happier than ever but sadder and angrier (slowed and reverbed + rain)

loOkie hEre❗👀
🎵~ happier than ever - billie eilish
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[@ilovesooshee]

hi friends i was thinking about switching up some of my content so its not exclusively just slowed and reverbed music, do yall have any ideas of what type of content i could do?

[@LostEpiph]

I just wanted to add a comment here. 👀

[@pizzapizza6722]

what things are you interested in? Make videos on those! playing games, playing with friends, drawing and more. do what you want to do love

[@LuLu-tz5ge]

I would really love dark/angry sad music

[@keeragoddess1306]

any content

[@AshriyaJaveed]

acapella music would be cool!

[@selinkalfaoglu2364]

i was an overthinker he was so relaxed = toxic relationship

[@huseyinokanozturk4025]

i always tried to make her feel good, she just cared about herself. It was a toxic relationship

[@Phoenixenzia]

@@huseyinokanozturk4025 I'm feeling the same way. My only best friend never had empathy for me when I cried. In the past times, she used to be so cold to me, not letting me hold her hands, rolls her eyes on me, giving false hopes, talks to me with bored tone and even not efforting to give me anything on my birthday last year. I remembered crying in class because of my family but her and my friend's group just ignores me while I cry on the floor. Idk what to trust, she's a lot better with me now but I don't think she should just do like this to anyone even she's better now or not. I just wanted her to apologize for what she did in the past and she never said sorry about it even how much she acknowledge how much that hurts me. I'm only the one who's giving her my all, I felt like all she did was just accept. I'm a toy to her ig.

[@midnxightbyun6109]

Why is this true?

[@midnxightbyun6109]

@@Phoenixenzia well, dont put yourself in that cycle

[@glow2500]

This was literally us. Just last week. He broke me so bad and he knows he got away unscathed. I'm the only broken one here.

[@myung-dae4022]

im the therapist of everyone and be their comforter , but i never get to get comforted or even get to open up.

[@ghostgirl579]

im sorry you have to deal with that ): i hope things get so so much more better for you

[@jungwonscactus9425]

Hey, do you maybe wanna talk? I know you don’t know me, and maybe it’s hard to believe but I do care if you’re okay. I’m not a 40 year old man I swear💀

[@swarsleyb7514]

Exactly! it’s like how am I the one with selective hearing when NO ONE WANTS TO LISTEN TO ME! No one wants to hear about our problems or struggles but when they want to vent they know exactly who to go to when they want someone to listen! And sometimes they don’t just want you to listen they also want advice something that we only dream we could get! But no it’s never going to happen I know that now. I’m the bad guy if I voice how I feel and I don’t deserve an apology ever but I should apologize for even trying to look for one. I deserve this

[@Jennie-ck8jf]

I can relate

[@lma561]

Md?

[@grasstoucher2213]

the way i support everyone , alot in the things they do but i do not receive any. i wish i had someone like me for myself. how does it feel to be supported.

[@ilovesooshee]

one day I promise someone will be there to support you, you'll find someone I know you will

[@HAB-BITUAL]

Be that person for yourself. You'll never have all of someone else, but you will always have you. Learn to love yourself and be your own best friend, and for the rest of your life you'll never be lonely

[@amdiary7]

@@HAB-BITUAL this was so beautiful, well said.

[@rileytimb]

Omg. Find some non toxic friends, making friends is easier than it seems

[@el2555]

@@rileytimb no, try being in other peoples places and realize how anxiety can push you away from making friends.

[@Grace-pu1vs]

Dear reader I see u. I see ur pain. You’re doing so well I’m proud of u. ❤️

[@yukitakashi414]

Thank u

[@Grace-pu1vs]

@@yukitakashi414 ur welcomee alwayss

[@ciaraa_jordynnnn]

needed this

[@SynDoesStuff]

Thank you 🖤

[@paulchristian2388]

@@cozywish4342 you probably have brain issues then

[@yahiip7969]

everyone thinks of a relationship while i think of my mom 💀

[@valentinateto2577]

Literally same 💀

[@macielay1741]

Same

[@alian6749]

Sameeee

[@munzeviu]

SAME I think of my mom and dad-

[@dess428]

I think of a friend who is still dating the guy who’s bullied for a while she’s the friend who helped some break up with me because the person was to afraid break up with me because they didn’t like me at all when we started dating worst part was she was friends with them but I have known her longer so yes I think of her.

