Finding Out I Was 5 Months Pregnant

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Hello lovely people, this video is very personal and I do cover some sensitive topics. However I've chosen to share my story as an explanation to my own family and friends, also to create a safe space for people to relate and seek advice from. I just want to shed some light and show people that we can overcome any struggle in life!
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[@gemmarose274]

I failed to mention this in the video, no I wasn't getting my period and this is because I was on the pill - skipping my periods. I'd been doing it for years, totally wouldn't recommend doing this!x

[@danielletrigueros1489]

Gemma Rose I did the same thing with my birth control, because it seemed so convenient... who wants a period right?? For anyone considering it... don't do it. Not only did I not know I was pregnant... but I didn't find out until the day my son was born. I totally understand everything you said, and relate completely. I felt a lot of shame, guilt and embarrassment... I still have a hard time talking about it. I literally just woke up one day and had baby. It was terrifying... but it's a year later and he is literally my whole world. The greatest gift in the world. I agree that everything happens for a reason.

[@zuarrisusy3980]

Gemma Rose only if you are under strict doctors check-ups. Done it before for medical reasons

[@emilyburke25]

Danielle Trigueros omg That is so interesting did you not show at all? Are you larger than average or smaller? I only ask bc I couldn’t imagine someone not realizing they have a pregnant belly! So interesting to me sorry if too personal! I loved hat I didn’t know I was pregnant show makes you think and wonder !

[@michellekercy4430]

darkfacer That was so unnecessary. So what she took birth control pills so she wouldn’t get her period. Just because you have sex doesn’t mean that’s she supports young women getting pregnant and doesn’t mean it’s wrong for young woman to have sex. I guess you just shame every woman who doesn’t stay a virgin until their married right. That’s such a bad view on things.

[@strawberryme08]

I used to do that too, i had endometriosis and it gave my body a break from the periods and pain. But Birth control gives copper toxicity that causes anxiety and depression issues! I wish more people knew this!

[@amillionmilesaway397]

I'm a nursing student in Canada and the way they treated you is appalling. If a girl comes in with abdominal pain and she admits she is sexually active, the FIRST thing we test for is pregnancy. ESPECIALLY before prescribing antibiotics or other medications and risking harm to the fetus and it's development. I am so sorry you had to go through this the way that you did xo I haven't finished the video yet but good on you. You are obviously a very strong woman to have gone through this and come out alright. I would have gone insane :(.

[@amillionmilesaway397]

Finished the video and wow. Incredibly proud of you! Be proud of yourself as well! You have come out on top. Forget the mean spirited assholes out there as they aren't important. What is important is your happiness and health. Wish I had a friend like you to be honest! You are a kind girl, that much I can tell.

[@gemmarose274]

I just read this and your second comment, thank you so so so much wow. Shows We can handle absolutely anything with the right mindset!

[@nonirosie]

the same in Australia. even if you say you dont think you're pregnant, if you're sexually active they'll do a pregnancy test

[@Kaitlin_Elyse]

Sarah Eleanor She stated in the video that she told doctors she wasn’t sexually active since she hadn’t been for about 4 months... Not really fair to knock the doctors when she told them she wasn’t being sexually active.

[@jamkrisking3521]

in my country even if you are not sexually active and you are an adult/childbearing age you will be tested for pregnancy. It's crazy for me at first when i was rushed to the hospital due to acute appendicitis and before anything else they had to sent an OB first to check me out (i keep on telling them i wasn't active). But seeing this video now made me realized how impt that was.

[@mackenziepatterson2992]

I just found out that I’m pregnant a couple days ago. My mom just showed me your video because she knows how alone I’m feeling right now because the dad wants nothing to do with us. And that’s really hard to even think about and I’m so scared. But your video really inspired me and made me feel like I could do this. I just want to thank you for sharing your story and not being ashamed to share it.

[@gemmarose274]

Mackenzie Patterson wow I’m so so happy to hear this you are amazing, congratulations be positive about this situation!!! Sending so so much love to you x

[@abbier0018]

what age are you ???

[@abbier0018]

good luck 💖

[@Yadrones]

Mackenzie Patterson I’m in the same boat ❤️ I’m 4 months 5 days

[@skylarhermans]

Crazy story. I remember watching this video and a couple months later finding out i was 7 months pregnant. I never had one sign of pregnancy. Hes 2 now his name is aiden and he's 100 percent healthy

[@graceodonohue6247]

THIS VIDEO IS SO ME ON SO MANY LEVELS!!! Although i found out i was pregnant when i was about 12 weeks. I was single, partying ALL the time, smoking, drinking and living with my parents and i had a horrible relationship with my dad at the time. When i found out i was pregnant, it felt like my whole world come crashing down around me. I have never felt more alone and scared in my entire life. I couldn't even take care of myself let alone an innocent baby. I was so embarrassed what people would think of me. Then one day it dawned on me. This was meant to happen to me at that exact time in my life. I was going down a path of self destruction, and having my daughter changed my whole view on life and made me a better person. Not only that, she has taught me what love is, and what love means. My life has a purpose now. My life has meaning now. I am her entire world and she is mine and I could never of asked for a better gift than her life. So many things are different for me now. My mum was diagnosed with Lung cancer on my daughters first birthday. My mum is also my biggest supporter and my best friend. I honestly believe this was a sign. My daughter helped put a smile on my mums face when she was going through chemo and radiation. She gave my mum the strength to keep fighting every single day to get up out of bed when the days were too hard. Last week we found out mums cancer is a thing of the past. And as horrible of a time this was for the whole family, it brought us closer than ever and taught us that we cant take anything for granted especially not each-other. Thank you for making this video, I wish I had seen something like this when I was pregnant and struggling. And you are one tough mumma. ps sorry for the novel xx

