flying home from LA + figuring myself out *personal vlog*

[@GitanaAdelle]

Don’t apologise Niki, we don’t feel distant from you, you are growing and thriving . Keep doing you and we will be here 💗 always

[@kt7629]

100%

[@someonesomehow379]

I hate missing chapters of the life of youtubers that bring me comfort but now I'm seeing how far you've come and I'm proud of u nikiii and I hope u are tooo!! :')

[@MakeupbyRocky]

If I could be bicoastal I would love it. Your 20s is about just living your best life before you settle. You are finding yourself out and living your best life. If people can’t except that then that’s on them.

[@nameisamber]

Girl it’s not just your 20s you will be figuring yourself out for the rest of your life because we are always growing and changing. You don’t gotta explain it, people obvi love all your stages

[@cheyennepickles5744]

I think she meant especially when you're in your 20s, because it's your first time not having people choose your life for you, like when you're a kid and even a teenager. It's not to say that you will not always be trying to figure yourself out, but just to say that your 20s is when you first start to do it for real. (:

[@hopenicoleliedberg6746]

Niki there is no need to apolohgize. I love u and I think you have always been really authentic and it's so beautiful to see your growth and maturity. I love u & Im so proud of u!

[@alicelau1901]

Honestly watching you helped me a lot. My plans change constantly as well and to my friends, they just think that I am reckless. But I’m reality, I am just trying to explore and figuring things out. It’s hard especially everyone seems to have everything together.

[@MissJenMichelleXX]

How my dad views me. The only non constant in my life is where I’m living because I get bored :/

[@alicelau1901]

@@MissJenMichelleXX well I say just do what makes you happy as long as you are not hurting or troubling anyone, live your life. That’s my mantra now. I’m pretty sure I will be changing my plans a lot too because I do get bored easily too. As long as we are okay to adapt ourselves with whatever change we want to make in our live, I don’t see the problem. 😊. We got this together!!💪🏻💪🏻

[@tyler.brazil6]

i like how real you are, niki. spilling the tea when you’re ready just feels more real not only for you but for me, and that is okay❤️i like that sort of aesthetic you put your vlogs into.

[@tam2539]

we love u niki! we always have, always will. we are so proud of uu!

[@bekii4588]

Thank you Niki for letting us know you’re going through it right now and you’re not ready to talk about everything THAT’S OKAY ! We are curious because we care about you but you need to do what’s best for you and you don’t owe anyone an explanation! If/ when you’re ready to share we will be here for you! Can’t wait for the next single 🥰 🎸 ✨ 🎶

[@kristyrussell1748]

Amen to this 💖💖

[@nerdysophie18]

Niki don’t apologize for being you , thriving , growing and living life we don’t feel distant from you and we love your music and your videos so much

[@donovanstokes5511]

I’m so proud of you and the women you’ve grown into. Don’t ever apologize for being true to yourself. I relate you so much! Your journey has helped me navigate my 20’s! Love you sm❣️💯

[@delaney7219]

I love this! The honesty, the heart and soul to help others feel and know they're not alone

[@kerribowen184]

Niki I think being bicoastal suits you so much! You are so blessed to be able to go back and forth why would you wanna stay in one place? Do what makes you happy ! We Iconiks love you 🥰

[@fiLLyourEyeSs]

this 🙌 🤍

[@emm7510]

I wish she could upload everyday, like her vlogs are so real and feels like she is a friend...

[@alexismaewaterman]

So proud of you Niki thank you for being authentic❤️take all the time you need there’s no schedule or right or wrong way❤️

[@butitsbetterifyoudo2903]

It’s okay Nicki. We understand because there are some mean people in the world that would judge u for your personal things

[@amandamcallister4829]

Never apologize for figuring yourself out. It is completely fine to be figuring out what you want in life. We will always and forever love and support you niki! ❤

[@nafiahaquemuskan1867]

I love how happy she is when she's visiting her Home Town. But I still do miss Nate and Buddyyyyy

[@deemajammaz5031]

Niki. Thank you so much for everything you probably don't know what Iam talking about but you have helped me and so many other people you do so much for us we can never pay you back. Thank you we all love youuuu!!!

[@alexandraramirez6976]

I love that she is raw and true to herself

[@rylanstokke6175]

You’ve helped me realize so much that times have changed and just cause we are in our 20’s doesn’t mean we need be at a certain place in our life, figuring shit out is hard!!!

