Therapist is Breaking the Habit by Linkin Park

[@Willdreynolds870621]

RIP Chester. Thank you for carrying me through so many years. I miss you and your music so much. Legend

[@HumanOverPopulation-bl5oj]

Since she showed her dog, Chester supports Animal Rights and did a Anti Fur Trim and peta2 video

[@HumanOverPopulation-bl5oj]

Since she has a animal, chester supported animal rights, even did a anti fur and peta2 ad

[@Kyle-nl3jq]

She just explained pretty much perfectly how a flashback feels with PTSD. I deal with it daily. I’m so consumed with the past. I can’t see my future and it’s holding me back. It’s a tough battle that never feels like it will end but nothing is impossible

[@lineerlayargith7402]

Yep that went through my mind as well. I seem to be out of it for a little while, but I was having these on almost daily basis as well after some life shit. Felt like brain just decided to take all power from my hands and playing "videos" from exact moments that ruined me and despite all hills I could have mentally climbed in a sake of not being depressed, it threw me down the dip again and again and again... and everytime I saw "the movies from brain" like it was the reality right now, and everytime felt the same. I am so glad it is talked about and there are songs about this... I know that I could bring myself to that stage again, working my way towards it won't happen again, somehow by a miracle it works so far. Having few calm months. Heads up to you - keep fighting. It is possible. With help. Sending love to you ❤ You are not alone.

[@Kyle-nl3jq]

@ thank you and stay strong ❤️

[@phildigiovanni9687]

Now, never exist, but yet that's all there is. Stay with the now. 😢❤

[@lineerlayargith7402]

@@Kyle-nl3jq you too❤

[@catherineoliver9983]

Stay strong! It may feel like you can't win but you can. One day who knows maybe something will click in the right direction to help you face forward instead of always looking back. You got this!

[@manuelschillaci8093]

This song needs a live version to understand how important it was for Chester 💔

[@Stable_parsec877]

And noted on how his replacement doesn’t believe in the mental illness that he was dealing with

[@Rope_Adope]

Doesn’t believe?! What does that even mean? How can anyone possibly not “believe” what someone is “experiencing”? Especially if they’ve never experienced it for themselves. Now THAT could make you a believer in…well…almost anything; real or imagined 🤬 Truth matters. And bad habits can be broken. ❤

[@Rope_Adope]

On the plus side, the benefit of the doubt is never a bad choice the first time, kwim? Forgive ≠ Forget …

[@sweetvampy5303]

i agree she actually needs to listen to a concert of linkin park it will change her life

[@itsasquid]

@@Stable_parsec877 We literally don't know that for sure and if anything, based on interviews and her other songs from Dead Sara, it can point to the opposite.

[@Vaygon]

Another giant hit from LP and Chester... man... Chester probably didnt know but he healed so many broken hearts and spirits... i started listening to LP when i was 11 , now im 33... till this day, LP is still my favorite band of all time

[@duncansalyer2999]

The change from “I know it’s not alright” to “I’ll never be alright”

[@dcohen1359]

This album came out when I was in middle school and was right when I started to hit the "teen angst" phase. I connected so deeply with the music from that perspective, and it's only with the benefit of hindsight that I understand the pain behind Chester's lyrics. RIP Chester. 🫗

[@benningbradley5323]

Chester's vocals and lyrics helped me through so much. I lost apart of me when he took his life. I wish he knew how much he ment to people he never knew.

[@Emilie-one]

Ahhh Mosh is precious ❤❤❤❤I love Chester linkin park so much… ❤

[@Rope_Adope]

I was friends with a gorgeous but utterly baffling woman once. (She was orange and used way too much self-tanner to cover the stretch marks from pregnancy…I know, I don’t get it either but…) Anywho, she always asked if I wanted Starbucks when she was coming in to work. (One of the benefits of having an office job is normal hours lol sorry I get lost in memories sometimes but I beg your indulgence for a second please) She had been through a TON of terrible times but she was doing everything possible to walk that tight-rope (NO I will not air her dirty laundry) and she always kept a photo of Chester on her at all times of them kissing. Not like that lol. Not everyone “cuts” themselves to feel. Oh! That reminds me of my original point…Mr. Clean Magic Eraser. I dunno what they do to those things but I am officially impressed.

[@itsasquid]

No joke, this and "Somewhere I Belong" were both in my playlist last year went I went back to therapy. A lot of songs from both Hybrid Theory, Meteora, and A Thousand Suns were like an extra push for me to get help. Also, Mosh is precious!

[@joaobeardman]

In the vastness of space and the immensity of time, it was my joy to share a planet and an epoch with Chester Bennington.

[@wolvish6]

Their music. Their videos. Linkin park was just so... EVERYTHING to a generation.

[@Caleb-s2g]

I can’t believe this just dropped today, I just got news this morning that really messed me up and one particular clip in that video is so relatable to what I’m going through. Any other time that wouldn’t have phased me, but man that just cut deep. I needed this today, thank you.

[@KennethBenson-hx3ek]

I was in my early 20’s when this song came out. It was 2 o’clock in the morning, I was in my car, deciding how I wanted to give up. I had chosen, just didn’t know how to do it. As I sat deciding on the how, this song came on, and the loneliness and emptiness I felt washed away in Chester singing all the pain and anguish I felt inside. He, quite literally, saved my life that night. It broke me a lot when he gave up. Here, the person who gave me hope again had lost it, what hope did I have. It took a long time to get over that. I saw them live once in 2012ish, and was the most emotional, beautiful concert I’ve ever been to. Thank you LP

[@DaveMartin-h5o]

Gotta say that I love, love, love your channel You try to help make sense of our struggles in and with life whilst conducting yourself as just one of us You never pretend to know everything and you are always humble enough to learn something with us all too Hats off to you beautiful lady 💯♥️🇦🇺

[@cheetos1231000]

I knew I recognized the animation style. It's the same style as Oren Ishii's flashback in Kill Bill.