[@cavetown4565]

I love how everyone comfort each other in this comment section :( y'all so kind. wish everyone's days will getting better

[@Aishiki29]

I wish YOU have a really great day buddy

[@TunaPetunia456]

You two have an awesome day

[@darknight8915]

I love this comment I’m crying 😭

[@elegantochan3721]

We love you toooo. Be sure to take care

[@cavetown4565]

@@elegantochan3721 (･ω･)つ⊂(･ω･)

[@saraaaaaismail]

Whenever I think I’m finally okay my mental health plummets again… I can never be happy

[@ilovesooshee]

this.

[@adivlahk]

Never related to a comment more than this

[@gwenculver1040]

Nothing ever lasts forever, the fact that you have times where you finally feel okay shows how human and normal you’re emotions are. Everyone has their ups and downs and the downs almost always hit harder. Nobody is happy all the time, even most of the time really. You’re just being human, don’t beat yourself up for feeling how most people feel, it’s normal

[@CHERRY-uo4xy]

soon it's gonna be okay, love. Pain or something that hurt us just temporary , you can do it ! i'm proud of you ❤️

[@Arthur_rxd]

No it’s actually unfair to feel happy forever I’m gonna be honest life ain’t only about wandering around with happiness and all of that it’s also about getting sad getting tired getting angry getting numb, the key is acceptance that’s the only thing that will make you move on faster, and getting hurt badly will help you with acceptance later when the pain goes away slowly cause you are gonna start to accept it

[@yukiyuraya7643]

imagine this audio playing in the backround while you cry in the rain

[@saryasx6748]

best and worst feeling at the same time ✨

[@0_qwayra]

me:*finally being happy* family problems:oh hey

[@olivexx2758]

Me today lol

[@annacotelli6330]

YES.

[@ree.79]

Im definitely here for this reason 😂😂

[@hanahanisha1863]

me either ")

[@juldyaack9202]

the tittle are my emotions in 1 minute

[@melissakambala6273]

Lyrics: When I'm away from you I'm happier than ever Wish I could explain it better I wish it wasn't true, mm-hmm Give me a day or two To think of something clever To write myself a letter To tell me what to do, mm-hmm Do you read my interviews? Or do you skip my avenue? When you said you were passing through, was I even on your way? I knew when I asked you to be cool about what I was telling you You'd do the opposite of what you said you'd do And I'd end up more afraid Don't say it isn't fair You clearly weren't aware that you made me miserable, ooh So if you really wanna know When I'm away from you (when I'm away from you) I'm happier than ever (I'm happier than ever) Wish I could explain it better (wish I could explain it better) I wish it wasn't true, mm-hmm You called me again, drunk in your Benz Driving home under the influence You scared me to death, but I'm wasting my breath 'Cause you only listen to your fucking friends I don't relate to you I don't relate to you, no 'Cause I'd never treat me this shitty You make me hate this city And I don't talk shit about you on the internet Never told anyone anything bad 'Cause that shit's embarrassing, you were my everything And all that you did was make me fucking sad So don't waste the time I don't have Don't try to make me feel bad I could talk about every time that you showed up on time But I'd have an empty line, 'cause you never did Never paid any mind to my mother or friends, so I Shut 'em all out for you 'cause I was a kid You ruined everything good Always said you were misunderstood Made all my moments your own Just fucking leave me alone

[@amitmanilyn5437]

made

[@I_love_me998]

I appreciate the time you used on this!

[@amitmanilyn5437]

@@I_love_me998 what

[@I_love_me998]

@@amitmanilyn5437 I suppose this person used time on this?

[@emperorliz]

Not tryna spoil the mood but his EYES had me dying.

