forcing myself to be a productivity girly (i have depression)

[@maddygomes8147]

the reason why everyone loves your videos is because they are SO genuine and show your real day to day life. i won't be the first or last to say this but the girlies don't exist!! TRUE girlies do accidentally wake up at 2pm sometimes, and seeing that from you makes us all feel a bit better. it took me a really long time to stop feeling guilty about not sticking to an unrealistic 'routine' and start being kinder to myself, but i think you should be really proud of getting through the day/week/year 💜

[@septiceye_3706]

"I've been rotting for an hour, so we're not off to a great start" felt that in my soul. Tried these "That Girl™" routines over and over again, until I realized that I need to find my own routine. Though I feel bad for not being as productive as seemingly everyone else around me, I know that sticking to my own routine helps me prevent mental breakdowns and generally keeps my other symptoms of my mental illnesses at bay. And don't stress about what you're recording, Annika!! The reason you pulled me into your videos was specifically *because* you were and continue to be honest that you're not on top of things every single day and that you *do* struggle with your mental illnesses and that you're communicating that. Personally, that helped me feel less weird for not being "That Girl™". Keep on going, Annika!!

[@AnnikaOsterlund]

i love u so much! i’m so glad i’m able to help :) thank u for the reassuranfe

[@bubblybeach892]

Omg to be honest you are my biggest inspiration i have always wanted to go tk NYU and you have no idea that you are literally my get away from everything so please keep making these hilarious and totally realistic videos

[@sophiaortega]

at least it was a hot rot! productivity is relative bc sometimes getting coffee is productive. “the girlies” are a facade - ur doin gr8

[@AnnikaOsterlund]

so true bae thank u

[@addib4160]

ur not alone girl

[@jjenn2547]

I just wanted to say, thank you for posting this video. I rather see you be yourself and go through relatable struggles then you pretend to be like other creators who seem "perfect". Those "perfect" routine girls are struggling, just like you. I loved watching this video and found myself relating so hard. I hope you keep posting content like this. Thank you Annika

[@AnnikaOsterlund]

i love u bae thank u

[@jjenn2547]

love u

[@semoikhan7927]

THE COMBO OF THOSE MAKING ME INCAPABLE OF DOING ANYTHING IS EXACLTY WHAT I HAVE TO FIGHT THROUGH (AND LOSE TO) EVERYDAY

[@Stella-y7x]

Some things to do when you wake up early but have nothing to do! 1. Start a new series (and get unhealthily obsessed with it) 2. Start a new book (and unhealthily romanticise it) 3. Start learning a language (and feel superior)

[@h4nnah13]

you’re so comforting to watch because you’re so real and honest about your feelings and your struggles and it really helps to see someone going through the same things. you will get through this, you’re such a strong person and i have all the hope for you

[@janicechrist666]

hey miss annika, take it from a 31 year old hag - those "productive girlies" are not like that 24/7. nobody's got it all figured out - and honestly? i much prefer seeing videos like this where someone had a plan, it didn't go as expected, and they still survived to the end of the day. you know why? because it's realistic. i simply cannot watch the videos of these 21 year old girls with their matcha lattes and 6am gym routines and tea + journaling for an hour, etc., etc., because it's never real. it's a slice of their life that went right that day, but I guarantee you very few, if any of them, actually do all of that each day (and the ones who do, great! good for them! but that's just not how I work and that's OKAY). so you just keep it up, take your naps, and give yourself a hug. i don't typically relate to girls your age so i don't watch their content, but you remind me of when i was your age (ONCE AGAIN I AM AN OLD HAG) and it brings me joy to see you do your thing the way you do it! keep shit weird, osterlund~!

[@AnnikaOsterlund]

that is so sweet bro thank u so much for commenting this you know i’ll keep keeping it weird bae🤞🏻

[@sarahsheppard1632]

I'm literally going through the same thing and I know it may bad, but it made me feel better knowing someone else with the same disorders is struggling in the same aspects, but still trying regardless. Like now I have hope fr

[@semoikhan7927]

this is me on and off (mostly on) for. as long as i can remember. its so hard to live everyday. i've completely isolated myself from everyone and everything.

