Gang Member interview-Suicidal

Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Suicidal, a gang member in Los Angeles.
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[@Arcie7887]

His lips fail to share everything he’s holding inside. His life has taught him not to trust and he’s holding it all in. Best of luck to this man

[@tonychambers9228]

ptsd! I have the same issues from gang banging from 14-18 it was only 4 years but it changed me for the rest of my life.

[@tonychambers9228]

​@@_FBI_ Lol fuck off troll you act like all people that were in a gang were criminals fuck off

[@tonychambers9228]

@@_FBI_ ok man . That brought up alot of bad memories man that i dont want to revisit. PTSD is a severe mental issue. Have a good day.

[@hassenalwaely6215]

@@tonychambers9228 you good bro ?

[@hassenalwaely6215]

@@tonychambers9228 who are you even talking to ?

[@Kristen879]

I found my dad dead in the Livingroom at 12 years old and my life went from great to a homeless crack addict over time.I've been clean for about 10 years now after meeting my husband.

[@DrivenAgony]

holy fuck... i'm so sorry :( im glad you're okay ish now tho!

[@themadbadger2920]

God bless you Chrissy, I'm so glad you are in a better situation now, Jesus loves you!

[@themadbadger2920]

I lost my father when I was 12 also in 1973, I didn't find him but he was killed in a drunk-driving accident. My mother had already separated from him when I was 8, and he was taking care of my brother and I. After that, I became an alcoholic/drug addict, and started shooting coke in the early 80s and started shooting heroin in 84! I have finally gotten clean 3.5 years now and I'm still married to my saint of a wife for 29 years! I have to give the glory to Jesus Christ who also stopped me from drinking over 20 years ago and tobacco 13 years ago! Sorry for the book Chrissy, but your story made me want to tell mine! God bless you and your husband and congratulations on being clean, 10 years is AMAZING!

[@americanlakingshomer29]

10 years sober here , no tobacco either , slowly stopping marijuana as well, down to TWO moderate bowls to calm my nerves a week , I wish you all many more years of sobriety and sanity.

[@themadbadger2920]

American Super Truther Patriot Red Pill Congratulations brother, keep up the good work! I quit smoking weed at the same time I quit drinking in 1999. (Unfortunately I kept using junk!)

[@j4p207]

Oh his name is suicidal, I thought he was thinking of ending his life.

[@jessetarpley3324]

Oh yeah I thought the same.

[@jakes-dev1337]

Prob is

[@empressnekia1]

J4 P20 I Thought the same thing to until I read your comment LOL

[@robloxrubis6007]

Same🤥

[@j4p207]

Dre Hall how do we know it’s not a scam?

[@kjprice1443]

I could feel his anger. After a while he relaxed, opened up a little and smiled. All we want is someone who cares and is willing to listen to us. Someone to hold us, and tell us they love us and will always be there. That's all a child needs.

[@marjoryrainey5761]

I noticed that also

[@Ullmans9]

Truth

[@peady64]

Preach. It makes a huge difference.

[@yhontiialoveskenken2165]

Yes I see it too, and a deep profound emptiness & sadness in his eyes.. Almost like a really depressed energy oozing out of him

[@zthreetwo9874]

Timestamp

[@captainwre]

Most comment sections on KZbin are filled with such negative trash talk. But here? Nothing but love.

[@SeanApplePie]

I can feel the love too on this channel, like that. People are real

[@lukki7ster]

i noticed that. It's refreshing

[@axlegib4196]

Etbkopa tigrai mekelde cith.com

[@Jomzi01]

You're fat

[@REWDDEWD]

Love my ass, Willy!

[@HkLY45]

"I realized I can't do it alone. I tried. I can't." This is the most important realization for everyone and very profound. He is close to breaking through.

