For those who had fucked up childhood

[@worldhaspostrock]

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[@campernocamping1]

From a long time sub to you; you doing alright, man?

[@bornilmurchhona]

And for those who didn't have the chance to be childish

[@Mrblackmagic199]

More relatable than you know

[@deadly.desai2]

ITS A BETTER TITLE

[@w.neuman]

" I-HAD °NO *{CHILDHOOD}.!!!!!!!!!!!! " €¥£ ^

[@Piyussh]

The biggest mistake we ever did as a kid was thinking growing up would be fun.

[@clevertheloner6008]

its not fun but it makes life easy , if its not its ur fault , we don't take responsibility of what we had when we were kids but when you grow up everything is on you

[@rustydean772]

Late 90s early 2000s. The toy commercials and happy cartoons. Playing outside. None of that matters anymore

[@lucidnightmare9833]

didnt need that very personal hit

[@reozen8727]

stop thinking like that.

[@Daggeira]

Eh; some of us didn't have a choice in the matter.

[@Dermerion]

Sometimes, I think we don't realize how fucked up we are, until we start seeing how far we are from a healthy person.

[@reozen8727]

especially in china, 'cause we tend to behavior like the rest of people, and this disguising is painful.

[@annaschneider225]

Very true. Ever been in a room with a healthy family? So uncomfortable. And yet, the jealousy is still there, deep beneath the facade.

[@floreephera4496]

@@annaschneider225 we really mean no offence, its just that the feeling is always there in a dark corner that will never be found by anyone

[@GilesCorey2011]

I miss feeling the sun touching my skin, I miss those days when I could smile and dream about a better future. All I can see is darkness and cold loneliness. How am I suppose to feel better without a single day of rest? I'm so tired, I want to sleep forever.

[@annaschneider225]

Me too

[@bigiron4285]

"Wow James you're so mature for your age" they all said like it was a good thing. I swear ill give my family the good life they deserve, if I ever do anything with this pitiful life of mine it'll be to give someone a good childhood

[@annaschneider225]

"You're so mature!" "Thanks it's the weight of caring for those who should be caring for me"

[@Ryawa_Shpoora]

To this day my only motto is : "IT ENDS WITH ME, NO MATTER WHAT"

[@xElBufferx]

This titles are getting darker, is you okay Mr. Worldhaspostrock?

[@Daggeira]

Are any of us, really?

[@reozen8727]

@@Daggeira very true

[@h.hholmes.492]

I had fucked up childhood, but as I grew up I didn't know that fucked up childhood is affecting me anyway like I used to see in these movies how past traumas are affecting theirs, compared to what I saw in movies I feel good that at least its not affecting me this way, but lol I was so wrong and so kid to notice that when I started meeting people, I was so bad at meeting people, started having relationship insecurities often hold me that what if she leaves you just like your father did when you were a kid, started doubting myself that if am I the only one responsible for that and many more but deep inside I know I can't be weak because of my mother.

[@lexveoup7710]

Hold Tight Champ

[@azrikl]

Uhhh, you and i, living similar lifes.

[@samasoku]

Relationship patterns, whether with friends or with family, that you experienced when you were a kid, often follow you through your entire life. Best is to make the best of the fact that the way you see relationships will most likely never be normal. but every concern also can have its upsites. If you constantly worry that someone might leave you, its painful, but at least that means that you most likely put a lot of effort into your relationships, making sure that your partners or friends are happy with you. See the positive side. Wish you the best man

[@TheDonkyGamePlay]

I have trust and insecurity issues but never really tried to associate it with any traumas or past relationship problems but I guess it makes a lot of sense. It hurts because I always end up hurting others. Wish you luck

[@boink8653]

Are you me? I feel like we are the same person.

