GRWM: WHERE I'VE BEEN | Zoey

[@camryn272]

I just want to say you are loved by so many, don’t ever feel like no one wants to watch or your not good enough because you are. I completely relate to you when it comes to feeling like everyday is the same. The only way I stay sane is spending the time to focus on myself too. Body image is huge for me, so I make sure I’m eating good and working out, going outside on walks, etc. Other than that, I’m lost too but at least it’s a start to feel more confident on the outside which can then turn to inside. Positive thoughts even if you don’t believe them in the now, will end up happening as long as you are manifesting positivity. I also truly believe KZbin could be a distraction for you if you keep it up which could be beneficial

[@estrellaaa_]

This touch home I’m a SAHM 8 years in. Now and I’m 26 ONLY it gets so mind draining ! U took the words right out of my mouth. I even stopped recording videos

[@hildaguerra7185]

You're amazing I've been watching you since you started. I'm not going anywhere. Stay strong Video idea: step by step eyeshadow tutorial

[@steph3744]

Thank you for opening up & being so vunderable. I'm sending you positive vibes. Please know that a lot of people appreciate your videos including myself. I hope to see your face more on here :)

[@brittany9747]

I can definitely relate to your feelings. I have rough days and then again I have days that I feel amazing. Or I have this feeling that myself as a mother, is constantly being judged and criticized. It's hard, but I love my boys.

[@agrowingwildflower650]

Crying at the part where you say about waking up everyday choosing to still be here ❤️ thank you for being so vulnerable with us, you are such a beautiful person inside and out, and I’ve missed watching your videos and post on Instagram! You are worthy, you are loved and you are wanted too zoey, I truly send you the strength to keep fighting the ppd, I know how much it sucks, I also didn’t have it with my daughter but with my son I did and he’s almost 2 and I’m still fighting but I feel it going away, I feel myself coming back to ME, the joy will come back, you’re doing so great and you will get through this 🤎

[@bubblesxo]

I love watching your videos and you do and have made an impact. I'm at the later end of gen Z and tbh I don't really understand tik tok and the typical beauty gurus are so fake and annoying. You are REAL and it is refreshing to see someone open up. My mom was a stay at home mom and you voiced how she was feeling and those depression periods perfectly. Having just one friend or a sibling, family member to escape the house with and do things with outside really makes a difference. Even if it's just simple like going out to get bubble tea or going for a walk. I hope you find yourself again and remember you have all of us by your side even if we are separated by oceans!!

[@LeadmareLibertad]

The first 5 minutes were already so relatable to me. I’m pregnant with my second child (3rd trimester atm), and I’m mostly a stay at home mom but also work part time where I have to bring my toddler with me so I’m a mom 24/7. My husband works a lot and we don’t get to spend a lot of time together. I also don’t have a lot of people I can hang around with or other family support. So most of the time I feel alone and stuck in a cycle of doing the same things. I miss doing youtube as a distraction but then when it comes to planning a filming day I procrastinate and never end up doing it 😩 I hate myself a lot for not accomplishing anything. I totally get you in many similar ways. But please know you are beautiful inside and out and it’s wonderful that you brave and honest enough to put yourself out there ❤️ Maybe if you turn youtube into a little project it can keep you busy or focused on yourself for a moment because being a mom is super draining.

[@deepat5100]

You are so real! I’m sorry for everything you are going through but I feel like I related to a lot in terms of lost identity. You have articulated it really well and have hit the nail on the head on why I may be feeling the way I do. You look beautiful and your skin looks clearer than ever (subscriber since before your last pregnancy 😉) Keep pushing through the days, and keep your head up. What you are doing is great 🥰

[@samanthaisaacson708]

You explained what it’s like to be a stay at home mom perfectly! I’ve never been able to explain to my husband why it’s so hard, but you do lose yourself in the daily mom duties that we have to do. You are wanted and you’re not alone in feeling the way you do! Thank you for sharing!

[@carolina5429]

When you were talking about your weight struggles and said " I know there are bigger problems in the world" that part hit me! I found your channel since I started struggling with acne (and still am) and the way you described feeling about your weight is exactly how I feel about my skin. I used to cry and cry because I hated so much I how looked and then I would be annoyed with myself for caring about such a "small" thing when there are other people suffering from so much more. I am currently trying to find the right balance of letting myself feel my emotions while not letting them consume my day/life. Sending you so much healing energy!

