[F4A] No one Sees You, But I Do [Comfort][Emotional][Depression/Loneliness]

When you feel no one cares… know that I do.

[@koolstool]

Everyone here is a goat for sticking around. Staying alive is so much harder than suicide. Stay strong bros because being strong is badass and cool

[@FNWendigo]

Please don’t. Don’t give me hope. It hurts too much.

[@lavendher]

🫂💙

[@minikyl69]

It always hurts.

[@oliverbox731]

Sometimes it can hurt more the hope of someone actually being there just to be let down it's like being picked up at the start of the climb and being pushed down at the end of it just for the cycle to continue

[@williamray5460]

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[@malichi3119]

Edgy ass

[@Nexxplane]

I just want a hug. That’s all. I keep getting this sinking feeling in my heart and chest every time I think about the things that I’ve never experienced in my life. And it’s a terrible feeling. I want it to leave.

[@Neyymar11]

Same

[@flexyfalcon]

Same here

[@Heirrogance]

Likewise

[@eroasprodimos5644]

I know you're referring to a physical hug but if it makes you feel any better I can give you a virtual hug if it's ok. I too yearn for a hug sometimes.

[@Nexxplane]

I feel like updating those who’ve read this and are curious to know if it gets better. The answer to that question is. Yes! It does. I have worked on myself so much and I have changed so many things in my life that I feel like I’m a new person but not really. I still haven’t gotten that hug I’ve wanted lol but I am doing so much better now! Take care everybody. Don’t lose hope! Love yall 🧡

[@aberrationiv6826]

I sure have turned into an ASMR junkie. Can't even sleep without having a listen to something kind most nights. I'd prefer to hear sweet things like this in real life. I want to comfort and be comforted. I want to experience love. As that is not currently in the cards due to my mental health, you do a great service to us lonesome souls. Hope you're doing well.

[@lavendher]

OH, love… it’s always a two-sided coin for me when I hear this. I am always grateful to hear and happy that I am able to shed warmth and light into your days. On the other hand, it hurts my heart to hear that no one around you shares any love or positivity… Always makes me imagine if I were able to be there for you in person too! But, until then… Here’s a hug from moi Also, do check the Patreon page! I’m going to post something there for you shortly.

[@can_you_hear_the_voices]

Me too

[@williamray5460]

@@lavendher It it too late for me there is no hope not for me at least.

[@lavendher]

@@williamray5460 you're not the exception, my love.

[@asies_lavida]

One would think the inability to cry and to express pain is a superpower. One would think the perceived strength afforded by that is a marvel and a thing to be enjoyed and proud of. I know from firsthand experience that this is untrue.

[@DeviantGryphonFromTinyMoat]

This almost cures the depression for a moment… but the loneliness is even heavier more.

[@lavendher]

Why heavier 😭

[@DeviantGryphonFromTinyMoat]

@@lavendher because I don’t actually have someone like this in my life rn… so, for a moment, it’s cured… but when I go back to real life, it all comes flooding back.

[@Embersofthedark]

@@DeviantGryphonFromTinyMoat it's like gaming you go play games for hours escaping the world but then you snap right back into this lonly reality we live in

[@jaidenrobidas2545]

@@DeviantGryphonFromTinyMoat hey, has it gotten better? I kinda feel like im in a pit and everyone has taken their hands away to help and I wanted to know if it’s possible to get out

[@panzerlord2486]

What hurt me the most, was not that it related to me a little…what hurt the most, was you fighting the urge to cry. Your voice was quivering, the constant sniffling…you were feeling it….you meant this….and it hurt me too to hear you in pain…you don’t have to be the support always as well. Whenever you need support, I’m here to help as well. We are family, we support each other where we need it. I don’t remember where in the Bible it says…but God will wipe all the tears from our eyes. Everything will be ok

[@lavendher]

:)) Thank you Panzer, and you're so right :)) And thank the Lord for that as well

[@caboozledpiejp]

oh man it’s really come to this pretty common these days for me to see people on social media talking about how they “don’t care about ____’s loneliness; maybe once upon a time i wouldn’t have been affected at all, but these days it really just hits home even more when i read stuff like that that there truly is no one who cares about my existence and that takes me here, i suppose. thanks for the video, and thanks for making me feel seen just a little bit even if it is through a screen

[@lavendher]

Offering my hugs n kisses to you. While the emotions and mind may feel pretty caboozled, you're still pretty amazing x) 🤍

[@Eragon1267]

The slow death of the soul, caused by the lonely dissonance of living without life, is the hardest to endure. So, to continue the act of an abhorrent life lived solely for the benefit of others, I smile. I maintain the mask of never minds, of empty platitudes onto my scarred face, until I can no longer tell which is the lie and which is the truth. Perhaps one day, like an actor loses themselves in their character, I too can trick myself into living again.