[@honeybeigemua]

I’m not gonna lie I don’t know why but I did feel the distance a little bit from these last couple of months BUT you’re one of those people that I know is one of the most genuine on social media. Thank you for that check in, Niki, because it helped me check in with myself too. I’m so happy the pandemic brought me closer to you 🥺💖

[@the_handler_96]

Hey Niki, I'm form Russia and I've been watching you since 2014, I love your videos, I play your music when I party with my friends. It makes me feel kinda heartbroken that I probably will never see you and never come to your show. I feel like I've been watching you growing, I've seen your break ups, your happy and sad moments, your unconfident moments and moments you've been glowing. Just wanted to say I love you and I support you, it makes me so happy to see how you went from that girl who's been filming videos about being not happy, not confident and not loving yourself, to a woman who really knows what she wants from life, follows her passions and being honest to herself and her viewers. Love you and always support you. And wait for your new single 😊💚

[@Missmagazinebura]

Yay another closet cleanout and coachella vlog please:)

[@bridgetallyson2991]

I wonder about Nate though? How he feels about her living in LA half the time. How the two feel about waking up alone every morning. I get their relationship is private and it's their business. But it does come off as she does whatever she wants regardless of him and what he may want or think

[@Alina.skkd1504]

Same, I thought about it.. maybe they just broke up? I haven’t seen him anywhere on her platforms for a long time🤔

[@love_nyc_]

Im pretty sure they broke up

[@madisondrake8792]

I was literally just thinking about him lol

[@ashleymariesg]

I support her but she was just partying a lot in New York and now LA (on top of doing music). he’s not anywhere in her stories . Idk… clearly it looks like they broke up a while ago, or are figuring things out off social media.

[@katiemorsovillo]

I noticed their pictures are still up around her PA apartment. Maybe they’re wanting to keep things private no matter if they’re going through something or not :)

[@Michelangelo-m1o]

I'm so hyped about finally watching Coachella vlogs!😃❤

[@estefaniagarza9164]

AWW when Niki said to him "you look so good today" it made me remember what she told me in the meet and greet. "You smell so good". I love her she is the best!

[@1LauraMeow]

The viewers of a creator are always used to see their fav content creator a certain way, with certain people. When something changes, it feels odd to us, but people shouldn’t forget that as much as you’re sharing online, it doesn’t mean that it’s our business to know what goes behind the camera. But Niki, our little blue girl who is grown up and shining bright rn, don’t feel sorry for NOT sharing stuff with us. You are human, take your time, enjoy life, enjoy yourself, love yourself! Other people’s opinions and demands come way after. Sending you lots of positivity and love, YOU ARE GROWING. YOU ARE LIVING! And that’s amazing! ❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥

[@LavenderLushLuxury]

Your vlogs, Niki, Give me, LIFE!!!

[@user-no2dr3uc8m]

Needed this. I have a negative energy in my life that is draining me emotionally 🙃

[@asiaellis2164]

Hope everything works out for you!! Sending positive vibes👍

[@tamilee9462]

I think what you got going on now is perfect.

[@ashroberts7144]

I've been feeling really trapped and suck in my current life/situation. It was reassuring to know someone else has felt the same way. You go Niki!!! Do what you wanna do and live life without apologizing to others. I love the heart to heart videos 💞

[@duhitsNikkiD]

i love when you are your authentic self niki! Keep doing what YOU want to do and don't let anything get in the way

[@mkbeauty333]

Don’t apologize!! I hope everything is going well with Nate ❤

[@kierabyrnemusic]

They say when your personal life turns to crap, is when bigger plans are being made for you from up above. Keep doing you and writing those amazing songs. We're all here for the ride too girl. ❤️

[@nikoletamarinkovic8241]

I'm so fascinated with you, with how you speak, you're so intelligent and it's so inspiring. I support you very much and I'm sure you're gonna figure everything out. I love your personality

[@sheyenne9123]

Niki I’m only 18 and so far you’ve taught me more about life growing up than anyone else in my life n I really appreciate you for that. You’re so raw and authentic and I’ll love to be able to see you one day💗keep pushing Niki

[@zeniagait3090]

basically i love you so much.. you help me deal with the shit thats been going on in my life... well my dad is diying and i saw him dead... it broke my heart and i was depressed still am a little bit.. the thing is that i was watching your videos on repeat and that helped me deal with this as much as i can. so please stay happy and original!