[@susanaguevara4802]

Omgg noo pls don’t think that…!!! I swear ur sooo missed and loved…i was hoping to see u soon, pls don’t stop, you are Beautiful and Loved and your KZbin family loveeee uuu…!!! Super happy nd excited to see you ❤️❤️❤️

[@roxsa364]

Sending you hugs n strength Zoey. I totally understand what you are going through. I’m a first time mom of a precious boy and the transition into motherhood has been rough. It’s nice to know that feeling this way sometimes is something many mothers go through. Not many people talk about these things. So I appreciate you sharing your feelings. Just know your sweet angels see you as the perfect and most beautiful mother. It’s never easy being alone and away from family. You got this mama. ♥️♥️

[@selenagonzalez9371]

Thanks for sharing your story with us!💙 I feel the same you are feeling, you are not alone it happens to all us moms. Just be strong momma everything will work out and you will overcome this beast!! Sending a bunch of blessings your way girl but don’t ever feel like your not worth it or you don’t matter because you do!!🤍🤍🤍🤍

[@sassykassie21]

Thank you for sharing your thoughts and experience. You are an amazing mama! I’m here for all of it! ❤️❤️ sore for your loss, is not enough, but I will keep you in my prayers. Abuelitas, can be like a second mama.

[@antoniavelasco]

I understand how you feel. I have a full time job and 4 kids and feel the same way. Literally house stuff and work and just nothing else. And its mentally draining. I think if you get back to filming constantly it will keep your mind occupied. I love watching your videos and have been watching you for a long time. Stay positive, I hope things get better for you!

[@franh.3687]

I’m a new subscriber of yours and I just wanna say that I love watching your videos a lot. You’ve really helped me and I wish nothing more than for you to feel better soon. This too shall pass. You can get through this! Sending all my love. ❤️

[@alondrasandoval6303]

I am so glad you posted this video ! I’ve miss you . Thank you for your honesty .you are definitely not alone and we all love you . Stay strong 💕💕💕💕💕

[@agueva05]

Hi! I started following you years ago because your tutorials were the most helpful to me and my skin even now. Watching this, I want you to know… I will pray for you. I also struggled with ppd after my second and it was the worst, most guilt I’ve ever felt because I blamed my daughter. And I lost my aunt who was practically my mother. A whole lot of darkness! We value you and everything you do. You are beautiful and strong! We love you and are all rooting for you 💛

[@nancydillarza6467]

Thank you so much for speaking about this !!! So many of us cry in silent there needs to be more awareness on post Partum depression … loved the video!

[@onlyme1245]

When I feel that way I know I need change so I rearrange my apartment, I do something different something normally I wouldn't. In this case I'm moving to another apartment lol. Seeing my family always helps. I'm a loyal fan, subscriber. I love your content you're so interesting. Whatever you do just don't give up and keep on pushing. ❤️

[@Daisyjc2386]

🤍so much love Zoey🤍 I’ve always learned so much from your videos. Your gorgeous; don’t ever stop expressing yourself via your YT videos. It is your creative outlet.

[@Mireyapuentes_]

So nice to hear from you! I’ve been in a similar place still trying to find myself and do something to help..be me and be motivated as to love what I do and my body but slowly trying to work on it because if I don’t I won’t get no where but worse. keep pushing love 💕 you got people that really appreciate your work and ur personality and we enjoy seeing your growth!

[@larubia7451]

Take a day for yourself when you can , get your nails done , massage , hair done even a walk alone in nature

[@gracyfreyre]

You are not alone mama 🫶🏼 thank you for being open and vulnerable. Everything you said is what many of us feel every day and it’s so refreshing to hear. You are beautiful and inspiring.

[@chantaltaylor1897]

♥️ You have every right to feel your emotions Zoey. It really does help bc this is what happens in child birth of multiple children. Women hormones are it’s own category, added to it all is the pandemic. I went through it and taking a break for you did wonders for me. I really appreciate you for being honest!

[@melydelacruz2366]

Praying for you Zoe and love watching your videos please keep posting if this is what you enjoy doing ! You are beautiful thanks for expressing your honest emotions im sure a lot of us can relate 💕

[@Hillary0729]

Loved this video! I love watching your videos and appreciate the effort you put into making them. I hope you start to feel more like yourself soon! I can relate to some of the things you were saying. Sometimes I feel like my days are just passing by and I’m going through the motions. I feel like I need something to change but I don’t know what. Please continue to post whenever you can. We love you. You’re doing great and you got this.

