HIDING DEPRESSION (high functioning depression)

PSYCH2GO: • 12 Things High Functio... - fellow KZbin channel, uploading loads of mental health content.
this is what high functioning depression feels like
also known as dysthymia or persistent depressive disorder, pdd

[@KatAmarie]

Book counselling / emotional support sessions with me, more info: kzbin.info/www/bejne/rquWkGyKpJ11o8U

[@samisaturn33]

You are amazing and don't let anyone tell you believe otherwise

[@joost2501]

Hey Kat, I have two questions for you. First of all, where did you learn to write so well? Secondly, how did you film all of this? (one-woman army?)

[@nataliaszefer5795]

Można inną metodą niż paypal?

[@hellgavampenstein9906]

It really touched me how realistic You show depression and this subject. I catched myself on crying because it was amazing when I felt that anybody now can understand it. Really love Your work. Greets from Poland ❤️

[@eeeo2196]

You’re so creative and talented and you can picture things and make them look the way they should be which is hard to project. I wish you all the best and hope you achieve your purpose.

[@lismaestrelo]

"Forever regretful of the past and always anxious about the future"

[@robinlaker7942]

that one hit so hard

[@TheGDEventI]

This one wrecked my existence!

[@SuperSilverJay]

Or forever nostalgic of the past and hopeless for the future.

[@ChurlzVA]

That shit hit hard.

[@artangel23]

this line hit me the hardest

[@SkyyWalkerr28]

"Soon, you become so used to it, you can't even tell when it started" Felt that one.

[@adikiberti403]

same on a DEEP level

[@wilmawalker3421]

i felt that one veeeeery deep.

[@userm180]

do you guys feel better now?

[@michellecampa9850]

@ฅʕ•ع•ʔฅ me too, my doctor recommended me to hospitalize for a month, im stressed asf about the money job and school, my body... just cried about 20 min ago lamo

[@thu9312]

That fits me. I become so familiar with my mental illness and even feel comfortable when it’s around

[@mezzobri2902]

"You okay?" "I'm okay, I'm just tired"..

[@dreib5129]

The classic answer, i'm fine. 😣😣😣 I hope I can read mind, so that I can help her through this.😔

[@redcowcat8705]

Same. Tired of feeling

[@silviejashari6933]

I never realized how often I am saying that I am tired even though I am feeling sad or numb

[@pegazenerveux4914]

I'm so tired that I'm really close of suicide

[@yourgrandma1147]

I didn't say the exact same thing this morning

[@mchan2309]

When they need me, I’m always there to comfort them. But when I need them, they disappear.

[@user-gk7br4cc9i]

I feel the same thing. I hate that

[@whereskentuckybruce8245]

I often think of that for my friends. I want to be able to look after them but I don’t know what to say or do, I just stay with them. He doesn’t leave so he may just like the company. I don’t share too much with my friends because I do not want to make them worry. I have a couple who I talk about stuff with though.

[@alms4699]

@Coley Awakend hope you’re doing ok, you don’t deserve being treated like that 🧡

[@Venvaneless]

Same. It just breaks my heart piece by piece. They tell you they'll be there for you but as soon as you trust that they will they leave you because you're too much of a negative burden impacting on their life. So better stay quiet. You don't wanna lose any more than you already had.

[@missfvckedupdoll]

...

[@unpopularopinion455]

"Talking to people reminds you how lonely you are" i felt that

[@Arejen03]

oh yeah thats relatable

[@TD-dc2tg]

It’s being alone did I realize how lonely I was for me

[@lillian9483]

T D now that we are quarantined I realized how lonely I really am

[@dianashows]

Indeed, and that’s really sad 😔

[@radhikachatterjee7275]

@@TD-dc2tg thats surprisingly powerful actually. You see once you make peace with your loneliness and accept it you no longer fear other people leaving so you become really independent and unique and you can finally live life on your own terms.

[@oddeyed1359]

"By the time you realize something's wrong, you're neck deep"

[@emotionpictures19]

True

[@sakshitriton]

I felt it...

