First Time Hearing Blessed Be by Spiritbox | Suicide Survivor Reacts

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Thank you to my darling Patreon pack member, Ron Young, for this jolt to the system. I did not see that plot twist coming! This is my first time hearing Spiritbox and today I reacted to the song Blessed Be from the album of the same name. This is a must see for anyone who has been (or is in) a toxic relationship. Anyone who has survived narcisisstic abuse (or any abuse) will definitely relate to this.
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[@MentalAmanda]

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[@kirdot2011]

Do you mind telling what made you suicidal?

[@user-mw1li1jk8h]

A suicide survivor who is so proud they survived their suicide attempt to be rubbing that fact in everyone else's face is trying to teach me about mental health. I'll pass, thank you.

[@MentalAmanda]

@@user-mw1li1jk8h Those of us who have made it out of Hell are often the first ones to carry buckets of water back for the ones still trapped there.

[@user-mw1li1jk8h]

@@MentalAmanda Self-inflicted hell. Sorry, my hell is different than your hell and I did not bring it upon myself. I got better things to do than to cry "Suicide Victim" LoL

[@MentalAmanda]

@@user-mw1li1jk8h Are you suggesting that I brought miscarriage, losing my parents or rape on myself? And I never use the term suicide victim. Only survivor.

[@tljr8927]

I would also recommend their song Constance. The song was written as a way for Courtney ( the singer) to process her grief after losing her grandmother and not being able to attend the funeral because of covid restrictions. The video tells the story of the video's director whose grandmother has dementia. Constance is her name and is where the title is from. Keep up the great work!

[@jindas4217]

Constance...omg such an amazing song/video. So glad, they have made it during these trying times. This Album/band is amazing!

[@kudblythe]

I already get all weepy watching her reactions. Constance already makes me almost inconsolable. I wanna see what happens when the two are added together. A hurricane of emotion, no doubt.

[@Tobyc1315]

Courtney has said in interviews that the toxic partner here is the personification of her depression and how she dreams of killing it.

[@corinna007]

Yes, the video was inspired by Handmaid's Tale, and if I remember correctly, I believe Courtney mentioned that the lyrics are about her own struggles with anxiety. I really like this song. (Also, not sure if you noticed the chain around her ankle in several scenes.)

[@alexp247365]

When Courtney gets to the part where she's screaming 'offer me.. i have the heart of a coward,' I always get teary-eyed by the wave of emotions that hit me.

[@nicholaslindsey7087]

Pretty much every song from this group is a gold mine! Circle With Me and Secret Garden are ones you may enjoy quite a bit!

[@TheeFinchLynch]

As a massive Spiritbox fan, i can easily say this is the best analysis / interpretation of this song and video i've seen, and I've seen nearly all of them. I even learned things I didn't know, about chemicals and even this song I've heard 200 times. Amazing work.

[@maajnat4782]

The metal music industry has put out some quality projects addressing mental health issues this year. Check out Spiritbox's album

[@ronyoung3032]

“Bleach Bath” is probably my favorite Spiritbox song. They are all good, but that one in particular is quite the ride. Hope to see you do more Spiritbox, as I’ve read in an interview that their songs do have mental health aspects to them.

[@Wings2Fly1993]

Holy shit I never see anyone talk about Bleach Bath. It will FOREVER be my favorite by them! The video is crazy and the drop at the end is so intense

[@Chronicskillness]

Those lyrics too!

[@horror-core]

This is one of the best metal-core bands around. Courtney's vocals and lyrics are amazing!!

[@lizardman8712]

Subbed! As someone who has struggled with depression but didnt cross the path of suicide, we need to support each other in hard times, in shame in asking for help. I got help and am doing much better. It all started with my heart being broken but now I'm doing better after 2 yrs of somewhat depression.

[@bradkohl99]

It’s totally inspired by Handmaid’s Tale. Most of their videos are inspired by horror-esque things. While this one can be interpreted as a toxic relationship with another person, Courtney herself described this one as a toxic relationship with her own self.

