV33-]

It’s unbearable it’s too much

[@geetaeidi1360]

It’s okay, we all not okay in the comment section, but we’ll keep you safe still :)

[@Jai_den1-]

I remember I used to have this stuffed bunny plush that an uncle of mine gave me but I lost it somehwere while traveling, lolz..? I always loved hugging it in bad times. I was sexually assaulted by my step father for at least 5-6 years & still live with 'im. It stopped in my 10th birthday that I told my mom when we were alone, at first she didn't believe me but thankfully my dad did! Currently, my mom has her doubts but I'm fine now 🙂 I hope whoever is going through something similar, different, or worse gets better 🤍. We all have different ways to cope & thats totally fine (unless its somethin' like SH) life can get tough and even get worse in the future, but that doesn't mean that you should quit. Lots of love 💓

[@Jai_den1-]

Tiny update..?? I was using my step dad's computer for homework since mine didn't work 💀 I wanted to check my Gmail but I had to log in into my account of course, but out of curiosity I thought "Why not check his emails?" Haha, that was dumb and terrifying. I saw an email that had my name on it and you won't believe what I saw. Pictures. Fricking pictures of me that I never sent to 'im. I haven't told anyone and think that I shouldn't. I feel disgusted but what can I do personally..? I'm just a teen with Stockholm syndrome, lol

[@zenmitsu]

@@Jai_den1- i give awful advice and am a cyberstalker and a generally angry person so take this with a grain of salt . i wouldn't say anything to ur mother or step father until you can get your hands on a flash drive, save the email(s) (not just the pictures) and tell ur father. hopefully he'll help you get a lawyer and go from there . u are so strong for saying something even if its a youtube comment

[@Jai_den1-]

@@zenmitsu Well, thanks for the advice but I'm sure he deleted the emails since I asked him a question that hinted that I knew he had pics of mine & if you want to know why I think that, I used his comp again, went into his emails, and didn't see anything. Once again, thank you for your advice ♡

[@Jai_den1-]

Oh my God, IM SO SORRY 💀 I didn't notice the "Read more.." thingy. I'm so blind, istg Yeah, I could tell my dad even if my stepdad deleted the pics. The thing is, I'm not a person with big confidence 💀

[@XconVr]

i had something similar but worse

[@June-kq7yf]

"I'm sorry, I should've just said no."

[@demi6337]

taking years off my life thinking about how difficult it will be to *live* in a world where minorities aren't treated equally, and never will be. as a genderfluid, abroflux, mentally ill, disabled, native american. i've lost so much, my land, my home, my mother, and all other comfort i had in my life, i am not even 18 yet. My mother, the one who was supposed to protect me, i can't say i never loved her because i still do, but it hurts so much to hear how her stockholm syndrome for my abusive father took her over and ruined her up until she died. i'm poor in many aspects. i do not feel i wrote this myself

[@demi6337]

never, NEVER would i say my father had liked me, i still believe what he said about me is true. i am not his kid. i will never want to be, behind the lies behind the affection towards me and my siblings, it was all a ruse from a narcissistic manchild who my mother claimed to be her best friend since she were a kid and it came crumbling down when me and my siblings grew wise.

[@LillianGraceFullofficial]

Wow. Imagine not having trauma. what does that feel like? I don’t know if I’ve ever felt that.

[@Iluvhachiko]

I still remember when my parents left me with my grandmother, there I suffered too much, my grandmother didn't love me that much...and that time I remember, I just wanted to go away with my parents, That they had gone to visit my grandmother's house, but...they couldn't go with me...I cried a lot, and I begged them to go with them, but...I couldn't go with them...That time, I cried a lot at night, I exactly dreamed that my parents were with me that night...