[@marquitafreeman9830]

😪😪 very touching story!! Your baby was/is truly God sent. 🥰🥰

[@jazzygarcia5158]

I’m so happy to know I’m at not alone. I just recently found out I’m pregnant and I’m 22 weeks and 3 days. This will be my #2 baby. I never expected to be pregnant but when I went to the doctor he told me I was pregnant and I was 5 months. I feel blessed to be pregnant again. I’ve been feeling down lately because I didn’t know I was pregnant. But I’m just letting God take over and praying he blesses me with a healthy baby. 🙏🏻💖❤️

[@ilTHfeaa]

you makeup is so pretty in this video, its super minimal but super pretty

[@gemmarose274]

Melody THANKYOU hehe

[@jasmineduffy2810]

Though I found out at 4 weeks and my fiance and I want our baby I went through prenatal depression HARD a few weeks ago. And it scared me that I was putting stress on our girl. So far (20 weeks today) she is perfect. Your story is great though.

[@indiannamoon7171]

I had a similar experience, found out I was pregnant at 3.5 months. I had a blood test at the hospital that should have detected the pregnancy, the test was faulty. I took 3 more tests at home & the third one finally showed positive at 3.5 months lol. Now that I look back on the situation, I had a UTI for 2 months and that should have been an indicator of what was going on with my body. All the love to anyone who is going through this x

[@XxAshl3y66xX]

Indianna Moon I've been going through the same thing.!:O i fainted October 1st and was taken to the hospital and they said I had a UTI but I haven't been able to shake off my gut feeling that there's someone growing inside of me. I also haven't had a period since September 24th. That week was my last cycle and it was VERY light but all of the urine tests say negative. I've also had horrible nausea and weird cramps. I'm going to a clinic today to get blood drawn and hopefully be able to request an ultrasound because I need to know.!

[@loll4784]

Indianna Moon were you having your period during this time?

[@morgan2558]

A couple of months ago my friend found out she was 5 months pregnant. Same situation , drinking and smoking everyday. She was honestly the wildest girl I know but stopped every bad habit for her baby

[@destiniejuers8370]

Morgan Green I was the same way! I would drink at any possible moment and skipping school, but once I found out I was pregnant with my son I stopped everything the SECOND I knew.

[@elizabethf5574]

wow that's crazy and I have a friend who sadly still smokes when she's pregnant she thinks smoking weed is fine while pregnant .....

[@milleebrooks7134]

Loved hearing your story😘 I went to the doctors with dizzy spells and they told me I was maybe 20 weeks pregnant and of course it did go through my mind to have an abortion when I went to get my scan I found out I was 28 weeks! Was the scariest moment of my life but soon came to terms with it ❤️ I now have a healthy 2 year old beautiful little girl she is my life and would never change anything !

[@gemmarose274]

wow! shortest pregnancy ever thats for sure ;P I'm glad things hae turned out so wonderful for you, I'm excited for the future with my baby girl!

[@milleebrooks7134]

Yes deffo was quick lol yes so many lovely memories to look forward to xxxx

[@allisonm7223]

Did you get a period?

[@milleebrooks7134]

Allison Reviews CRAP no because I was on the depo injection it stopped my periods so didn’t notice 🙈

[@sissyrayself7508]

Millee Brooks maybe someday they will make abortion legal for any reason, or for no reason, all the way up to the 40 weeks, for any reason, like it is in the United States... I mean. With partial birth abortion you can get it pulled out and instantly killed right at delivery. They puncture it's skull and swirl it's brain with sharp scissors and then deliver the dead baby.. isn't that wonderful? It doesn't have to be to save the mother's life either.. just if the mom wants it and has the money.. she gets it.

[@michellezevenaar]

My friend sister found out at 8 months! She wasn't in a position to keep the baby so she gave it up for adoption.

[@samhanks9604]

Michelle Bennett omg what a shock!

[@KitanaAtienza]

did she not have her period or something?

[@mckensie]

ione mcc but she did say it was adoption lol

[@samanthahockley6710]

Kitana Atienza not all girls get regular periods, when I had the implant I didn’t get my period for nearly a year, if I got pregnant at any point I wouldn’t have realised for a little while, as mad as it sounds it happens

[@samanthahockley6710]

My Nan wasn’t a good position to keep my dad, he spent the first couple years of his life in and out of foster care because she didn’t always have a home, she had him young and had no support system behind her from her family so eventually she gave him up because his foster carers wanted to keep him, and after thinking about it she realised it would be the best thing for him despite how hard it was for her, so proud of my Nan for that. They met again when my dad was an adult and they love each other.

[@flowerblodgett7555]

sxually active or not they need to test for pregnancy cause some people lie

[@elliespurgeon704]

or some people don’t know like she did!

[@LopezJosie]

I didn’t get tested, I should have though because now I don’t even know what to do. I can’t tell my mom, she would honestly make my life miserable

[@rentechpad]

Thank you for being upfront and broaching sensitive subjects. Abortion is, of course a touchy one, but many women when they find out they have an unplanned pregnancy the thought either crosses their mind or it raised as an option by family, friends or medical professionals/counselors and its something that needs to be discussed. Its one side to being faced with a pregnancy you did not expect. Thoughts are just thoughts and we all consider doing things or taking one road or another that others might not agree with but giving thoughts/considerations to these does not make one a bad person or are anything one should feel guilty about just because they are option to be considered that others may not agree with. We are each entitled to make our own choices as long as we all accept the fact that we have to live with those choices. The thing that is interesting, hearing you talk, is that the feelings you had when you first learned you were pregnant are the real feelings almost everyone in your position is hit with and its normal when we hit a crisis in our lives to want to ;just make it all go away and forget about it'. Very often we make different choices when given time to think things through but when we hit a critical moment in our lives often there is not time to really dwell on the issue and first thoughts seem to be the way to go. Had you been earlier in pregnancy its not hard to imagine that your initial reaction of wanting to make everything go away so not to deal with it would have taken you down a different path and I think that happens in a lot of cases. There is nothing wrong in considering that. And, had the choice not been out of your hands, the fact that you would have made a different choice is also not something to feel guilty over. Often people would have made different choices in different circumstances. The fact that you might have done something different given the opportunity does not reflex on your relationship or your feelings with your child now.