[@xaelch.official]

..It’s just you know… Getting harder and harder just to live on each day.. It’s just.. you get it right? It hurts and suffocates me..

[@lavendher]

C’mere love… 🫂🤍

[@xaelch.official]

@@lavendher 😭.. Thank you sweetheart ❤️‍🩹

[@lavendher]

@@xaelch.official You can always come to me if you’re having a hard time

[@vj8499]

You know this feels wrong I have friends who care and a nice family but I just feel so lonely is it not just a feeling I create myself not because of my current situation but because I just feel like that, I’m just bored out of my mind I try to explain how I feel yet no one knows exactly what i feel and it just all feels wrong maybe some of you guys know what I’m talking if so at least I feel comfort in the fact that I’m not alone

[@bobbyyum9705]

I swim oceans for people who wont cross bridges for me

[@teapot_is_tea]

Thank you, now i feel like im being watched and loved from everyone here. To this time of day i still suffer from loneliness for 5 and half years and counting. I say it again thank you for watching and loving to everyone here from me.

[@lavendher]

Thank God you stumbled across this lil cove of the Internet, as now you have officially crossed the bridge from lonely to loved

[@crimzon_x4441]

Loneliness is a toxin. It hurts so much especially when your mind is consumed by it. Ever since I was bullied I half a decade ago my confidence has collapsed along with social skills and as a result, I haven’t made any real friends since then. With real friends I mean ones that look out for you and they are around for you even when you’ve sunken so low and I wish I had someone like that. Its gone to the point that I hug my pillows whilst also crying myself to sleep as if it was someone who would catch my tears. Now hope and family are the only things that keep me living on. Thank you so much for this audio ❤ and I know that I am going to be viewed as pathetic to others but thats fine because thats how the world works.

[@lavendher]

Not here hon. Most of us know what it's like in one way or another. Come 'ere for a hug.

[@crimzon_x4441]

@@lavendherthanks so much ❤. Have a good day / night.

[@drfman]

I dont really have anyone, dont think i ever really did. My entire life I have never really fit in. Only ever had a handful of friends at a time and ive watched them all come ago. I fought through the worst of my dark days and now im through to the other side. Im doing well in life by most standards, but im just alone. I socialize and try to make friends, but never really do. In the end the reminder of the fact i dont belong is worse than just being alone. I just go through life as the loneliness only gets harder and im left wondering if i will ever find a place, or even a person where i belong.

[@lavendher]

I hope this can mean as much to you as much as I mean it... you will always belong here. This family will always care for you, dear.

[@779RS6]

I would give everything for a person like this irl

[@zombeeCAL]

please keep making these, it feels nice to be heard

[@lavendher]

For sure, babes.

[@Chimotofu707]

I never knew I needed this I cried but it was tears of thankfulness of the needed comfort thank you so much

[@lavendher]

- hugs - 🤍🤍🤍

[@newkid6165]

Years that ive lived with emotional abandonment and isolation makes you think alot of yourself and what couldve been diffrent but all in all im holding on to is hope, it doesnt matter what form it comes in big or small its still there and im sure you guys can find it

[@Nathan-n6s]

Man, the algorithm is just way too good at this. Just when I was convinced that, yep, my entire existence is an imposition on everybody else, along comes this video. Even if I know it’s not true, it still makes me feel better. Thank you.

[@lavendher]

You are loved, dearest

[@Nathan-n6s]

@@lavendher also, it was clear that you were projecting through some very real pain in this video. I know you get a lot of positive affirmation doing this but I genuinely hope that it’s gotten better over time for you.

[@Thereapingghostie]

whelp depression is still here but I appreciate this SOOO very much life's been a struggle these last few weeks so this was truly needed thank you queen lav

[@M_R_Z_O_D_D]

I've been struggling with depression my whole life and recently I broke up with my girlfriend a few months ago and now I've been starting to realize how lonely i was and how loved and cherished i was just for me to be thrown away like trash and it just hurts to be by myself with my thoughts and taking the time to listen to this reminds me of her because before we started dating she helped me through extremely though times and nowi have no one to talk to when times are tough but listing to this makes me feel a bit better than I was before listening to it

[@lavendher]

Shedding tears for you right now... I pray you not only know you're not alone in these feelings, but know you have every right to feel this way, and that it won't be like this forever... Not even close. 🤍Hoping for the one who will make you feel as special as you are to come around one of these days x)

[@DefectiveDispatchVA]

Had a downer of a day today, grabbed this one to listen to before bed. Thanks, Lav, for putting this out there. You're a good one.

