GET READY WITH ME + OPENING UP (VULNERABLE)

This video was very hard for me to film. But I feel in my heart that it's time for me to come clean about a lot of things & open up about stuff that i've been keeping to myself. To my subscribers, thank you for continuing to always support me! I love you guys!
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[@meganwilley5630]

I’ve gained 60 lbs since going to law school and have been so afraid to post pictures or see people in public. Thank you for speaking out on this. It means more than you know ❤️

[@patriciamartinez4348]

Megan Willey you’re beautiful no matter what! And you’re gonna be a BOMB lawyer. Keep it up girl!!!!

[@crystalari9928]

You're beautiful ♡♡♡

[@lindariegler1458]

Yes girl I feel the same way I have gained about the same and always scared to see people when I go out the house I just feel like after I walk away from talking to people they are going to be like dam she blew up

[@emmafuse9568]

i don’t know you. but girl don’t let this over power your thoughts. i struggle HARD HARD from an eating disorder and it’s because i let it over come me. i’m sure your beautiful baby girl

[@carlysue3532]

Law school?! Girl you’re killing it!! Intelligence is so beautiful, you got this! ❤️

[@coxoxi]

Moral of the story: Don't ever become famous. Just be a regular normal private person. The world is disgusting in everyway possible

[@kellywilson3203]

Agree 100%

[@eliabevangelista4373]

So true...

[@Eblyn4]

It is :(

[@raisingarrows2321]

Yeeeess!

[@kathryngehrett]

coxoxi so sad but true :,(

[@ally_roro1482]

“January was the worst year ever”. True. But now that we are in June... damn has it been a rough century.

[@glassiter9418]

🤣

[@ivette2963]

she was talking about how 18 days of not going out is horrible but looook atttt usss nowwww

[@macyevelyngoss]

now it’s december 1st and we are still in this mess 😂😂

[@Isbluevilla]

October has been a bad minute

[@maheshorikoijam5627]

Fr 🤣🤣🤣

[@PrincessBbyKash]

Watching this convinced that everyone actually had covid back in November-January. Everyone I know was severely sick during that time.

[@cynamin922]

Same here!

[@lily5ever]

yup ... sickest i’ve ever been in October 2019

[@607cmk3]

Same!!

[@Lynn-zx3th]

Same

[@368chen]

My husband was diagnosed with pneumonia, but i am convinced he had COVID-19

[@kristahlav]

"Rock bottom became the solid foundation on which I rebuilt my life" -J.K Rowling

[@michellebenfield9953]

OMG... THAT'S MY NEXT TATT... Recovering addict..

[@thelavenderlife]

This is my next tattoo as well. This really touched my spirit

[@michellecogdill6128]

Absolutely beautiful!! 💯👍👏

[@mangomania7321]

@caleast who?

[@GardenGirlGlowUp]

💚💫💙

[@notthegoodgirl]

I gained 80 lbs (as a Certified Nutritionist) after going through an emotionally abusive relationship, losing a job, and becoming diagnosed with PCOS and insulin resistance all in the same year. I completely hid myself and felt so ashamed... Finally, I decided to love myself and get healthy without picking a stringent weight or size goal, because ALL bodies need exercise, love, and self care. I recently started filming Plus Size Workouts (something I *never* saw myself being able to do - I used to barely be able to leave the house!), and two months ago I added to my certs and became a Certified Fitness Trainer at over 200 lbs, and I'm very proud of it. I stopped waiting for 'someday' and began to love myself where I'm at, and do the things I always wanted to do. Sending you so much love, you are SO strong to share this video! I hope therapy goes well, and we're excited for your new launch, Jaclyn ! 💕

[@SableSunsets]

Josie Quits Cake love your story ❤️ just gave birth and hit 300 lbs before I did! And now I’m determined to get back to 200lbs where I felt the best! I’m a big boned tall woman and 200lbs is a huge accomplishment for me and healthy weight for me to be at ! You have to love the journey ! That’s my advice I’ve done it before and I know I can do it again and I encourage anyone and everyone who wants to have a life change !

[@cheylewis2912]

Super proud of you! its not easy to make changes. I applaud you and for your dedication and happy 2020!

[@loganmccormick9379]

I gained 40lbs in 2018 due to PCOS. AND ITS been a beotch to get off. Only 16lbs down today. It’s tough. And people are rude. “She’s gained weight since high school.” Well no duh. That was 12 years ago. People are rude and life is hard and we are doing the best we can.

[@veliciawilliams1081]

Josie Quits Cake You are not alone. Gained weight after years of being “slim”. It was unbelievable. My metabolism had slowed. I am just not able to help regulate my body. Stay in there and there is light at the end of the tunnel.

[@mindiepetersen7660]

That's so amazing for you! I love that you said "I stopped waiting for... "someday" and just decided to love myself how I was". To be honest with yourself is one of the hardest things to do. I have recently been working on being more emotional intelligent and being honest with myself about myself took me the longest to grasp...but now that I have....I feel like a better person! Good for you! Keep it up bc you make a difference in the world! 😊 Josie Quits Cake

[@umchileanyways772]

jaclyn: january felt like the longest month ever march: *are you sure about that*

[@MandiMadonna29]

hahaha for real. 2020 has been a century long

[@amandanovak4648]

“Not leaving the house for 18 days” Well little did she know rona was around the corner

[@kbabyblue]

I was thinking the same thing

[@bryceidavalencia19]

amanda novak home girl had the rona omg

[@asia8826]

Lol I dead XD

[@_monamono_2382]

LOL😅😂

[@ivette2963]

i was looking for this comment LMFAO

[@kirstiebateman7327]

I complimented a lady at the grocery store on her nails. She got really happy and said I made her day. That’s what it’s about!

