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FAQs - for those of you bright enough to read the description before commenting with the same boring questions ... :)
How old are you? - 31
Where do you live? - Surrey, UK & Cape Town South Africa
What's with the weird long hair? - Growin' it.
What do your tattoos mean? My star was just because I thought it looked good. My skull was my reward for winning the marathon world championships in 2010, my triangle on my hand reminds me to keep moving forward and make progress, and my turtle/Pura Vida tattoo on my leg is a reminder of my amazing time in Costa Rica. New tattoos - mountains on my arm & VV on my wrist because I didn't know what I wanted until 5 mins before I got them!
How do you make money? - KZbin/Freelance film/photo & my clothing brand
What editing program do you use? - Premier Pro CC on Mac
Did you go to university? - No
Why do yo buy so many cameras? I'm a photographer & film maker, cameras / lenses are my thing.
Why aren't you training for kayaking anymore? - I see new opportunities everyday, I'm just grabbing them as they appear and keep working hard, right now that's KZbin & Film. I'm happy I made the change!
How long do your vlogs take to edit? - They vary massively, sometimes 1 hour sometimes 6+

[@benbrown]

🙏🏼THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH 😭please do give Nicole her share of your uplifting love ❤️I'm blown away.

[@humanarchitecture]

Mr Ben Brown go sleep. Haha.

[@mtbboi9495]

Love your content, ben🤙🏽

[@leoxavier7719]

Rest up man, i've been going through a thing recently with my (ex)girlfriend. It's tough, but we will survive! Keep inspiring us everyday bro to keep pursuing our dreams.

[@ElizaBez]

You are exceptionally good in everything you do in life. Your mindset is your friend, take care of it and I am sure you are going to be more than ok in this new chance that the universe is giving you to find out a little bit more about life! Do whatever makes you happy and better, just as always. Love from Brazil Ben!!! 💞 Oh and don't forget to relax, equilibrium is the key.

[@adam.cph_]

Mr Ben Brown ❤️

[@sliceofmatt]

I miss you bro. Looking forward to the new stuff that you're going to be putting out cause I don't think I've told you enough how much of an inspiration you are ❤️

[@benbrown]

❤️ miss you too homie

[@Rolex-eu5vp]

Would love to see you guys back together on camera, hope you can make it happen lads!

[@solonbjorn]

Big inspiration Ben :)

[@swaggyg6017]

Matt you're an awesome friend

[@SPDTDL]

Matt is friend goals!

[@IvanSnz]

I think i speak for all of us when i wish you: get well soon Ben!

[@motonosity]

Man youtube isn't the same without you dude. Still one of the most honest and straightforward guys creating videos. Feelin for you bro. You're an inspiration to so many of us but take some time for yourself, inspire your own self :D Focus on passions and friends for a while, escape if you need it. Excited to keep up with you on the socials and lookin forward to the next upload whenever it is. Take care of yourself man 🤟

[@BusLifeNZ]

Agree.

[@rajasvlog9356]

Hi Ben this is Kiruba female 52 INDIAN From Dubai Nurse from Dubai. I was missing you so much. But did not know you underwent so much. I am your greatest fan and blog watcher. Thank God for the healing of your body. Keep doing your exercises and I am praying for you. You will be totally healed. God is good all the time. Don’t worry for Nichole. She will come back and will be your wife. She is stressed. She is made for you. Love you both. Praying for you daily. You will be good and perfect soon. Never give up. Be strong. Take the whole thing easy. God Bless

[@WatsonsVenture]

I wanted to leave a comment, but this sums it up perfectly. Big love Ben, stay safe. x

[@MckZimbo]

This too shall pass !!! So good to be able to look back and see the change / growth that has happened !!

[@mollypotter15]

Hey Ben! I don’t know if you will ever see this message, but I’m a long long time viewer and a first time messenger. I started watching your vlogs when you were still kayaking and living with your parents in England. I saw you have a dream, and then make that dream a reality, and your content has always been a source of joy and inspiration in my life. I wanted to extend all of my love and gratitude to you. You are in no way alone, and so many of your viewers have dealt with anxiety and heartbreak, like you are now. Speaking as someone who has just gotten over that hump, I want to say that you are allowed to feel broken, and sad. Your community and your friends will pick you up, and will understand more than you think they ever could. Thank you again, sending you all the loving and healing vibes.

[@lostleblanc]

That's a lot to deal with all at once. On the bright side, it sounds like the only direction you can go from here is up man. Take care Ben.

[@TheWanderLife]

Totally stole my Owen Wilson meme in your latest vid - I was totally the first to ever use it haha

[@snapsofash3948]

Lost LeBlanc and Ben Brown to do an Instagram mission?

