'Hi Ren' performance by Chazza

I'm going to take the time to write some things here, for a change.
It's been a long time since I felt this passionate about something, and I have missed it so much you wouldn't believe.
I won't bore you with too much detail, but I have finally, at the age of 31, understood what it is like to suffer with mental health - which I believe is a result of my physical health.
A quick glimpse into my health - I'm dizzy 24/7 - Almost 4 years of hospital trips and still no answer. A lot of my joints really hurt. I often suffer with chronic headaches and occasional migraines.
I suffer from depression - more good days than bad at the moment - and anxiety keeps trying to overcome me. I would say that I am mostly in control of it.
I have had some bad shit happen to me, (who hasn't in this awful world?) I was sexually abused at 10 years old. My parents went off the rails for a while and some other things happened too, you can listen to my average songs if you want some detail on that part of my life.
In a way, very deep down, I'm kind of glad that I have these problems, as they have made me a more understanding person towards other people who suffer from some awful, life changing illnesses. I always thought people should 'just get on with things' and I never would have understood how sometimes you simply can't 'just get on with things'
It's a bastard to try to explain these things, and I truly believe that unless we experience things ourselves - we can never truly understand.
I am so happy to have come across Ren's music, and this song, well, no words needed. I have always wanted to make a music video and this one was the one that did it. I felt every last inch of this (mostly) freestyle dance and I swear my soul was beaming. I always found it so cringe when people would say the shit that I'm about to say but here goes anyway: I don't know what I would do if I couldn't express myself in this way - when I blast a song that I know inside out and just let my body move, the feeling is out of this world, it's so freeing, and when it all hits just right, it's quite literally euphoric.
I absolutely fu*king LOVE this song and I hope that ‪@RenMakesMusic‬ will see that I'm doing this out of the love of his music, not for profit. Me and my videographer, James, decided to keep Ren's end part as is - it seemed the right thing to do.
I poured my entire soul into this - I really hope you can see my passion and true emotion in this video.
Thanks for taking the time to read this long ass piece - it's the first time I've bothered to write something - that's how much this means to me.
XxxX