[@GonersStuff3]

I just wish that everyone else out there is safe, safe from stupid, sick in the head monsters. stay strong

[@yunwkrrrrrrrr]

im fucking tired of everything. every time I think about him, my heart shrinks, and an oppressive feeling of guilt rises in my chest. publicly i always condemn his actions and say that this man is really a monster, i feel sorry for every one of his victims and i hate him for it, but every damn night for more than three years i sob into my pillow, realizing that he did not deserve such a fate. yes, of course, he could get a profession and give himself psychological help, but he made the wrong choice and it's only his fault, but he did not deserve such a terrible childhood. every time i look at his photo, i want to cry: oh, if i could change something, but, alas, it is impossible to do so i feel kind of crazy when i realize that i love this person: why can i love him at all, he did terrible things? but it seems to me that he became like that because there was no love and care in his life. i consider myself a disgrace to the family because of my feelings for him, and to be honest, i often think about su

[@Mikoo--]

I'm so sorry for you for that what happened And It's normal that you feel bad about people who did horrible stuff to you I do the same It isn't your fault at all that you have these feelings And you are not a disgrace Not at all No one is a disgrace because of feelings And please don't do s*icid3 You don't deserve to die You can always vent to us when you fell down I do care what happens to you and I don't want your life to end like this ♡

[@yunwkrrrrrrrr]

​@@Mikoo--thanks a lot!!! to be honest, imma crying now because i've never received such support before.. i even wanted to live after that. i know that imma some kind of random person from the Internet, but thank you very much, ily💘

[@Mikoo--]

@@yunwkrrrrrrrr No problem I hope you will get so much more support in your life and friends who will help you to be truly happy ♡

[@EmillyandSophie]

i'm so sorry, i whise you be happy one day,. Dont give up please!, something i happy, but i remember what happend whole my life, something i want to give up, but i never gonna give up, bc life is beafulty too, pls dont give up! it's just a pase! everthing gonna end. (sorry for my inglish i dont speak inglish). Pls dont kill you self! i dont wanna see you die, i so sorry about this people (edit) i hope you understand what i say :)

[@sirPentiousMyBeloved]

I hope your doing okay:(

[@Blind_Eye046]

Don't worry, it's not that bad! It's just me. There's so much worse out there! What's wrong? What do you mean I'm not okay? Everybody questions if everybody they love will leave them to rot if they make even the slightest of mistake! _They don't..?_

[@user-yq6xk7tt5s]

I hate my parents- literally...Like you might think i might be mad at them or something but this is no joke- Even if i act happy around them it just feels like a tiring act to maintain a "good" relationship with them. I carry so many grudges against them it's not even funny...I'm just tired of their strict rules...i'm so tired...

[@karmalopez6712]

You're parents are trying to protect you because they love you so so much ❤

[@karmalopez6712]

I can tell you are teenages so I'm just telling you some life advice

[@froxerii6825]

⁠​⁠​⁠@@karmalopez6712I get where you’re coming from, but there’s a significant difference between real love and straight up abuse or neglect, some parents really don’t deserve to have kids. Speaking from my own experiences, being brainwashed to believe I should love my parents despite the horrendous things they’ve said and done have truly messed up my perception of love, trust, and boundaries Sorry if this came off as rude, but I just don’t like that you dismissed the commenter’s experiences like that

[@FORTNITEPROFR]

I lost my father and mother very recently, my mother died inside of a nursing home because they overdosed her and made her hallucinate thinking she could walk and she had hit her head. They left her there for two hours. My father died from his cancer and the stress after the shooting to my house, I'm alone mentally even though there's people around me physically. I'm scared everyday I'm scared. My father or mother couldn't see me graduate from eighth grade even though they promise. I remember during the shooting I held my mom hand and started crying, I told her how sorry I was for being so mean to her and how I never listened but she just squeezed my hand tighter and told me it's going to be okay I'm disgusted with myself I hate everything and everybody around me I wish I never existed I wish I was never adopted I wish my cousin never existed and my family wouldn't be in this situation. I want to rip my skin off from the nail all the way to my scalp and tear my organs out then die in the worse way possible, I want to hurt everybody around me even with no reason. Nothing makes me happy anymore. My partner doesn't make me happy, my family, no games make me happy. All I do is sit in class and wait for it to end ,I'm ignored everyday in class and I don't think anybody would care if I go missing. I remember the last time I saw my father was a few days before he died in the hospital, I was holding his hand and was trying not to cry. He couldn't lift his head anymore and his hands were so weak, he was so skinny and could only blink and look around. After that I saw him at the funeral then I saw my mom, she was in a blue shiny dress in her wheelchair. She was trying not to cry and I was trying not to cry, I held her hand and she told me how she felt and how we're going to live together again after she gets better and I believed her. After a day on a school night my sister woke me up and told me how my mother had passed last night from hitting her head and I couldn't cry. I was sad but I couldn't find myself to cry, I was angry I was so angry and it felt like I was going to throw up. I hate this place please please don't be a part in gangs, please don't no matter what please don't be a part of gangs I would do anything for my cousin to never touch a gun to not follow what his older brother did