[@CulpFiction]

Take care of yourself, Ben. I can feel a lot of tension and anxiety on screen here, and it totally makes sense, based on everything you've been through in the past few weeks/months. We got your back. We miss you, but your health, happiness, and life takes priority. We're here for you. Take care bro.

[@LoganDavidson]

Holy cow. Ben.. you're a freakin warrior dude. As you already know.. you can learn from every experience thrown your way and I can already tell you're on your way up. Heal up soon brother and continue workin hard towards the things that keep a smile on your face.

[@laurenmcintosh6607]

My boyfriend and I have been watching you for a little over 2 years now. You have played a huge part in inspiring us to make memories over buying things, travel EVERYTIME you can, and appreciate the little things in life. So proud of you for deciding to take care of yourself. You only get one life and it's so important to be happy. Take all the time you need, and try to remember that people who speak negatively about your content are always going to be out there trolling someone. YOU are an inspiration. Take your time on this mental recovery. The real brownies will always be here waiting for you!!

[@EllieDoesLife]

Breaks my heart that you're going through a rough patch :( things will get better you've been my inspiration for YEARS! Sending you lots of love from the Isle of Wight

[@Lachsox]

Brownies are always here when you upload! We got yo back

[@ThePictualist]

My message to you BEN, 1) Go back to basic 2) Stay consistent 3) Stay HEALTHY 4) Focus on things that you love to do 5) Stay POSITIVE!! Love, Pictualist

[@Robert-yv8ie]

consistency is fackin stressfull mate

[@DanMace]

Best comment I have read on youtube!

[@fateuser]

Hey Ben, I've been on your youtube channel since 2013ish and you've helped me get through a lot. When it was tough becoming an MD in a far away country (studied in Lithuania, I'm a Spaniard) I would find joy and motivation in your videos. I have been down as well. Not recently, but a couple of years ago. As my granny (she passed last year) used to say "Bad things come all together at once, you can't predict them". But as I like to think of it is like a reset button. A lesson that we shouldn't take anything for granted in this life. Ben, you should be the most important person for yourself. It's not being selfish, it's being a human. You go get fix your things, do your rehab, relax because Bell's Palsy will fade away, and little by little, step by step you will figure things out as you always have. I don't know you personally but from the videos you've uploaded, photography on Instagram and posts on your blog I get the image that you are a fighter. Like, come on dude, you are a self-made man! The most important priority in my life lately has been self-mental-balance. Do what you have to do, do what makes you good and what makes you feel complete. It's okay to be sad or low. It truly is. It's necessary. If you haven't I recommend you watch Upside down. Yeah, the cartoon movie. You get a really big lesson from there. If we would be always happy, always working, always achieving wouldn't be real. Would be something called euphoria and would make us maniac. It's okay to be sad. It's what makes us humans. You don't have to give us explanations. We will stick around. You first fix your personal things and whenever you feel ready, get back here or don't. As you feel it, bro. But if you decide to come back, me personally, will be here to watch and comment your videos. Take care, Ben. Best wishes from Spain. Pau.

[@jamesbarnes4434]

Ben! You're an absolute legend. I appreciate that you're finding it difficult at the moment but you've managed to build one of the most supportive communities on the internet, you built that! We all want to see you happy again. Take care mate

[@stevenhill444]

Ben, in December 2015 I lost my job, my car, my drivers license, my friends (I left church after I came out of the closet) and so much more. I became very depressed and started struggling with suicidal thoughts. I had to move back in with my mom because I lost my apartment. Around February of 2016 I was on KZbin and your channel popped up. I started watching your vlogs every single day and I noticed that I was feeling inspired. I then had this dream to start traveling the world and doing all of these amazing things. You helped me in such a dark time in my life and although I am still going through a lot, you helped me not give up...as corny as that may sound. Seeing you go through all of this actually kind of hurts man...I hope you know how many lives you have positively impacted. Thank you for sharing this update with us. Take care of yourself.

[@MyFrankHut]

Steven Hill Hero!

[@GabrielTravelerVideos]

Awesome story.

[@Kyle-uu4mr]

Incredible, thanks for sharing!

[@pcholtz]

I think it’s great that you are addressing these issues, as I feel like far too often social media is all about pretend happiness and those seemingly perfect lives we all try to impress each other with. Looking forward to more from this new Ben Brown! 🙌

[@jackwilson4916]

Very well said!

