grwm to take instagram pictures + life update

[@nurwdnr]

so glad to hear you’re in the process of recovering. it’s not easy and i wish u the best. having anxiety disorders feels like the weight of the entire world is on ur shoulders. it feels so unfair to struggle every single day and feel like no one understands what ur going thru or to see ppl on social media living their best life. but ur strong for getting thru this and even stronger for being so open and sharing this with us 💗

[@emmaalacangray]

I suffer from the same side effects with my anxiety, I sometimes can’t eat for days and barely get out of bed due to the stomach pains. We’re here for you Kayli!

[@kaylicarlson9832]

I feel the same way! Its so nice to know that there are other people who are going through the same thing!

[@audrey-zl5lu]

I’ve had similar issues with the anxiety and hard feelings, it really is hard but you are really strong and it will pass.

[@malouka_iren8144]

I love these typa vids, you’re my comfort KZbinr :)

[@shannon3915]

I really like when influencers talk about mental health, I feel like it needs to be normalized to talk about stress, anxiety, depression, etc. I struggle with anxiety also. You are not alone Kayli, we are here for you!❤️

[@Doodle_girl_rebecca]

I struggle with depression, anxiety and PTSD and I’m so glad to see you getting help and taking care of yourself. A lot of people think getting or asking for help is a sign of weakness, but in reality, it takes so much strength to seek help, so you should feel really good about the progress you’ve made already! ❤️

[@brookem.3138]

i used to struggle with severe anxiety and ocd and had the exact same fear as you - it was a daily thing where throwing up was just the ultimate worst thing that could possibly happen. i promise you, it gets better. you’ve probably heard that a million times already, but things take time. and you’re doing the right thing by taking care of yourself and taking breaks and getting help. ❤️❤️

[@Rainbow12348]

Heyy kayli I've just recently started to watch your channel I love your content and I love loveee how transparent you are with your viewers about your life, definitely makes me feel like I'm not doing all this alone, as someone who has social anxiety it takes one step at a time to get comfortable with whatever social gathering it can be, and to never push yourself into situations that make you uncomfortable or overwhelm you :)) always glad to hear about how you're doing, keep pushing, you'll have your good and not so good days but hey we can only grow from here :))!

[@niniaraya5532]

thank u for sharing your last months with us, it kinda represents a lot of what i go through with anxiety and weight loss and i felt extremely welcome and understood throughout this whole video :) thanks, i really hope you’re feeling better

[@alaska7086]

hearing your experience felt so relatable for me! i went through the same thing this july with the horrible panic attacks after living with semi-manageable anxiety. it’s been a long journey (including lexapro)! i’m not completely okay but i’m very happy with how far i’ve come. some days can be hard but try to stay hopeful for the future

[@bmtzzz2474]

As someone with really bad social anxiety it’s refreshing to hear that someone is going through the same thing as me. Sometimes I feel so alone because I feel like everyone else is so perfect, meanwhile I can’t even go anywhere without getting anxiety attacks. This video really helped me feel validated and I’m glad you’re recovering!

[@alyssac1379]

I’ve been going through the same with depression, nausea, thinking maybe I’m pregnant but I’m not, and not leaving the house. It’s been real tough 😣 I need to get my license as well that’s the goal and I know I just need to push through it because I can’t let myself down again /: we will get through this 💕 also love that you’re so real when it comes to discussing these topics, I appreciate it so much! Thank you

[@yurigarcia_13]

I love your nail videos I found you randomly but stayed bc I love your chill beautiful vibes you give off in videos. I’m 26 now but 10 years ago I had anxiety attacks and everything you name it but medicine and therapy do help a ton they helped me and I’m glad you took that chance.

