How I Left a Cult/ My Story of Leaving Jehovah's Witnesses

[@sbrightpink]

I was physically abused in the religion.. THANK YOU FOR TELLING THIS STORY!!! I am so happy you got away & started a new life!!! You are a VERY STRONG PERSON❤

[@ThisSideoftheNuthouse]

Thank you for sharing and for watching. You are a strong person too and I am very happy you were able to get away too and start a new life.

[@missamanda2703]

I'm so thankful you are out I hope you are doing better. ❤

[@christinesotelo7655]

@@ThisSideoftheNuthouseIt would be good to hear your story. JWs have at least two personas: smiling ear-to-ear as a recruit possibility and then turning and leaving that recruit once their job is done and the recruit is baptized.

[@misserica85ify]

OMG! I think I remember you from school! You are so strong to share this. This goes to show how you don’t know what someone could be going through💖

[@ThisSideoftheNuthouse]

Thank you that really means a lot. Hi Nice to hear from you. It really is very true we have no idea what loads others carry. Thank you so much for your support and care.

[@filipolorenzo7910]

@@ThisSideoftheNuthouse ACTS 3:13 Peter and John said: The God of Abraham and of Isaac and of Jacob, the God of our forefathers, has glorified his Son and Servant, Jesus EXODUS 6:3 “And I appeared unto Abraham, unto Isaac, and unto Jacob, by the name of God Almighty, but by my name JEHOVAH was I not known to them.” King James Version (KJV)

[@thejakefromstatefarm6768]

@@filipolorenzo7910 the witnesses absolutely hate the king james bible. And they constantly carry on about how it was changed by man so much that it means nothing. In fact it will steer you in the wrong direction. You could say that same thing about any version of the bible. The one that makes you feel good and feel like it’s guiding you is the right one i think.

[@filipolorenzo7910]

@@thejakefromstatefarm6768 hate? the king james version also have the name of the one Jesus and us worship. Exodus 6:3 King James Bible And I appeared unto Abraham, unto Isaac, and unto Jacob, by the name of God Almighty, but by my name JEHOVAH was I not known to them. But whats the point, you can see it and then what? nothing.

[@filipolorenzo7910]

@@thejakefromstatefarm6768 every version is the same if you actually have eyes to see: For Example: according to your bible or any bible: Who is the LORD God the one giving the throne to Jesus according to Angel Gabriel? Luke 1:32 Jesus will be great and will be called Son of the Most High, and THE LORD GOD WILL GIVE HIM the throne of David Revelation 3:21 Jesus said: To the one who conquers I will grant to sit down with me on my throne, just as I conquered and sat down with MY FATHER on HIS throne. Who is the LORD the one Jesus is talking about? The one Jesus said will save some? Mark 13:20 Jesus said: “If the LORD had not cut short those days, no one would survive. But for the sake of the elect, WHOM.. HE .. HAS CHOSEN, HE.. HAS CUT SHORT THE DAYS. If Jesus called the LORD the God of Abraham, who is he? Luke 20:37 But in the account of the burning bush, even Moses showed that the dead rise, for he calls THE LORD ‘the God of Abraham, and the God of Isaac, and the God of Jacob.’ 38 HE.. is not the God of the dead, but of the living, for to HIMM.. all are alive.” - Our lovely Father JEHOVAH of Armies.

[@geraldlindgren4173]

I am 73 I was around this cult since I was 36, Joined about ten years ago, about a year after my fantastic wife passed away. SURPRISE, they hooked me when I was down ! It is strange how they work it. I sat around there for thirty years with my JW wife never studying their literature, actually getting brain washed just by being present occasionally at their meetings. I have come to realize they are the most dangerous and destructive , most families eventually get trashed by these "NUT JOBS" this being the worst CULT on the planet ! My wife and I had 7 children, that really upset the elders because we were not being obedient to the G B . We were suppose to be spending our time advancing in the org. With the hope of arranging our life in such a way so as we could pioneer until the end of the system. Anyway now I have 5 adult married children in the cult with my grandchildren :(:(:( BUT my two youngest adult and unmarried boys are OUT with me. I hate to admit it but thoughts of suicide do pass thru my head from time to time. HOW COULD I BE SO GULLIBLE ? ? ? However I refuse to give this demonic cult that satisfaction. I was in a very serious farm accident about 5 years ago. Broke my neck and back and crushed the right side of my body. I could not do physical therapy so my sister, she being a retired surgical nurse recommended that I start walking in State Park near my farm. This I have been doing daily the last 4 years. Unexpectedly strange things started happening the "HOLY SPIRIT" started communicating with me on these 5 mile walks. Cleared up all the watch tower confusion very very quickly. And your question is? ? ? Yes we really are eternal creatures and the way to get to the best place ever imaginable is to develop a relationship with non other than JESUS CHRIST our LORD and SAVIOR the one who gave his life so we can be with him forever :) :) :) HAPPY ENDINGS are possible ! ! !