[@pcholtz]

Jack Wilson thanks, man! 🙏

[@mkohagan]

Sucks to hear that you've been down recently man. Especially as I've been following you for at least 3/4 years now. I hope the time off is slowly helping you to improve your well-being/happiness in general. Edit: posted this just before you mentioned Nicole :'( *cries inside*. I remember about 3 years ago when you guys took a break

[@callumliles2513]

Human vulnerability is such a gorgeous thing. We are imperfect creatures and we need to accept that. Our bodies will fail, and our minds likewise. What matters is the love in our hearts. And Ben you are full of it x

[@ShennaPinkett]

Life is a never ending journey. Just know that whatever you're going through, it gets easier with every passing day. Take care of yourself physically and mentally. You've got this, Ben.

[@ab_y2k]

It takes balls to open up the way you have mate and I know for a fact that you'll come back from this twice the person you are now ❤

[@Iamtimchung]

TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF BEN! As you said yourself, try not to get lost of killed. You're on the track to recovery and back at it! EXCITED FOR THE FUTURE!

[@yourdad4427]

You’ve been my idol since I was about 14 or something like that. I’m nearly 20 now and you’ve been a big inspiration for me and I respect that you’re willing to talk about what you’re going through because it is a lot. Thank you for being so honest and I hope everything works out. Can’t wait to see what’s in store for the future for you, Ben :)

[@kevk4908]

your dad ohh shit same. I’ve been watching since I was about 14-15 years old. I’m 17 now.

[@yourdad4427]

Kev K It’s so cool to see the difference he’s made in all of our lives! :)

[@Claudia_K.]

Ben, I have been watching your blogs on and off for over 5 years now and I want to hereby send you a big virtual hug. Because in 2013/14 you were my virtual hug and helped me with my life by living your inspiring life. All the best to you, hope you feel better soon! x

[@Heavylow]

When you hit rock bottom, while you're struggling, its a great foundation to which you can build and which you can grow. It seems like you're doing just that. Keep your head up and keep moving forward. Life always works its way out.

[@xGiGsh]

Hey Ben, always remember that there are thousands of people who love you and will support you in the highs and lows. and always keep this in your mind after the darkness there's always light.

[@10steely]

Bro you do whatcha gotta do, I’m not going anywhere - just bought two of your prints, and if/when you upload I’ll watch. Stay positive if you can, look into therapy if you need, and continue getting up every morning. You got this. Get better Ben ♥️

[@athiaan]

My heart dropped and I was upset to hear all this happen to you man we never want to go through all this stuff. Moving house, Nicole and you becoming just friends and your stressed I feel for you Ben life can definitely be hard sometimes I've been through a lot recently and right now and I and many others have had similar experiences to what you have been through I'm a bit stressed at the moment from GCSEs I hope everything changes for you mate and life gets a 1000% better just keep doing what your doing keep taking photos, keep meeting new people and like you said to us over the past vlogs stay awesome keep smiling and try to not get lost or killed and everything should get better for you. You are a great and lucky man and just know that you have made a massive impact on me and thousands of other people to do more and create more. and I think I need to speak for all of us when I say get well soon. Your have thousands of people here for you and WE LOVE YOU BEN !

[@benbrown]

🙏🏼thanks dude

[@athiaan]

Dutch Drone Adventures Thank you man appreciate it ! Very true as well we have to fight for a lot of stuff in life and it is not easy sometimes we can't have everything we want in life unfortunately.

[@leoniekatharina4383]

Don't stress yourself out too much, we'll still be here when you get better and always excited to see your content. You're one of my favourite content creators on youtube, super down to earth. But take care of yourself first, health always comes first before anything. Thank you for your honesty!! Gett well soon

[@jenniferw5648]

Everyone deserves to let out their frustrations and words of their feelings (good and bad). I have had many patients with Bell's Palsy in my line of work. Please do take care of yourself and give yourself room to heal physically and emotionally. You have created a space where your art is appreciated no matter how long it takes to produce. Take care.

[@jamesnebraska78731]

Ben--If others have already said this, then just let me reiterate: With ALL that is going on in your life now (the breakup with Nicole, health issues, general unhappiness, etc.), please do NOT disregard your mental health. All that is happening in your life now can be overwhelming, and you have too much talent and ability for it to get the better of you. Please consider talking to an expert--if for nothing more than coping mechanisms. One thing in particular flashed a red light for me: when you said you wanted only to sleep in on Sundays and not leave your bedroom. Withdrawal from the world is not what you need! Take care, friend, you're on a wonderful journey, and you have much further to go ...

[@ronaldhnl]

Ben, please read the following. It might not be palsy. It might be due to nerves that are being pressed in your neck/back due to the fall you had a while ago on the bike. Reason I’m saying this is that my mom fell while at the beach and landed very hard in wet sand. Slipped some disks in her neck and back but didn’t recognize it. A few days later her face looked the same as yours. Dokter’s said it would ease out but after a week nothing changed. I asked my chiropractor friend to examine her and he set a lot of things straight. She had a lot of misalignments. 10 minutes after treatment you could see noticeable improvements with her lip and eye. Day after that it was 1/2 way better. A week later, all was back to normal. Who knows if and how she would’ve coped if her nerves damaged more due to the misalignments of disks and bones. Please be safe then sorry, go to a formidable chiropractor ASAP. Hope this reaches you. Take care!!