[@saracorcoran5424]

I got pretty emotional when you were talking about what you’re dealing with because I had a very similar issue last year and I’m actually on the same medications. I’m starting to struggle again and have lost all my friends so thank you for talking about it. I don’t feel so alone now. ♥️

[@Romans08.31]

Lots of prayers honestly that’s the biggest thing that has helped me

[@asaveraj]

i love how real and raw you are about mental health and other things in life. Your makeup and hair looked amazing, I mean it always looks stunning. can't wait for more videos. you are one of my fav people to watch on youtube!!! hope your feeling better. x

[@hunterdamm9786]

For my anxiety, I really cling to coldness. Cold air, cold water. Running my hands under ice water helps calm the anxiety. Limiting caffeine also helps, sucks but it helps. I get bad panic attacks as well & depression ontop of that too. My therapist told me to not nap at all, to sleep throughout the night.

[@hunterdamm9786]

I also had panic attacks where they last hours. Anxiety makes me nauseas & weak, so bad to wear I got diagnosed with acid reflux. Xanax helps a ton with taking you out of panic attacks. I dont even take .25 mg of it. I take half of that ir a quarter & it still helps

[@smhcass]

also, i’m so happy you are in the process of recovering. just know you are 100% not alone. i have such bad anxiety that i can’t even leave my bedroom. you will get through this you are so strong

[@morganburton4082]

I’m so happy to hear you are getting help with your anxiety and depression. I love watching your videos, and you are so open and it’s so nice because of the stereotypes with talking about mental health. I am also on lexapro, and I love it!! I’ve been taking it for over a year, I hope that it helps and works for your needs!

[@snappiepappie9899]

I can’t believe ur almost at 100k, I remember when you just had like 25k or something! Proud

[@e4mi]

I'm so sorry about your panic attacks. the last few years I was having 4+ per week and I needed a new routine to manage my anxiety. some days it still gets out of hand, but having that routine helps me catch my breath. I hope you find whatever you need, you deserve the best ❤ also first time comment- I love your channel and you are so sweet and nice

[@emma.jordan]

i’ve suffered with similar stuff to this. tysm kayli. ilysm i’m wishing u the best!!! 🤍🤍🤍

[@zenenji]

i have the exact same anxiety and eating issues to the same extent. i relate a TON to everything this video, and currently I am unmedicated so I feel your pain. i don't think people understand how excruciatingly hard it is to deal with these things. I get so extremely nervous to eat around people that I feel sick to my stomach before the event happens. this has lead to body image issues and eventually an eating disorder. I'm so glad I have somebody to relate to, and I'm glad you're finding healing successful.

[@colleenwest2733]

this makes me so sad:( no one should have to go thru this. i used to have the fear of vomit my sister has anxiety and the fear of vomit so i know what you go thru, it’s not easy and i’m so sorry you have to go thru this on a daily basis. i’ll be praying for you

[@pastalover5767]

kayli, you truly are such a special and beautiful soul.

[@cassi7043]

so happy to see you uploaded! can you please make a video related to how you keep your gel x nails on for so long and last? mine always end up popping off so easily:(

[@staceysholter5677]

i loved the life update! it really does make me feel more validated about my own issues and it's so encouraging to see others seek out help and it... actually helping. wish you all the best

[@juliemartin7447]

I’m so sorry you have such bad panic attacks! I can relate with the nausea. You’re such a sweetheart. I have kids around your age. I have been suffering with anxiety and depression my whole life. So I know exactly what you’re going through hang in there.

[@Sipu97]

I had anxiety a few months ago (well it's still there but in a different form and way easier to cope with) due to a change in my life. I didn't eat for two weeks and lost about five kilograms. I just didn't feel hungry nor did I enjoy eating. Luckily, it went away as I started to cope with the situation. It was a horrible time and I don't wish that for anyone. Your story is, in a way, reassuring to hear and I hope that you are feeling much better already!

