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I used to be so self-aware and socially awkward, on top of being shy and drawn-back.
Many times I tried to change, tried to be more open and social. I took up more space and spoke to everyone. But to my friends and classmates, this was strange behavior. They made such a deal out of my change, some of them even got annoyed with me changing for the better, that I crawled back into my hole. I had gotten negative feedback, and responded accordingly, because the thing I wanted the most was respect from others.
Now, years later, I see the problem in that. In sacrificing who you could be for who you are. In other words, trying to be consistent with the person your friends, family and classmates see you as. For if you want to change, if you want to go from a socially awkward person to a social master, a self-made extrovert in some way, you have to stop listening to your old environment.
A way to do that is to move out, go to a different city and establish yourself as somebody different, as someone more like the person you want to be.
That happened to me, and I realized the power I had when I could decide for myself what to do - but I also faced a huge challenge, one that threatened to end my newly found life.