[@melromero2081]

His self-awareness has me dumbfounded... he’s not the most articulate because of the way he grew up, but he is in fact quite intelligent and has a lot of potential. The point when he said that he couldn’t do it alone, I felt that. Like all the other folks, he’s a product of the way he grew up and the people that surrounded him throughout his life. Sometimes we take for granted just smiling at someone or offering little gestures of kindness. He seems like he needs to be shown genuine love and kindness to change his perspective on life a bit, so that he may be able to give himself the chance he deserves to get a fresh start. I absolutely love these interviews. They’re all people just like us, but most of them are broken because of their terrible childhoods or past traumas or events that occurred that scarred them and led them to depend on substances to find refuge. But I must admit, sometimes I feel emotionally overwhelmed and depressed after watching them because I wish I was in a position to offer some real help ☹️

[@Realizinq]

Mel Romero its a stuttering problem that makes him not the most articulate not because of the way he grew up, thats just a bad stuttering problem he couldve had it since 8 years old

[@avlifestyle7326]

This comment right here is 100% exactly how I feel. I like watching these types of videos for many reasons but I'm always left sad and a bit depressed because I wish that I was in a position to actually help.

[@nonenone2275]

You are beautiful inside and outside.

[@Realizinq]

None None am i beautiful inside and out ?

[@andrewnicholas4951]

Mel.. to listen 👂 become aware relate is a positive action which does hav weight of a touch of burden . To lift..Mr Laita has 🎯 targeted specific organisations that work for the betterment of such people. They require donations how little .. it all counts.

[@naturezone6655]

This man has alot to offer.His advise can keep young guys on the straight and narrow.I hope things pick up for him.

[@jflack6]

*a lot

[@rnkim2564]

Mike skaronis: you are actually quite wrong that this guy doesnt have a lot to offer and I don't think nature zone's comment meant that he admires this guy. The most effective programs to help youth offenders are the OG gang bangers that have done hard time and see the light of how futile that lifestyle is and want to share their story and guide them. He might be the only person able to reach some of these kids. I do have my doubts about what's exactly going on with this guy, he has an odd way of presenting himself, odd mannerisms and interactions,and speech patterns which lead me to wonder if he's also got some issues with schizophrenia and might not be as involved in gangs as he states, but whatever, I'll take what he says at face value...Problem is, it sounds like the kids he going to "coach" are already in a gang...and trying to get someone out, respecially at close range really is against the rules. you want to talk to kids before they get in the gang, when or before they are starting to have problems coping and getting into trouble is the most effective

[@alastairgreen6783]

A lot. It's two words.

[@marypurpura9151]

Nature Zone 66 I was thinking the same thing. He could be speaking to young men and really help them. I send good vibes his way.

[@mjkg6026]

Mike SKARONIS probably done more with his life then a loser like you writing pathetic comments on KZbin which mostly have no effect

[@katarinasutherlin]

When he said “at least somebody will love me” hit me so hard. He don’t even realize but random strangers love him after watching this. Human connection is the driving force for all actions for real.

[@007Variable]

Tell me about your childhood, “.. ah shit, hear we go.”

[@Leandatastic]

007Variable I know right here we go .....

[@journey-gm6sv]

again

[@Leandatastic]

journey 2019 lol

[@rupertplum1709]

*here

[@ericgodson]

@@rupertplum1709 🤦🏽‍♂️ let em live

[@mandymeyer2093]

I feel for this guy. He actually has feelings and cares. If he'd been born into a different life he'd have made more of himself.

[@Katerina-nl4tz]

"At least somebody loves me " That's all we want. All these interviews make me feel so close to these people like i know them its like i see a part of me in them. i dont even live in the US. I have a roof over my head, a plate of food everyday, i dont have to worry if i get raped, robbed or killed but still i feel bad listening to their stories as if it was part of my life

[@lifeofraphi_c1099]

Humanity bonds us together, homie , changes the course of our past and sheds a different light on our paths based on our stories, experiences and everything in between

[@jeffreyfidler5301]

Katy tutu Ahhh. You have a lot of compassion. That rare today. GOD bless

[@mikeei954]

We are all brothers and sisters

[@necimalia6310]

It is called empathy ^^

[@amnestor]

What a bright, soulful, good hearted man. He deserves a chance. I hope gets one.

[@johnnywilson1453]

Anne Marie Nestor Foreal

[@rychusgyrldread4186]

I luv how he had a whole brick guard up, until dude asked about his mom then he opened up...turned around, made eye contact, stopped looking at him all mean...