[@michellebarron1987]

Kirstie Bateman awe🥰

[@greekozygirl599]

Kirstie Bateman Love this💖 I try to give at least 3 compliments to woman every day. 3 different women.🖤🧡💜

[@OmgItsAmandaTV]

Aww so sweet 🥰

[@lulux9795]

❤️❤️❤️

[@victoriaferrante13]

“Everyone else’s opinion of me is none of my business” i read this for the first time a few weeks ago and it was so eye opening

[@sophiemil8928]

👏👏 2020 goals

[@dxxl-]

Yesss

[@AprilEscobar]

Yes!

[@numindframetarot6046]

Victoria Ferrante I say this all the time! And when people try to tell me what they think of me I kindly respond “How you feel about me is your business. Why are you telling me your business trying to make it my business?”

[@romansautkin9119]

@@sophiemil8928 Шррдъдз0щвщкщ2ъ3ъ30303033хъкпхп9п8пзн8н7п000е9езезез3х3ъ

[@KellieJo93]

Had to revisit this video. Every time I'm feel like I don't love myself I watch this. I have depression and anxiety. I'm overweight and I need to start thinking better of myself. This video reminds me it will be okay.

[@WayneGoss]

And this is why I love Jaclyn. You're stunning.

[@maggie5173]

Hey Wayne! I absolutely ❤️ you and Mel Thompson! I have all your eyeshadow brushes (the white and blue squirrel) except the 26S brush. I know Mel has raved about that brush and it’s the only one I don’t have in my collection. 😭 Do you happen to know when you’ll possibly be getting anymore stock in?? I want it SOOOOO bad!

[@lucyseay8353]

I think you are awesome Wayne!!! I would buy and follow all your advice on everything, because the class and knowledge that you have.. priceless 🙌🏻♥️🙌🏻

[@MissUnderstood506]

😘

[@aracelyguerrero360]

When she says "if you have something nice to say just say it" I love that. I will work on it. Make a stranger's day because you never know what they're going through.

[@itskayla113]

I complimented a girl at Target today and told her how pretty her eyeshadow was, she instantly smiled so big!

[@BillionairesArentYourFriends]

I was that girl!! Just kidding, I hope to be one day because I'm just really bad at makeup and I could use some white lies. God I wish I could do my makeup like Jaclyn oh god I'm so envious I love her so much she's just so amazing I can't believe she's posting again I'm elated!!!! xoxo💕

[@itskayla113]

Ajin is Underrated everything takes practice and then you’ll get the hang of it! Keep trying! And with makeup it’s all up to personal interpretation so just be creative, there’s no right or wrong way of doing it 😃

[@BillionairesArentYourFriends]

@@itskayla113 idk I'd rather kick the bucket

[@mancera369]

“I see 2020 being the best year ever” *covid 19 has entered the chat room*

[@siyamalkani931]

Oh no

[@whellateavlogs0816]

Hello

[@jessicah3450]

At least we're not going through it alone, that's made the pandemic and being unemployed easier. 👐💕

[@christabel7718]

Lol

[@S_u_n_Flower_]

@@christabel7718 kzbin.info/www/bejne/b4SrZmZ8oap7g7s random video I still want to share out of love. Not trying to shove anything down your throat, just mean the best.

[@savannahaa_]

I’m obsessed with how your smooth your skin is and how smooth your makeup goes on 😩

[@zoemalinski4297]

I feel so bad that she has to talk about her weight... why can’t people be kind and support others not for their looks, but for their hearts Edit: I’m not trying to defend what she’s done in the past, I just think that as a beauty influencer who focuses on fashion and makeup, we should focus on the fashion and makeup... her weight shouldn’t be in the conversation in any way🤷‍♀️

[@kimberlyayon3333]

Zoe Malinski I agree. I know seriously her weight should not be anyone business and they should just let her live. So what if she gain some weight who doesn’t. We should seriously all be kind and supportive to one another. Positive vibes 2020.

[@JAM-th1zs]

Agree. Everyone goes through crap and people handle stress differently. Who cares if you gained weight. It is sad when someone feels the need to explain why they put on weight.

[@theatlasreport8046]

How they get beluga whale in video to do make up and talk? Is dis CGI?

[@theatlasreport8046]

Very good

[@vc9491]

@@theatlasreport8046 lol ikr

[@chicstyling07]

remember: hate is loud, love is silent. there are so many people who bash on you, but there are so many more on the sidelines who love and support you ❤️

[@AshleyLamora]

Yup. Negativity gets more hype and focus than positivity. I always say 3 positive affirmations in the mirror at the end of the day every day my mom taught me that when I had low self confidence when I was younger

[@blee2339]

I love this!!

[@freddyandminecraftandmicke4849]

Yassssss!

[@jessicabarbosa7008]

ms keisha I agree with this so much! I love her so much 💖

[@michellecogdill6128]

That's a beautiful saying and so very true! ♥️

[@starcutie3302]

I love how honest you are, you’re so real and it makes me feel like I’m normal because I deal with all the same things and emotions.