[@benbrown]

Thanks dude :)

[@JanakiBananaki]

I said the same to him. If he doesn't start treatment right away, it could become permanent. He also needs to tape his eye closed at night. He can't close it and he can inadvertently scratch his eye. He doesn't need any more crap to add to his life. Time to pull back and take care and reassess life.

[@ronaldhnl]

Hope you get it checked and that it helps. If so, please let me know ;)

[@igod8054]

what happended to his eye?

[@youytubey]

A chiropractor won't help

[@JordanPike]

Ben, dude, I love you so much man. I know that's weird coming from a random fan on the internet, but all of us BROWNIES love you so much and deeply care for you and wish you all the happiness in the world. Life has it's ups and downs, that's for sure, but bottom line, we just all want you to feel better and find all the happiness. I can relate to your current situation in a lot of ways, so I really do feel for you man. You've had such a beautiful and meaningful impact on so many of us. The inspiration you spread is incredible. You've truly made this world a better place, and I thank you so much for that. Hang in there dude, things will definitely get better and (like another comment I read here), you'll come out a stronger and wiser person from it all. I'm going to Guatemala in a few days and I just can't wait to be in a new environment traveling and exploring. I feel like it'll be such a good healing process for me. Maybe a solo trip or with a close buddy could be good for you too?! Take so much care Ben. Take your time for yourself and just feel awesome. Positive daily habits is key! Meditation could be really nice as well (I mean to practice this more myself). Love you dude! -Jordan

[@tetherow7]

Ben, much love man. I started watching your videos 3 years ago while recovering from surgery. Had 3 surgeries that year and your videos helped me stay positive during that whole ordeal. Still watching today. You’ve impacted people’s lives more than you’ll ever know, and you’ll bounce back better than ever! Working hard and being nice to people, Corey

[@chloeryan0730]

Oh Ben! I'm sending you a huge virtual hug!!! Get back on track soon man! And pleeeeease let your health be your priority right now! Mental & physical! Take care mate!

[@zack8399]

Ben, I met you a few weeks into my 9 month stay in South Africa. You put me in the vlog and it was a nice, brief, encounter. But I regret not telling you how much your videos meant to me. I was in a car accident in 2014, I had to quit work and went into a year of recovery, every night I would watch your vlog while I did my stretches. It was my way of knowing adventure and life was still out there, still happening even though I couldn't partake in it the way I use too. Life does get tough and goes through ups and downs. Surround yourself with good people :)

[@LukeLifeCharms]

One thing I have always admired about you in you genuine personality and honesty! Thank you so much for letting us know how you are! You are one of the reasons that i started vlogging!! Thank you for all that you do, and we are all here for you!!!

[@docmuhannad]

keep strong man we love you . you're one of the kindest and Good hart people out there. . everything will be ok ✌️✌️

[@misstinsley2010]

Ben..I found your channel during a very low period in my life. You and Nicole inspired me to get back into life again. Your channel is great medication for a broken spirit. Sending you and Nicole nothing but love and positive vibes...and many thanks♡

[@liambauer]

This is crazy to go back and watch after seeing where you're at now 🙏✨️

[@gardenofchelsea]

Aw, this one hit me in the feels. I’ve been watching you for many years now and I’ve always known you to be the most happy, down to earth person so to see you going through rough times, it’s like I just want to jump through the screen and give you a fat hug and tell you everything is going to be just fine, but seeing as I can’t, I’ll say it instead. I hope you start to feel better soon. Please take care of yourself, I don’t want to see you lose that cheeky Ben spark that we all know you to have. Praying for you also, God bless! ♥️

[@twelge15]

Thats a lot to take in 2 months, Ben. We are all here for you. Saw you in Louis' video last week and you seemed pretty pumped which was great to see. But, no matter what has happened, you have one of the greatest groups of friends one can ask for. An incredible family back in Surrey. And, all of us out here to fall back on. What a tremendous support system that is. It's true that depressing world events are weighing heavily on everyone. But, the positive ones like SpaceX' souring success, record breaking philanthropy lifting up the poorest all around the world, and the unbelievable technological advances with exploration of space, discovery of new planets & solar systems, helps me shrug off the bad news every day. The knowledge that these depressing events are only temporary, correctable pauses in the unstoppable upward movement of our individual and collective lives will always keep me smiling. You guys had some unforgettable years together. Lets cherish them, and move on to greater adventures. Remember, amicable breakups are a gift. Those are the ones you want to experience. You also may be suprised how much you enjoy the freedom of being single. You can finally choose where you want to go, and what you want to do. I wish nothing but the best for both of you, and fully intend to follow you both in your separate journeys without a hint of disdain or drama. I suggest that's what everybody else here should do as well ☺. Heal up well, Ben. We'll see you soon.