[@Thunder93ita]

This is my all time favourite song, it was also Chester's favourite song, and the ony one in the album that doesn't have a heavy guitar in it so it stands out. What you said about memories triggering and blocking your brain i felt it. I never considered the first line of the song that way. I recently broke up with my girlfriend. When i'm not thinking about it it feels fine, but when you think about a single moment, for just a second, it's like a slippery slide, you get sucked into a downward spiral of memories that make it worse and you can't stop. It's actually terrifying.

[@AJHProductions]

I come for Linkin Park and get much needed serotonin from precious puppy. Need more NF reactions!

[@rocinante6530]

Such a powerful song.

[@blackmesacake5361]

Im happy to say while im still a huge LP fan, ive moved beyond my need for this song and it doesnt do anything for me anymore. Believe me though, as someone who needed this song back in the day, there is someone behind every closed door who doesnt know you need help, theyll listen if you find them.

[@kennethalvarez3485]

@HeartSupport External events can, and do create and/or add to the feelings of doom and despair. Breaking the habit is hard, trust me, I know. I haven't intentionally cut myself since 1997, but there are times when things get overwhelming and I have to fight the urge to "create" more scars than I currently have. For anyone struggling to break their habits, NEVER GIVE UP! It's going to be hard, it's going to hurt, but you can do it.

[@Micro-Heartsupport]

100% -- Also, so very proud of you, friend. These are huge milestones and such a deep level of self-awareness. I hope you take time to feel that growth and resilience within as often as needed. You've overcome so much. You too, got this. Hold Fast. - Marie-Anne, Heartsupport Staff

[@kennethalvarez3485]

@@Micro-Heartsupport Thank you. I do try to use what I have been through to help friends, it seems to be working.

[@mjkcomposer]

Damn, your explanation of how memory effects you, physically, is spot on. I'm a serial ruminator.

[@MrLinkinJason]

"I dont know what's worth tight for, or why i have to scream I dont know why i instogate, and say what i dint mean I don't how i got this way, I'll never be alright So I'm breaking the habit I'm breaking the habit I'm breaking the HAAAAAABBBIIIIIIIIITT" ... 𝐓𝐨𝐧𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭

[@ahy21bam]

thank you chester and linkin park my child hood days is awesome because of you guys.....

[@chaylee3632]

This song will always be important to me. I remember listening to it while self-harming as a teenager. Self harm was an addiction for me. Linkin Park is one of the bands that kept me alive. It was an extremely dark time. I now understand that I'm mentally ill and have C-PTSD. (And I'm in a much better place today.)

[@corykeibler4657]

Two suggestions: "Hate Me" Blue October "Bother" Stone Sour (Corey Taylor's other band before Slipknot)

[@Loozinitizoffhismedz]

stone sour was not before, it's just another way for Corey to express himself, along with his solo stuff.

[@Hax0rZ1]

@@Loozinitizoffhismedz actually Slipknot was first started 1995, Stone Sour in 1992 performed live but didnt produce an album until 2002 because they disbanded in 1997 and later created albums and performed but he is technially accurate. Stone Sour was created before Slipknot existed as a band. A lot of people get confused because they disbanded and came back together in 2002 to perform and create new albums.

[@sammitchell3657]

Yep. Blue October "Hate me" is great. Very sad too.

[@bendsouza7455]

2:39 I honestly just wanted to give her a hug and console her 🥺😥 And long live the legend, Chester ✊

[@kevinmackenzie998]

Hi Taylor. I love your content and your analysis on music I grew up with. I'm somebody who has dealt with anxiety, depression, low self-esteem, and PTSD for a majority of my life and hearing you break down lyrics that have meant so much to me really helps. Lately my anxiety has gotten so bad that I've been having panic attacks on a nearly daily basis and your talking of rumination really hit a nerve. An album that you should check out is Artwork by The Used. When I got divorced that album spoke to me so much about how much I messed my marriage up.

[@lunchbox138four]

You okay mate?

[@HeartSupport]

From runner12: @kevinmackenzie998 Having daily anxiety attacks is exhausting and can be very scary. The swirling thoughts that overtake your mind and the sensation of not being able to breathe is something I can relate to. You wonder when it’s going to strike again which triggers a sense of fear that only makes things worse. Often wake up feeling like this and I have to force myself to take deep breaths and focus my thoughts on something that calms my mind. Knowing there are others out there who can relate is comforting and I’m glad you find that through music. Hearing our fears and feelings expressed so beautifully through a song and hearing someone’s voice scream or sing the emotions we want to express is validating. It gives us permission to feel, express and let go. I’m sorry you’ve struggled so much. I appreciate you sharing your story and reaching out. Your words and honesty is encouraging. Hold onto the hope you find as you discover that you are not alone and we are in this together. You are obviously strong, insightful and resilient. We are here for you and are rooting for you! * Sent with care from HeartSupport community and @seraphsecure *

[@HeartSupport]