[@panacea81]

Jaclyn, I am so sorry to hear everything that you have gone through. When you mentioned your make up line and how it flopped then you started to self medicate with alcohol It really hit a cord with me. I never got paid any royalties from my make up line, I was so badly managed and it gave me the worst anxiety and depression then I took time away from my KZbin channel because like you I just couldn't handle to anxiety around filming. I had become a shaking nervous wreck. I lost my home in the middle of all that which made me feel like the biggest failure ever. I never drank alcohol and then one day I had some and realised it numbed my anxiety and took my my mind off the failure I felt I was. I have gained so much weight because of the it too. And like you said the weight represents a bad thing, its not normal happy eating weight. I am trying to find myself again and I should have gone to the doctors for help too but didnt. Sorry for the long comment and I understand you'll probably never see this comment but I just had to tell you that you are not on the own feeling the way you do and my heart goes out to you. I hope that you get the help you need through therapy. You are beautiful inside and out. Take care, Lauren x Oh & P.S i totally tell people if I think they look fab or if they do something great. I tell them and yes they do look uncomfortable sometimes but I don't care either ;)

[@aquacrimefighter2368]

WOW. You bring back so much lovely nostalgia for me. You were the FIRST KZbin makeup tutorial I ever watched, over 10 years ago. I’m fan girling a little bit over here lol. Haven’t watched your channel in a long time (nothing personal - I really stopped watching all makeup tutorials) but you’ve always stuck in my mind has an OG and taught me a lot of the basic skills that I didn’t have an adult to show me, and use to this day. Thank you Lauren ✨

[@chloekit4861]

What was your makeup line? Are you on anti anxiety meds or anything for your anxiety or depression?

[@kaitlynmoose]

THIS is the Jaclyn I am a fan of.. real, relatable, honest, imperfect, beautiful, flawed, one of us.

[@alysssarenee]

2019 was the devil. I lost the love of my life and had to find his body next to me in bed. I'm still in such a scary deep depression... I isolated myself which has only made it worse... we used to watch your videos together and now I'm crying because this is the first video I've watched since hes passed....

[@lauraemmanuel3068]

alysssarenee I’m deeply sorry for your loss! Going through the comments as I always do in all videos and this made me flinch. Im encouraged for sure by Jaclyn’s message about commenting positivity, and I truly understand your bereavement process. Just thought it would be sweet to let you know that you are not alone and I pray you will be well, even if you never see this comment, even if we are total strangers, sometimes it’s knowing that there’s support makes a difference. My condolences to you and your family. And it’s ok not to be ok, it’s beautiful because you are human and means your alive. Lots of love ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@lauraemmanuel3068]

When I say flinch, I mean like if caught me up and made my heart soft. Looool!

[@jessicar3659]

Im so sorry for your loss I hope that you have a support system to help you grieve. I know what its like to go through that and your not alone please know that your heart will heal

[@jazminnnnnx3361]

May God bless you with the strength to overcome this deep deep pain, I’m so sorry for your loss

[@jkrusso7511]

My goodness I’m soo so sorry I can’t imagine ... please know I am sodeeply sorry for your loss😔

[@alieshalouise178]

Im pretty sure this is the first Jaclyn Hill video I've ever watched. Usually I don't comment because of I dont want it to be picked apart or I think about how others will respond to it. But I'm half way through this video and its honestly so real and exactly what needs to be said. More positivity needs to be posted because I'm tired of all the negative shit out there.

[@maisietucker8049]

All I have to say: Keep doing what you’re doing. You’re doing so well jaclyn don’t feel pressured or hated on to explain yourself loads, you do you - take a moment for you (have a bath or watch some girly film) and have some you time!!! We support you ❤️❤️❤️

[@howdydooyall]

"you can't go back and change the beginning, but you can start where you are and change the ending" - C.S Lewis. Remember this, Jaclyn. You are a beautiful soul. A role model for so many. Be true to yourself, always.

[@elsyaceves79]

Marlana Marie yes she is 💞

[@steviedesierto2825]

I love this so much thank you for sharing ❤️

[@ronniemaria2445]

Jaclyn, Thank you for opening up about your depression and your struggle with alcohol. There are so many of us struggling with similar issues and knowing that we’re not alone reminds us that we are ALL human. I have been struggling with depression as well. I hope that therapy will give you guidance and I truly wish the best for your recovery ❤️ stay strong girl!

[@Kandykorn31]

you have no idea how much this video has impacted me even standing here a year later. sending so much love.

[@billieseyelashes]

i hope you're ok today. take care

[@laurenlonzo8536]

can we take a sec to appreciate how beautiful she is and I love how she's able to be so open like how tf

[@carina_eberle]

To be honest, I got real emotional when you talked about the meaning behind your weight gain. I’ve watched you since the beginning and I genuinely love and hope you are able to find peace in your life and your soul. Depression and anxiety are a very real thing. It’s no joke. I am praying for you and know that you will be able to recover from your demons.

[@wendifiest8741]

I started following you 6 almost 7 years ago now when I was going through chemo for breast cancer at age 32. Your videos were a wonderful distraction and helped me learn how to put on eyeshadow to make me feel less self-conscious after losing my hair. I'm cancer free now, but have continued to watch you because you have always been so fun to watch! It's amazing how much you have no idea how much you can help someone that you never met. I never comment, but you are right, I should comment when something is good! I do it in person, so why not here too! You will get through this. I look forward to seeing you more 😊

[@Sparkysings2]

Wendi Fiest prayers sweetheart!

[@hollycardenas4752]

Congratulations on being cancer free! I just finished treatment for breast cancer also and I am now cancer free too!

[@malloryg4251]

Wow, congrats on being cancer-free! I hope you stay healthy. I have such a fear of developing breast cancer, because it seems like so many women are constantly being diagnosed with it. How did you discover you had it?

[@taracandrika1879]

All those comment screenshots literally made me tear up, I’m so brokenhearted to hear what you have to go thru cause i followed you since day one and i cant believe how evil all those girls can be. Jaclyn I love you, I wish that God gives you strength so that you can genuinely be happy again without having to explain anything like this, we love you Queen! I know that the next launch will be awesome! Love from Bali x

[@virginiachavers1882]

You’re so amazing! A lot of People struggle with anxiety. I know that it can feel so hard and you look GORGEOUS.