[@lavendher]

🌼🤍🤍🤍

[@sirjah106]

Im losing hope. Im trying but it doesn't seem like I'll ever feel again. I cant feel anything. I catch myself staring into nothing just going deep into a void. Nothing is there and id rather be there than wear a mask. I see my siblings and mother happy so i could never tell them how i feel. Its so lonely to keep it to myself. No one would understand even if i told them. I just want to leave. But it'd hurt too many ppl if i left this place. I need help. I need held. I need a hug. But im not worthy to be loved.

[@lavendher]

By existing in the first place you earned the right to be loved from the beginning. It breaks my heart to see this world is breaking you so… 🫂 💕 we’ll get through this!

[@mrksimka1159]

Ok dear I’m gonna break some hard truth to ya. “I’m not deserved to be loved” is a dumb lie. And this attitude is a learned trait. Someone maliciously made you think that. Stop it everyone deserve to be loved but to receive love from others you need to stop this lie and start loving yourself. Keep happy keep safe.

[@jaidenrobidas2545]

Please tell me you’re getting better. I don’t know exactly what your going through but It would be nice to know that someone similar to me can get better and feel loved

[@DM_Bellamy]

Amazing voice, amazing acting, and amazing personality. What more can you ask for. If you don’t go check all of her videos you need to have your head checked. Stop delaying. Go now!!! Also Happy Birthday 🎁🎉🎈

[@lavendher]

Thank you my dear 😂lyl

[@Ffantom_15]

Right in the spot. Great job with the audio.❤ Heh. It’s actually reminds me of a joke. So, there were these two guys in a lunatic asylum and one night they decide they don't like living in an asylum any more. They decide they're going to escape! So, like, they get up onto the roof and there, just across this narrow gap, they see the rooftops of the town, stretching away in the moonlight, stretching away to freedom. Now, the first guy, he jumps right across with no problem. But his friend, his friend daren't make the leap. Y'see he's afraid of falling. So then, the first guy has an idea He says 'Hey! I have my flashlight with me! I'll shine it across the gap between the buildings. You can walk along the beam and join me!' But the second guy just shakes his head. He says 'What do you think I am? Crazy? You'd turn it off when I was half way across! Ha.Ha.Ha…

[@JakeSm4sh]

TY Lav. for all content. The uploads are bangers

[@chrisleyhe9039]

Although I've never needed such high levels of positive affirmation, it's good to know that such audios are out there for those who do. Cool audio Lavendher! LOVED IT!!!😊💚👍

[@lavendher]

thank you chris!!! :D

[@chrisleyhe9039]

@@lavendher You're welcome!😊

[@StudMacher96]

Just reading the title was enough to make me cry 😢

[@bwazyy]

i think that the type of loneliness where you are not physically alone, there is people around you, you talk to people and interact with them, yet even after that you feel alone, is one of the worst, because there is no justification, you shouldn’t be feeling this way yet you do and you don’t know why… i just want to be vulnerable with someone for once…

[@Chudsaurus]

2023 is probably the hardest year of my life so far, this made it easier though, for the moment. Thank you

[@DougCraftOfficial]

“Don’t do that, don’t give me hope” -some dude in some movie

[@lavendher]

Avengers: End game! (Hawkeye, my favorite 😄) But worry not, love, for this is not the end and there is still a lot of possibilities in store for you! 🤍It's up to you to make them part of your story.

[@DougCraftOfficial]

I'm always the comfortER and never the comfortED

[@reymondroual8605]

WE DYING ALONE WITH THIS ONE🔥🔥🔥🗣🗣🗣🗣

[@universalkratos2157]

At that point where the lumps constantly in my throat. Where I'll shed maybe one or two tears and force myself to stop. Not sure how well I can keep it up.

[@joshsteven1304]

Wow, I’ve hit new lows I could never imagine. Listening to someone pretend to care for me. Thank you for this, though, I needed it.

[@lavendher]

I may not have known you personally at the time of making this, but every bit was heartfelt, and goes out to you. I hope that changes your perception of the situation at least a little - And I'm really glad this is here for you when you need it

[@GoliathSmoke]

Im invisible to everyone around me. I could be talking to someone for a good while and get hit with the “oh sorry what did u say? I didnt know u were talking to me.” Shows that nobody actually gives a damn about me or how I feel so I don’t talk anymore unless spoken to cuz why bother when ur not heard right?