From AprilleShellie: @kevinmackenzie998 I am so sorry that you have struggled with all of that for most of your life. Just having to deal with one of those things can be utterly exhausting, so I can only imagine how you are able to manage all of them, all of the time. I am sure at times it must seem like they all start to team up against you. I also struggle with low self-esteem and depression and when those two decide to join forces I know that I am in for a rough spiral. The depression starts to exploit the low self-esteem and the self-esteem feeds the depression. They turn my head into such a vicious, toxic cycle that is so difficult to get out of. It becomes hard to fight against it because you can't seem to find a way to prove either of them wrong. I may not have the answers to leveling up self-esteem because I am still looking for them myself, but I do have people that I can turn to who see something different in me than I do. They see me in a different light then I see myself. I may not be able to provide the proof to prove my self-esteem wrong, but they can. It can still be difficult to believe them, but I also have to remind myself that they wouldn't lie to me. That I don't have people in my life that would lie to me, it isn't the type of company that I keep. I am so glad that you were able to find music that spoke to you and that Taylor's explanation of the song also helped you. Linkin Park and Chester Bennington have such a beautiful way of expressing their pain so not only we can all feel it, but by also letting us know that they are struggling right along with us. They have provided us an outlet to feel, to rage, to scream, to cry and to just exist. Sometimes I find that music can have a grounding element to it. I can find my own center through music and it sounds like you have been able to do that as well with both Linkin Park and The Used (also a great band). I hate that you have been having to battle your panic attacks as often as you do, but I hope that you are able to find more things to help you stay grounded so those spiraling thoughts don't overtake you so much. Thank you for having the strength and courage to share your story with us. You have found a community that will always be here to listen to you whenever you need us. You got this! * Sent with care from HeartSupport community and @seraphsecure *

[@HeartSupport]

From AprilleShellie: @kevinmackenzie998 I am so sorry that you have struggled with all of that for most of your life. Just having to deal with one of those things can be utterly exhausting, so I can only imagine how you are able to manage all of them, all of the time. I am sure at times it must seem like they all start to team up against you. I also struggle with low self-esteem and depression and when those two decide to join forces I know that I am in for a rough spiral. The depression starts to exploit the low self-esteem and the self-esteem feeds the depression. They turn my head into such a vicious, toxic cycle that is so difficult to get out of. It becomes hard to fight against it because you can't seem to find a way to prove either of them wrong. I may not have the answers to leveling up self-esteem because I am still looking for them myself, but I do have people that I can turn to who see something different in me than I do. They see me in a different light then I see myself. I may not be able to provide the proof to prove my self-esteem wrong, but they can. It can still be difficult to believe them, but I also have to remind myself that they wouldn't lie to me. That I don't have people in my life that would lie to me, it isn't the type of company that I keep. I am so glad that you were able to find music that spoke to you and that Taylor's explanation of the song also helped you. Linkin Park and Chester Bennington have such a beautiful way of expressing their pain so not only we can all feel it, but by also letting us know that they are struggling right along with us. They have provided us an outlet to feel, to rage, to scream, to cry and to just exist. Sometimes I find that music can have a grounding element to it. I can find my own center through music and it sounds like you have been able to do that as well with both Linkin Park and The Used (also a great band). I hate that you have been having to battle your panic attacks as often as you do, but I hope that you are able to find more things to help you stay grounded so those spiraling thoughts don't overtake you so much. Thank you for having the strength and courage to share your story with us. You have found a community that will always be here to listen to you whenever you need us. You got this! * Sent with care from HeartSupport community and @seraphsecure *

[@JacobG093]

Definitely one of my favorite LP songs. You can feel the emotion from the first second

[@charlienelson8742]

Ill love to see your prospective on linkin park easier to run

[@hulkslayer626]

It is just so mindblowing how someone was able to help sooooo many people... but not himself. The loss of Chester and Robin Williams was just heartbreakingly tragic. As an atheist, they're the closest things to Angels I can think of...

[@PatBlackwell-z3i]

The Package and The noose from Perfect Circle are must songs to react to for you and your fans. THANK YOU, THANK YOU TAYLOR FOR YOUR TIME AND KIND WORDS FOR ALL OF YOUR FRIENDS AND FOLLOWERS ❤❤❤❤❤

[@bstocker123]

The whole album, the 13th step, deserves a reaction.

[@PatBlackwell-z3i]

@bstocker123 That's so true.

[@seaenh]

Need a like times 9000 button for this one. How does one communicate how perfectly accurate this is with just one.

[@joshhermsen5336]

As a combat veteran i battled with a lot of ptsd when i came home in 08 and listened to a lot of Linkin Park. Chester has always been one of my favorite vocalist there is because he can do it all. You should really check out this raw version of Crawling he did with no band. Just put Crawling [Official One More Light Live] - Linkin Parkin in the youtube search. His voice is just so good

[@kiddcasty9299]

I never clicked on a reaction so fast 😂 Also, not to be dramatic. But I would absolutely die for Mosh! 😭

[@michaelzainey5781]

More Linkin Park please. Their and NF’s music are a therapist’s dream.

[@lafenatu]

NF’s music is insanely helpful. The guy speaks for so many people who are afraid to.

[@michaelzainey5781]

@ absolute facts. I look forward to what the next album will be. I’m praying for the title to be named “Freedom”. It sounds appropriate considering the overall theme of Hope.

[@Keyc94]

If one song is Chesters song then it is this. It was one of his fav. People think the song is about drugs etc. But Mike wrote it for a friend who stop talk to him and he didn't know why and it hurt Mike a lot

[@bigpapi8558]

Taylor you explained these songs so well. You are helping so many people thank you!!!

[@Haysere]

I think you’ll appreciate this. The song has a constant riff throughout. Suggesting the whole no matter what you do you can’t escape that thought. The fact that the riff speeds up adds this horrific intensity to the song. It’s such a double meaning in a perfect way to display mental struggles through music. I feel like the end is the final break when the riff ends…

[@MikegVisuals]

This song paved the way for my childhood and music taste growing up. You should check out his performance of "Given Up" Live In Clarkston. SOO emotional and truly shows how special chester was to vocalist and song writers around the world.

[@MarxSilva]

Um clássico pra ouvir a vida inteira! ❤️

[@flesruoYkcuFoGuoY]

When I was a kid this song came out and I just thought it was a cool song. As an adult that hasn't listened to LP in a long time and knowing Chester took his life... This song was ahead of it's time then, and eerily, also unfortunately, a sign of things to come. RIP Chester. I wish you were still here.