[@alimurray9481]

"In order to get to Wonderland, Alice had to fall down a pretty deep, dark hole." You got this, girl

[@bukharisanaan5120]

Ali Murray 👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻💯

[@biancarodriguez140]

My new Mottttto in lyfee😣😥💕💕💕💕💕🙌🏾

[@alimurray9481]

@@biancarodriguez140 hell yeah, girl! Keep fighting the good fight

[@shatteredcharlotte]

She made the hole herself. No sympathy here.

[@Lmcv82]

Wonderland sucked though.

[@magic3113]

🕊Your not alone who is having a bad time, on December 29, 2019 my daughter passed away, And I swear I thought I’ve been hurt before but the pain I experienced when I lost my daughter needs it’s own book.. stay strong my sister we all will get through these rough times. Love you always!! And you look sooooo beautiful!!!♥️♥️♥️♥️

[@jessicacompton5371]

Leslie I’m so sorry. I’m praying for you. I can’t imagine loosing my daughter. I’m so sorry you’re experiencing this. I’m sure she was an amazing, beautiful girl. 💜

[@alexandravarkonda2389]

Leslie I’m so soo Sorry for you and I’m praying for you. Sending you soo much Love, energy and strenght.❤️❤️

[@chronicfish]

I'm so very sorry for your loss. Stay strong.

[@kellyypineda]

Sending all my love to you, let her Rest In Peace..

[@hanan9400]

To say that shows how great person you are, having all this pain and supporting others what brave lovely haret you have! Hope one day you get this magical gift that cure all your pain, and believe me you will dear💗

[@hannahhannweg]

Jaclyn, this is me adding some positivity - you’re stunning and you have the most beautiful soul. I’m so proud of you for all you’ve achieved.

[@cayleighmilam4262]

Jaclyn I have watched you for years.. and I’ve always loved you! Always thought you were such a positive bubbly person. I’m so sorry that you’ve been struggling with depression etc. I feel you and I can’t stand the amount of criticism and anger that is on social media as well. Don’t ever forget that you are an AMAZING PERSON! I pride you for being able to come on camera and film and talk about your personal life etc. not many people can do that! I love and appreciate you. You keep doing you.

[@EverydayKiki]

i really want someone to do a very long, in-depth, respectful interview with you.

[@jennacoelho1548]

I would definitely watch it! I feel like someone needs to ask the right questions and let her speak. It is upsetting people can't just let her live and breathe and be her damn self. I would love someone to interview her and hear what she has to say. I can't imagine being under a microscope all day and people constantly trying to find things to pick you apart over all the time. :(

[@sementallesly1]

We need Shane dawson to swipe in and save her 2020😭😭😭 people are just cruel at this point :( they dont give her a chance anymore...

[@lintroller8398]

she should go on a “conversation with”

[@jennacoelho1548]

@@sementallesly1 agreed it is so sad. Not even just her but people in general are just so damn cruel. I don't know if people are just at an all time low of unhappiness that they take it out on everyone else, trying to bring others down for their own self gain or what. It is just really sad :( Everyone should work on just being more kind and loving to others and I agree with how she said for everyone to at least compliment one person. It really does make a difference to put a smile on someone's face and its contagious too lol. ♡ We all have enough going on in our lives and shouldn't have to also deal with hate and bullying over the internet.

[@EverydayKiki]

ingrown hair I think phil would do an awesome interview

[@megansnow7551]

You know when Lizzo said "It's so hard to love yourself in a world that doesn't love you back", she was right 💔 Jaclyn is wonderful and beautiful and anyone who doesn't think so, I'm praying for

[@OlaOla-mb1rn]

You’re beautiful and inspiring! Life is a hard journey for everyone and we all have struggles that we have to overcome. Thank you for being transparent and real but you own no one an explanation for anything. Keep doing you and keep being fierce ♥️

[@claudiagroh2170]

I know I’m 3 years late, but I recently came across you again and had to come to these videos because I’m dealing with the same severe anxiety & depression. I’ve struggled with alcohol abuse for years which made me really puffy. Once I got sober (6minths now! Wooo!) I turned to binge eating and I gained like 35 pounds in the span of like 6-8 months. I’m so unbelievably insecure and hate myself for letting myself get to this point. I haven’t posted anything on social media because I don’t look the same as I did last year. I’ve completely gone ghost, went to rehab, then moved away because I didn’t want my hometown bigger group of friends to ever come across me and see how much weight I’ve gained. So thank you, so so so much for sharing these videos. You’re making a MASSIVE impact on my life already. I feel heard and can relate to someone I used to watch when I was younger. and now re-look up to again, for a whole new deeper level. Thank you for being you. I’ll be along with you during this journey because I need someone I can trust and look up to so I know it can get better ❤

[@heatherdevore1936]

We’ve experienced the lows and the highs with you! We love you! Show her support! IF YOUVE BEEN WATCHING HER SINCE THE BEGINNING, LIKE THIS, COMMENT, WHATEVER! We gotchu, girl💕

[@Hindash]

Sorry to hear you've had a rough start to the year, that's awful!!! I wish you health, happiness, love and success from here on!!! 💕💕💕

[@2003kt]

You're so kind 🥰

[@alexandrajuwater2369]

This didn’t age well. COVID

[@GetMusic4Me]

You’ve been my favorite for so many years and have always appreciated how open and honest you are. Thank you for being an inspiration 💜

[@torim9511]

Jaclyn you’re so strong, thank you for sharing this and showing us that you’re human too, and you have struggles just like anybody else. We love you! ❤️

[@desirekite2006]

The comment section is over loaded with positive comments🤍 Thats huge ✨ We are all standing behind you 🤍🤍

[@yuliacherednikov9903]

Desire Kite yes!!

