How I healed after the death of my best friend

[@MorganSolo]

Happy Halloween, everyone! I hope this video reaches the person that needs to hear it. If you are trying to navigate the mountain known as grief, please know my heart is with you and I hope this video can help to assist you on the road to finding peace and healing.

[@donnataylor980]

Thanks grief is a very powerful thing. Good to see you. now let me watch the video. Have a great Sunday

[@lisajohn450]

This reached me at the right time, my best friend commited suicide in april of 2015 to then find out last night that she didnt mean to end her own life and now i feel completely lost & broken all over again xx

[@donnataylor980]

@@lisajohn450 I'm so sorry for your loss. I'm sure she's in heaven looking out for you. You will be in my prayers. Just try to remember all the good memories. God bless

[@hupkix]

Thanks for this

[@Maria_Espino]

I love you Morgan and love Our Little Miss Light, Stephi!

[@StephiLee]

Best video so far

[@sukijohnson5398]

I think so too!

[@kirkfortin2103]

@@sukijohnson5398 he is such a natural at speaking to all of us...i really love to hear what is here on this channel

[@Stephlovesnapping]

Absolutely yes. ♥️♥️♥️

[@kgreen8510]

Yup

[@moonlightwonderlust]

I agree keep up the good work Morgan. 👏❤️‍🔥

[@karenflynnhikes]

You've made a difficult choice to move from surface-level vlogging to this deeper content, and it's worth it to the people you touch.

[@BartBourg]

Everyday you're breathing and moving forward. Is another summit reached. Got me cryin' over here bro.

[@jadenrhoden4709]

Bro, me too... and it's been years.

[@goodsoupfreesoup]

I lost my best friend 4 days ago.. I miss her so much

[@deborahwinter5018]

So sorry for your loss! I lost my close friend Someone whom I shared so many intimate moments and created so many memories just a couple of days ago and I am heartbroken!💔 He had a terminal illness and then on top of that got Cancer and it is so hard!

[@somasen4334]

May she rest in peace 🙏🙏

[@AnfecsIan]

I lost my oldest and closest friend this last Tuesday in a motorcycle accident. I've never experienced pain like this, I haven't stopped crying. He was like a brother from another mother. I don't even know where to start with my emotions.

[@bartsimpson9696]

I understand truly, how have you been at this time and date. Seems like it’s been 6 months so I understand how you feel because it’s been almost two years for me. Been there done that sadly. Amazing people though so that’s what makes me smile. Let me know how you’ve been I’d love to know.

[@Bethany0125]

This is exactly how I feel...this is the worst pain I have ever felt! Hugs friend...I hope today is better than yesterday for you.

[@coopergordon2204]

same my brother js died yesterday it’s a pain like no other

[@somasen4334]

May he rest in peace 🙏🙏

[@hayleybayley22]

Approaching the 2 year anniversary of the death of a close friend who died in a freak accident. Your mountain metaphor is so helpful for accepting that I'll never be "okay" with the fact that he died. It's true that I'm one of the luckiest people on earth to have gotten to know him for the brief time that he was here. Thank you so much for making this.

[@sumitturi7135]

Rest in peace to him 🙏🏼 This Saturday my friend was also dead by accident

[@jessicalochner4845]

Thank you for your words. I just lost a best friend...and the pain is extreme. Your words brought me comfort. Thank you

[@jmbtrain1]

Great subject. Over the years with CF at my age of 57. I have lost almost all of my good friends with CF. I feel for you Fibro, normal people just don't understand the kind of depression we feel. I have been to more funerals then I have ever been to weddings, and I used to photograph weddings for a living. One day at a time we step through our life and pain, just keep moving forward.