[@samb2814]

yes

[@lucianaegan327]

True

[@funkAduckiejunior]

With no way to escape, and to sacred to end it.

[@nocturnerequiem4756]

“But every time depression hits, it erases pleasant memories, bit by bit.” That broke me.

[@yt-sh]

reminder that they are just hard to grasp, not erased

[@reycarrillo5982]

🙂

[@spamham3356]

“You’re choosing to be depressed. Why can’t you go one day with a smile and family conversation at dinner? You have nothing to be depressed about. You have more than what you want so why are you sulking?”

[@clouddanny7897]

im tired of trying to push myself to do things while i have no energy and passion to do anything

[@user-qg2hl4tz7v]

same

[@kwisatzhaderach1458]

You complain, get a few likes, this girl profits off of your view, nothing changes. WAKE UP.

[@clouddanny7897]

@@kwisatzhaderach1458 dude chill she worth it

[@mariam-7545]

I’m trying now 💔

[@jamisedenari2449]

I felt that. But I also believe it's because we don't know what to do yet? We have to explore this life and find what inspires us

[@nuhahafiz2490]

"After all, your life has not completely fallen apart yet, so why would anyone believe you're struggling." FELT THAT.

[@lemonade6_652]

Same

[@emotionpictures19]

She might be portraying depression although she is not depressed , but atleast everything she says is what really happens

[@conialvarado9448]

I literally cried when she said that

[@lillian9483]

coni alvarado valenzuela i cried the whole video....

[@ultimatereddits5725]

@@emotionpictures19 how do u know she's not depressed?

[@valentiapauwels]

"Best wife, best employee, best daughter, best student, keep everyone happy ...but you." This one really hits. I get the highest grades in school, try to be the best girlfriend, best daughter for my hardworking mom.. Anyone else?

[@parikaamma]

all I have ever done. I have just realised this today. woow.

[@whereskentuckybruce8245]

I used to badly pressure myself in year 9 to be a smart student

[@wilmawalker3421]

same, but i never manage to be good enough for anyone

[@userm180]

are yall ok? if u wanna talk im here. God bless

[@AW-xc1xc]

Yeah. It got so bad that the only reason I stayed here was to not disappoint everyone. I was a straight A student with their life together on the outside, and someone struggling with depression, extremely low self esteem, a verbally abusive parent and budding anxiety on the inside. But yet, nothing was ever bad enough for it to be taken seriously, by me or anyone else. I finally gathered enough courage to tell one of my teachers about it, and when I was done she glossed right over it and started talking about my brilliant essay, the same essay I had written while crying the night before because I knew I would feel like the biggest failure on earth if I didn't finish it and get the highest grade.

[@fatalerrorsans2008]

"Like people can barely tolerate the fact that you are using up oxygen"

[@libertyroberts8933]

“Keep everyone happy. Everyone but you.” What a powerful line. This is the one I related to the most.

[@kwisatzhaderach1458]

During the overproduced animation or the hired film crew bit? It's preying on YOU. WAKE UP.

[@ZoeThomson00]

@@kwisatzhaderach1458 Wtf does that mean

[@EKEACRES]

I know that line,..I've lived it. Why isn't there a place for sufferers to get together & heal each other because we can relate? That is what's needed.

[@lizevisser8617]

Yeah and people think you're just a people pleaser but you do it to feel better about yourself

[@ivanbreak]

@@EKEACRES yea, let's get together and do something, let's start powerfull community to get us all out of darkness, we can do it

[@JohnDoe-ic9jv]

Sometimes sadness is my most comfortable emotion. If I just submerge myself in sadness, I feel content, at peace. Accepting that nothing is okay makes everything seem okay. Darkness can be a refuge.