[@jennifervanko5587]

I love how every video is like getting away from everything, post-rock to enjoy your sadness, seperate post-rock songs, post-rock for rainy day, post-rock for the end of the world, post-rock for cold mornings and this one is just straight to the point ,,For those who had fucked up childhood''

[@coryleblanc]

kids say linkin park saved their life, i think mogwai saved mine

[@dietrichahlers6125]

This feels like my tolerance to my PTSD. Nightmares every night about the same things, unable to avoid them, and waking up exhausted and frustrated and depressed. I feel sorry for anyone else who has it.

[@carthagehoplite]

To the months and years lost

[@JayPatel-ne6jf]

to the lifetimes lost

[@ragewolfofficcial3888]

Bullying, offenses,mistakes,heartbroken,violence, panic ,scare from everyone all in your childhood , but I’m still going through life fighting to be strong and help somebody who need me

[@berkedurusu5044]

Hi! I hope you still going. I'm from Turkey and recently I read something in Turkish. I wanna translate it to you "Be the person your childhood needed." it's like an advice or something. But when I read it, it make me smile for a little bit. So, I know that your childhood is proud with you too. I hope everything gonna be alright. Keep going and have a wonderful life!

[@aisadal2521]

That, and for those who had a hard time growing up... 😔

[@fatporpoise8092]

Why not both?

[@UKS0001]

And growing up to fast, and never knowing what being a kid was like

[@flawedsanity]

And for those who are having a hard time living now.

[@namankhilrani8845]

Dad abuses prescription pills. Mom is severely clinically anxious. I'm doing okay though. Trying to stay happy is a fight. And I'm trying my best at every moment. You all- let's do our best together, okay?

[@xeauskatarvus1517]

I'll try my hardest :)

[@lavendergilly5843]

I wonder what causes her anxiety. I think a lot of mine comes from having a lot inside, a lot of strength, that is not allowed. Long story - but this is where I think anxiety comes from. It's power turned inward, at least in my case. I wonder what you think of that?

[@namankhilrani8845]

@@lavendergilly5843 A lot of strength, that is not allowed.... maybe you meant something different, but that's kinda how I would describe my mother. To me, she might as well be the strongest person I have or will ever meet, and yes, everybody says that, but I've seen it being tested, and her strength is always, always there.

[@TheDreamBullet]

I didn't have a fucked up childhood, I felt only that that I had to grow up faster for my two younger siblings when my mom was drinking. i cooked for my two Brothers, and helped them with their homework, doing the dishes, doing the laundry, seeing them off to school. That was in 2011. Things have changed for the better, my parents gotten themsleves back togeather.. at 26, I feel I can be the child for a little while.. thank you.

[@leversandpulleys9274]

I adore you for taking care of others, I believe you're a good person as well. I understand what it feels like to prioritize people we love in a long period of time. I'm not even 21 yet but already being a father-like figure for my gf and her sister due to several unfortunate situations. Making sure that there's always food on the table, roof above their heads, transports, maintaining positivity, and keep the hopes sparking. Seeing your comment makes me think I'm not alone - that there's a person in this world doing similiar thing; loving others for the sake of what's right

[@russellgoh7443]

I grew up with high expectations and examples of what not to be, I was forced to be better than everyone else at things I couldn't give 2 shits about, I'm 21 this year and in art school, and my anxiety is off the charts cause I've conditioned myself to never settle for anything less than perfection, my parents never really checked in on my mental state and I've basically pushed everyone I love aside to get my stuff done, I'm surviving, Here's to us, the burnt out gifted kids, the socially anxious, and the ones who had to put on different masks all their life, I hope everyone that reads this knows that they aren't alone, and as hard as it is to belive that, just know that we are all in this together

[@annaschneider225]

Here's to us. May we one day forfeit our masks and find out who we are underneath. "Got different people inside my head. I wonder which one that they like best?" - Fear and Loathing, Marina and the Diamonds

[@zeliakarvanos4576]

@Russel Goh Thank you. I didn't even know that there were other people "like me", pushed to be better than anyone by their parents... It's too real, I can't stop *trying* to be perfect (can't be). Thank you for showing me we aren't alone.

