Here we go again! Relapsing on alcohol & life update. ffs.

[@danielmabie1688]

I’m not religious but I decided to pray to not want alcohol anymore. It worked. I stopped enjoying it or wanting it. I even started to feel sympathy for people still drinking instead of being envious of them. It’s been over two years & I haven’t been tempted once since I started praying.

[@Pyxlmynd]

Fair plays Dan!! That's awesome! Since I've started doing my own version of praying. I've been asking the universe and being just grateful for everything it has handed me all the tools and friends and connections I've needed to make my, essentially, dreams a reality. So yeah of course that kinda thing would work. It's soo good that that's worked for you and sp happy andnproud that you've stuck at it and come off. A true inspiration it's been nearly a week again for me, I haven't updated anyone yet but I think today could be cause for a day to give people an update on that front. Thanks for your comment, it's truly lovely!! :) godbless, and take care! Catch you later 🫶🫶

[@judygoddard3869]

I hate alcohol, yet I keep drinking. I think it’s partly boredom, partly to help me sleep and blot out the night terrors. But now that I’m in my 40s it just does nothing for me. At least when I was a teenager I got a lovely buzz (at least off of the first pint). Now I don’t even seem able to get drunk. Then the next day I feel like utter shite. I had half a bottle of red wine last Saturday night and thought I was going to throw up all day Sunday. God, I wish there was a legal drug that gave you a lovely buzz, made you feel happy, helped you sleep, and didn’t leave you feeling rubbish the next day.

[@Pyxlmynd]

Ah crikey I vibe and feel you with this so hard. I've recently got to a point where alcohol actually makes me feel sick after the initial buzz and its just taught me to just pss it right off. I explain in some of my other videos that it needs to be replaced with something that gives you a similar dopamine hit but without the physical toxicity of alcohol, and the brain damaging effects. Luckily I found solace and comfort in making youtube videos and helping other people essentially (not that I knew that's what I was doing) but once I learnt this and let youtibe hold me accountable for my sobriety, it really helped. And I know youtube isn't for everyone but I'm still trying to always find how I can evolve to keep getting those dopamine hits without the drugs, and oh boy it was hard to find. But again as I always say in my youtube videos about how to 'be positive' and 'get out of bad habits' is to knacker yourself out ad much as you can in nature. It really helps reset you and makes you feel like you've done something good with your days, and once you've really exhausted your self you get a longer dopamine high and it's natural. So if you don't mind my suggest or advice rather. The best thing to replace it with is to be outside and replace your addiction for a healthier one such as walking for a couple hours a day. It's easy for me to say because I have loads of woodlands to walk about in or even use your story or struggle and share it with others which I've found has helped me. My night terrors or crazy scary nightmares and sleep paralysis and apnea got so much worse when I was drinking more than I ever have. So we need to trade one addiction for another and I'm sure knackering yourself out is the answer, it's kinda horrible while you're doing it but the 'high' you get afterwards, might even been like an hour after you do it is so much more longer last, I've found. I wish I could give you the best advice but I do feel you, it sucks so bad and I'm still trying to look for the right answers, it's my life long journey to be honest. I hope it gets easier for you. Please take care and listen to your body. Much love, Sam! 🫶🫶🫶

[@markpickett1]

It’s a low point in your life, but I can tell it’s not going to last. I’m in a similar situation to you, waking up is painful, but take it, tomorrow might be worse or it might be the best day of your life, if you give up you’ll miss it.

[@Pyxlmynd]

Wise words! Thank you my man! And yeah it's a bit sht but it'll inevitably get better for us. We got this dude! 🥰😊🫶 have a great night and even better week! 👊 🙏 and "never give up!" Is kinda my motto 😅 x

[@markpickett1]

@@Pyxlmynd my bro 👊🏻

[@UOFW25]

I just done a night in the nick...did not see my relapse coming.. luckily no charges brought and I'm lucky to not be out on the street.. it fucks your gut biome and this directly effects your mental health bryv.. love ya. keep at it but don't pressure yourself into a lapse .. a beer a day is perfek xx

[@Pyxlmynd]

Ah you silly Billy! I'm so thankful that there's no charges brought on you. We just gotta try our best to learn from these little or big mistakes that we do. Please be careful in future 😅 and you're absolutely right. My stomach was so upset all day today so I'm learning from my mistakes, albeit very slowly. Thank you bro! Much love to you from me! Bloody take care of yourself mush! Love ya bro! 👊🤜🤛🫶

[@derrydude5874]

Go easy on yourself dude for having 3 nice beers on a sunny Saturday evening. I lot of folk may need to taper off their crutch gradually, which can be the safer option too.