[@dimitylong792]

Gerald Lindgren 🙏🤗 thank you for sharing, you made me cry. God bless you 🙏

[@ivonikolov2916]

Jesus Christ can save you, hold steal till the end. Go to him and he will lift you up in this life and in the next one!!!!

[@celticfiddle7605]

Gerald I had a similar experience! Isn't it wonderful!!!! Not only did we get out of the JWs we found Jesus Christ and His Father!!! I will never let go of this relationship again!!!

[@pattynellis7347]

Wonderful ..i was raised a JW now im a Born again Christian

[@ThisSideoftheNuthouse]

Gerald Lindgren I am so sorry that happened to you. I know so many who were brainwashed through casual interaction. It's awful. I am so sorry you don't have your older 5 children and your grandchildren. I hope your children wake up and see the lies for what they are. I am glad that you are in a better place and you have 2 of your 7. I find becoming spiritual on my own is exactly what healed me a lot too. Much love being sent to you and your family.

[@valkeakirahvi]

My best friend as a child was a JW and I saw a lot of that crazy stuff up close. When I was 13 I found out that my friend had an older sister who had had just had a baby, so my friend just became an aunt. The sister was disfellowshipped and I still remember how confused I was about why I never even knew about this sister. Later they were in contact more and my friend even ran from home to live with her sister for a while. Anyway, I later saw the sister on TV, and it turned out her story is a lot like yours. She was abused as a child by a man in the congregation, and then blamed for seducing the man. She was forced to serve coffee to the man and his family as an apologize and the man never got punished. This was one of the biggest reasons why she left and why she was shunned by the family. Bat shit crazy, and incredibly dangerous.

[@ThisSideoftheNuthouse]

I am so sorry to hear that. Unfortunately there are way too many people who experiance this because of the organization. I totally agree Bat Shit Crazy.

[@kitti2345]

I was born and raised in the JW organization. I was baptized when I was 12 years old. I was disfelowshiped when I was 18. When I left/shunned i realized how terrible that place was and I never looked back. When i was 6 years old i was molested by a man in that organization and the guy never got in trouble. I was told to forgive him because Jehovah already did. We were also told we couldnt tell anyone outside of that room. I saw the guy 2 times a week at the kingdom hall until i was 18 years old. That cult is disgusting and everyone is weird as hell in it.

[@ThisSideoftheNuthouse]

I am so sorry that that happened to you. Your story sounds very similar to mine. I was told I can't ruin how others view him and I saw him three times a week until I left. I am so sorry no one stood up for you or took care of you. And yes everyone in that religion is weird as hell. I look back now and remember some very weird things these people did. I have also talked to a few people since I have left and they are just as weird with just as twisted of a view as they did years ago when I went. I am so glad you are out. I know it sucks to no longer have the family we had but it's better to be out and free. Thank you for watching and commenting.

[@markellwilliams3594]

My story is very similar to yours except I wasn’t baptized. My mom is still there and I can’t go over without her coming to the conclusion is that I need to get back into it because we living in the last days. It happens all the time. I love my mom unconditionally and I know she loves her 3 kids . But I only wish we wouldn’t have got scared to death our whole lives about doing this or doing or not having the chance to live in paradise. I pray for all of us because it takes a while to get unwarped. Have a blessed week darling

[@Ibetyouthinkaboutmelol]

I'm also a jw cult survivor. I'm so sorry that happened to you! My mom was molested too..but not me. Probably because I was a chatty little kid and would have told on them.

[@missdaydreamss]

Not everyone is like that. Sadly that person is not a person of jeovah but used the religionto abuse you. Alot of those people is not because of the religion but how they chose to abuse it

[@automobilesarefun409]

Im with you. These people are under a Strong Demonic Force. They are not Good People at all. They must be brought to Justice.