[@chloecusimano3710]

Desire Kite bc it is highly monitored too

[@desirekite2006]

Chloe Cusimano And that’s fine 🤍 I’m just happy ok :):)

[@chloecusimano3710]

Desire Kite huh? I didn’t say you were unhappy

[@jcbradley11]

The fact that what happened last year drove you to that point broke my heart. When you said you started drinking like that it literally brought tears to my eyes. I love you Jaclyn and think you’re beautiful now and always have been.

[@bribri8042]

jcbradley11 Same.

[@andreapomrenke7084]

Love your honesty. I’m glad you’re focusing on your health (mental, emotional and physical). I deal with terrible anxiety too and I can’t imagine the pressure you feel. You handle it well. Wishing you all the love and healing in the world ❤️

[@librasynergies2835]

this video is incredible, thank you for sharing and expressing your beautiful mind!! be soft and gentle with yourself and take deep breaths. I appreciate your authenticity and light ☀️💜

[@tatianacoll8045]

This open, honest, vulnerable, and genuine Jaclyn is the one I want to follow. There’s something about you in this video I haven’t seen before. From one human to another, I hope this will be your year - take care of yourself please. 💗

[@Taylornelson98]

I needed this today. 2019 was the worst year of my life. I battled an addiction to pills to self soothe my severe anxiety/depression and my fiancé walked out on me. My anxiety got so bad and the stress of it all actually caused me to start passing out and having seizures. I lost my job, my license, and my life essentially. I have never felt more alone. After an overdose I really valued my health. I got clean, and started taking college classes. I’m honestly not great, but I’m alive and healthy. I will get there and so will you. Love you always.

[@geenagr]

I am so sorry to read this! Take small steps: one day at a time, one good choice after the other. I would like to give you a little advice...if I may.... Don't pay attention to anyone who thinks your life is a mess or not good enough or that you are not making enough progress. Only YOU can know how much it costs you to take the smallest of steps to imroving your life, only you can know how many of these battles you have won & how hard you fought. Give yourself credit for little victories and make them be your joy. Rooting for you.

[@Taylornelson98]

geenagr thank you so so much. you’re an angel. ❤️

[@katiehenry7]

You are doing to do great. You are going to be ok. Put your trust in Christ and He will strengthen you with the strength you didn't know was possible.

[@04bittbitt]

@@Taylornelson98keep that fight on! I am the same as you...February 28th will be my 5 years clean off opiates and I'm telling you if I can get myself out of those grimy nasty streets and into the life I have now trust me you can! I'm sorry about your relationship, I was in a very toxic relationship in the past...abusive, toxic, he was an alcoholic/addict and I was also an addict but I had to reach rock bottom...like two miles further down from rock bottom to realize what I needed to do. and now I'm engaged, and a great job finally. I know it gets hard and you want to give up...your anxiety tells you what's the point...but there is a point and you are important. I will say that through my recovery my anxiety and panic attacks have gotten out of control so I started a routine with cbd oil and it has helped me tremendously because I didn't want to go back to a pill for a fix because I know it would trigger my addict brain and it has helped so much.... but much love and support to you and to anybody out there who is struggling, know someone who is, and all the ones weve lost along the way.....🙏🙏❤❤ if anyone needs anyone to talk to I am always here to listen no judgements just openess and love....always ❤❤❤❤

[@04bittbitt]

@@Taylornelson98 and whats so funny is that when I was going into detox and rehab the only thing that got me thru was @Jaclynhill videos....she made me feel like I had a friend with me thru the hardest time of my life🙌🙌🙌

[@bigibx]

How many people watching this after March thnk jaclyn had covid??? and she got it from her friend, please be safe and don't take it for granted that you got through it. God bless stay safe

[@mariee6608]

I have been following you for years, thank you for being so open in this video, it really helped me with some of the things i have been going through. You are wonderful, fearless, and articulate. 💜

[@InsanityBySprinkles]

Honestly, I’ve felt kind of disconnected for a while from Jaclyn’s content, but I’m really happy to see her coming back and trying to change her circumstances! She seems like she’s in much healthier place and that’s nice to see! 🙂

[@maga2795]

Anxiety is such a terrible thing to ever experience. Everything she talked about feeling in her dark time is real. It is so sad and disturbing that people bring other people to such low points....

[@Verbsdescribeus]

yeah, anxiety is like cancer...

[@kaleaaolanipryor8856]

I struggle with my mental health and I appreciate this and you talking about what you were going through at that time. I can tell you’re a strong ass woman and it’s seriously fucking awesome. 🙌 Thank you for spreading kindness 🙏

[@juliapessotski8531]

I love you Jaclyn. Even though this was a year ago, I'm watching it now and I'm proud of you. You're a warrior

[@unknowntoall]

We've missed this Jaclyn! The Jaclyn that sits down, does makeup, and is just...REAL with us, and takes time to actually talk to us. Actually, I can't speak for everyone else, but I'VE missed this. I feel like I can relate to you again. I'm proud of you girl! Got your back! Hang in there! And 2020 WILL be amazing!!! X💋X💋

[@brandymccaslin3332]

Thank you for saying that depression is so much more than being on your period and craving nachos. And how depression takes lives. I lost my mom to her depression when she was 39 and I was 16...she committed suicide. So thank you so much for saying depression is so much more serious!!

[@linareynolds345]

Brandy McCaslin so sorry you went through this 😟

[@stephanielynn596]

so sorry to hear that :(

[@kells1784]

Sorry you went through that 💔 I'm a mental health sufferer and I know personally how hard it can get xx

[@vandagewilson4898]

Makeup Minion exactly. Stop opening up to someone like her pretty people xx

[@ssierraa6]

Brandy McCaslin I haven’t experienced this but I am sending love and light to you.

