Fi’s Fight Back - PASTA!

A new hot meal… pasta!!!
I’ve had a few messages about it so wanted to stress (and I’ll talk about it more in an upcoming video!) that yes, my dinner portions are smaller because I’m still on half portions right now whilst I expose myself to the hot meals. I have other nutritional items to make up for this difference that I don’t post about, whilst I keep on practising getting used to having hot meals again.
In a few weeks and after I’ve become more used to hot meals, this will switch to full portions and the extra bits will be taken off.
This is the way recovery is working for me at the moment and where the priorities lie, and where we are looking at making progress.
One day at a time, and we will get there. Also… I HAD PASTA!!!!!!!
#anorexiarecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #edrecovery #recoveryispossible #dayinthelife #inpatient #recovery

[@sammik5130]

Please never stop talking about this. Your journey is so valid and is so important. As are you. So freaking proud Fi. Found you on TikTok, then insta, then here. And I am just … so proud. You are doing bloody amazing xxxxxx

[@Kladlze]

It’s hard. Mental illness and addiction are often both treated as a choice or power or will. It is seen as just don’t drink, just don’t do drugs, just go exercise and be happy, just don’t be paranoid, just stop worrying or just eat or just stop eating. Until the public understands the the issues are far more complex it remains a battle. Thank you for adding your voice to those sharing their stories. It helps.

[@nikitaeverling]

I’ve never been more more proud of someone I don’t even know! You are such an inspiration for others. Keep going❤️

[@elizabethcardelli]

Me to!

[@andreag9913]

Please keep sharing your story. It helps people, it's a piece of eating disorders that doesn't get talked about enough. I am a mental health therapist and I have learned so much from you about recovery from eating disorders even though I have been "trained" in treating eating disorder.

[@harmonyhope1709]

You're helping so many others too by making these videos . Keep talking 💕

[@KRBiel]

My 14 year old struggles with anxiety. While talking her through a panic episode the other day, when we were coming up with her plan, I told her to "do the next right thing." Your openness and candidness helps so many. And I'm trying to talk about with with my family so that my daughter doesn't feel carry the additional load of stigma along with her anxiety.

[@jennybeaber7630]

Don’t stop talking!!!! You are so brave!!! You are educating us on just how horrific anorexia is!!!! I had no idea! You are an inspiration!!! Keep fighting!!!

[@teamgreco3]

We love who you genuinely are. ❤️ Mental health discussions are taboo and I hate that. The more we talk, the more we reach others, the less it is taboo. Thank you for speaking your truth and teaching us.

[@patchcarrie]

I can see the pain in this journey for you, but I can also FEEL the fight in you. Your vulnerability is giving me strength to overcome my own food addiction. Thank you for honoring how hard this is and showing me it’s possible to make progress. Keep fighting to find Fi!! ☺️

[@allisonhamilton1245]

Yes!! You should be open. We need to break the sigma!! I was diagnosed with Clinical Depression and anxiety. I've always spoken out to educate. Keep up the fantastic work!!!

[@morgainetaylor5777]

You are looking so much more positive than recently, I'm so very happy for you. I know it's really difficult but you really are smashing this. Just keep doing "the next right thing", you are amazing!!!

[@proudtobeweird]

You’re the strongest person I know 👍🏻🙌🏻

[@Aimeemaher2000]

My daughter is 16, she's on the spectrum, clinical depression & severe anxiety, hasn't left her bedroom in 1.5 years. She doesn't want to get better , very hard to try to change her mindset & to get her to allow us to help her .

[@whitneybgriffin3047]

Thank you for sharing! I've never dealt with what you are dealing with, but I have been struggling with anxiety and grief for years and it's so true that people don't realize what someone's going through if the outside view seems "normal". Keep fighting Fi!

[@ravengemini2331]

I think mental health struggles, because they’re often difficult to see, and don’t always have an easily-defined end point, cause discomfort to some people that haven’t experienced them, similar to chronic illnesses. These types of illness challenge conventionally healthy peoples’ idea that there is a pre-set “right” thing to do, and then you get better, end of story. We struggle for a long time, and often people with chronic illnesses never “get better”, and people don’t want to have to reconcile that with themselves, so they get frustrated when we talk about our lives and recovery and processes because it reminds them of that thing they don’t want to think about.