[@pammym190]

Awww!! I’m so, sorry!! I’m a year younger than you. But, I have Cerebral Palsy.. I just started using walking aids about 4 yrs ago.. I understand you CF people, but, I don’t. I hope you understand what I’m trying to say??✌️

[@eddiefernandez2992]

Eddie from Toronto 🇨🇦: I Lost my Only Friend 10mths ago im 40,Never been married no kids and my friend was Life I Completely Loat my Identity I had no idea who i was i spent every day with "Carlos" i Put him under my wing and sobered him up and i took care of him and i need to tell every this There is No Time Limit! On Greving! Do not feel Ashamed to Mourn The pain Never goes Away u just have good days and bad ones but u always hurt.

[@stephaniethelander925]

I lost both my Dad and brother within 6 months of each other. Not a day goes by that I don't miss them and wish I could talk with them. Grief is never ending and it changes us. Plan for tomorrow but live for today. Always say I love you even when your mad. Love you Morgan! Love this new style of video too. It's been a pleasure to watch you grow and I can't wait for more❤

[@MorganSolo]

So sorry to hear of your loss. My thoughts are definitely with you, but you are 100% correct about grief changing us, although I've learned it doesn't always have to be in a bad way. Thanks so much for enjoying the video and watching!

[@echotheLiz]

I've lost one of my best online friends last week, and sadly couldn't attend his funeral. I've never felt so emotionally wrecked before, since the last time I've lost someone, I wasn't able to fully comprehend the concept of death. He was a great guy, and I miss him. Hearing this today is helping me cope, even if just a little bit. Thank you, I really needed to hear this.

[@starrs1039]

Morgan, this video couldn't have come at a better time for me. I've been watching you for a few years, but I got into the CF YT community through Claire, and she completely changed the way I looked at the world and my own life. When she died it was earth shattering and I didn't even know her personally. I can only imagine how it feels to go through what you did throughout your life. Having lost a fair share of people in my own personal life, this video speaks to me in such a strong way. Your analogy about the summit is so perfect. So happy for you and your change in channel direction. Thank you.

[@MorganSolo]

Thank you so much for watching. I unfortunately never got to meet Claire, but I watched her videos and learned a lot about her through my friendship with Justin. She meant so much to a lot of people, and I hope that I can use my channel and my perspective through CF to give people the same hope and inspiration they had when watching her. ❤️

[@bellaangus1213]

Me too and same ❤️‍🩹

[@angelina3235]

I lost my best friend today. I found out after checking my phone after my job interview. I am in shock and denial. I don't know what to do, and it's hard to process. I love you forever Chloe. You will always be in my heart

[@flowerpower.]

My best friend passed away a week ago. She was 27, had CF and was waiting for her new lungs. She got into the hospital with pneumonia. I wanted to visit her but I had to say goodbye to her on the phone instead. I've gone through hell but the grief is teaching as you said. She was really strong, never complained and lived her life as fully as she could. I wish her carefree breathing and clear air where she is. I've suffered with depression, anxiety and other things before this happened and her loss made me realize how short this life is and that I have to live and do the things I love. I read somewhere that grief doesn't get smaller, life is what will grow around it.

[@charliejohnson4884]

Hello Morgan, I subscribed to your channel today. In January 3, 2014, my mom passed away by suffering to heart failure/heart attack. My mom just adopted me, and my 3 brothers. I missed my mom so much.🙏

[@pinkchaos.]

I always had problems with making friends in my life cause I’m “a little weird”. I found my best friend in middle school, and we were friends for 18 years, talking on video chat every day religiously. Called her for our daily call a few months ago, and the state police answered. Had to tell her estranged parents and sister that she was gone. Think about her every single day. Miss her everyday. Edit. My friend didn’t have any health problems, and the night I talked to her, 2 hours before she died, she was extremely happy and optimistic. Unfortunately, she did drugs, nothing serious, didn’t shoot up, didn’t steal, or do it every day, someone gave her something laced with Fentanyl, and just passed away within 30 minutes. And she didn’t just “fall asleep” unfortunately. I had been to 15 funerals prior to this. Family members, ex boyfriends, friends, etc. nothing compares to losing someone your age, someone so close to you, that you thought would be here with you forever. It just hits differently, and will always be different, and hard.

