Holding Absence - Penance (OFFICIAL MUSIC VIDEO)

[@lucasanastassiou2241]

For me, one of the most beautiful moments in music is the way Lucas sings very softly "I am enough to feel happiness and love, it's hard to say out loud I deserve to be happy now" and then once it kicks in, with a sense of triumph, he belts out "well I deserve to be happy now". Pure art, not just in the words but also the dynamics accompanying the phrases. Love it.

[@larsmich1874]

These guys are melodic poets, Most of the songs from them are incredibly deep and well performed. I have these boys in my car constantly, all I listening to.

[@imperialdemon5648]

Idk if you’d be interested,but I think another moment that rivals this one is almost the exact same way of singing but with a song called “Words that don’t exist” by Citizen Soldier, around the time stamp 1:53-2:05 in the song : )

[@lucasanastassiou2241]

@Imperial Demon I shall give a listen. I do like some citizen soldier, cheers for the suggestion 👍

[@Twizyler]

This song touches my soul on so many levels. I feel the pain in his voice and It's almost as if we're the same person feeling and going through the same thing.

[@Vail_Music]

Spotify just recommended this song to me 10 minutes ago. I don't cry to songs, but this one broke me because I feel the content of this song every day, to such an extreme degree. It gets harder to live as the days go by. Thanks for putting into words what I could not. I appreciate you, more than you know.

[@esdrhhh1234]

I very much thank SharpTone Records for having an amazing setup of artists. I have never fell in love with a band as fast as I just did with Holding Absence after hearing this song. I thank you from the bottom of my heart for this beautiful piece of work.

[@SharpToneRecords]

Fuck yes! you're welcome

[@Vincent_Djents]

@@SharpToneRecords That's awesome.

[@alleyosun]

Took the words out of my mouth, just 3 years later.

[@esdrhhh1234]

@@alleyosun And another year later, hell yes.

[@MrEL91N]

Can't wait for these guys to blow up. Their music is so refreshing.

[@joshhayes5561]

This song gives me goosebumps every time. So well written, and the vocals are absolutely amazing.

[@lukebailey3023]

So powerful, really feel the emotion. The chorus is unreal I can't stop listening, his voice is beautiful.

[@MrEL91N]

When I first heard this song I thought “wow this would be hard to do live” and after seeing what few live videos there are of these guys I can confidently say this song is one of their strongest live. I’m constantly being blown away by their talent.

[@heliosm-ky3ie]

I have listened to this song a hundred times now and still not getting tired. Inspires me so much.

[@rittis013]

Me too, countless time and still about to cry

[@tbsjames]

Same. Literally hundreds

[@unrealjacko6160]

Absolute masterpiece, so emotionally deep man the feels are real. We need a full-length album boys!!

[@SarahAlKaissi]

Chills all over my body. I am so blown away by this song and this video and Lucas's voice. Can't find the words to further express my love for you guys.

[@Daniel-kz3df]

Same here. This isn't just a song, it's an experience.

[@sortation]

This is just one of those songs that I will forever come back to. I am hurt, but I am grateful.

[@monkesaymonkedo7932]

4:30 “I am enough To feel happiness and love It’s hard to say out loud... I deserve to be happy now” Poetic and captivating. Thank you Holding Absence for showing me something beautiful to cope with mental illness.

[@vader97100]

I'm really digging it, it's a pretty fresh sound for combination of Metalcore, Melodic Hardcore, and even some Shoegaze distortion

[@Blayney1989]

So damn good. You guys are one of my "I saw them before they were huge" bands I'm convinced.

[@MrMatamatic]

Agree !!!!!!!!!

[@duboiskenty6074]

I can say that for Defeater and Code Orange. Hope you'll be able to bandwagon in the hypster train buddy.

[@holdingabsence]

Thank you for your love and continued support in our music. Hopefully we'll see you at a show soon?

[@Blayney1989]

Holding Absence any time you play Cardiff or Swansea I'll be there

[@SkuLLyJai]

Come to Los Angeles @holdingabsence! I'll be front row singing my ass off

[@duboiskenty6074]

Counterparts and Holding Absence releasing a song on the same week. Melodic Hardcore is alive.

[@holdingabsence]

Thank you for your love

[@MarkLePage]

Where's the album, guys?

