Feeling Invisible | Why I left Youtube

Feeling Invisible | Why I left KZbin
Due to My Chronic Illness uploading can be difficult but I am trying to upload at least once a week. If you wish to donate to my channel you can do so below.
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Sending love to my Spoonie family and all the people I found on TikTok who helped me feel less alone, living with an invisible illness is a daily battle, I have EDS JHS CFS IBS and POTS to name just a few. Whatever you are dealing with know that you are not alone. I see you, you are not invisible.

[@TheMakeupChair]

Hello my friends, been a long time. I am pretty nervous about sharing this video, the phrase "I might delete this later...' comes to mind. I'm not sure of the reaction but I appreciate all the support. I have avoided coming online because it was a reminder of my inability to create videos. I've put on a brave face but it has been a struggle, even as I write this I am exhausted and feeling so unwell. I want to take the time to reply to everyone I can but it might take me some time before I get to everyone. I'm so thankful to you for taking the time to send a message, I have felt so guilty for not being able to respond. I hope you bare with me as I try to catch up. Thank you for the kind words, it means so much to me. - Sinead ❤️

[@bexblah]

Sending you all the love ❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@TheMakeupChair]

@@bexblah thank you lovely ❤️ I feel ready to finally catch up on everything, excited to watch your vlogs, hope you are still living your best life 🙌😘

[@paogallardo924]

Thanks for your honesty! It takes a real strong and brave person to acknowledge you need help and your body may fail you though you do your best. Don't push yourself for others. Just let yourself feel and do whatever gives you peace of mind. Love from Ecuador, you are an amazing human being Sinead

[@sourbuttasty4424]

It´s brave to be honest and you are taking a step towards respecting yourself and your boundaries by telling the people around you that you indeed have boundaries. A lot of people watch your channel and you are a good advocate speaking for all of us with invisible illnesses. I have gotten better and in time living with the same illness and I think you will too. It takes a long time to be brave enough to respect limitations and handle life in a way that´s completely differently to what it once was. My biggest lesson was that by doing less, in time I could do more. Don´t push limits because of things you think you need to do for others, always listen to your own needs first. Sending you all my love!

[@kalliopi4301]

hope you get better! it is indeed very hard and indeed you can feel invisible through all that. and it's ok that you find it hard, because it is and it is okay to feel disappointed. and you made it, i feel less alone. you also taught me how to do my makeup 8-9 years ago. :)

[@WolfJade]

Chronic illnesses are so misunderstood by those who don’t suffer from them. The daily pain, lack of energy, and just never feeling “okay”, etc. I hate it; wouldn’t wish it on anyone. Even now with this neverending pandemic, it’s like one more added weight. As if all the usual symptoms aren’t enough now we have to worry about this too. You and what you need is more important than any of us. Do what you need to do and we will support you in whatever that is. 💕

[@alyseb5730]

It honestly sounds like physical depression even if the emotional component isn't there... breaks my heart for y'all...

[@DramaticMac]

Ah Sinead this video was so raw and real. I am so sorry to hear about your chronic illness I can not imagine how difficult it must be for you. You are so brave for coming online and telling your story. You will help so many people by making this video. Xx

[@lorinewcomb4717]

I love you. I follow your videos too. This shows your empathy and kindness towards others which I applaud.

[@trendymaths2467]

I’m so grateful for your tutorials but I will fully support you in what ever decision you make. Keeping up the content is really hard and I acknowledge that, I’m sure other people do too.

[@TheMakeupChair]

Thank you lovely, I appreciate it so much ❤️

[@Ms10yearsafter]

Nicely put 😊! We will understand Fully 🥰 Hey from Helsinki Finland 👋Charlotte

[@BethanyGrey1]

As someone with a chronic illness, is very distressing when you feel like no one understands, especially when your illness is not 'visible' for everyone else and they tag you as dramatic or overreacting. It is very tough, not knowing if you'll feel better on the next day, even the next hour. I wish all the best for you, your channel is an actual favorite of mine, and believe me I understand. It's very hard taking time for yourself and feeling like you should do more, but in reality, without our health or without feeling well at the very least every tasks seems so draining and impossible. I hope with all my heart for healthier and happy days ahead for you and everyone else with chronic / invisible illnesses. 💛