[@ronyoung3032]

If I could Like this video 100 times a day, I would. 1) Your reaction is amusing. Always makes me laugh. 2) the information you provide is valuable. In a lot of ways, what you say here makes me see things in a very positive way. Just mutual experience that you verbalize in a way that I like to hear. Cheers Amanda.

[@ronyoung3032]

Glad you liked it. I didn’t know Blessed Be is used by wiccans. I used to date one. She said a friend “bound” me to her. That was about 13 or so years ago. Which is why I sought her out a few years ago. I was going to ask what context Blessed Be is used, but then you explained it in your video. I appreciate your insight into this song, as I really like this song, and a new perspective from you gives me a new appreciation. Happy Thanksgiving!

[@quasicrystal42]

I'm glad you did a react about spiritbox! Thank you for doing so! I've discovered them weeks ago. Absolutely love it!

[@andrewbarrass438]

I've watched a lot of react vids but yours is the most amazing one I have ever seen

[@kev.aka-cool]

Love This Song!!! I've had my experience w/ unsettling relationships that left me almost to the point of feeling none existent which obviously got away from even though somewhat affection was still there for that person. Thank you greatly in sharing your knowledge to help people free themselves in order to breath new life & keeping there mental health strong of persevering forward. 🎸⚡⚡⚡

[@ronyoung3032]

Merry Christmas Amanda. Sometimes the greatest gifts are memories of what someone once said to me. And your thoughts on this video ring true. Cheers.

[@astrozach7872]

You just helped me realized with the OCD and serotonin levels lowering how I’m really a Demi sexual and how that applies to what I need emotionally and scientifically in a relationship makes sense from the OCD I have and how codependency was something I created! So thank you! Your knowledge is super helpful! I’m grateful!

[@stevehunt6741]

Amanda , I hope your doing well.. You've came a long way. You're SO BEAUTIFUL (inside and out) ❤💔

[@jamesstreet910]

Really enjoyed this reaction. Brought some different perspective and learned a bit about the “chemicals” we have in us. Subbed

[@ronyoung3032]

You’re very observant with details in this video. I never noticed the static on the television, and would have never made the connection that Courtney is staring at nothing. Nice insight. Cheers.

[@Chronicskillness]

My favorite Spiritbox song and in my top 10 favorite songs of all music. *Sun Killer* and *Holly Roller* are remarkable as well. They seriously don't have a single song below 7.5/10

[@Texas_Swift]

My 8 year daughter and I love Spiritbox! Courtney is absolutely amazing. Definitely check out Constance and Secret Garden. Stay well.

[@Artemis_in_the_Woods]

Love your take on this, it's a powerful song that resonates with me from my own toxic relationship! Happy I discovered your channel!

[@TomFret]

It should be noted that she's married to the guitar player and they both wrote this together. The relationship can't be too toxic 🤷

[@shawnwacek6791]

You hit the nail on the coffin handmade tail vibe bravo on figuring it out and good job realizing somewhat the message of the video glad you enjoyed it your face reaction for the twist in scene with the guys in the room struggling LOL 😂 !

[@Chronicskillness]

Same themes in *The Mara Effect Pt.3" and *Beauty of Suffering* "The Beauty Of Suffering" You say the pain will liberate me You turn my body into knots, and tell me it's a blessing You say you love me in this shape That there is beauty in my suffering I wonder would I stay if you asked for it You still create the shape, and I ask for it I gave my heart in pieces Please release me, I'm tired Don't try to pacify me Please release me, I'm tired I'm slipping away No discipline, just let me be And now my body starts to worry Put down the words, I will not hesitate This is your chance, make me relatable Knock me down with your false intentions It turns to ash in my mouth I need you gone, I beg you to release me Now, I turn my body into something Into the shape you find so trusting I could never be that shape You caught me slipping Farther down in madness Echo chamber (Nod your) Leave my body in peace No need to pacify me Nod your head yes The pain will set you free I gave my heart in pieces Please release me, I'm tired Don't try to pacify me Please release me, I'm tired (Please release me, I'm tired) Leave my body in peace No need to pacify me Leave my body in peace No need to pacify me You find escape in the reverie This is the beauty of suffering I love you, I always will My heart is always still I love you, I always will My heart is always still Please release me, I'm tired (You find the strength in the reverie) Please release me, I'm tired (This is the beauty of suffering) Please release me, I'm tired The Mara Effect, Pt.3" I am a prisoner here Weave the synthetic when wrapping up my wrists I don't truly dream when you're near Loosen aesthetics remain asphyxiated on the paint peeling back from the door Now I can see you for what you are She drew the shape on the floor Now I can see the full spectrum How can I feel existential dread? It's my fear I am eternal Hurt me with your mouth, make me settle down Whispering the words on the wind as they blow Heartbeat in the nest, pressure on my chest Where did all the signs of the dissonant go? And when they tell me they pray for me and they lack a certain empathy The enemy hits me so low So the circles on the ground make me settle down Hurt me, give me something from nothing This is the lie that you come from Meet me down in the mud She is the mother and she loves it when we all hurt each other Proud that her children are weak I am a language that you have hidden in a syllable And now you're refusing to speak I don't even cry anymore I don't even cry anymore My skin crawls, my chest heaves Punish me It's the effect of the Mara It's the effect of the Mara It's the...