[@Noahwalter-bs4ts]

I love you and care deeply for you...please stay here for us you only have more years left and you will finally find peace...

[@scarletoverkilllol8462]

sobbing.

[@zesky_cult]

I dont mean to vent of anything But there's this one song i listen to, one of its lyrics are "we will not forget, and no we will not forgive" thats something my abusers have to relize, saying sorry doesn't magicly undo my trauma in ANY way

[@ArtsyDoll.]

Same here, but I feel like I do forgive them even tho I probably shouldn’t.

[@jamiethecringequeen]

i have the same problem

[@Lilacs_garden]

i almost started crying when fallen down started playing

[@Userdrowsy]

I wonder how it would feel to be always happy. Or like to feel calm. To feel at peace. I wonder if there is true love out there, and if I will ever experience it. I wonder if I will succeed if life like everyone hopes. I wonder if I’ll even make it to adult years. Ngl I’m kinda tired rn. So tired.

[@focy1546]

10:00 the words on the screen, wow that hit hard 💀

[@whatiskilometer]

“I never did that” “It’s probably that phone” “Stop acting like a child” “I barely even touched you”

[@sillyscenemodude]

i relate to thie comment so much.. :(

[@_quitting_.]

god. The picture at 8:41 is too relatable. I’m not going to go really in on why, im sure you could find my other comment if y or wanted to. ❤

[@slashJker]

I understand

[@theflowerofevilsweetlyblooms]

✩ i used to have this bear plush , everytime i cried i always hugged it . It was my comfort , the only existence of my innocence . i was so happy back then , i wish i could have that happiness back .

[@charliegarcia4987]

Me and my sister argue a lot. It's what siblings do. She tells me how she feels about me. It's what siblings do. when she tells me these things, she never expects me to stand up for myself. It's what siblings do. When I do, she insults me more. It's what siblings do. She wants me to hide my feelings. It's what siblings do. She tells me how I should give up on what I'm doing. It's what siblings do. When I decide to do things my way, she barades me for it. It's what siblings do. I have a feeling we weren't meant for each other. Like, I should have had somebody nicer to stay beside me for my whole life. When she finally gives up, I laugh. It's only fair. It's what siblings do.

[@eliyafreeman]

TW // family issues, manipulation, emotional/mental abuse I hate my family. They always tried to outsmart me, they manipulated me, making me grow up with a sick, manipulated mind. mom's partner became my worst nightmare, she doesn't care. Everyone cares for their own ass but also want me to care for their ass while i am not that important. They say they worry, but the worry is them like walls closing on me, preventing me from escaping. The child me was deep in the state of dream of ignorance and purity that she didn't understood that what she is experiencing is bad. People outside never knew what's wrong with me, the "I'm okay" is all just a lie, I was silenced. 10 years straight, it still goes. All they say is that i lie, while the memories are a permanent mark. I became aware at 16, I'm 18 now. i need to take action before it's too late. They already made my soul rot away, but if I'm still breathing i must, i must wake up.

