📝 How I Journaled Over The Years & Got My Life Together (2012 - 2018)

[@shanilasuhail5369]

You're one of the most influential, realistic and profound women out there. You may feel like you're still figuring your life out but honestly you've helped so many of us put ours into place alongside. You have a very great purpose to serve, I already know it 💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖 So much love and admiration Rowena. P.s- you remind me of my favorite character Dr Cristina Yang (Sandra Oh)

[@nope-p5x]

Shanila Suhail omg i thought I’m the only one to see she is sooo like Cristina Yang!

[@dAuriaVlogs]

So many feels. Over the years I've had to let go of, toss, lost, all my past journals. Would be special to look back at mine in the same way. I can start again now ♡

[@amandajewell]

This is TRuth

[@florencehuang7117]

Same same but different 😊

[@rowena]

😭💕 I appreciate you endlessly Shanila!

[@theserenewedroots]

Note to self: Rewatch this video while journaling

[@paigefayy]

Thought the saaaaaame thing while watching

[@rowena]

hi elle 🙃

[@theserenewedroots]

@@rowena Hi Rowena 🙂 you are wonderful

[@behney4027]

Elle Falconer me too ♥️

[@00Mercredi00]

Also: Can you write a book? Audiobook ? Podcast? Where can I pre order it? I woke up way to early I need coffee. Lol

[@beyza2024]

Yess podcast would be amazing

[@judegibson5247]

I need that

[@vandflaske1]

Yes to a podcast

[@malithiahdez7453]

Please have a podcast! I fully support this idea!

[@rowena]

ooo I'll def work on this 🙏🏻 may need sometime though considering how I'm already nearing burnout with what I currently have on my plate 😅

[@samanastrix]

I paused the video at Peace > Happiness, because I couldn't hold back tears. This has been me all these years, Rowena. It is unbelievable how someone halfway across the globe could be this similar to me in uncanny, deep ways. Oh lord.

[@natalieintheburbs]

Your videos are always so clean and aesthetically pleasing! I always feel so calm while watching! 🌟

[@rowena]

🙈💕 thank you for being here Natalie!

[@Alliexkw]

“character is treating those who do nothing for you” “you can never overdress or overeducate” “your beliefs do not make you a better person, your behavior does” “happiness does not stem from the things you have, the friends around you the money in your bank account. happiness is finally being comfortable in your own skin, embracing the silence within yourself, and feeling invigoratingly content about who you are and where you are in life.” “start doing shit and make things happen. it’s good that you’re thinking all these things, but until you actually start acting upon what’s causing the uncertain/uneasy feelings and see some positive results, you’re never going to be happy. instead of spending all your time figuring who you are and who you want to become on paper, go out and BE that person.” “give up your need to impress others ,the moment you stop trying so hard to be something that you’re not, the moment you take off al your masks, the moment you accept and embrace the real you, you will find people will be drawn to you, effortlessly.” “the world doesn’t owe you anything. you’re not entitled to be [fulfilled] all the time. your parents are not your punching bags for your personal down falls and shortcomings”

[@Alliexkw]

could you please make a video on taking steps towards a less critical self?

[@rowena]

hi Allie! I made a video before on how to be kinder to yourself: kzbin.info/www/bejne/fnyqZ4KHjJaBr5Y hope this helps 💕

[@nicd5473]

You know, I have to say, you are my favorite KZbinr. I feel like I can really relate to you and this video really helped me especially lately, I've been feeling like I'm stuck in this rut & journaling has been something I've been getting back into and it is helping. Thank u for this video & giving me some more inspiration & motivation. ♥️

[@rowena]

I love you & appreciate you Nicole 💕 thanks for being here!

[@nicd5473]

Rowena Tsai 💗💗💗

[@musicluver1817]

Rowena, have you ever thought about making a guided mediation video? Your voice is very calming and I feel like it would be amazing!! Much love!!

[@Cindy-np2nc]

I would totally support this as well!

[@arialjoyroderos5651]

Agree, it’s one of the reasons why I watch her videos

[@rowena]

I've thought about this and I probably won't because as a student of my practice, the most I'm capable of is sharing my practice with others since I'll forever be a student. this is out of respect for my teacher and for Buddhism in general 😊 but I've been working on a video talking about my spiritual practice so hopefully that'll be similar? 🙏🏻💕

[@elsawoods9476]

Check out pick up limes.. thank me later

[@musicluver1817]

That's totally understandable!! I'm totally looking forward to that spiritual practice video!!