[@ElleIsForLiving]

I had 4 autoimmunes that impacted my life horrifically and I came close to losing my work. I remember the fear and frustration that I felt. I am so grateful that my Functional Dr helped me to have healed. For me to have healed and have my health back and be able to function completely is such an amazing gift that I try to be grateful for every day. I feel for you sweet girl. Do not give up. I have missed you Sinead but, do what is right for you. Sending healing prayers to you. ♥ Elle

[@FisBeautyTales]

I couldn’t agree more with you Sinead. It is so tough specially when fighting an invisible illness .. I don’t have chronic illness but I could relate with your difficulties so much.. I’ve been diagnosed with Rheumatoid Arthritis since 9years n I’m still fighting.. I hv had my ups n downs.. but it’s so difficult to even complete an normal everyday routine.. some days are good , some are bad.. but however we fight with it.. it doesn’t come to my face but every action is so difficult.. I too feel depressed on some days when I can’t shoot or do any work n then seeing my frnds being updated daily on social media.. n achieving their goals as easily anyone should.. But on a serious note, thank you so much Sinead.. it feels so good and warming to see this particular post seeing that someone out there is there who feels the pain.. And whatever it may be .. I pray you have a speedy recovery and will always be waiting for your next video whatever it may be. Take care n Love you always #MyFaveKZbinr ❤️

[@DaintyDiaries]

Aww, Sinead, you are a beautiful soul! I am so proud of you for sharing your story and the relief it will give you many x

[@franromany8096]

It's been a year I found your channel. Love your soft spoken words while tutoring. I didn't know you are going through challenges as I have found out based on the comments here. I really did miss you for a while and was wondering if all was well. As a follower I support whatever decision you make. Don't delete your channel and much love ❤

[@TheMakeupChair]

Thank you Fran, I appreciate it so much ❤️ You are so lovely, means so much to me to have your support!

[@alineparadis8444]

Just sending you lots of love. It sucks to have an invisible (chronic) illness. Thanks for this video.. We've missed you but will be here when you're ready to be back!

[@rubies200]

I understand. I have an autoimmune disease, since birth. It took me 40 years to figure it out, and no doctor has diagnosed me. It is hard every day to figure what to eat, what to avoid eating, how much energy do I have to expend today, etc. So, please don't tax yourself. Everyone who cares about you, will be there when you're feeling low. Thank you!

[@Dennyspuncakes]

You were one of the first channels I have ever subscribed to. Even if I wasn't that much into makeup, I found a lot of comfort just watching these videos. Whatever you do, we'll be here to support you all the way! ❤

[@anadelwrites2144]

You’ve articulated what it’s like living with an invisible illness and the mental and emotional toll it takes on. I too have an invisible illness and I felt every word and every tear in your eye. It’s lovely to see you and will happily watch your videos as when or if you feel like posting them.

[@andyquilla]

Thanks to your tutorials I learnd to do my make up ❤ I hope we can have you back❤

[@TheMakeupChair]

I hope so too my friend, that's so lovely to hear I really appreciate it! ❤️

[@gayleromano3986]

Sinead. So happy to see you filming and sharing your story. It helps to talk about and share your struggles. I wish you all the best. Prayers and hugs

[@EvidentLEE]

I’ve missed you tremendously. I too have a chronic illness and your videos made me feel not so alone. I know just me saying that is a heavy responsibility to lay at your feet, that was not my intention. I just want you to know you are not alone. There are so many of us feeling exactly like you feel and who deal with all the same questions we ask ourselves. I’m so so thrilled you are back. I’ve perhaps less than a handful of times, left a comment, but I wanted you to know there are so so many of us s we ho adore you and who feel like you’re family and who are right here with you, struggling but surviving. Thank you for coming back. 💕💕💕💕💕

[@OakwildeDesigns]

Reaching through this comment to hug you.. you reminded me of something I told my husband early 2016 after multiple hospitalizations and misdiagnosis after misdiagnosis “ honey I think I might die soon” .. I had lost all hope. Everyone’s response to me losing all functions was.. you look fine get a grip. My husband moved me to the mountains to find peace and being here I found an amazing rheumatologist. He asked me to try a drug that has been successful in the UK called LDN .. it’s primarily for MS but please just look into it. My entire life was given back to me. Missed you .. I’ve been a long time follower .. one day at a time girl.. one hour at a time if need be. Xo