[@elizabethpowell7051]

So happy you posted. You're like my youtube bestie. I love these kind of videos, you're the best!! sending so much love to you

[@jaketracy8614]

Honestly Niki I don’t think we’ve ever felt closer, it’s so refreshing to see you come into your own life and so inspiring especially for those of us stuck in a toxic place/relationship/job you really help push the boundaries and help at least me see the beauty in trusting your own decisions! Hearing you say you’re doing exactly what you want to be doing and trusting yourself wow that is so helpful to so many people especially women in their 20’s right now (me) sending love to you Niki! ❤️

[@emjo7749]

is she gonna talk about nate? where he @

[@duck_has_hat218]

Hey bay! If u ever feel that u can’t make anything work, we always want u to be happy, and if need a break, take one. Taking breaks and having break downs isn’t not normal, and u just need to find where u need to be my love. We love u

[@greykelley2539]

I love have you're expressing your mental health in your music, i dont know if this is just me but I feel like when you are making music you are so much happier, also love you

[@Odelussi]

HAIR TIE IS STILL AN ICONIC JAM ! 🌀🏹❤️❤️

[@InspirationalTriumphs]

Niki everyone can see your growth and maturity and for the ones who can’t… you know the saying.. F EM! You’re doing great beautiful. Everything about your growth is beautiful. Keep doing you mamas.. we love to see it! You’re inspiring!

[@maggiesouthern3]

I just want to give you the biggest hug 😭💖 We are all on a journey to become closer with ourselves and the people around us. Never apologize for doing what’s best for you! I feel closer to you now than I ever have and relate to you on a spiritual level fr. I love youuuuu.

[@SimplyyHelen]

I actually feel so lost right now in life..mid twenties and still living with my parents in a small town and no where to go.. what a dream being bicoastal would be

[@TheOfficialBrownHeadedGoof]

Same I barely turned 20 and I’m so lost, I feel like my life is over

[@britkarian]

Felt

[@BlossomAndShineWithPatri]

Girls, your parents wont always be alive💛 just make the most of the time and enjoy them as you work toward your goals and dreams ( financially too) breathe.. slow down! I been there too, but you girls deserve to enjoy the present. Your life is not a feeling ( discourament, lost, insecure etc) life is love. Keep shining brightly!!!

[@BlossomAndShineWithPatri]

@@TheOfficialBrownHeadedGoof uff i remember when i was blessed wirh 20 years on this earth. The pressure i felt! But remember this.. another year you are bless with means you were given the chance to exist more on this earth for a greater purpose! God is preparing you for what is to come. He is sending wings to those dreams of yours and btw save as much as you can, learn how to create active and passive income and save towards your dreams and goals. I had to learn all of that in a different timing because we are all unique and different. You are doing amazing! Breathe, ok? And enjoy your season. Dont let your past burden your future and please.. know that you are good enough, you are Gods masterpiece!! Your blessings wont miss out on you, what is yours is coming! But dont do what i did and let others opinion control your mind, actions and dreams. Guard your heart as much as you can! - patri

[@TheOfficialBrownHeadedGoof]

@@BlossomAndShineWithPatri thank you ❤️❤️❤️

[@leslyyy4731]

Okay figuring things out in your 20s is totally natural no one knows what they are doing I feel like you are ambitious and you are just tryna find what works for you I feel like you have matured so much more now honestly I also think its good to just do whatever keeps you grounded and even if we can't all directly we relate to you and you're experiences we can relate to the feelings you have and that does give us comfort. Im also the exact same way I can't talk abt things till after I've gone after them and I think thats good for you and I been loving your content too fr just go at your own pace

[@brittanyp9334]

Honestly, Hair Tie is SUCH a bop!!!

[@MarieCalvar]

YESSSSS i get so happy every time u upload. youre literally my inspiration

[@uhart5536]

Niki u shouldn't be apologizing, u need to be yourself we will be supporting always

[@grimes2000]

niki please don't feel as if you're obligated to tell us every detail of your life. its okay!!!!

[@gigirepublic7507]

we love that your showing your way to cope with the world and explaining it like we are your family

[@nikafranic3540]

Niki i look up to you last 5 years!! i love you so much you halped me a lot

[@Shibalvr]

Maybe they are just going through stuff like we did at that age! Look what Pink went through? They are back together. Music biz is the hardest and she has so many irons in the fire!