[@ghostirisdk]

Well, damn. That was... No, no words.

[@djentile7773]

Ghost Iris pretty much lol

[@oppsie6338]

Ayyyye ghost iris

[@robertbellman8545]

dude these guys were on dreambound like 4 or 5 months ago so sick!

[@augustowens711]

This is the best song I've ever heard. It really reaches into the deepest parts of my heart. I can feel every word and note.

[@ReallyMichaelRicc]

There’s no words for what this made me feel. This band was found in the time I most needed them. I can’t wait to see them blow up.

[@DanteDacoit]

It´s hard to say out loud: '' We deserve an album now''.

[@dustinechos5853]

"Well we deserve an album now!!!!!!!"

[@CFLaughs]

This song has one of the most emotional endings I've ever heard and I needed it!

[@psplad12345]

'I wasted my time falling in love with the thought of falling in love with someone.'

[@rittis013]

cuts deep

[@raybaten1121]

Sobs internally

[@9am516]

'am i killing time or killing myself, i think im killing myself sometimes'

[@antondubakin558]

Sounds logical:D

[@yballaw2714]

this song is so fucking good, holding absences best imo

[@donniedixon7412]

I've never experienced this many chills going over my skin before.. this song has so much emotion. I'm in love. You guys are making music the right way.

[@makenziecook8693]

Favorite band ever! This is one of the bands that's gonna get huge and I hope they do they deserve it

[@alecbell849]

Wow. You know i'ts a good song when you get chills non stop.

[@rikuasakura]

This song speaks to me on so many levels. My favorite song from you guys. Thank you for helping me realize that all my years of wasting time falling in love with the thought of falling in love with someone was a lesson in misery. I did my penance and I know I deserve to be happy now

[@playbackmylife]

Dude, I feel you.

[@rikuasakura]

This song still leaves me speechless. I will love it forever

[@michaelberger95]

"permanent" was already unbelievable, but this is incomparable. incredible band

[@shhsjfkf2832]

The best song this band gave us, video too. I always come back when I need a travel through my emotions, thanks for the tears

[@OrangeCounty92]

This was overwhelmingly intense. Hit me in the feels. This is when you know the music good.

[@SkumleBones]

I hope this band never changes.....these songs are so beautiful, I found this band at my lowest point, oddly it gives art and a sense of music to the relatable pain.

[@dennishaker3273]

I'm a fan of Metal for good 15 years now, and after all this time I rarely still get goosebumps from listening a song for the first time. Thanks for giving me this feeling again! I think I found a new Band to follow

[@christinartnd]

I am absolutely loving how melodic this one is. a fucking masterpiece, yet again!

[@Immolator772]

Hey, i've heard your music as well, it's pretty good.

[@darkb_l00m]

i'm legitimately crying right now this hit way too close to home

[@MrScatliffe1]

My God.... this is beautiful

[@shankiman]

Its a very deep and powerful song, woow... speechless

[@TheBassHeavy]

This, for me, is the best piece of music in the last 5-10 years. Fucking amazing!

[@Ecletix420]

So happy I found this band when I did. You guys are so good. Breathtaking really

[@mylife1221]

wow, the music video portrays this song so well. i always thought of beautiful nature after the bridge of this song

[@jessikaellis8792]

hope to see more music! 😩 holding absence is becoming my favorite band! would love to see more from you guys!

[@mannyalvarado403]

This is how i almost exactly how i pictured how the video would go... just astounded by these guys. Just "wow".

[@MURDERMYNAME]

The emotions and feels in this song WOW just fucking awesome

[@victorbrunerie7284]

This song gives me chills every time! And live it's wonderful to see how everything's coming together! They will be huge trust me ! Next year will be Holding Absence's year ! Can't wait for the LP to drop !

[@TSArtwork]

Breathtaking

[@jonhoolio]

would love to see a video for this one! this might be my song of the year

[@tarasmith1278]

this showed up randomly on my KZbin..thank God! love this!!

[@techno588]

I hope you guys make it and never stop creating music

[@HeavyMetalMatt]

Just seen these guys live in Birmingham and OH MY GOD!!!! I have just found my new heaven..... They are just as good live if not better than on youtube!!! Bring on the next time I go to see them.... I would so be there!!!

