Staring at the ceiling, with my fingers crossed With a ton of stirred thoughs, hoping ill win the lot Ive been bought out with so much And it keeps growing like an you can eat lunch Perhaps its just just a dark hunch My anxiety is crippling, through my blood stream its persisting I am though resisting, but my consciousness isnt listening Im all consumed of what life couldve been Im addicted to my negative thoughts and i keep sinking until the water hits my chin Drop one more inch lower and maybe ill drown Death right now seems better than accepting my current circumstances right now They say in life you only get so many chances I wont have my inner voice screaming so loud My parents will have at least one kid that makes them proud Im sorry mom and dad that i was always combative Never being appreciative, never accepting what you gave Accepting my fate, no i dont want to brave I just wanna lay in a grave because ive accepted that i cant be saved People in my life say im the one who needs to change But they cant see that ive been shot at long range For my thought process to rearrange, i need to experience something thatll get me out of this haze And into a better place, its what im after Happy moments and laughter, same book, next chapter Rekindling past disasters, climbing the ladder faster Seeing the green on the pasture Drive by the past at last Cut off the demons head with an axe Replastering the pavement and filling in the cracks
@SuzannasNina7 ай бұрын
Suzana Nina,,,, "Stiiiiiiiiiiiiiiillllllllll"
@nurogl489 Жыл бұрын
21- 0:21 nakarat Yirmi bir başladı yine sırf kaçmadım diye Saçları başkadır akşamdaki gözyaşlarım saçmalık Bendeki bu ağlamaklı tavırlar adeta laçkalık 0:43 Kimisi için hayat çok erken başlar Gözlerimin altındaki bu yaşlar telaşla akar Ya birisi beni görürse Ya birisi benim gibi toprağa gömülürse 0:54 Üzülmeyin, zira öldüğüm gün bugünse Yaşıyordum oysa ki ben tarih dünse yani farkına var ve gülümse önemli değil eğer konu ölüm değilse 1:05 yine de kendini üzme konu ölüm gibiyse de hayatta, ölümden yetme bunu anlayamazsın tekte doğru zamanlamayı bekle
@Visionaryakafonzfoederl2 жыл бұрын
Man I hate a lot little people with a fake smile Trying keep it 100 hundred with they fingers crossed Bet I see you humming to Eminem spitting 8 mile While rolling dice smoking chase while drinking plain water And no rabbit in this race that keep me on the break’s child I got a jack I cop ace then a queen king me in this full house Stop playing pull out ain’t tryna put a baby in this bulls mouth How you got me looking crazy when I ain’t even had my pant up I tried to stand up got a hook jab until I fell down Then when I was down kick in the mouth with a round house But ain’t nobody see nothing damn a bunch of clowns out How you call me your best when I ain’t even got a chance to I got something to prove chip on my shoulder Sometimes to lose when I dip my head in the water Looking for faith ain’t no god or messiah Higher power who’s the better me My enemy is my friend in deed And the enemy of my enemies is my friend Who can turn foe when they decide to fold I ain’t betting money I just keep it known That if you want me on your side You got keep it too Be 100 don’t change for others Whenever you get better deals I got a steady flow fat from incredible But I working on a couple still Just tryna show up when I’m needed But I got a reason to be on my toes In the night is where you’re vulnerable And I heard someone creeping on the low Leave crumbled underneath their souls So it’s obvious that I gotta go If I can’t walk then I gotta crawl Ain’t a victim so I gotta make it home Even when the odds are 10/1 I’ll take the 10 out of 100 still And die before they take my soul They want the love but cannot handle coins They wanna dollars to feed their hunger And not just 100 they like a lot of dough While I don’t care if I’m gotta check I just want the love cause fuck the disrespect You coming crooked will have to fix your neck I ain’t reckless I move with intellect So just want your six while I get the rest
@PRODSYXDO2 жыл бұрын
dammm nice
@mason96772 жыл бұрын
This is decent but it need a boast of some sort but this really good keep it up the mix
@MALCOLMXTASY Жыл бұрын
🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥
@its1bdullah Жыл бұрын
بهالدنيا لا تأتمن .. من حكى بيبقى وراكك
@Kotag187 ай бұрын
انت جاي تتفلسف هنا
@mqqqwer2 жыл бұрын
wow
@measel197611 ай бұрын
Somebody pass the mic...