[@Em-wc2mw]

Pam Duncan o

[@sissyrayself7508]

Pam Duncan if you were 5 months pregnant you could also feel that baby moving in your uterus right? Because he or she had arms and legs and every other body part.

[@alexpelausa9855]

That's a long paragraph

[@fossilsue]

So proud of you. You are so brave. Even your eyes are smiling.

[@littlebabyclover]

My sister found out she was pregnant at 6 months, she'd gone in for a scan because she'd had pains and they thought it could be a tumor or a cyst, turns out it was a baby and a few days later found out it was a girl!

[@csh143]

The first thing anyone should have done was a pregnancy test. Point blank. I went to the hospital for a broken finger and the first thing they did was a pregnancy test, even though ive told them im not sexually active with guys. But the fact they didnt give you one right after you got there is bs , they should be in trouble forbthat

[@Jaydizzeh]

Baylee Webb Different countries have different health care practices apparently. I get tested for pregnancy every time I go in to, but I live in the US.

[@robinjohnson9611]

same here..not sexually active..still a virgin at 23..

[@missblueberry1033]

Baylee Webb omg I'm so glad they don't test it over here...if I have a broken whatever and I knw I am not pregnant, nobody has the right to make me take a test...

[@SnoBlobber]

Wait, you broke your finger so they gave you a pregnancy test?! Lol!

[@smstorm57]

You're such a beautiful, well-spoken girl and I LOVE your accent. I could listen to you rattle on forever! Good luck to you and the baby.

[@flamepalmer]

Susan Storm What accent? lol

[@regany61]

I love the openness of this video. I have been judged for my opinions with parenting and pregnancy. I believe in a woman’s choice to do what she thinks is best for her, her health, and her family/baby. Whether that be abortion, adoption, or keeping it. I think it should be no ones business but the people directly involved.

[@TheYasmineFlower]

I also believe in a woman's right to choose. But adoption can't be included in that, because the father also has rights the moment the child is born. And the child never gets any choice at all, which sucks for many of them once they are adults. A woman's right to choose covers abortion. Never adoption.

[@themilanovic3754]

Best video I have seen lately..... I am 19 married and baby #2 on the way.....it was hard at first when I found out but it all worked out and I am loving it.

[@gemmarose274]

The Milanovic wow, good on you girl!! I’m so happy that things have worked out then that’s so lovely to hear 😍

[@themilanovic3754]

Gemma Rose Thank you girl.... I couldn't be happier. I am glad I could share it with you. Hope she brings you so much joy and happiness. Children are a blessing. My son saved me from myself. I changed for the better. Wish you the best life....Much love from Ireland

[@alwaysbusywatching1]

Can we talk about the terrible doctors you went to!? lol I'm a nursing student and rule #1 when a girl has stomach pain and pees often you always check kidneys and if they're pregnant.

[@crystalxoxox7691]

ally hamilton any doctor I go to and I say about being sick or something first thing they ask “could you be pregnant” And i say “there’s a small chance, but I highly doubt I am. I’m on the pill and I haven’t had sex in *however many weeks because it’s always changing lol*” and they do a urine test and that’s always been negative so they do blood tests and luckily they’ve been negative too, but that’s the first thing they make sure about. And then go from There. She had shitty doctors for sure

[@amberelliott-savage5865]

I’ve only just found this video. A week today I found out I was pregnant after being told I had a miscarriage. I’m now currently 21 weeks and I can now feel it moving around. Your so right, when you suffer from mental health it’s so hard to feel Normal and accept your fait. This has helped a great deal. Thank you xxx

[@talishadaw3336]

I’m young myself and have just found out I’m pregnant, a month further than I thought I was. I totally understand your opinions and views on abortion because even though I know I wanted this baby, the reality hit me hard and I truly considered it. I feel terrible that I had thought about but I know now that it is what it is. Que sera sera

[@gemmacoutts1756]

I have a 1 year old son and I found out at 21 weeks he's my world and I was really scared I didn't know what to do and I did it and now I can't live my life without him hes my everything x

[@maisygee6675]

You seem so strong ! You’re eyebrows, hair, voice everything about you is perfect

[@smartiies10]

Woow my story is sooo similar!!! I found out I was pregnant when I was 20 weeks and 4 days along and I was 19 when I got pregnant(2 months before my 20th birthday) but ofcourse i didn't know that at the time. Everything else was spot on. Now I have a 6 month old little princess and I couldn't be happier ❤ love from Iceland 🇮🇸

[@ellibowden6033]

I'm so very grateful I stumbled across your video today. You are so strong and I'm so in awe of you! You go girl! I am a medical student in Australia and was so baffled to hear that they didn't do a single pregnancy test during your five months of pain etc. I am also a HUGE believer in everything happens for a reason, i am so glad to hear your gorgeous baby girl is happy and healthy. xoxo Elli

[@Ambient_dreamer]

Thank you so much for being so honest, it must’ve been so difficult. Please don’t beat yourself up. What has happened, has happened & look how wonderful it is. Your daughter, forever, your legacy. What an amazing situation, what an amazing Mama. YOU. ARE. AMAZING. 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

[@jennyavila3558]

You should do a video of how you told your baby's dad you were expecting, is he still in the picture?