[@oliviaislonely6268]

Fucked childhood with alot of trauma's, yeah never got over it and i don't think i'd ever will.

[@dastan4natsad]

Same, I struggle a lot on a daily basis

[@jobbimaster]

I do recommend you look into it. The path of healing your trauma is pretty neat bruh.

[@CottonMouthJoe]

This just might be the greatest thing on the internet ever. Thank you. I let it hit me this time without checking the song list first. You sir are a master of putting together the most amazing songs into an emotional rollercoster. Hiu, childhood...It's funny. I don't like to remember it. Most of it sucked. But I wouldn't trade it so easily either. Sure if we could go back. It'd be different. We'd still make mistakes. Maybe different. Most bad moments would be unavoidable if we'd reset the movie. But through all that storm, the bad, we grow, harden, learn. It in a way helps us forge better good memories and times. A shortcut to wiser and brighter future no matter how painful and sorrowful the past. At least that's how I see it. Although present might not be pretty either I often find incredible, miracle like "coincidensces" and huntches and butterfly effects or epiphanies hiding in plain sight. There is a greater grand scheme behind all we know that justifies and puts great purpouse to our rough journies wheter you're religions or not and wheter you dealth with incredible pain or not. I can barely put it in though, even less in words and even less so in english words. And I know this all just seems edgy, cheesey, with little to no sense. But I don't have someome to tell this. Or try to. Mind plays tricks on itself when one years to let another soul to know, really know and connect with them. I think Pink Floyd had a song about similar thing. Keep Talking was the one. Or at least I interpreted it that way. ..... Do you ever stop a routine, just to excercise free will and stare into the view that's infront, turn your head up to sky, laugh at the weird nature of self conciousness, look at your hands, notice how a moment stands still yet slowly time tik toks in a rhytm. ..... Our perceptions are so weird at time. I was watching a movie and in this one scene time slowed down. It directly made me feel like I slowed and relaxed even though it's just a movie scene. ..... Stood at attic window staring at forest. Month of acing side effects and yearning to sedate myself with substances. Just stood there. Weeks of bad feelings gone for few split seconds. Just because this one view with sun rays placed so perfectly in the window frame and my eye sockets reminded my brain of this one non meaningless moment from years ago where I stared at sun rays. Nothing too specific or special but just a strong memory remembrance. Made me transport years back for a few moments. Felt the old me. It felt good to remember myself for a moment. All that sorrow can be greatly disociating and depersonalizating. That's why music can be such a remedy. It is one of world greatest emotion triggers and focus takers. And it is pure. Just sounds and melodies one soul had pop in their head and them sharing it with us. ..... I'm such a dumb piece of shit. I hate and regret. Fail and pity. But somehow, even when I don't even want to try. Some sun rays glimmer in my eye sight or memory. Some sparks in my twisted brain pop together and make me subconciously remember the joy of being alive. .....idk what I'm writing. Idk why u r reading this. Haha, lol, I am sorry if u are reading this mumbo jumbo. I just felt like typing. Even if it is to no one at all. Isolated human being should go out of their comfort zone. I hope you all can find some good to share with someome in these times. ..... I wonder if a bird singing in mid spring morning enjoys the tweetking and chippering of other birds from far away if it sang alone for a while. If someone walking down the road changes their songs. Would they sing for no reason at all or if they were the only bird left. ... I love you. Be strong

[@ifishedoutmyheart]

We love you too

[@junkyardwillie8320]

We do

[@piotrlatuszek171]

Love to hear your story, it is avesome to hear how others see world,self,sorrow and happynes, mabe some day i will be able to shere my and others stories not by songs but art, keep fighting for beter today and keep hope in people and world

[@annaschneider225]

You be strong too, fellow lonely human being. Many great moments are coming. For all of us. ❤ Take care

[@berkedurusu5044]

Love you too.