[@valeriemontesdeoca9329]

John Doe damn , got me thinking , could that be me ? 🤔😔

[@acidas]

I feel you, man. It sucks to tell everyone that I'm ok working at home and not meeting anyone for week or two. Usually almost no one understands that and tries to fix me by suggesting to "go out", "meet somebody", "go have fun". I'm fine 24/7 on the couch for week or two. Half of day working another half eating junk food, binge watching series, not answering the phone. Just leave me be with myself. But maybe that's not a depression as after this time with myself I want to meet people again and have fun.

[@everparedesvera4815]

Only for so long, eventually the feeling is enough to be disgusting, but not enough to find comfort, because i know that if i feel sad enough i will feel ok, so now im always at a "Low fire withering" state, not even knowing this can trigger that level anymore.

[@franciscaribeiro949]

Maybe your moon is in scorpio?

[@heloisamanduca1996]

with time you gets so used to it, like you only know yourself when ur like this

[@akemi8119]

"put on that fake smile you've been practicing for ages. And once you're ready, you walk out the door to put on your best performance, in the most bewildering of plays that is your life."

[@MELISSA-rw4tn]

“They ask whether you’re okay, but talking to people reminds you of how lonely you are”

[@cassidyfranklin9287]

"But sometimes, you forget your lines and the pain trickles through the cracks." Yep today I accidentally started crying in front of my mother.

[@kwisatzhaderach1458]

Because you BOUGHT this narrative. This channel makes MONEY off of people like YOU. WAKE UP.

[@ZoeThomson00]

@@kwisatzhaderach1458 Yeah but it doesn't cost people to watch anything, they might make money but they don't literally take money from the viewers, fuck why do you care so much?

[@devshreepatel7605]

i was just about to cry in front of my mom yesterday but took a deep breath and left the living room. I went in my room and then cried for half an hour. The last time i actually cried in front of my mom or hugged her was when i was 10. I'm 18 now, and i don't remember how a mother's hug even feels like

[@userm180]

im sorry love. are you better now? its been a year. i hope yall are feeling alright. God bless

[@addisonsmith355]

yall can still cry? lol

[@nekonemui567]

The most depressing thing is when you're asking for help but people say that you're just okay :)

[@missytizon4477]

@Chaotic Demons same :( my father even told me to appear happy so my mother wont get disappointed :(

[@mayunagupta3541]

That same just keeps being my story

[@zun6501]

When you ask for help and they say ‘its normal, everyone has such feelings’.... then why is it that I feel so much pain, why is it just so intolerable for me... self hatred just increases more and more... it gets so unbearable

[@efonstudio]

​@@zun6501 Stay strong friend. I know how it feels. I wish the best for you

[@Yaseengx]

Or when they are just answering "yh me too, I feel like that sometimes, dw you’ll be alright"

[@bunnieth]

“Keep Everyone Happy. Just not you” .. Emotional damage-

[@VAL30007]

“Before you diagnose yourself with depression or low self-esteem, first make sure that you are not, in fact, just surrounded by assholes.“ -William Gibson

[@saike9356]

Depression is like constantly carrying a weighted blanket with no break. Sometimes it feels heavy, other times it feels like nothing at all..

[@whereskentuckybruce8245]

I used to wear a weighted blanket over my head when I walked in the hallway of my house at night so I wouldn’t see the imaginary monsters in the kitchen, just what I thought of when I read your comment

[@userm180]

im sorry love. are u feeling better now? its been a year so thats why im asking

[@marymeier1801]

@@whereskentuckybruce8245 i love that

[@maliaperez2429]

I had chills throughout this whole video. It’s comforting to know i’m not the only one who relates to this.

[@NazaNalani]

So agree! I've been there too 💗

[@francine15able]

Sucks more cause i cried while watching this, i opened messenger to talk to someone, remembered i dont really have anyone i can tell

[@czakoagnes2001]

❤️! You’re not alone.

[@Meh82737]

Were always here your with many people feeling the same way x

[@belu1354]

@@francine15able You can write it in a book, online or a real one. It i'll help you, bc u would be telling something u never get to.

[@BlackHermit]

I will ALWAYS hide depression.

