'Why ..why didnt you try..have you..'...'it happened post traumatic reaction..amnesia..I saw her in my mind always on another way..plain hair ..wavy..on the street..on the beauc in the nightclub..airport..train station.. bus station.. everywhere..and then once I said wrong name..instead Lily..for example I said Caroline..Brigitte.. I didnt know what was real and who was she where ..it happened..Several years or 1 decade..I thought we were together..but..the visions were not true..and I couldnt say..which one ..I kissed such ..passionate..like never by far...Finaly they 'all' left me..'