[@karolinakondrat45]

You're beautiful outside and inside, love your videos, take care 💕

[@estellaarriaga9195]

I love this! You spoke my mind im a Stay Home Mom as well. And people always say you're lucky and thinks its the best thing. But its so much work i love it but to do the same things everyday. You're not alone

[@cynthiazuniga7622]

you are a good soul, thank you for sharing 🙏 ❤

[@crystalguevara2513]

You r beautiful the way you r zoey dnt put ur self down and i love wtching your videos dnt stop uploading keep up the good work nd the content coming more ...nd on ur next video can you do a day in ur life or try thanks love ya 🥰

[@zoeyhenao9445]

My next 2 videos are already recorded and I’m working on them, but maybe the video after those can be a day in the life 😊

[@all_tingz_squeaky4543]

It would be awesome if you could do halloween looks and get fun with it!!! Don't worry about anyone else's page just focus on yours because you are awesome girl!!!!

[@j_saysay23]

Yess do some vlogs on workouts I have been falling off on working out lately smh gotta get back on it!

[@jasminemolina3797]

Thank you so much for this raw video❤️ I can totally relate to some of the things you said. Sending a lot of love to you girl❤️

[@slayallday3436]

Thank you for sharing. You are not alone, I too feel this way.

[@jessicadominguez9097]

Hey love so first thing first take your time okay yes postpartum depression is ridiculously horrible but don't push yourself too much we are all here for you talk to us when you need to a video like this will help you and maybe others can give you advice and help you along we are all here for you 😊 and your doing great your an awesome mom with the pic you post of your babies they look happy and healthy 😊 keep up the good work 👏

[@Monica-lj5np]

I went through same struggles i needed this so much im not alone and ur not either day by day 🙏 thank u for sharing this and i hope everything gets better soon take time if u have to we will still be here whenever ur ready💖😘

[@monican7099]

First one here!! Girl you're amazing!! 🥰

[@zoeyhenao9445]

Thank you love 🥰

[@mariacarter77]

Your beautiful Zoey!! ♥️ your amazing at what you do! If you ever need someone to talk to you can always write me! Don’t give up keep pushing!

[@mariaburgos-king5827]

Thanks for the great content. I appreciate all you’ve done thus far and look forward to watching more. You’re awesome and doing great with all the big and small things you do on a daily. You got this!

[@thejollyofmay21]

ahhh girl ive missed you 🥺

[@zoeyhenao9445]

I’ve missed being here 🥺♥️ LY

[@jenniferlawrence9478]

It's good to see you again vlogging, I have been watching your old vlogs so I'm happy to see you again. God loves you unconditional and you are not alone e ❤.

[@Michelle-03]

I UNDERSTAND 💕

[@blackchinadoll22]

Baby let me say this MIJA … you are loved … we love you , I’ve watched you since before your son … you are not alone my son will be 5 in Nov .. I was 167 when I found out when I had my son I was 216 and my weight been up and down .. so I understand how your feeling … continue to pray and stay focused !! Your loved

[@stephaniespitty3674]

Hang in there, you are beautiful and you are loved....thank you for sharing.

[@elizabethlong163]

I missed you so much! Your doing your best. I know you are. Have you tried therapy? Its really helped me. I hope you feel better soon.

[@amandafoster24]

Love this! ♥️♥️

[@amandafoster24]

Love this ♥️♥️

[@usernamenotavilable]

I hope you read this message.. I’m a couple years younger than you and I have a 2 year old son. I live with my parents so I don’t have a lot of guidance raising my son (I’m a single mom) maybe you could do a video giving tips for toddlers or what you found to work to help educate them or with Bedtime routines or tantrums. I don’t know just something helping us (or me lol) to be a better and more mature mom.. and honestly you should tell yourself positive things even when you don’t want to, I still struggle a lot mentally too and it’s hard but things won’t change if you don’t change either you know? I’ve learned if I think negatively then I’m going to see things negatively.. You’re children cherish you and I’m sure your husband loves you, talk to him and just be present for your kids. change some stuff up. Have fun! My son is only two but I let him “help” me with cooking bc he loves it and it also keeps him busy or he helps me make coffee since he knows i love it, I can’t really give advice but it seems like something has to change whether it be your mental state or your environment or whatever, you know? you matter and you deserve to be happy and you deserve to have time for you and all your feelings are valid, just because you’re a mom doesn’t mean your kids or your husband owns you, you gotta find yourself again ❤️ you gotta be happy for you and when the mama is happy everyone else is happy too haha also if it makes you feel better I just move to a small town and I don’t have friends here or family here (besides my parents) and it’s lonely, but being a mom is lonelier and it’s hard, but we’ll get through it..