[@TheNewNo1se]

Lucas bro your vocals are just constantly going from strength to strength from the Falling With Style days! The music sounds so tight.

[@simonclayforth196]

After seeing you lads at key club I've been blown away. St Cecilia has been on my daily play list, yes months now, this is on it now. The video is awe inspiring. Genius!!!

[@bonsonburner]

Just discovered this band right now by clicking on this video. I love it!

[@solarflarez2725]

Bunstrocity same

[@Digitalxknife]

This is amazing. Passionate and emotional.

[@DarlaRaeDyson]

Almost 3 exact years after hearing, and FaLlinG in LOVE with this SONG & BAND.... I finally UNDERstaNd BOTH SIDES!!!!! BIPOLAR MANIC DEPRESSION CAN NOT FORCE ME TO LIVE IN DARKNESS ANYMORE... I had the best and worst 38 years of LIFE AND DEATH on this earthly planet.... I LITERALLY ALREADY WAS OBSESSED & LISTENED TO THIS SONG ON REPEAT 3 years ago, then MORE LIFE HAPPENED.. I had not heard this song again until TODAY AND ITS INSANE HOW MUCH SENSE THIS SONG MAKES! I know I probably sound a bit off kilter, I know, believe me, I used to drink and self medicate and take meds for my multi diagnosed mental issues, but I’m now clean from alcohol 3 years, and drugs 5 years... and I had my 1st daughter, whom is almost 2 years old... anyways I know that I am more sane NOW then ever in my 38 years but I just had to SHARE ENCOURAGEMENT & KIND WORDS OF MOTIVATION FOR YOU TODAY OR WHEN WVER YOU ARE READING THIS AT 3 am, in YOUR BED ALONE, AT WORK AROUND MILLIONS OF OTHER PEOPLE BUT STILL UTTERLY LONELY, THERE IS HOPE THERE IS LIKE OUT THERE FOR YOU AND THE LAST LINES OF THIS SOMG JUST HIT ME IN MY FACE AND SOUL AND HEART ❤️ PUNCHED ME WITH A REVELATION AND EPIPHANY.... SING ALL THE LYRICS OUTLOUD AS IM SURE YOU HAVE DONE A TRILLION TIMES BUT THIS TIME BELIEVE THAT YOUR SINGING IT TO YOUR IWN WARZONE OF A MESSED UP BRAIN AND LITERALLY EXTEND YOURSELF THE SAME COMPASSION AND LOVE AND HELP YOU OFFER OTHERS AND DEPRIVE YOURSELF OF!!!!! SAY IT AND BELIEVE IT IN THE MIRROR TO YOURSELF, OUTLOUD AT YOUR WORK, AT COLLEDGE, MIDDLE SCHOOL, ELEMENTARY CLASS, TEACHER OR STUDENT, LOVER OR HATER OF LIFE, LITERALLY LOOK YOURSELF IN THE EYE, ( hey record it so U can PLAY IT BACK TO YOURSELF WHEN YOUR HAVING A BAD DAY OR NIGHT SO YOU DONT FORGET TO REMEMBER THAT YOU ARE WORTHY OF LOVE) say it And even if you only believe it a little bit or not at all, borrow my BELIEF , and TELL YOURSELF,... I AM ENOUGH TO FEEL HAPPINESS AND LOVE. ITS HARD TO SAY OUTLOUD, THAT I DESERVE TO BE HAPPY NOW. I DESERVE TO BE HAPPY NOW. YOU DERSEVE TO BE HAPPY NOW TOO AND I BET THAT YOU NEVER REALIZED HOW HARD HITTING THOSE LAST FEW LINES ARE OF THIS AMAZING SONG! THANKS @holdingabsence #holdingabsence @penance #penance BEST SONG of my and your 2017, and also 2019, and into 2020! Hope and PRAYERS that someone heard and listened to these words and these lyrics in a whole new different light and the other flip side of every coin has 2 SIDES... YOU CAN STILL CHOOSE HAPPINESS over DESPAIR everyday, over and over again, every minute is a new start if you do CHOOSE TO GIVE YOURSELF THE LOVE AND HAPPINESS YOU DESERVE TODAY... NOW... and when you get hit by life and Death and Sorrow as life will never be all rainbows and sunshine and unicorns but you CHOOSE JOY ANYWAY... PEACE CAN BE YOURS. ASK FOR HELP! REACH OUT TO SOMEONE YOU LIVE OR TRUST AND IF YOU DONT HAVE THAT RIGHT NOW REACH OUT TO ME! TAG ME! MESSAGE ME PRIVATELY OR COMMENT HERE... I’m not that good and computer savvy so I PRAY AND HOPE YOU TAG ME AND I GET YOUR TAGGED MESSAGE lol 😂 ANYONE STRUGGLING WITH ADDICTION OF ANY KIND, DRUGS, FOOD, TV, WORKAHOLIC, PERFECTIONISM, SHOPAHOLIC, ANY ADDICTION YOU HAVE OR CAN THINK OF, MENTAL HEALTH/-- BE SET FREE TODAY-- choose LIFE! CHOOSE LOVE. CHOOSE JOY OVER SORROW. YOUR ATTITUDE MAKES A HUGE DIFFERENCE BUT I KNOW EASILY SAID AND NOT EASY DONE.. or no one would struggle with Mental Health At ALL of it were easy to ATTAIN, KNOW EDUCATE AND CHOOSE TO LIVE THIS WAY. PLEASE I KNOW YOU CAN DO IT. sorry so long and prayers this helps just 1 person out there in the whole world. If it did help YOU PLEASE SHARE IT WITH AT LEAST 1 other person. Help yourself by helping others. PRAYING PEACE LOVE AND STABILITY OF MIND BODY HEART AND SOUL GOD WILL HELP IF YOU ASK FOR HELP AND BELIEVE YOU CAN START TO CHOOSE TO BE A NEW HEALTHY JOYFUL MOTIVATED PERSON not all the time, 24/7. That is not possible for anyone and if they say it is possible they are lying to you and to them selves. Life is hard and struggle is real daily endurance is needed. Build up YOUR STRENGTH BY CHOOSING TO EXERCISE YOUR RIGHT TO CHIOSE FREEDOM OVER PRESENT PRISON OF YOUR MIND OR PAIN IN YOUR BODY OR LOSS OF JOY AND HOPE IN YOUR HEART AND FEED YOUR SOUL RIGHT NOW AND EVERYDAY ... it sounds simple but it takes effort but WORTH ALL THE EFFORT TO BE ALIVE AND LIVING TODAY AND not laying defeated in depression alone in a dark room ... Ok .... bye for now HOPE TO TALK TO AT LEADT 1 person!