[@ElmTreee]

"You're forever regretful of the past and always anxious about the future" damn

[@greenguyz3775]

Remember when she said her good byes because she couldn't afford to make more vidoes. Yea, well I'm so grateful she stayed afloat.

[@helloname6833]

GreenGuyz what do u mean?

[@userm180]

what?

[@michaelamiro6076]

“You can have good days though, yeah.” - today is not one of them.

[@irenecarlotto2982]

Hope today was one then, and tomorrow too💕

[@karolinawoz4406]

Please, ask for hep . You are not alone

[@valanallbani]

Its so relatable in so many ways😔

[@Roksanka127]

Hello, I hope your day is better today. I hope you are healthy and happy. I send you love from Poland. Stat strong. ☀️❤️

[@michaelamiro6076]

@@Roksanka127 Thank you so much. Somewhat a better day. Healthier and a bit happier. 🇰🇪♥️

[@TheRobochicken5494]

the words hit so hard, i felt ill when i heard them and almost puked

[@emmamaunsell7218]

"you keep everyone happy, everyone but you" I was not prepared for that

[@joost2501]

I like how you choose your words carefully. Depression is like water indeed. At first, in all its stillness, many would fail to recognize its unrelentingly abrasive nature. In my darker moments I tend to compare my situation with getting pulled under water just long enough to be able to gasp for air again, in a continuous loop. The metaphor of ‘not knowing whether there is light at the end of the tunnel’ speaks volumes as well. I’ve recently started wondering whether I’d even still recognize what it feels like to be happy. Lastly, I have to admit I felt haunted by the misty shots in your visual collage. I appreciate how the mist represents the mental fog by which the mind is clouded during a depression. All in all, a comprehensive review dotted with beautiful symbolism.

[@alicja4506]

Your comment is very insightful. I really appreciate that.

[@lohaye3260]

Your comment really enhance my perception about this topic, I suspect that I had this type of depression early years ago.

[@tyler4474]

Be like water my friend. You see, if you put water into a cup it becomes the cup and if you put water into a tea pot it becomes the tea pot. Water can flow and water can crash so be like water my friend.

[@esztermartinkovics9712]

Try antidepressants! You need to find the ones that fit for you.

[@marino5652]

I tend to compare my situation with getting pulled under water just long enough to be able to gasp for air again .... i used the same example when i describe it

[@kadrikapa5855]

"But you don't wanna feel like a burden." Yes, I rather help others than burden them. Edit: Wow that's a lot of likes. Thank you guys! 💜

[@userm180]

u can talk to me if u want. i wont feel like ure a burden

[@WildSheWolf_]

somehow, feeling that i'm a mistake makes me punish myself that i'm not really living, so i try my best to enjoy life, but just can't again and again; locked in a loop

[@Fluffymck]

sometimes i need to watch these videos to feel normal

[@terezaciderova4373]

“But this must forever remain a secret” This reminds me, not to ever judge behavior of someone I don’t know, or even someone I think I know well. You never know what battles they are fighting.

[@marinakrsmanovic3871]

I had situation at work yesterday, some colleagues that dont know me said to my boss that I'm dark, that I don't smile and that I write some dark things on facebook... Colleagues that never spoke to me but I had them on Facebook.. I deleted them for sure..

[@radhikachatterjee7275]

@@marinakrsmanovic3871 you should put some salt in their coffee

[@userm180]

@@marinakrsmanovic3871 are u ok love

[@silvy7394]

I got confused for a few seconds whether I clicked on a Psych2go video or a Kat video, given I was almost sure I clicked on a Kat video.

[@Sofia-gt8vt]

jaja Same, its an amazing colaboration.

[@kuzi8440]

"You're forever regretful of the past and always anxious about the future" damn, I just got called out

[@naniwekhanyile998]

sometimes you forget your just acting and start to believe your okay,but then reality kicks in and you sink deeper

[@kabeom]

this comment

[@arthurmorgan2906]

DAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAMN

[@sophieenet4817]

hey, it might sound "stupid", i don't know, but please be aware that i do care about you, and that the pain you may be feeling is legitimate. sorry English isn't my first language but i am sincerely opened to discussion if needed.