[@BethanyStrublevlogs]

Holy shit you're going through a lot. Just commenting to let you know that you're supported and a lot of people wouldn't even know what to do with the cards you've been dealt. The way you're feeling is warranted but yeah the only one who can pick yourself back up is you. Hope you find that inspiration and motivation again. x

[@gc4943]

Both my brother and my son suffered with Bells Palsy and I have witnessed what a mind-fuck it can be, that along with the injury and the breakup seem incomprehensible, except for one thing, you are Mr Ben Brown. Not blowing smoke up your ass but you are a vlogging (cinematographer, storyteller, editor ) genius and as the cliche goes " this too shall pass" and things will return to normal. Stay strong and keep doing what you do. Vasbyt ! You have a lot of people cheering for you !

[@markallan1596]

Yo Ben just wanna say how much of a legend and inspiration you are. Don't really comment on youtube but had to say how great it's been watching your stuff and seeing you photography. You speak so well, stay positive, do something you enjoy ( I find sitting in the surf really good when i'm stressed) and God bless bro.

[@FilippoMasoni]

I've watched this twice, and I would have never thought I would listen somebody that I don't know, talk about his life for 20 minutes. Maybe it's because it feels like I've known you for 5 years. When I say this, I think I speak for many of us Brownies: you are a great inspiration to a lot of us. If I really think about it, you are the reason I picked up a camera 4 years ago and do photography. Now it's part of my work and definitely part of my life. Traveling and exploring nature became my favorite thing thanks to photography. And that's all because of you Ben! Again, I strongly believe I'm not the only one. This should be the reason you should start vlogging again (not daily) while doing the things you love! Yes it give you less time to sleep, granted haha, but it will also give you a push to work harder and create more on a schedule. All of this inspiring people and creating a strong community. I've never seen such wonderful conversations as it used to be in your comment section. Yes KZbin's changed, social media's changed, but you still have the power to influence (for real, not the bullshit influencer stuff) a great audience of like minded people that are the brownies. Don't let this go to waste. Cheers Ben, I hope you see this.

[@phynx2006]

Really appreciate the update Ben, sorry to hear about you and Nicole, that was a shocker, but glad to hear you'll still remain friends. Stay well my friend and looking forward to see what inspirations you have for 2018.

[@vancemccarthy2554]

They've broken up before. About 4 years ago. Long distance relationships are hard.

[@Lady95Jane]

Oh, Ben, please take time when you need to. Your true supporters understand and want the best for you. Behind you all the way.

[@Klaireschar]

I weirdly love this video.. not because you're going through a hard time, but because of how authentic it is. You are an awesome human being, Ben, and humans struggle! Those who are genuine are able to recognize that it's okay to not be happy and positive constantly, it's not realistic. But you're strong enough to keep going, I'm really proud of ya. I wish you the best!

[@gxrlboi]

Huge props to you for being so honest. I don't think I could be so brave. You're a sound dude, genuinely inspirational.

[@Doogh88]

Very rarely comment on videos. I've been going through personal struggles myself as of late. I've been following you since the very early days of the vlog. One thing that shows, or what you've shown us is that you'll pull through it. If you need anything you've got plenty of us here ready to help!

[@BusLifeNZ]

The perks of editing late, get to see a Ben Brown Vlog early! The old brain can be a torturous beast. I've been in some bad places in the past with PTSD. Feeling you...

[@MsYazzzzzz]

Bus Life NZ 😊 watching your vlogs too. Greetings from China

[@BusLifeNZ]

Awesome!