[@gregorylagrange]

The mean was just sweat in his eyes

[@BrandyBB]

I love the ending when he said; I need a chance. I just wrote his name on my prayer list I'm praying for you sir. I got you man. Thank you for telling us part of your life story. Sorry you never had a chance but it's not to late!!!!! God bless you

[@BrandyBB]

@Naj Mira Absolutely!!!!!! Thank you soooo much for reaching out to me. No matter how hard life may seem to crumble your Spirits you can still COME OUT ON TOP!!!! YOU CAN STILL WIN!!!! I'M HERE IF YOU NEED ME!!!! JUST MESSAGE ME ON HERE OR SEND ME A FRIEND REQUEST ON FACEBOOK!!! Brandy Pearson.... im on Instagram also Blackbeautii_35 ...... whats wrong? What do you need?!

[@BrandyBB]

@Christian Laursen awww thank you so so much!!!! I needed to read that. I will keep being me. Love you ❤

[@darcsun9766]

That's aaight SiS. Your Blessing will be 10fold. Peace

[@BrandyBB]

@@darcsun9766 thank you so much. I receive that prophesy.

[@julianscamacho6226]

@@BrandyBB you are a wonderful person much love

[@jaydog9329]

Despite his slight stutter from being a fast talker he's actually very well-spoken and articulate. Just untapped potential from being locked up all those years.

[@prettiipisces_1085]

I agree, he has a good voice a voice that makes people listen. And I liked his mannerisms. His mentality is pretty great too.

[@iragrahamiv4068]

@@tdizzy8822 man everybody has untapped potential, if he would have grown up differently, he could have been a millionaire, and the words that he's saying (though they're pronounced terribly and he could explain things a lot better) are pretty thoughtful and show his experiences . . . you can hear the trauma in his voice.

[@tdizzy8822]

@Christian Laursen wow. So deep. Did you write that down in crayon?. Lmfao idiot

[@kevinzhu6417]

T dizzy Theres no need to make fun of him, hes obviously not an academic but he provides an insight into his life of struggle and poverty that we dont understand. If nothing he said was of substance no one wouldve watched even a minute of the video, not trying to sound rude but i think youre undervaluing him

[@sourdiesel681]

Bruh isn't he from New York? New York Niggaz don't really finish their sentences, buy you dig what they saying. They talk fast like this guy, he just happens to stutter too. I can understand every word he's saying without the Subtitles.

[@oojay5348]

When I watch these videos .. I realize I’m not even going through any problems compared to theirs 😩

[@anaisf6712]

true . makes us come off our high horse when we thought we weren’t even on it .

[@ethanrinehart4750]

no cap

[@ChevieBabySalvatore]

Facts eye opening for a lot of ppl but this is real life this shits happening 247 365 that’s the sad part ppl just now waking up better late than never I guess

[@tobiasduru8929]

They’re going through a lot that’s true but don’t discredit you’re own problems they’re just as important

[@henryreza3957]

These people choose to be in this situation don't forget

[@DrEziaku]

I felt his humanity.

[@warriorlight3875]

He looks so stressed like me there is no peace in him bless him❤️

[@swanyay3304]

I felt that too..I pray for clarity

[@dallasedc2976]

He’s a crackhead

[@rogernelson5563]

@@dallasedc2976 What do you know about it ? So guick to judge other people , lead your life , open your eyes and shut your damn mouth if you don't anything wise to express , you will learn something new everyday maybe

[@dallasedc2976]

@Roger Nelson plenty...who said I was judging? Shut your mouth and open your eyes...I grew up with people like these...what do you know about it?

[@rogernelson5563]

@@dallasedc2976 U just did , judging and u don't know it , making a statement about someone u don't know , how do u call it ? Again , watch the video and shut da fuck up , u might learn some

[@e_b_]

As this went on you could see his true soul come through, it's so tragic to think of what these people could have been given different circumstances. I get that people make choices and that not everybody who has a rough life make the same choices, but the common thread through all of these is abuse / neglect and trauma in childhood.