[@rausch5895]

Dads a broken vet (Lost half his buddies when he got sent to Yugoslavia in 93), leukemia survivor and compulsive liar/sociopath. Moms worked to the bone and had a psychosis recently after getting burned out for the 3rd time in 5 years. Then theres me, the keeper of my fathers dark secrets, to keep our family together and both of them alive. It sure sucks to have the feeling that youre not alive for yourself, but for everyone else, but Ive recently found a girl that I would one day like to call my wife. Its been the happiest 3 months and 13 days of my life, since my 6th birthday. To anyone else going through something similar: To better times. The rains might be what dominates our lives, but theres still sun.

[@m.8008]

Well hello there fellow friends.. here, we all belong.

[@deadaccount4522]

I had an extremely fucked up childhood. Ptsd at 14 wasn't great news but it was expected.

[@drao-lotic]

My childhood wasn't good or bad, im still growing up and my experience isn't good or bad, im not depressed anymore but im not happy, im just scared, I want someone to hold my hand because the child inside is still scared. My goal is to become someone who can hold my own hand because other people scare me.

[@naomisan772]

Glad to know that what u want from world is something u try to look inside yourself first.

[@ochi762]

That's a very interesting and admirable goal, I hope you'll achieve it.

[@GreyStarQueen]

The more I grew up the more fear I get about the world. It's like I am growing up backwards brave to anxious but I want to be brave again

[@boink8653]

Me too.

[@howdyho6775]

It wasn't your fault, you were just a kid. We were all just kids.

[@chrisliostudios]

During the entirety of my childhood I was beaten up at school, because of that, I developed a really bad character in the most of my high school years. I said things to people, done things, pretty bad things. Things I'm not proud of. In my early 20s, I was diagnosed with Hodgkin lymphoma, it's what scientists call it so they won't have to call it "another type of cancer". Now, I am 25 and still learning from it. It was a lesson that life taught me, to appreciate life even more. To not care about everything people think about me. to give one less shit about toxic people and give that shit to people who actually care about me. Life is full of lessons. Learn from them.

[@zeynepkarakus5531]

to the people who live/lived in hell.

[@kathysenn7664]

Yes, we all have our stories.. for me, Sunny Days puts into perspective and softens my recollections of walking home from school, wondering how the afternoon and evening would play out. The Way Home is a picture of coming up through the spiral, knowing each day I'm closer to the top where there's healing in the light.. each day is brighter.. The music unites us in our common experiences. Thank yous to the musicians and you Whpr- you are blessed and a blessing!!

[@edgara3213]

Haven’t commented in a while, just glad you’re still working on stuff this year too. Hope you’re ok Not just WHPR but everyone too

[@mersifusio340]

The world we grown into doesn't exist anymore

[@radyokafa1818]

lol i think you should use this kind of titles more often, they make us suffer better. the playlist is beautiful as always thank you 💕

[@Endymion766]

Memories, they linger.

[@yeid44]

I disregard my feelings or what I have gone through because some people had it worse than me

[@annaschneider225]

Pain is pain

[@ZackZeysto]

Sometimes i forget what i have endured. Looking back it all seems like a distaned Life, lived by someone other... But i know it will be forever a part of my inner core.

[@Leon-0000]

You are sitting alone listening to this wonderful music. I don't know who reads this and if you need to hear this, but you are enough! I don't know what you have been through, but I am proud of you for holding on. You don't need to be strong all the time. Once in a while you can just let go. Even when you can't see through all this shit right now, there will be a time when you can smile and think to yourself: "It was worth it". Now rest and don't think about tomorrow. You are here. You are alive.

[@CottonMouthJoe]

Quiet possibly one of most perfect mixes. Have to show this to ppl when they ask what is post rock.

[@PactWithLucifer]

Beautiful as always. Pain gives birth to some of the most incredible art, and this is no exception. To anyone out there who's had their share of it, know that even though you may feel lonely - you are not alone.

[@IIEchoII]

No words can describe how much *I LOVE* this channel 💓 honestly

[@rustydean772]

For those who had a abusive father...for those who protected their mothers...for those who still do to this day...