[@shawnag5118]

it really felt like you took the words out of my mouth. I’m sorry you went through this. Happy you’re coming out on the other side, it gets brighter🧡

[@maeeliz]

Thank you for saying what you said about being medicated!! I’m on anxiety meds, it’s almost been a year and they help so much. The stereotype is so annoying, but I used to have it too. I’m glad you’re doing better ❤️

[@lilyann16]

ilysm kayli!!! sooo sorry for what you are going through, tbh i also have anxiety pretty bad, so i get where your coming from, but we alll are here for you and love you so so so much!! 💛💛💛

[@smhcass]

binge watching all your vids… obsessed w u 🦋

[@anaandric8750]

Yeah I had the same thing. I would feel nauseous and exhausted all the time from anxiety. This past month it’s rlly gone down and idk if it’s from the daily yoga I’ve been doing, the working out or if it’s from me eating way more than usual. But I didn’t realize until maybe 2 months ago that I’ve been under eating my entire life. And I’m 26. I gained 20 lbs but I look normal besides my face being a little fuller ( which I only notice) and I don’t feel tired like I did before and my nausea went away. But before I would wake up feeling sick and tired and bc if that I wouldn’t eat and it was this cycle of feeling sick and not eating that I think was causing a lot of my anxiety. I still have anxiety but I do think the working out has been helping and eating gives me the energy to work out. Maybe it’s kinda common but it’s not rlly talked about?

[@emmapunelli1726]

I have also been on both of those medications in the past! They did help but be aware that once your body is used to the the lexapro you will probably have to get a higher dosage which is completely normal! Congratulations on talking to someone and starting your journey to healing 💛 its never easy but you can do it!

[@alessandraz5758]

Really proud of you for starting therapy and the whole recovery process! Also, I'm really thankful for you being so honest about it. Sending you a big hug from Italy :)

[@keiracln]

comfort youtube for ever I swear🤍 you make every bad day good

[@15kkatherine]

I used to take Lexapro for my anxiety. It worked great. I'm glad you are on your road to recovery ❤

[@Bananawez34]

I just recently went through the same process of FINALLY going to therapy and talking to a psychiatrist and getting medicated to help me recover. I’m glad to hear and see you do similar!

[@lifewithhan]

babe i am going through the same thing. my parents don’t know the extent of it or my fear that developed, and i’m going to admit everything to them tomorrow. i’m terrified and intimidated but i’m ready to admit i need help. i am so proud of you and i love you

[@kayliboyle]

i wish you luck and i’m sending love your way💗

[@ninierbotsonashvili7856]

Hi! I suffer with depression and even tho some people tell me good things i tend to ignore them and listen to my toxic thoughts. I love you so much and you are wonderful person and pls be aware of the fact that we are here for you and we mean what we say!

[@veronicamonique7146]

queens of needles just outside of LA, an all female tattoo shop and they all do fine line work!!

[@clairesworld9770]

I love you so much kayli!!! You’re literally my favorite KZbinr and I just started watching your KZbin videos a couple weeks ago. I might’ve binged them all in a day oops 😅. But you are so pretty and such a great person! Keep being you. We need more videos with your boyfriend you guys are the cutest! 🥰

[@krysiaf3665]

im happy and so proud of you for getting professional help

[@_notreallyhere0088]

I came across your channel after watching your nail videos, and I want you to know that you’re not alone. I struggle with severe emetophobia, severe anxiety, and depression. TW - It has stemmed into SH and strong suicidal thoughts, all those intense emotions that are constantly rolling around continue to make me nauseous. I can’t go out of my house without my bag with a water bottle, a sick bag, and mints and gum. It’s become such a horrible cycle of anxiety, and trying to keep my security blanket. I really relate with safe foods, my “safe foods” circle has slowly shrunk, and I’m trying not to start an eating disorder. I’ve been trying to eat more fruits, and find more foods and snacks that I’m comfortable with. Anyone else who is struggling please know that you’re not alone. Im here to talk or to help calm down 💗

[@GabrielleSR]

[@nelliel.3268]

Your channel has become my favorite KZbin channel😍😍I love your videos

[@kindyskanvas]