[@claudiaprejean]

Sober 90 days tomorrow and I completely relate. Much love

[@se7enBC1]

Stumbled upon this and my God I am glad I did. this was so good.

[@RaeF0000]

i never comment on youtube but you guys just completely blew me away. i was a huge fan of your first 2 songs but that one tops it all for me! it's more than a song, a beautiful emotional story and you guys are experts in telling the story. keep doing what you do cant wait for more!

[@tannerbussey7895]

The duality of light and dark is so beautiful. It is the only reality

[@Derbinator]

Never heard this band before but the emotion in this song and video is amazing! New fan for sure 🖤🤘🏼

[@Monochrome_Past]

Im listening to your songs everyday again and again and I'm still in love with your songs, lyrics and the voice of your singer! Looking fuckin forward to see u guys very soon to thank you personally for your great music ❤️

[@pongracszoke1049]

Intense music - brutal beautiful -perfect voice !'" My future favorite band ! Amazing !

[@Ang_R17]

The song is on point. I had goosebumps from the beginning to the very end

[@vader97100]

Their next LP or EP should be called "A Lesson in Misery"

[@seanygee333]

Agreed!!

[@alexbaribeault]

They have an album now, but I still agree.

[@blairdavis592]

Constant chills. The whole way through.

[@tannertate6138]

This song is a masterpiece. I’m not sure I’ve ever called a song that.

[@blxssmyaim-8250]

Wow, I have no words, the feels...

[@PatrikVorg]

Penance /ˈpɛnəns/ noun Punishment inflicted on oneself as an outward expression of repentance for wrongdoing.