[@quvee5814]

Damn first time i saw the title made me remind about the one time when i hanged myself as a 3 or 4 years old kid before i knew or still not knowing about suicide and shit.

[@IssacPaul15]

When this playlist started with Are you There?, I knew I was going to go down a rabbit hole but maybe this is what I needed today. Here's to the ones who find it hard to feel "normal", the ones who have been asked to grow up too fast too soon, neglected and overlooked by those closest to you. You're not alone, neither am I. This community is a family for you, as it has been for me since I first came across its beauty in making me feel things I had pushed down for the longest time. :) Cheerio! You're amazing!

[@batuhankaya5983]

I was having a great childhood I had so many friends but when I've lost my mother in an accident, we had to move another city and since then I've grown too lonely even right now.

[@VintageFlowers]

Trust me, it will get better. You will find a way.

[@w.neuman]

"Hang In There, BRO".!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! €¥£ ^

[@runawaythoughts5183]

Thank you for posting this

[@neotim5]

Aww, for ME? You didnt had to, thats nice :)

[@nihilisticmachine7627]

I wish i could of told my younger self to not blunt the emotions now a void is all that is left. and told him nothing that happens really mattered in the end.

[@samuellarragavega3153]

Sleep Dealer- The way home... dudeeeeeeee what a beatiful song. When I see trough the eyes of my old man (He is 69) I see roughness, wrath and many wounds for miss the illusion and losing his childhood. He was a worker child in mexico fields. He never was warm with anyone at home. I grew up and I totally understand that his bitterness is only as he couldn´t be happy any time, since he was a little child. There ir no remorse for the inocent that lost part of his life.

[@ernestogonzales800]

this hit pretty damn hard. but it's kind of comforting to know i'm not the only one who had felt like this. i hope for nothing but the best in our futures. take care, stranger.

[@TheCivildecay]

Grew up with alcoholic parents squad reporting

[@naruto182026]

but still, that fucked up childhood made us who we are today. It made us stronger and ready for the future, for the childhood i had? thank you for making me love solitude. In that way i was so dependent on myself.

[@ichbingisela]

For the past decade, sleep dealer accompanied me as I tried to find the way home.

[@zeliakarvanos4576]

A bit late to the party, but people are commenting their story so I do. (Apologies for the eventual mistakes, english isn't my first language) My childhood wasn't *that* fucked up, but now I can tell it hasn't been that healthy. People always told me since I was a young child that I was "so mature for my age" and so on... They didn't know what was going on at home, what happened when they said this in front of my parents. My parents (both teachers) started comparing me to my older brother all the time. He was (and still is) the model child: good grades, good friends, good manners, placid temper. I was the same, but less good grades and a rebellious perosnnality... They didn't love it and so started putting me down. Subtle remarks first like "You're not supposed to do it that way", and then ruder comments about me like "You're fat, dumb and nobody can put up with you"... It got worse when I hit 11 years old. My grandpa (mother's dad) passed away (he was ill, with parkinson's disease and heart problems) and my mom blamed me for "not loving him enough"... Added to the sadness that caused his death, there was now that guilty feeling of not loving someone I never really knew (he couldn't talk anymore the last years of his life, nor move). This caused my mental health to decline, and I gained a lot of weight in a short time... Guess what? As the best family ever (irony here) they started mocking me and scolding me for being "as thick as a whale"... Well... As I entered middle school (from 11 to 15 in my country), I found a few friends who supported me and helped me get better mentally. I will never thank them enough for what they did! Then highschool arrives, and I have to pick which highschool I want to go to (2 of them). I chose the one my brother didn't go to... All behind my parents' back, still my biggest pride to this day! After many fights, I was confirmed that I could go to the highschool I picked (it was the hardest to get) and I finally felt relieved. This meant no teacher who knew my bro (couldn't compare me to him), new life, new friends! But then not long ago, about 3/4 in school year, everything went downhill. My godmother, who was my only supporter in the whole family (who knew I was bi, and who wasn't homophobic) died last month in a violent car accident. She was my mother's dearest friend, and it was a shock for all of us. I sank again in a depression phase, with dark thoughts and autodestructive behavior if you see what I mean. Now I'm 16, lost, scared of the future and sadder than I've ever been. I don't know what to do anymore... I don't wanna live like this. But I have friends, they all rely on me. I can't let them down. Can anyone please help me? I think it's time for me to do something about it, I don't want to be a burden anymore.