[@NinasHere4U]

Fi, I have never heard it explained like that and I thank you so much to help me understand it. You will make an excellent coach, you are so very smart and good with words. God bless you young lady!

[@teamtuckersfunadventures951]

You are so unbelievably strong and thought provoking. I've learned so much from you about a subject I knew nothing a bout.

[@courtneymcguffee5753]

You are INSPIRING and AMAZING. Never stop talking about it. You're helping so many people with these videos, and ultimately yourself as well!!

[@melissaroberts542]

Your journey is helping so many others out there, please keep going x

[@pu66y_L0ve]

I love your saying, I can do hard things! I use it with my kids!

[@lorenspath6538]

you are doing an amazing job with everything. It is a very exhausting and scary, i understand . I go through the same struggles. Keep going, I love watching you. thank you, Love,Loren

[@marisamaelaurie2797]

You're so strong!❤️🦋 Thank you so much for sharing your journey, it's really helpful!🥰

[@RIPolos]

I hear more confidence in your voice! Way to go!

[@xristinas2767]

10:54 exactly! I think most people cant handle difficulties and pain from others. If you have the flu people feel sorry of you but they know its nothing serious. I think they think about it more like a light gossip, an interesting new. But when something serious come, like a maybe fatal illness or a mental health problem they cant deal with it. They actually go away or they limit their time with you. When i say people i mean the general public. Of course you meet wonderful friends who support you. But yea i think something like that happens.

[@kimunder1]

We can do hard things!

[@lisanancoff3462]

Fi, you do a great job explaining how an eating disorder works, I have learned so much from you.I don't think people realize it's a mental illness. Great job today with the meal increase , I know how hard that had to be for you ! Well done !

[@suzannedubeau8703]

I have an adult son with mental illness. I think people struggle with understanding because they can't see it, like you would a broken leg. "If everything 'looks' normal it must 'be' normal". We take in so much with just a glance, age, gender, facial expression, posture, but we can't see a person's thoughts. My son looks like a "normal" happy guy but you can't hear what thoughts are going through his mind. If his leg was in a cast you would know what was wrong. If I say something the wrong way it could set him back, probably much like when someone tells you you're "looking healthy". But usually saying "how's the leg healing?" Would be perfectly acceptable.

[@drdebthompson]

Your transparency is so refreshing. As for the naysayers, they are mired in stigma… and what gall too to question your sovereign decisions! Boo to that… and keep on keeping on to you 🙌🏻

[@leahbohea5034]

Maybe try not to be so food focused - try and focus on other things like what nourishing your body is allowing you to do.

[@katespalding2134]

What is the book if you don’t mind me asking? You are beyond words with your posts Thank you ❤️

[@Werdtogodog]

I think a lot of people believe it’s as simple as “well just eat then” like you’re making a choice to not eat. Which obviously is very far from the truth. Keep going you are doing so well, your determination is inspiring.

[@jenniferasmr21]

Wow you are honestly such an inspiration, I am really struggling with anorexia and I have such a hard time eat in more to get better. However, I have to try since I want to return to nursing school in the fall of this year. I am actually going to see a friend and going out to eat and I am terrified and I want to cry. On the contrary, I don't want to remember my 20s as the time I had an eating disorder. Thank you for posting this and let's FIGHT this demon together 💕

[@pparker5113]

You can do hard things! Bravo!

[@chloerixson7867]

That stroopwaffle bar looked delicious! Glad you enjoyed it Xx

[@stjernoga]

Go Fi 💝💝💝

[@BuinidhMoChridheDoAlba]

Mental health and things like anorexia get the same kind of attitudes as a drug addiction. Just like people think that drug addicts should just "stop taking drugs" because it's easy in their blinkered opinion. They think that anorexic people should just eat and they will get better

[@gemmi1]

I think on a very basic level, it's a choice to eat and a choice to not eat. Some people don't get that it's not about that!