Been on Buspirone for almost two months and it changed my life for the better. You can feel dizzy or light headed when you adjust to it for like 2 weeks but after that it was good for me

[@juliettefath1595]

I discovered you like 1 week ago and idk why but you really make me think of myself and make my comfortable and now WHAT ? You have emetophobia just like me 😭 crazy

[@notisavillarrealg]

I understand how you feel :) I reecently started Zoloft because of depression and anxiety and I understand exactly how you felt and feel. We got this

[@brainotfound2989]

I’m not sure if this works for others but, a lot of times when i eat a meal but i don’t want to eat/eating seems disgusting because im so hungry i normally try to watch a fast paced video or something that will distract my ADHD brain (if your still struggling with eating full meals obv) and im glad your getting better and finding some help

[@Mandy3141]

Omg I had no idea you suffered from emetophobia, I've been dealing with it for my entire life! It's so bad, I'm so sorry. I wish you well and I hope you're better now 💘 sending love to you

[@abigailnicole8112]

Please do Valentine’s day nails!!!❤️❤️❤️

[@gabrielaa0006]

It’s nice to hear that you’ve decided to help yourself! That really is the first and the hardest step so well done I am wishing you all the best ❤️ you aren’t alone… wanting to do things but not being able to is what made me reach out. I have been dealing with social and generalised anxiety, and depression for 2 years now. It has gotten better with medication. I am also on Lexapro and my mood had lifted finally!! . However I am having a lot of trouble with focus and attention and a lot of other things which made me make an appointment for ADHD which is in May. It never occurred to me that I might have it but I think SSRI kinda exposed it because I am not depressed but I still can’t do things which sucks. I get bored very easily and distracted a lot. Just wanted to share a bit of my story x :)

[@kristenrhine5029]

Of course we noticed you’ve been MIA! I missed you. Girl talk as much as you want about your struggles bc we all have them too! You’re not alone and it feels better knowing we’re not alone as well. I’ve struggled through so much anxiety in my life to the point of having derealization and depersonalization which is not fun and was really scary. I got to the point where I just couldn’t do it anymore. But I took the step to get on an SSRI as well and it’s helped take the edge off. Helpful tip, talk yourself out of the anxiety. Tell yourself you are fine and make yourself believe it! It’s the only thing that really works. Also I once read somewhere- thoughts are not facts. That really helped me with my social anxiety and always feeling judged for no reason. I still struggle with it but anxiety disorders never really go away…we just learn ways to cope. Hang in there!! When in doubt make a video and talk to us! We all love you❤️

[@paigesheridan3539]

I have anxiety and depression too, my anxiety happens at random times but it always is really bad at school too the point that I have stomach pains, the moment I pull into the parking lot until the moment I leave my stomach is all messed up

[@Anonymous-ub5mk]

Omg same 😅 I’m from California too and if it’s cloudy or raining I get so sad

[@elenaw5859]

Hows it feel to be absolutely gorgeous😩

[@emiliac1461]

I struggle with Emetophobia a lot recently aswell and you make me feel less alone

[@matilda8329]

When I’m panicking and it’s not too bad I like to listen to music to get me out of that cycle

[@alvawengelin3591]

Wow i really relate to this, I’m sorry you’re going thru this, panic attacks are the worst. I’m really scared to go on medication because of like the side affects and everything, is it worth it?

[@kayliboyle]

medication effects everyone differently so take everything i say with a grain of salt:) but the side effects i have had have already subsided after the first 2 weeks of taking it. weird but i got really sweaty from it and got hot flashes for the first week, had no appetite for a week, and very vivid dreams(not nightmares just VERY vivid dreams). but other than that, i’ve had no other side effects from the lexapro. the buspirone made me very dizzy and just made me feel weird like i was dissociating but i took it on an empty stomach. and if you have bad side effects you can usually tell your doctor and try another medication

[@Cinncherie]

Hey Girl! i love your vids and am so happy i stumbled across your channel. I think its very brave of you to share your story and i agree mental health shouldn't be a secret cus secrets drown us. you motivated me to do my own nails i just bought all of my supplies yeeeee! so im excited and waiting for your in detail nail video with gel x nailssss. Praying for you

[@elisesanders3731]

I have emetophobia too!! It’s honestly horrible… there isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t anxiety and stress about it!