[@jamesbearpark3794]

Sounds like you've been having some pretty big changes in your life. Get well soon Ben! Good luck in the future

[@annacraigie8458]

Ben, I have loved you and your channel ever since I came across it 3 years ago. Your constant passion and energy was amazing - we all love you the same now. Take as long as you need, as time heals. We'll always have your back bro. Love from Australia 🇦🇺

[@JWebb6777]

Man, as shitty it is for you to be going through what you're going through, it's great to hear you're open to talking about it and sharing it with us because I know how heavy stress/anxiety can be and I'm sure uploading this has provided at least a half percent of therapeutic relief. As a longtime follower, I can say you have personally been an inspiration to my life with your overall good vibes. I've dealt with the physical aspects of anxiety myself from numb limbs,cold sweats and chills, and even being hospitalized from such an increased blood pressure level. Although I'm not 100% there, I've found ways to mitigate the things that trigger my anxiety as well as help me through rough times and watching your videos is sincerely one of those things that I'm thankful to have found in life. You're a sincere, rad, and hard working human and I have no doubt you're going to feel better, physically and mentally, soon. As cliche the saying is, everything gets better in time. Stay strong man and get out there and surf through a cave or something, dammit ;) Yewwww One love

[@deeprao3406]

Just wanted to share one of my favorite quotes by Sigmund freud "One day, in retrospect, the years of struggle will strike you as the most beautiful." Best of luck for future endeavors

[@benbrown]

embracing the feeling and learning from it, growing stronger, with this quote in mind :) thank you

[@cinetrailDE]

Life is all about those up and downs - so keep it up Ben! You‘re still my fav KZbinr 🤙🏼

[@ptjzmemory]

Hundreds of thousands of us know you as a beautiful strong inspiring gifted man. We will keep you in our hearts as you take the time to heal and reconfigure your life. There is a lot of positive momentum in all the good we feel in and around you. Take the time do do what you need to do. We will be here when you get back. 🐾

[@brianholder7534]

Ben, I have followed your channel for years and have always enjoyed your uplifting spirit. Having dealt with mental health challenges within my own family, I can say that it can be a wrecking ball that impacts all those that love and support you. It can start out small, but can snowball - take care of yourself and get some help. There is no shame in dealing with it (it has a social stigma that does nothing but keep people form getting help) - it is no different than diabetes, or heart disease - why would you not treat those? Its real and can be very successfully treated. Your mental state is the foundation of who you are, respect it. I wish you the best and look forward to seeing some great Mr. Ben Brown productions in short order.

[@outthere2]

Absolutely blown away by this update. You are a product of your environment. I won't give you any advice, but just realize you are giving yourself advice here. Change your environment! Lot's of Happy thoughts to you from Canada Bro.

[@MrAlexGreen.]

Get well soon Ben. We all want you to recover fully and get back to being yourself again. You're someone I've looked up to for years! Get better asap man!

[@masteringfemininepower]

Wow this is a lot Ben. I’ve had actual anxiety about you and Nicole for weeks, I sensed you guys had split a while back and not having the confirmation has had you guys on my mind every day, weird I know for someone who has never met you guys! I really feel for you Ben, you are going through a whole lot all at the same time. It’s unusual to see you go through this as you have always been the benchmark for a happy and appreciative guy living his best life. I’ve said countless times to people close to me that my dream is to have a lifestyle and squad like you have created. The bright side of this is that this time is necessary for you to experience, you are going to learn and grow so much from this time in your life and you are going to come out of this better and stronger. I hope you see this as a levelling up time in your life and appreciate every moment of it even tho it feels kak. You have such an incredible crew around you and I have every faith that things will be even better in no time. Much love to you Ben 💚

[@MsYazzzzzz]

Dame International me too

[@feliciacloete]

I’ve also been stressing about Ben and Nicole for a couple weeks! Glad I wasn’t to only one.

[@wasim3733]

Same here.. ever since Nicole went to the Finland alone, ive been thinking that they've split up.. sad to hear that they have 🙁

[@ClanAmok]

Sending you positive vibes Ben, you inspire me

[@camillaevald4175]

Ben, I've been a silent follower for years, and enjoy your content immensely. I don't quite know what to say except that my heart goes out to you! Sometimes life throws you curve balls, I hope you emerge from this stronger and happier. Take care!

[@Mitche92]

This video makes my heart warm! I am an emergency nurse and hearing someone realize some realities that we go through on a daily basis makes me so happy. I have such an appreciation for what you do and it gives me an escape from my work. You are incredibly talented, keep doing what you are doing because it truly matters! This is just a bump in the road, you are inspiring. Thank you!!!!!!!!! Sending you strength from Nunavut Canada!

[@MrMattMcC]

This has solidified my respect for you Ben. You're an amazing human and I feel for you. I have no doubt that you will bounce back 10 fold. Try not to get lost or killed✌

[@MichaelVettas]

back to basics mate, thats the only way to do it, i had a smiliar time to you end of 2015 coming off the best 2 years of my life, then a long term relationship break up, business struggles, life, health etc, took me 18 months but did the hard reset, went back to basics and its been the best 8 months, its just a road bump that we need to steer around, take your time, one day at a time, i didnt believe people when they said it does get better but it does.