[@cattear]

well i just passed the fucked up childhood in my life ... i hope for better days thank you

[@TheCivildecay]

It will.

[@MyrteKhadr]

I feel like Its been to many things to even think its anyones Fault but my own. I feel like it has Enstranged me from comfort in life.

[@theohallworth2632]

wasted childhood so many missed chances

[@denisseescobar3558]

Whereas my childhood classmates and few friends all wanted to grow up and be 'mature' I never really wanted to grow up, because for me, living in a f*cked up environment made me associate 'adulthood' with my parents and family's lives...And I didn't want to be like any of them.

[@annaschneider225]

"While my friends began dating and talking older, I just wanted to play on the playground again. Naptime and snacktime disappeared and loads of responsibilities took their place. And I wasn't ready for any of it."

[@turkiaz6581]

The title of this video remind me of a lot of bad childhood memories. But specially reminded me when I was 4 to 6 years old. Every day When I start to wake up at morning And running to my brothers beds to see them if they in the house while they are in school and also my parents went to their job. I had a little bit of loneliness childhood. But I thank god not worse than that.

[@breadbrother444]

I know this is messed up, but I'm kinda glad there are people that have had terrible childhoods too, I don't wish that upon anyone, but I'm glad I'm not alone

[@boink8653]

The music is beautiful, the comment section is making me cry, and I'm so overwhelmed by it because I'm seeing fragments of myself in there.

[@ViBENo1]

in some ways it was fooked up. and the adulthood is actually worst. but this fits for both, sadly.

[@ria4580]

My whole childhood I was always everyone's least favorite and being left out.Seing my mom laughing with my other cousins while me sitting in the corner wondering why she doesn't get so excited talking to me like she does with them.She still does this today.Hurting me and the other day she's laughing on her phone like nothing happened.Im feeling lost, I want to be someone else, I can't express my real self cause I'm scared im going to be judged, all homophobic parents and relatives, i don't know what I like, feeling useless 24/7, being confused of who I want to be, turns out I'm a psychopath crying all night after trying to make others happy but never me, seeing other people on my age being happy with their friends while I'm so insecure about my self, not having any friends to understand me, Having an absolutely fucked up childhood with my alcoholic dad who still is alcoholic today but not so harsh, my mom who used to hit me because she was angry and she was getting hit and abused by my dad .Today, when I try to talk to her she always misunderstands things and she's super sensitive and more protective than she should.I have talked to her about my anxiety but she wanted me to go to the psychologist because she didn't want to "waste her time" with me.All these years I wasted trying to make everyone like me while hiding my pain inside me.In school no one liked me.Absolutely no one.I was getting called fat and made fun of my name.I moved to a new school that wasn't too bad, I made 2 friends that are really nice and we hang out sometimes.(Now i have finished the 7th grade). -Today I'm trying to fix all this mess on my own.Its really hard sometimes but I know when I fall down I need to stand up my self because no one else will do it for me. -I felt like I needed to say this, I'm sorry if you relate and I hope you are doing great today.Remember that you're worth it no matter what and I love you

[@shouvonsarker4535]

Just like Neil Gaiman once said, “I think hell is something you carry around with you. Not somewhere you go.”

[@OllieOctober]

why is it so hard for people to be good? why do so many people have to be so evil. I don't get it. I will forever treat people how I want to be treated. I wish out of anything in the world that's one thing I wish people had in their mentality....