[@SanaDarsana]

Lol yes 😂

[@tyheshabarnes9536]

It explain sleepless night and crying him to sleep lol

[@svnryujn4023]

its giving 'snicker eyeshadow'

[@MikanSakura7ginnm]

lmao tryna minimized it at night coz it made me scared lmaooooo

[@emperorliz]

@@MikanSakura7ginnm HAHAHA

[@zeeverrr]

THIS IS SO UNDERRATED

[@ilovesooshee]

I'm so glad u like it hehe

[@rubycr306]

YEAHHH it's so good :v

[@lexiann9858]

IKR 😵👏🤍

[@Mike_tsu]

i want to dedicate this to my parents

[@paavani5337]

Gosh same here-

[@fruitysquad5057]

same bro

[@suhaimeeshahareen8848]

Same

[@yareligarcia4706]

I wanna dedicate this to my family ://

[@queensangmi2965]

Yessssss

[@Hellokittylover2884]

It feels like it’s never gonna get better (update: I didn’t think this comment would blow up but ty sm for your kind messages you guys really helped me stay strong I’m in a better place now mentally and I’m focusing on my dreams ty everyone ❤️❤️)

[@amdiary7]

That’s how it feels for years sometimes. But trust me, it does. You have to experience joy to know how sadness feels like, which means that the opposite is valid too. It’s a part of life. It gets better.

[@Hellokittylover2884]

@@amdiary7 sorry for the late response but ty I really needed to hear that

[@oli709]

I feel like that too but we've gotta try right?

[@All_his_little_things]

I know this is a late response but I promise everything will get better. From someone who was suicidal and had depression, it will eventually get better. Things may seem hard even simple tasks but remember after rain there’s a rainbow. It may take days, months, hell even years but eventually things will turn around and you’ll feel good again :)

[@amdiary7]

@@Glutenfreebreadloaf I’ve been depressed for 8 years so yeah. Sometimes, unfortunately. But it gets better and that’s what we should focus on.

[@galacticjewels7856]

This song makes me think of my dad so much. Every line feels freakishly similar.

[@finalessegl6715]

Yeah same here

[@annelisemucoolname9225]

Count me in 😔 it's just been a whole poop show since birth

[@xxdumpsterqueenxx3573]

I was looking for this comment :( I just feel so disappointing to him, and I feel like he always so angry and upset with me. He always makes me feel so horrible.

[@crazybabuskaman3923]

Too relatable. My dad is such a mess when he's drunk, which is most of the time. When he is sober, he is quiet and normal, and doesn't really bother me. But when he's drunk, we'll that a whole other story.

[@Amandita__]

Same! My dad doesn’t understand how much he really broke me.. I can’t anymore! I feel your pain and I’m here for you! Hope you’re doing better❤️

[@jrosejpg]

To think how much has changed in my life since this song came out is astounding. I remember listening to Happier Than Ever for the first time, late at night, smoking a cigarette on the front steps of my parents home with a glass of hard liquor in hand, just having been cheated on by my ex boyfriend. Now, I’m living with my new partner in our little house we rent, drinking wine on the grass, staring up at the night sky, without a cigarette in hand. I’m Happier Than Ever, and I hope you will be too.

[@J7ne_e]

I’m so happy for u😭💞

[@MidnightPanik]

Finally a positive comment- wish you the best.

[@trljamusi]

2:53 the angriest part

[@usernotfound8571]

When this song relates to your parents more than your lover:

[@thesadabefree4982]

Facts.

[@nikkisoni8042]

I have the best supportive better-half and the most unsupportive, abusive parents

[@isabellaluna1486]

"When I'm away from you I'm happier than ever" this. When I'm away from my dad I feel so light I don't have to keep my guard up all the time it's like a breath of fresh air. I love him but he's just so idk

[@rockdaniels3721]

Oh God I felt this right in my soul. My father is too much for me and I can't stand him anymore. I just can't. Everytime he leaves the house I feel like I'm free, like I can do things without being constantly judged or yelled at. I can do things without having this constant feeling of embarrassment or sadness or paranoia that I might do something that pisses him off. When he just leaves the house for some hours I feel like I don't have to take care a goddamn man child or a baboon. I just want him to shut the hell up for 5 minutes, I want him to leave me alone. One thing is for sure, when I get the chance, I'm leaving. My going away. I hope that you are having a better life. I sincerely wish you the best. Stay strong.

