flatsound | learning to hate you as a self defense mechanism | lyrics

[@entity5279]

that epilipsy warning was like infamous 2 it gives you a warning then immidiately strobes you

[@inteztinez4605]

Joshua Sullins wow can't wait to play that

[@nafiend3158]

such a niche reference and yet one that rings within my heartbox

[@howtomeetwomen-]

lol I scrolled up to subscribe and got hit once. Thanks for the Infamous 2 warning! >

[@howtomeetwomen-]

@@nafiend3158 gonna start saying heartbox

[@InnocentSweetie123]

I listened to this song and the lyrics "I will hold onto this hate as long as I need to" hit me hard because I cut ties with a friend years ago, yet I still can't stop hating him. This song is so relatable... I've had friends stab me in the back when I needed them the most...

[@laneyterrell2989]

The "you would leave when I got sick" line hit way too close to home for me. So beautifully tragic, I love this song.

[@lovelyskinsukj8565]

for some reason this song made me want to tell my best friend that i love her so i did. i think i should tell her i love her everyday because i don't think she realises how much i do love her. fuck i love her so much

[@tigerpink10]

Same :^

[@obsydian_jay]

lovely skins uk J Awwwww! That's so sweet.

[@brennyluv]

I feel so small listening to this song

[@jnol784]

Brenna Arianna same

[@SiosOrangeCore]

these soft indie songs are great and all but why is the title always like a full article

[@march_to_our_fall2483]

CACTUSROBBER! listen to keaton henson! only like, one of his songs has a longer title.

[@wouxnd]

CACTUSROBBER! I feel like it has more meaning.

[@michaelhermann58]

Because life can't be summed up in a few words.

[@spooky.dorito]

by fall out boy

[@triss.2540]

@@march_to_our_fall2483 keaton henson's 'you dont know how lucky you are' broke me :(

[@scortina11]

This is such a beautiful fucking song

[@iatetwosandwiches]

flatsound inspired me to write poems.

[@oliveraddison6143]

banana boy me too, i love it

[@graciep1995]

Me too.

[@InnocentSweetie123]

Mitch Welling/Flatsound is actually a poet himself!

[@michame1284]

Damn I'm turning into THAT teen

[@Parasitoid_Sentimentality]

I was already that term before I was a teen and it's cringy

[@katheryn3138]

Test Subject Mafia me fucking too

[@firstnamesurname7640]

OH GOD NO ITS ME TOO. SHIIIIIIIIIIIIT.

[@anniehuckaby2649]

That's okay though because we all go through phases, so does the moon, but it's still the moon. You are still you even when you go through phases.

[@Parasitoid_Sentimentality]

I wish it was just a phase lmao if it is I would jump for joy

[@michaelsotelo5051]

Amazing wish there was more lyric videos for flatsound

[@TaylorAlexis-noot]

i would gladly make more, any song you'd like?

[@erikapartilova3470]

what about "don't call me at all" ?? (:

[@dinorashennise2946]

taylor alexis you should make one to you wrote don't forget on your arm, or they'll like me when im sick

[@TaylorAlexis-noot]

I can definitely make those as soon as i get my new laptop for christmas!!

[@ok_jilvanei]

I think that's the best lyric video i've ever seen

[@TaylorAlexis-noot]

thank u!!

[@TaylorAlexis-noot]

i appreciate all these comments! its been almost two years since i made this and i still come read them. lots of them are very sad and touching and they make me feel a way i can't explain. thank u all for sharing your stories and feelings, and i hope you are all doing well in your times of sadness and depression. also check out one of my other flatsound vids, kzbin.info/www/bejne/rnSmkoVuYtGFgsU this one is personally my favorite even if it isnt as popular, it hits me in a very personal way about a person who means the entire universe to me.

[@holly9749]

People are on the receiving end of this, but it hurts just as badly when you cause this to someone and you find out they always thought you were a shitty friend. I fell out with a friend and they did a vent post with this song on another site. I sent her a huge apology, but then I look into the song's lyrics and I realise she thinks I was always a shitty friend. I feel so guilty. I've upset her. But I love this song, even if it does give me bad memories.