[@jamessowder193]

R.I.P. Chester Bennington! Top three definitely! Check out Mark Morton - Cross Off! Lamb of God did a song with Chester on vocals right before he passed. It's actually the last song he recorded. The lyrics are amazing! You can hear the pain in his voice!

[@invisiblechicken]

I don’t know how people can give up their dogs. I am glad Mosh found a forever home with you. Mosh is beautiful. I have two dogs and we love them SO much.

[@Art-By-Aly]

Omg honey ❤ I am so sorry you’re going through this . But you can overcome this . Realization is the first step to healing . ❤️‍🩹

[@johnwesch5926]

Live version please. I'll be back then. Love ya. Chester had the dirt. Now hes in the dirt.🙏

[@BlindGuyFitness]

@HeartSupport the remembering of a memory is defiantly a crazy thing i used to be a mechanic and grew up racing cars dirt bikes boats building race cars and was very good at it all and then in my early twenties i lost most of my vision due to a genetic issue called Stargardts. ive now been on disability for 13 years. And it caused many issues going from 130k year a job and freedom to do whatever when ever to being able to do nothing i really enjoy. so i dwell on the feelings those memories give me. iv accepted what it is and have found fitness as a release for the depression and a new hobby i enjoy. but nothing matches what i used to do. and the feeling of losing so much i worked for and not being able to get back to that point is a struggle. but this album was a banger back in the early 2000s in high school i remember driving around at night through the mountains in socal with it blasting while ripping the back roads

[@HeartSupport]

From Shan: @BlindGuyFitness Hi Friend, Thank you for sharing your story with us. I am sorry for what you have gone through and for the drastic ways it has impacted your life. Medical diagnoses are such a blind side to our lives and can really throw a wrench in what we are used to and how we subjectively feel about our standard of living. It is so hard to have to let go of what you once had and enjoyed and to adjust to a new reality that is so different from what your heart has gotten used to and still so strongly desires. I can imagine how much you must miss the things you used to be able to do and how even after the time that has passed how it can still feel as though you aren't fully adjusted to the changes that came with your diagnosis - the thoughts of wishing you could just do those things just one more time, to have those experiences, to feel the joy they brought you. You lost something that meant a lot to you and though you are finding ways to cope and manage, the pain and feelings that you have from that loss is still there and it is still real. The sadness that comes after a memory of those races, the anger or disappointment that comes after a memory of a car that you built, and how things must have felt so unfair that this all was happening to you. To come to grips with feeling like you can never really fully regain all the things that you lost. Acceptance is a big step and I am glad that you were able to achieve it. That you are able to find ways of release like engaging in fitness, that has actually become a hobby that you enjoy. That you can think about those memories and feel those feelings you once had - how vivid they can be, how they can transport you back and allow you to relive some of those special moments that you hold dear. Though it might feel as though things don't feel the same as they did before, you are still trying to find ways that fill that gap and to continue living life. That is brave and I commend you. I encourage you to keep trying, to keep engaging with the things you enjoy now and to even see if you can find more. That one day you'll find, despite what was lost, you found a way to persevere and regain the joy you once had in your current circumstance. :white_heart: * Sent with care from HeartSupport community and @seraphsecure *

[@HeartSupport]

From Shan: @BlindGuyFitness Hi Friend, Thank you for sharing your story with us. I am sorry for what you have gone through and for the drastic ways it has impacted your life. Medical diagnoses are such a blind side to our lives and can really throw a wrench in what we are used to and how we subjectively feel about our standard of living. It is so hard to have to let go of what you once had and enjoyed and to adjust to a new reality that is so different from what your heart has gotten used to and still so strongly desires. I can imagine how much you must miss the things you used to be able to do and how even after the time that has passed how it can still feel as though you aren't fully adjusted to the changes that came with your diagnosis - the thoughts of wishing you could just do those things just one more time, to have those experiences, to feel the joy they brought you. You lost something that meant a lot to you and though you are finding ways to cope and manage, the pain and feelings that you have from that loss is still there and it is still real. The sadness that comes after a memory of those races, the anger or disappointment that comes after a memory of a car that you built, and how things must have felt so unfair that this all was happening to you. To come to grips with feeling like you can never really fully regain all the things that you lost. Acceptance is a big step and I am glad that you were able to achieve it. That you are able to find ways of release like engaging in fitness, that has actually become a hobby that you enjoy. That you can think about those memories and feel those feelings you once had - how vivid they can be, how they can transport you back and allow you to relive some of those special moments that you hold dear. Though it might feel as though things don't feel the same as they did before, you are still trying to find ways that fill that gap and to continue living life. That is brave and I commend you. I encourage you to keep trying, to keep engaging with the things you enjoy now and to even see if you can find more. That one day you'll find, despite what was lost, you found a way to persevere and regain the joy you once had in your current circumstance. :white_heart: * Sent with care from HeartSupport community and @seraphsecure *

[@FedorMachida]

This is a powerful song. Really hits hard, imo.

[@-Knife-]

I would die for Mosh. He is so squishy!

[@loul1822]

Ffs I miss u Chester …

[@mateuszdrabik8400]

Youre not the only one 😢

[@Matjo7588dk]

For me the LP song with most meaning is "This is my december" The lyrics is just meaningful. However the song goes under the rader, and most don't even know about it. But to speak to its emotional impact, how well written the lyrics are. Josh Groban took this song to him, and performed it live at different concerts. He connects with it.

[@robzo87]

This song will forever resonate with me. I have a terrible tendency of letting my mind lock in on previous experiences that completely drown out everything that is needed for focusing due to those trauma’s. Thinking back even more on Linkin Park with the album: Hybrid Theory, there is a song called Papercut that really digs a little bit deeper into what’s happening underneath this skin of mine. Every day here lately my battles have really been getting hooked by negative past experiences that really put a deep cut in me, and I just want this mess to go away so I can get back on track with making life better for myself. I’m tired of struggling.