[@haleyleavitt7891]

YOU ARE SO BEAUTIFUL. Jaclyn, I have been watching you for years and years. I cannot imagine the pain you’ve experience the past few years, let alone the years unseen by our eyes. Know this- you are a beautiful person inside and out. You are loved by a God who sees you. Knows you intimately. Knows your heart. Your intentions. You are so pure hearted. Praying for so much joy and freedom to come to you. You’re loved.

[@liandrag221]

I love how you're promoting people to give each other more compliments- everything you said is SO true! Hateful people are so quick to freely say what's on their mind and we usually hesitate to give out compliments for whatever reason (I know I usually do). Love this, though. Subscribed :)

[@ajj2468]

as someone who is medicated for anxiety/depression, i totally understand how you feel! it’s so hard to share true emotions but i’m so glad you shared with us

[@kenziegattis2545]

“If you have anything nice to say, say it.” - this is now something I will start to live by.

[@honeythetoypoodle4784]

✔️🔝

[@penelopehernandez3066]

Agreed

[@kendallelizabeth2764]

Jaclyn, you are so beautiful. Ever since a young age of starting makeup, I have looked up to you. You are so brave for being vulnerable on camera to many people because that can be really hard. However, I am so glad you did because it sends a very important message. Thank you for staying true to yourself and all of your viewers.

[@mckaylabradshaw8215]

I literally started crying because your discription of when it rains it pours fits my life so well right now. Thank you for always putting yourself out there for us. Ive missed your videos so much and this is why i will always love you with all my heart!! Praying for you sis.

[@sarahjensen6622]

“i’m sorry to myself” - such powerful words! glad to see you building a new great relationship with yourself 🌻

[@courtney2317]

The other day, I saw a random girl walking and I loved her outfit and her entire look! So I yelled out the window that she looked so beautiful and she gave me the biggest thank you! It made my day just adding a little positivity to someone’s day🥰

[@tinavlogs1557]

Omg be my friend 💓😭

[@TheAkh420]

That’s so sweet and thoughtful of you. I’m sure you made her day ❤️

[@courtney2317]

TinaVlogs please 🥺

[@courtney2317]

Amanda I hope so!

[@victoriaann9850]

you’re handling the situation very well, & you look beautiful!

[@michellebinion4726]

I feel like I'm looking in a mirror. Been there, done that, going through that. Also a cancer lol I wish you nothing but the best. You got this💕

[@AnaHaze777]

I'm 24 and After 7 years of heroin and crack addiction I got clean. I just finished 93 days in rehab and I NEVER thought it would be possible for me to feel happy and whole without drugs, since before drugs I was so unhappy. But the power of therapy, finding self love, mediation. All the things to become whole truly do work. And now that I'm where I'm at its so crazy to me that more people don't do these things. I'm so happy for you getting better within, you clearly have a good heart and it's so horrible now nasty people are online. You deserve the world Know that 💜

[@italianma7329]

Congratulations on your recovery. Keep your head up and stay strong 💪

[@AnaHaze777]

@@italianma7329 thank you

[@AdventureswithAmirah]

You've had a very long journey for such a young life, but I know it was worth it. 🌟Congrats on your sobriety! I know staying sober in a society that pushes alcohol can be a bit isolating, but if people are truly your friends, they won't drink around you or ask you to do activities involving alcohol. Best wishes on your road to love, health, and happiness!💕

[@catsnamedfanta]

Wow thats truly incredible! I really wish you well! You should share your story how you feel comfortable, like a podcast or blog if not youtube. I think you would inspire a lot of people, truly.

[@AnaHaze777]

@@catsnamedfanta i plan on it at some point . I have like a million stories that are probably insane to "normal" people. Since I was using, escorting, so much shit for alot of my life. Thank you all for your kind words, it really means so much. 💜

[@emilyclaire995]

I’m a teacher. January WAS the LONGEST. YEAR. EVER!!!! There were memes about it everywhere...in the teacher space

[@HeidiHamrick]

Emily Claire yes!!!!!!

[@mariazuniga88]

Same! I had to take a mental day!

[@ssaturn8842]

Couldn’t agree more (teacher as well) the sickness is real.

[@mcervas]

Emily Claire I homeschool and girl I felt the same way!!!

[@momentgirl4eva]

Emily Claire lol awww

[@aurorabuddha91]

Hi Jackeline, in the 10+ years I've been part of KZbin, I've never posted a comment. I just started watching your videos and am so happy I have met you at this point in your journey. I am so happy you exist. Please never stop being real and sincere!

[@savanabowman4062]

this made me feel so much better. i’ve been going through it too. i went into liver failure in november. i’m 20. my boyfriend has been doing the most and i just needed something to see that i’m not alone.

[@laurahanson2458]

I can only imagine how much u went through, can totally relate been depressed and ate away my feeling gained 40lbs, hated myself for it because my horrible marriage. However after the divorce and started to love myself again, I am happier than ever, and lost most of the weight, the most important part is I know how to love myself again! You go girl, I will definitely support you!!❤️❤️❤️

[@2011Alexa]

Serena Zhang congratulations on overcoming something so difficult. Wish you much love and success. ✨

[@laurahanson2458]

Alexela thank you ☺️

[@ashleyynoemi]

You’re so encouraging and beautiful 💗 thank you for being you and being so honest with all of us. Remember there’s always a light at the end of the tunnel so just keep going don’t look back. Love you always and many blessings towards you and your family ❤️❤️

[@classiccat2813]

I can almost feel her anxiety pouring in throughout most of this video. I can honestly say I believe every word, Jaclyn. You gotta know that you shouldn’t have to explain yourself so much or apologize for being human and making mistakes or feeling any kind of way. I hope that you stay soft and that you get all the help you need to piece back together any brokenness you feel inside. Love you and will forever be a fan of your beautiful, quirky self ❤️

[@WhitneyShaleen]

I said the same thing! She started to trigger my anxiety. Bless her heart. I know the fear of Anxiety is phobic that's why she would just wake up & feel it instantly... Ugh she's damn brave for putting it all out there. But she's helping ALOT of people including myself feel like we're not alone!