[@nishthamittal9566]

i relate to you on a mental level

[@kristinegalvane7645]

You are super beautiful! Stay strong! 💪🏼🤎

[@souritanandi7278]

Yaaaaaaassss waiting for another nail video

[@leahkassler9518]

I used to not eat due to nausea, which was due to anxiety. It sucked so bad. I also deal with a lot of anxiety stuff. I’m sorry you also have to deal with all of this stuff.

[@shosho.alsaad8]

HEYY ILYY ♥️♥️

[@zoek5286]

Look into a MTHFR genetic test. Can cause major anxiety and depression and nausea. Super easy fix too you just take a special vitamin. Feel better :) also that feeling about holidays is super normal! I agree it’s so stressful

[@15kkatherine]

You are so gorgeous btw 😍

[@joss3690]

I have medication for My anxiety. It helps to not worry about everything in life. Makes it easier to function.

[@sjsjsjd1603]

i have emetophobia too omg, so glad to know im not alone

[@savysav6930]

I have terrible social anxiety. I hate being around 5 or more people and it stems from traumatic experiences when I was younger and things that have happened a few years ago. I know how you feel about being around other people and being scared to go in public. I also have a fear of throw up and throwing up in general. If I feel like I'm going to throw up I'll have a panic attack and make it worse then I throw up 😂 also if someone is about to throw up I LITERALLY RUN AWAY and I'll get shaky and I'll start panicking about that.

[@justinfelt748]

Hi, Kayli! Happy Tuesday and Happy New Year!😊😙💙💙🍾🌷💖💖😊🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉. I missed you so much. First, I'm glad that you're feeling 100% better. And second, I love your beautiful "after" look routine! It's brilliant!💙💙💙💙💙💙💙. Have fun! And Kayli, it's so great to have you back. Cheers!😊😙💙💙💙💙💙🍾🌷💖💖💖💖💖💖😊🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉👍

[@romy9978]

beautiful!

[@jackie_kw]

Love these videos so much. Totally relate to the anxiety/ stomach issues. Went to my doc 3 times before he finally gave me the harsh news that my stomach issues weren’t caused by diet or lack of working out. Stress has gotten so bad working from home I just didn’t want to accept it. Been on Lexapro for 3 weeks and have honestly felt much better. Not a huge like OMG LIFES GR8, more so I feel normal or like I can process day to day obstacles better. I hope it helps you the same and wishing you the best in this shitty journey of mental health probs. Also think I have ADHD as well but don’t want to go to the doc either 😂

[@nicolelori412]

Girl your hair is stunning not just that you have such the greatest personality you’re so bubbly I know it might not be like that all the time you think but I feel like you would be such a great people person if you just gave yourself a chance and I know it’s way easier said than done I’m not discredited anything you’re saying whatsoever so please don’t take it that way but I feel like once you are able to get over that fear you are going to live your life to the best of its ability like you were just meant to live life so good I can just see it like you were like this adventurous spontaneous traveling girl and once you put all them fears aside you were going to feel so free and once again you are just stunning your skin your make up your hair you look beautiful inside and out don’t ever forget that because inside a beauty matters most but I just wanted to tell you how gorgeous you are looking

[@jordanraem.4916]

Holy shit I have the same fear and I've also had panic attacks due to that for so many years. Ive struggled with food too, and I feel you, it's really difficult. It can feel super isolating. On a more positive note, I love your videos and your content. I'd love to chat with you about this stuff (I'm also a student pursuing my masters in social work and want to go into therapy one day).