[@finalessegl6715]

@@rockdaniels3721 omg same here but my paternal always used to always tell me how to do things I always had to put on a mask with him and every time I would let go a little bit of myself he would scream to me like crazy in front of everybody else in the stores or wherever. Like my aunts always tell me to be complacent to him because he’s a man child and he’s not mature and whatever... BUT LIKE DAMN I AM THE CHILD HERE!!!! I should not be the one paying the price of his mistakes and every time I am listening to this song makes me think of my dad :// wich I hate

[@rockdaniels3721]

@@finalessegl6715 Jesus christ.... I'm so sorry. I hope you are having a better life now. I get it. Mine has done the exact same. But while we were on a restaurant, surrounded by people. Jesus I wanted to just bury myself and disappear. Also, it's probably the reason I'm super secretive with him. I never tell him anything. Because I never know how his reaction is going to be. God I can't wait to leave him so I can have a better life where I don't feel like I'm in a cage. Again, I hope you're having a better life, and if you're still with him, hang in there until you're able to go and have a better life. I once left, and I decided to give him a second chance. Biggest mistake I've ever done. I'm done givong second chances. Once I get a chance, I'm leaving. Stay strong dear. Stay strong and don't kill your own happiness for anyone, not even your parents. ❤️

[@finalessegl6715]

@@rockdaniels3721 Ohh thank you ❤️ I am actually better because I did exactly the same as you did I’ve let him so much chances and he kept doing the same things over and over again. But the last time I saw him I’ve really kicked him out of my life for the good as for the bad... I had the chance to have a supportive mom wich she accepted my decision and didn’t want him and her life after all the pain he also caused her and my brother... But now I am in a different country away from him and I am starting to heal myself little by little... I also really hope you’re going to be okay and get away from him to build a better life for yourself. It helped me knowing someone out there was living the same thing I was dealing with. Thank you again stay strong we gonna make this 💪❤️

[@rockdaniels3721]

@@finalessegl6715 I'm really happy to see you're doing much better. I actually have a very supportive mom too. She's awesome! When I leave, I'm going to go live with her and help her and just try to make her happy. I'm going to find a job, start to wear clothes that I like, do my thing. Also, no need to thank me. I'm just glad you're better. Stay happy. Have a good one. 😊

[@fraggotrizz]

2:52 the start of the good part of the song

[@ramirosoria9242]

The start of the good part is 0:00 all the way through

[@mjdrowned3762]

My anxiety has been making me throw up daily to the point where I want to give up everything , but songs like this helps to hold on a little longer

[@ur_fav569]

I’m so sorry to hear that. I hope you’re not throwing up every day since it’s been a month, but it really seems that you’re struggling. I hope everything gets better and you have a good week this week, and if you haven’t let go and kept holding on, I’m proud of you! Good job :)

[@EpicJoelKimurgor]

I'm planning of doing the same... Drowning or just ridding myself of my anxiety.

[@six696]

It's hard for me to communicate my emotions with words without making it sound robotic, so I avoid it entirely and try to explain with music and TikToks and literally whatever else I can do or make to express them, but no one really understands, they're all just confused.

[@BunnyKPoPXx]

Me too 😪

[@khaleesi9949]

I know how you feel, my ex/bf said I sound like “Siri” when I express my love and emotion

[@six696]

@@khaleesi9949 Hate that so much ✨

[@six696]

Why did this get 191 likes

[@nitzmilky7246]

My best friend once said, "You won't get it, you need to have human emotions for that."

[@maerimilkeu3962]

this song reminds me so much of the relationship my dad and I have

[@rockdaniels3721]

Same. I hope things turn out okay with you. 💕

[@oliviajulianna]

me too :(

[@eva-fi1ks]

why does this version sound more intense than all the other slowed down songs

[@user-pk9nq9ep4v]

I lost my Best friend. But Who cares? This is kinda relaxing. Thank you i needed it!

[@shamaebrahim334]

Sorry for ur loss

[@ur_fav569]

I care. That’s who cares. Are you ok?