[@gandit]

This ASMR is very helpful for me whenever I'm feeling down thank you 🙏

[@lavendher]

Love you Gandit :,)

[@thegloriouswizard5270]

Thank you. Just....thank you. I needed to hear that, from someone. 😭 I know that we might as well be on different planets, but say the word. I will give you the world.❤

[@rikitikitavatiki]

From those of us who are all but invisible... thank you. Thank you for noticing. 😢

[@E4orce]

Hi Lav. I know that you and I will most likely never meet. But I just wanted to tell you that I stumbled across this video at complete random tonight, while in the midst of one of those stupid suicidal thoughts/PTSD battles I fight more often then not, every day and every night... Long story short my new friend, I've watched this vid several times thru now and it still cuts me up inside every time. But in a good way, tho... You have an incredibly special heart. And it means the world to me that your videos have an extremely rare type of sincerity to them not many ASMRtists have, at least not that I know of personally. I'm not very good at conversations with most people in real life compared to online cuz I'm an Aspie haha, people find out I have autism and for some reason I've never understood, that seems to push everyone away from me before I can even show them the depths of how much I wish I could just be their friend/friends... but there's something about you Lav, that makes me feel like I can trust you. I hope you have a great day/night/whatever time it is there by you, and... yeah. Even now, I still kinda feel like givin' up on whatever my future might be, (Cuz of how sad my present situations make me feel, some of them really hurt my heart to have to deal with but such are the cards I've been dealt I suppose 😂🤷✌️) but I just want you to know that even though I don't know you in real life, I love you a lot my friend. And I'll try my best to keep holding on for your sake, becuz you're one of the first voices I've heard in a pretty long time that really took any time out of their day to even metaphorically, sit next to me and tell me they cared... God bless and I hope you know i love you too my friend. Sincerely and respectfully, Willy G. SoulFire. Also ps: Do you have Snapchat by any chance? My username there is willygsoulfire if you ever wanna chat, I'd love to become your friend. It's cool if you didn't feel ok with that either too, just thought I'd throw it out there. 👋🤗

[@SirRafeington]

Thank u for this, life is too difficult, it is hard to be human, im struggling

[@lavendher]

It's okay to struggle, just as long as you keep going, which you have. I know it just feels more hard than it does valuable but trust me honey, you've done lots to be proud of. (hugs) I don't know what your situation is but I would encourage you to use whatever resources you have available to invest in yourself mentally, emotionally, physically. You will not only feel better but do better too as a result. (ex: even something as simple as listening to wisdom, life lessons, and motivational speakers on youtube or people talking about their testimonies, what they do, trying new things, etc. you will upgrade your mindset, and that way even IF things were to "stay the same", *you* won't. you will go through life easier and with more fulfillment. You got this, love. 🤍I believe in you.

[@Im-an-Icon]

I’m a very lonely 1* year old and this digital voice is a very comforting the only comforting voice that I know

[@lavendher]

I'm glad I'm here for you to listen to dear

[@toybonniesfm]

I think I just found a great channel. Very underrated.

[@christopherfleetwood5252]

This one’s going to be super rough, I can already tell. 😢

[@raulalvaradodrums]

just reading that title had me tearin up lmao

[@paladin6721]

I sure hope this ends at some point, it’s been me and myself for over 6 years now and nothing has gotten further since, despite trying. Here for everyone else in chat to see that it can always be better and it can always be worse

[@RMX-ART]

I no that feeling all to will of the title late to this but glad I found it it amazing lav

[@RMX-ART]

I still can relate to the title even after a a year of of the since its release of this video

[@error_eyx]

I want someone to hold me, to take care of me, but I don’t want to be see as weak or anything like that. And I’m afraid to be myself because I feel like I’m not a good person and I’ll just end up disappointing people. I don’t want to be alone, but I also don’t want to disappoint and hurt people that are close to me. I’m extremely touch starved, but I don’t have anyone to turn to for that; I don’t want people to see me as weak when in reality I kinda am. And being male doesn’t help either.

[@generisch05]

🥲I'm not crying, you are! Thx for this, you make really great content

[@lavendher]

Awwh don’t cry, love 🥲 (let it out tho c:) Don’t hesitate to let me know what other content you’d like

[@generisch05]

@@lavendher Haha, thanks :3. I don't really have any recommendations but just do content that you feel like doing

[@Sukuna1-_-7]

This video gave me conformation. Thank you for confirming. I also made my loneliness regret taking over me. So you guys (and girls) won't have to worry about this disgusting disease. I feel your love. Thank you.