[@leechthewildcat]

i love you so much

[@DapperPersonal-be8qn]

I remember seeing heavy gore on Reddit at 9 because my friend who I don’t speak to anymore (he was 11) had unrestricted internet access and I was at his place playing Minecraft, with mice on Venus playing . I can listen to the song now but it still gets to me, as a mid-late teen now, I have seen some considerably worse things that I won’t go into, but for a few years, I couldn’t play Minecraft with the music on just in case of that song playing and me going into another state of nearly crying as I try to turn the music off in the menu, When I was 13 I got an oculus quest 2 and I started fiddling around on my PC trying to find a way to play games such as Minecraft and roblox in vr , I eventually stumbled onto a bedrock edition mod which allowed me to connect my oculus quest to my PC in order to play it in Vr, i of course downloaded it and opened it and loaded up a normal world and for about 20 minutes it was okay until I heard that song , almost instantly I dropped my headset, controllers and left the room for about an hour before going back in my room. Please is anybody is reading this and is around the age I was when I was playing with my quest, don’t show your friends, family, smaller children any horrible, gory, scary stuff you find on the internet, it will desensitise you and others to it. And please stay off of places such as Reddit, Twitter/X and Don’t ever touch 4Chan. Thank you

[@Shavings_of_eraser]

Wait how is Reddit bad?? Isn’t it just a place where people ask questions and get answers to them? Not trying to be rude, or inconsiderate. I’m just curious 🤍

[@DapperPersonal-be8qn]

@@Shavings_of_eraser Horrible people have groups that go into normal subreddits and purposefully link misleading material which has Nsfw/Nsfl Just to get reactions out of people. Really Messed up But other than that reddit is generally a very nice place where people do ask questions. Just some people slip through and do bad things. But thanks for asking though : ]

[@HeliatroCipher]

I too saw gore along with other extremely heavy topics (glorified) at a young age, only I accidentally stumbled upon it on own It's scary how easy it is to find that kind of material, I'm sorry you were also traumatized

[@-RU3-]

Please don’t read this unless you want to be bombarded with a lot of not so nice words from a depressed 13 year old I am ---, and you don’t know me. I am loud, I am annoying, I ask questions. I am queer, I am transgender, I am neurodivergent. I flinch, I cry, I apologise excessively. I panic, I have anxiety, I am depressed. I self-harm, I hate my body image, I feel like people stare. I like pain, I don’t like being stared at, I scratch myself when I’m angry. Why am I loud? Why am I annoying? Why do I ask so many god damn questions? Why am I queer? Why am I transgender? Why am I neurodivergent? What is wrong with me? Why do I flinch? Why do I cry? Why do I apologise? Why do I panic? Why am I anxious? Why am I depressed? What is wrong with me? Why do I self-harm? Why do I hate my body image? Why do I feel like people stare? Why do I like pain? Why don’t I like being looked at? Why do I scratch myself when I am angry? What is wrong with me? I have a loving partner, I have friends, I have parents. I have a home, I have a room, I have a comfy bed. I have things I want, I get food, I have clothes. I have this iPad, I have this phone, I get to go to school. I have privacy, I am supported, I am loved. I get comfort, I have privileges, my households are fair(my parents are divorced). So why am I upset? So why do I want to cry? So why am I so angry? So why do I want to die? So why am I numb? So why do I self-harm just to feel? So why am I scared? So why am I so clingy? So why do I want to sleep forever and not wake up? So why do I want to leave? So why do I feel guilt? So why do I withhold my feelings? So why can’t I trust people? So why do I tell myself to shut up? So why do I hate myself? So why do I still feel like a helpless child? So why do I etch words into my skin? So why aren’t I dead yet? I am ---, and you don’t know me. The first thing I remember in my life is probably a memory from when I was four. I don’t even remember how old I was, it’s just a guess...But almost all of the memories after that are negative ones. I don’t remember my childhood. I don’t even know if I had one to begin with. My dad wasn’t the best person when I was a child, and neither was my mom. My dad would yell at me for every little thing I did, even if I was only trying to help. Even if I followed his directions to the best of my ability. He would shout so loud, I remember that. I remember that he blew up on me once for trying to help him for work by opening a plastic bag for him, like I’d seen him and my mom do many times before. I had a cold at the time, so he got angry that I got my germs on the bag. And another time when I was small, I had an accident when I was sleeping, since my parents didn’t really try to teach me to not do that. He shouted at me for a while during the night that time, and somehow, the thing he shouted at me for moved only how I carried my favourite(and only good thing I can remember) stuffed bunny around by dragging them around by the ears. The ears were close to coming off anyway, but he ripped them off the rest of the way and threw the bunny into my room. I cried myself to sleep that night. I remember once when my mom was watching me and my sister one day and I was tossing and catching that stuffed bunny. I accidentally tossed them into a sink full of dirty dishes, so my mom threw them out. Thankfully, I still have them now. I remember one day when my little sister was a baby when my mom was picking me up from elementary school. Me, being a curious child, asked my mom where my sister was. There was no one around us at the moment, but she didn’t answer. I don’t remember what happened after that, but I do remember that as soon as she shut the front door to my old house, she grabbed my face with her hand and squeezed. She leaned down to my face, looking angry. My sister was asleep upstairs, but my mom told me to never ask that out in public again. When I went up to my room, I remembered touching the sore spots on my face to find that it stung. I had those spots for a week or two. I grew up to genuinely fear my parents. I grew up with the expectation that I was to be perfect and if I wasn’t then I was worthless. I grew up constantly fearing that I might get scolded or slapped or locked in my room. My mom used to not let me and my sister leave out room(we shared a room) when it was early on the weekend because it was “too early”. But I think she just didn’t want to see/deal with us. I’m still scared of my parents. I feel like a child with a broken soul. Like when you have a deep cut that doesn’t get treated, when it gets infected and never gets stitched close, when you bleed out because no one ever cared enough to try and take care of you. I feel like that one piece of paper that you threw away because it wasn’t good enough. I’m scared to trust people. I’m scared that people will leave me if they know me personally. I’m scared that I’ll get left behind, like usual. I was neglected, mentally abused, emotionally abused, and even physically abused sometimes. My parents are a thousand times better now, but that doesn’t mean that I’m not still scared. That I’m not still hurt by what happened. That it’s all fine now and I’m suddenly fixed because of an apology. I’m still just a small child in a teen’s body who never got to chance to actually be a child just once. I struggled to write all of this. To confront my trauma and talk about how I feel for once. Even if nobody sees this, I at least got the chance to vent.