[@FayeBush381]

💜Soft Hugs💚 I completely understand what you are going through. I have Fibromyalgia, borderline personality disorder, anxiety disorders, ptsd, agoraphobia, Lyme disease, chronic fatigue, chronic migraines and more. Seems every time I think I am getting better something new happens. I live in pain mentally and physically. And doctors can't do anything to help me. I fight cause giving up it's not in my heart. I am here if you for you. Your not alone. And yes finding someone who understands is awesome. Talking to people who understand is freeing. God bless you

[@BelindaHII]

I closed my eyes while listening to you and it was as if I was listening to my youngest son. He too has an invisible, chronic, and at this moment in time, incurable illness. I hear you. And yes it sucks! It's hard for you and for the person who is close to you. Never keep quiet. Take each day at a time and live it the best you can. Such an inspiring video. Xxx

[@chemt4684]

I am sorry for your illness. Thank you for your honesty. You are so brave. I will pray for you. I hope you get better soon. All my love to you.

[@maluspezzano7928]

Hi!! I enjoyed following your tutorials as well, they were so well-thought-out, and your style was so relaxing - mental health is at the number one place, but I hope you will be back! Love from Italy. ❤️

[@TheMakeupChair]

Thank you lovely, you are too kind, ❤️❤️❤️ I appreciate it so much ❤️ Love from Ireland!

[@Michelle_Lynn_B]

From another person with multiple chronic invisible illnesses, thank you so much. Thank you for using your platform, for being brave and vulnerable, yet vocal. I appreciate your heart Sinead.

[@kylieky7]

Thank you so much for sharing. I started to cry when you said sometimes you just want to run away. I’ve been dealing with invisible illnesses for years now and it’s so difficult and can feel so lonely. It makes daily things hard and is hard to enjoy anything. Everything you said is exactly how I feel and it’s so nice to hear others feel the same💜

[@sasscam]

Thank you for speaking about this. I have very similar symptoms to you and have been trying to get a diagnosis for 3 years. People don't realise how debilitating it is.

[@yasimartinez8435]

I’m so glad you’re ok, that’s what matters most, you’re one of the best KZbin channels, work at your own pase. I always look forward to your videos 😊. You’re not invisible, you’re an amazing person, don’t forget that. 💖💖

[@TheMakeupChair]

You are too lovely, thank you for the kind words, you are such a lovely kind person thank you for the support and taking the time to comment ❤️❤️

[@missverito90]

You teach me everything I know about makeup, your passion for teaching was always evident. Your videos will always be my favorites. I have struggled with anxiety for 2 years, I understand every word you say. I hope you feel all the support of these messages and that you find in the community that you formed a happy and safe place to return to when you need it. I send you all the love and my total gratitude for everything. 💕

[@mariannearemann6350]

I’m really glad to see you are back because I have missed your tutorials. So sorry to hear about your cronical disease ❤️ I hope there will be better periods and even if you have to take some breakes from youtube when it is too difficult We’ll be waiting for you to come back. Your health come first ❤️

[@KM-ce4qs]

Thank you for sharing your scary thoughts to help those with a chronic illness. I too have many, many, many medical challenges from being deaf to fibromyalgia to gout. It is 2 pages single space or more for me when it comes to my medical problems. Thank you for being willing to be raw with us. I feel less alone because of you. Just do what you can and not anything further. Also thank you for having closed caption (CC)/Subtitles for the hearing impaired so that I can feel included along with others who need that service. Even though I am deaf I don't know ASL. Don't worry about responding back unless you feel up to it. You have my support 😍🥰😘🤩

[@tanyaevers-jordan8624]

I will miss your videos and tutorials, Sinead, but your health and happiness matter more. We’re here to support you in whatever way you need.