[@kenbren5569]

Thank you so much for sharing your story! I went through something similar with my son! I didnt find out until I was 18 weeks and had doctors tell me previously that i was pregnant. It was so difficult to deal with but now having him here is the best thing in the entire world! He is so amazing and deffinatly has changed my life for the better! Its good to know that other people go through similar things:)

[@tanksleyalicia]

You are so strong and so brave! My first was born when I was 16. Second at 18. And third at 24. All with my husband as their biological father (for anyone who thinks otherwise) But it’s HARD as a young mom. Never feel ashamed for how you felt in the beginning

[@kristin4639]

it's amazing how people treat women as if their pain doesn't exist... thank you for sharing your story.. you're a strong woman

[@sheakillinit]

I just had an abortion. 8 weeks and 6 days. I was trying to prevent a baby which is why i knew immediately after that positive pregnancy test i was going to have an abortion. I made my app that same night. I was MISERABLE. Nauseas 24/7. I lost 20 pounds because i couldn’t eat from being so sick. I told myself i never wanted to be pregnant again. It’s not for everybody. Having an abortion was a decision i had to make on my own and it was a decision i don’t regret.

[@katg5353]

ellie not everyone is meant to have a baby not everyone can handle it it’s a lot of time and work it’s truly a lifetime commitment I feel bad for people who get put down about getting an abortion or for not wanting their children but I think it’s much better to not bring a child into the world that is clearly not wanted or if you can’t afford it or if you’re just not ready I’m 19 and I brought my daughter into this world this year I can say that is not easy and not everyone is meant for it I’m glad that you made the right decision for yourself maybe in the future you’ll have a change in perspective but never feel like you have to do something like bringing a child in the world if you’re not ready for it you should never be ashamed or feel guilty

[@katg5353]

Nikita Hagestad have you ever been pregnant? Have you ever had to make that sacrifice? Because I have and I don’t think she’s being selfish. Being selfish would have been bringing the baby in the world when deep down she knew she didn’t want the baby. As a mother of a 2 1/2 month old girl I can tell you it’s not for everyone and you are not one who should judge you don’t know her circumstances I spent my whole pregnancy in the hospital because of preeclampsia having seizure and miserable I know not everyone can handle it pregnancy and motherhood is not for everyone and unless you have been in her exact circumstance you don’t have any room to judge move the fuck in with your life and stop judging people you don’t know how dare you bring down another woman for a decision she has a right to make were you going to raise that child for her? Were you willing to endure all the pain that come with pregnancy? Shut the fuck up and move on get a fucking life.

[@sheakillinit]

Nikita Hagestad you hope i die someday? That’s really ironic isn’t it. Hey how about you get pregnant right now! Tell your parents who cares if they’ll disown you, also be prepared to spend thousands of dollars the rest of your life on a child you can’t afford! I dare you

[@sheakillinit]

Isabella Guillen the circumstances were different. I’m not some stupid teenager having sex just letting everyone cum in me and “oh wow I’m pregnant?? How did that happen”. I was on BC. We wore condoms. It was a freak accident and i became pregnant and was definitely not wanting to be. I’m sure a lot of people have been in that position but I was one of the lucky ones who had supportive friends and didn’t beat me down. Thank you for your kind words. It’s not an easy subject for people but i also don’t think it’s something that should be kept quiet. It needs to be talked about more. It’s a very different procedure and it’s very personal. But it’s safe. And effective. And i don’t believe I’m going to hell like people say. I don’t believe I’m a murderer. If anything i feel like i saved that life from being brought up in a world where no one can care for them.

[@katg5353]

Nikita Hagestad you’re fucking stupid. Do you know how broken the Forster system is a high percentage of teen homelessness is caused by the broken foster and adoption system how about we talk about that epidemic and fix that epidemic before we start adding to the issue let’s be real 83 percent of children in the system bounce from foster home to foster home until they turn 18 and then they are on their own with no family with no help why keep adding to the problem let fox it let’s make a solution before you judge people for choosing to not let their children go through that why don’t you adopt all those children if it’s that big of an issue to you

[@suneblommie4549]

It makes me sad that the doctors didn't help you.😔 This is a beautiful video and I hope you all the best.

[@user-zz6yy2cx7j]

your kindness and care for other people literally shines through you! so happy you found the positive light in such a hectic situation. i️ feel like this video will help many people know they are not alone, and i hope you and your baby girl have a beautiful life 💖

[@HaileiL]

I had to sub because YOU ARE REAL AS HELL. I love that you didn't cut corners you told the real story !

[@CloverRose]

When I was 17 I got pregnant from a drunken one night stand. I freaked out. I was too scared to tell my parents and went into self destruct mode. I was drinking, smoking and doing everything I could think of to cause a miscarriage. I wasn't in a financial state to afford a baby and mentally I wasn't ready. What you said about not being able to change how you felt is very true. A few weeks after this (while in my self destruct mode) I fell off the roof of my upstairs flat (I was blind drunk), damaged my spinal cord, broke my neck, back, sternum, legs, tail bone, nose, wrist and split my skull open. I lost 80% of my blood, died a few times and while I was in an induced coma I got my wish. The unborn baby died. But now I'm a quadriplegic in a wheelchair. Life throws some shit at everyone but it's about how we handle that shit. I went skydiving last December to prove to myself and other people that I'm not scared to fall because I can pick myself up from any shit thrown my way.

[@myaangelouuu7345]

Wow what a testimony

[@sageellis9867]

I can’t believe your attitude toward this! It is so great to hear someone tell the truth, but also fight against anxiety and depression. You have such an awesome spirit, and you and your baby are so beautiful!