[@heatherzlotyh7267]

This man is very precious! I can feel his brokenness and feeling of futility. I think if he had a loving community around him , like in a good church , he would really blossom. I think he could be a real mentor to others someday. I hope he gets that chance. He deserves a chance❤️

[@georgiai94]

“I was a young boy with no leadership. So how can you say i should be locked up forever ?” that’s powerful . It says a lot about today about young black men in society...

[@selenenoir7562]

Interviewer is so respectful to answer every "you heard" & "you feel me"

[@sharonjones2775]

Selene Noir Lol!

[@mkhaled5048]

Not funny bitch ass

[@keyshia6909]

i wish every gang member i know would take the time to listen to this. key word: ALOT OF REGRET. and regret is one of the saddest things to live with in life, cause sadly at 39... there’s so many LITTLE choices he has left. so sad. god bless him. and i hope he finds love & guidance.

[@vegetablepimps]

Laura Anahi True words miss lady.

[@mrmojorising-]

Haha you just a kid stop giving advice to people lol

[@DoubleN517]

Amen

[@saucyboy111]

He's saying he was born in NY , not " in (the) wild"

[@BornToBeFamed]

pat d yeep! He talk like a jamaican to.

[@LaViolaWard]

Yup. Definitely gathered that by his accent.

[@lbztv845]

La Viola Ward THATS a NY accent not a Jamaican accent

[@bodegaconnoisseur2548]

The first 2 words out his mouth “whats good” you could tell he from ny

[@hanklesacks]

BornToBeFamed That’s a prime NY accent

[@webbotubes]

Wow really interesting and raw. Fascinating- awesome capturing of a subject that is often covered differently!! I have to sleep now. But hype to watch the other new vids!! If i may offer some feedback (i ax ppl every day) dont be afraid of the silences, sit with the pause- and your subjects will fill the space. Rather than feeling the need to fill it with another question. You could tell that was more comfortable by the end 😊. I am defo a fan!! X

[@SoftWhiteUnderbelly]

Katie Merrick Katie, Thank you for the excellent advice. I will definitely start being a little more patient during those pauses. ML

[@Jake-dc8yx]

i was about to comment this

[@Becca14219]

Katie Merrick me too lol these vids keep me up at night😂

[@mauricenunn6935]

Out of all the interviews, this is one of those that stand out the most.

[@Mandology575]

Maurice Nunn How?

[@quai4447]

@@Mandology575 How not? not agreeing or disagreeing

[@Realizinq]

Bad stuttering problem

[@hunnybunny3053]

Why?? Cant Understand His Mumbling Ass

[@prettiipisces_1085]

You people on here are really shallow. You can look at this man and see struggle pain and experiences in his face. Its the way he carries himself. I like that he’s one of the only people on this account to not overshare his life. They be so quick to do that it seems fake but he seems very very real.

[@faheema6736]

He needs to get a fan in that room ...

[@RxTerps]

Faheem A kzbin.info/www/bejne/i569fHWIdpeLbtE

[@Athletic_Man.]

Lol

[@dustyomeara5070]

Lmfao

[@XXchromosomes24]

A very smart guy with a big heart. So self reflected, so strong in his belief. I m fascinated by him. He has a lot to give.

[@Lady_Crispr]

"Live and die in L.A." I think that part made me sad more than anything else. I know he thinks it is a badge of honor but to be stuck like that is horrifying to me. To never want more for yourself like that is scary... I just want more for him.

[@kaipos8601]

Not a badge of honor, he sees it as an inevitability

[@Seattlefan77]

The way he said it had alot of meaning. He's not wearing it as a badge of honor, just a "that's the cards I've been dealt"

[@rubitomc7640]

it's a 2pac song he was referencing.

[@kaipos8601]

@@rubitomc7640 wasn't 2pac referring to the 80s movie by the same name?

[@rubitomc7640]

@@kaipos8601 I'm not sure about that! Pac was also born in NY

[@cindyloohoo5757]

This morning you were at 96k subscribers... tonight 141k! I have never ever seen this before! This really is an unbelievable look into lives that is fascinating, disturbing, heartbreaking and every other emotion- you touch everyone somewhere with these videos. Thank you.