[@AndrewEnglish-ge1tf]

Don't know if you've ever watched any of "The Handmaid's Tale" but thats where Courtney and her husband got a lot of the inspiration for this music video.

[@MentalAmanda]

It's one of the few shows I watch actually!

[@KestrelAerial]

Another great insight. 2 things, 1. my sister is a wican high priestess, and have looked on closely but on the outside I would say the occult I'd not the best place for someone who struggles with their mental health, so glad you have left that part of your life behind you. 2. I would never have looked at relationships in relation to the chemical influences on the brain. Onto thine own self be true. XX

[@MentalAmanda]

I had great experiences with my time practicing Wicca, I just don't align with the beliefs. I do think people can skew things though and they can become very unhealthy.

[@BLOODWALKER911]

I think a great song by Spiritbox that you should react to is Eternal Blue. It is off their album also called Eternal Blue. The hole album is amazing.

[@horror-core]

Oh! Also if you didn't notice, because it took me about 5 times watching. She has a chain around her ankle in the video. Even when she's in the tub.

[@MentalAmanda]

I noticed. I said "break free" when she walked into the hall, but I didn't pause so you may not have heard.

[@horror-core]

@@MentalAmanda lol I must have👍

[@redhotskillet2225]

Hey Amanda. Fun fact for ya: the lead singer Courtney Laplante got her inspiration from her favorite tv series and my favorite as well THE HANDMAIDS TALE.

[@redhotskillet2225]

Oh I also meant to tell you, do you know about the whole seratonin like a loaded gun line? It was a drug they would often use that in Handmaid's Tale to impregnate the women or just to get them (for the men to get their sex use) and the women would often struggle if they didn't want it. Also the different visions of the man Courtney showing different ways she often thinks about how to kill him which in the show they would show visions some of the women would have in the show on different ways they would often think on how to kill them (the men). It's an amazing show and happy you know about it because the visuals in this video still keep getting a lot of reactors confused because they know nothing about Handmaid's Tale so its amazing and beautiful to see you can visual that and understand it in some way. One more thing at the end of you saw a red looking visual through the glass door How it was the husband character to Courtney's character and in the series you see a lot of yeah even though the men that do get killed well the women still have that fear of the man or men because their so brainwashed that they still believe that the men can still control even after death.

[@user-tk7um3hi8x]

excellent lyrical analysis

[@jakeday1842]

I just found your channel over the Christmas season, i enjoy it very much , depression has been a life long struggle, I'm 50 year old man , divorced 5 years ,it's taken a while to get over it i thought i would share a playlist when i get down it helps me , You don't know ,,katlyin tarver The storm inside of you ,, veronica ballistrini Oceans of time,,axel rudi pell I am only one ,,we are the fallen I remember everything,, five finger death punch Burn with me ,, amaranthe One more light ,, linkin park Keeper of the seven keys ,,helloween Hurt ,, nine inch nails Under your scars ,, godsmack Silent Lucidity,, queensryche Death comes near me ,, draconian This is just a few , depression is not just something adolescents and young adults deal with , ( Robin Williams, Chester Bennington, Chris Cornnell , etc etc ) , everyone has their way of dealing with it , mine is music , 🎶, i hope everyone has a great day , thanks J.D.