[@bexblah]

Sinead!! I have missed your videos ❤️ so glad you’ve posted this. Chronic Illnesses are not fun to deal with but I’m so glad to see an update from you ❤️🥰

[@millie.49]

I was wondering about you the other day. Thank you for posting this video. It's good to watch you again. I would love to watch your new videos ❤️

[@CassandraLoizou]

You have taught me so much about makeup. But also you have taught me to be myself. And to love myself even though sometimes I struggle to. A video of yours back in 2012 or 2013 showed up on my feed and I think it was a summer/ warm eyeshadow tutorial and I remember clicking on it and I instantly fell in love with makeup but also your way of educating us on how to apply makeup, and your love of makeup. You’ve helped me a lot, and you’ve taught me a lot and i wouldnt be here today without you. We love you no matter what girlie. Thank you for everything

[@nicekaiken]

Thank you for being so open about your illness and struggles. It must be hard to be confronted with people's opinions, comments and unsolicited advice concerning your problems and absence from social media. I really appreciate your effort to make videos again - I do love them and look forward to your next one. Wish you many happy and pain-free days!

[@nancyjustme]

I just found you today, because I found myself missing tutorials. I have a invisible chronic illness and I spend a lot of time on KZbin. I play in my makeup and try looks I see. It’s something I enjoy and can do that doesn’t cause fatigue or pain. I have POTS also. So I truly understand the challenges, my Service Dog has really helped me in the past 2 years. I know how hard it is to be vulnerable and terrified at the same time. Enjoy the good moments and rest through the bad💜💜💜

[@marielle658]

Thank you for making this video! I have hEDS myself, and watching people talking about this is really helping me not feeling alone. I feel you, I am rooting for you. Living with this illness can really suck the life out of you, also emotionally. Know that you are not alone, even though it can feel like that. I also think you should be proud that you are taking care of yourself, even though it sometimes means you cannot work or do other things you enjoy doing. Thank you for being so honest and raw - because life is honest and raw. Thank you!

[@annieanna2900]

Welcome back and thanks for your words🙏 I was diagnosed with fibromyalgia and arthritis (in my whole body) in 2018 and I have chronic pain and fatigue 24/7. I’m a Psychologist and even when I say to my patients is ok to not be okay, sometimes I cry because I feel like nobody understands my pain. Blessings!

[@teecleere1448]

Chronic illness sufferer here 😔 it started becoming noticeable in 2019.. it's endometriosis and it affects every aspect of my life! So painful physically, mentally and emotionally.. I won't get into it all but I sometimes forget that it's not just me that wants to isolate or that gets fed up with living with a chronic illness. I miss being independent so much. The amount of pressure this has put on my fiance and even my friendships is tough, when I dress up, make the effort ppl are like, oh your doing better are your fixed now🙈🙈🙄 Nobody gets it unless they live it.. I can't work since 2019 and can't drive a whole lot either or do my grocery shopping that much. I would love a local chronic support group, it would help for when it gets real tough... Social media is good for this sometimes but it's not the same as face to face interactions.. I feel your pain in all those areas you mention here but I also see your strength! Thank you for pushing through and making this video, I needed to feel seen today and you've done that for me.. thank you so so much. 💖

[@abrewiacja]

I wish you all the best ❤️

[@soniamoll5177]

This channel was one of the first few makeup channels that I learned to do my makeup from, and from all the tutorials I have watched over and over again, all the time and practice I have put in I love to do makeup now. I thank you so much! I hope you take all the time you need to be healthy and well again! Hugs and best wishes from a 7 year subscriber! ❤️🥰

[@jenniferkemp6454]

Oh my gosh, you managed to verbalise how I feel with my ME/CFS! I feel that as invisible illness sufferers we learn to mask our illness which is awful in a way as people don't see us suffer, but I think it's a dignity thing. I haven't worked in so long because my fatigue is crippling, and not just the fatigue. The inability to think clearly, to speak in sentences and even chew food. I feel like when I got sick I lost my identity. I lost friends because it's so hard to keep in touch, and that feeling of wanting to feel like a normal person is overwhelming. Crying is such a release, and talking about something that affects every aspect of your life is important. It matters. Illness sucks, and invisible illness is hard for 'healthy' people to understand. They only see us when we are having a GOOD DAY. I'm so glad you shared your feelings. And the toxic positivity I see everywhere in the disability community makes me so depressed. It's ok to express your true feelings about how your illness affects you, we just have to keep going. Sending you so much love xxxxx

[@hannahrobertson1397]

Thank you for coming on and being raw and real. It is helpful to hear others dealing with this💗 best of luck in whatever way you decide to go forward with your online presence, and sending you strength.