[@strange_girll]

I care about you

[@rzygam_tym]

more like nobody cares at all

[@xardomancer7371]

the fact they ask doesn't mean they care,u've misunderstood the sentence

[@rzygam_tym]

@@xardomancer7371 I guess he meant like most people don't even bother to ask. Nobody cares anyway but some at least pretend.

[@sachardavids3712]

Instantly teary eyed as soon as the video started. I’ve been having manic episodes and I cry hysterically for hours on end, all I want is to be held and comforted.

[@hm9802]

Uhh i wish i can give you a hug idk what to tell you I'm not going to tell you to be positive and all this because i know you are sicked of hearing it from everyone ❤

[@userm180]

wanna talk ab it luv

[@MisterFahrenheit303]

I haven’t felt the touch of a loving other break through the layers upon layers of masking since the one time my sister told me she loves me, apart from my parents which of course do but I never actually felt it. I cried immediatly when she said that, lately she’s been here for me and I don’t feel so alone anymore, but sometimes I retreat to hiding under my desk for comfort.

[@CROninja666]

Sometimes I just simply wanna stop existing, make everything around me disappear until it feels like I'm floating in the darkness of space. Doesn't have to be permanent, maybe just to collect my thoughts and try to figure things out because currently the only thing motivating me to live are these youtube videos... I wonder for how much longer...

[@situ_dvilare]

Yeah I came here for the girl of Madrid. Mother of god

[@velvet8228]

"Talking to people reminds you of how only you are" that one hurt for a few seconds but then I was back to being numb

[@Iceis_Phoenix]

I don't talk to people.

[@jakefaucette6691]

@@Iceis_Phoenix humans are social creatures

[@makaylaaa8242]

“after all your life has not completely fallen apart yet. so why would anyone believe you’re struggling?” this related to me a lot. no one cared until my seizures got so bad i was in the hospital. friends who haven’t checked up on me in almost a year. thank you for making me feel less alone tho. i love your work💛

[@makaylaaa8242]

thank u for the likes 💕 😭💖🌼☺️

[@userm180]

are u ok love?

[@makaylaaa8242]

m yes i am doing a lot better thank you (:❤️

[@userm180]

@@makaylaaa8242 im glad dear. God bless and have a great day!!

[@Freaking_]

Too. I went mental hospital, because i couldn't sleep anymore. I didn't sleep for 2 weeks said my sister. And i was crazy, paranoic, it still remains, i have obsessive thoughts still. Even now family not care about me. As in video said "i am screaming inside". I am regretful for my past. You know, when you share that somehow it helps, lol, i don't know why. But i think because everyone needs to be heard. But when you haven't a family who listens to you that's the problem, especially when you have one, but they don't listen, don't care until you die

[@algogirl2846]

I guess the worst part is that you loose the spontaneity in your communication and you feel your life has deviated from the shore of normalcy into the sea of torment. From there on you just either move if you have the courage and hope to find the shore or else just drown. Then there is a constant fear, regret, guilt. And the fact that you have it also gives you shame and guilt of not having the emotionally strong and intellectually curated mind. The constant questioning of your purpose of life, feeling unlucky, feeling punished, and also punishing yourself for not being able to shine out like a bright sun in the society. Only empathy can heal depression.

[@kaleuh]

i love how you use a play as a metaphor for high-functioning depression. i often think of myself as an actor when it comes to my depression, always acting. i’d go through my day feeling so heavy but i put on the best act i can, pretending i was fine and i was so shocked at how people willingly and wholly believed me. sometimes i get tired of acting and let my guard down, and people get grossed out by what they see but my anxiety builds that act up again. it’s a cycle i live through day after day.

[@marohadd]

I remember when i finally decided to tell my teacher that I'm suffering from depression and she laughed at my face "YOU? stressed? depressed? HAHAHHA" please don't do this to anyone, ever. ever.