[@jeffreyminor4701]

Jeff's wife here: Two JW's knocked on our door in the 1980's, and I informed them I was a R. Catholic and not interested. They took that as a challenge and talked me into letting them in to hear "the truth". We debated their interpretation of the Bible, and I was able to give them the Catholic interpretation of every point. In the end they left in frustration after personally insulting me and my religion. After that I refused to indulge in their BS. Gotta laugh because I'm still a R. Catholic after 67 years. If you think I'm doomed you are free to pray for me. God bless this young lady for speaking out. Jesus said the truth will set you free.

[@matthewhawking4318]

What year did the Bible cease stating that Jehovah is God?

[@Hoover79]

@@matthewhawking4318 j.w. is a b.s. man made doctrine. So is catholicism . Stick to the word, don't let another man interpret for you. GOD Will reveal himself through his WORD

[@EERIEBANDANA]

Jesus is called the truth Jesus will set you free

[@EERIEBANDANA]

Maybe ask phony Micheal to help find Jesus go on and pray for Micheal lol

[@Monkey114]

They will love bomb you until you ask questions,then you are an apostate.

[@beebee5807]

I have been 44 years with the JW organization before I wake up to all the control. The worse part is that they take away your faith in Jesus Christ, however, I am close to him than never before. I can say that getting close to God and Jesus even after so long time is a wonderful thing. They twist the truth. Only in Jesus are the truth and the way and the life not in a human organization that acts like a gangster.

[@ThisSideoftheNuthouse]

Yes I find that to be the most tragic part. People who leave cults, tend to have any faith in anything robbed from them when they leave and it makes me so sad to know this.

[@landofashley]

They are ravenous wolves

[@vociferateforme]

Glad you got out. My father's side is JW. I grew up being the bad grandkid for my grandmother. Refused to go to church and follow their rules so she completely cut me out when I was 16. Twelve years later I got pregnant with twins, apparently twins run heavily on his side (gran was twin and it skipped all her kids) but I had to go through SIX different family members to get any questions answered about my genealogy. (And even then, it was only through my aunt. She refused to directly speak to me.) Fudge 'em! You're fantastic and you'll be amazing with or without them!

[@classickruzer1]

WOW A FORNICATOR chastising the J W's. Typical post.

[@vaderdave5046]

I was born a JW. I am so thankful you were able to escape! More people need to wake up and get rid of these freaks!

[@ThisSideoftheNuthouse]

I totally agree.

[@racheloconnor855]

I can't imagine how alone you felt during this time in your life , the person you've grown to be is amazing.

[@racheloconnor855]

@@gamersTV5617 you're preaching to the wrong girl , I distanced myself from Christianity a long time ago

[@racheloconnor855]

@@gamersTV5617 yeah I don't care what's in the Bible

[@racheloconnor855]

@@gamersTV5617 I don't follow any religion...

[@racheloconnor855]

@@gamersTV5617 what an odd question

[@Barinda8]

This video was recommended to me randomly...I was never a Jehovah Witness...but I can relate to the kind of relationship you had with your mother...I am still currently going to therapy for my relationship with my mother and how that affected other relationships in my life...I just want you to know you definitely aren't alone...thank you for sharing such a difficult story.

[@ThisSideoftheNuthouse]

Thank you for watching. I am glad that although we came from different religious backgrounds as children, we could relate to each other in the way our mothers have acted towards us. I am glad to hear you are going to therapy for help with the abuse. I have gone to therapy too and it has opened my eyes to just how crazy my mother is and how not ok it was how she treated me. Thank you for watching my story. I am happy to share if it make one person feel less alone.

[@mariantarchynets3454]

Nobody deserves toxic family relationships. I don't know if your experience was religion-related, but it just occurred to me that religion should BE the therapy (or at least one of modalities thereof), not the CAUSE for therapy. Otherwise it's just another man-made scam.

[@EricMichaelson-r2u]

So proud of you, and so happy you got away from that awful cult. You deserve all the love and support that this world can offer you. God bless you!

[@nyiajayy]

I’m so sorry you had to suffer so much at the hands of those people. I’m glad your out now and free! I left 5 years ago and still struggle with the trauma of what I had to endure. Turn out the “world” isn’t so bad at all.