[@dr5981]

Thank you for posting this! I always loved your tutorials simply for what they were. Honestly, I was never really "into makeup" in my teens and early adulthood. It was shortly after my diagnosis for an "invisible illness" that I started to want to self-care more and doing makeup became that little boost in confidence (when I physically could manage it) for myself but I was admittedly not very good at it. Your channel was one of the first makeup tutorials I started watching. So, from one person suffering with an illness who is also a novice at makeup, I am now even more grateful for finding your channel.

[@maureenheintzelman7644]

Sinead, listening to you speak about your illness and how it affects you and how you feel is like listening to conversations that my husband and I have. He is a Gulf War vet and has diagnosed with Gulf War Syndrome, a group of totally invisible syndromes with the worst being Fibromyalgia. He has had it for over 20 yrs. You are by no means alone. He has said to me all the things you said in your video and so much more. It's frustrating, painful, exhausting, disappointing and on and on. He can't work a 9-5 job because he never knows when a flare will turn absolutely debilitating. It is hard to not be able to do what you love, let alone just live functionally. My heart is with you as I know the pain and frustration you are going through, especially when people express their disbelief about your illness, that is a regular thing for my husband. Always remember, no matter what the day brings, do what you can, enjoy what you can and let those that love you, help you. Always remember, you are not alone... 💜

[@FitznBitz]

Just coming across this video a year after you’ve posted. I’ve just myself been diagnosed with a chronic illness and your words resonate more than you know. 💕Thank you for sharing. It’s so refreshing to know that other people my own age are going through similar struggles x

[@kellibella0804]

From a fellow spoonie/POTSie .... I feel you, I hear you, and I *SEE* you!! I am so sorry about your recent rough patch. We just moved into a new house a couple weeks ago and my body is still recovering. It's good to see your face again. I'm sending you tons of spoons & hugs 🥄🥄🤗. We will get through the hard times, hun. Promise 🖤 (I hope you know about the Spoon Theory regarding chronic illness, or this is a strange comment for sure 😂)

[@Buhkneee]

you’re not alone and so loved. It’s so hard living with a chronic illness. Thank you for sharing your story🤍

[@missymoomee]

You are the most beautiful soul Sinead. Thank you for sharing this. I have suffered with an invisible illness over 20 years now and it can be sooo deflating and draining especially if people can not physically see it and it is difficult to push through some days. My heart goes out to you ❤️

[@sweetseasons2510]

i 100% understand you sinead, i live with it too xx it’s awful feeling and so frustrating at times. we just have to listen to our bodies more than others and rest during a flare up. it’s difficult - but it’s a good feeling to know i’m not the only one and i can finally relate to someone else xx your content and teaching is amazing, so when you feel ready to make content that’s brilliant but when you having a flare up don’t worry, i will still be uplifting and supporting you xx

[@DaniWendee]

I have vascular EDS and lost my sister to an aortic rupture just over a week ago at age 32. Unfortunately, I very much understand what having an invisible illness is like… lean on those around you for love & support. Hugs. 💜

[@TheMakeupChair]

I am so sorry to hear that, I can only imagine how difficult this is for you and your family, and I am sure it is flaring you your own illness, I hope you have support, sending you love and you will be in my thoughts ❤️❤️

[@theresas2520]

I am so sorry Danielle for your loss.

[@iicybluesky]

I don’t know what to say other than I’m sending so much love. Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing. I don’t know if things ever get “better” but I’m sending positive vibes and hope you have more good days than bad days in the future.