[@marywilson5192]

Great job Fi. It is so helpful to explain what anorexia is like. You've mentioned in previous videos how you don't feel like you deserve things. Can you talk about that & how/why you feel that way? Have you always felt that way? Did something trigger those feelings? Of course, Only share if you are comfortable. ❤️❤️

[@sarahevans3138]

I love watching your progress Fi! ❤️

[@missydandelion6923]

Something that is helping me overcome the exercise urges is to recognise and accept that I am gaining weight anyway so whats the point of continuing to punish myself through exercise? While I am gaining I want to rewire my brain too. You and I dont want to be weight restored and still have an anorexia mind do we? When I am weight restored I want to be mentally free too. Food and exercise freedom! If you dont work on the exercise than you will be weight restored and still be prisoner to exercise urges.

[@jul62187]

GOOD JOB FI !!! You are doing great! SO proud of you! I love the quote that when I becomes WE, Illness becomes Wellness! I have heard that before and it is so true and so relatable! We cant do recovery alone! I also LOVE LOVE LOVE all of your positive / encouraging / motivational shirts and spoons and bowls! Where do you get them all? Sending you LOVE AS ALWAYS!!!

[@meikedebruijn6971]

You realy should try a stroopwafel!! Best in the world

[@crystalmillard560]

I LOVE your videos! They are very informative and explain things so much . I for one am very happy that you are spreading awareness and letting us get a glimpse of your life . I have learned so much from you - thank you ! Stay strong ! Much love from Pennsylvania USA

[@dallasaggie83]

The stigmatization of mental illness is just awful! Among other things, I've been battling EDs on and off for 28 years. I literally just got out of PHP for the other things. It seems that it was OK to speak to the group and process but such a taboo to say one word about it in "public". I will never understand why mental illnesses have to be suffered through in the dark. Thank you for creating such a strong platform to process through your journey - it's inspiring. You speak for those of us who can't. You rock!!!

[@kimberlycau1980]

I hope you keep talking about it because someone like myself DOESN’T understand. As crazy as it sounds, I would like to live a day in your head just to get it. To be like OMG that’s what she’s talking about. I’m very naive when it comes to mental illness as well as eating disorders so, please, if I say something wrong don’t take it badly! I check your account every day and follow tiktok. I’m just obsessed with trying to understand! If this helps, I think someone like me thinks ok, you like food…. So eat! I have to remind myself, as you’ve said and I’m learning, it’s not so much the “food”. Your brain is different than mine. I do have anxiety and am on medication so I try to compare sometimes. I just wanted to say please for someone like me who doesn’t understand, keep posting! You’re an amazing person for sharing and I pray for the best for you!

[@BB-ux5wd]

Good for you ! No light yogurt ❤️. I’ve noticed you eat a lot of light yogurt for majority of your yogurt snacks .

[@suethompson6512]

You are helping people by talking about your recovery. The negative commenters can just stop watching. We support you and appreciate you sharing your story.

[@jenniferwood2799]

You are such a huge inspiration and your words are sooo amazing i agree 100 percent sooo proud of you and your videos are so great i really appreciate all your videos and i use the broken leg question also you have so many people rooting for you ❤️❤️❤️❤️👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻🤞🏻🤞🏻😍

[@annieburrage7256]

So so proud of you Fi, sending love from Newfoundland, Canada 🇨🇦 🤍

[@alij1734]

I am so proud of you! Mental illness needs to be normalized! More people struggle from mental illness than most actually realize! I struggle deeply with anxiety and panic attacks and I see how brave you are talking about mental illness and it gives me courage to talk more about it! You got this!!!! 💕💕💕

[@lauratracysteinbach782]

Talking about recovery is healthy! Anorexia is a symptom of other issues that need to be dealt with. However, the compulsion to not eat is an existential threat, so it’s important to focus on making sure you are eating and gaining weight to get back to a healthy weight. Have you ever considered adding yoga and meditation to your days? Those both can be very helpful. Also, I’ve noticed you have the most beautiful hands! You could literally be a hand model!!!