[@lizacurran8077]

Fair play to you girl. I'd have actually died and not coped at all, its great you have grown so much and seem really aware of your self as a person. All the best to you and your lovely sounding baba

[@clairelegnon464]

I know exactly how you are feeling with anxiety. It feels like the simplest things are the end of the world, and I feel like I can't talk to anyone without sounding dramatic. It's nice to know there's someone out there who knows what it's like. Thank you for making this video

[@fatimax8525]

Wow I went through the exact same. Like literally step for step. Hope you’re at peace with it now. Of course we have these beautiful babies now but we went through something traumatic x

[@hartrose33]

As a doula I help women through inferititly and loss. I help many woman who have guilt that they had an abortion when they were in there teens. At first they feel that they just need to get it over with and be done with it. Then they realize they are not over it. There due date comes and goes. Birthdays that are not celebrated. Names are never uesd and then they marrie and start a family. If she misscarrages she feels like it was a punishment. If she has the baby she feels they should be a sibling to meet the new baby. And so on. Guilt and feeling regret most woman I talk to are surprised that it was not done and over with. I liked what you said about your feelings are your feeling and you cant change that. That is so true. Thank you for posting this video.

[@kirstynwitt4488]

hartrose33 I'm probably a bitch but coming from a woman that has lost 4 kids and has trouble getting pregnant if you know exactly what abortion is meaning you are well educated on how well formed that baby is, you should never get the option to end another life. Now if you regret it and didn't know what you were doing because in this society of its still a clump of cells even though it has a beating heart and has everything we do then that's different and quite heartbreaking that people push that so much it actually makes people think its alright. My earliest miscarriage was at 7 weeks and even though it was tiny it came out perfectly formed arms and legs were perfect all the toes and fingers. I lost twins around 10 weeks they came out and you could even tell what gender they were :(

[@hartrose33]

kirstyn witt your not a bitch at all. I Have lost 6 babies I lost my little Michael at 13 weeks. My 20 yr old is the only one that has made it we are still Trying at 47 with pcos and hubby has male factor infertility. It is amazing how poeple fight over life. They fight to end it and they fight to bring it in to this crazy messed up world. My midwife is a hospice nurse and says the wait you have waiting for a new life to enter this world and the wait you have when life is about to leave this world feels the same way. How oddly amazing that is right. It really makes you think how fragile our life is.

[@kirstynwitt4488]

hartrose33 it sure is amazing I'm hoping the best for you in your conception journey and I'm so sorry for your angels

[@intrigue8664]

Here for you Mariah. We are women, not "bitches". I would feel the same and have delved into period tracking, an app called "Clue", and two means of contraception. I plan on keeping my periods while using the pill and discovering any unplanned pregnancy within legal abortion time. I do not know if I ever want children. Now is a 100% unapologetic no, no ifs ands or buts.

[@tbaker4171]

@@kirstynwitt4488 wow. I totally get why God has not blessed you with a baby. You're mean.

[@erinnrichelle869]

Thank you so much for being strong enough to share your experience in the most authentic way. You didn’t have to open up and put your fears and feelings on the internet but you did for the people who need support, so thank you. You are a beautiful human! ❤️

[@bunnyjanie]

Thanks for sharing your story. Very powerful and moving !

[@ducktape778]

You and your daughter deserves the world

[@kara3312]

You're so ridiculously beautiful omg

[@Alice-rc1lp]

You are extraordinary and so is your story. I’m a married mum in my 30s and having a planned baby was pretty scary and life changing. So I think you were really brave to handle everything how you did, and incredibly brave to share you story in a world where people have strong opinions and never worry about how they might make someone feel. Enjoy your bundle, best wishes to you both!

[@kyleee8]

I also got pregnant 8 weeks after my first son was born, I was terrified but it all worked out. Both of my boys were born in the same year exactly 11 months apart. My youngest will be 5 on Tuesday & were planning on trying for another soon! 💓

[@kyleee8]

Im 27 years old Demia Me

[@misslauradevlin]

Irish twins! Babies born in the same year but not from the same birth are known as Irish twins lol it was very common back in the day in Ireland

[@kyleee8]

misslauradevlin yes ma’am! My oldest turned 6 today! They are the same age for 1 month. 💙

[@Danielaaaz]

Amanda Isaman Hey guys I love watching moms how their lives goes ! So all these mommy’s inspired me to do my own channel ! So go check it out ! Subscribe if you like ☺️

[@tessrobinson9792]

I️ could of used this video last year 💕I’m glad you posted this. Being a mumma is the freakin best

[@kirstycat]

Your strength is incredible.

[@daniellesguess]

I fucking L O V E the self talk you're having. I don't even know you, but I am so fucking proud of the way you are coping with depression and anxiety/panic attacks. I've been there with my mental health. You can't change the past, and you're doing a wonderful job of making the best of right now.

[@sarahcrowley4892]

34 weeks pregnant with my first baby and the reason I went to the doctor was because I was having REALLY bad abdominal pain. I thought I was dying. So I know the pain you're explaining. 20 years old and I did the party/going out scene annnnd here I am pregnant! ready for the little girl in february!

[@Sam-nx3co]

You are so strong...to talk about how hard things were for you and you got into the touchy subjects. Also you stated how your daughter saved you from yourself..that’s amazing :) I know you had a rough process to get where to are now, but look at how far you’ve come :) you have a beautiful baby girl and you are strong and beautiful yourself!

[@tesmarie1000]

I went through the exact same thing I was with my daughters dad and I still am so he was my rock through the whole thing it it wasn’t for him I would of never made it. I was so depressed and lost I just wanted it all to go away like it never happened. I never wanted kids. But now I can’t imagine my life without my daughter and my husband. I could have used this video when I was pregnant! Thanks for sharing it’s great to know I wasn’t the only one. I felt so selfish at the time.