[@emiley5584]

I haven’t watched many of your vids but the ones I have watched helped. I’m glad you took the courage to upload this :)

[@FisBeautyTales]

Hello #MyFaveKZbinr I’m seeing you since almost 8years now.. N I’m here to support you in every decision you make. Whatever it may be.. Live your life to the fullest and thanks for always being my mentor. I love you with all my heart and I’ll support you always ❤️

[@TheMakeupChair]

Oh gosh you are too kind! Thank you so much, I appreciate it so much ❤️

[@rachealalice1449]

Thank You for sharing it brought me to tears. As someone who has several invisible illnesses and have been on disability since 30... Your words could be my own. Do what you can take care of yourself. *Hugs* I am here if you ever need to talk to someone who "gets it"

[@tinaspencer3509]

Thank you for sharing this video 💗 I have been feeling really low recently with my own invisible illness. I had to give up work a couple of years ago due to it, but have recently tried going back to just a part time job but it's taking more out of than I thought it would. I will keep pushing on though because I love the job. Sending you a big hug, I totally hear you and understand exactly how you are feeling. Hope you reach a better spell soon 😘

[@talirax4474]

I'm so happy you posted this video! Thank you for sharing it with the world. Love!

[@cm3984]

Thank you for such an encouraging video and not taking things for granted! Thank you for sharing! 🙏😇

[@AzzaYCF]

Thank you for being so honest. I’m sorry you’re affected by all these ailments. I hope this video helped you by allowing yourself to be honest and raw as you said. If or when you’re ready to film again, I look forward to seeing you, but your physical and mental health come first so if you need to take a break then I fully respect that. I wish you the best either way. 🧡

[@special-princess]

Gosh... This was emotional to watch. I can relate to so much you said! I have several chronic invisible illnesses and have been getting more disabled by them as the years go by. The things you said about the war inside, the wanting to run away, the intensity of a supermarket visit, finding balance in everything, hiding from your loved ones and taking a break from it all... It's all so familiar to me, so exhausting, both emotionally and physically, the ongoing fight. But also demotivating. You try so hard and it still isn't enough at times. I'm glad to have heard something from you. I'm proud of your honesty and openness. But I'm also sad for you, for everything you're going through and the fact that you have to fight so hard. I wish you were taking a break for fun reasons and not something like this. I know you’ll make it through this, I can see the strength in you just from watching this video. But it’s just like you said, it’s ok to show you’re done with it all sometimes as well. I want to wish you good luck with everything. I really hope your body will be kind to you and you’ll have more good days than bad. I’m sure I’m speaking for a lot of people here when I say that we’re all here for you. We support you and are happy to hear from you but understand it if you’re not capable to upload something as well. We’ll be here, whether it’s weeks or months in between uploads. Take care and lots of love from the Netherlands!

[@christina_lee_4345]

I am so proud of you for posting this video and not taking it down. I know the struggles of an invisible disease and even started my own channel this week to get more out there for people to understand. You are strong and beautiful never feel ashamed and keep standing up and being strong.

[@jenniferrobinson9177]

Thank you Sinead for making this. I’m bawling my eyes out that you are having to go through this. I have Fibromyalgia, Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, and migraines and while I don’t exactly know what you go through I understand exactly what you mean. Chronic illness sucks! I love all of your videos where you share how you are doing. I appreciate you being raw and telling it like it is. Please know you are in my prayers!

[@melaniemurphyofficial]

Aw Sinead I want to give you such a big hug!

[@mimil3297]

Good to see you, I was wondering if you were ok. Thank you for letting us know your still here. Praying you heal and continue to feel better.

[@63Lsp]

Love seeing you! Yes checking in with those of us with invisible illness-thank you! 💜💜

[@mommascasa]

Sinead, it was so lovely to see you here. Yes, we've missed you so much, but your health comes first. You're so brave to talk about this because so many people suffer in silence. Thank you for sharing. Many blessings to you!

[@emmalcm]

I'm so sorry to hear what you've been going through. My mum has fibromyalgia that was brought on by a car accident, caused by the other person not looking before pulling out. It must have been so difficult for her to accept that she's gone from being very independent to struggling to carry a shopping bag or walk for 10 minutes without being in a lot of pain. It does absolutely suck but she tries to get on with it and stay positive, difficult but she says being negative isn't going to help her. I really admire people who try their best to carry on with a chronic illness, takes a lot of mental strength x

[@itzelmedrano4563]

Thank you so much for you video! I can’t imagine how hard it was for you to make and share with all of us. I’m glad the community is showing all this support because you truly deserve it! Glad to see you back =)

[@yuliyapike669]

I have wondered where you've been but also with Covid the online platforms can be so overwhelming and discouraging I assumed you needed a break from the negative side effects of social media. So good to see you again. Love all your videos.