[@MrGigihp]

With sadness comes strength. You're on a hella path right now. Dont stop... only to smell the roses.

[@Bee-vp8lh]

The mosaic concept is so beautiful. Crying hard rn

[@phillip6126]

I never had a friendship that felt genuine, I always felt out of touch with other people and I felt like I couldn’t be myself. I met Dylon and I must say I didn’t quite like him at first, I thought he was conceited but I was wrong. We related on a lot of struggles and had each others back when ever we felt our lowest. He always knew what to say and I tried to always be a positive support to him even though I have my own struggles with addiction. He was my best friend and more importantly family! I know that you really wanted to change and we even talked about it the night before you passed. I’ll forever be grateful for having you in my life and I wish things were different. I’m not going to lie, there is a lingering sense of emptiness and sorrow rendering my very soul because of your absence, I will do my best to honor your memory.

[@richienickson8085]

My friend she died from an overdose. Her personality was so vibrant every time we met up it was a great time. We all have our struggles with addiction and after she transitioned I was left devastated. It's crazy how it still feels like it was yesterday I miss her so much.😢

[@phillip6126]

@@richienickson8085 It’s hard to assimilate that they’re really no longer here. That has been the most difficult for me, seeing how the world just keeps moving forward. I’m sure that you’re doing the best to honor your friend.

[@richienickson8085]

@@phillip6126 yeah and it's like you see other people in them and it's like you can't help but treat them good. I know that sounds odd but it's the truth.

[@phillip6126]

@@richienickson8085 That is so true, I completely get that! I know I’ve found myself doing that and I have to check myself because I don’t want to come off in bad way.

[@JerseyOne]

Died in my arms today 😢 broken 💔

[@redrickgrass]

Hey brother, Thank you for your courage & willingness to share! I lost my life partner 8 yrs ago to cancer, it took me 8 yrs to date to feel better about my life. I appreciate everything you shared today!

[@ThePollydoodles]

I lost a close friend yesterday morning in a car crash, i don't even know how to feel.. but was comforting to watch this video, Thanks. Fellow Cfer 💜

[@MorganSolo]

So sorry to hear about your friend. My thoughts are with you! Unfortunately, a thing I've learned is there are no words that can make anything better in the present moment, but hopefully as you begin to heal you can remember they are always with you.

[@ThePollydoodles]

@@MorganSolo Thankyou, i will hold on to the great memories forever 🍀

[@janusofthiswitchscorner727]

I don’t know what to say. That left me speechless. I get it. On such a deep level. I’m a cancer mom. My son has a lot of the introspection you do also because of growing up in the hospital & so close to death. He was in active treatment for 13yrs. After a bone marrow transplant he finally is in remission. I stayed with him through the whole thing. Not a helicopter parent, just a sincere advocate. Anyway, I feel every word of this. I am enjoying these videos your sharing. Such in-depth feelings. Things people don’t talk about much but really need to. It’s wonderful your putting it out there so we can all hear it and not feel so isolated in our own minds. Take care ✌️⭐️

[@haleyramey583]

January 27, 2020. I lost my mom to cancer. I was there for the last month and she had time with my daughter. Time is so hard. As Rosie gets older and the milestones she crosses that my mom isn’t here to see. Rosie won’t remember her. She’ll know the memories and pictures. I talk to her all the time and think about her or movies that come on that she would watch on repeat “momma would love this” or a song that comes on “there’s momma!” I don’t think I’ll ever get over her death but we can’t be sad forever. I still remember the day of her last breath but it also helps me keep going for my daughter. ❤️

[@audrina8881]

My best friend died 2 years from alcoholism at age 32. I'm still struggling with her death. I just came back to our hometown, and I can feel the grieve setting in. I am not the same person anymore, and I never will be. She took a piece of me with her.

[@FenderJames-g4n]

My best buddy passed today. TY for your words brother . Much love.