[@princesshyunjin9194]

Yo i don't think their bff died💀 I think they r just saying that they left em

[@mysxri-2057]

My gf left me, but it's fine ^^

[@jiyanlover]

Sorry for your loss

[@hhansol0]

Man- i really like this version, i'ts amazing how little parts of this or even the entire song is relatable to someone even in the slightest. This song's been making me feel better about myself in some kind of way, screaming the lyrics really helps relieve all the anger I carry most of the times hehe ^^ This is video is criminally underrated

[@adenowsley4294]

There is nothing that helps me relieve my anger. I'm lost

[@_shxmfxbian_3410]

@@adenowsley4294 it's okay to feel lost. i know that this is so late, but i just want to say that you're doing so damn well. whether u realise it or not, whether u believe me or not, you're trying your best. your trying your best to fight. and that even though i don't know you, i know that certainly, you'll make it. you'll achieve, and even though u may fail or stumble, they'll always be someone there. you're never alone.

[@holds4230]

@@_shxmfxbian_3410 bro im on ecstasy rn and feeling down somehow. this comment helped a lot rn. thank you. you're an amazing human being.

[@_shxmfxbian_3410]

@@holds4230 im glad that my msg helped ^^ im sure that ur an amazing human being as well

[@sudenazkandemir7490]

i feel wierd these days i don't know how exactly i feel but numb isn't the exact word for it, i'm also not feeling good or bad there's nothing that bothers me i kinda feel lost but not in the way everyone else means it i miss crying but i don't want to i feel wierd lol

[@TunaPetunia456]

I feel you

[@SynDoesStuff]

That’s exactly how I feel.. but I hope things get better for you friend. You aren’t alone! 🖤

[@ihabaouchar4172]

Is it wierd or weird ?

[@steveharringtonhiatus1dskz649]

Same

[@steveharringtonhiatus1dskz649]

I understand you

[@franziskas5804]

For everyone who reads this : I believe in you. I don't care how many people don't, even if I don't know you I know for sure no one deserves to suffer from negative feelings. Please stop pressuring yourself into something unrealistic, you're already perfectly you. And please take this virtual hug : 🤗 I hope you're feeling a little better :)

[@flowerbloom2506]

tell me why did this make cry

[@elegantochan3721]

Thank you for your kindness. Pls keep it

[@aless_4life]

After I read this I started crying and I want to say thank you

[@angelogatdula6017]

i hate being introverted. i know it to myself that i am an extrovert but my family gave me no choice but to hide that side of me. i didn't wanna show the real me in front of 'em, coz a single thing that they didn't like is gonna be perceived wrong and i'm always gonna end up as the bad guy when all i'm trynna do is to show who i really am. I hate to think that i have to show my filtered self to my family just so I could be acceptable for them. this is why it breaks me when billie said " when i'm away from you i'm happier than ever" and just like her i wish i could explain it better

[@stfu4302]

it's scary how relatable this song is to me and my best friend's relationship

[@elxna_84]

This is exactly what I needed 🛐, it's perfect

[@Rainjojo]

This song reminds me of the time I moved away from my toxic mother to art school. She’s maltreated me in every way, misunderstood me as an individual, and believes my life is hers so it’s okay to ruin every good moment I have. Collage had a far more supportive and understanding environment because most knew what it was like to be treated like crap. Being around my mom, I feel like I need to walk on eggshells to avoid her. Always, she’d yell uncontrollably and had been domestically abusive since I was a kid. I don’t know how I survived someone like her or she believes I’ve forgotten how I was treated, but I’m happy that I can limit my contact with her

[@py7hon05]

it's so good that you'll able to move away.

[@TunaPetunia456]

I'm so proud of you 💞💙

[@_.aartimme]

[My thoughts while listening to this amazing version] The way they have made me feel, how things have turned out, the idea of running away and not coming back. . . Am I ever going to be able to love someone, but to also be loved by them, and be treated as someone who has a value? There's no such a thing as hiding your actions with the argument of "Its for you, because Id oc are for you" No you don't, of course you don't. I DO HAVE FEELINGS; I DO HAVE VALUE Do I really want to still live in this world, where the only thing we have guaranteed is death? Something so pointless that can breaks us so easily...I don't want to stop seeing my grand grandmother, I don't want to die only being 14, but. . .I also don't want to continue in this world and searching for what doesn't exist, like the point of living

[@thebacontwins9929]

dude, same i really do know what you mean, they might pretend your just a little teen/kid but you still understand what they say , sometimes you need alone time but the anger hates everybody it hates me and you, but the better to have is someone that understand you and will comfort you as a real human being.