[@AA-yc9dq]

This aged well, now at 3.52M, yesterday 3.5M

[@freshbaiii718]

Definitely a ny dude, once i heard him say” u hurd” i knew

[@melaniegonzalezart8506]

All the construction and trains and buses and cars and bikes and strollers and people we have to say "ya Hurd?" to know if people heard you! Lol

[@yosimtybred1762]

Hear the nyc all in his voice

[@jblaze9462]

The "ya heard" sounds NY

[@Slim545]

yosimty bred sounds like a Brooklyn nigga

[@yosimtybred1762]

@@Slim545 na he sound more of a uptown dude we use ya heard alot

[@jjordan4399]

He probably from Harlem if not BK

[@yosimtybred1762]

U not lying bronx harlem use ya heard for anything bk use "feel me sun"

[@cateellington6653]

His words about “People Cant judge me, they don’t know what I went through, no father figure”. That struck me and went right through me. So heavy those words. Him knowing people have been judging him all his life. Even when he was a little boy. Damn.

[@blibbster60]

It's interesting the common thread that I've noticed across many of these interviews: the hope and search for love and acceptance as fundamental to survival - we should all give love more...

[@styleicon1655]

Gakalak yea and for these gang members they seem to all say they get a feeling of family from the gang that is missing in their lives. Sad.

[@lisagrace4355]

He reminds me of my ex bf had that real hard look and as you and he talked he showed the other side of himself.. He’s a good man who’s had it rough but he has heart.. I wish him the best..

[@MabelJ47]

I agree. I have 1 ex that has a hard tough guy exterior and comes across as harsh, but to me he was always an open book, easy going and not intimidating. Chemistry explains a lot. My ex is still an addict, it's sad, he has 5 kids with 5 different women, yikes. Glad I didn't stay around to see any of that mess, I have no children with him, thank goodness. He just hasn't ever straightened out, he just can't and I don't need to know why.

[@inkedirishmama962]

"atleast somebody loves me" I felt that.. It's so sad that anyone would have to not know unconditional love as a child or in life period. He seems like he has so much wisdom to give about the life, I hope some of the youngens he knows listen to him, and I really hope he finds love and happiness now that he's out and has a chance. The world is such a sad place for alot of people 😒

[@delorasledge2492]

He made me sad from the moment he spoke his 1st sentence. The gang got'em but he's living on the streets...

[@Missuskeefe]

he could do voice-overs for Morgan Freemen. Close your eyes and listen to his voice. Morgan Freemen's voice right there.

[@bluu_ice6554]

Um no. Not even close.

[@netherlingfreak]

I can see it!

[@pudddingpie]

I hear it if he spoke a lil slower

[@Cece-lb7nc]

He sounds like that crazy murderer markeith Lloyd

[@Cece-lb7nc]

TheDodicat I agree it was complete gibberish

[@MisterstereoOso]

Another of your incredible interviewees, a soulful dude who could have been anything if he’d been dealt a better hand maybe, I hope he gets a few breaks & gets on the straight & narrow....

[@novvst.rivver394]

Opto Mister you are very thoughtful. I wish many blessings onto you and those you love. Thank you for your humanity.

[@MisterstereoOso]

Novv St. Rivver thank you sir, there but by the grace of god, go any of us..

[@bdiggie1]

“I was born in N.Y” not “in the wild”

[@DB-115]

I was thinking the same thing. He's so NY.

[@Leandatastic]

Knowitall lol

[@gregguess5248]

NY accent still

[@benfrankdalist2709]

Facts I peep that

[@iacobus4227]

Same difference lol

[@justsomedude69]

This channel is beyond anything else. Nobody would give this guy a second look, but this is a real person with feelings and a past. It changed the way I look at the world.

[@user-ff1kd6fe5k]

My heart breaks for this brother... you can see the regret, the helplessness, the despair and futility of a life and code that he once held sacred which, to date, has only rewarded him with lost youth and an uncertain future. My brother, your story has not yet been written. There is hope and a future for you if you use that intelligence you possess and that ability to survive... You are worth more than you think you are... Rise up....Your best life is yet to come and it is possible... believe me.

