her last words - courtney parker ( slowed )

i made this for myself ! :)
[ original : • Her Last Words - Court... ]
i hope anyone who sees this has a nice day🥰

[@wherehasbrodygone]

I remember as a kid I would cry to this song, now I just sit there relating to every word

[@melomaniac8469]

in fact, i'm the exact same way. i know exactly and relate to what you mean.

[@ferret8965]

I know exactly what you mean

[@uronlybitch8333]

Same

[@Captainsherlock]

I still cry and relate to these lyrics way too much. It aches my heart. Now for a vent which I know you probably get sick of reading, but yw, I'm weird like that. :) I don't know man . . . it's just . . . every. single. *fucking* . day. I feel worthless and stupid. Like at school, I see my classmates and my friends having such skillful abilities. Some of my classmates are so fucking good at math, and meanwhile I'm getting terrible marks and getting scolded by my family. While, some of my classmates are wonderful at art. Their hands are so artistic that I feel envious about. They could work on their art for five minutes and it would look like a masterpiece. Others, they are stunning at playing and creating music. Their hands seem to elegantly play smoothly with the beat and when they sing . . . it vibrates so beautifully in my ear. And my other classmates are athletic. I swear I have some sort of stomach problem. Every time I glance or think about food, I feel my stomach churning and feel myself gagging from the thought, like I want to vomit. Yet I don't. But my family thinks it's just me not being hydrated enough. I feel like I don't deserve to be alive. I have no worth. The only thing I'm good at is annoying people. It comforts me knowing that people feel the same way as me. I wish when my mother left me, my grandparents would also leave me. I don't want to be alive. It's tiring. And I know so many other people experience such emotions and suicidal thoughts too. Humans are disgusting creatures. Society is a pain. Life is a torture and grotesque. Think about it, the amount of people, messed up. Way too many. It's funny to me. When I was a little kid, I saw and heard so many teens hating themselves. And I promised myself that I would never, *ever* hate myself. Now look at myself. Hah. I hate myself lol. The only reason why I'm still alive is because when I go into adulthood, I want to see happiness in the kid's and teenager's eyes. I want to mend the children's and teenagers' sadness. I want to give them things that I couldn't receive. One last thing. Are you okay? You don't look okay. Stop lying. You aren't okay. It's okay to be not okay. Everywhere you look, at least one person hides their anger and sadness, and they might be hiding it. . . . Like you. Feel free to rant and vent to me anytime on email: [e-mail] Thank you for being here on earth. You're an angel. Please. I'm begging you, I'm crying for you right now, at this moment. I wish you could feel the desperate plea I'm feeling right now. through text. . . *Please* do one favor for me. Don't let go of yourself. Because I love you.

[@riaban_]

Hey i know it’s been like 3 months but i hope you’re ok too, i dont usually read/like/write comments but im glad i read your’s I know what it’s like to have famili problems and school problems Bruh i couldent even go to school for almost 2 whole years bc of family and class. I feel like people dont read long comments because they’re so long and it might not be good but you got me reading the whole thing Witch is surpriseing, im not much of a reader, you got some extream talent to be able to have ME read anything really( and writeing something in return) Thank you❤ Thank you for existing And i hope you’re ok right now❤❤❤

[@Captainsherlock]

@@riaban_ Aw, I hope that whatever negative rollarcoaster you are going through will get better

[@melomaniac8469]

you're an amazing person, with a beautiful mind. the way you express yourself is beautiful. it's admirable that you use the ability to show emotion, unlike how others think it's cool to bottle up and eventually explode. everyone has their own talent, things they're naturally good at. you have such a big heart, don't let it go to waste! keep pushing, try new things:) you'll find your click with something, i know you will. eat, please. you're wanted on this earth. stay strong❤

[@Captainsherlock]

@@melomaniac8469 Wow, those words are so powerful, I never thought such words could make me smile. I am the person who tends to let out my emotions a lot. Yes, I'm still trying to find mine and I'm not giving up until I do :) You're a generous, angelic being. You say stuff so sweetly and anyone could smile from your words. Your words are truly comforting. Thank you, I am discovering new hobbies to keep me company

[@TorT0r]

I relate to this song alot, Tw! Suicidal topics instead of doing self harm i thought of self harm alot, it started when i sacrificed what i loved most to my best friend.. And alot of problems at school im still not as happy , All i can do is cry but people call me emotional so i started to hide my unhappiness.

[@melomaniac8469]

baby you should never hide. you're worth so much and you don't even know it. you shouldn't have to worry about what some lil kid thinks at school, they always have something to say. whether it's your grades or you're being bullied. your mental health comes first. i wish the best for you and what you're going through. you're gonna make it.

[@TorT0r]

@@melomaniac8469 thank you alot :D i feel way better but still sometimes sad but i dont ever think of doing self harm anymore

[@theblockentity149]

Ahh, yes..

[@maryrobinson1284]

Why is this song the best👍💯👍💯

[@Iloveyou-nc4wl]

When your hearing this on your period btw I really love this 🥺

[@xeiizattractive]

When I was little, I used to just sit here and cry and stuff. But now, I relate to it sadly. I cut myself, I drink and have other bad habits, but I've never gotten a proper diagnosis since my parents wont take me. I dont know if anything is even wrong with me. Maybe Im just overreacting. I honestly wanna leave this world so bad. I'm so sick of dealing with everything.