[@HeartSupport]

From d07232017: @robzo87 Our past traumas and pain can certainly stick around longer than we'd like. I understand that deeply. Have you considered looking at it from a different perspective? Just think! You're still here! You made it through those painful moments and came out the other side. Our past will always be part of us, but framing it as part of what made you stronger is not only a different perspective, it's the absolute truth! You're here, and that is a testament to your strength and resilience. * Sent with care from HeartSupport community and @seraphsecure *

[@HeartSupport]

From Carmony2: @robzo87 Breaking the Habit is one of my favorite go-to songs when I am feeling strong and I'm ready to burst out of myself. The fact that you were listening to that song speaks volumes to me and tells me you WANT to feel better, but you may feel stuck inside your head with those overwhelming thoughts that keep reminding you of those traumas that caused the scars to begin with. It's hard to not focus on those thoughts. I don't know what's worth fighting for or why I have to scream I don't know why I instigate and say what I don't mean I don't know how I got this way, I'll never be alright So I'm breaking the habit tonight Keep this in mind: Thoughts are not things. And our brains are liars. The pain is absolutely for real, but the thoughts are not. This is your fight song. You are worth fighting for. * Sent with care from HeartSupport community and @seraphsecure *

[@HeartSupport]

From Carmony2: @robzo87 Breaking the Habit is one of my favorite go-to songs when I am feeling strong and I'm ready to burst out of myself. The fact that you were listening to that song speaks volumes to me and tells me you WANT to feel better, but you may feel stuck inside your head with those overwhelming thoughts that keep reminding you of those traumas that caused the scars to begin with. It's hard to not focus on those thoughts. I don't know what's worth fighting for or why I have to scream I don't know why I instigate and say what I don't mean I don't know how I got this way, I'll never be alright So I'm breaking the habit tonight Keep this in mind: Thoughts are not things. And our brains are liars. The pain is absolutely for real, but the thoughts are not. This is your fight song. You are worth fighting for. * Sent with care from HeartSupport community and @seraphsecure *

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From bmao: @robzo87 Hey, I just want to say that I feel you on this. Isn't it so crazy how our mind can just get thrown into the grasp of another thought so easily? We try so hard to focus, but seemingly no matter how hard we try to narrow that focus, if our mind decides to dig up one of those past traumas, our focus is shot. We try so hard to overcome the trauma and we think we've buried it for good, just to get locked in on it once again after we dig it out of its shallow grave. It can be so defeating to loop back on our past over and over, leaving us feeling like we're stuck in a spiral of memories we desperately want to escape. This is my spiral with a past relationship of mine. Most of the time I feel like I've grieved fully, but then randomly, my mind will dig up certain memories that I try so hard to forget and put them on replay. I feel your pain and I know how hard it is when our brain locks in on these moments. Papercut describes it perfectly- "it's like, I'm paranoid, lookin' over my back It's like a whirlwind inside of my head It's like, I can't stop what I'm hearing within" But I think it's summed up well in this line from the song- "The face inside is right beneath your skin" Even when it feels like we've lost all control and that we can't focus on anything we try, we know that this part of ourselves lies just beneath our skin. It is a faction of us, and it is not bigger than us. We are stronger, more powerful, and greater than that voice inside our head that tells us that our past traumas are more worthy of our time than our present joys. Our traumas cannot control us and they do not have the power to change us- they merely lie beneath our skin. I wholeheartedly believe that you were not put here on this earth just to struggle. I know that you are going to be able to move beyond these harsh past traumas to unveil the glorious life that is laid out before you. Sometimes the struggle is fierce and it takes a lot of trudging through the darkness until we find the light, but I know that the light is there, somewhere, on the path ahead of you, and I encourage you to keep on striding fiercely through the darkness on your way to the light. If you ever need anything else, we are here for you. Holdfast- we believe in you. * Sent with care from HeartSupport community and @seraphsecure *

[@ThatSunnyCute]

WHOOOO Yay you reacting to More Linkin park! Awww Cute Dogo! Edit: Have you done Castle of glass yet? I recommend Crawling, Castle of glass and waiting for the End.

[@SniperRedFox-vx6ex]

RIP Chester. I just discovered this channel, thank you providing this! I love TOOL and really appreciate your breakdowns and reactions. I love how you take the time to really listen to the lyrics of the song, and dive deeper into what the songs are actually about. I have a several recommendations that might be good to react to and analyze: "Under the Bridge" by Red Hot Chili Peppers. "Going Under" by Evanescence. "Everybody's Fool" by Evanescence. "In Another Time" by Disturbed. "Inside the Fire" by Disturbed. "Who Taught You How to Hate" by Disturbed. "Fell On Black Days" by Soundgarden. "Black Hole Sun" by Soundgarden. "How to Save a Life" by The Fray. "21 Guns" by Green Day. "I Am the Fire" by Halestorm. "I Miss the Misery" by Halestorm. "The Kids Aren't Alright" by The Offspring. "The Middle" by Jimmy Eat World. "Today" by The Smashing Pumpkins. Thank you so much, continue the great work!

[@victorvandenbrink6851]

Lately I feel like I am balancing on a a pole on the edge of an abyss. Last summer I went through a deep depression that nearly was the end of me. It takes so much every day just to try and keep my head up. And I constantly feel like any little bad thing could tip me over into the darkness. Its exhausting My lowest point was in August when I was shopping for a rope, and I was going to find a place to end my life. My girlfriend, bless her soul, managed to intervene at the last moment. Sometimes I wonder why she's still in my life. I put her through so much pain. I've always really related to this song a lot. Linkin Park are my favorite group, they have always been there for me even when I had nothing. I hope that I can break my habit somedday. This neverending spiral of shame and self loathing that seems to run my life lately, is not what I want for the future. I am going to therapy, but truth be told, I am finding it hard to really open up there. Right now I'm trying group therapy. And I find myself frustrated at the idea of doing the same excercises over and over, and having to hear other people's struggles and trying to relate to that. Might be a bit of an asshole for saying this, but I honestly can't be bothered. When getting up every morning is a struggle I can't really find the fucks to give about other people's problems. Thanks for the reaction. And for caring.