[@ThisSideoftheNuthouse]

Thank you. I am glad you are out too. The 'world" is so much better than being with them.

[@tiffanyblack8755]

Thank You for sharing your story. Our childhoods are really similar in a lot of ways. It's so important for people to get an understanding of how these cults really operate. I'm so glad you are free of that and have your own family now to breathe Joy into.🌻

[@ThisSideoftheNuthouse]

Thank you for watching and for the support.

[@32819al]

Thank you for sharing your story. I didn’t realize the abuse was so prevalent! I didn’t experience that, nor the hateful mom and grandma, but years later did hear about a disfellowshipped father/husband and had to walk away as I kept seeing not all rules applied to all. I remember visiting Bethel as a teen and the visiting ministerial couple laughing saying “if they only knew who we really are!” that stayed in my head.

[@ThisSideoftheNuthouse]

Thank you for watching and commenting. They are great at covering up abuse. It is very common for abuse to happen in the congregations and to be covered up. It is really sad. If you look up the Austrailia Royal commision against them you will see a small part of what is a huge problem. Yeah I have talked to people from Bethel and it is quite sad how pompous a lot of them are and how they feel so untouchable. I had a similar experiance too with a couple who the husband was an elder. It seems JWs only care what it looks like and not what it is for the most part.

[@jennadare2222]

I am so sorry you went thru this. Sickening. My boyfriend was raised J.W. and it was a lot of similar situations and he is now disassociated (years ago) and it really messed him up. He lost every relationship he built for years. Just insane. I'm so sorry and glad you chose a better path for you!

[@ThisSideoftheNuthouse]

I am so sorry for what your boyfriend went through. It's hard because you do literally lose everyone when you leave. I faded and then disassociated. It was the final nail in the coffin with my relationship with my mother and her family. I am happy to hear that your boyfriend is forging a new life with you and outside of that crazy organization. Stay safe during this crazy time.

[@jennadare2222]

@@ThisSideoftheNuthouse I appreciate you taking time to reply back! That is awesome! But yes. I am happy he left as well. Both of your stories were so similar I had to tell him about it. His dad had just got out of prison and I was looking for a religion he liked and one day a JW came to the door and he "saw it as a sign" just as your mother did. And that is when it all started. His father still practices and has no relationship with his son (my boyfriend) at all. It's sad. Every holiday he typically goes through seasonal depression because of flashbacks and he was raised not to celebrate and he tries to "fit in" now and celebrate but he really doesn't know how, if that makes sense. It's sad and really disheartening. 😞

[@ThisSideoftheNuthouse]

@@jennadare2222 Wow his story is very similar. Yes unfortunately JWs prey on people when they are at their lowest. They will even go through the obituaries and send letters to the families. I am not surprised but I am saddened when I hear a story similar to mine. I understand the seasonal depression around holidays. I have felt that in the past. It took therapy for me to move forward from it. I still have a hard time around my birthday. He is not alone in how he feels. I am so sorry he is going through this. It isn't easy to be the one that sees through the crazy from that Organization.

[@nicd9224]

Just watched this video now, as a former jw I admire your strength to come forward with your story. No one should ever experience what u did however the way you were able to overcome and persevere thru is truly inspiring, cheers again and your strength is something I admire, nothing but lovee:)))

[@ThisSideoftheNuthouse]

Thank you so much.

[@susanreid122]

I am so sorry for what happened to you. I wish I could just give you a hug. You are an amazing person. xxxxx

[@jlynn1981]

Thank you so much for sharing your story. 20 years ago I left the organization and haven’t looked back. Your story and experiences sound eerily similar to mine.

[@ThisSideoftheNuthouse]

Thank you for watching. Unfortunately I have heard many stories like ours. I am happy to hear that you were able to leave so many years ago and have a great life away from that horrible organization.

[@mjraxmendez5829]

I watched this with a very heavy heart but in the end and after all that happen to you, you are every strong person to picked your self up. More power to you!!!

[@ThisSideoftheNuthouse]

Thank you. That really means a lot.