[@Irllydoloveyourmom]

i am so sorry she did that to you, no one deserves to be treated like that. you're loved.

[@kwisatzhaderach1458]

Fake. This channel profits off of every weak individual here. Let that sink in....

[@ghihbgyu]

@@kwisatzhaderach1458 Never having had depression doesn't necessarily make someone strong, more often than not it just means that the person has been lucky.

[@tracymcgrady4867]

@@kwisatzhaderach1458 why cant they be weak? And you are strong for what exactly?

[@yeahitsme5162]

@ Kwisatz Haderach Mate if it’s such a big bloody issue then just stop watching

[@aimeed5554]

I started crying when you said "After all, your life has not completely fallen apart yet, so why would ppl believe you are struggling?" It hit me hard.

[@Nyahnator]

I think making depression ✨aesthetic✨ and kind of romanticising it is highly questionable

[@girlinblue11]

I miss those times where I was still happy

[@aru.editss]

Does anyone ever wish they could go back to the past when life was good

[@parabellum4622]

*_Depression's hard enough; quarantine is giving it a considerable presence._*

[@anastasiab3823]

"talking to people reminds you of how lonely you are. felt that. loneliness is a feeling, not physical, being alone and being lonely are two different things.

[@feelsfromtheheart5176]

yeah it hurts and you can't fix it even if you were accompanied by people.

[@yuvika5268]

"When you start crying after Laughing so hard , because you even missed your smile for so long" ,, thats what happens with me

[@emmabarbiero]

Depression to me feels like a dark room, without windows and without a door. You try to switch on the lights, you try to find the switch, you try really hard. But in that room, there’s no lamp. You just lay on the floor in the complete dark.

[@ArchivodeMandarina-hi2sl]

D.E.P / R.I.P malinanderssen 💔💔💔💔

[@nicknelsonahahha9]

„You’re forever regretful of the past and always anxious about the future.“ Wow that’s me put in a nutshell..

[@mike.471er9]

When people be like „I’m sad rn..“ „you’re so perfect“ „your life is the best“ „I wish I could be like you and have everything like you“. But they really don’t know what you‘re hiding behind every sentence you’ve ever said.

[@onward8231]

“A time is coming and in fact has come when you will be scattered, each to your own home. You will leave me all alone. Yet I am not alone, for my Father is with me. “I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.” John 16:32-33

[@sindre.]

This is artwork at its most profound and honest nature... The production is, as always, in pristine quality. But more importantly the premise you’re trying to convey is done clear, gorgeous, and incalculably sublime. Thank you for making complex themes comprehendible and sincere to experience.

[@cat54907]

This video is like looking in a painful mirror of truth... but I feel like I’m not alone at least

[@theking7634]

that's why I don't use social media anymore. everybody pretends to be happy over there

[@dep7311]

I dont wanna remember this again😭

[@ambrose1200]

“So you smile and nod, while on the inside you’re screaming.” That line hit way to hard for me to be okay.

[@Psych2go]

Hi everyone :D

[@arunp2006]

Big fan❤️

[@daniblazee1192]

The worst is when people tell you that it’s not a big deal, that there are bigger problems in the world and that just really makes you feel worthless...

[@randomdamian]

This isn't how I feel it, for me is more the disappointment into humanity and how ignorant and disrespectful society has become.

[@TheLifeofIzzyB]

“life becomes high maintenance, but you don’t want to be more burdensome” felt that

[@estefaniaramosrobles3856]

Con ayuda de este video se suicidó una chica ayer en Madrid. Haces ver como si la depresión no tuviera salida.

[@joywannahavefun1980]

you smile & nod, while on the inside - you're screaming

[@Kalisayswhat]

ok, so i will be sending this to my therapist (when i get one). This summarises it perfectly.

[@boladenon]

I saw this girl fall. I feel like I have to watch it.

[@pattonPwr]

I just read that a girl committed suici** yesterday in madrid and her last post was a storie from a balcony view with a link to this video.