[@HeartSupport]

From DyllonKG: @victorvandenbrink6851 Hey my friend. Thank you so much for taking the time to give so much of yourself in the comments here. I have a rather long-winded response, but so much of what you said resonates with me. www.loom.com/share/7f25d90eadde4c258185813fc46a969a * Sent with care from HeartSupport community and @seraphsecure *

[@Art-By-Aly]

I love him !! Dogs will always have a special place in my heart. 🫶🏻

[@danielspader4272]

I'm surprised there's not more Linkin Park on your channel. I suggest Papercut and Given Up. Two of my favorite LP songs. I 1000% support what you are doing on this channel having suffered from my own demons.

[@corsavic1]

I love this, Chester's songs really related to some of my bad days

[@Palefox27]

I miss Chester's voice so much.

[@prestonboswell1999]

Yes definatly agree live version definatly put this song in better perspective

[@matheusungaretti6792]

One of my favourite songs from Linkin Park!

[@LostHate]

Have definitely had issues with reliving bad situations and memory's in my head. To the point of consuming and controlling my life. Much better now that I recognize the triggers that lead my mind in that negative direction.

[@CheatingZubat]

This song is legendary.

[@collinsmith7435]

I know you mostly do rock music, but I would absolutely love to see you branch out to some country. It’s another genre that has sooooo much sadness and depression and raw emotion in its dna. Artists like Hank Williams, Waylon Jennings, Tyler Childers, and so so so many more have countless songs about hardships that everyone can relate to. Tyler Childers’ discography (especially the bottles and bibles album) has so many examples of that classic hurt and pain but in more recent years and I’d love to see you go through some of them.

[@cancoesdocaos]

This song meant so much to me, mostly in my teenage years... I'm waiting for this analyses

[@cat4911]

I recommend Citizen Soldier - "This Is Your Sign" and "Burden"

[@zalananevem]

linkin park has been one of, if not my favourite artists' as a whole since i practically had braincells, so these reactions mean so much to me as a fan of not just chester himself; but the art and legacy of that incredible band as a whole. i'd recommend you to react to phoebe bridgers' song "motion sickness" too. when you talked about how to actually 'break the habit', and said you have to kinda surrender yourself to that pain: i couldn't help but think of a lyric from the outro of that song of hers: "i wanna know what would happen, if i surrender to the sound" AND P.S: this channel is amazing too!! i love your content with my whole heart. i could say... my heart supports it - pun (of course) intended. your empathetic and sensitive reactions bring a light into my grey everydays, taylor! i support the heart, i support your heart. channels like yours are such in need of, in dark times like these. you really are a beacon of light for highlighting the importance of music that advocates for feeling the pain and persevering in spite that, through catharsis. it's not easy, but also... it shouldn't be, and we can find light in that struggle. your work is major in the help of that.💖

[@NathanExplosion1989]

The saddest part of this song is how low it is on the list of powerful songs that chester sang that were a sign of things to come.

[@Schumacher190]

Thank you for sharing that about brain function. It explains a lot in my life... I was bullied vehemently when I was in elementary school. I have since forgiven, but I can't seem to "let it go," for lack of a better way to describe it. I often still feel like that heavily ridiculed, often beat down kid... and I'm not certain about specific things it has prevented in my life, but I can tell you that I've always lived without confidence in myself... perhaps that's it.

[@HeartSupport]

From KyleGouldOfficial: @Schumacher190 Hi Honestly opening up about what you been through is definitely important as well. Sometimes memories of past experiences are hard to get out of your head even though we forgive them doesn't mean we forget. Same with bullying we sometimes don't know the reason of the bully doing these things to us. We all are not certain for another person or things come knocking on our door. You're not alone in being bullied and we are always here for you. Continue to progress through this and be easy on yourself we don't all the time know these things and the other person who also bullied could be going through something as well. Forgiveness is also a great thing you mention just got to not put yourself down just gotta push through this past situation. Be easy on yourself and keep pulling through this you got this. * Sent with care from HeartSupport community and @seraphsecure *

[@HeartSupport]

From KyleGouldOfficial: @Schumacher190 Hi Honestly opening up about what you been through is definitely important as well. Sometimes memories of past experiences are hard to get out of your head even though we forgive them doesn't mean we forget. Same with bullying we sometimes don't know the reason of the bully doing these things to us. We all are not certain for another person or things come knocking on our door. You're not alone in being bullied and we are always here for you. Continue to progress through this and be easy on yourself we don't all the time know these things and the other person who also bullied could be going through something as well. Forgiveness is also a great thing you mention just got to not put yourself down just gotta push through this past situation. Be easy on yourself and keep pulling through this you got this. * Sent with care from HeartSupport community and @seraphsecure *

[@alpha_waves]

You need to react to a live version to fully understand and appreciate this song and Chester

[@phoenix0153]

The greatest of poetries are often written by those that hurt the most.

[@cherylmontgomery9753]

I love Mosh,sooooo cute! I'm very excited and happy you have a furbaby in your life. Dogs help with the pain of daily life seem not so bad. I enjoyed your response to this Linkin park song. I feel this song 🎵 is so real and strong.