[@lavendher]

This made me smile so much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Much love to you my dear

[@luigifan2438]

I've always had self doubt and have had depression from being lonely mostly from boundaries from someone I really like a lot, but I struggle a lot with my mentality. Sometimes I think I feel unworthy of having someone to be with. I just want to be loved by someone who understands me and doesn't care about who I am or what I do. I just want to be paid attention to by who I genuinely care about. I'm genuinely crying just by typing this.

[@lavendher]

(hug) Why do you feel you would prefer that to someone who loves you *for*/despite who you are (and what you do)?

[@eranodelpum9752]

​@@lavendhermmm maybe because we know we are pretty fuck up persons who woul'nt never will be able to have good relationship

[@lavendher]

@@eranodelpum9752 No one's too far gone for progress in the right direction

[@mrksimka1159]

Strange can’t see my own comment. That I just sent minutes ago. Hopefully it’s not YT being YT again.😅 Edit: I’m gonna repeat myself under this comment since I have prove it’s visible now. Lav thank you for what your doing ASMR channels like you legitimately helped me last week to not turn into depresso espresso , now wipeout this tears and go get ‘em. You can’t cheer other people while being sad yourself.

[@lavendher]

For sure it’s people like you and comments like these that remind me this is a good thing to be doing. The right thing to be doing. Thank you and much, much love to you Ksimka 🫠🤍

[@mrksimka1159]

Maybe I'm doing the meaningless gesture rn since not every english speaking person even considers it a holiday or sometimes even acts hostile to such claim but hey Lav today is march 8, happy woman's day anyway. ;)

[@lavendher]

@@mrksimka1159 thanks ksimka x)

[@metamusic64]

i don't understand why i hold everyone at an arm's length. they've done nothing for me to distrust them, and i know on some level (or at least hope) that they'd be more than willing to listen and care, if i would just open up. yet it doesn't happen. i hide behind the stone carving of my neutral face, choosing the coward's way once again and standing at the outskirts, locking myself away. i don't even trust myself with my emotions. i lie there late at night, trying to cry, to release some small part of the years of negative emotions i know are bottled up inside me, and i'll get one or two minutes at best before i'm staring at the ceiling with dry, dull eyes once again. it's easier to express myself here, where i know my interactions are of no consequence and it's easier to pretend to myself later that i never said anything. audios like these come from a place of pure love and kindness that i find unfortunately unfamiliar, because i can't bring myself to let that love in. when i play another video, i can feel human again, i can feel sad again, and i can feel comforted again. it chips off a little piece of that stone mask, letting a little bit of light shine through to my dusty emotions while i forget my self-ordained place in the world. and then of course, the video ends, and the glow of the youtube recommendations seals the mask back up, but it's nice to break through the facade for 10, 20, maybe 30 minutes. thank you, from the bottom of my heart, for cracking the stone a little bit more tonight. maybe someday it'll shatter for good.

[@chrislinge8595]

this, i feel, might be a vent of some description, but also i bet after having listened i'll feel better after the conversation we had. in any case thank you foe the wonderful audio and i hope you're doing well

[@AveryVaria]

I'm not ok myself, but I recognise people who need support when i see it. Everyone here, whoever reads this, know that you're a wonderful and beautiful person. Every one of you. Yes, you too. I'll give anyone who needs it a free hug, it is right here in my arms. Just say the word. Truth be told, you'd be helping me too, so don't be nervous to ask. You matter and you are worthy of love. Just know that. One day, we'll find our forever families and be happy. I'm sure of it.

[@rxdiogoblin]

I'm so pathetic. I'm so pathetic that i can't sleep most nights thinking about the emptiness that i feel. I'm so pathetic that i listen to a random girl that doesn't even know i exist, online comforting me most nights. I'm so pathetic that i hold my arms around my pillow whenever i feel lonely. I'm just so tired man. I feel so lost and i don't even know how i feel. I just want someone to love me, just one person. I just want someone to listen to me, understand me, talk to me, support me, and be proud of every thing I've done. I just want someone who will truly love me and are willing to spend they're entire life with me. I want to get out of bed every morning and hear someone say "i love you". I want someone to look up for other than my mom. I want someone to tell me that it'll be ok and the pain is only temporary. I just really need a hug.

[@Pictures2181]

I wish I can get better to not feel like this this is my main source for happiness at the moment and I don’t know how to feel like I forgot how to feel I don’t get excited or a euphoria anymore I feel here and there but I hate how this is my main source for happinesses I really need to get better

[@Druid_Dude]

Great vid, and happy birthday!