[@BeechHouse]

My wife is about to lose her BFF of 30 years to a very rare form of liver cancer. She has, maybe days, before the end. I'm worried. This is going absolutely destroy my wife. Thank you for this video.

[@rmjames83]

Grief means u have loved hard! Someone once said to me, I think it’s in a song actually… “the bigger the love the harder the fall…well, I’m crashing through the floor”…makes a lot of sense to me-I’ve crashed thru the floor on many occasions when I’ve lost people close to me…but they are with us every day. Every where we are, there they’ll be.

[@stephaniemartin-boyce5493]

Thank you for this video. I just lost my best friend. My kindred spirit. I really needed to hear this message today. RIP Joey 😢

[@msbondfire007]

I’m so sorry for your loss. I’m going through the same thing. The pain is excruciating.

[@Siouxpreme1979]

I lost my 2 best friends this year, My fishing Bro and my Golf Bro. We were all the same age 45, it hard losing someone you spent so much time doing things you loved. Thank you that I found your video.

[@53truthseeker]

Lost my best friend 2 weeks ago, this helps wit the sadness and anger, thank you...

[@ScotsOrphanScott]

Wow Morgan - I'm sure you've touched a lot of peoples hearts with this one. You've put into words something that's very difficult to describe, when explaining to someone that hasn't experienced grief. I witnessed my mother's death and tried to resuscitate her when I was 14, and have carried that confusion/anger/sadness for the past 24 years or so. My ex wife left me almost 2 years ago because my wrestling with the grief was too much for her, but that's ok because I'm still here and still able to work towards being a better person than I was yesterday. Thanks Morgan, a few of us are definitely benefitting from this vid 😀

[@pammym190]

Awww!! Keep climbing!! I know you can do it!!✌️

[@ScotsOrphanScott]

@@pammym190 thank you 😊 tomorrow's worth fighting for

[@stoneylibra]

Revisting this video. My best friend of more than 18 years passed away April 13th and I'm having such a hard grief journey. Thanks again for this.

[@JohnsonandJohnsonandJohnsonCo.]

I just lost my best friend today. And I’m still in a loop of emotions over and over again. But watching this video and seeing that someone has thought the same things I have and is continuing on in life after that loss, really is helping me slowly accept the reality of this loss. Thank you for making this video, my love goes out to you and anyone else experiencing loss in whatever way that may be.

[@somasen4334]

May all the souls of the dead people rest in peace 🙏🙏

[@JorgeRomero-i7y]

I act normal because I really can’t believe that he’s gone. I just think he’s still here.

[@tipperella]

Thanks for this video.. it made me realize that my best friend will always be with me just like she never left my side although she's not physically here. Losing your best friend is harder than I've ever imagined especially the one you've known for 21 years. I miss her so much she was only 27 years old and I'm glad to know that she misses me too for showing up in my dreams after watching this video.. She passed away May 16th 2024 to gun violence her super old lady roommate "accidentally" shot her she claims and I pray for justice. I truly miss her every single day some days I think of her more than others but she's always on my mind. I still send her msgs everyday just to make myself feel a little better about it since I tell her what's going on in my day. etc.. Forever our hearts, rest well Nina 💙

[@cutecakelife]

A really good friend of mine was struggling with addiction and passed in spring. We got quite close the past 2ish years and we would have late night calls when one of us was going through something. We could turn to each other for anything. A few months before his passing we got in a slight argument and stopped talking. A month before, he asked us to meet for coffee and we reconnected. We were both getting better. When I learned he died I didn't want to process any of it so I collected every memory I had of him. Every photo, every gift, every message and started to carry it with me. Recently, I learned that the toxicology report came back and my friend didn't have any drugs that night, he died of a preexisting heart condition and was completely sober. Another childhood friend committed suicide last month. Now I have to completely rethink everything. A friend of ours said "we're dropping like flies" and that broke me. I started imagining everyone I love, and myself dying. I keep trying to pretend like everything is alright but it fucking hurts. Its like I'm losing everyone this year even if they aren't actually dead because I'm imagining them as dead.