[@kaceylinne344]

given up, in my remains, lies greed misery, i'll be gone, until it breaks, a light that never comes, guilty all the same, until it's gone, castle of glass, lost in the echo, bleed it out, faint, leave out all the rest, papercut, one step closer, points of authority, a place for my head, somewhere i belong, catalyst, crawling, no more sorrow, what i've done, numb, waiting for the end, shadow of the day, from the inside, lying from you, runaway, by myself

[@darciflowers659]

You absolutely need to listen/react to the song Given Up by Linkin Park. It's weird that his pain and passion saved me. 😢❤

[@desoIate]

This song is extremely sad.. it's basically describing the thoughts and emotions of someone who's about to commit suicide. "Breaking the habit" is going through with it, especially with lyrics like "I don't know how I got this way, I'll never be alright" or "I'll paint it on the walls, I'll never fight again, and this is how it ends.." clearly about someone who's stopped fighting to fix their problems and has given up

[@dutchessofmilpitas]

❤❤ your fur baby!! Thanks for adopting!

[@painesc1042]

LP Forever ! ❤‍🔥

[@xTOF_BE]

Hey @HeartSupport, have you had the chance to properly listen to Lost? I was so 'lost' hearing it the first time, I cried my eyes out because it felt so relateable too. What a rollercoaster that song was, and still is. I love the video's, keep them coming!! ❤‍🩹

[@robertpatrick5861]

My psychologist said.. i most likely already processed all my trauma... but because i had so many... and i gave them soo much space... i created a universe for it in my head. So the pain will only fade... if i stop thinking of them.. and make them fade... even as the circuits in my brain.

[@robertpatrick5861]

He told me that i have to be more gentle with myself... because if i can see feel and understand it all... and even when i fixed it all... it still hurt. He then told me my adhd isnt something i can beat with willpower or knowledge. I have to accept... and then be gentle to myself... as its not fair to expect of myself what is impossible. And this is even the case without all that happened to me.

[@thephantom487]

Love the pup and your reaction. Great stuff. Lol

[@jamesarthur347]

Cool reaction as usual, I have watched quite a few of your reactions. Cool to see people grow musically, and here true thoughts about the music. Still suggesting Motionless in White, Thoughts and Prayers! Be easy

[@Flatbeddriver]

Love the channel, love hearing you deep dive into a song’s meaning. Could you possibly do Three Days grace; Never Too Late.

[@caifanesdelaaalaz8529]

As a narcissist Survivor ruminating is one of the worst feelings. You can feel how your chest wants to explode from the inside. It is a horrible feeling. Recreating scenes from the past thinking in your favor hurts so much because you simply come to realise it is a a fantasy.

[@BlackMetalVayu]

In my case I just got to a point where I was angry at everything, easy to set off until I feel like I just burned out and I'm just tired, can't really feel much these days anymore.

[@BrendanHuaute]

Please please please do an analysis of "Heavy" by Linkin Park. One of Chester's best songs

[@q94washere43]

This whole album is.. there's no word to describe how awesome it was and still is. Lucky dog btw 😅

[@jeffreyblack6611]

Any plans to do any Queens of the Stone Age? Like Clockwork and In Times New Roman full of songs regarding mental health... "I Appear MIssing" a great place to start. Also, thanks for what you do. Love your vids

[@Pikawarps]

Omg that face xD i already love Mosh.

[@DavidKirsch11]

You rock Taylor. Touche Amore has some bangers that go super deep… would love to see you react to songs like “Harbor” or any songs from the album stage four (about his mom dying from cancer). Xo.

[@jenBuruato]

Such a sweet pup!!!!!

[@alexgsproductions]

Breaking the Habbit is Linkin Park's best song and it's not close. This song is DRIPPING with emotion and pain and heart and suffering. They didn't want you to mix messages. They force you to feel the song with them. RIP Chester.

[@kaynesheldon4905]

In pieces is a must from Linkin Park as well.

[@darrelmoore9835]

I feel that a lot about the memories. I have no motivation and can’t let the memories go. It sucks.

[@HeartSupport]

From DyllonKG: @darrelmoore9835 Good Morning dear friend. Thank you so much for commenting and lending your voice and being open. The memories part of this video really got me too. Feeling stuck in the past, thinking about the "I should've" or "what if" or just feeling the feelings all over again. I imagine that is absolutely immobilizing. Not to mention the pressure of being immobilized and watching the world pass you by. Struggling to get things done or take care of ourself. It's so so much weight. My heart absolutely goes out to you on this as it's been something I've struggled with for so so long. I was diagnosed with anxiety around 16 years old. I remember getting stuck on mistakes i've made or people i've hurt or old relationships. As i've become older and practiced a lot of techniques to cope with it, it's gotten slightly easier. I dont find that the mistakes i once made haunt me in quite the same ways and Im able to forgive myself. Though I still ruminate a bit on interactions with other people. "Did i say something weird" or things like that. But it's getting easier. And i hope you're able to find a light at the end of that tunnel soon. Because you deserve to be able to live and function and take care of yourself. You're worth it. You really are and I hope you know that. Take care of yourself friend and feel free to keep us updated. Hold fast. * Sent with care from HeartSupport community and @seraphsecure *

[@Loozinitizoffhismedz]

Thx for this channel, I've been trying to move forward. Plz more Linkin Park, i'm curious since the whole catalog is a pre-curser to what happened, along with losing Chris Cornell, who was like his big brother.