[@annaschneider225]

Some people get bitter, instead of better. And then take it out on people who don't deserve any of it.

[@BertheaLeduc]

3 super tunes qui s'enchainent dans le meme feeling. J'aime. Merci Whpr

[@ibrahimtutkun408]

Çocukken ailemiz ve çevremiz, tercihimiz dışında bize mutlu ya da mutsuz olmayı; iyi ya da kötü insan olmayı, velhasıl şu ya da bu olmayı öğretti. Sonra bizler de bize acı veren neyse hep onun üstüne gittik. Yanlış insanlar, yanlış yerler, yanlış işler... Konuştuğumuz dil acıysa, kim bizden başka dilde konuşmamızı bekleyebilir ki.. Hayat bir şekilde devam ediyor, ama biz olmadan. Kimimiz hala 17 yaşında yaşıyor kimimiz 15 kimimiz 10; bir gün ileriye gidemiyor.. Yıllar geçiyor, aynadaki yüz eskiyor. Ama acılar eskimiyor değil mi? Yaşıyormuşuz gibi yapmaya devam ediyoruz sadece. Belki çocukluğumuzdaki tek bir anın kabuğuna sığınıp gelecekte yürüyoruz. Selam olsun tüm yalnız yürüyenlere.

[@bartholomewbar-code8246]

Intrinsic data synchronist. Not complaining. I'm always into this. Analytic matrimonial providence. Not complaining. I'm fond of this. Desolate impossible pilgrimage. Not complaining. I insist, it is. What is? What if? Wait... What?

[@charlesallen9045]

Years of abuse made me strong. At the cost of this pain I carry, I take myself to the highest places possible, traveling the country alone to become the best version of myself. I owe it all to my liberator, Jesus Christ.

[@RedBalance_]

God bless you!

[@june5831]

Amen

[@Djoodibooti]

Ah yes. The trauma is ALL COMING BACK TO ME. WONDERFUL.

[@annaschneider225]

WooHOO

[@bichodomatoexe]

Finally a videos designed just for me

[@romemiramontes2281]

Scars are inside and out.

[@MiddleHoops]

I wish someone could say to me that growing up with loneliness and no friends isn't "everyone's stupid except me I'm like Naruto yeah like that one anime superhero waiting for adventures!". Kate, no one's gonna running for you, you've just cut any socialization from your life and that will coast you constant overthinking, unreasonable fear of people and nightime cry sessions in your 20's. Being alone isn't cool and quirky. It's the hardest responsibility and the greatest curse.

[@leversandpulleys9274]

I saved someone's childhood

[@emreyldrm8550]

To the unlived years of childhood and teenager stuff

[@anemonea3979]

Finally, some playlist for me.

[@daftmi9hty327]

I didn't really have a fucked up childhood just an incredibly boring one no friends no hobbies no entertainment from anythingif I ever have kids in the future I will make sure there childhoods are full of love and happiness I'd never want them to feel like I did nothing for them

[@anomalous9771]

Why we can't show, we are Sad???

[@pablocortes7087]

We could have a fucked up childhood. Now let's compare those memories with amazing memories we can build for the current kids, it may change our perspective to our past. A way to avoid and commit the same mistakes adults did to us. Let's build a better life for our children, young siblings, little cousins, nephews, nieces, our neighbors children, any innocent soul that is living through this cruel world.

[@bloodwolf9428]

I overcame everything I went through as a child thanks to Gods grace and mercy. Without Him I could not imagine how I would've forgave the people who took everything from me however sadly 20 years later all of that insecurities and doubt have settled in my head and My heart longs for pain so my head creates misconceptions to break my heart even though I should be happy

[@teako.reverse]

I have been stuck in a state of regret for 3 years now. I don't know why it is but I just keep getting stuck in the past, thinking of the mistakes and thinking 'if I did this instead of this, things would have been different for me. Even though the choice I made has brought me people still that I cherish, I just wonder if it would be worth it for a chance of choosing the other way. I am very torn but at the same time, I have always thought that I just didn't have the right timings. All the mistakes just piled one by one, and the overthinking won't help either. I let this person go. I didn't go for my dreams. I lied and hurt my friends. I may even have made a choice that will hurt everyone in the future. I didn't try and achieve anything and chose to do nothing. I pretended to be okay to not let them worry. All I ever do is lie now. Now I have grown, and it seems like a point of return. There is no longer a chance to correct the fucked up memories and the memories that didn't happen. I fucked it up.