[@paragonnina]

*I met my best friend on Twitter in 2013. We were both young and shared the same heartache. We comforted each other everyday. 6 years later I end up moving in with her, and everything changes. They showed who they really were, and how toxic they are. I lost my best friend of 6 years a month ago. I regret ever loving you.*

[@jettgoldberg1015]

yup. coming back to this song 4 years later. I’m 17 now. if you’re sad, know that it’ll honestly be like for a while. that’s the honest truth. go out with friends. stay strong to your your beliefs. if you believe drugs and alcohol are bad, don’t do them. if you like to try new things, do drugs and alcohol. break the law a few times. please, whatever you do, don’t take your precious life away from me and the rest of the world.

[@melissaaguilera617]

this feels like a song that I wrote myself because it's so relatable

[@cimy4330]

It was a toxic friendship but when I left I didnt exactly feel free. I know it was the right thing to do but that didnt make it any less painful. He was a shitty friend and he hates me for leaving. I dont hate him and Im telling myself thats okay. Its really hard to cope with this feeling.

[@cimy4330]

Sad omg I needed this as soon as you commented haha It probably doesnt mean as much to you but thanks. 😊😊😊

[@valeriecarpenter7459]

I left him, he left the school. He’s coming back next week and I’ve had 5 panic attacks and my depression has spikes intensely

[@graciep1995]

@@valeriecarpenter7459 I hope you're okay

[@valeriecarpenter7459]

Gracie pratt It has past and I’m feeling better, I got one last “Fuck you.” In before he left. Thank you.

[@lumalu2863]

I left a friend too because I felt like i couldn't be myself when I was with her. I messaged her nearly 3 years ago and i still feel guilty telling her how i felt about our "friendship". After 3 years she is still gossiping about me with some friends and I feel like i did a big mistake... I don't know what to do.

[@daninorris3752]

This reminds me of my friend Hannah, who killed herself two years ago because she believed she wasn't good enough for life. You're worth life Everybody is

[@vistaheightz]

i forgot i said that

[@sphinxd8377]

Tordoise that doesn't excuse the fact that you did say it and you're a terrible human

[@vistaheightz]

True

[@anp.6615]

Danielle Norris 13 reasons why lmfaooo

[@vistaheightz]

I'm going to hell help me

[@okcool241]

Songs like this are simply amazing. Videos like this are just little places for people to vent. Add names, deep detail, everything about them. I feel so connected to them even when I don't reply. I just hate seeing people stuck in a horrible mind but they feel so much better after ranting...I truly love everyone.. edit: well, here i am again. and the saddest i've ever been :): 9-19-17

[@rocksock124]

wow i just scrolled through the comments trying to find the lyrics because i forgot this video had lyrics... i was reading them as they popped up while scrolling.....

[@oliveraddison6143]

Ari Nyaneko SAME

[@lizzabarth1496]

depression you're back I've missed you *cries*

[@pierce3423]

ive been looking for this song longer than i can even remember, i feel such a relief hearing it again

[@emmahubbard6787]

this is from almost a year ago but thank you so so much for making this

[@anonillustrations8680]

i was in a long distance relationship for 6 months and they broke it off with me bc they said they were stressed and they didnt have time for me or anyone when in reality they literally did nothing actually For me that took effort. Idk i miss them and ive been listening to crywank and flatsound a lot more lately it feels like im just too hard to handle even though im a very simple person and im not high maintenance

[@oliveraddison6143]

Very Sad Human you sound like me oml

[@WerewolfofEpicness]

Long distance can be troublesome like that, takes the right people to stand it. You'll find someone though. Someone for everyone.

[@anthonyconrad5756]

Same thing happened to me today, though we only lasted two weeks with it

[@reed574]

5 long years just gone

[@tumorous_weeb6935]

I'm very thankful to the artist because his beautiful words have helped me think through and overcome so much sadness. I lost all of my best friends, and then I moved far away and I dont know anyone here... and I'm very nervous around strangers.. but when I listen to these songs, I realize that things always change wheather you want them to or not, so I know I won't be lonely forever. No matter how dark it gets I know that morning will come. Thank you flatsound.

[@cheyenne2001nc]

dear hunter, this song is as close as i can get to ever telling you how you ruined me.

[@monochromedream-eatingbaku]

"learning to hate you as a self defense mechanism" equals my life. Seriously, there was one year when I despised everyone and stabbed them in the back because they hated me. But I've learned that I don't have to hate them for hating me. So everyone still hates me but I'm okay with that now! It's not my place to be mad at them for disliking me.