[@angy4788]

I just found u and love your videos I feel u in so many ways u can't even imagine. Love your content and have a few friends that are going through the same and will share your channel with them. I also have acne and scars would u mind showing us how u do your full makeup maybe not so much eye shadow or something nude but really want to learn how to do the rest of my face we have the same complexion and would love to learn how to put more than just blush and foundation.

[@dinomite078]

I hope you are doing better . I really like watching your videos on coverage- I have melasma

[@myrzamarilyslassus956]

You will get better.

[@PrincessBella22]

We do care please continue to make videos that will help to distract you !!!!! As a mom of 3 I know how you feel, take care of yourself first 😌

[@daomightygoose1057]

Oh my i have missed seeing you!

[@brittany9747]

Additional comment. Girl if you were to start posting fitness videos, that'll motivate me 😆(no pressure though). But I'll watch whatever you post.

[@MidnightttMoonnn]

I understand what you going threw literally everyday I try not to cry or complain about my looks I hate everything about myself especially my face I wanna get enough money to afford cosmetics surgery for my nose and have a better, clean, sharp jaw structure. my low self-esteem is ruining my relationship with my boyfriend because of how jealous I am towards other females.. I'm desperate too look beautiful I'm obsessed with being good lookin, I hate looking in the mirror I don't even have social media besides KZbin yet I still compare myself too other women I see on KZbin. I'm not happy and I dislike when people tell me I'm "pretty" I feel like there just being nice so I don't believe them... Like you said there's other things in this world to worry about and I could have it worse but.... my selfish side of me dont care because this is my life and I'm worry about how people see me and how I see my self... I'm not okay and I try everything too be better, seeing a counselor, psychiatrist, being prescribed medicine for my metal health but nothing working... I try being positive but in the end I just go right back to being miserable with myself. 😞

[@melaniegorniak3803]

I do not like Tic Tok I honestly can’t stand it YT is still going strong in the Beauty Community no fear there.

[@carnenpillay5833]

Joey I always wait for you videos😪...dont think you are unwanted.

[@Brenda6375]

You are so Beautiful!!!!Love Your Honesty…You have so much talent. “ May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in Him.” Romans 15:13 “ When anxiety was great within me, Your consolation brought joy to my soul.” Psalms 94:19

[@melaniegorniak3803]

Hon I get how you feel I truly how do as for as you saying you’re overweight girl no you’re not you see yourself that way because you’re not as tiny as you once were but overweight no not at all , we can clearly see how close and small your shoulders and arms are that’s a dead giveaway right there me yes I am truly overweight it can be seen in my shoulders and arms . Zoey you feel so horrible because you are living only for your children and husband as an adult I find it incredibly hard to make new friends especially when I don’t leave my house out of true embarrassment of how I look , I’m 5’3 and over 200 lbs that’s overweight and overwhelming I have extremely bad health problems with my bones and joints the meds cause weight gain and water retention so badly I have so much metal donor parts holding your neck and spine together that I literally can’t do anything other than walk when the pain isn’t that bad Drs refuse to allow me to workout or go to the gym because I will do more damage than good. My depression and anxiety are extremely bad I live only for my Family not myself so I get exactly what you mean it’s the same day everyday our identities are gone , but it is up to us and only us to find ourselves again nobody else can do that for us so even if it’s in the evening when your Hubby is home you go for a walk without your kids let your mind clear if only for 1 hr a day you desperately need time away from your kids it’s not healthy and you know this already. One hr a day minimum to yourself is not asking to much is not being selfish it’s called being human and nobody can take care or look after you but you! Self care my friend you need a little for yourself once you break down it will take months to get back to where you are now ! You have to look after you so you can look after your kids and Zoey you matter you are loved and I was so happy to that you uploaded I miss your Foundation Friday’s so much so even if you only do 1 a month you’d get views without doubt. Please try and have an okay day and REMEMBER you matter and your Day in my Life vlogs we’re great. Had to edit for missing words lol.