[@antonnotna5919]

Thanks for reminding me

[@bran8961]

Whoever you are, Thank you!

[@vadim9387]

Sleep Dealer - The Way Home the best! Похоже на думер музыку

[@Uni-Ver-Sun]

🖤 Very touching compilation. It goes very deep. Down to the bottom of the soul.. . . . 💧

[@shadowgirl786]

You are loved. You are safe. You are divine. Don't let the past define you bby 😘✨

[@shadowgirl786]

@@dwayneferris3199 just light workers homie ✌

[@manoahrenthlei445]

I really fucked it up🤦🏻‍♂️

[@MrNmorfin]

Sometimes i see my 2 yr old son as so innocent like.. i was once that. Then life happened.

[@phyllotaxis]

thank you for this

[@Hrishi1717]

Thank YOU 💜

[@TakshShikari]

As long as Music binds us together, we're going to be just okay :)

[@davidjorge22]

Thank you guys

[@roundblackbear6586]

im lucky enough to have none but ill enjoy listening to this

[@rednicuidomusic]

These old days...

[@MCrystalMaidenn]

I was a very strong kid. I stood my ground and I was very mature for my age. At some point I couldn’t handle it anymore. And now im no longer mature and strong like I used to be. Im more like childish because i can no longer take life seriously. I always compare myself to my old-self and to my own age group and I feel like an alien. Like an outsider. Confusing times indeed.

[@VintageFlowers]

If you just learn to stop comparing then you're better off. That's pretty much the root of all misery isn't it..

[@MCrystalMaidenn]

Yusuke Urameshi Yes but I don’t know how can I improve myself if I don’t compare myself with whom I would want to be like. I know comparing is wrong but I just don’t know any other way around it.

[@VintageFlowers]

@@MCrystalMaidenn Sure it's natural and probably good to compare stuff but the last bit of your previous comment kind of indicated that you crossed that line into obsessive comparing, which I have done myself. And that will only destroy you.

[@MCrystalMaidenn]

@@VintageFlowers That sounds about right. I do find myself obssesively comparing myself with others to the point it devastates me. I guess I will just try to be the best I can and enjoy life.

[@antisocial2321]

It's the title for me-

[@obeythehomeless]

It's okay

[@reozen8727]

shit things happened to me, fuck.

[@Rafael-ge6cu]

I had a fucked up childhood. Indifferent and loveless mother, alcoholic father, poverty, violence, bad grades, sexual and psychological abuse from female teachers, and the list goes on. Suffered from racism, got a bleeding nose, many times. They threw my stuff in the sewage countless times, for no reason. I was a boy, like this one on the screen. Blonde hair, blue eyes. Today I had to enter the classroom and hear the teacher say that everything I have today, through many battles fought, tears, sweat and sometimes blood, is because my "white privilege". Everyone is suffering, just be kind and don't be a senseless human being towards another. That goes to animals too.

[@tsabsixteen]

There's sm I want to rant about.. but there's way too much. Just fucked up shit happened.

[@elephante_studio]

Awesome.

[@mikeryo3185]

Ain't like I'm still five years old, you know.

[@mohammad.mahdiderakhshan403]

Wow man

[@dvandamme00]

Sitting here listening to this. fuck. I have an empty chair for you, you reading this. You're welcome to sit, walk by, nod, or pause or anything you like.. all are ok.

[@stanislavbarantsev1114]

Now do your best not to accidentally drop a toaster into a bath while taking a shower.