[@chanelbabe-gina6674]

I’ve enjoyed your tutorials and your brilliance for a few years. Please take care of of yourself and know that many of us see you, hear you and root for you. ❤️

[@helenhirsch5717]

I just found your channel today and I wish you the best. You are so brave to both face this without giving up and to share your deepest privacy with us out here. I look forward to viewing your older material and your new videos whenever I find them. Sail on, brave girl.

[@sanaderbas718]

I love you! I missed u on line, but so proud of u taking the time to heal. Thanks for ur truth and ur rawness. It helped me. Don’t delete this video. This means a lot and could help others at any time. Be kind to yourself. That’s all u can do.

[@carolclopper9020]

You are so right. It really sucks. I understand the struggle with an invisible illness and the disappointment that comes with it. We just keeping doing the best we can. Thank you for being so honest with your story. ❤️

[@silviabrowne2308]

Doll, I want you to know we all stand by you. I appreciate you. You were one of the first that I subscribed to. Luv ya girl.

[@wondernessful]

Happy to see you again and it breaks my heart to see you hurting. I myself have a chronic illness - systemic lupus - and understand what it can feel like to not be able to do (simple) things I used to. Sending you lots of love, hugs and healing ❤️

[@almeradupissani9812]

I have Lupus SLE and had have been bedridden for the last 5 years. Please keep this video on. This helps people like me so much to know we are not alone! I get exhausted walking to the bathroom and am dependant on my 70 year old parents after being independent for 20 years. I also can't go in to the sun and live in Africa🤦‍♀️. I will pray for you and thank you so much for sharing😗

[@vanessahedegard9200]

You are in my prayers!! I can't even imagine what your going through but thank you so much for sharing! 💗💗💗

[@deidraspangler534]

Wow!! just wow! I am beyond blown away by this beautiful message! I have been following your makeup turtorials for a very long time now and I can honestly say I have learned more techniques from you then anyone else! Today you have shined a light on another side of you that has me lost for words! Please do not delete this video!!! You have no idea how many lives you have touched and will continue to touch the more this gos viral! So many people feel alone in this world with these kind of illnesses and unfortuanantly this can go hand in hand with depression. YOU my dear, could very well have saved a life!! Thank you for your bravery and making the decision to open up such a personal matter with the world! Dont for one second feel the need to apologize for the way you are feeling bcuz it is valid and it matters! it is OK to not be ok!! You are such a beautiful soul! Prayers sent your way!!! Take care pretty lady!!!

[@yummylife8984]

I support you a lot! I also have a chronicle illness and two days before it was crisis… I could not walk 😭 in such moments you realise that going by yourself in supermarket is a happiness. Wish you all the best and everyone take care of yourself!:)

[@fei7245]

I’m so sorry to hear that you’ve been struggling. It does suck, and you absolutely have every right to feel that way even when people have it worse. For what it’s worth I’m so proud of you, I’ve been following you since 2015 and you’ve taught me almost everything I know about makeup. You’re such a light Sinead, even when you’re battling your illness and I hope you know that. I’m sending you so much love❤️

[@nickicuckow4425]

Hi! I've just found you and I'm relearning how to apply makeup. You're so good at teaching, never found someone as good as you!! You've moved me so much watching you today. I know it's a while ago but I hope you're doing okay this morning?. I too have a chronic illness and know exactly what you mean and how you feel. You're so important to lots of people, never forget that!!. You reinvent yourself and it's definitely possible!. Take care and hope things have eased a little. Lots of love, sending you a big hug xxx

[@paucarranco4291]

Thanks for sharing this with us, Sinead. We really apreciate you, please take as long as you need the times that you need to heal, we'll be waiting for you with lots of love. A hug from an old Mexico's suscriber ❤️

[@halloweenjujube]

Thank you for being so open. You are such a sweet and kind-hearted person, it comes through so clearly. I have an autoimmune disease that I struggle with. It’s really hard when you are the only one who can decide what feels right, what’s too much, what you’re capable of doing at any given time. It’s hard not to feel like I have to justify those decisions to those around me - my family is supportive and caring, and I still feel that way! Wishing you all good things. 💕

[@pnizzlefoshizzle9529]

I've been so worried about you! Can't wait to see you again!