[@Honeyloopsx]

Wow, last night I was anxious and I started to write in my journal (I’ve been journaling for the past 9 years). I decided to flip through my old journals and boy I was a hot mess. Lol I never thought of highlighting the good parts so maybe I’ll do that today. thank you for this video 💛

[@hollycarr8853]

My journal entry today: (paused the video half way to do this then came back - hope it is helps spread nice energy) "I had a lovely moment of profound thankfulness yesterday during yoga/meditation; I was so thankful at my own groundedness and steadiness - when faced with a mindset that usually knocks me down completely I was able to scale back to my most essential + circumvented the badness + in the moment of thankful clarity I honoured all the things that conspired in the universe to make me such a way. I'm watching a video right now where Rowena Tsai goes through her old journals - they are so like mine. So dramatic + existential + angsty. So I don't feel bad for now keeping a journal that is sappy + self aggrandising - I remember where I came from. I am proud of what I'm doing, where I'm going and how far I've come."

[@rachels3]

this is making me want to start journaling again. i did when i was in middle school but it was mostly “dear diary” stuff. seeing this kind of fluidity in your writing makes me want to journal again without the constraints of forcing myself to do it. idk if this makes any sense but it makes sense to me, thanks rowena lol

[@abbyhammarstrom7824]

If you ever wrote a book, I would 100% buy it. You have so many influential and fantastic thoughts and ways of living that need to be shared with more people. ♡

[@dosageofdemi]

This was epically long but deeply profound. Content like this ensures me I'm not alone in this duality way of thinking, black or white, all or nothing mentality. But I'm forcing myself to live in the gray area and grow, develop and nurture myself there. Good stuff! Time for me to get back to journaling - it brings about some real introspection 💗

[@chelspanda927]

This video was so insightful! I loved watching you speak to your younger self, both being compassionate for who she was in her struggle and also relating to her by seeing similar lessons.

[@rowena]

☺️💕 I appreciate you Chelsea, thanks for being here

[@ramonalisa4187]

Some of your journal entries sound so poetic. "My lowest points are always when my source of happiness shifts from myself to other things..." I felt that. A friend just referred me to your channel today and I'm already subscribed! I journal every single day and it literally keeps me sane lol. Thank you for your vulnerability/willingness to share

[@emilyfletcher7124]

Yay yay!! You're journalling habits are so inspiring to me, and this is such a help (as your videos always are) in me getting my life together x

[@poorquality587]

I know I'm like... A year late or whatever. I just want to let you know, Rowena; yesterday I was trying to find something that can help me to take care of myself because I have no idea when to start, where to start, what to start, (and perhaps why). I found one of your videos, I find it very calming, I find it very wholesome. Now that I found this video of your's- You have... Made me feel like I'm not alone, and I really appreciate that. Thank you so much, you inspire me to move on and do things. Thank you again, random youtuber that had left a mark on my heart :>

[@erikaramirez6558]

5:57 golden wisdom right there! I really honed into that thought this year when I intensely started working through my anxiety. I thought the realization would create a path of ease but it's been a lot of bumping into walls as I spring into action versus journaling myself into analysis paralysis. When I marry my efforts/actions with humbleness and stay present with each step I take I find the 'mistakes' to be golden nuggets of reinforcement to a bigger picture. Love your vids, thanks so much for sharing!! XO

[@PetiteDeRae]

I don’t usually write comments but my minds been a mess lately. I left a job I thought I didn’t like (bad environment but good people), now I’m in a sales recruitment job which I don’t think I like (few weeks in, doesn’t sit well with me). When you got about half way in the video saying about self care, time and trips at 22 I think that’s what I need. But I’m scared. I’m 24 and feel such pressure to have a stable income, job and to be moving out with my bf next year. I’ve looked at international tours and trips that I could do.. it’s just about taking the plunge, both with the uncertainty of being unemployed for the first time and with money 😣 I have no idea what to do..