[@Pyxlmynd]

Yeah I think you're right. Maybe I'm too hard on myself lol cheers for this comment. 🥰🫶🫶🫶

[@sunshinyday]

Sam no pointing fingers with me just advice mate. Don't beat yourself up over it. Yes, volunteer at something. It'll keep your mind busy and make you happy to help others and give you a sense of worth. Keep at it on a job. You can't move forward with your plans without a job. There's no doubt you suffer from codependency from a messed up family life and I feel you do have ADHD and a mild autism. Nothing to be ashamed of and there's treatments for those. It's critical you get into therapy. It seems the UK is lacking when it comes to mental health as you said you're still waiting to get help. So sorry about that. That's awful, but as soon as you can get in it. You'll make it! Fresh air and meditation. Also try a Mediterranean diet. It will help you with balancing your body. Much love Sam! ❤️✌️🙏👍❤️

[@Pyxlmynd]

Thank you for the advices, and yeah waiting fir help with therapy. Literally takes such a long fuken time to get seen. Can't wait for the next 3 years when I have some credibility and experience so I can do something important with my life lol just so hard right now. But it is kind of fun in a weird way. The grind and trying and trying x cheers dude!! 🫶🫶💪

[@HeatherNokes]

@@Pyxlmynd Sam, I agree with all that @sunshinyday says here. I have found it almost impossible to reply in anyway at all, for some reason. I had a look at what codependency is and I can recognise it even in my self relationally, so it's interesting. Also the opposite of that being a healthy interdependent relationship is worth reading about. For me the word that came into my mind when I watched this, was enabler. I suddenly didn't feel sure whether what I would be saying would be supportive or enabling, which was worrying. So I'm going to try not to offer advice to you but just wanted to acknowledge that I am learning things about myself and how I relate which are good to know. Sometimes I might not comment because I am suddenly more aware of how complex this is, and just can't be one of those voices telling you the wrong thing. I'm pretty sure you will work it all out anyway, bit by bit.

[@Pyxlmynd]

@HeatherNokes yeah it's a funny old game this life. And by all means, please don't feel like you do have to respond to every one of my videos. And you consideration about everything you just said it's beautiful to hear. You are right. And I feel like I am right too by saying this, I know I will learn and I will figure it out myself. Most of the time. I don't actually want advice or really anything, I just want to let people that could be in my position know that they arent alone and for you legends to know about what is happening in my life and for people just to maybe say "I got you! I've felt the same some times" or explain their stories, if they so wish. I don't always want advice and that isn't my goal for recording and upload, as much as I do appreciate the thoughts and bits of advice hear and there just giving me a thumbs up emoji or a heart symbol is perfectly sufficient or more than enough. I am humbled everyday from just the positive comments that I get from you guys. I am a grown as man and I will figure it out. And I don't mean to be so negative all the time. And I've literally just checked myself. As I was watching a video about how so much content is negative and people are just negative because its what we look out for, for evolutionary and survival reasons, but dw I got my own back and whenever you say anything it is always valued so much because I know you're there. And that's comfort enough, more so than the content you write. Not to say I don't appreciate it coz I do so much but. Thank you for being so considerate by researching what sunshine said. He's an absolute diamond and I love him how l love all you regulars and that alone is way more than enough to get me through and persevere, through tough times. But more positivity is going to be coming from my life and therefore my channel from now on. As always thank you Heather for your thoughtful comments. Sorry for the fat essay! Haha hope your night is as beautiful as you are! 🫶

[@HeatherNokes]

@@Pyxlmynd Okay, thanks, got you! 🙂

[@Pyxlmynd]

😊😊😊

[@Leo_Cameron]

you should completely quit alcohol today. the more you take the worse it gets.

[@Pyxlmynd]

I absolutely will. In my head, it's gone. Never again. Because you are absolutely and utterly right. It will only get harder. But man I feel absolutely sick of it. Thank you for your comment dude! I hope you have a lovely Sunday and a brilliant week 😊🫶🫶

[@UOFW25]

please stay off the packet..

[@Pyxlmynd]

That seems to be not an issue for me anymore. No cravings for that at all. So fingers 🤞 never again! But as I say I will always update everyone on everything and speak the truth or at least my truth x

[@PaulioMaldinio]

Suicide is when Misery outweighs Hope. Just listening to your videos, mate, you need to get back to where you were 7 years ago in your fist video. No drug or alcohol, or friends can help you bro, your born naked, you die Naked. You need to get your independence back, I.e 125cc Transport, get a job. Work solid for at least a year to create a window of opportunity.... blah blah.

[@Pyxlmynd]

Yeah I know. I am fully aware of this. In time it will all come. I just need some more patience and I will get there. Thank you for your advices though. They are drilled into my head haha 🫶🫶

[@PaulioMaldinio]

@Pyxlmynd you know the process, you cant just magic it. Start at the first step, 125cc, independence. Job, save money through winter Months. Pass test. - Major Achievement. Buy shit van - insure for year - your away,..... 😂👌 go live on the Drove@ Stonehenge or up at Westbury White Horse.... down Cornwall..... Bournemouth... anywhere bro

[@PaulioMaldinio]

@Pyxlmynd your 31, your not that far behind, not having a driving licence has Fucked you up a bit at 31 tbh....😂

[@Pyxlmynd]

@PaulioMaldinio now that's a plan!! That's what I'm gunna do!!! 👊 🤜 🤛

[@PaulioMaldinio]

@Pyxlmynd I can't lie to you I'm at stage 2, I bought a shit 125cc, worked 2 years. I need to buy a van man.... its the next step. But it's a £6,000 minimum outlay.

[@JustinCarter-ny1ox]

Good idea lay of the coke -5 years clean it puts a whole in your o let mate leave me a message please

[@Pyxlmynd]

Yeah been off it a couple weeks now. Turned a new leaf and sorted a abanging job now. Turned things right around. I update everyone daily :) thanks for the comment x