[@ilovesooshee]

I'm thinking about starting to make slowed reverbed playlists !! so if u have any ideas pls reply to this ! for clarification: by playlists I mean like the general vibe of the playlist. example: late night runs to 7eleven with your best friend

[@zeeverrr]

Television - Rex Orange County please

[@ef4irys]

My kind of woman - Marc Demarco

[@Sophiiiaslays]

Miss wanna die

[@allgy07]

Grieving for The old you

[@Ellerss_YT]

All I want is you know by hoshie star and masquerade by siouxxe

[@aceyoucanguess7966]

When I’m away from you, I’m happier then ever~ my relationship with the *internet* It’s a blessing to have it but it’s a curse, that’ll last me forever, when I’m far away from it, I’m happy but also sad…

[@emmos475]

When you're happier only because you're not that insecure about the things you use to be really insecure about. But now you're always questioning your self worth, always the second choice and just frustrated.

[@leodecker378]

This version helped me get past some shit

[@ilovesooshee]

I'm so glad ur doing better now

[@leodecker378]

@@ilovesooshee thank you~ just been taking it day by day 😅

[@margrzen]

cheers

[@im_always_watching783]

To be honest this song is exactly how my relationship with school is like. I shut out all my friends and family to get good grades and be the best so I can go to an elite university. I never realized until now that Im ruining my mental health by doing this and I already signed up for middle college. And because of it need to be within the 30% of all of the kids in my grade(8th grade). I’ve been forcing myself to stay up late to study for 3 whole months and never picked up the fact that I’m starting to become mentally ill. Only until these 2 weeks have I been easy on myself, but now my grades are going a little down. But who cares there still great and if anything my mental health is more important than some A. But this this song also really expands on my other problems in life. Life is hard and time won’t stop so anyone. So I might as well do the things I can do will I still can. Oh yeah and I might just burn down my school because that place is hell and last time I remembered hell is burning hot 🥵

[@aestherix6910]

wow, i’m shocked at how amazing this is 💞

[@kenzieperez02]

I’m late but, I think of my mum when I listen to this. “Made all my moments your own” yes you did, and I’m nearly 14 so when I strike 18 I’m leaving you in my past.

[@kenzieperez02]

@aroace gal aww me and you will get through it ♥️ this is just the universe giving us our power. We can do this I’m here for u 🥺❤️

[@canadian_mist_swag5671]

Whenever I hear this song all I can think about is my mom she’s ruined my life man….

[@zairazulu1075]

Same but with my mother and my father

[@RAYISAGH0ST]

same but only my dad

[@py7hon05]

@@pyompom mine blames me for everything and everytime i feel a little bit of happiness, she'll just take it away from me

[@crazybabuskaman3923]

God why is that so relatable. I wish I was still a clueless child where I didn't know or what my parents are. My dad is an alcoholic and my mom has to put up with his bullshit, and she gets really angry and stuff. Ik I'm saying too much but still.

[@oznurkara170]

This song make me feel so much pain it’s literally all the things i want to say to people around me but i can’t. BROOO that’s hurt but she still ate it… respect

[@taehyungtaetae1242]

My inner child acting up and it’s time to show myself some love cuz I deserve it and I hope every single one of you are working on yourself and prioritising yourself love you .

[@EDMOilers6172]

2:55

[@madisonp5756]

the part where its angry feels like having a scream argument while bawling your eyes out

[@zestyceleste]

hey, you just wanted to say i love you. you're doing absolutely amazing. im so proud of you. im personally going through one of the hardest times of my life, and if you're feeling the same, just know you're not alone.

[@elegantochan3721]

I love how kind you are;(

[@impan2051]

0:01 just for me because I love the slow and soft start of this song, I think people should pay more attention to it tbh

[@immentallyill9038]

Argeed

[@7520_]

I hate how she gets to talk bad about me. But when i do it back to her, she gathers up her gang to corner me and bark at me.

[@ilovesooshee]

I really wish I could help u :(

[@mystique4663]

I feel this.. Hope you're doing good now tho

[@twistedpeppermint8745]

It makes me feel like i have lost myself in process of giving away too much. Even if someone was to love me deeply, i wouldn't be able to give them back. Seeing them hurt, hurts more and i cant do anything about it.