[@markusgustafsson917]

This really helped med. The part about would you ever trade the pain i so true. I would never trade it

[@deborahwinter5018]

Thank you for sharing! That was very heartfelt and deep! I have lost so many people myself and just two days ago lost my best friend whom I was with all of the time! He was an absolute blessing and We loved each other so much! He had HIV which turned into AIDS and then he got cancer and died. I watched him take his last breath! It hurts so much and I Thought he would get better but that didn’t happen! I know he is with Jesus and is no longer in pain, but now I have to go on without him and it is hard! He was amazing and touched me profoundly! I will miss him so much Until we meet again!

[@Alex22.22]

That was beautiful thank you ❤ I miss my best friend so much, everything happened so fast, never got to say goodbye...

[@mikeo9219]

Your analogy of the false summit is exactly what I've been experiencing since I lost my closest friend this past July 5, 2024. The grief is excruciating on some days. Then I have a good day and think the worst is over. Until the next day it's back. I know it's early in my grieving but I look forward to those "false summit " days as you so perfectly call it. That's all I really wanted to say....thank you for taking the time to make your video.

[@pammym190]

You have lost so much in your young life.. but, with that loss comes great wisdom. You now see the big picture! You were never wrong with your feelings!! I hope you know that?! Grief will tug at you now and again.. but, with your sweet heart and as you get older.. handling it will be different!! May God bless this friendship known as Erin and Morgan❤️ Yes, I’m a devout Catholic.. Sorry!!

[@lindazama5498]

Thank you so much. Yesterday I attended the funeral of a special friend of 25 years. He has always been the go-to person for me.

[@bernadettedevine3085]

Thank you for this. My sister died falling on her stairs. I couldn’t save her although I am an emergency nurse. The peak of grief and the valley of desolation etc.❤ 🙏

[@avetius]

Thanks so much for this video, Morgan. I have just lost a close friend of mine, someone whith whom we crossed many chapters of our lives in 25 years. It is my first loss and I was not ready for it. We planned to meet in a few days and he is gone unexpectedly, from a heart attack, so I also feel betrayed, as if he lied to me. At the same time it still feels like he is going to return from this "trip" sooner or later and is going to share his adventures and feelings... It's a strange feeling, when you want the world to stop from spinning, the events stop from happening, cause you can't share anything new with him, you have no way to get his opinion. I also feel I am now the only keeper of all those memories we shared. And this means they are going inevitably to fade and bleak ... And this is probably one of the causes of our depression - a helpless search of a way to preserve all that treasure.

[@deborahwinter5018]

When you love deeply you grieve deeply!

[@tahoesnowlion]

Oh Morgan, I have never heard anyone explain grief more eloquently from the heart. In all my years of hospice nurse having to say goodbye to those who I grew close to and my own family, pets and friends, this really sums it all up. I would love to share this with my hospice group. Really, nothing else need be said. 💕

[@76wildswan]

Thank you so much for this sharing..😢lost my fiancé on dec 30dec last year ..it has been truly hard i lost mom 4 yrs back and now this...its a month but his memories lingers and i still feel sick to the stomach. The last bit was gold when you brought up i am feeling I rather stay shut off then getting to know another person . Going thru so much i have no words for.. But appreciate stumbling onto your video when everything you said resonated with me.😢 Thank you once again for this sharing...🥺

[@clarencehogrefe1220]

This is the first Vid of yours i have watched., one of the best ones ive seen anywhere.. My Beautiful Wife Jan went to Heaven 3years & 3 weeks ago.. Always trying ro make Jan proud of me and i kniw she is always by my side. God Bless Morgan

[@tr4ne660]

Lost my best friend just over a year ago. The false summit made me cry instantly.

[@Sweet2-y7d]

What a sweet friend and a great bone that you both had and good memories that you cherish and we'll never forget hard one even with tri Cafta.