[@rowena]

listen to your heart! of course, be rational and responsible but trust yourself. you'll be surprised what beautiful & magical places you'll be able to lead yourself 😉

[@PetiteDeRae]

Rowena Tsai Thank you Rowena! 😁💕

[@PetiteDeRae]

Jessica Lau Thank you so much for your comment, it was lovely to read! That’s such a big step in itself to take on a Masters course AND work, I applaud you for that big time 👏🏻 what is it you are studying? I’ve done a lot of thinking over the past few days and today actually ended up being my last day within that job 😅 the people were nice enough about it but in the end I feel like it’s going to only be a good thing for me. I feel like I’m free falling at this time but I’m sure I’ll land on my feet someday. I’ve been looking to go to Japan (my biggest dream since forever) some time within the next few months (Dec/Feb) Just myself with a tour group for about 11+ days. It depends on money, time, what is happening the now, etc but I’m determined I’ll achieve it sooner than later 😁 I think life has a funny way of working itself out and I’m positive that you will get there one day sooner than later too 😊

[@mcee555]

Thank you so much for being so open and vulnerable! This is super authentic and I connect to the whole long emotional turmoil so much! I'm going through some rough things right now, (like just recently failed uni) bc I neglected my own needs and let the toxicity of my family get to me. I just didn't prioritise what is most important, myself, which is hard to do as well when you have your mum and the whole family depending on you as the eldest. Anyway, writing and journalling has been a great tool for healing or just processing things for me.

[@rowena]

sending you so much love N 💕 I'm a firm believer that the universe will never give you more than you can handle, and that life is constantly happening for us, vs to us. I have full faith you'll come out of this a much stronger, braver and compassionate soul. keep your head up & stay strong. we're all here for you!!

[@mcee555]

@@rowena Omg this is too sweet, thank you so much, I'll keep this comment in mind!! 💖xx

[@mikaylaleann]

I am so glad to have found your channel. I find so often that "self-care" channels don't show how you can transform from such a dark place to a brighter one. Although I really wanted to be better, looking at those channels would make me be like, this stuff doesn't change anything. But you show that we can evolve our mind and still be happy when we are in a dark place. I have been in such a better place since finding your channel. Even as I go through a negative anniversary. Thank you for your impact!

[@__led]

I just found your channel and already feel so incredibly connected to you. Pieces of your life story line up with mine so closely. I too had an older brother who died in a car accident back in 2004 that changed my life forever, though it seems it took me much longer to actually deal with my feelings. I started partying as a teen and hit rock bottom around 2013. I also only journal when my life life is in shambles! You have such a beautiful way of sharing your inner experience, which I think most people feel very alone in that inner journey. You just have a great way of normalizing and putting into words the journey that I believe all of us experience inside!

[@scana-chan6794]

I just found your videos in the morning, searching for something to wake myself up and have a positive start of the day and I am overwhelmed. I love the positivity and honesty you put in your videos and it is really unfortunate I need to go to work, because I need to watch them all now! I can feel you made me start rethinking my life - that sounds big, but it is just small realization that I don't have to live like I do and I am excited for the path that lays ahead. And I never comment on anything but I really wanted to thank you for making my morning better.

[@musicluver1817]

As always, thank you so much for being so transparent about all of your flaws and mistakes. It really makes me feel better knowing that there are people like you.

[@mollyfaye]

No matter what your videos are I love them and always find value in them! This brought me to journal for the first time in a long time and it feels so good to see my hopes, dreams, and goals on one page.

[@sophie8884]

I’ve never been this early for a video! I love you Rowena 💕 you always inspire me and make me reflect and think gratefully on my life. Your videos and advice have helped me make my life and daily actions more thoughtful and have a more positive view on the negative. Please continue with your long videos full of wise words and matcha lattes 🍵 you are an amazing role model and I love that you’re so raw and your true self on camera, you don’t try to hide any emotions when recording.

[@elsawoods9476]

Check out pick up limes

[@kudzaii]

The way you relate to people in your videos feels so personal , like we’re friends , like I know you and you know me 😭♥️Thank you for existsing.

[@miguelcasasarrojo8135]

I watched your 4am video last week. It´s been 7 days of waking up at 5.30am, and I´m LOVING it. Thank you

[@clairelee1200]

Hey Rowena, just wanted to say that your vlogs on productivity/organisation/journalling and overall thoughts about life has been inspiring and I'd catch myself reflecting about my own life. Thanks alot for always posting these vlogs (think they always appear at the right time when i most need them) !!