[@kimberlykennedy7246]

Thank you for talking about something so personal and so sensitive. I am a retired soldier, I know how difficult and serious depression is. Thank you for bringing awareness to this subject you are helping so many people by sharing. You are appreciated and loved!

[@mickaylathacker2591]

I love you Jaclyn, i love your personality ❤️ I think that your genuine and your probably the only KZbinr that I see showing us your real self.

[@amandahall476]

Jaclyn, I can see the anxiety when u talk about the lipsticks. You have to move on from it, even if others don't want to let it go. Please take care of yourself

[@noellemiller8608]

This video, actually the last few videos you’ve posted, have broke my heart. You can truly tell how shaken, nervous and vulnerable you’ve been and it’s sad to see someone so full of life get to that point. I’m sorry people have been so cruel. As a fellow cancer, I can totally relate to putting walls up and retreating. Keep creating content, we miss you, and we’re rooting for you and can’t wait to see you back in your element! PS I never comment, but I wanted to take your advice and spread the love. ‘Like’ if you’re breaking your silence and feel the same!

[@RimiChatterjeeMakeup]

Same here..

[@kyliep101]

Same here

[@ensuringseamlessness5042]

She has cancer???

[@sophiedarting7682]

Very well said

[@amberdoner5076]

Couldn’t have said it better! I could literally feel her anxiety through the phone!

[@jasmintru]

You are so brave for coming out with the insecurity’s you may have . I struggle to keep positive about my own struggles. This really helps me get through my situation. I love you and have been watching you since you were younger 💕 i will always support you and love you regardless. Making total sense to me girl💯🙏🏽 keep it going strong!!!💪🏽 you got this .

[@marje2392]

I love how real u r I just got home from being in the hospital for 2 months bc my appendix ruptured nd caused so much damage I came home to everyone being home nd quarantined nd can’t see go out bc of that nd also I’m still recuperating but I’m a person who understands depression but almost legit dying it does make u appreciate ur health nd ur life .i haven’t been out out since January but watching u has made a little easier thx niña 💕

[@brookelc3672]

From someone that is currently so defeated from their depression and anxiety - thank you. It brought tears to my eyes to hear you speak about your struggle. Congrats on your road to recovery. You're truly beautiful.

[@alexag5093]

Jesus is Greater than your depression. Jesus is Greater than your loneliness. Jesus is Greater than your mental illness. You should watch the series All Strings Attached on Transformation Church here on KZbin.

[@YESimaLADY]

👏🏽YOU 👏🏽ARE 👏🏽NOT👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽 DEFEATED!!! You are living, breathing, existing... RIGHT NOW! And things won’t always seem so bad! I see you and you are worthy.

[@samuelriffon9558]

Don’t listen to Alexa. The only person that can help you is YOU. Most of my life i was struggleling with anxiety and depression. I have one important thing to say. IT GETS BETTER. ALWAYS. Sometime we are such in a dark place and we need to take a step back think live one thing at a time and go with the flow. Brooke you are s beautiful human being and no matter what you deserve to be here and deserve to be happy!

[@alexag5093]

Samuel Riffon optimism and self help is no help. If a person is sufficient enough to be happy , they would actually be happy and not be defeated none the less. God bless you 💕

[@chrisjenkins203]

Pretty funny to see that people attempting to spread positivity ended up creating conflict amongst yourselves. Interesting fan base Jaclyn has with everyone arguing over the correct way to be positive lol. You guys are all nothing but the cattle herd.

[@shelbybrooke5590]

I’ve never related so much to something when she said “it’s what the weight represents that makes me so upset.” 🥺 you can do it Jaclyn! We’re rooting for you ♥️

[@yuriorozco9016]

I appreciate your openness and think you're so beautiful inside out! Hugs and hoping you feel better. I related to you on so many levels with this video.

[@MeLlamoCarmen22]

Your vulnerability and honesty is so appreciated!

[@victoriapickard6519]

“In a world where you can be anything, be kind.” 💕

[@kellyypineda]

Victoria Bickley exactly!! Small KZbinr 🥰🥰

[@nicolechavezz]

I can’t lie, I definitely judged Jaclyn after the lipstick launch and the way that she handled everything. But this video just showed that she’s human, she makes mistakes, and she struggles with the same things that everyone does. I appreciate your honesty and transparency jaclyn!! It’s not easy to talk about things like this but I’m so glad that you did. Wishing all the best for you ❤️

[@sleepysleep1886]

Shit happens humans are humans we all mess up in our lives and its sad so many people judge so hard over mistakes that can be fixed.

[@paolasandoval3183]

I second everything that you said! I was thinking the same thing but this video has truly showed that she is a normal human being going through struggles just like everyone else.

[@belncris3]

nicole hopefully you’ve learned from it.

[@nicolechavezz]

Amanda Dominguez every experience is a learning opportunity.

[@beauttycrazy101]

thank you for being honest about your struggles with anxiety during filming and putting yourself out there, I feel inspired to comment on all of the things I see that I like

[@kellyanderson4795]

You are an inspiration! I have renewed the love for me after a very long time and hearing what you said was perfect timing! Thank You ❤️

[@danielaaragon9504]

This makes me so sad because no one should ever feel like this. I’ve been watching you for yearsssss and I still think you’re one of the real ones on KZbin. Your personality is raw and genuine. I feel it through the screen. Keep doing you. ❤️ leaving then positive vibes out here 🌸🌸🌸

[@Chelsea_Schwarz]

YASS! I dont get why people hate on her so much. I feel like she is the coolest person, and would be so fun to hang out with her! WHAT IS WRONG WITH PEOPLE?!