[@lavendher]

thank you druid~ :)

[@clauderobinsoniv2018]

In the span of 4 years I’ve lost 9 close family members. I’m trying my best to be a pillar for my family to look up to, and most importantly make my mother and father proud. On top of that, throughout those for 4 years I’ve been taken advantage of emotionally, mentally, and most surprisingly, sexually. I feel numb most days like I’m not even truly alive, like I’m just coasting through life. I just wish someone would accept me… but if I’ve learned anything over these past years, it’s that there’s no help coming for me. At my lowest moments the only person I had was myself, and that’s how it’ll continue to be, because I have to be strong because nobody is coming to save me.

[@lavendher]

I hear you loud and clear Claude. I'm so sorry to hear of such loss you've suffered and the other major challenges you're facing... I hope and pray you can be equipped with whatever/whoever's necessary to help you heal, strengthen, and for you to be blessed with more good here on our. To see and hear things that make you smile, even at least once in a while

[@clauderobinsoniv2018]

Thanks. Sorry to vent, I don’t usually do that. I just feel like I can’t really trust anyone with this side of me; like it’s me against the world. I could explain it over and over, but it feels like no one would truly understand.

[@lavendher]

I don't blame you. It's hard to feel like you can actually trust telling someone what's going on in your mind when the world seems to be going so fast with everyone else running right with it, especially when most people are thinking about themselves. I hope you know you always have a place here, and I also hope that lifts even a little bit of weight off your chest

[@clauderobinsoniv2018]

I appreciate it

[@hunterphill42525]

Happy birthday🎉 Keep up the great work 😁we'll continue to be here!

[@lavendher]

thank you for all ur generous love and support 😭💛

[@stupidvideos1449]

Tysm for making this

[@lavendher]

:)

[@fyodorchrome]

thank you for this audio 🙏

[@jhoeofhoe]

Ayeee congrats on 800 lav!! Hope youre doing fine

[@AuseyAudios]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LAV🎉🥳🎂

[@lavendher]

thank you 😭

[@carterthemainman5781]

Thank you. Truly.

[@lavendher]

(BIG HUGS)

[@YoungKingYoshi]

I was sent to say Happy B-Day, but hooo boy I'm trying not tear up. Amazing Audio.

[@eclipsedragon4890]

Happy birthday also amazing audio 🔥

[@lavendher]

thanks eclipse~ ♥

[@anoniemanoniem6426]

I once thought that i could always keep going by thinking i should at least see the next day, now i feel like i might not need that day anymore.

[@lavendher]

What are your new thoughts?

[@mihaelapapuc7728]

everyone says it will get better, but when? I thought that it will go away after i start highschool.. that I'll find a friend group and i did, just for them to push me out of it and isolate me.. i fell deeper.. then i finally found someone that made me smile everyday, that i couldn't wait to go to school just to see her.. we are so alike, we like a lot of the samw things.. she was my platonic soulmate, the only one who managed to get me out of depression without even knowing it.. then last week i found out she wanted to move to another school and she didn't even tell me.. now I'll be alone again.. my parents constantly on my back with my grades.. it's exhausting.. I don't wanna go back into depression.. i really don't..

[@wolfzrowasmr]

Happy Birthday Lavendher!

[@lavendher]

WOLF MY GUYYY lol thank you thank you

[@laurapringleswilder]

jesus christ, are YOU okay? I'm sad and depressed, but I'm concerned about you now. Maybe that was the point.

[@chinchbug6934]

Right now, or rather for like at least a year now. I've felt entirely stuck - like I missed some kind of crucial lessons about life at some point with no way to backtrack. I feel that what should be a support network to me is instead a threat, but I can't leave because I don't have a job and barely know how to get one. I feel like I have to figure out so much on my own to catch up, but I don't even know what any of it is or how to start. It just makes me feel hopeless and worthless

[@f4fasmrenjoyer]

1:10 “You know how, sometimes, we are brought to think about things or realize things that.. it’s not like we didn’t know it existed before, it’s not like we were completely clueless about it it’s just that, you know, you’re occupied by so many other things…” damn bro, my parents’ divorce hitting hard 5 years afterwards

[@lavendher]

🫂💙

[@Monster_Lover]

This is very good audio. Thank you.

[@lavendher]

[@Nicegroundhog60]

I feel so lonely knowing that I have to turn to these in order to experience something I'll never get irl, at least I have my pillow. That counts........... right? God, it hurts...

[@lavendher]

Maybe one day... Until then I shall hold you as virtually best I can, I'll definitely hold you in my heart. Stay strong @nicegroundhog60

[@simonbloodflower7091]

I was almost clean for a year, things have gotten bad and sometimes I just wish that people would notice that I am here too. I really fucked it up this time and now I can't even get out of bed anymore. It has been almost six years and I kinda forgot how to smile. Lmao that is actually really funny how do you forget to smile. How sad it that huh. Man what am I doing, typing on a youtube comment

[@simonbloodflower7091]

I really didn't think you would have seen this. Thank you.