[@ascia158]

i like that you draw in your journals..i have been journaling daily since 2018 but i could not draw like express my thoughts by drawing..it is cool

[@Marie-xm5dy]

Best 21 minutes in my life💕 I was waiting for this for too long 💕Im so happy💕 Love you

[@rowena]

*squeeze hugging you* ily!

[@NinjaBunni13]

I LOVED this video. I sat down with cocoa and a notebook and scribbled so many notes. Thank you for being so motivational and inspirational 💛

[@laurenhelton7107]

You're so relatable to me it makes me want to cry. Honestly, you're absolutely beautiful in every way!!

[@jyotsnamagani7884]

OMG I've been waiting for this video!!! Thank you so much for sharing! Love your content and your vulnerability!

[@florencehuang7117]

Jyotsna Magani same! I’ve always wanted to know what’s inside since Rowena showed us her journal 📓 in one of her previous videos😊

[@rowena]

hope it was everything you hoped for and more? 😜🙈💕

[@muffinschocko]

i love you so so much. 💚whenever i am not motivated, sad and stuck you help me get up again! ive been journaling myself lately and its seriously magical ✨

[@odalisangeles8279]

Just bought the journal. I know this next year will be a tough one, unfortunately. Need this to express myself and one day look back at, being thankful that I made it.

[@eratopavlidi7930]

No matter what I always thumbs-up to all of your videos Rowena. Always learning something new about me and how I can make myself and my life better. Thank you for your content and knowledge sharing

[@APassingDreamer]

I love your channel so much! As a person who claims to always be “in pursuit of my greatest self”, I’ve found your content to be so helpful, inspiring, and on time(?). You seem to always upload a video I need to see even if it’s just for a simple quote therein. For this, and for sharing and giving me stools that have been such a big help on my journey, I am grateful! I presently relate a lot w/ younger Rowena who is constantly self-reflecting and analyzing. I think/write a lot about all I should change/do/be but I’m definitely not LIVING out those realizations as much as I would like to. My journals are FULL of me making revelations but not always committing to solutions. It’s been a lesson I’m (sadly) still learning the hard way. I kinda feel like this video is a cheat code lol. To see you analyze a hurdle I’m struggling w/ in retrospect is soo beneficial. It’s good knowing for certain that the problem isn’t a problem, my discipline is the problem. This is definitely the kick in the a** I need. Also, what you said about writing more would make you a less extreme person hit me right in the chest lol. I feel in extremes & almost exclusively write when I’m feeling stagnant or unhappy. Consistency may definitely help w/ that. Thanks again for sharing! You are so lovely 💛

[@Mcaccount467]

This video has found me after one of the most heartbreaking, frustrating periods of my life. Watching this helped me more than you’ll know. Thank you for putting it out there :)

[@brokenremedy7821]

My prayers have been answered!!! Thanks for your constant high quality and helpful content ❤️ love you!

[@00Mercredi00]

heyle g you say what I’ve tried to say better lol. ❤️

[@gangaselvaraj4165]

Thanks Rowena, I always look forward to your inspiring videos, you are so young yet so wise, spiritually awakening , you should be so proud of yourself, god bless !

[@bhuvaneshwari_1]

This video is truly inspirational , I'm 22 and you're helping me a lot through such motivational content 😍🙏

[@KellyC77]

Thankyou for sharing your journals with us, so honest with the highs and lows. I'm just starting out with journaling and now I realise it's not about it being perfect and neat, I just need to get it out on paper.

[@hgomez2007]

Do you have, or can you do a video on how to journal. Layout , and so. I love your style of journaling.. your videos are very inspiring and uplifting.. your such a beautiful person, inside and out.

[@stephanieasuka6634]

i heart this video... im gonna try to do the map of attachments exercise you talked about. ive let a lot of "bad" things control my thoughts and its good to know im not alone♡ i heart and appreciate u, rowena so so much♡

[@kathywriter3122]

I have so many words but then again I can not speak. Your vids are always great, I like your character very much. I had a very difficult time, last 3 months was a nightmare because I was frantic working towards my goal. Now my goal is accomplished! Not without pain, not without tears but it is. Your last quote... so true. I believe no-thing, nothing, is impossible if this or this can do it, so do you!

