Feelings of “Desperation & Sadness” as an Alcoholic

[@stevencurry215]

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[@honestmicky]

Saint Steven, Patron Saint of recovering alcoholics ❤

[@stevencurry215]

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[@martincleere4968]

Stay strong people, have a great Christmas, Peace and happiness to all, ❤

[@frasersmith9267]

Ditto

[@paulh2126]

I tried for 2 years to get off alcohol but couldn't find the help that I needed. The Doctor's and Counceller's didn't understand the extend of my addiction (largely because I was being secretive). Ultimately, I ended up in hospital for about 2 months. From this point I was put into contact with addiction specialists and that's when I started to see the light at the end of the tunnel.

[@NicholasBerry-ku9rd]

Best wishes Paul, you can do it. Bloody hard but achievable. I know what you mean about being secretive. It seems to go hand in hand with the boozing and the shame. I never really opened up fully to my counsellor though he was the calmest and least judgemental bloke you could hope to meet. I went in pissed once for a morning session all tearful and apologetic and he just said "Well Nick, I'd sooner you come in after having a drink than not come in at all". Sometimes we'd talk about films, books and music rather than alcoholism. That was just as valuable to me after most of my friends and family disowned me. I think the opening up might get easier as time goes on and hopefully you can get a counsellor like mine who said that his door would always be open to me even after our 12 sessions ended.

[@stanleycostello9610]

I never went to a bar or a pub. I drank alone. The only time I went out was to get more alcohol. There were several liquor stores near where I lived and I went to different stores so I they wouldn't suspect.

[@nikonfx8763]

the new job I started in November was a lift in mood for me I stayed off the weekend binges until a couple of weeks ago now I've missed days off and spent what I've saved and the severe anxiety and depression are back..lost my interest in hobbies and fitness also feel overwhelmed and mentally exhausted ..all it took was 1 weekend of a few beers to bring back the disease.

[@MattyMoores]

You've stopped before and you can do it again. Get back focusing on this still new job and your other interests. I made the same mistake many times myself but no more. Life is better without it, being anxious and depressed or feeling healthy and smashing your goals is no choice at all. You've got this.

[@garyfaulkner1480]

A very good afternoon to all folk on her x.have yourselves a great weekend and keep sober. To anyone struggling plz keep fighting, we are here for you❤

[@stevencurry215]

Thank you! You too! ❤️

[@halcyondays625]

Your story sounds like my life story. How low we have to sink to realise, how alone, how desperate, no job, no friends, no family, no self esteem, no health or happiness. What does it take to come to our senses?, on deaths door i decided , now or never, alcohol free now for 2 years ,and every day i want a drink but i know it will kill me. Now i still got no job, no friends, no family, but my self esteem is back and i look to the future, now i have one!.Every day is a good day!

[@NicholasBerry-ku9rd]

I know what you mean. I used to have a job, a good reputation, a wife and a child, a nice house with a garden, nice neighbours. Now I live in a tower block where you can hear the couple next door knocking lumps out of each other, the lift always stinks of weed, people fighting on the landing, someone above blasting out drill rap all night and there's usually sketchy characters hanging around in the lobby eyeballing you until you feel scared to go out. Litter and dogshit everywhere. Thinking about what alcoholism cost me makes me want to drink more. What a loop to get caught in! I'm still determined to stay sober, not lose hope and stick to the idea that things can get a lot better. All the best to you.

[@Johnbgoode-s7c]

You'll Never Walk Alone mate. Keep the faith. 👍

[@sarahlaver-holland9931]

Thanks Steven another great podcast

[@theordinary1175]

Hi everyone. Stopped the booze after 20 years hammering it. Proper alcoholic by the end. Doc told me 1 year back my liver was not doing well. I was ill in many ways. Well, stopped booze completely in April this year after my eyes were black and yellow and my skin was grey. Got my bloods taken 3 days ago, and I was scared about the results, but they called me today and everything is normal. Diabetes gone, liver is good and my blood pressure is in the green. You can do it people. Have a lovely Christmas everyone and stay strong. Life gets so much better when you stop drinking x

[@theordinary1175]

Thank you mam, and thanks Louise. You've saved my life xx

[@stevencurry215]

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[@stevencurry215]

What a beautiful message ❤️

[@theordinary1175]

​@stevencurry215 Thanks, Steven. We've both done champion. Well done. Watch you everyday.

[@Leslie55555]

@@theordinary1175 so very happy for you to have your health and peace of mind back….it’s quite magical in a way💜😊

[@NicholasBerry-ku9rd]

I helps to watch at least one of your videos every day Steve. Especially when it comes to that self deceit thing common with boozers. "I'll just go out and get a couple of cans and stop there. It'll be fine". I watch a few of your videos instead to remind me it won't be fine and after a while that urge passes. Thinking about how our lives break down when alcoholism takes hold. We're more likely to have to leave the family home and move into social housing alone. Then we're more likely to be around fellow addicts who feel they have nothing to live for, more likely to become depressed and hopeless in a grim place. Even if other drinkers don't actively encourage us to drink, it feels comfortable to get wasted around them whereas with moderate drinkers and teetotallers, there's a chance we might drink less because we feel ashamed. It doesn't help that there are often 24hr off-licences next to council estates because they know they're going to do a roaring trade. Great for business, terrible for public health! Thanks again.

[@Nigel-nx2od]

Now is a good time to stop drinking alcohol. Christmas will soon be upon us when alcohol seems to take over the country. At this time of the year, many people say “I’ll quit on 1st January”. Better to stop before Christmas if at all possible.