[@jeseleth]

Been going through a tough time with seasonal depression. Your video was released at just the right time to bring smiles! Watching your authentic videos make me feel less alone about my struggles like wow, someone as cool as you also has their moments. Love your content. Sending love. 🤍

[@livelovelaughgeto]

Honestly if I’m being honest seeing videos about people being “That girl.” Or trying to be the best themselves is kinda hard to watch. I mean don’t get me wrong I’m so proud of them and everything but I end up feeling bad about myself and sometimes I really want to see people like you it feels so nice to be understood. Especially when you turn your experiences even the ugly ones into funny content. It makes me happy and feel understood. Which really makes people’s day. So I think your really inspiring, girlie. I always look forward to your videos and wish you the best. So keep being real and relatable. Your my favorite content creator at the moment. And your so funny and cute. And that said’s a lot about you! Love ya.

[@hannahkaye.mp4]

THANK YOU!!! thank you. I like just got dumped and also i I just like can't with anything and I'm having a reallyyyyy hard time staying on top of college apps, AP classes, keeping my room clean, exercising. It feels awful bc everyone around me is done with apps (IN NOVEMBER?!) and stays on top of it and it's not the video you set out to make but it really helped more than those I-woke-up-at-5 girlies. thank you.

[@reneearlotti2388]

this is so real and i love you for that. your life on your instagram looks so perfect that i get jealous but i guess this is a reminder that i shouldn't compare myself to others because we're all struggling.

[@AnnikaOsterlund]

omgg it’s crazy that im that person for other people. do not compare urself to me i only post things i look cute in hehe

[@emmap.1589]

this is the most relatable yt video I have ever seen thank you

[@AnnikaOsterlund]

YAYYY

[@AnnikaOsterlund]

well not yay. i’m sorry u relate

[@andrewlee8340]

holy shit this was relatable, im down bad with ADHD and ive been failing the routine thing for a year but it gets incrementally better. also this brainrot vid was way funnier and meaningful than a stereotypical slay queen productivity vid you should def make a pt. 2

[@sh-fe2zn]

Obsessed with this video but also hope you’re alright

[@landryfrench3107]

I don’t watch productive girl videos, they don’t resonate with me. And I just enjoy your personality. You don’t have to change anything, we already enjoy your content!

[@AnnikaOsterlund]

thank u so much! i appreciate that

[@ellehernandez5870]

be productive by your own means, if you’re getting things done when you think they need to be done, you’re on the right track

[@AnnikaOsterlund]

ur so right girl thank u

[@GibMalFeuerzeug]

literally i wouldnt care what you upload, i just like youre personality. You dont have to change anything. I feel like im mentally unstable and you make me laugh and relate in so many topics. Yeah keep up the grind or whatever :]

[@samanthatoh8854]

Rot girl autumn. Kinda like the leaves that fall to the ground. I like it, I relate to it, and I think imma start using that.

[@AnnikaOsterlund]

purr 😸

[@juliaaehrlich]

I had a fight or flight response to the alarm at the beginning of this video plzzz

[@Stella-y7x]

Omg same I felt so much anger inside of me

[@frinishoots]

annika girl ive watched you from the start and i prooomise people dont watch ur videos cause youre in college or cause your shit is together or not!!! youre just funny asf, you could be doing anything and its fun to watchh

[@madelynrogers7922]

VLOG LETS GO i get so giddy when you post ily sweer

[@AnnikaOsterlund]

SWEER😭😭😭

[@apexlegendsisworsethanfort5680]

Dude I hate that alarm noise at the beginning. 😂 Whenever I use it, it just fuels me with that “just woke up anger”, am I the only one that feels this way????

[@ssscoliosisgirl]

currently rotting in bed watching this lol

[@AnnikaOsterlund]

as it was meant to be watched

[@wormiekarma2563]

As someone who struggles with seasonal depression, I got one of those light therapy lamps and it's made it a bit easier to get out of bed in the morning 😭

[@savnoel]

we fawking love yew

[@AnnikaOsterlund]

I LOVE YEW

[@leahm1275]

No cause these videos are so motivating cause it’s real. Like sometimes you rot in bed lol

[@MiaCoronel]

youre so real about your life ur my fav youtuber love uuuu

[@AnnikaOsterlund]

i love u!!!