@wadehawkes606411 ай бұрын
🎤here bro
@chillluciani3427 Жыл бұрын
Yea that's us partake Impulsive scrutiny scullydue to reruns the feelin mutual
@myster_majster1259 Жыл бұрын
how do you want to sell this beat when there are your names in the beginning and in the whole song
@6lxcky169 Жыл бұрын
all licenses without voice tags
@abztrakmuzik992 жыл бұрын
So much I ain't proud of...(hol' up) I admit....(yeah) I done did....(wait) Look I admit I done did a lot of shit I ain't too proud of But that's life. We live. We learn. And try to keep on But I can't lie. Don't paint me as a Saint. I done sinned so much... Fuck. I done sinned so much that my sense of right are wrong I really don't know why I keep writing these songs. If anything I'm afraid to break out Afraid of the skeletons in my closet finding they way out Too afraid of all the attention. But I know they still gonna put me on a pedestal If anything I genuinely prefer second. But my talent seems to help me attain all the gold Even tho I prefer silver or bronze. Imposter syndrome no joke. I hate how I really am if I'm being honest. I have way too many bad tendencies. My brain, I never understand, thoughts are too toxic. My conscience seems to always gets the best of me Maybe I'm lost in my own void Fuck. My flaws are what they'd exploit Fuck. Lost in my own voice Said I just wanted a sense of rejoice But what I wanted was never a choice. I wonder why I pour out my soul. I pour out my heart. Why I met many luminescent souls that kept me in the dark
@rin_t1h3i0n8h Жыл бұрын
Đốt đốt cho tao thêm 1 bi Chắc là mày còn biết mày đốt tốt Châm cho t 1 bi Old school hay là boombap thì t vẫn sẽ còn giết được
@frankrose10829 ай бұрын
My game I choose to play gave me scar tissue guess I got personal issues with no tissues the drugs I misused made me became a excuse with a dream and talent that’s unused like condoms and wound up abandoning it like whoops baby’s that u regret making with the wrong ladies paying the price for my neglected past like child support papers with time will get your ass just like my past now all I. Have in high anxiety and stress while playing like I’m hero with a S on my chest while on the inside I’m nothing but a mess who would have guess ha ha
@maxbear7961 Жыл бұрын
Staring at the ceiling, with my fingers crossed With a ton of stirred thoughs, hoping ill win the lot Ive been bought out, so much And it keeps growing like an you can eat lunch Perhaps its just just a dark hunch My anxiety is crippling, through my blood stream its persisting I am though resisting, but my consciousness isn't listening Im all consumed of what life couldve been Im addicted to my negative thoughts and i keep sinking until the water hits my chin Drop one more inch lower and maybe ill drown Death seems better than accepting my current circumstances right now They say in life you only get so many chances ve been hit with making too many poor decisions Broken too many bridges, wont heal naturally, need stitches I wont have my inner voice screaming so loud My parents will have at least one kid that makes them proud Im sorry mom and dad that i was always combative Never being appreciative, never accepting what you gave Accepting my fate, no i dont want to brave I just wanna lay in a grave because ive accepted that i cant be saved People in my life say im the one who needs to change But they cant see that ive been shot at long range For my thought process to rearrange, i need to experience something thatll get me out of this haze And into a better place, its what im after Happy moments and laughter, same book, next chapter Rekindling past disasters, climbing the ladder faster Seeing the green on the pasture Drive by the past at last Cut off the demons head with an axe Replastering the pavement and filling in the cracks Self-harm, no im not cutting my arm Set myself in flames and still remain calm Manufacturing emotions like an animal farm An emotional vortex, consumed by my demons, more or less What i did in the past, i confess, im paying the price, strangle my own neck Yeah, with both my own hands, sinking in sand Floating in space, wait no wait, i think its land Uncertainty, is hurting me, to family its burdeningz. ' In dire need of getting rid òall this anxiety I guess with all this pain im still learning Night or morning, temper the storms early Cant let it fester under so much pressure You see one day things will hopefully get better But right now im still suffwring The computer that is my mind is still buffering Muttering phrases, catch myself before hell's blazes Fall into the hands of angels and god's good graces Face the fact that i got to start where i am The past has got to go and move forward the best that i can