[@amarisrania1585]

Thankyou for sharing your story. We have much in common. So little we could do as children about the crazies our parents brought into our life. At least we are free now. I left at 17. I was without family and friends in a big city for the first time. I had a fear of making friends. And very much a fear of anyone with religious beliefs they might want to impose on me. My mother used to be hurt when my aunty described an elders daughter as personality plus, now I realise that was the ranking system. Bless you for bringing that insight to me now, some 30 years later.

[@R.Oates7902]

@Amaris Rania What does personality plus mean?

[@helpforexjws4998]

Thank you for sharing your story. You are so strong to share it and it helps so many more than you could know.

[@ThisSideoftheNuthouse]

Thank you that truly means a lot.

[@paradisefound3536]

What an incredibly brave and strong young woman you are. Thank you for your courage in sharing your story. I wish what happened to you was uncommon in this cult but it's not and our voices need to be heard. I hope you realise now that not fitting in in your family or your congregation was a compliment. You're better than all of them. And people that can't grasp the concept of the age of concent, be they abusers or bystanders, are fucking monsters. Shine on sis✊

[@ThisSideoftheNuthouse]

Paradise Found thank you. Yes unfortunately my story is far too common. I really hope that me sharing helps others share and may be educates those that don't understand. I agree people who can't understand stand consent are awful.

[@edwardshaw8312]

So sorry for your hurt. As you struggled to get your story, I could feel your pain. I still feel mine after more than 50 years. Stay strong. You are loved!❤

[@enjoywarmwinters]

Thanks for sharing your story! You seem to be very brave and smart. I grew up in this cult from birth and was able to stop going around 13 years old. My mothers still in it and it’s fine no good for her. I’m just happy to know others are getting out and starting to live their lives.

[@ThisSideoftheNuthouse]

Thank you for watching. I am so glad you were able to leave at 13. I am sorry to hear your mother is still in. My mother is still in too. I feel better when I hear that others are leaving and escaping the crazy that is these people. So glad you are living your life and not letting these crazy people hold you back.

[@WhatsUporDown]

So much abuse happens in this org it’s insane. Mental, physical, emotional & sexual. I’m so sorry you had to endure this but thank you for sharing your story so more ppl can be aware of how horrible they really are. I had a friend who was molested by an elder. Nothing happened to the elder but the kid was treated like crap. He’s still messed up up this day & also still a jw. Looking back there was so many questionable things I saw. Makes me sad to think about it. Having kids is what woke me up. When they put my daughter in my arms I knew I was done. I never wanted my beautiful girl to experience any of the things I did.

[@ahmritroets2596]

I watched you decompress in this video. It made me decompress. Thank you for being real. I hope you have a good rest of your day Lady.

[@ThisSideoftheNuthouse]

Thank you so much for watching and I am so glad it helped you feel better. I hope you have a wonderful day. Thank you for your honesty and support.

[@ernest3286]

I knew JWs were bad, but I didn't know it was this bad. Glad that you got out, and have been able to process much of this. Much love.

[@ms.anonymousinformer242]

The jws are not "bad" If that is true , then when I considered myself one, that would make my love for God/wanting to seek truth and do right making me "bad" so that makes you are liar because I know I was not bad, for wanting to live and do right morally. It is the Governing Body and what they are TEACHING is bad.

[@nates9029]

Cheers to you for leaving the Organization. I grew up a Witness and was even a ministerial servant from age 17-19. I left when I turned 21 and never looked back. That was over 20 years ago. My brother and father are still Witnesses and I still talk to them but lost just about every friend I had growing up so I can understand how tough it is to leave. I am terribly sorry to hear about your story. I wish there was something more profound and helpful I could say but I am glad that you were able to leave that toxic and dangerous group. Best wishes and stay strong.

[@ThisSideoftheNuthouse]

Thank you for commenting and for the encouragement. Thank you for sharing your story. It really helps to hear other people's experiences too. I am glad you are able to talk to your brother and father. I am more glad that you were able to leave. It is crazy how much they try to force people to stay. I really appreciate you watching and commenting. Best wishes to you too.