[@PatrikVorg]

It's a shame that I ever lived. 😔

[@RobynRadio]

Not often can songs and videography bring tears to my eyes. This is fucking beautiful. I think it was brought to me via Spotify discover weekly but I'm so damn grateful this music has reached me. There is power in these lyrics. So much power and emotion and it's so fucking good.

[@JonSamBro]

Holy shit this song/video is moving.

[@testingmyaudioaddiction3452]

I want Eddie Berg of Imminence to collab with these guys or Lucas to collab with Imminence. (No screaming) That would be one of the most beautiful songs I would ever hear!

[@FlunkDesigns]

Absolutely love this song, literally stumbled onto yours by looking at what gigs are going to be in glasgow, unfortunately I'm working the day you're playing :( but you have made it onto my playlist to say the least!

[@nashirra]

I've been listening since Immerse, and every step of the way your music has become more incredible. If you guys ever make it to the states, I will absolutely be there

[@breakthisshitdown011]

damn that was powerful

[@WigionOfficial]

¡¡Ésta banda se merece todo lo mejor!!

[@augustowens711]

Wonderful production as well fellas. Get your butts to my side of the pond before you're too big for local bar shows. You've got a ticket sold here!

[@sedd1234]

This song is insanely good lads. Can't wait for the album, hopefully this is on it as it is superb.

[@adammontano8044]

I NEED MORE YOU GUYS ARE JUST SO GOOD

[@MrHDover3D]

Just found you guys; someone commented on Architect’s Royal Beggars video that was just released that you were also an incredible vocalist. Damn, he was right. You guys sound incredible; you have a new fan! 🔥

[@zacharywinkel9121]

Sending love from a newfound fan in the states!!!

[@AdamBarkleyMusic]

Damn the ending got me! Loving this!

[@edxander7169]

Adam Barkley Music got u crying?

[@idoulike69]

Slowly becoming one of my favorite bands

[@krayphysh]

Legit, my fave band ever. This was the first music video I saw and was wondering why it had taken me so long to discover this band 🤘🤘🤘

[@iwanbrown457]

I've Never Clicked on a Video so Quickly in My Life

[@cristobalgil9283]

I like this band now I'm start listing to them

[@angelinapiccolina7622]

well done guys it's incredible!!

[@moisessantos2731]

Brasil estamos ai... Bons tempos bandas assim ....

[@cradle2dagrav3]

Im not crying! U are!!!

[@eternalconvict1641]

How come it's hard for people to get into this stuff like it's a work of beauty but it's not viral. Why?

[@nonnienoble1093]

Really love this song I like the effects on this video they are one of my favourite bands it was lovely to see them live in Cardiff

[@100bvbfan]

Please tell me you're coming to America soon! I know a lot of people including myself waiting very impatiently🇱🇷

[@Daniel-kz3df]

So will this be a part of an album? I need more!

[@stacia3914]

CHILLS ALL OVER!!! Could a live performance top this!??

[@bengarbutt4700]

Stácia yes

[@dtack777]

Believe it or not, yes!

[@mattsandage7014]

I keep rewinding the part when Lucas Woodland screams, "I deserve to be happy now!"

[@decipher2263]

You ended with this at Download didn't you? ps - Its just incredible.

[@aliyahburnette8018]

Holding absence is awesome I hope they announce a second album.

[@fct4life]

Thank you Spotify!

[@edxander7169]

fct4life Found it through there, too lololol

[@calamitycarl]

Hope they start playing this song live again. Easily one of their best

[@sfmikica]

This is becoming my new favorite band!

[@Vojtakrasa]

These guys were playing a show for free in my city (Prague) so I went in pretty excited to see them for the first time and left with a lot of fucking merch. You guys made a pretty damn good impression on the few people that've been there to also see Loathe.

[@zacharywinkel9121]

SharpTone is on top with these guys! Would love to see them do a supporting tour with my hometown boys, WCAR!!!

[@samirawonderlandfoxmotionl3989]

Big love for you f guys!!!🖤🖤

[@belenvisser4756]

Es la primera ves que la escucho y la verdad me encanto ,Estoy tan impresionada¡¡¡¡ ME RE CEBA,ES GENIAL ESTÁ MUY BUENOOO , RE ATR ...

[@edxander7169]

belen visser Do you even understand it though? Lol