[@kellyypineda]

Daniela Aragon yes exactly Small KZbinr 🥰🥰

[@michellecogdill6128]

@@Chelsea_Schwarz I agree 100% and WHY would all these people that hate her take time out of their lives to get on her page/video just to be mean and say such hurtful things to or about her!? I just don't see it. If I don't like someone I'm not gna get on their video/page period! 🤔

[@Chelsea_Schwarz]

Michelle Cogdill- I know seriously! It must be so crazy to be in her shoes. I can’t even imagine what it feels like to be such a big social media influencer, and know that everything I do is put under a microscope. It’s just something that regular everyday people will never understand. I think people are jealous. It sounds kinda dumb to say that, and no one ever thinks they r actually jealous, but people who go out of there way to bash her when they really don’t know her, are jealous. They prob would t make it one day dealing with what Jaclyn has to deal with. Not saying I understand fully, and that I know what it’s like to be her, but I feel like I have a better grasp than the haters. Anyway... rant over.

[@michellecogdill6128]

@@Chelsea_Schwarz I agree with you 100%. It's crazy how people do her. I guess they have nothing better to do than to stalk her on her page and talk nonsense just to hurt her. It's sad! Acting like they've never done nothing wrong and they are perfect! Smh. 😒

[@amandabeach4744]

“I have not wore makeup since New Years Eve.” I felt that. That hit me hard. Since I was in my car wreck, that took my ability to walk. I have not been myself and literally no one has realized. I loved makeup, I just can’t stand doing it anymore. It pains me! I love you, girl. Remember through every dark night is a brighter day, I swear. 🖤

[@jeaninenini2704]

Sending you love and strength beautiful!!!

[@amandabeach4744]

Jeanine Nini Thank you so much. I appreciate that more than you can imagine, doll! ♥️♥️

[@globetrotter6899]

Sending you positive vibes only Amanda! I hope your family and friends surrounded you with lots of love ❤️ keep going! You're the author of your own life story 🙏🏻

[@AllaAmber]

stay strong! you got this!! x

[@unapologeticallyu5908]

Your such a beautiful soul, Sending good vibes your way, for brighter days. Xo

[@loveraeleighhh7148]

Awe I love you Jacyln! Thank you for continuing to put out your content & inspire others!! I appreciate your vulnerability & honesty❤️ I feel like a lot of us struggle with being so hard on ourselves, not allowing ourselves to just simply not be okay. It’s hard to feel connected with the rest of the world when you are so disconnected with your inner-self. It’s okay to not always be okay! It is okay to have periods of life that require you to reflect on yourself and thoughts , take all the time you need! You owe it to yourself to take care of your health , mentally it can be so challenging to juggle everything all at once, to try to make time for business, work, projects, a social life, health, family, home- life etc. all at the same time! Taking the much needed break to narrow your focus around your mental health is so important! Thank you for being an example, for allowing your struggles & vulnerability to be public so people at home struggling with similar issues may feel they have someone in their corner!! Sending lots of love and positivity to you! I hope this year is the turning point you’ve been needing! I hope and pray for blessings and miracles to work their way into your life! I love you!!! ❤️❤️❤️

[@Gemd8]

I’m so sorry you went through all of that😔 I’ve been watching you since I was 14 and you helped me gain so much confidence in myself when I was depressed and I truly just want to thank you for that ❤️

[@courtneyb2462]

She's done the same for me ❤️ I see you commented yesterday.. I know I'm a stranger but we got this girl! You're not alone

[@stephanieneal6075]

“Ah, kindness. What a simple way to tell another struggling soul that there is love to be found in this world!” ❤️❤️

[@lucreziapeterson6787]

People need to sit down and remind themselves that you're a human.

[@Zzucia]

Facts.

[@Clara-dw6hw]

I love this video, you’re so pure and honest ❤️❤️❤️❤️ you’re gonna get though this, i know you will. Sending positivity to you 💖

[@devikasingh739]

Being real is such a great quality. I’ve loved you forever because you made me love makeup but most of all you are genuine. Thanks for not changing but just wanting to be a better version of yourself ❤️💕

[@aliceec1592]

I gained weight from being depressed and drinking, I’m so sorry you were in that mind state, you’re beautiful ✨✨✨✨

[@tjaimes9174]

Jaclyn we hear you and empathize. I spent all of December in my home not being able to leave due to anxiety and depression... The mere fact that you have made this video shows your faith and strength that you can do keep going and come out the other end of this. Sometimes we forget how strong we are and just need a reminder. You are Strong.

[@forfelines1533]

How are you now? Thank you for sharing that 💕

[@tjaimes9174]

Thank you for asking 🙂.. Getting better everyday, I have someone who reminds me moments are temporary and I am strong 💪

[@forfelines1533]

@@tjaimes9174 yes! You are! I'm here anytime you ever wanna talk 🤗 strength in numbers!

[@tjaimes9174]

Absolutely is! Thank you so much😊

[@heartchakraa]

Right out of high school I fell into a deep depression and suffered from severe anxiety. I gained like 50 pounds and felt even more shame and less my self than ever. I crawled out of it eventually, it’s possible. When I started to work on my mental health, my physical health followed. Not that the weight matters, but I eventually lost the weight as my mental health got better. I related to you in this video. There’s light at the end of the tunnel. ❤️

[@anns3125]

I hear you! I just started following all your platforms because I love your aura. I know you have good intentions. Keep it up, beautiful ❤️