[@halovlogs6748]

Watching this made me cry. Although I didn't feel the same way about being pregnant, I've never felt so alone in my life. I struggled with depression throughout my whole pregnancy and watching this made me feel like I could relate to someone.

[@mattiemercer8066]

Teen mom here too. I wish I would have seen your video before my pregnancy. I felt absolutely alone, but yet I wasn’t. I had so many people around me but still felt alone. I couldn’t share my honest thoughts because nobody understood me. I felt like I couldn’t be happy about my pregnancy because I was looked down upon by everyone. My aunt had passed away, of cancer, not too long before I found out I was pregnant. She was a teen mom and the only person I knew who would have understood me. My whole pregnancy I felt like I wasn’t supposed to be happy. Because I felt that every person looked down upon me because I was pregnant so young. But now I have my daughter, she is almost two and I could not live without her. She literally saved me and I honestly do not know where I would be without her. I love your video! I hope you make more ❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@Charlie-dl2ny]

I love how open you are about this, it’s such a good video 💗 I fell pregnant with my son when I was 16, the pill made me really sick and stopped working and that’s how I got pregnant. I found out at 6 weeks and didn’t tell anyone that I was pregnant until I was 27 weeks. I didn’t tell my family (besides my mum of course) that I had a baby until 6 days after he was born. I’m 17 (18 in july next year) my son is 7 Months old, I only just found out now that I’m 16 weeks pregnant and I’m due May 4th which is exactly a month after my sons birthday.. I’m freaking out. I fell pregnant on the pill again but this time We were using a condom (that obviously didn’t work..) I’ve only told my mum and my boyfriend this time and probably don’t plan on telling anyone til the baby is born because it’s so scary to know that I’ll lose so many friends again.. I have been through so much depression and anxiety in the past 2 years it is insane. But I’m so glad you are doing okay and that you and your baby girl are healthy 💗💗 Can I follow you on Instagram? 💗

[@gemmarose274]

Charlie & The Tribe wow my daughter is 7 months old too they must not be far apart! I love your story but don’t be afraid to share this part of yourself. Your true friends will stay by your side! 💗 try owning pregnancy with everything you’ve got this time! It’s such a beautiful thing that we’re honestly soo lucky to be able to do!💘 My instagram is gemmarxse 😌😌 I wish you the best of luck girlfriend

[@kirstynwitt4488]

Charlie & The Tribe the beginning of my story was similar. I lost my baby sadly 😢

[@JemimaDoesASMR]

Please please do tell people, you need to know now who your real support system is. If people aren't going to stick around, they're shit friends and you need better so you can focus on your kids. That you fell pregnant while on the pill and using a condom though is absolutely freaky!!!

[@constancacorreia]

if you are using the pill do not worry about being pregnant, i've also gone through some kind of paranoia while using the pill and actually feeling like i was bloating and my breast getting bigger but it was actually all psychological

[@rachelarchibald956]

Charlie & The Tribe ^^she just said she is 16weeks I don’t think it is a pregnancy scare

[@ranamustafa2721]

Hey girl proud of you for being strong. A baby is a blessing and has changed you for better and made you try to be the best Mum you can for your little girl. Keep being a strong Mum and better days are coming and don’t think about what people say about you just focus on you and ur baby . ♥️

[@silviasolano3780]

the ending was SO FUNNY... you're so cool, smart and gorgeous. You have so much potential. I'm proud of you for making it through even if you wanted it to be over.

[@CantSeeTheStars]

Your story is intense! I'm glad everything worked for you in the end. It's cool to see a fellow kiwi on you tube! I'm live in Christchurch and am currently hoping to conceive soon as a single parent 👍🏼

[@526mum]

I have no idea why I found your video today. But girl, you did fantastic. Bravo for the honesty. Don't ever feel like you need to second guess any emotions you were feeling. I am old enough to be your mom, and when I was 33 I found myself with an unplanned pregnancy. I was married and had a 8 month old daughter. Even though I was in a good position being older and married, I freaked out. My marriage was rocky and I had my hands filled with the baby I already had. My point is: if I felt scared, shocked, and unsure what to do married at 33, you are most definitely ok in everything you thought or felt at 18! Don't let anyone invalidate your feelings from then or now, and take a deep breath. If you could be brave enough to make this video, honey you can do anything. I am sure many people will relate to this video, and not just teens. I know I certainly did. So thank you for having the courage to put this out there, because I can guarantee this video will help others not feel alone.

[@Cedes1277]

With my first, I knew I was pregnant before I even took a test. I just felt different and told myself, "I'm pregnant." Tested a week later bc my period didn't come on the first day it was suppose to and it was positive. My second I misscarried. My third, I didn't know but I didn't feel good and kept getting nauseous when I smoked cigarettes and just randomly took one and it was so shocking bc I didn't expect it. I was never meant to be a mother but I knew I'd never be able to have an abortion. I LOVE LOVE LOVE my girls. My first I was 17 when I had her. I was excited but scared. Our journey was/still is hard. She's my first and we are always learning. My second, I lost him/her. It broke me. So when I found out about my third, I was over the moon. I wasn't scared and I think I love her more just bc I lost my second.

[@lilycash4242]

good for you for realizing and being selfless enough to stop smoking for your baby. my mother was 37 and continued smoking throughout her pregnancy saying it wouldn't affect the baby, which obviously in the majority of cases has affected babies whose mothers had smoked. She denied that smoking was bad out of pure selfishness and pride. So thank you for being responsible.

[@MOMMYANDMICHAEL]

My story is kind of similar to yours. I found out at 24 weeks I was pregnant now I am 30 weeks. I believe everything happens for a reason and maybe I was not meant to know about the baby so I didn't have time to make the choice to abort. I had a lot of other health issues happening to me during the past few months that didn't make me think of pregnancy as well just like you did. I am not a young as you as I am 26 years old but Its great to hear someone have a story somewhat similar to mine.