[@ignacioalvarez1159]

Por lo mismo vengo

[@Shahzada]

When depression sees me, even the depression gets depressed

[@user-gp8to5vz6l]

The first time I decided to reach out to my parents after 4 years of suffering silently, I was hit with ‘your hormones are controlling you, I have been in your place’. Sometimes I think I won’t make it, sometimes.

[@KatAmarie]

Music is by Royce Wood Junior. Think it might be up on spotify at some point, not sure. Will let you know.

[@alicepines5963]

I loved the music 🖤 it does add more to your words

[@lo36]

Music is exclusive to your video?

[@sepehrmohaghegh2855]

But what is the song name?

[@alethephobe7586]

@@sepehrmohaghegh2855 have you found the song? Still cant find it :c

[@Soupape50]

Still interested in this amazing song, can't find it anywhere :(

[@VideoCesar07]

"Depression is like water. Hollowing out the stone, drop by drop" A better analogy couldn't be said. It slowly creeps up on you. Initially you feel like you are just getting tired, that you might not have been getting proper sleep, or think you are stressed out about life, etc. and that it will go away. Unfortunately it doesn't and before you can even realize it you are feeling tired all the time, unmotivated and don't want to do anything. You will do the things you need to do like go to work, eat, maybe shower and do a bit of tidying up but it's out of routine rather than wanting to. You don't want to do anything other than what is absolutely necessary or just the bare minimum. When you're around friends and family you put on a brave face and might even laugh and smile but it's just to keep them off your back. In my mind I just want any social events that I can't get out of to end as quickly as possible, no matter how short or undemanding they might be. Even if I don't spend the day sleeping my mind is simply blank. All activities feel like a major chore, even the ones that normally bring me joy. Sometimes even looking around my apartment at all my possessions it brings up an even greater feeling of despair and disappointment, like they're just a reminder of how I have filled my life with things. Even people that I normally like to be around make me feel like I am a burden to them and makes me wish I could leave and or that they would leave. So eventually the hole just fills itself up again; life goes on and in the meantime the water starts dripping all over again. You never know how long it will take until the next bout but you know it's coming.

[@minnieegg363]

Anyone else just smiles ?

[@archon5878]

"After all, your life has not completely fallen apart yet, so why would anyone believe you're struggling." If this isn't the truth. The only time I've ever gotten support from family, friends, work or a doctor is when I'm at that point where things are hitting a dead end. Any other time and the response is "You're fine". People only care when things hit rock bottom, after that they don't care about keeping up with how you are. Truly makes you feel lonely.

[@Meowpookiebear]

“You can’t truly enjoy the good days because you know that soon- everything will turn black” God that hurt

[@radicalhonesty3628]

REMINDERS: 1. Live your life like you're the hero in the movie (because you actually really are!). 2. Don't seek comfort. Be radically honest. Radically free. Grow. Expand. Be fearless. 3. 99% of success is just showing up. Show up.

[@chloehumphries4117]

You can’t truly enjoy the good days because you know that soon- everything will turn black… That hit HARD👊🏻

[@tstorm83]

So true right? I soak those moments up like a sponge because I know they are already leaving by that point.

[@taylorstephens6432]

Started sobbing after the line about trying to finally open up about your struggle but people take no regard because it doesn't seem that bad. It's only because I hid it too well all this time! As if I wasn't invalidating myself already and now others do it too. I'm sick of going through the motions of every day and not being present.

[@damienb6184]

I started crying shortly after the beginning. Everything in this hits me to the core

[@skshabalova8750]

Yeah, I was sobbing literally the whole time... the pain can never seem to go away.

[@SoupyGal]

I have a feeling my dad has been going through this for a couple years now. He’s a baby boomer so he doesn’t believe in talking things out or getting help. He just tries to stay strong for everyone. But never for himself.

[@adityasinghbhati9954]

Pls stay with him Sleep on his lap he'll feel better

[@userm180]

hey dear ik its been a year so i gotta ask. did he get better?