[@dakotahope599]

Hard work for a good reason 😊 I love it so much! thank you. ♡ hope you're good

[@acidesystoppedworking5857]

Leiana Hope your profile pic is lovely

[@broke3080]

i can relate to this so much the you were always a shitty friend you never called me on my birthday every little word i can relate to and i'm only reliving slowly losing a really good friend

[@vistaheightz]

same..

[@shizzlefreak5140]

Flatsound is a fucking blessing given to us by some greater entity that no human brain could understand, yet Flatsound understands us perfectly. I really hope that made sense

[@zannadoodles]

You posted this five years ago, so you might not see this comment, but I just wanted you to know that this video was so important to me a couple years ago. Not just the song, but the way that it's paired with lightening in the background too. Thunderstorms really calm me, especially watching the lightening. So watching this video and listening to the song late at night when I was in bed really helped to calm me down after a bad night. Thank you

[@smokincelery]

I feel that with her daughter lyric vid. Something about it is so nostalgic and calming to me now

[@jaydalissieworthen1296]

I learned that I didnt hate you in particular. It was me I hated. I hated myself for not being able to hate you. I hated how hard it was to stop loving you.

[@Lisak02]

this just blessed my ears

[@daneillehansen1791]

story of my life. I had a friend and he always made me really happy then started ignoring me and talking a TON to one of my close friends. it wasn't bad at first but then she started hating on me and he'd rub it in my face too. like add me to chats where they would completely ignore me and just talk to each other. my other friend hates me now more then ever. RiP tHiS iS gEtTiNg DePrEsSiNg

[@oliverarieno3710]

Daneille Hansen I know this is gonna sound crazy but I don't think there your friends

[@daneillehansen1791]

Everything Junkie yup I know now

[@daneillehansen1791]

***** thanks

[@gazelrosa676]

Daneille Hansen you just learn that they're not your friends.

[@dannarodriguez2781]

Daneille Hansen Keep your head up, i'm sure you're a wonderful person & a very amazing friend :)

[@Mo_msh]

sounds a lot like Keaton Henson

[@aunikabeach6382]

Demi Sparks exactly what I was thinking

[@eepersxo4171]

+Aunika Beach i thought it was until i looked at my phone and it said flatsound. i was confused.

[@ekbamusic]

Demi Sparks said the same thing

[@ekbamusic]

Demi Sparks lyrics are sort of similar as well

[@march_to_our_fall2483]

yeah. i'm really into keaton henson and my friend suggested this song and i'm just like woAh

[@mikaylaelrod1202]

I've listened to this song a thousand times, but I never listened to the lyrics until now. Now that I do listen to them, it reminds me of the book I'm trying to write because of how closely it fits. Same name and everything. I'm actually astonished.

[@madkildee]

The phone ringing at the end definitely got to me

[@hollyhidalgo7878]

guys im ccrying so much every single lyric is fucking relatable...,. what the hell dawg ,,she hurt me so much but i miss her man, and ill say i dont, but i really do dawg, its so quiet without her. ... but she hurt me so much.

[@almam6181]

gosh this brings back heartbreak

[@marianneianne6986]

listening this while reading wattpad its give me chillin'

[@thetiggytree]

every single lyrics relates to me, and it hurts but in a good way when I listen to this.

[@galectic42]

i had a friend who would blame everyone else for her actions so much i think she needed it to survive. she lied and she hurt me and my other friend. i finally stood up to her and she made it my fault. she said how i had influenced her so much and how it was mean for me to tell her about what i felt. I know this video is old but i saw some stories and i wanted to share mine

[@galectic42]

how can something so beautiful hurt me this badly

[@robboehler9630]

I think of this song whenever it rains. And then I think about the person that this song is about for me. It's been years and I feel different but I'm not over it

[@e.s.h4752]

Thank you so much for the epilepsy warning!!

[@giannadotti5137]

I was looking for some new music to listen to because I have extra ITunes money. One of my friends posted that they liked flatsound so I looked it up. God damn this song hit me, I had an expirience recently where i went through a lot of what this song describes. I am in love.

[@umbrellamayor5329]

H E C K THIS SONG KILLS ME

[@bobglob4421]

She was perfect. I miss her still, even after so long. I really just wanted to help her but she thought there was no way anybody could care about her that much. An early childhood trauma re-enacted in a setting meant for healing. I miss her so much. I wish I could have done something, but I hadn't known her at the time. Aside from fond memories, this is the only thing I have to remember us by. This song brought us so much joy. What we could be. I miss you.

[@bobglob4421]

Ranting to the infinite audience of the internet again, I guess. Sorry guys.