[@franim4368]

Thank you, Morgan. This was by far the most meaningful and beautiful video I have come across. It actually feels like a blessing... because you have articulated some of my deepest, longstanding feelings about grief and loss..... You are right about that summit of grief and are beyond your years in wisdom. You have also have been living an exceptional life with so many losses to face and process along the way. My first painful loss was my mother's passing decades ago, when I was in high school. Sure, there have been many others and more to come. Your words have touched my heart, and are a great reminder of how forever love really is. Take good care.

[@navykidd_official.big49]

thank you so much bro. just lost my best friend💔

[@soulofahydra5148]

One of my friends passed away yesterday. He hung himself, and I’m so lost. I just don’t know even know what to think or feel

[@chellyw63]

I really am so glad you posted this 🌸🌺❤️

[@crystalinabacteria3430]

I am sorry for the loss of your friends. I only experienced losing one friend from cancer. So I can not comprehend what you went through. In 1985, he was 18 & I was 16. I watched him go from an athletic , competitive skater to 2 years later very very ill at deaths door. I saw him 2 days before he passed. I didn't stop crying until I had a dream with him in it. He sat next to me & told me he was 'alright now ' That helped me but I've never got over his death. I'm 53 now & still think of my last meeting with him. It's affected me all my life & I've drank to numb it. Sending you warm love & Thank you for sharing this ❤️

[@denisegilbertson5555]

All of our experience in life are what make us who we are. We feel things for a reason, sometimes it’s sorrow to remember people and things lost, we feel disappointment for things we wish we did different, we feel joy and pride for things we’ve accomplished or fun experiences we’ve had. Never have regrets, and never change a moment in your life, because you wouldn’t be the you, you are today.

[@michetrue-aspoonielife4me389]

Morgan The people who've touched you are the fibers that form the tapestry of your life. It's who you are! Some people leave footprints on your heart that last a lifetime. Others only pass by to teach you life lessons to help you grow. I understand loss so well, all my family, BF & my Spoonie Community, my life is surrounded by loss. I was in the hospital & an Anesthesiologist/pain doc sat with me. I told him I feel like I'm climbing Mount Everest & I'll never reach the Summit bc it keeps getting further. Interestingly, you equated loss of good people to a similar thought process, very cool. Each of us will grieve in our own way, it's so personal. You're right we'll always carry them with us in our heart. Hopefully their loss becomes a healing in our lives at some point. The Anesthesiologist called me a Sisu: meaning a Finnish concept described as stoic determination, tenacity of purpose, grit, bravery, resilience & hardiness. I also see you & Stephi as Sisu's. Thank you for your words & sage advice. They're all around us, I believe that 100%. Stay well & chill, much love from 🇨🇦 ✌

[@ashleybish0p]

My best friend of almost 20 years passed away Oct 6th of this year from a severe asthma attack that caused her heart to stop. I'm only a couple minutes into this video but I just wanted to say thank you because I feel like I needed this. I am also sorry for the loss of your best friend and other loved ones who have passed.

[@ejfeucht]

My best friend died from an asthma attack a month ago. It is the most painful thing I have experienced. My heart goes out to you. I wish you peace and healing.

[@ashleybish0p]

@ejfeucht I am so sorry for your loss. It truly is one of the most painful things I've experienced. Throughout the grieving process, I have had different reactions during the stages, and grief, in general, I've learned is something you can not prepare enough for. I hope you find peace & healing as well. Sending positive thoughts and vibes to you & may our best friends' souls rest in peace with no more pain and suffering. 🕊

[@troxx2393]

One of my middle school friends and crush at the time self deleted a little over a week ago, i dont know how to cope. She was such a sweet and genuine soul. The last thing she posted was "what if i wanna be with god", i know shes up there happy with him but i just miss her so much.

[@supergran62]

Oh. Just oh! I’ve sat here for an hour trying to say something, but I just can’t put it into words. I’m sending a huge Nanna because …..you made me think so hard.