[@nates9029]

@@ThisSideoftheNuthouse - Yeah, the ridiculous thing was I lost my mother when I was 14 so when I was leaving some of my friends and even my father would say things like, "Don't you want to see your mother again?". I would usually just brush it off but eventually I got to the point where I would say, "Sorry, but I stopped believing in fairy tales a while ago". I was kind of one of the kids you mentioned when you talked about the "rankings". My father was an elder. I certainly agree with you for the most part about how most elder's children were kind of untouchable. I had a little different experience but it was mostly because of my mother passing. I felt more like I was under a microscope. Anyway, I admit that I had to stop your video for a little bit and come back when you got to your abuse. While I personally never went through anything like that, there were situations very similar to what you experienced in the congregation I grew up in. Also in subsequent years I have heard MANY stories like yours of kids in situations similar to yours; single mother or parent, neglected child and one on the peripheral of the congregation being targeted. It really gets my blood pressure skyrocketing. So when I was a ministerial servant I was in a couple of meetings, not Elder's meetings of course, but ones where things came up and I was like 17 or 18 and the Elder with me was much older but had no training in psychology or anything like that and we would ask questions and had to get as much details about certain situations as we could. I had friends that went through Elder's meetings that had to answer VERY personal questions like you outlined. I say all this because when I stepped away from being a ministerial servant, the Elders sat down with me, except for my father who was still and Elder at the time, and asked me if I had any suggestions or anything to say regarding my experience as a ministerial servant. I remember recommending that that Elders and ministerial servants needed to take psychology and criminology classes. They Elders looked at me like I was crazy and I told them that a lot of what they deal with NONE of them are qualified to deal with. They don't know a single thing they are doing and they are causing SERIOUS damage to people. This was in 1999. Needless to say, my recommendation for just that Hall was ignored and has CLEARLY been ignored by the group as a whole given all the lawsuits and accusations of abuse that have happened since. The only reason I say all of this is that I know EXACTLY what you are talking about. I don't recall if you mentioned this in your video or not but can I ask, are you seeing a doctor to help you deal with the trauma of your experience? I know you said you had issues with anxiety afterwards, which is certainly understandable. I just hope you are getting some help, if you need it. Not everyone needs that kind of help but I just wanted to ask. I hope you are better now. It seems like it has been a good while since this happened and you are no longer even in that same area but I just want to be sure. Time heals some wounds and not always others. Anyway, I am so sorry for what happened to you. It is stories like yours that really upset me and one of the main reasons I have such issues with the JW's. I generally hold my tongue out of respect for my brother and father but on occasion, usually when I'm drunk, they'll hear what I really think of the JW's when it comes up. My brother has even made a comment about the Catholic Church in regards to their issues with child abuse and I looked at him and said, "Are you fucking kidding me?! Do you know what is going on in YOUR church?!" He hasn't made a comment like that since. Anyway, you are certainly not alone - which is terrible to say but unfortunately true. I am so glad you made it out of there and I almost wish there was a Hell because I would LOVE to meet your abuser there. He shouldn't have just been disfellowshipped, he should be in jail and in a position to where he wished he were in Hell. Like I said earlier, I wish you the best and hope you stay strong. You seem to be doing well and that is definitely good to see.

[@dantoinettetaylor1663]

@@nates9029 thank you for your honesty. JW.org will never post anything about child abuse lawsuits on their news of the World pages but love to call out other churches. It makes my blood boil! And I know they see non-born in kids as targets as well for all sorts of aanus: verbal, sexual, social because they assume coming in from the world you MUST have loose morals and are to be seen as bad association until you are dedicated and baptised when for many (me at least who was raised by strict evangelical parents) nothing could be farther from the truth. I was shocked

[@ThisSideoftheNuthouse]

@@nates9029 Thank you so much for sharing your story and for being so supportive. I did seek therapy for a bit a few years ago. It helped a lot. Thank you for sharing what you went through. I am so sorry they were emotionally manipulating you. I am so sorry for your loss. Thank you for explaining your story. It really helped to give me another perspective. Thank you for sharing more insight in how it is to be family of an elder and to be a ministerial servant. I completely get how hard it is when you are out but your family is in. I had to bite my tongue a lot when I would talk to my mother. She did the whole thing about the Catholics and their scandals. I was like did you forget what I went through. I have sense cut ties but I completely understand trying to keep peace to be able to keep in touch with your family. Yeah I think they definitely need classes on how to help people with trauma, even ministers for churches take at least one psychiatry class. The sad part is they feel like they don't need to because they think they are so untouchable because of their faith. You are pretty awesome for being so transparent with them and telling them what you thought would improve their church. You are an awesome person. I am so sorry you went through all that. I am happy you are out because at least now you are more free to live your best life. I hope that you are not struggling too much since you left. I understand it can be really hard when your family decides you are less than because they have tied themselves too much into their religion.