[@soundandtaste]

I've journaled since 4th grade but sadly I threw most of it because I felt that everything I'd written are mostly my negative feelings 😅 and I hate rereading those things. Up until now I am still struggling journaling lol

[@aliceattran]

same! i threw away all my diaries from elementary/middle school because of how negative and emo it was lol 😞

[@Redital]

I just found this video and it's super inspiring. I love your videos and I'm glad that I've found people like you who post content about real life topics. Entertainment is only satisfying for so long. I need enlightenment.

[@kelyrin]

That video was just so much pleasure. Absolutely loved it. Actually screened a bunch of quote so I can read them again and again. I can feel a lot of the things you’ve felt, i have spent the last 10 years trying to figure out who I am, what I want to do with my life. Being completely extreme as well, either super high, either too low. Not even knowing which dreams to work towards to. It’s hard. But I think things are slowly shifting. Many hugs, and thank you so so much for this video.

[@damarismowatt]

You're such an inspiration - your content is valued beautiful x I'm happy to have been following your journey and learning xx

[@angel-nj6oc]

hello!! your journal flipthrough really inspires me to continue journalling... i've always found journalling to be so therapeutic but it seemed like a challenge to get my thoughts onto paper. Watching this really inspired me to keep going, thank you Ro!

[@clowicous]

My grandma use to journal like this, she had old ones that were in tongan but she said a lot about how much she loved us (grandchildren), those are the only things I remember. As she got older her journaling was more of what she did that day cuz she was forgetting everything. I miss her :(

[@DemiandDavid04]

You remind me a lot of me and who I was, just like you- in the past. I love watching your videos

[@scarletwilson2562]

Hey Rowena, word you ever consider writing a book? I think it would be awesome!

[@xanderwhite6924]

I have said this so many times, you make me feel 1000x better when I'm down 💖😘

[@shieladaitol]

Now, rewatching and binge watching your videos. I really need to refuel my life. I love you Rowena!!! 💕😁

[@Anna.T.]

18:40 this almost made me cry. It’s so true. Thank you for this video, Rowena! ❤️

[@soukainabenmamoun2436]

I love you so freaking much Rowena !! I just love the person you are.. You're just incredible n so beautiful !! I'm actually so so grateful for you being a youtuber and I'm soo happy I found you on KZbin as well!! Love love love youuuu💝💝💝💝

[@rheajohn5859]

Enjoy your trip Rowena! Thank you for all the content you have created for us! Your words of encouragement at the end is what I really needed to hear today so thank you for that!!

[@elizabethc6517]

21:51 of total inspiration 🙏🏼🌸❤️ Thanks!!

[@leeannebentley1538]

Thank you for sharing this with us! You inspire me personally with your honesty and realness!

[@bex2847]

Love this video! You are very inspirational and you've motivated me to get back to my journal and actually write something in it for the first time in months!! x

[@eh9885]

Could you do a video on ways to reflect on yourself like that attachment map you showed in your journal? ✨ Really loved this video!

[@elsawoods9476]

Pick up limes is another great KZbin channel u ppl will LOVE it...

[@breadncheeseplz8713]

This was great Rowena, thank you for sharing your story, not only was it interesting, but u thank you for reminding us that we will make it and that we are capable

[@sophiatolibas5066]

I always love your videos Rowena❤️I just feel so much better about life with every video you make because you make me realize things and just teach me so much, thank you💕 More great things and happiness to you love!!

[@unsolvedcasesandnews]

So much admiration for sharing your thoughts and your journey in life

[@XxcutielovemusicxX]

I just found your channel and I absolutely love your personality. It’s so genuine and authentic. 💕

[@ying7638]

Really needed to hear this right now. Thank you for sharing your raw experiences and wisdom, you are SO SO INSPIRING

[@jacquelinechang4733]

I love journaling as well, so envious that you can write straight without lines!! Haha

[@nicolesenpai9961]

Just gonna say it again that Steve Jobs quote carried me and continues to carry me through the dark times. It really makes me feel some type of way when I see it in other people's journals. C': Another great video, Row~

[@Heykay34]

Much love girl! You are helping so much I binge watch your vids are so helpful. 💗💕

[@nombreapellidos7902]

I relly love your videos, thank you 4 the good vibes, everytime i watch you i get REAALLLY motivated, so gratefull thanks again!!