[@thefrancesca]

‘i used to live in the future and i used to live in the past and realized i never really lived in the present’ girl me too, i feel like after the pandemic and especially after seeing lots of plans being fucked up bc of it, i’ve learned how not to have expectations and how not to organize and plan everything bc guess what? plans never go the way we expect them to go. i feel like by living in the present we gain a certain state of peace, in which anything can happen and we’re kinda prepared for all of it, because we weren’t excepting anything…we’re just existing and minding our business and following our hearts. i feel like there’s no room for sadness anymore , theres no room for others to judge our lives, theres just us and our little things and passions that make our eyes sparkle

[@DTaraMarie]

I’m 35 and a SAHM so relatable moments are far and few, but I’m being honest when I say - your mentality about making the most of your day and just RELAXING while traveling, hit me ! I’m so proud of you, that is so HUGE to have that mentality. Especially with mental health voyages! Good job love!!! Best wishes through and through doll 💙!

[@molls2thewalls248]

This is so refreshing. Thank you!!!! Glad you are being yourself unapologetically! 💖💖💖

[@nadinepineda3637]

The only reason people ask how are you and Nate doing from your new song. Confusing, because in the song you guys love each other, & u don't want to break up. I hope u guys r strong stay together. What ever u guys decide I hope u guys continue being good friends. U guys did alote good for each other.

[@gabrielleg.1347]

You are so loved and supported in everything you do Nikki! Thanks for sharing!

[@JENuaryGirl04]

Its so weird and fun at the same time seeing you living in Adelaine's house

[@0ddumb]

i hope one day i can be bicoastal. i also love in a small town on the east coast and i love bigger cities but obviously i love seeing my family too. i love you niki, you’ll figure out everything at your own pace, we all do. you’re one of the strongest women i know, and i look up to you for that. i’ve been watching you since i was in middle school and i’m turning 21 this year, it’s crazy how i’ve watched you become into this strong, beautiful woman. ily and hope i can meet you one day 🤍

[@jessgetsmarried]

Gaaaa I love you! I also live bicoastal and I relate to you so much. I'm 28 and decided to risk it all a few years ago to live a lifestyle that takes me back and forth from LA to Chicago & Omaha weekly. I thought I had my life all figured out when I was like 23-24 but when I had a once in a lifetime opportunity to live outside of my comfort zone, I took it. It's tough on relationships; friends + partners, because not many people can relate. I feel you on figuring out yourself and learning to balance life. It's been so much fun seeing you live out your dreams. Proud of you, Niki!!

[@JJ-wf7ks]

Anyone who’s saying anything judging your happiness because you’re actually out there living your life must be young and just not understand that we don’t need to stay in the same place all the time to be happy and at peace. I feel the most at peace traveling and doing new exciting things. Thank you for sharing your truth and how you’re navigating this whole mid 20’s thing. I’m going to be 27 in June and man, it’s a trip. Thank you for reminding me it’s okay to not have it all figured out. 💜Love always

[@anatkatz7963]

the maturity in this video is so real. ❤️

[@adorastarr5090]

So proud of you for trusting yourself. You can do both 🤍 you’re such a unique and genuine soul and I appreciate your honesty so much

[@Isabelle-ir9iu]

WE LOVE YOU! WHENEVER YOUR READY DO A CONCERT IN DALLAS PLEASEEEE💖

[@sanjagoceva3054]

Niki you have no idea how much i needed this talk, lately i have been feeling like shit lately trying to figure shit out and to actually figure out my life, i am turning 22 years old this summer and people just keep teeling me oh grow up and im just having difficulties maturing i guess, eventhough i feel like i am responsible idk it was deffinatly needed this whole week has just been bad for me just hard in general im glad we had this talk

[@sabrinasoul3751]

Honestly you’re doing great! You’ve come so far. It’s inspirational. Keep being your raw and genuine self bc it’s taking you far 👏🏻👏🏻

[@tashawilliams7045]

I how raw and true she is. Living to the fullest too! Question: how are you and Nate maintaining your relationship while travelling back and forth? Xx

[@JuliaFase]

wondering this too! she hasn’t been mentioning him at all i wonder if they broke up

[@lisarrieta9957]

Yes same! I wanna know if they are still together? They are really cute.

[@krisiicarey9418]

I wondered about them too ❤️

[@alyssaowens2534]

Me to they are a cute couple

[@Danielajtoro]

Guys… I think that’s what she meant when she said “spilling the tea”

[@angelica.christinee]

You do not have to decide what you wanna do!!! Do whatever you want one day at a time🥰

[@myabrewer874]

Girlll live your life!! Seems like you’ve been having a lot of fun, enjoy it live in the moment love!!!