[@TheMakeupChair]

Gosh you are so lovely, I'm so sorry you have been worried about me, that's so kind of you to think of me, I'm glad to be back ❤️

[@HeyGirlHey3]

Keeping you in prayer Sineady. As a long time subscriber I have learned so much from your YT videos. Your health is so important. Much love Beautiful!!

[@divanext-doorcece5366]

I too have an invisible illness and I feel for your struggles. I love your channel and have missed you. I will appreciate whatever and whenever you post. If you can’t post I support you as well

[@courtneyhall941]

I love your channel, have watched you for years. You are incredibly talented. You are real and honest. You are such a kind human. It's so important to take the time you need for yourself. The people that love and support you will always be here. ❤❤❤

[@marygracemcgrath]

It's so good to see you! Please keep doing what you feel is best for you💗 Don't worry about us- we will be here to support you💗💗

[@URMakeupPro]

Sinead I too live with an invisible illness and had to give up work over a year ago. I completely feel for you and understand what you are going thru. You're amazing xxx

[@beckyshaw1487]

Thank you for being so real about your struggles! I too struggle with the daily fight to just be “normal” and have been so inspired by you and your work. I found your channel at a time when I was trying to figure out if I even could feel like a lady again and wondering if it was even worth trying anymore. When you feel invisible it is so easy to behave as if you truly are.. thank you for the role you played in helping me find my way out of that! Please continue to make decisions that are in YOUR best interest, your fans will never want you to sacrifice your well being. *hugs*

[@cassandraberger9146]

Beautiful video! As my mother said to me, “No one gets out of this world unscathed”. My point, you’re not alone in any type of feelings you have, strife or disease you live with & everyone can empathize with grief. The feelings of loss are incredibly powerful. Loss of time & loss of dreams, you have very important things to share. You have helped this 52y/o gain insight into another disease. And how beauty isn’t just a young face with a gift for teaching gorgeous makeup, but being vulnerable to aid another is about as BEAUTIFUL as anybody can be & at any age. Btw thank you for doing tutorials, you have given me renewed confidence! 😘

[@ambermelrose6771]

Hey thank you for being so open and honest, it makes your struggles so relateable with my own. Yeah we just have to keep trying, even though its exhausting

[@MandaLynnBeauty]

You’re so strong. Sending healing prayers your way. Love and light.

[@cristyleigh]

Thank you for sharing with us. I have loved your videos since your old channel. It’s important to take time to focus on yourself.

[@unrulyjulie4382]

Bless your heart sweetie! I have Lupus, fibro and chronic migraines. It is so hard because I can never be sure how good or bad I'll feel day to day or even during the same day. You are showing a lot of courage letting the world know how you feel. Thank you for bringing our plight to light! Merry Christmas to you!

[@cherries44]

I am sorry for what happened. I have been a supporter of your channel for a long time from the Philippines. Thank you for being so honest on this video. Will pray for your healing and well being.

[@babymariah31]

Thank you so much for sharing! I have an invisible illness too (Scleroderma) and everything you said resonated with me. Thank you again for sharing! ❤️

[@naziasahil3313]

Hey I am from an island in india...and I learnt doing makeup from ur channel...I am one of ur subscribers...urs is the most sober, natural and proper makeup .... instead of the usual instagrammers 'over makeup' ......we pray for ur recovery...n Insha Allah u will surely recover!! But please do not delete ur channel as it is very educational!

[@TheMakeupChair]

Thank you, so glad you enjoy them, don't worry they aren't going anywhere, still gonna keep uploading and keep my older videos too, thank you for the support, I appreciate it so much ❤️

[@yuridia8532]

Thanks you for sharing this, I can't even imagine how hard this is for you. I respect whatever you choose to do. Sending you big hugs.

[@Radiatingbeauty]

Hello Sinead, you are such a beautiful soul and I am so sorry to hear your struggles and I am sending big hugs and lots of positive energy your way from Canada.

[@liezlviljoen9649]

So much love for you Sinead ❤ Thinking of you and praying for you. You are allowed to feel all of these feelings because it does suck!

[@dleola]

Thank you for sharing this. The more you share, the more you break through it. You are helping those who have it. Or giving strength to those who have a illness that is oppressing.