[@emmawilliams4422]

You seem like such an authentic, genuine person. I appreciate people like you. :) x

[@alexandriahall1759]

Girl you're amazing. Be proud that you went through all of that and came out the other side. You were obviously stronger than you thought. No, you can't change the past but everything that's happened has resulted in who you are and from this video, I don't think that's a bad thing! Like I said, be proud cause you're bad ass 💕

[@13AS89]

Hun please try and let go of the guilt, you have nothing to feel guilty about. You were thinking of what would have been best in your eyes for you and the baby and theres no reason to feel any guilt. It's amazing that you took all the steps to try your best to be a great mom and I'm sure you're doing amazing!

[@kiravideos.5353]

I completely get it . I got pregnant at 17 .. I found out when I was 7 weeks pregnant and my first thought was abortion too . BUT I had a great support system (still do) and I’m 19 now and my son is 1 .. thank you for sharing your story ❤️

[@nikkid284]

It's never easy or smooth telling people real facts and hard truths. You have done exceptionally awesome. Be proud. Head high and I wish you every single bit of happiness with that new little soul you created. ✌🤘

[@CharCo]

I love how open and honest you are in this video. I found out I was pregnant when I was 21 and had been told I had a 2% chance of having a baby so it was the last thing I was expecting. I had always planned to have a baby later down the track when I had my life "in order". At the beginning I was really scared as I felt so unprepared and also felt guilty because I had been living my life as a normal 21 year old up until the positive pregnancy test. But sometimes life happens and look how blessed we are now 😍 ps I'm a fellow New Zealand KZbinr!

[@laceyfoster3972]

I’m 18 and pregnant I’m so scared I suffer badly from anxiety as well this has got to be the most helpful video! I appreciate you for this! I would love to talk to you I’m in New Zealand aswell it would help me so much

[@gemmarose274]

Lacey Foster I’m glad it’s helpful, what a small world! My instagram is gemmarxse if you want you can message me on there? ⭐️ Ps. Congratulations, don’t be anxious about this you’ve got this 💪🏼

[@madisonmarsingill]

Hey girl! First off, congrats. I was also 18 and pregnant and now I am so blessed with a 4 month old precious baby girl! I’m here if you need to talk!! ❤️❤️

[@brandyparrish75]

Lacey Foster i was 18 when i had my oldest. She is now 9. It is a very scary experience and can be very stressful but honestly you can do it.

[@Mspowell30]

I was 18 when I had my first, you can do it.

[@princesspeach3336]

I was 17 and pregnant and now I have an amazing one year old. I was so thankful when his grandparents took him in and now I am able to be his mom which is something I thought I wasn't ever going to be able to do. So don't be scared, and definitely don't be afraid to talk to someone because that was my biggest mistake and I had no motivation to do anything for a long time.

[@Talex1022]

I can’t stop staring at your eyebrows... they’re seriously so perfect..

[@rachelsteed123]

Thank you for sharing. I can tell this wasn't easy for you. I believe everything happens for a reason too.

[@maddylinstone3486]

Though I've never experienced a similar situation, I love how open you are and your vibe. I really appreciate your story and honesty and that you want to be there for others. You seem like an amazing human being. I'm around the same age as you, and I just admire that you were willing to share your story because I know I couldn't open up as much, and I know people have and will continue to find this so helpful as I have.

[@kiahroyse5431]

I don't usually comment on videos and I haven't ever had even close to an experience like this, but your strength and confidence is so inspiring. I heard you say your babies name is Kyah, which is even more incredible that my name is Kiah and I just happened to click on this video. Thank you so much for your story, everything happens for a reason.

[@macaronicheese8721]

My mom struggled with anxiety and depression, and was suicidal and got pregnant at 18 and gave birth at 19. She says that if it weren't for her having my brother she doesn't know if she'd be here today. She said she felt like she needed someone to nurture, someone to care for other than herself. It helped her a lot. I can't wait to be a Mom myself

[@brittany22411]

Wow I went through the same thing as you. Before I found out i was pregnant I was going through so much, I was so depressed and i felt so alone but once I got pregnant my life changed. Everything does happen for a reason and im glad im not the only one going through. I'm currently still pregnant so your story helped me so much. Stay strong girl💘

[@carolinmiranda916]

At 14 I found out I was three months pregnant, I am now 16 with an almost two year old! I understand I’m young and probably should’ve been smarter but there’s no going back and I love my child beyond explaining!

[@kirstynwitt4488]

Cheyenne Riedel you're amazing I got pregnant at 15 I was keeping it but my baby passed in my arms so glad to see people step up instead of choosing themselves

[@carolinmiranda916]

kirstyn witt I am sorry to hear that! But I’m sure you would’ve been an amazing mom!

[@kirstynwitt4488]

Cheyenne Riedel thank you it means the world. I still love my angel more than anything. I know you're a great mother just because of the pure fact you chose that baby

[@joziegarcia2711]

So pure, so genuine, and so supportive. Much love for ya, love.

[@haylee989]

Forget about what people think everything happens for a reason. All that matters is your baby girl is healthy and happy❤️

[@karliblair6982]

You are so strong for pulling through that girl. Sending so much love your way 💗

[@gardenrose1038]

Such a intense story. I cried. I couldn't imagine finding out randomly one day your 5 months pregnant! I would of been so shocked and everything. You are a brave woman!