[@JayRengin]

Genuinely upset with everything you're going through! You've been a massive inspiration for me; more than most content creators and I'm actually crushed that you're going through a bad time. I miss the old videos; but would rather you take as much time as you need to recoup! Also, quite happy you're active on IG :)

[@canod000]

Ben as I read through all of these comments, one thing seems to be very clear... you have had a tremendous impact on thousands of people’s lives. Personally, your videos were the little glimmer of light in my day. I met you once at a jloops concert in nyc and expressed the same sentiment. I told you thank you because you genuinely helped me get through the darkest period of my life. Now it’s time for all of us to help you through yours. You have been an inspiration and a motivation these last few years and I again want to thank you from the bottom of my heart. Broken bones heals and these shitty feelings will fade... as long as you stay true to your passions and to who you are as a person, you’ll thrive. I wish you and Nicole the best of luck through whatever endeavors you face through life. I want you... to remember to work hard, be nice to people, and try not to get lost of killed.

[@kateohara1122]

BEN! I met you once on your birthday at beer house and I check in on this channel every once in awhile. It is honestly the only thing I watch on youtube and this is my first comment EVER! I was so moved by this video I just had to thank you. Thank you for being so open, honest, and genuine. It takes true bravery to confront your feelings and even more to share them with the world. I wish you all the best and know the changes coming up will be for the better. I can't wait to see whats up your sleeve next!!!

[@DaneAndStacey]

Rough, rough times man - we felt every emotion with you there. You're a legend and you're stronger than anything the world throws at you. Focus on your passions and keep creating, reduce that stress and take a breathe, follow your own advice and look at those positives. Take a trip and explore! We'd love to hang if you feel like a trip to Bali creating 🎥🤘🏼

[@BeastModeIII]

Time is the only remedy. Take some for you and yourself only and fill it with new experiences, new people, new places. All the best Ben.

[@Larsernxd]

Good to have you back! Good luck on your recovery 🙏

[@dylanperkins7520]

Man, you've had it rough and still try to put a positive spin on things that is one special human. Wish you all the best with everything and hope that this year things fall into place more for you

[@brit4340]

Keep moving forward Ben! It’s gotta be so hard being with Nicole for so long, losing that love and support of someone sooooo close to you! The limited mobility and your appearance and the house move! Your not alone! ❤️Go through your dark tunnel and come out to the light. Take time for your soul to come together again! Don’t worry about over promising your self to your channel! Your viewers are here for your FULL recovery with understanding and kind words. Sending positive vibes your way from Canada 🇨🇦💓

[@milesofmxments]

i love you, ben! you were the reason i started making videos and doing photography. i went freelance in august and haven't looked back since. we're all here for you and patiently waiting your next masterpiece. thank you for being so transparent

[@emilstegfeldt]

You are strong Ben, hope you get well quick! And Im looking forward to you going back to basics. You rock, keep it up.

[@JosephWatson13]

@ben - You have motivated so many people over the years, you have nothing to worry about when it comes to KZbin. You have a family of 710K people here to help

[@marsmarion4215]

take the time that you need and do what makes you happy bro, your happiness and well being is so much more important than anything else in life!! we love you ben!!

[@chandans]

Ben huge fan ever since Canada Visual vibes! You’ve inspired me to travel and live every day to the fullest! All the brownies know the growth you’ve been going through for months and months now. We have all been supporting you. Breaks my heart to hear about Nicole. The love you had for her was inspiring and inspired me to treat my better half with so much insane love. Any woman would be lucky to have you by her side. We all wish you nothing but the best! Hope to see you in Toronto again!

[@MattDXN]

You’re an incredibly genuine guy, and also very strong minded by the looks of things. I wish you the best Ben. Follow your instincts and look after yourself, I’m sure you will. All the best my friend.

[@Steve-Owens]

Hey Ben, I met you a couple of times now and you're always such a lovely guy. Keep it real buddy, have as much time as you need to recharge. I often wondered if I were 20 Years younger if I would have driven as Hard as you guys do? As you get older succeeding is far less important. Set your Bars much Lower and allow yourself not to get over them. I really feel for you and Lou and many of the usual crew, that Push yourselves so hard, there is no finish line Ben, take a tip from a Tortoise, sit as long as you can, watch, contemplate, dream and then plod along. You clearly need some regular down time, people don't realise that what "we" do takes more time and effort than a 9-5.. So award yourself MUCH more time off. Let your mind lay Fallow as often as you can so that it can recover and reap the benefits. Peace out buddy Steve

[@PatBatemanAtDorsia]

This is the reason I stayed subscribed to you, regardless of whether you upload daily, weekly, monthly,.... - you are genuine & authentic, and that in itself it more motivating than most of the fake "my life is amazing" content that a lot of us see pop up on our feeds. Stay strong & your fans will always support you as you climb the ladder.