[@nicholaselrod5565]

I love this edit

[@SkiArbol]

It reminds me of him. The boy who almost drove me to suicide. He never did anything yet I loved him. But I knew he would never love me back. Bad memories.

[@leotrombetta1783]

so beautiful and real..

[@jadewilliamson632]

As soon as it said “You’re on the phone” I just started crying

[@critical-goat]

I listened to this for awhile back when I had a falling out with my friend. Friend doesn't cover it. Best friend doesn't cover it. We've known eachother since childhood. We did everything together. No amount of fighting could keep us from making up. Straight up stopped acknowledging that I existed for a solid 3 months. We're on speaking terms again, and I can say honestly that I'm glad we're friends again, but that.... will always stick with me, that they so readily dropped me over a misunderstanding and were so trusting of the person who manipulated and hurt the both of us, but was so slow to trust me and let me back in. It'll always stick to me, even if this was years ago and we're different people now. The silence before being hit with "you were always a shitty friend" just feels different when it's a current feeling.

[@TheDashingOne123]

great song great lyrics thanks !!

[@marcosdelarosa1669]

My ex girlfriend and I were together for 8 years, I have clinical depression and anxiety, everytime I would fall back into it she would disappear. "You would leave when I got sick" really hits me

[@candlelight7600]

This song makes me remember an ex-friend who hurt me really badly, and now I watch them be friends with my friends with the conflicting feelings of telling everyone what they did vs knowing they weren't a bad person, just a shitty friend. I hate them and this song is so comforting because it's like telling me its ok to hate them.

[@bulbassaurbestchoice7894]

Thanks for it

[@antediluvian6211]

chills

[@umbrellamayor5329]

FUCK AND THEN AT THE END WITH THE RINGING OF THE PHONE WAITING FOR AN ANSWER MY GOD IT BREAKS MY HEART A BIT MORE EVERY RING.

[@shairamaeabara1716]

this song is so so so damn good.

[@shotaaizawa1320]

4am breakdown starter pack

[@jellyfishbat0leg268]

I'm never getting over her...

[@SunshineSeatbelts]

i just realized after first listening to the song that the beginning lyrics are "You're on the phone, with the someone who doesn't know..." and the ending is the sound of a phone calling someone... (00:26) (05:12)

[@hermitcrab123]

I just had a minor breakdown And that's amazing, I live for songs like this

[@tired9351]

goddamn I hate being depressed, I get so emo ahahaha. well, it’s half past midnight and here I am. might as well break the replay button

[@BeezKneezBUZZ]

Trying to move on after a two years of abuse and cheating 😔 of course he has someone new. And I think of you often... but I thank him for showing me the signs I should have noticed in the beginning.

[@blahblahblahlogan7061]

Too real

[@celeste5589]

used to relate, glad i dont have to. long distance sucks but i love her.

[@Javier-zm9nq]

i cry every time i listen to this song

[@isabellemarsh1077]

I called him J. He checked in on me, asked me about my day, and made me feel butterflies. He ended it and said it was a joke, he didn’t care that I bawled. I feel like it was my fault and this song really speaks to it.

[@deeznuts-xk8ni]

i think what hurts the most is that i could never consider them a shitty friend

[@icantbelieveitsnotbutter9371]

ive got really good friends and im so happy about that but this song makes me so sad because im always so afraid that im not worth it and that im not being good back to them and honestly big mood but now I wanna cry

[@mushieroom9623]

does anybody else have an urging feeling to listen to this while reading a sad fanfic? no...? ok

[@THEENDERLAS]

This song is relatable. Me and this boy loved each other. It's a totrlay different feeling from what I've ever felt. It was strange but we fell in love quickly and "needed" each other. I believe that he was my first love and I probably won't stop loving him. When I asked him out he said no which made things bad but also confused me becuase our relationship seemed like we were already together. I feel like having him is the only way to nor love him any more. Now we don't speak and whenever I see something that we used to talk about I want to message Him talking about it and then i remember that we aren't friends. It was difficult accepting it since we did act as if we went out and everyone could see that we liked each other. I wish him all the best and even although I want him back the relationship was toxic becuase I was chasing/ waiting for something that wasn't going to happening. I wish that we were still friends. I hope that he is happy

[@THEENDERLAS]

I spelt so many things wrong. Sorry :(

[@cabbage4129]

My friend of 7 years accused me of stealing from his house. That was months ago and I still feel like he just wanted an excuse to finally stop hanging out with me. I started hanging out with a different friend and realized just how bad that last friendship was. I never felt happy hanging with him.