[@SGM805]

True talk for real, I hope the next chapter in his life is better, and with love

[@ruthiemonroig1614]

He is genuine..Praying good things come his way 🙏

[@DB-115]

Reminds me so much of DMX. He he can right his wrongs in this lifetime.

[@jamesboston2259]

More like the Jamaica dude from Belly

[@marshwetland3808]

Made it to Grade 11 - no reason he shouldn't have been able to be successful, if only he'd had opportunities. So sad. Only opportunity was gang and criminality.

[@Slim545]

Brandon Clarke he didn’t choose it he was getting jumped on his way to school ! It was either be prey or predator

[@softshoedancer]

True what he says about no father. I never met my father...and I ended up screwed up too.

[@softshoedancer]

@Jonathon Cole yes I understand where you are coming from, and I do try to take responsibility for my mistakes. The issue for me growing up was that I had absolutely zero guidance from any male. I grew up very unsure about my masculinity, I didn't know how to present myself as a man, I'd never seen how one handles oneself socially as a male. It made me very insecure, and I ended up having a way blown out of proportion ideal of masculinity, totally over the top, where I felt like I should always be fighting, selling drugs, and be willing to "prove myself" by taking drugs others feared to take, which led to a 13 year heroin habit. I take responsibility for it, but there is no question that not having a father set me on that path. That's just an objective fact, and frankly I'm not too bothered whether anyone agrees with it or not.

[@kw6724]

Acknowledging that you’re “screwed up” is the 1st step to change. You must realize that he probably won’t ever come around, so you have to decide if you want to continue living the way that you do or you want better for yourself?... I seriously hope the absolute best for you. We all deserve peace & happiness in our life...so do you! ❤️

[@softshoedancer]

@@kw6724 hey thanks...no he's dead now, good riddance, I'm 44, and been off drugs for 10 years now

[@kw6724]

Mark Rice oh ok... and wow, good for you! See, you’re turning out much better than you give yourself credit for. I read about your history, so I totally understand where you’re coming from. Seems like you’ve changed a lot, so I salute you for that!

[@dariusjohnson5648]

Jonathon Cole fuck you, your just a typical judgmental asshole not everything is easy for some okay people struggle with hurt and pain from not having any parents to abusive ones, to ones that are there but not emotionally, we have to be better as people we have to break the cycles and learn how to love, it’s in us but with a lot of us we don’t know better. It’s all a process some learn early in life and some later and some never, have compassion.

[@Lisa1111]

It was cool to see him let his guard down with you. Love your channel - Seattle ❤️

[@BrianKrock]

I love these videos, but I have been noticing that the subtitles are regularly completely wrong. They kind of misrepresent the subjects’ thoughts, sometimes. Anyone else notice that? Not just in this video, but, unfortunately I can’t remember which one... I’ve watched so many of these!

[@Jaylade]

He just wants to be a dad to those kids in his gang he never had. I hope he can forgive himself for what he did in the past, keep going to church and get clean! PS who the hell names their kid suicidal :(

[@Sheriff_GrimLaw]

That's clearly his gang name, you dolt and clean of what. I saw an older man regretting the choices he made as a teenager that ultimateoy locked him up most his adult life. x

[@Jaylade]

Why am I a dolt because he I didn't understand he goes by his gang name :( He doesn't have to... and he said he wanted to get clean in the video..getting clean is different than just clean from drugs

[@jakephillips4453]

​@@Jaylade You thought his real name was Suicidal? oh my god.

[@Devereaux701]

Jenna L now you KNOW...that man’s real name is not Suicidal, come on 🤦🏽‍♀️

[@Jaylade]

@@Devereaux701 Yep now I know. But again, he doesn't have to go by it.

[@chaddywhoo4179]

You can hear this man’s pain and his eyes show it even more😢

[@steelpir8schannel854]

That question "you feel safer inside or outside prison" hit him so accurately he couldnt help but laugh. "Thats a good question"

[@rockythemaltipom2224]

I really like this interview, particular because he’s really self aware of who he is and the things he’s done. Super articulate man, and smart. He doesn’t blame anyone for the things he’s done, but it’s said to say the way he grew up plays a big factor. I hope he gets what he wants in his life, stay strong !