[@ukraine7249]

Brilliant. These messages are really important at this time of year. I watch every video you do. Can you cover some stories/experiences from your time in the police force? You have such a great way of telling them and it’s very interesting and comforting Thanks mate

[@stevencurry215]

Of course..many intelligent takes 👍

[@ChristopherHughes-u5j]

Hi Steve, It's the worst disease in the world. You become obsessed. Nothing else matters apart from the next drink or 10. You have done brilliantly Steve, keep going 👏 👍

[@stevencurry215]

@@ChristopherHughes-u5j Thank you Chris …hope you are well 💪👍

[@ChristopherHughes-u5j]

@stevencurry215 ❤️

[@Johnbgoode-s7c]

Think the opening 10 seconds absolutely nailed it. Keep the good work going. 👍

[@stevencurry215]

Thank you so much 👍

[@nikkirutland9814]

Hey Steve....alas i'm experiencing feelings of loneliness and desperation....my partner is declining, he admitted today that he took a half bottle of vodka to the hospital when they gave him intravenous anti sickness and had a few slugs from the bottle whilst on the ward!!...i did put this bit on another of your posts, but in case you miss it, i've spent 15 of the last 24 hours in a&e, i've been experiencing horrendous back pain and called an ambulance last night...they gave me an mri and found i have bulging discs on my spine, the pain will have to be managed at home with oramorph....my partner and i messaged whilst i was in hospital and i said i needed him to be by my side for support, he messaged me back saying 'he'd been sick all day ( which he may have been) however he was seen out and about, he said he was sorry i wasn't well and that he loved me and that was it, he never showed when i needed him most....we have spoken since but i feel so let down by him ...😢....i think it's good that i share my take on alcoholism from a partners perspective, that way those with alcohol addictions may see what it does to their loved ones....🙏

[@stevencurry215]

Hi Nikki ..How awful the situation is for you….I wish I could do more to help ..your partner is in self destruction mode and seems like no amount of help is going to turn him around. You have to think of yourself in this and start with self care .. here is my E mail for direct contact if you want to speak to me [e-mail] Don’t hesitate to get in touch..you are in a very lonely place at the moment & we can help you out of it ❤️

[@nikkirutland9814]

@stevencurry215 Thank you Steve...I may email at somepoint if things get real tough and I need to keep messages private, but I like this channel and want to support its growth and your good health...I have amazing friends, though the relationship is a lonely one and sometimes like last night I feel very alone...🥺

[@garyfaulkner1480]

Good afternoon stevo, your looking good pal, have a great weekend and keep spreading your message...god bless❤

[@stevencurry215]

Thank you, I will…I’m going to Tenerife in the morning I will do plenty of videos over there …keep well everyone 👍

[@garyfaulkner1480]

Have a good trip steve, always nice to get away and re charge the batteries

[@Leslie55555]

@@garyfaulkner1480 hope you have a nice weekend Gary💜😊

[@garyfaulkner1480]

​@@Leslie55555you too leslie, hope its filled with fun and laughter xxx❤

[@garyfaulkner1480]

​@@Leslie55555you too leslie ❤

[@mikewilliams235]

Well done mate.

[@stevencurry215]

Thank you 🙏

[@karmapurple2548]

The medical profession where right not to give you diazepam with your history of addictive behaviour and personality.diazepam is an opioid and dependency can often lead to users seeking out herion to get their fix,you could have ended up a junky.

[@stevencurry215]

Thank you for your input 👍

[@jakezywek6852]

diazepam is not an opioid.

[@karmapurple2548]

@@jakezywek6852 my mistake, it’s a benzo but still has potential for addiction

[@happyapple4269]

why didnt your daughter get you some help?

[@stanleycostello9610]

In my case, I didn't want any help until I realized I needed help.

[@Promise29]

You have to WANT the help no one can do it for you but YOURSELF. And willpower as well ❤

[@lesleyjoli2700]

You are always spot on Steve. As you say, you cannot get better without following doctors' advice to the letter. I am lucky enough to have benefited from a liver transplant paid for by the French national health system . I am also lucky enough to have a loving and supportive entourage even if many live in England. It took 2 teams of surgeons 17 hours to carry out the implant and I lost litres of blood. Then more complications, 2 more times to the operating block. Tubes and drains everywhere, in nappies, unable to walk and with an infected bed sore the size of a mango on my ankle which needed draining using a kind of mini vacuum attached to a machine. Home, wheelchair, zimmer frame now graduated to walking stick and was described by my GP , as a walking miracle. I recount these gory things because I hope it will encourage some people to get help and stop drinking. It is not only helping ourselves but good friends and family who have been fretting because of our drinking. I am looking forward to Christmas with my family. Some live in France and some flying from England. I shall be able to enjoy little treats such as Christmas pudding of which my French husband is not a fan. 😊 If I can give any advice it is: try to stop, don't get to my stage. It's a journey to Hell which can be avoided. I hope 2025 will be a good year ! Lesley

[@stevencurry215]

She did but Drs admitted tapering off so I went to Manchester with her to try twice .. but my withdrawal was too bad 👍

[@stevencurry215]

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[@quantum5652]

It’s a good point - it does catch up with you, often sooner rather than later. And if you can catch it earlier it’s obviously better. I also think the retirement thing is a big problem for a lot of folk. Suddenly find yourself with a ton of time, very easy to lose your way without the routine provided by many jobs & social interactions made possible by many jobs. Personally had a nasty shock when Covid hit, suddenly my business was at a standstill and the routine I’d had for many years was no longer. I think it was a mixture of anxiety, fear, anger and helplessness that pushed me into drinking again at that time. Obviously a very bad way of dealing with a situation, ultimately you’re just making a bad situation worse when you drink 🥲