[@josiahesquivel1487]

May you be able to live a life full of happiness ❤I was never In your situation but I can say forgive yourself if necessary or anyone else and even forgive God ( if you believe) for what you think he has let happen to you trust me on that no matter how it sounds! but Romans 8:28 says those who love God will have a life full of purpose and he uses their life events for good

[@josiahesquivel1487]

Life is a challenge that’s a promise it’s fair because it’s unfair to everyone we must understand we are greater than anything that comes against us or tries to destroy us we can do whatever we imagine proverbs 23:7 says whatever we think in our heart is who we are! So let’s be the best we can and imagine the best possibilities for our life ❤nothing is impossible to him that believes trust me on that

[@josiahesquivel1487]

One last thing ill tell you a secret about me sometimes I imagine I’m not strong in everyone’s eyes but I mock the thought and shape myself into what I want to be

[@Pizzashorts]

Life is so hard isn't it? I can relate to your comment

[@KiwiiiiiiiiSwsscheez69]

i hope you know how strong you are.

[@-Cocoa2018-]

they hurt me in ways they cant imagine

[@Got.ur_Spine]

I thought things would get better. But they didn't.

[@leechthewildcat]

i love you

[@astupidkidok2527]

I don't recall any words but I know what it did..I forced myself to forget but I want to remember now but where is the memory? It's.. Broken

[@AyanoAishi6446]

I have a bunny plush it was given to me when i was born i still have it and i remember when my parents would argue i would sit with the bunny plush and talk to it to distract my self that was when i was younger i still have it and i love it so much

[@AyanoAishi6446]

thanks for the likes I'm trying to make things better but its just not working out but I'm trying

[@doagii]

10:00 when i confronted him about it, he pretended like nothing had happened, like he hadn’t just ruin my whole life☹️

[@declanfleming7400]

You wanna talk about it?

[@munchkin_x]

i think about dying a lot.

[@userleftlol]

I mean, me too but do you want to talk? Genuinely, I'm more than willing to listen if it means it'll help you =(

[@munchkin_x]

aw ty 😭😭

[@ABN0RMAL_T33N]

I'm on the same boat as y'all, also willing to listen if y'all need it folks!