[@LuxurCr3Tv]

Girl prayers to u I definitely suffer from depression anxiety and panic attacks on top on chronic spinal pain nerve damage in my legs bc of my back on top of that breathing issues from when I had COVID 2 October’s ago so I’m here for u if u wanna talk I have a psychiatrist meds and doctors I literally skip vlogtober and vlogmas bc I get anxious af!!!!!! I black out randomly migraines Rob and cervical pain can’t sleep eat or do anything but lay down n deal with it I get sick a lot it’s not u being pregnant I don’t even have sex lol I’m so with u. My heart burn is a bitch I don’t even take my pills bc I get bad heartburn I throw it back up then I don’t want to do shit meanwhile my brothers 2 year passing is coming n my grandma just died my son birthday is coming n he’s gonna be 8 so I have a busy busy boy. I couldn’t eat much for thanksgiving and Christmas either but I’ve been gaining stress weight n it sucks bc I’ve never been this heavy I brought a cycling bike to get better but my chest hurts bc I don’t breath the same since COVID and I have asthma yet I have to run errands daily I haven’t met my therapist yet bc I’m scared but I have the overly check ins as well I can still get done what I need done as a single mother but it’s hard so if u ever need to talk to someone message me my Instagram is the same as my KZbin. Ppl judge me off of u crazy crazy u take meds no I’m not crazy at all honestly it just keeps me from having panic attacks and helps me sleep just don’t take too much or keep up’ ig ur dose bc it can make u bipolar be safe be careful I’m on mines almost 8 months now. Coffee also makes ur panic attacks worse after 3:00pm just a heads up drink tea after that time of the day. Ps ur amazing 😻 go be grate. U got this.

[@dancer11451LFA]

kayli who has done your tattoos? i live in temecula and i've been wanting to get my first tattoo for a while now, and i love the style of your tattoos

[@lmh-9367]

i clicked SO fast

[@anneswen7080]

I had the same issue when i was your age It gets better with age One just learns to care less abt such stuff

[@keiracln]

I wonna hug you RIGHT NOW😤

[@isabellaramirez2713]

OMG TWINZ WE’RE ON THE SAME MEDICATIONS 😜🥰🥳🤩

[@dr6aem784]

hello! my english is very bad but i’m try. i love u vlogs it’s can me learn english language. ty

[@Coconuts03]

You remind me of Misha Barton!! Maybe recreate some of her pictures? :)

[@oliviakiechl6401]

does anyone know where the green shirt is from?

[@taarishakaura9145]

I love you

[@jeslapixie]

❤️

[@coachmelrose1138]

Omg I love you so so so so so much you just make my day and I am couch Melrose’s daughter Avery Melrose and I am only 8 years old I know I am young but I know how you feel

[@sam.hebert]

YOUR BOYFRIEND LIVES IN TEMECULA?! I LIVE IN TEMECULA. I LIVE RIGHT NEAR THE TEMECULA AND REDHAWK PKWY

[@creativitylife9775]

Hi from India 🇮🇳

[@hamnahayat5461]

love your videos you so amazing

[@handballhater]

I wanted to comment that you give me huge neurodivergent vibes (not just from this video) but was afraid because aRmChAir DiAgNosIs BaD... but then you said "..get evaluated for ADHD" and i was like oh, no need 😄(p.s. not a bad thing, from a late diagnosed auadhder woman)

[@krystalannawilliams2653]

nice

[@lmh-9367]

i hope you don’t get covid because i had omicron and threw up a lot :(

[@cateconklin8522]

you remind me of a mix of Kate Brock and Emma Marie

[@daisywilliams4101]

omg i have emetophobia to😜

[@keiracln]

kayli stop ilysm🤍

[@nicoleharmse4468]

Hiii sorry I am like this but when will you do the vogue video?? Love you can you comment "hi Nicole"