[@gagemace]

I just really want to die right now. My girlfriend broke up with me because she couldn't feel like she could love herself at the moment. And just yesterday we were talking on the phone, and she said she had a boyfriend. I just feel betrayed and hurt. I was ready to help her if needed, and I believed she was my deepest love- ever. It just hurts and it made my severe depression worse. I might have to go to a temporary psychiatric hospital to hopefully recover briefly, but I don't know if I really can go back there. I just want to die so I don't feel this deep pain anymore.

[@LBiV]

The songs I'd relate to him I now relate to you. Hilarious.

[@raychelchannel]

Heard the first word and loved it

[@flowersbyphone2554]

this is too accurate why

[@avag1334]

I relate much more to "my heart goes bum" but this song feels like depression much more. It feels cold and empty and alone

[@Zeraphymm]

I hate it, because my old friend was always there for me, she did her best to help me when I was down, she pulled me out of some of my darkest moments, but nothing she did could forgive the fact that she groomed me. It hurts to listen to songs like this because she was so kind, so caring, so nice to me... She was never a shitty friend, and I wish she was. I still like this song though, the sound of the music really matches what I feel, even if the lyrics don't as much.

[@phoenixrosen9439]

dad, you were a horrible person and still I find myself awake at night wishing I had a father to sit with me and tell me everything is going to be okay

[@danushkalouw4280]

moving on, letting go. the pain will always remain but it's the love in my heart that wil make it mean something more

[@5Momijichan5]

It's really painful I want to stop thinking of you and the pain you caused, I want to heal but it's so hard to let go it's so hard to forget. I wish u hadn't said those awful things ... I'm never going to find anyone just like u said

[@calebc4471]

this is what splitting sounds like in song form tbh

[@GaminwithDraman]

“and you would leave when i got sick” quite literally

[@demoniacman2100]

I originally broke up with her I thought I moved on pretty quickly but before long I found myself making up excuses to “bump into her” it was after that that her friends mostly people who were once close friends of mine started harassing me it’s been almost 2 years and it still hurts I’m a damn adult yet I spend my days sitting in my room crying

[@Daniel-ci8hs]

Mielita was my friend, both fell in love with each other, but I tried to be a nice guy next to her in despite of my fault and mistakes. However I suffocated her, she did not want to be call my friend anymore due to I was not a great student (English at the beginning was hard for me). I smiled to her, but she already had forgot me and that broke down my heart, however I have learned to love myself and the company of people how love my in the way I am, that's why at the end I want to say thanks, you were a lesson in my life and I will not forget, my dear friend "Mielita".

[@emmavan7773]

i ache so much

[@ashgoodman843]

“you were always a shitty friend” has destroyed me since i was 13

[@maps2468]

I never want to be the person this song is about, god im so afraid of that

[@luluj4975]

It hit my feels deep 🙁💔

[@elizabethdisilvestri2097]

..thank you for the warning :)

[@150lea]

It's been a while since I cried with a song...

[@_cyrille]

you can't just read my mind, that's so unfair.

[@caseyco91]

The way I relate to the lyrics after the 3 min mark broke me down.

[@StarInSpace]

Ugh this guy I feel for hard is just different. Idk he lost feelings for me when we were together and he’s quite oblivious. And not necessarily toxic, but not healthy. One time I did something because it was my birthday and I was by myself, and I started drinking and I told him and he said “I wonder what else you’re going to mess up for me this weekend” and hung up lmao, and I miss him honestly. He was genuinely sweet, but he doesn’t feel or act the same. So I just tell myself I don’t like him lmaoo

[@julusia02]

It sounds like some track from Life is Strange

[@thomaswingfield9041]

julusia02 that's what I was thinking, I've always liked indie and ambient music and folk and I love the soundtrack for it

[@szczurzysko6659]

sounds like something chloe would write after max left her.

[@Nastee-The-Slug]

I think the worst part is, aside from it being my fault he, no, *they* all left, is that. I don't think I'll ever stop missing them. no matter what I do, how much I change, how much I get better, I will always think of them and all the good times we had, and I will always cry over how much I want them back in my life. and they'll probably never miss me.

[@shiloh6810]

This song reminds me of my dad and how I, quite literally, learned to hate him as a self defence mechanism