[@desti-yeet]

all i think about is my dad my heart lies with all the childhood trauma peeps out there

[@lvsazs]

Being a introvert I always hear why are you so quite? “ do you even talk” like I don’t wanna talk to people I ain’t comfortable around just leave me alone I am tired of getting mistreated and ignored each and every freakin time I would have never treated myself like this.

[@strawberrygirl953]

Üzüntüyü hissedememek, yaşamak çok zor. İnsan acıyı hissetmek de isteyebilirmiş. Yaşadığının farkında olmak, fark edilmek, görünenden ibaret olmadığını kanıtlamak... Bazen boğuluyormuş gibi hissediyorum. İçimden milyarlarca canımı okuyan düşünce geçerken, gülüp geçilecek şeyleri sorun edip günümü zehir ederken(istemeyerek), sevgisizlikten kıvranırken insanların hiçbir sıkıntım yokmuşçasına "bu yaşta ne derdin olabilir?" Diye beni günlerce mutsuzluğa hapseden düşüncelerden bir hiç gibi bahsederken boğulacak gibi hissediyorum. On yıl sonrası için, daha hayatımda olmayan şeylerin bile sıkıntısıyla boğuşuyorum. Güvensiz hissediyorum. Özgüvensiz hissediyorum. Hissetmiyorum. Varlığımı hissetmiyorum. Ama yokluğumu insanlar çok güzel hissettiriyor. Yıllardır tatmin olamıyorum sevgi konusunda içimde hep bir boşluk var. Yakında beni bile içine alacak kadar büyüyecek. Ve sadece boyun eğmekle kalacağım. İyi geceler.

[@Mateus1395]

Hey, I'm glad we're on this journey together, whoever is reading this. Hope you're okay.

[@nagito3548]

i feel so bad. its not fair. why can't i be good enough anymore?

[@uditmutha4286]

2:55 the part you need

[@Queenmaker1611]

This comments section makes me want to keep believing in humanity. Y'all r so kind ans sweet to each other. I hope everyone's situations get better ♥️

[@xxkaedexx8068]

This song is so relatable for me but it isn't at the same time. What I mean is that I'm not having the same problem as her. What is relatable for me is the anger and pain she put in the song.

[@tired.of.myself]

It's really good thanks I've been looking for that 🙂👍

[@confusednezuko-chan]

This song gives me shivers thank you for this 🙏❤

[@agustinaasalvatierra2101]

omg this is amazing,i love it

[@trvsh7254]

This is so calming and cathartic. Thanks

[@Joannainenn]

You can’t even think how much this song and this version of it means to me, than you💖😔

[@sahejvaid3879]

late night crying and hearing this sings m my life

[@libbybeaston9309]

THIS IS AMAZING AHHHH

[@nose7082]

I really thought it was a playlist xd But I ended in love with this version of the song.

[@ilovesooshee]

get bamboozled

[@Pokeplayer10]

This hits different when instead of this applying to a lover or an ex, it's my parents. Specifically my mom.

[@tamaramenard7858]

this is so powerful. thank youuu !

[@alex_dev9239]

This song is a pure masterpiece.

[@Irelandbreuer]

I cried to this :)

[@deadperson5237]

I loved the bit of rain at the end

[@phoeniixx.]

I love this song, I find it to be a very beautiful song. Billie Eilish’s voice is absolutely stunning. And you did an amazing job making in a thousand times more angelic. Good job. :)

[@reyfun7869]

This song is incredible and this is just as incredible

[@payton1339]

You are way to underrated

[@bazzxliner]

Idk man will I ever find someone who loves me as much as I love them. Why's it so hard to get mutual affection...

[@SynDoesStuff]

I know how you feel.. been in a relationship to find out he only wanted to use me to make himself look good and for his own personal gain.. But I’m past that now! I hope you find the one someday.. it’ll happen at the right time, even when you least expect it. Things are going to get better, I promise! 🥺🖤

[@bazzxliner]

@@SynDoesStuff Awh I'm so sorry you had to go through that. You're so strong and I'm glad you were able to get pass that difficult time. I pray one day we all find our soulmates and be happy XD

[@Ina-vy8sl]

it sounds different when it comes to your ex best friend...