[@YolandaL]

There is no words that can explain how heavy my heart is watching you talk about these stuff that's happening in your life. One of the comment below says that you're a freakin' warrior and I completely agree with that. To go through life each day is definitely not easy with all that. Ben, live your life day by day. Try not to stress out too much. Do whatever makes you happy. Everyone deserves to be happy.

[@aimonpolidano]

I'm so shook. Get well soon Ben. Much love and positivity vibes!

[@sjpiran]

Take care of yourself Ben. You're loved by so many people around the world. xx

[@ellisj98]

Take care dude. We all look forward to your videos as they are so unique and positive but your life and your health are so much more important, so please take time for healing.

[@v1d300]

Dude. You were so top of your game! It is so weird to see life turn around in such a way for you. Hang in there man. Things will get better, they always do. Just be honest with what you do and keep working your way up the ladder you will find success, peace and happiness again. I am certain. Thank you for sharing honestly. Take care and keep growing buddy! Keep growing.

[@capithetitan]

Oh Ben, I'm having a really stressful and rough year too. You are not alone don't forget that. You have people, strangers like me, who wish you the best. Sending love from Orange county, California ❤☺

[@leesavage3029]

you have been my idol for years ben, you were the only person i watched. im really sorry to hear about all the stuff thats going on. stay strong man.

[@trisamaulidya6820]

Wow so much happened in short period of time, be strong 🙌🙏 my friend also got balpas and his mother always massge his face with warm towel, chewing practice and medicine from doctor. He recovered in 6 months 😊 Avoid sleeping or working directly facing the AC, maintain the sleeping hour (avoid stay up late), exercise (but your lifestyle is required lots of movement tho LOL), know your limit maybe its a little reminder that your body and your mind needs lil bit a time off. Fast recovery 🙏🙌

[@SpencerStanley]

Man, I really hope you're feeling better. I love how honest you are. DO YOU, don't worry about anyone else but yourself right now. Hope everything gets better man.

[@SpencerHogg]

I'm literally sad to hear this Ben :( But I know life is life and the way things work sometimes just is the way things are, nothing you can do but live on. Hoping you're feeling better soon and your arm heals, and wishing the best for you and Nicole. Although I know you guys will continue to be so cool and inspiring. Hope you may still come visit Banff this year and do a little meetup / photo hangout/ walk??

[@Sashank0796]

I am not a regular here..but from what ive seen from the visual vibes videos..you have a keen eye for beauty..know that it's always there..even now when it doesnt seem so..it takes a lot of courage to come out and talk about the difficult times..and you are amazingly strong! I wish you the best..i wish you find whatever you need to get back up and running..your beauty awaits you..ten fold in its magnitude :)

[@caddyzig]

I’m really glad you’re okay, Ben. I’ve missed your videos and hope you get everything sorted out soon. You’re such a talented and special person. Take care of yourself. The world needs more people like you! Sending you lots of strength.

[@Hemlock.]

I feel for you Ben, seems like your dealing/dealt with a lot recently looking back to seeing you back on your feet, but don't rush it you do whatever is best for you bro

[@itsamyyy91]

Sucks about the bells palsy... take care of yourself first Ben. We miss you!!! Understandable that uve fallen out of love with vlogs. I would happily watch films by you and music videos any day of the week ❤️ So sorry to hear about you and Nicole. At least u know whats best. Congrats on the apartment. Just come back to us whenever YOU are ready to do so. 👌🏻

[@ZouhirADAM]

Great to see you back. I hope this new chapitre will give a push for a new start. I know it's hard sometimes will feel like everything is over but no . If we are alive is for a reason. Anyway good recovery and take care

[@cam-asherbond5316]

Mate... It took me a while to watch this video. I don't usually comment, I just pop in, and enjoy your content. But I have to say, I relate to this more then most anything I've heard, or read, or seen. Not long ago, I got a stress induced case of the shingles, at 22 years old! I got super sick, and lost heaps of muscle and weight. Shortly after, I had an accident while out shooting in the ice, and wound up bed ridden again. Fast forward 3 months, and my Relationship of 6 years started to wind down, in a friendly and kind way. But it was hard none the less. Amid all of this, I was prepping to move across the world, to Australia, by myself, knowing no one. All that being said, I'm thankful you shared, mate. I guess I shared.... Just so you can take comfort in knowing that we all go through it together. Big love, big ups, big stoke! Cheers

[@JacobCarlson]

I'm excited for your future, Ben. Extreme events and circumstance are what build us as humans. Our personalities are shaped by events like these and I'm confident that you are the type of person that comes out of the other end stronger. You've shown us that you are. I look forward to what comes next. Cheers!