[@ericherstedt3217]

He started off so reserved and guarded. It was amazing seeing that facade he's built up to others desolve and he let himself just talk about his life 💪

[@softshoedancer]

I was at work and I was trying to come up with a more positive name for the dude than Suicidal. I came up with...Brightside, as in always look at the...but my favourite is Redemption Man ; )

[@xtensionxward3659]

that speaks volumes about how busy you are at work ...

[@Mothermoon420]

He is TOO smart this is so sadhe needs to be speaking in the schools

[@andrewinspires]

Nothing but love and positive energy for this beautiful soul. Keep doing great work Mark.

[@timmitzlaff8960]

At the beginning of the interview he was very suspicious about the simplest questions. Then he settled down. He needed to find out what was up. He really is a cool guy. I think it was surprising to him that somebody was interested in him. That just one person to another can sit and talk and not try to run some scam on him. Others especially youngsters could benefit greatly having a big brother like him.

[@michealsmith28]

You look at him you can see the little kids that didn't get a chance wow and a terrific guy

[@timtowndrow2056]

There's something about these people they're so poetic the way they speak it's like speaking in poems. I never saw a day of my twenties I only saw bars

[@demarcushays2230]

Man your channel. I thank God for it. I get a lot a negative thoughts that I know if I act on it tear my soul and life apart, but I watch your channel and the massages I get from the interviews keep me from falling back to my old ways. Thanks again 😇

[@nacekozo]

This is fascinating - the man at the end of the interview is a totally different man that was at the beginning.

[@annepountney5155]

Can't stop watching this channel. Thank you so much for sharing your story.

[@kaygrospe2318]

This is the 4th interview I've watched of this series. Nicely shot and a good way to see how ppl end up based on childhood traumas. The interviewer has a hard time listening and comes across as very redundant and arrogant. In another interview with a heroin addict he repeats questions that have already been answered. In this interview he is curating the experience so only certain answers are voiced by those being interviewed

[@RichardWilliams-sn7tt]

This is my favorite of your interviews I've seen. Thank you.

[@jeffreyfidler5301]

Hang in there brother. For what it’s worth. I think your a good dude. GOD bless

[@BrandyBB]

So beautiful, short and simple but so beautiful. Great comment. ❤❤❤❤❤❤🥰🤞🏾

[@foreverhoticis]

He loves his family ..and...Even though he was upfront with his thoughts...I hope Suicidal...is not what he feels behind closed doors. Much love and respect to you,Sir. God bless.Thank you for sharing your story.

[@vonlivetv8826]

If you’ve ever lived in New York or have actually family from there you can see has all the mannerism and word play

[@terri6342]

Real talk from a real man going through the worst in life. Love and respect.

[@sneakerheater9517]

Suicidal : whats good Translation : "whats going on"

[@eaglesquedingo2112]

His story really, really touched me. Spiritually this man needs a hand up, he needs a break. He needs somebody to stand by him and help him get to where he truly desires to be. Its like his soul is begging for that opportunity. Sometimes all.we need is a hand up. Praying that Suicidal is blessed with a great opportunity to change the direction of his life. May a beautiful blessing cross his path very shortly.

[@glitterbrains69]

this guy was 39 here?? i thought he was at least in his late forties. hard ass living man

[@TheNickademas1]

I guessed 55

[@LoieLush]

this is one of my favorite interviews on this channel.

[@italiansister8069]

Sometimes you have to give yourself a chance one day at a time

[@banannie5611]

I've watched a ton of the interviews on this channel but this one hit differently. I teared up when he was asked if he had kids of his own and said he hadn't had a change for that yet. God bless this man for knowing the effects of raising a kid in that environment and choosing not to. I hope he ends up with children. They would have a great role model.

[@miapdx503]

How did I miss this one? Pain is etched into his face, sorrow lives in his eyes. Prayers for you sir.