[@loganbrown6184]

Hey Taylor, Mosh, and @heartsupport just wanted to say I loved the video, such good points and perspectives to ponder on. I relate to this song on many levels, and you're right-it's not a single act. I've tried, and I just relapse over and over. I can honestly say it's been quite difficult. So many things trigger moments from my past in my everyday life. It doesn't matter if it's at work, at the grocery store, or out doing my own thing on a Friday night; it just feels like I can never escape it. Maybe it's the inner child in me pleading for me to address him but the thing is if I'm gonna hella honest..I'm scared, scared of what I'll find, what I'll remember. I already remember most of it, but not everything. God knows what my mind is suppressing at the moment. When I start to have nightmares and/or flashbacks in my sleep I wake myself up, and I try my best to stay awake. To say I have issues would be an understatement. Some days I hope for death, for my pain to end, but I can't pull myself to do it via my own hands cause I know it'll affect the people I love and care about more than it will me. Some days I'm on this emotional rollercoaster, many upon many ups and downs in a matter of hours from one another happy, sad, happy, pissed tf off, mellow, depressed, happy, etc. I have a hard time dealing with these sorts of things, when I go down that rabbit hole, it's a mf to drag me out. But anyways, good to see another video of yours Taylor, happy you got Mosh now, he's super adorbes, until next time - Logan

[@HeartSupport]

From gravitykills24: @loganbrown6184 Welcome to HeartSupport Logan - we are glad you found us and posted to the reaction video for the Linkin Park song (and I have to agree that the new dog Mosh is pretty cool - not the breed I'd go for, but still deserves some love!) So, to your post and your struggles - Yes, relapse is bound to happen - breaking the habit, whatever the habit - isn't a one and done, or a single act. It's a long string of two steps forward and one step back, until its 5 steps forward, and one back, and then 10 and 1, etc...It takes a long time to break a pattern, a habit, a ritual, or a train of thought. I am glad you are doing the work to try to face your past but that there are some things you just don't want to relive or remember. I wonder if you have tried talking with a therapist yet to have some support into diving into those memories? I know talk therapy for me was a real breakthrough in having a professional that I trusted (although that trust took some time to develop) be able to help me open up about what I was most afraid of, and what steps I could take to challenge my intrusive thoughts and fears. I do totally understand your comment about going down the rabbit hole, I know that I have been able to feel myself getting dragged into depression, like being sucked into a black hole...you can try to stay on the outer edges, but you know the trajectory is down and not good - and it takes a massive amount of time and effort to pull yourself out. It sounds like you enjoy the channel and Taylor's videos, and I am glad you reached out to get some encouragement and support moving forward. It sounds like you have some good coping skills since you are on an "emotional rollercoaster" like you said, but must have a decent support network or ways of coping to stay focused and moving forward. I am also glad to hear that although you have thoughts of suicide, you know you couldn't or wouldn't act on them. This is normal - I have been there myself. It seems like an escape from the pain and your own head, but it is an illusion. So, glad you are still with us today, and battling to regain being whole. Take care, reach out to us anytime, and peace be the journey. * Sent with care from HeartSupport community and @seraphsecure *

[@HeartSupport]

From kruorem: @loganbrown6184 Hey Logan, That sounds really rough-a lot to carry on your shoulders, and it’s clear how much it’s affecting your life. I can understand how tackling those emotions might feel overwhelming, even scary. It’s totally valid to feel that way, especially with all the unknowns that might come with uncovering those things. It sounds like deep down you know counseling or therapy might help, but worried about the pandoras box it might open? I don’t know all the specifics or what might be the best route for you to get that help, but I hope you can take that first small, manageable step toward getting that support. I know I’m just some random guy on the internet, but I’m rooting for you, whether you’re ready to take that step now, later, or whenever. There’s no rush. You’ve got this! * Sent with care from HeartSupport community and @seraphsecure *

[@HeartSupport]

From bombdiggity: @loganbrown6184 Hello Logan! I’m really glad you found the Heart Support KZbin channel w/ Taylor (& Mosh) reacting to this oldie (song) but (always) goodie. It takes a long time to break a habit. Although I may not know all of the details… What you said resonates a lot w/ me… Speaking w/ to someone outside of my everyday life & routines helped me tons. I just needed to talk it out w/ someone I had no connection w/… It helped me open up those cans of worms. & maybe at some point that was my inner child talking… Being scared of what you’ll find, what you’ll remember will be difficult - no doubt… At least for me it helped me find a path to begin to heal. You sound like such a good person! & more than likely are the center of many’s universe. I’m so glad you’re still w/ us. I’ll be cheering you on! Take care! & remember we’re always here to help. * Sent with care from HeartSupport community and @seraphsecure *

[@HeartSupport]

From bombdiggity: @loganbrown6184 Hello Logan! I’m really glad you found the Heart Support KZbin channel w/ Taylor (& Mosh) reacting to this oldie (song) but (always) goodie. It takes a long time to break a habit. Although I may not know all of the details… What you said resonates a lot w/ me… Speaking w/ to someone outside of my everyday life & routines helped me tons. I just needed to talk it out w/ someone I had no connection w/… It helped me open up those cans of worms. & maybe at some point that was my inner child talking… Being scared of what you’ll find, what you’ll remember will be difficult - no doubt… At least for me it helped me find a path to begin to heal. You sound like such a good person! & more than likely are the center of many’s universe. I’m so glad you’re still w/ us. I’ll be cheering you on! Take care! & remember we’re always here to help. * Sent with care from HeartSupport community and @seraphsecure *

[@accarguy9318]

You really need to do a reaction to Dax To be a man & the mega remix. Life changing for a lot of men, very sad in many ways, and exactly what a therapist would understand

[@Маруся-ы6й]

Как вы правы. Гораздо проще спросить: а почему я кричу, если все хорошо? Вот только все не хорошо. Вообще не хорошо. И Честер нашел голосом эту точку, которая говорит нам, что все не хорошо

[@AngB517]

Your new little guy is a cutie. Definitely, if you can, do live performances. You for sure need to watch the One More Light ( *Not the Memorial Concert* ) concert. Some of the songs that are really driving, like Crawling, are even more awesome.

[@hangman915]

being stuck in moments in time is very hard to chew through

[@Hellfire0220]

Listen to Linken Park - LOST, It was one of the songs cut from that same album, but Mike Shinoda released it recently.

[@victorvandenbrink6851]

Please react to Given Up by Linkin Park as well. I think it'll give you goosebumps!

[@toxictotodile]

i think you missed it, but in the first verse chester says this "You all assume I'm safe here in my room Unless I try to start again" and that kills me every time