[@shawnconlin2120]

Please never stop talking about your fight. I have learned so much from you, it is so frustrating that people don’t acknowledge mental illness, you are doing great things by sharing.

[@MamaMurk]

This may sound like an odd request but can you please do a video doing your nails? Your nails are so beautifully shaped and painted. I struggle with the rounded edges. Love and hugs from Nashville Tennessee. 🥰🥰

[@lorenspath6538]

People are very judgemental about things they dont understand. Especially people who dont go through these things. The voices are very loud and confusing. Its not our fault at all. Everything you are saying makes total sense. You have been so helpful to me.

[@nickydaniels1476]

I think you are a remarkable human. I love your honesty and directness. You are very insightful about your health. Pity the people who can't be bothered to learn and try to understand. You're a warrior!!!

[@MintGamezYT]

Thank you for your bravery in sharing your journey, Fi ♥️ My issue is entirely different and yet there are so many parallels. You keep me motivated to do the next right. Sending love and healing ♥️🕊

[@tootsla1252]

Your Openness and generosity In sharing your illness and recovery is a gift. You are so appreciated. Never doubt that.

[@ccrosby9180]

I think people think anorexia is a choice because they also think overeating is a choice. Neither is a choice really. Both are way way more complicated than simply eat or don’t eat.

[@missydandelion6923]

I love following your journey, but i also would love you to address your privilege in receiving treatment and having the amazing support like you do when sharing your story. You are very lucky in that respect as lots of people suffer without access to treatment or support

[@pamsiddall9132]

You're so articulate and so kind even about people who judge. Keep going, you deserve all happiness, you're so strong!

[@jordanobrien8915]

The stigma around mental illness and recovery is so dumb. I wish more people talked about it, because most of us have struggles that people could relate to. Watching your vulnerability allows me to better support the people in my life who might be going through something similar

[@ccrosby9180]

Your channel, all your social media helps me to not fall back into the disordered eating. It reminds me how ugly the disease is and how it’s always worth fighting those anorexic thoughts.

[@TraciHenney]

Keep going! You are doing great. I have a question if you don’t mind answering. Why is it that you eat so many bars? Is that something that you just really like or some other reason? I’ve never had a bar of any sort that I enjoyed and I would be so sad if I had to eat them every single day.

[@kicsimobil6260]

You are a Hero! Keep going! May I ask you which book is it?

[@pu66y_L0ve]

Who wrote that text at the end of the video it is beautiful! Thank you for sharing it will reach many people

[@meganrapchick8299]

I hope you keep talking and sharing and educating all of us. You are an inspiration to many. I am truly interested in understanding so I appreciate your honesty.

[@millak3184]

It's great that you are talking about your ed so openly. Mental illnesses are too little talked about... they are more common than anyone thinks, so it's better to speak about those to make people realize, they are not alone.

[@alexamclaughlin7593]

I don’t usually comment but just had to say how bright and beautiful you are in this video! Your positivity is coming through much more naturally lately. Keep going Fi - it’s working ❤️

[@alimoore589]

You're doing so well and you really do inspire me. We're so proud of you. I'm glad you're talking about it. It really annoys me that people think that mental illness is a choice. Our brains control us so much more than we control it. Unfortunately a lot of people still don't understand that xx

[@anne-mariesullivan3174]

You are so brave, I am in recovery and I find it very annoying that my friends think I’m ok because I’m a healthy weight. We must all keep going to beat this crazy illness. Keep going gorgeous girl xxxxxxxxx

[@judyjones9681]

I want to help so much. What can I do to help?

[@dianagreen4483]

Happy Wednesday Fi! You've got this! Xxx

[@zoemcpeake6948]

Always so proud of you Fi ♥️

[@harmonyhope1709]

Always say to myself "I can and I will" definitely helpful!

[@harmonyhope1709]

Lovely to hear you sounding so much more determined 🥰

[@darungel1]

You are so strong!!! ❤️

[@НатальяНаталья-я7р]

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