[@torcherz9268]

*Crying Right Now, I want to tell people about my problems but I can’t it’ll make them “Worried.” And I don’t want them to feel that, Nobody Fucking cares I’m Made fun of because I’m Gay and People don’t laugh with me there laughing at me I’m that person Who’ll always Make people laugh but I’m having problems Myself, “Oh My god, Your such a funny person you must have an amazing Life!”* Pity.

[@melomaniac8469]

fuck them, do whatever you want. it's your life!

[@TorT0r]

Ignore them they’re just b!tches i dont care if your gay or lgbtq, your still a human and still deserves respect.

[@Simsimdumdum]

Just ignore those jerks people are judgemental but f those bishes First foremost love yourself that's very important for each and everybody ❤

[@littlecheese3798]

kinda funny how I relate to this song huh

[@TheBathypelagicZone]

Noice. 👌🏼

[@vivithedragoness]

I just wanna share this, cause I see a lot of people like me in the comments here. TW // Self Harm talk. If you are thinking of cutting, anywhere. Wrists, legs, arms, ankles, anywhere. I want you to just try something once. Back when I was about 15/16, I myself was on the verge of cutting. Life was terrible, I was miserable, I thought I wouldn't amount to anything, as that's what was drilled into my head for about 6 or 7 years. Someone in my friends group found out, and she had cut as well, she was about 5 years older than I was and had gotten past it and healed from it. She gave me a little tip of something to try. Take a marker, sharpie, something to draw with. Draw something you enjoy on areas you would cut. Wrists, arms, legs, where ever you feel like you'd want to cut. Animals, names of people you personally care about, be it real or fictional, just something that brings you joy and happiness. Draw that on those areas. Keep them visible when you are alone. It should help to make you not want to, as it'd be like hurting what you love. It worked wonders for me, but it may not work for everyone. If you can, give it a try. I wrote the names of my friends down the underside of my arm. Everyone who saved me that day, and everyone who cared about me, and I never have had thoughts of it again. I made it through it. There is a light at the end of the tunnel, I promise. You just have to get through it and be strong, and you can concur anything. Please take care of yourselves, much love from one broken human to another 💝

[@melomaniac8469]

i'm so so proud of you ml! you're very strong for making it through that, i look up to you. stay strong🌟❤️

[@haylehunt3333]

I listen to this song every night and cry myself to sleep

[@lucascastex3263]

Be strong bro. My law is "just survive 1 day.more" sorry for My Bad english

[@melomaniac8469]

I'm sorry, stay strong

[@haylehunt3333]

@@melomaniac8469 thx i needed to hear that its so hard to sleep at night I'm always tired

[@melomaniac8469]

@@haylehunt3333try fixing your sleep schedule and not going to bed too late!

[@VeryBrisky]

It stared back in middle school. A kid showed me this song, I related to it a lot, it kinda gave me the thought of killings myself. Never did though, no one leted me. 3 years passed and I met someone online. I love him very much. But then one night I let him vent to me. He wanted to kill himself, he said. He grabbed something sharp and started cutting, telling me how “they were right, it does feel good” he said he was “punishing himself” the last thing he messaged. I went into panic and denial. I started to sob and shake and I went into the bathroom to cry bc that’s where I mostly cry. I cried in the shower and tried cutting myself on my arms and legs with a stupid razor. It stings but it’s a relief ig, then I went into the kitchen and grabbed a knife, thinking it will hopefully make me bleed more. I’m tired of living though, I can’t bare this pain any longer. I’ve tried so hard to stay happy and for things to get better, but something bad always has to happen. I guess you can say I gave up. To the person reading this, you don’t know me, but keep fighting, you have so much to live for unlike me. I’m sorry everyone, but i can’t live like this any longer

[@melomaniac8469]

there's always things to look forward to, though. even if it's tiny. you should set goals for yourself to get better slowly, getting through the stuff you once couldn't handle. i'm sorry that happened to you, ❤️‍🩹.

[@theonlyhanshen]

Reminds me of my latest actions

[@melomaniac8469]

stay strong!.

[@cloud-hl1kt]

hey Jesus asks you to really let him help you ;), maybe there's a block in your heart that doesn't let that happen :).I came to remind you that you are special, enough and it was made with lots of love, Jesus loves you so and waits for your heart. he asks you to calm down :D.

[@mikewheeler8885]

hey you yeah you cring or realteing to this PLZ PLZ feel free to talk to me i am here to support u and i understand i relate to it but i wanna make other people happy bc i wish people would do this for me. comment and if u need to talk just let me know ily and beliven u!!

[@melomaniac8469]

:)

[@mikewheeler8885]

@@melomaniac8469 :)

[@cloud-hl1kt]

hey Jesus asks you to really let him help you ;), maybe there's a block in your heart that doesn't let that happen :).I came to remind you that you are special, enough and it was made with lots of love, Jesus loves you so and waits for your heart. he asks you to calm down :D.