[@ArceusZer035]

💚 Aye, if you ever need us for a chat or for some hugs. We're right here for you Lavendher, and thank you. (Sidenote: It's my birthday today, March 5th that is)

[@lavendher]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY zerOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

[@ArceusZer035]

@@lavendher Thank you 💚

[@mrksimka1159]

Happy birthday. Huh one day shy from my Aunt birthday tommorow. Weird fact to drop on Internet to a stranger but still. :)

[@ArceusZer035]

@@mrksimka1159 Thank you, and may your aunt have a wonderful birthday tomorrow.

[@SLQ-xs2kn]

happy birthday to the OG!

[@georgedaman25]

Thank you lavendher

[@LORD_XANTHUS64]

Even if you stomp out my hatred. Even if I wind up hollow and a empty... The past never dies.. I was never once held by my parents, never knew a caring touch. Even my closest friends and those I gave my heart to left me, their feelings repelled. I watched them all leave me, one by one... This world doesn’t give an eye whether you smile or cry. The fact that nobody came for me must be my punishment. if only someone had lent me a hand... At that time... Maybe things would've been different. I feel disgusting. I wanna throw up. There was no one there... No one there to help me... Even though.. everyone pretended not to see me.. I wanted to be held by other people so badly. I craved it so much... Maybe... just maybe... if I'd known that feeling sooner, then despite how badly I wanted it... If I'd experienced that sort of love... I maybe would have had an easier time living in this world.

[@Cossack_Cobra]

I have been recently listening to a lot of cuddling asmr the past few months, and i just feel like outside of family, nobody cares. I just with I had a cute girlfriend just to talk to and hug a lot. I just want to feel loved. 💔

[@lavendher]

🥺I feel for you dear (hugsss) I hope that's exactly what you get and more. To feeling loved. 🍻

[@Cossack_Cobra]

@lavendher Thank you! (Hugsss back) Thank you. 😓🥹

[@lavendher]

@@Cossack_Cobra (hugs harderrr)

[@Cossack_Cobra]

@@lavendher (politely kisses on cheek, and thanks again for hugs!)

[@Brry__]

So i just cried

[@lavendher]

u and me both, love 😪 … 😂

[@AliSarac-kn9ig]

Me too

[@StarlitAudios]

Hello Lavendher! Happy birthday, you wonderful human being you 💖

[@lavendher]

Thank you Starlit you~!!!!

[@Deezknights69]

Initially, I was going to speedrun your audios, but a break is possibly needed after this one. I am doing a tad bit better now mentally speaking, but 9 months ago me was a mess. Listening too closely to the devil's whispers in my ears caused me to isolate myself; Unfortunately setting myself off on a path on self destruction. And to be perfectly honest, even I can't believe I'm still here. I wrote a song about it a few months later which was therapeutic in a sense, but anyhow, I didn't come here to make this about myself. Most audios I listen to usually involve the speaker acting out a character that they or the scriptwriter made in a setting and there's a certain plot to be followed. But this, was just you being you and I appreciate you for making these. You doing God's work for us lonesome folks out there and I pray that He may multiply blessings upon you. I dont know how far you go back to check some of the comments on your old vids, so the possibility of you even finding this to read is slim. Nevertheless I'm leaving this here in case you do someday...somehow. I'm saving this audio for when life gets inevitably worse again. I see you seeing me, and I appreciate it Lav🤗 🤔Hmmm, that did not roll off the tongue the way I imagined...or should I say off the keyboard?🤷‍♀oh welp.

[@lavendher]

Rolled off the keyboard and right to my heart. 🤍(hugsssS)

[@Deezknights69]

@@lavendher 😯🤭☺My day is officially made

[@TFG287]

I don't know why I watch this. I get sad every time.

[@yodazo9658]

I pushed everybody, I'm not good at telling people how I feel.

[@lavendher]

It's a good thing there's plenty of people to practice with

[@theneighbourhood4947]

love you

[@lavendher]

☺Love you dearly

[@eranodelpum9752]

I never gonna get out of this, i am just a failed man

[@lavendher]

So long as you have the desire to change, there is always a way. "Where there's a will, there's a way." Don't give up hope, there is still opportunity for you

[@ghostboi749]

I learned to numb all my feelings because nothing in this world matters anymore to me because I'm just a servant

[@lavendher]

What do you mean?