[@karrington2]

I recommend like love by the amity affliction, it is about suicide and very sad and POWERFUL song!

[@Mass-produced]

As a huge fan of this band this was a refreshing reaction. You'd be surprised by most of there songs. A lot of them deal with relationships. I'd love you hear your take on Hurt You and Rule Of Nines by Spiritbox both have music videos to them.

[@ronyoung3032]

"Just because you could, doesn't mean you should" - A

[@Rachel-cx4rt]

Hey Amanda. You should check out Clayton Jennings “Please Don’t Kill Yourself” and “Dear Anxiety”. Much love 💕

[@horror-core]

I loved your take on this. This is one of my favorite bands. On the upside she's married to the guitar player, his name is Mike, and they're happy. I was waiting for the end of the video I knew it was gonna get ya lol. Majority of their songs are like that. Her voice is so beautiful then she just hits you with it, then is able to bring it right back. I don't know anything about you except the channel name and this video, but I have issues with that myself. Talking myself down because I'm not afraid at all, which is a dangerous thing. I'll be sure to watch more of your videos. 🤘🤎

[@MentalAmanda]

You can also message or email me anytime you are struggling. My contact info is in the description.

[@horror-core]

@@MentalAmanda Thank you! I've been struggling for the past year. My Dr just says "how are you?" I say miserable he says "ohhh" then gives me my medicine. It takes 15 minutes. I will definitely get on touch with you. Thanks for your time

[@MentalAmanda]

@@horror-core That is what doctors do 98% of the time. That's why I am adament about teaching other ways.

[@georginamilne3194]

I've just found your videos so forgive me if you have already covered it but check out Celebration Song by Holding Absence... Because after all the dark days the light can shine through. Also spiritbox are incredible so glad you made this video.

[@roryasrorri701]

would love to watch you react to some NF's stuff. guy knows his way around words.

[@jasonfisher8529]

Welcome to Courtney LaPlante, Amanda. This is Spiritbox, and yes most of what they do is friggin' gold.

[@zynius]

Arch Enemy - Reason to Believe! Great song for getting your hopes up. :)

[@TheScorpio1999]

I've been hoping for you to react to "Priestess" by Periphery sometime, but this is also nice. I also really like this band. Hope you're doing well.

[@christopermacgyver8960]

Dude seriously you have to make a reaction for Nick Thurl Mavromatis new song. He's the clean vocalist for October Ends

[@danielhensley2597]

As a suicide survivor myself please listen 🎧 to Alice In Chains Don’t follow its about heroin but applicable to people like you and i

[@JKGuitarPro]

Can you do Sleep Therapy by Ghost Atlas? It’s short but sweet, very powerful.

[@swere1240]

rules of nine is probly my favorite by them its a very mesmerizing song

[@massimoricciardi6202]

Have to admit Spiritbox is a good band .

[@bswain9999]

most contemporary music and songs are about emotional struggle; it has been how the youth relate dig further back in time and it is apparent - look at ABBA, Fleetwood Mack (as 2 completely different genres) listen to Pink Floyd - The Wall (a double ALBUM - that's 90 minutes - about a mental struggle) and then do your piece to camera after - helped me

[@ronyoung3032]

Anyways, you always lift my spirit when i least expected and realized i needed it. So cheers to you. I'll leave this here though: Belcarra Some day, some how, and that right soon, I'm looking forward to your first time watching it.

[@saltyark7564]

3:25 ish, that’s pretty fascinating

[@saltyark7564]

My bad it’s a bit earlier 😅 3:15ish

[@westyskp9691]

I won't see you tonight 1 & 2 by A7X is good as 1 is from the perspective of the 1st person and 2 is the perspective of those left behind.

[@benjaminrider6351]

I think the killing is definitely symbolic. That is why there are so many different ways that he is murdered (poisoned, stabbed, etc.).