[@chloeshaw5661]

You're such a strong person for coming out the other end and sharing your story with us all. Your little one is beautiful. You're also very gorgeous ☘️🌹

[@Jillibabe22031]

I found out I was pregnant when I was 17 almost 18. I was doing awful things. Smoking, drinking, partying, treating my body like shit. I sat and battled myself with whether or not I should get an abortion, and of course it was for selfish reasons.. but when I heard my sons heart beat for the first time, I was already in love. Now I have this perfect baby boy who saved me from my demons. He saved my life. I know exactly what you mean ❤️❤️

[@yairasevilla7456]

@demia - youre disgusting, damn dude.

[@yairasevilla7456]

How is that relevant? You still lost. You made yourself look like a psychotic pathetic ass bitch. But you okay though, right? Your momma don't hate you? Oh she does? Oh well 🤷🏽‍♀️

[@yairasevilla7456]

but you over here trying to attack Jillian when her comment wasn't directed to you either. Hm.. interesting. try not to have such a headache once you're done reading this. go drink some water. go get you a warm glass a milk. god bless.

[@yairasevilla7456]

Oh :/ I'll pray for you and your family. Couldn't raise you properly so now you gotta start beef with other people through a screen for attention. Always on your phone, always waiting for that next notification to pop up so it feels like you're actually talking to someone. Girl go get you a friend. Stop scrolling down your dry ass messages and acting like a nervous wreck once you see this notification pop up. You really are a sad little girl. I'm watching this girl on youtube cause she's cute as hell and you automatically think i have a child too like do you have a family?? maybe some friends?? do you need some dick or some pussy to keep you sane?? why are you here? I'm 21 and still in college. go get you some psychiatric help. you need it. Like i said god bless

[@Jillibabe22031]

Demia Me grown people don't act like children in junior high. You're irrelevant. You can sit here and comment all day long, won't make a damn bit of difference. You're life must be pretty sad if all you do all day is criticize women for being/getting pregnant.

[@hahalove47]

I knew a girl who was a bit heavy and partied a lot so she never noticed her uterus getting bigger and any morning sickness she figured was from how much she was drinking. Her period was always really light and continued having light spotting until one month she didn't so she went to the doctor thinking maybe she had just gotten pregnant but ended up being 6 months.

[@cosmogal627]

Had my daughter at 18. In was pregnant my senior year. My daughter turned 30 this year. She is my best friend. I can't imagine my life without her. Scary time of my life. Goes so fast. I didn't have more children till 12 yrs later!

[@mythreesons000]

so very proud of you, be strong and your true friends will always be there for you !!!

[@brittxo2359]

This increcilbly brave of you. You should be so proud of yourself for being so open and honest. i think you are going to help many other people. God bless

[@dcoconutdreams]

I have a similar story with a few key points being different. Anyway, I want to thank you so freaking much for making this video. I don't feel as alone anymore 💙

[@allie1lilly2]

You are one strong girl. Watching your video reminds me of myself 39 years ago. I also had a girl. And she saved me from myself.

[@itssewxtra1713]

I found out I was pregnant with my first baby at 4 months, so I get it. I was at Uni at the time and was so busy and didn't get my period for 4 years from being on the pill. So it was double surprise. Wishing you and your baby the best of health and happiness! Are you in AU?

[@gemmarose274]

I was the same ! They're not very effective are they :O Thank you lovely, I'm in NZ!

[@taylor2551]

I was a drug addict pretty severe into heroin and meth Prior to that drinking and smoking everyday I got pregnant at 19 Had my daughter quit all drugs and drinking She will be 6 in September and I’ll be clean almost 7 years clean from everything Even quit smoking Sometimes kids are the ones who have the power to change us And if you’ve had an abortion that’s okay too. We all have different journeys

[@taylor2551]

@@Brittanyyyannaaa26 yes girl I am so proud of you!!! Keep it up! I try to share my story where I can to hopefully help someone else like yourself who maybe has gone through a similar story see my comment and help them not feel alone! Because we aren't alone at all

[@KristinaMassa17]

This entire video I was mesmerized by your eyes. The shape of them is absolutely beautiful. Thanks for sharing your story

[@sophiebarnes2087]

This is an amazing video, good on you for speaking to the world and sharing your story. I went through the same thing, I got pregnant around October/November 2015, the same time me and my boyfriend split up. The way I distracted myself from him was to go out and drink every weekend. I was on the pill but skipped the sugar ones to I didn't get a period, I didn't show, and I didn't have any morning sickness. The only sign was my stomach was very tense and my mum kept joking around about me being pregnant until I brought a test at 10am after work on April 19th 2016. it came up positive straight away. I had a very sleepless night. My mum took me to family planning the next morning and the nurse said I felt around 20+ weeks, I was in so much shock, I didn't want this baby I wanted an abortion. She sent me for an emergency scan and I ended up getting told I was 26 weeks and due July 31st 2016. I had 14 weeks until I was going to deliver a baby. On July 25th 2016 I gave birth to my baby boy Micah, he's now 16 months old and the light of my life. It's so scary what we went through but we dealt with it and now look at us 😊

[@ziggy363]

You’re so strong, congratulations! ❤️ your baby is one lucky girl ☺️

[@erinwilliams1743]

You are so strong and what a wonderful mommy you are- parenthood is hard whether youre young or old and married- Im so so happy you chose life for your baby girl

[@shimizimer]

You are amazing! I had an abortion when I was a bit older then you and it was the right decision. I think every woman should make her own decision but there is nothing wrong when you choose yourself and your life

[@jesssouthwest8776]

I'm always in awe of stories like this. Thank you for being brace and sharing your story.

[@mandisashozi8639]

this is one of the most authentic videoes ive seen in a looong time. Im here for what youre trying to do with this channel. Keep growing love! I cant wait to see more of your journey through life

[@annas4191]

i just have to give you mad props for owning your life and taking responsibility. Wish there were more people like that in the world!!!!!!