[@harrysaladfingers1515]

idk if it's sane or not but I think it's a song from my soul/heart to my brain/social anxiety

[@seantracyacostavillanueva8810]

Why is it so underrated??!!

[@rileysmrz]

i just wish i had actual friends

[@ilovesooshee]

i know its hard right now bur u will get through it!! if you need someone to talk to my dms in instagram is open

[@amdiary7]

Please stay strong.

[@Hyacinth04]

Listening 🎧 this sitting in bright sunlight with light breeze 🍃😌

[@darling9606]

I like this a lot ^^

[@bloodylugg]

hits hard at night fr

[@dunjamidnight2133]

I know this song is about being in a toxic relationship or a friendship or familial bond,but the song gets even more depressing when you imagine singing it to yourself Infront of a mirror

[@presleyk_]

This song helps me cope with the shit my dad has put me through. My parents started their divorce in November of 2019 and it was finalized on July of 2020. They would’ve been married for 14 years but he let us go. He didn’t even put up a fight to keep our family together. He just let us go. And I never realized I had a true relationship with him. TW: assault and mentions of injury and bruising He assaulted my mom in March of 2020 and luckily, I wasn’t there, I was at my grandparents house (which was about an hour away). Man, I remember my grandma getting that phone call and she immediately changed out of her pjs (it was around 9pm) and drove to my old house. I didn’t know what was going on, but from my grandparents’ expressions, I just knew. My mom came home covered in bruises. I cried so hard. She had bruises all over her body. Her knees, elbows, ribs, chest, head. Everywhere. When she would lay on the couch for weeks after, I couldn’t even hug her because it would hurt her. And that was the last thing I wanted to do to her. I wanted to be able to comfort my mom through her pain but I couldn’t do anything. That was the most pain I’ve ever felt in my life. And I still cry about it to this day because this piece of the past will never truly heal. A restraining order was placed and it lasted for a few months for the both of us. I will never look at that man the same. He’s an alcoholic and a liar. He says he’s sorry but I don’t believe him. Because if he truly was, he would act completely different. But, my life is better than it was before. I’m learning how to deal with him and protect myself. It’s taking a while, yet I know I’ll be fine in the end. I never thought I would say that.

[@kimhuyen8480]

We are the same😭 After a few times my father beat my mother, they divorced, my father's relatives thought badly of my mother but it was my father who was wrong. It was my father who broke my heart and made me trust no one. I hate all my relatives, they even say sarcastically, I'm so tired

[@presleyk_]

@@kimhuyen8480 I’m so sorry that happened. My dad’s side of the family has done the same, talking bad about my mom and I have to go along with it, even though it makes me so angry that they don’t know the truth. They only know the information my dad had told them, which are lies.

[@kimhuyen8480]

@@presleyk_ I'm sorry, that's pretty sad. I understand your pain, everyone is terrible 😭😭

[@presleyk_]

@@kimhuyen8480 yes people can be quite terrible and stubborn.

[@kaylastreet9838]

bro I just realized how much this song relates to my friend and me, I now know why I always loved this song.

[@Bowl427]

This is so good 😩

[@crybaby2070]

This hits hard when you can relate to every word

[@roddy895]

Billie: LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Me in the car: YEAHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! YESSS sirrrrr!!!!!!!! Yesssssss

[@bho.boh3596]

THIS IS SO GOOD

[@marylovesusm]

this is a masterpiece.

[@yuqi5819]

hello im ur number 1 fan

[@ilovesooshee]

thank you

[@kkwoii6722]

this song at full volume with headphones in>>>>🤗😵‍💫

[@cheyennecanoe3616]

this is exactly what i need right now.

[@ninaad765]

Chills, with the volume high.

[@ghoulsimms3410]

When you go through a really conflicting and messy breakup and finally understand this song fully 🏃‍♂️

[@vanphuong9582]

My mother left us to marry someone new. And every time I listen to this song, I think of all the good memories of our family, when my dad was still alive... Sorry my English is not good.

[@kimhuyen8480]

B và t giống nhau Nhưng tôi là bố , ông ta quá tồi

[@yoooo275]

this is great

[@aynikeen_]

Thank you author for such wonderful selections

[@saryasx6748]

Everyone thinks of a relationship while I think of my friends