[@maineguitarists]

Dude, i hope you get help you need. You are honest and amazing. You have the rest of your life man. Don't let your past define you. Glad you have a great mom. Get away from the environment. seriously, i know alot of people trying to quit this and that but if you stay around the same hood, same people, it's impossible. You need a change. I can tell you are a quality person. IT's never too late to do something different, reinvent yourself. Use your past for positive things. You know whats wrong and right. Too many people i believe say they are happy with shitty upbringings. Noone is deep down. You know and God knows. I hope for the best for you!

[@leciawade9167]

I love you and God love you brother. Real talk, if you listen to him very intelligent this is not a dumb man maybe he's done some dumb thing or some Necessary Things but I think he's intelligent

[@luketanner6373]

phenomenal interview. Thank you Suicidal and Soft White Underbelly. to the interviewer or the editor: I think that some of the captions were subtly messed up? They are appreciated, but if would be nice to be able to turn them off?

[@lillygirl8436]

I love his aura. Beautiful. True. Real❤❤

[@Hilarynelzon90]

" You see crazy stuff you don't have to be in a gang. You see crazy stuff every where you go. The world is crazy, ya know. You don't have to be in a gang to be crazy. " Now that's the truth. Bless this man. I pray that he is attending church with his mom.

[@mariofoster5169]

He sound like he from New York ?

[@bluu_ice6554]

Yea he do!

[@oilpit7080]

You must be young newyork is not the only place that talks like this delete Instagram it ruining your brain u hurd

[@ArizonaAkinTv]

IWillNot DownloadYourVirus Triggered 😂

[@ArizonaAkinTv]

IWillNot DownloadYourVirus you must be old since your KZbin name is "I will not download your virus" 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂

[@lavinder11]

@@oilpit7080 he's from NYC

[@melissawycough34]

OMGsh, Mark! What a GREAT interview! Thanks for the captioning. God BLESS him for his honesty! We all do come around eventually. Unfortunately with a lot of regrets. It seems like he's giving back now. Too bad the gang is his only family. I would adopt him into mine in a heartbeat! 🙏❤

[@harolddejesus9160]

Damn a wasted life...at least he would accept help, hopefully he gets it.

[@tiahrachid9407]

Feel sad for him. But it is obvious there's a ray of light remaining in this guy that can help him go further than he can imagine.

[@ricegum2022]

He looks 50 but sounds and dresses like he's a teenager.

[@sarahgeorge501]

Maybe teenagers dress like him!

[@TheMoneyStealer]

not really, he's wearing a tee shirt, jeans, and a hat. isn't that how the vast majority of people dress? perhaps the hat looks a bit youthful i guess

[@blainelee8021]

Rice gum how is he supposed to be dressed in 3 piece suit, he's on skid row.

[@carmenl163]

Thank you for uploading this with subtitles. English is not my first language and this way I could understand everything Suicidal was saying.

[@slr-streetlegalrevenue899]

He didn’t say “ I was born in the wild “ he said I was born in N.Y” New York city lol

[@melissaneuman4367]

Just shows how much home life impacts a child and growing up. I feel for him, stay strong

[@TheRealDarrylStrawberry]

wow. a buddy of mine lost his mind to cocaine...he speaks and sounds exactly like this dude.

[@jannash8334]

Great interviews. I've learned so much from these videos. Everybody has their story. I hope you keep doing this. These people need you, to talk to you, to tell their stories, to open up to someone who cares and will listen.

[@savannahphillips643]

Much love to him. He’s a good person

[@katemoody1662]

by the sounds of it, It took ALOT of courage for him to open up and talk. he sounds like he needs someone to talk to and to be himself. i wish him the best .

[@ItsAllLove4Real]

He's so uncomfortable talking about himself and his life...I don't think he ever actually expect someone would want to know HIS story without condemnation. #ButForTheGraceOfGod

[@tatianamoritz6432]

5:10 His smile ! At the beginning, I thought he would not ever smile

[@tmdwls930]

dang he has that morgan freeman voice....

[@giftofgod241st]

Watching these videos made me realize talking to someone anyone who would listen helps that person heal in away they probably didnt think was possible

[@dustyomeara5070]

Thanks for agreeing to the interview... Camera’s over here, bud.

[@derrikferguson3219]

That’s sad that he spent all of his twenties in prison. I feel for him. Hopefully he finds some joy, peace, and enlightenment.