[@karmalopez6712]

Someone times life is hard but we persevere through it no matter how hard it gets

[@spruceeeee_]

me too :awkward-smile-png:

[@mar_thedumbo]

This is so comforting, your playlists are actually perfect.

[@Liamisscooljk]

I can't get it off my head when my cousin did that to me when i was younger, I dont know why he did that to me. It hurted so much i dont feel well by the head because of it

[@Tee.Dee3]

i just really wanted my dad to see me how he sees his daughter like an angel even though she wasnt one i was jealous yet i hated her so much he only wanted to hug _her_ i wasnt ever sure why if i had done something wrong or maybe said the wrong thing but it turns out that wasnt true he was just not fond of me which is okay, i still love him i think but i wish he loved me like he loved my sisters i miss him

[@Aaliyah_YT]

I have a stuffy bear that basically with me my whole life and has been through some Trama with me and I sill have it, it has wiped all my tears and saved me many times, knowing it reminded me of my sister that would say “it’s okay to cry your going to be okay.” And this playlist helps me a lot❤ knowing I’m not on my own makes me feel better. Thank you for making this masterpiece💗💗💗

[@CrystalswEli21]

I'm so glad that you're ok

[@Vynn_Lynn]

My mother told me she loved me to the moon and back I guess when I was 8 it was back...

[@user-xp3pj4dp7o]

The wounds of my past make me what I am today.

[@leechthewildcat]

you're loved

[@hahahah43]

I should’ve been playing with my my little pony dolls, I should’ve been playing dress up, I should’ve played at the park, I should’ve took naps on my floral bedding my grandma gave me, I should’ve been a kid, I should’ve stopped then and lived my life peacefully

[@Jazzie-Zzuko]

I had a panda bear that I imagined as just a small version of an imaginary big brother that would comfort me after my parents would hurt me. I had lost the plushie, but after all these years, I still loved the big brother I had.

[@UkiYu]

Bro, I also had a panda, but it wasn't as similar because one normal day I forgot him outside and then in the morning I heard my mother say that the dogs got him, I remember I was very sad... but I hope you're okay

[@NotJewel15]

This is all of my experience so yeah... An anonymous once said; "Whatever happens in reality, will reflect in wonderland." "She seems... Nice." Few hours before our year ended party (Sy 2022-2023) while waiting outside the small bank branch at a mall, two guys who's eating at a Chinese restaurant just beside the bank are staring at me interestingly. I was scared, but I acted fast by faking a phone call to my friends. After a few minutes of faking call, my mother exited the small bank and I was relieved she came out and then we went home, preparing myself for our year ender party. "I've got an eye on you, baby girl~" Few weeks after our sy ended, it was in the same mall again, this time, my mom and I are going home. If I can still remember, I wore a semi-revealing outfit that attracted the jeepney driver's attention. He stares at me through the rear mirror and not a single second, he winked at me. With my quick thinking, I rolled my eyes, causing the driver to retreat and focused on driving the jeep. I didn't see that driver ever again starting that day. "Young lady, you're so attractive compared to these people around the food court." Few days ago, IN THE SAME FUCKING MALL AGAIN. My Mom and I are having a fun time in our food at the food court. I noticed that the janitor is staring at a beautiful lady that just in time, walked away in the food court. It was joke according to myself, but few minutes after that lady left, his attention then shifted to me. Of course I was uncomfortable so I lowered my head a bit everytime I go to the trash can to throw containers, receipts, etc. luckily, it's time to go home, so yeah. "I'LL FIND YOU, TO MAKE YOU MINE!!!!" A schoolmate of mine I befriended in my school. At first she seems nice, but then she became obsessed with me despite I'm older than her. I'm a 3rd year highschool student while she's in her 1st year. I have to deal with her, physically, mentally and psychologically until the very end of our school year (May 31). I JUST WANTED TO ESCAPE THIS NIGHTMARE AND REST PEACEFULLY IN MY BED. But why they can't leave me alone!? I just wanted to be left behind... I'm okay of being alone...

[@Yourfavari5]

A long time ago I got a grey bear with a brown ribbon on its neck. I loved it so much.I and my cousin were having a sleepover we played with our bears and they became bffs.But I still missed my cousin that day.We took photos together to have great memories we had❤