[@ugg10video76]

He is also standing in the doorway in the last shot. As others have said also her chain and in the final scene the open bird cage. Spiritbox do a number of “horror genre” based videos (Holy Roller - Midsomer). As others have said there is a lot of honest talk about anxiety, depression and mental illness/wellbeing in metal, Jinjer often do this but also if you look at the lyrics of Tool they are often about understanding yourself and pushing to be the best version of you (46&2 and Lateralus especially). For me the essence about Metal is understanding yourself, accepting who you are and living the best life you can (often by understanding the darker parts of your being), this may be the opposite of the popular view of metalhead (death, drugs etc.) but if you take time to read the lyrics this is often the message that comes through.

[@danieleuggetti1818]

6:05 you've been spiritboxed :)

[@jamesm5883]

What you spoke about after the first verse is me down to the letter, and I believe that's why I've had so many failed relationships, I have a tendency to grasp to hard...so I'm wondering if I'm the toxic one with my wife of 15 years asking me to leave....but on another note you should check out the SiriusXM live version of this song, great reaction!

[@MentalAmanda]

It doesn't necessarily mean you're toxic, but co-dependency (grasping too hard) often does more harm than good. I used to be that way as well. I hope you guys can work things out!

[@jamesm5883]

@@MentalAmanda we've been separated for over a year now and found out during the time we were together (for about 2 years previous to me leaving) she had been cheating, she won't admit to it but I have proof, could I have driven her to that where I've been faithful? I have no one to talk to about this, no family or friends, so I've been going through this alone.....

[@MentalAmanda]

@@jamesm5883 You can talk to me anytime. Her drive to be unfaithful could have been a sex addiction, being unfulfilled in some way, a mental disorder driving an insatiable need for approval.....there are SO many possibilities. Sure, be honest with yourself about whether you could have done things better, but don't obsess over it. Use it as a lesson. Maybe there was nothing you could have done and it would have happened either way.

[@jeffgallucci4558]

Check out River Runs Red by Life of Agony

[@brokenmechanics1772]

I think you would like Soma By Smashing Pumpkins (the guitars are great in itself and sounds dreamy/calming) or ATWA by System of Down in which you interpret it in anyway it fits you (The band said in an interview it depends on the listener).

[@kristenforrest9690]

Where did you get your headphones i want them soo bad!

[@MentalAmanda]

I actually sell kitty headphones in pink or blue! You can message me on IG or email me at [e-mail]

[@filipinodad6837]

Prays the triple moon goddesses.. btw I hit that like.. anything to help a beautiful women. ❤️

[@andyk9902]

What if the male partner just can't do anything with himself. Some people are hot, some cold. I am from the warm kinesthetic person's that are living on the low serotonin level and I just physically can't widen my emotions and live like people don't sit still. I was in relationships like that but as a result my mental health was damaged slightly instead of hers.

[@andyk9902]

And term "toxic" in that context must not sound as "guilty male manipulator", for me it was dangerous, I was manipulated and really afraid to have a knife in my body

[@MentalAmanda]

Some people and their emotional balance is just incompatible.

[@shawncronenwett551]

Look up Alice in chains love hate love at the Moore live. Best performance ever. Alot of feeling in the song.

[@t0asty872]

I'd like to recommend The Unforgiven by Metallica it's one my my favorite songs of all time.

[@ronyoung3032]

I used to date a girl that took 7 medications daily. It was part of my role to see that she did. She and I tried a few times for her to quit cold turkey but that would end up with her back in the hospital getting medication till she was stabilized. She started to smoke pot, and that did help, but honestly I've never seen anyone consume so much high potency medical grade marijuana as she can. Anyways, that does help her. We're not together anymore, but she's still my friend. That's a whole other story.

[@Fenrir6Gaming]

Shes dreaming all the ways she could kill him.

[@ringo-ringo8901]

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[@kuruk9379]

“Suicide survivor” sounds cirngy to be using that as your title. But that sounds like a good metal band name

[@MentalAmanda]

It's so a potential viewer knows what perspective I am reviewing from. Like 'vocal coach.' The channel is about raising mental health awareness.

[@LarkVsOwl-de3op]

more art. less content.