[@ghostboi749]

@@lavendher everyone expects me to fit their mold of me so I learned to become a soldier that everyone can control when needed

[@lavendher]

You of course are entitled to make your own decisions, after all it is your experience.. though I really pray you will remember that expectations others hold of you are just that. Their own thoughts that occur regardless of your personal experience. So that in mind I hope you will think about yourself at least a little more. You are not obligated by any means to becomes a subject of your environment's control. 99.9% likely that will not only not make you happy, but hurt you.

[@pedrinbalafina4122]

Being a man is a nightmare. Idk how to explain and that is one of the issues. I'm not talking about social stuff, I mean brainly speaking, a man's brain, way of thinking, objections and feelings, are just pain. Pure pain, not now or maybe not even in the next decade, but one day you'll realise you just died years ago, and when you realise, truly, then you'll find out that you are alone, you'll feel lost and I'm not here to comfort you, I'm here to share and try to explain that feeling. As you can see I failed bc those words could apply just the same to a woman's brain as well. At least I tried and no I didn't ment only lonlyness or pain, like I said, I dont know how to explain it.

[@thegoldavenger.3829]

“Maybe you live with your grandparents or…” how the hell did you-!

[@lavendher]

🤍🤍

[@Cayden-q4u]

I know im late but still. I dont know whats wrong with me. I dont know have the normal lay in bed all day sadness and I feel unmotivated and the things i normally enjoy feels like a chore. I feel alone and when i try to talk to my friends (i dont talk to my family because theyre alreadystressed working constantly) i never get answered. Listening to this helps for a bit but afterwards just feel lonely again. Thanks for releasing this audio and im sorry for venting i just felt like i needed to

[@lavendher]

You're always welcome to share your thoughts and ESPECIALLY what's troubling you. You don't have to go through it alone. We hear you, awesome.

[@Cayden-q4u]

Thank you so much needed to hear that I'm not alone because I don't think I've heard that aside from audios so it means a lot reading it. Thank you

[@lavendher]

@@Cayden-q4u Of course. I love you, awesome. I'm so glad you're trying to figure things out even when you're not feeling your greatest. :,)

[@Cayden-q4u]

@@lavendherhey lav I just wanted to say that things have been going great recently. I figured out that I’m bisexual and since then I’ve felt better about everything thank you for being there while I was at close to my lowest

[@WiertarkaUdarowaBoschGSB600]

It hurts

[@Tufah]

I am a college student witg aspirations on becoming a youtube creator. Rn i feel like im risking my social relationship and some of my good friends in college have been ignoring me bc of my obsession with my passion. And it really hurts bc for so long growing up i was the quietest and loneliest person to ever exist, i find it hard for me to be approach people and i had to experience a lot of emotional trauma in my life. I did reached out to a couple of my online friends and i really appreciate that they care and they told me that they're in the same boat as me, but sometimes i find it hard for me to believe it and i want to believe them so badly. I know this is a journey that i have to go through alone and i know its gonna be hell and going through pain is something im actually scared of but one thing's for sure, i dont ever wanna lose hope... and i need someone to tell me what i should do and will it be worth it

[@crimzon_x4441]

Things like this are a test to see if theyre a real friend or not. If they truly are your friends they would support you all the way. I have no friends, I’m in college just like you and loneliness really hurts. Personally,

[@retro716]

😞😞💔🩸 I feel like my heart is breaking so bad right now. It hurts so much inside. I can feel my heart bleeding so much inside.😞⛈️⛈️💔🩸

[@lavendher]

Can we hug? 🥺

[@retro716]

@@lavendher sure. * hugs you*

[@lavendher]

@@retro716 *hugs*

[@retro716]

@@lavendher thank you Lavendher

[@retro716]

@@lavendher your a real sweetheart

[@k9andthedr383]

Thank you

[@foronetoo]

No matter how much i try to be friends with everyone i js cant do the same with the opposite gender. i cry everyday about it because i js wish there was a woman to care for me

[@novabreaker2861]

i listen to this and hate myself that my depression has gotten this bad where i have to seek basic human affection

[@lavendher]

Please give yourself some grace, love. For your depression is currently part of your experience, but it isn't *you*. Allow yourself some grace. You are still seeking out the things that bring you comfort, strength, and help you endure and get on with your days, and that's an objective sign of strength. I'm proud of you Nova baby. 🫂🤍

[@guardianwolf6667]

Thank you for this. But I have given up on myself. It was nice to hear some sort of hope from someone else, even a stranger. But I won't be able to change my life if I don't do anything, and I have given up. Still, thank you for showing me some kindness, and I hope your life is better then mine.

[@lavendher]

I hope even if all else seems intimidating, you will at least get to have one or some people around who make your time better than usual, and become meaningful to you.

[@barryscott4385]

LAIR *In anakins voice*