feeling lonely over the holidays

[@kyrasaturn]

just got done crying in therapy for an hour. feeling so low and burnt out. christmas day is when i went no contact with my father so it’s an anniversary of loss for me. four years this year, cheers 😅 ❤ you’re definitely not alone. you wouldn’t believe how often people ask or mention their family and how i feel so strange when those conversations come up. thank you for sharing, it’s been exciting to see your youtube growing

[@tylersatterley3219]

My family situation is exactly the same Kendal. I also got left to spend Christmas by myself at university when I was 19. I’m 34 now and will be spending another Christmas alone. I’d like to say it gets easier but I can’t say it does.

[@schleepyzo]

i love that you’re so open about your family dynamic. im mexican and one of our biggest values is keeping family close, but due to circumstances we havent spoken to my father in over 10 years. although warranted, i lost contact to a lot of my cousins too bc we were kids at the time and the dynamics just never allowed us to keep connected. i found solace in growing up around childhood friends’ families, and even then i felt isolated and couldn’t relate. but its a process and its one you cant really understand until you become an adult and can see other perspectives.

[@alyssacushway6961]

This video was perfect for how I was feeling today. Thank you Kendall :)

[@thali89]

Same boat. I cut my mom off multiple times, my dad has passed. The holidays are very tough, but nothing compares to the peace and stability I have now. Friends are now the chosen family.

[@Bab3Bat3]

This ❤

[@micaaelabalan]

Hey Kendall, I’m so relieved you talked so openly about not loving some of your own feelings since I’m feeling that way right now. Your videos always resonate with me, you sound a lot like some friends of mine so in a way I kind of consider this a facetime with a friend while venting about our shitty families. Hope you have peace these holidays and your energy stays protected, much love girlieeee

[@MissEllzo]

I don’t think the holidays are quite as intense here in Australia, but there is definitely still the expectation to be with family. I’ve definitely said yes to more invitations than I’ve needed to, but am slowly trying to get comfortable prioritising what I have the space and energy for ❤️ I’m a recent subscriber and love your videos. Thanks for the honesty x

[@flynnmccabe1937]

You are not alone in this at all. I definitely relate to this and it's really tough to not feel lonely and bitter during the holidays. Thank you for making a video for people like us

[@sara3sparkles]

You are not alone babe. Holidays are really hard for me too.

[@purplew93]

Thanks for talking about this - I relate and I'm sure so many others do too, but it can be such an isolating experience IRL.

[@MalinaHope]

Thanks for being open and touching on a subject that so many people are dealing with, unfortunately it always feels so lonely when going against the grain, which makes perspectives like this that much more meaningful & helpful!

[@marianaabg21]

I don't know you and this is the first video I come across from you, but I send you a big hug! You're not alone ❤

[@jamesblonde8362]

Kendall! I love how genuine you are and you make me feel not alone in my loneliness struggle 🫶 I wish you lived in Southern California

[@balqishnorman7208]

i love how your videos made me feel seen and safe❤

[@Viafupa]

I love how you embrace your uniqueness ❤❤❤

[@a.laddinsane]

appreciate your vulnerability on here - you’re a beautiful soul! sending hugs during this holiday season 🩵

[@edithpadilla8838]

Seeing how many people I can relate to makes me feel both sad and relieved 😅 I feel for all my girlies struggling through this time and wish you all happy holidays❤. My aunt (who was basically my second mom) passed away when I was around 11 and she was most definitely the glue to all the family I had as a kid. When she passed it broke everyone and they all moved away or stopped visiting/contacting. Ever since it's been just my immediate family but honestly has never been the same. Every year I mourn the loss of her life as well as the family I used to have; I am happy to say I have rekindled a couple of relationships with my cousins but it's just so different since we're all now adults with our own lives. My heart truly goes out to everyone struggling these times of year.

[@jayc2224]

So proud of your vulnerability and you inspire me constantly to be more aware of protecting my peace and really diving into my feelings and triggers

[@mariaaaa82000]

I love your honesty 😢

[@murielsophie04]

I totally relate to your situation. Thank you for sharing❤

[@folded-pages]

Thank you for shining a spotlight on the weird icky feelings around family & socialising that often surface this time of year 🙏 PS your lipstick @ 11:10 is fab, where is it from?

[@KendallHoyt]

thank you for watching! i’m wearing nabla nude #6 lip liner and a clear stila gloss

[@Pearlypearly4965]

I don’t celebrate since im Muslim but i just wanna say it’s completely okay and normal to spend a holiday alone. I love spending my birthday by myself and not because of anything, but i just love it that way and i have the most fun just alone vibing so definitely make the holidays your own and get yourself gifts and decorate your space:)))

[@michellegilliland6366]

Thank you for making this video. I feel this so deeply. 💕

[@devhope141]

I live in a different country than my family, and I only have a few friends here. Last year was the same and it was pretty lonely ha ha. This year I’m trying just to live in the moment and spend the time with the two friends that I actually have lol Hope you guys have a happy holiday 🎄🎄

[@ebbsjournal]

thank you for making me feel less alone🫶

[@nietcherry4360]

What is the song at 7:30? It's so pretty but shazam can't find itttt

[@KendallHoyt]

it’s by leithross! i found it on tiktok but having trouble finding it again, so sorry!

[@nietcherry4360]

@@KendallHoyt Thx so much, I'll try to look it up :))

[@moriahseale2965]

I think its: I'd have to think about it by leith ross ​@@nietcherry4360

[@whiterose1973]

Oof

[@memorynymph]

This 👆 people just don't get it. The amount of times that friends try to convince me to reconnect with my mom just because she's my mom it's insane. Most people just don't understand how it feels to have to choose solitude in order to protect yourself from the abuse. I hope you have a very happy Christmas ❤️ thanks for making this video Kendall 🫶