[@anjelly1hardsyle]

I think this may be the first time I have ever commented on a video. I really wanted to thank you for creating the sort of content that you do. You inspire me to be the best version of myself and to be relentless in continuing my self-education. Thank you for being such a lovely human!

[@rowena]

🙈💕 I appreciate you endlessly Angelle!!

[@jordync3063]

I adore your channel your videos are helping me so much Thankyou 🥺🖤your such a real person !

[@feffsi8042]

Thank you so so so much for this video!! I've been going through hard times lately and haven't been feeling like myself, but this video came at the perfect time and really helped me regain a bit of motivation. I can relate a lot to the things you wrote in your journal and it seems like others can too, it's so comforting to feel that you are not alone and that it will get better

[@emmyedavis]

Journals!!! Yusssssssss! I love journaling, but I’d completely forgotten until I watched one of your videos awhile ago, and I am reobsessed!

[@XxXraversfantasyXxX]

I’m waiting for Rowena to make her own journal I NEED THAT IN MY LIFE OMG

[@mixnmatche8629]

Its so nice to see all the things that moved you and its really inspiring!! Youre such a nice person and aaa thank you for all that you do ♡♡

[@monika_cereja]

Thank you so much for sharing your journey ✨ Your videos are so inspiring and motivating, they always lift my spirit ❤️

[@ellenwadsworth8437]

this was a really beautiful video. i’ve been watching your stuff since last week or so and i now love your content. you are so inspiring and this video resonates deeply with me. time to work my butt off! 💘

[@LunaKushG]

"if this is you, this is me, we are the same"

[@simplycaspar]

Oooh I'm just barely picking up journaling again. Needed this video 💕

[@vibewithmabel]

This ready like my life right now seriously! Wow, you should make this a book...

[@josiebobeck6450]

I'm getting back into journaling and this video is so helpful!! Thank you Rowena!!

[@ClassifiedCloset]

you are SUCH an incredible human, Rowena 💛💛💛

[@rdrslw]

this is actually so rare that i'm this early for your videos, but I'm so in love with all your contents. you've aspired me in so many ways, i adore you so so much!!! keep on being you & thank you for everything

[@scorpiotransformed4772]

I would love to see 2 videos. The first one is the mapping in the journal. I have mental health challenges and I honestly feel it would be a good method to calm my mind. The next one I keep waiting for is letting go of toxicity. I'm a very poisoned person. Everyone wants to steal my sunshine so I never glow. "If you won't shine then ill sit with you in the dark" :'(

[@alix4256]

This is exactly what I needed. You're always incrediblely motivational

[@msnishaxo]

wow what a great video thank you soo much for sharing your thoughts

[@elikatify]

You are officially one my favorite youtubers! Idk whats in your videos that make them so calming and pleasing to watch. Keep the good vibe coming, girl!!! Also I love your apartment!its so pretty, where did you get your cloud pillow? (RJ) :)

[@jupiterr0514]

I literally have been hoping you'd film this video for a long time!! Thank you for being simply amazing and very inspiring

[@winchestermalfoy4409]

Love you're handwriting!

[@memelanza8901]

You are inspiring ♥ today I found your channel and its my favourite.

[@akuaron]

This was soo deep.... I literally took notes, thanks wise Rowena, you'll always have my support!! ^^

[@brandtc.5594]

I absolutely love you, rowena

[@laurabior]

Rowena, i appreciate you so much. I always se myself in you, a lot of the things you go through and wonder about, are things that happen to me. I'm really thankfull that you share all this with us, it makes me see the potential in me. If you want to talk more about letting go of what others think of you and how Buddhism helped you with this(if it did) i would really like that! Regardless, i adore you. Hope you are well!

[@laurabior]

Also, every video you release i have to remind myself we're not actually friends hahah you are very good on setting this casual/friendly mood

[@snemehta3274]

Thank you for this, you've given me a lot of good things to think about and try to write about for myself. I super appreciate your content

[@elsawoods9476]

Check out pick up limes

[@michellep9536]

Such a good watch. 🖤 you're an inspiration and so so relatable.