[@missfvckedupdoll]

I feel like my friends are only their through my happy moments. I just can't find them whenever I'm lonely.

[@bengoodwin3052]

Your true true friends are the ones that are with you during your worst times. Sadly I can’t find any of them

[@dellaesmuyasambrosa]

"You still get up every day put on your perfectly ironed clothes, put on immaculate makeup put of that fake smile youve been practicing for ages" damn

[@shannonwilson1076]

But people blankly stare through you, cause why would anyone believe you’re struggling I felt that so much

[@mariadaly4673]

After suffering from depression for 25 years I wish people would take mental health seriously. Your video was so uplifting sometimes we feel like no one understands and we are suffering in silence

[@dreib5129]

We do understand you, its just that sometimes its hard when you are pushing us away and we dont know what to do, but let me assure you that someone wants to help you and be there for you. I am a living proof for that, I just hope that she will reach out to me again when she is ready.🙏🙏🙏🤗🤗

[@lowerlowerhk]

When I say I am not okay, people don't know how to respond. They try to smooth the mood by joking, mocking, or digressing the topics of their liking. It hurts so much when it comes from people from whom I want to be caring. I learn to not expect much from others, no expectation, no disappointment. But then I am stuck between living in this grim realization or living in a fantasy that it is no longer possible to believe in.

[@MrNicolasBarte]

Depression never left me and never will..

[@namansethi1353]

You re forever regretful of the past and always anxious about the future This line describes my whole life

[@patriciaalonso6327]

Este video no aporta ninguna solución y consigue deprimir hasta los que no están deprimidos. Pedid ayuda. Vivir siempre merece la pena.

[@roseisanartist]

this made me wanna cry its just to relateable for me in the worst way possible and knowing other ppl look at this with pity just.

[@miriammontgomery8902]

No one asks if you are okay. They dont really want an answer if they do ask. They usually say you're fine and go about their business.

[@arieval1267]

Descanza en paz malinanderssen🍃

[@96oscarC]

I used to be depressed, but now I know how to be sincerely happy and I want to bring everyone here with me.

[@k.szaroldinho]

Glad you are happy :) How did you achieve it?

[@madeingu5975]

Hiding everything is easy most of the time, and can sometimes be so difficult that I have to breath deeply to regain the strength to stand on my feet.

[@angelb.9438]

sadness can be addicting, to be honest.

[@lunaskye621]

I've been struggling with depression for almost a decade now and this video is so accurate to my life. I'm a high functioning adult so everyone assumes I'm fine. When I felt my false veneer was cracking and I needed help, people told me it's not depression. Depression is something different. I tried to ignore the hole in my chest but it just grew and got worse each hour of the day, every day for over a year. Then I needed help. I'm in therapy now and I can finally see a dim tiny light in this black tunnel I've been in. I'm desperate to get out. I hope I do.

[@liesier90]

Sorry that you are also suffering this awful disease. Are you taking meds or just therapy? I am realizing now that I have depression, but my budget and work schedule does not allow trying out different treatments. I wish I knew if meds would work. Therapy can be dragged out so long. I know there is no quick fix, but am looking for the best way since my funds are low.

[@loveeli4253]

stay strong. you are very brave🤍

[@loveeli4253]

AR Rossouw i have dysthymia (long term depression) was in therapy for some time, and it left me with little relief. I haven't tried meds, just some holistic remedies. I strongly feel that St. John's Wort is a great natural way if you are on a budget (as am i). there are some warnings of side effects from taking it though, but i haven't personally experienced any of them. You can get them at almost any pharmacy.

[@goofball2228]

For me I have extreme mood swings. There are times where I feel happy and fine but there are other times where I’m so sad and angry that I wanna die. Idk what’s wrong with me. Sometimes these mood swings happen for no reason.

[@claralobato8479]

Every simple daily thing feels like a huge task

[@heathervargas5696]

the worst part of it all is that some never get cured from this mental illness and die from it..