[@savnoel]

YAY ANNIKA VID

[@meepmoopmeep1]

I needed a trigger warning to the alarm sound at the beginning 😂

[@AnnikaOsterlund]

gotta make sure u guys are awake

[@jimsullivanyoutube]

Oh Annika! I missed you! I'm so glad that you're not like those other girlies! I wish my daughter would vlog, but no. She won't. That sucks. So I watch other NYU vloggers to get a sense of her world. You're my favorite! I love your manic editing style! You're so dramatic! You're so original!!! ❤ I wish I was your therapist. At 64, there's so much I feel I know about what you're going through there girl! Have you tried meditation? I have but I rarely do it. I prefer to move. I go for hikes and use my phone as a therapist. It's cheaper. I just do a brain dump into the voice recorder while I get my 10,000 steps in. I burn calories, lose weight, and save a ton on psychotherapy! But people look at me funny. 😂 I was in NY last August to help her move into her dorm. I bought an NYU t- shirt and wore it on the plane home. And because I did I met a bunch of other parents! It was an emotional moment for all of us! 😢

[@amybrookebaker3070]

grover with his arm around the box!!

[@zoeharumi3797]

I do need the part 2 please

[@AnnikaOsterlund]

ILL TRY😭😭

[@gracek6414]

i have actually never felt more seen ever

[@Stella-y7x]

Wait did y’all move? Room tour plsss!!

[@AnnikaOsterlund]

YAS WE DID!! moving vlog will be my next video

[@miatara9961]

Watching it again cause you asked us to watch it on ig 😘

[@AnnikaOsterlund]

AND UR A REAL ONE FOR THAT

[@madeleine-fd2rv]

So relatable.

[@gabriellapoppol2237]

watching this hoping it motivates me to get back up and contiune working on my depression room even tho i would rather be taken out back and $hot

[@heloisemesure41]

You're so fanum tax annika we love you (i have no clue what i just said and im cringing)

[@probablylondon5335]

Ily❤️

[@isabellewatchesmefromfaraway]

ur real that’s y ily

[@Stella-y7x]

Are you part of a society/sport/cause at your uni? Might help keep you busy and entertained

[@nivaaaasharma]

Tbh this has to be my favourite week vlog of yours 🥹🥹!! no but literally I can relate to every min of it.. Ilysm girl We got this

[@probablyclimbing7738]

it's kinda sad that u don't show ur sonny angels in ur vlogs... I was really expecting them to make at least one damn apearance... :((((

[@murielsophie1210]

i love u

[@AliciaKent]

Luv u annika

[@AmirOrtsac16]

Lol i saw ur channel on an app called bitlife

[@sic4425]

For your bio. It's really not okay to be depressed. If you're reading this get help.

[@AnnikaOsterlund]

thanks freud! i think i might be doing better with my life than you are with urs

[@sic4425]

@@AnnikaOsterlund I’ve been watching you for years. 😭I’m not a hater there’s no reason to get defensive when you’re the one crying online about being depressed. Just from watching the first bit of your video, my life is way more fulfilling than yours is. Don’t take your anger and sadness out on me for trying to look out.

[@AnnikaOsterlund]

girl if u watched the video you would’ve HEARD me say “it’s no reason to stop trying” i literally have a chronic illness so forgive me for getting defensive when someone says “it’s not okay” to live my life as i HAVE to live it😭😭

[@sic4425]

⁠​⁠​⁠​⁠@@AnnikaOsterlundare you not the same person writing quirky video descriptions saying “it IS okay to be depressed”? It’s not. That’s what I was referring to and you know that. I’m not shaming you for your mental illness. If you tried to get help for yourself you wouldn’t HAVE to live with it. I’m not trying to be mean or hate I’m genuinely trying to be supportive.

[@AnnikaOsterlund]

i am on SSRIS i DO get help for it bae i have a chronic problem you don’t understand what depression is or what it’s like

[@violaclubjr8121]

0:50 2:43

[@laurena2868]

Was the movie Spirit lol

[@AnnikaOsterlund]

yes😭😭

[@laurena2868]

that movie is amazingggg Matt Damon is the narrator if you didn't know lmfao@@AnnikaOsterlund

[@joi_00]

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