[@sarah-louisedoherty8603]

What a beautiful way of describing grief. I lost my best friend tragically a few days ago and I don’t think it is something that I will ever over come or want to. He was a beautiful soul so kind and caring. Only the best die young ❤❤❤

[@katethepanda747]

I really needed this missing my childhood best friend that’s been gone since 2020. Aaron I love and miss you forever

[@VarroLos]

Thank you for this, really needed some guidance or advice & I came across your video. I just lost my childhood friend on May 4th 2023, friendship for about over a decade. He was 24 years old. Still can’t express all the thoughts going through my head but one thing for sure is his spirit & memory will forever live on through me. I love you Richard, see you in the next life brother…

[@2listening1]

I’m so sorry for your loss, Morgan. You’re the best. 💛🕯🐐🙏

[@huffledale420]

I really appreciated this video because my grandpa died in October and I'm still very sad.

[@lauragoldenberg7305]

Thank you for this video. God bless you and I pray for continued strength, comfort, and healing for you & everyone here🙏🙏🙏

[@hubbard272]

A very close and dear friend of mine passed away on October 8th of this last year. I am very sad, and your video has helped me. I'm 46 years old, I have lost my grandparents. I loved them. It seems like loosing one of my best friends has been one of the most difficult things I've delt with. Your video has helped me, and I realize loss is something we all face.

[@amberc5877]

I absolutely feel like this was made just for me to hear. I’m 35 and my dad, who made my family’s life a living hell growing up, shot himself in front of my mom on July 2nd. I decided to not speak to him any longer and allow him to treat me or my own new family ( I was a month from gettin married when I made the decision) disrespectfully. I just decided he wouldn’t even have that opportunity anymore. Well fast forward 3 years. He shot himself in front of my mom to hurt her. I don’t regret my decision. I do have the “whys” and I find myself trying to figure that out. I won’t ever be able to though. This helps me see that and hopefully allows me to move on. Thank you, Morgan! Best video yet 🤗

[@MarieRhondelle]

Thanks for sharing this Morgan. I remember you saying in an old video that you wanted to live for those who were gone. I understood at the time. But I think it's important to also live for oneself. If we only live for others, it's easy to become hollow martyrs. I have a different story than yours but sometimes I try to take care of everyone before myself and ironically that leaves me with little left to give.

[@triocha24]

my best friend died March 10th this year It’s a feeling I’ll never be able to put into words

[@STAR-kg5ck]

I lost my Angel. It hurts so bad, thank you…❤ Somehow, someway I have to carry on 💔….🙏🏼🌹🧡🦋

[@Parkmanpranks]

Sorry about your loss

[@bea1365]

I have just been to my friend's funeral today and I came across your video. Your words really touched me and made a lot of sense. I really needed this today. Thank you.

[@JoelKSullivan]

Thank you for sharing this. It has helped. I lost a very close friend to cancer a month ago

[@lisaakinlabi]

Very well said!

[@thomaswhitney3553]

Thank you , soo sooo ..so so much. seriously. thank you.

[@Queen.Beee17]

Yup the pain is just so hard ... but thank u for ur message . I have been thinking of how will I get thru this but ur right. I won't . I just need to stay positive. Cause I cry when I hear a song or think of a memory with my best friend. It won't go away . But I know she wouldn't want me sad ,she was the happiest person in this world . I love u pauline I will always miss u n think of u everyday ❤

[@msbondfire007]

Thank you for making this video. Even 2 years later, you’re helping. My mom passed in May and I just lost my bff of over 30 years, unexpectedly. He was showing signs of improvement after being in ICU for a week; they moved him to step down. I had just talked to him, and within the hour he coded and was gone. I’m totally gutted and really struggling to keep it together. I never got to tell him how much he meant to me. My birthday cake and Christmas dinner are still sitting in the freezer, waiting for him to come home and celebrate together. But it’s not ever going to happen and the grief is unreal.