[@lesandthecity]

Baby girl you can move, live, and do whatever you want and whatever is best for you. You don’t have to have it all figured out, just do what feels right. We love and support you!!! 🤍

[@_jaime]

Niki you’re glowing! Keep doing you

[@jaydagwyn]

I hate to see that people comment about Niki figuring out her life like they are not doing the same thing. She has free reign to live how she wants and what makes her happy and that’s a blessing in itself. Niki you are your own person, those haters are not your parents, you don’t have to justify anything.

[@umbie.k]

I love you Niki ,you are my biggest inspiration right now ,and I just want to let you know that you are not alone in this, but we all support you dearly and I will forever be a fan you .... I love 9 lives by the way ,I can relate so much to it and to all of your music. Tx

[@sammiejudis7775]

Keep doing you girl! What makes you happy is more important than what others are saying about you. LY💕

[@caitlincalloway4948]

Just wondering how Nate fits into your life now that you’re constantly in LA? definitely loved seeing Nate in blogs

[@caitlincalloway4948]

*vlogs

[@wakafreako]

Your doing everything I want to be doing right now. Stay strong, your growing, feel it x

[@Aunty87]

You're learning how to set healthy boundaries with your channel, which is awesome! Healthy people will have your back on this😊

[@BratDani]

I love your PA apartment so much.. I just want to go sleep in your bed and get ready in your closet 🤣🥲🤎 it’s so cozyyyyyy !

[@isabellacullen1349]

Niki we love your music and never apologize for your feelings girl. Thanks for sharing this video and being honest. Can’t wait to see the new house you guys are going to build and to hear the new song soon! ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@brenda1]

Niki i love you ❤️❤️and how real you are with us I’ve been following and supporting you since 2013 for like 10years now and you’ve always made my bad days better🥰

[@lizziesmultifandom2034]

Please I literally needed you right now

[@carrie3328]

How do you get to spend time with Nate with all the traveling??

[@navilguzman]

Omg! You in the tan top where you’re talking about the phone cases! The look is giving life 😍

[@seriouslyskylartv6789]

I feel like I haven’t seen Nate in a long time

[@melindabrown2625]

Honestly do what makes you happy niki no apology or explanation needed me and the other people who really care about you the only thing that matters to us is if you’re happy and if you’re happy than we’re satisfied love you ❤️

[@bthompsonxo]

Keep doing what makes you happy! I will always be here watching and supporting you living your best life!! Sending love from the 610!😄❤️

[@amiramira5339]

Niki u don’t know hom much I love u / ur music and ur vlogs 🥺❤️

[@kiracalm7881]

You are still young and have so much life ahead of you and just look at what you have accomplished so far you have done so much you are so amazing ily!!

[@victoriaspadaro9838]

We ❤️ you Niki. Always rooting for you! Can’t wait for the new single to drop!!

[@elinagouravan6466]

Theese are my fav vids, taking about mental health with the calming niki voice🤩😌

[@ritwikadasgupta1865]

So much love to you Niki ❤️ You inspired me to start my own channel inspite of my terrible social anxiety. Your 20s are meant to be full of crazy adventures 🤍🤍

[@ashleykerwin7516]

I feel you, I miss PA!

[@chaymadysun]

I honestly watch you for you whether you live in pa or la. Do what makes you happy girl! Loves of love 🤍🤍🤍✨

[@alexisgonma]

Do what you want, be who you are, that's why I've been watching you for almost 10 years and that's why we love you ❤️😊 Lots of love, a taurean follower from Barcelona

[@diyakoun]

seeing niki back in her closet AHHH MY HEARTT I MISSED THISS !

[@ashlee6655]

Genuine question though where is Nate? How are you guys? In all your recent videos these been no mention of him, it must be hard for you guys to be away from each other for so long on these trips! (Edit) Im not trying to pry or be disrespectful of Niki at all! I just genuinely was wondering about him, I always thought it was so cute when he’d just randomly be passing by, or checking in on her when she’s filming and just haven’t seen him in a bit. All good vibes and love for Niki here❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@itskuniam]

I've wondered the same thing

[@itsbellenotbella3297]

Been curious about this as well

[@Teganwinters1]

Same I think they broke up

[@HanneM]

@@Teganwinters1 they still likes each others post on ig. this is after all niki's yt channel, not nate's, so she doesn't have to talk about him all the time. he isn't even that fond of being on camera anyways...

[@jenniferalvarez6658]

i think at the end she tried to hint that they broke up, but isn't ready to talk about it

[@ashlee6655]

Yessssss another Niki vlog so soon! Love it!