[@warrenisaac5634]

Thank You for sharing that Morgan. Bless you!

[@johnpochinski727]

I learned a close friend who i had traveled with spent time woth with died and its like i cannot accept the death, i have even thought is it a lie. I feel a part of me has been stolen....many memories that only we would be able to share with each other to get the full experience. I have not hadNy friends and thos loss kust seems. Unfair. I keep going and i remind myself to be thankful for the friendship.

[@charliejohnson4884]

Sorry for your loss.

[@douglasrex7967]

Very insightful. Thanks for your compassionate story.

[@corrinangelo4942]

You hit home with today’s video. I really enjoy your content and everything you’ve said is something I’ve been feeling and struggling with a lot lately. Thank You for being you and sharing your stories.

[@jakkiamyotte6131]

Wow Morgan! I couldn’t of said it better myself. After losing Nat(best friend/cousin with cf) in May of 2020 and not getting to even say bye due to COVID I struggled for a long time. I still struggle daily. She was always my go to. Now Dakota( my daughter with cf) is struggling with pseudomonas and was just hospitalized for 3 weeks and it brought back all that hurt. My mental health took a shit kicking for sure. I know she’s with me but I just want to hug her and hear her deep belly laugh! I agree that grief is a gift in a way because she touched so many places in my life it would be impossible not to feel so strongly when reminders come up. Sometimes they make me laugh and others make me break down. So proud of how far you’ve come in your vlogging and healing journey. The deeper emotional side of you is what brought me into your world quite a few years ago. We love you!

[@wurbangroupcredit833]

Thank you ❤.

[@BJJ_Richie]

I’m so sorry for your loss 😢❤

[@Katie_Jo_21]

Wow Morgan. I am so proud of you for talking publicly about this. I know it was 2015 but that was not long ago. I can only imagine how raw it must still feel. The guilt is real and even when we know that there was nothing more that we could have done. It hurts regularly no matter what. Just know that folks out here in the world care and appreciate you.

[@Meowjuana_420]

I feel like with grief your trying to be okay with not being okay. I don't think you can ever finish grieving I feel like it's a life long thing. I've lost alot of people in my life and I couldn't even imagine what you go through with CF. 🖤

[@yassmine3137]

Thank you Morgan ! On nov 3rd 2015, I lost a close friend to CF. Not a day does go by that I don’t miss her, I don’t think of her.. but approaching November 3rd, where it’s gonna be 6 years without her, I really needed this right now ! Your words resonate so much on me, thank you

[@xyz12858]

Lost my best man in 2020. Forward only❤.

[@sharpie4ever2006]

Thanks Morgan. My mom just died on the 9th and I needed to hear this. Thanks for the assist.

[@shirleydaniels9310]

So true i lost my mom in 79 and it hurts like it was yesterday

[@unicornsandrainbowsandchic2336]

Thank you for posting this.

[@christieshowalter2743]

Morgan. You hit this one out the park! The one year anniversary of losing my little brother is coming up on 11/6. The weight of missing him is so heavy most days I feel like I can’t carry it. I know one day the weight will be more manageable.

[@simplyshannon9053]

So sorry about your friend Morgan, life simply is not fair! Thank you for being so vulnerable in this video. One of your best videos.

[@mai-almaindigo8517]

Hi🤍 i just want to say: i pick up the phone to see KZbin after being away for a while… and it makes me so happy to see you so different! Like in the best way possible. You look and feel good. I almost didn’t recognize you. Your energy feels so much more clean and peaceful and powerful ✨ thank you for this. I’m so inspire now to go and live through the pain i feel now🥺 hugs and lots of love for you🤍 Also I’ll go catch up on your channel now🤗🥰🙏

[@jackiemckinley9533]

This is so powerful just what I needed to hear I recently lost my beloved dog and mother-in-law and I'm going through a really tough time but there's a saying I really like the harder you love the harder you grief X