[@nates9029]

@@ThisSideoftheNuthouse - No, thank you for sharing your story. Your story is a much more difficult and personal story to share. I'm glad you sought help and that it was of some benefit for you. I appreciate your kind words but to be honest, I'm not sorry I went through any of it....well, I wish my mother hadn't died. I would be lying if I didn't say that but I'm not sorry for the experiences I had after she passed. I learned a lot and I can now use my experience to possibly help others. If you don't learn from bad experiences and help others then it truly is a tragedy and one that you play a part in but if you can use your experiences to help others then something good can come from even heartache. I am not struggling too much since I left. The good news is that I know exactly who to blame when things go wrong and who to credit when things go right. Life is complicated and difficult enough without adding further unnecessary complications to it. Anyway, I'm glad you shared your story and that things are going better for you now. I hope you stay safe and healthy and that things continue to go well for you. The important thing is to always want to learn and grow. Cheers to you! 🍻

[@pennyvdl]

You are so brave. My heart aches for little you. Sending oceans of love.

[@LoganKM76]

Wow, very powerful to hear your story. Thank you for sharing.

[@cherin9121]

Thank you for sharing your story! I admire your bravery, honesty and strength to share your video and story. Definitely makes me feel as I am not alone in what I grew up in or felt. I grew up as a JW myself. To this day, I will never understand how anything outside of their little box/"world" is bad - especially family members. I will never understand the reasoning behind the VERY strict rules they set. It will never make sense to me. Like many others (from what I am recently learning, through video's like yours), I am not the only one scarred - although it's still something you don't speak to just anyone about either. Seeing (what I consider a "cult") JW's from outside since then, I've realized that there's such a big and bright world beyond that box they've created. And although it has taken into my adult years to heal, I now believe in God and Jesus again - and the endless possibilities of what is 'God', without going to a church and accepting what is told. It is based on what resonates with you, how that makes you feel instead. That pure joy and peace of mind is something I found outside of any church/Brother. I am more blessed to be away from JW than I ever was in. Although I do not belong to or go consistently to any specific church, I can now step into one without having that sinking feeling. And when the Pastor speaks, I can actually listen and hear what they're saying - and connect it to what I believe now.

[@thejakefromstatefarm6768]

I’m sorry you had so much to deal with and nobody to help you through life. Nobody that was an allie and confidant. I’m happy you are in a better place now with people that care for you and care about you. It’s impressive you had the strength to leave at 19 and get as far away as you could. You became strong weather you realize or not. I hope your life is filled with happiness now because you deserve that. I really like you. This is the first video of yours I’ve watched but you have a very real way about you. There’s just something really likable about you. You’d be the kind of person i would make close friends with.

[@chroniclesoflucifer]

I am glad you survived. While listening to your story I realized I hadn't cried that hard in a few months. Hearing your little one call you mommy seeing how protective you are, I am grateful you escaped Watchtower. ❤

[@willowtreehomeschool8859]

You are so brave to tell your story in a public way. I have a similar story, not in the JW church, but with a church elder. I have only been able to tell my husband, ,grown children, and my mom in recent years. My mom, being the narcissist she is, didn't give a shit. I'm really proud of you for speaking out about JW. Hugs. I was 11 and 12 when it happened. He went to a super conservative church. It helped me to not feel so alone to hear your story.

[@ThisSideoftheNuthouse]

Thank you. 💜 I am so sorry you went through that and I am so sorry your mom didn't care.😥 I'm glad my story made you feel less a lone. You are a very strong and brave woman for carrying that for so long. I know it's rough. I am sending you hugs through the internet. Thank you for watching and sharing.

[@PistolPackingPilot]

Listening to these types of testimonials is what inspired me to tell my own story on my channel. I left the cult about three decades ago. Most of my childhood friends are in prison of “offed” themselves. Even all these years later I still feel the pain. But these videos are comforting. Looks like you’re a prepper too? You’ve earned my sub. God bless.

[@ThisSideoftheNuthouse]

Thank you. I really hope you do share your story one day. Thank you for sharing part of it here. Yes we are preppers and homesteaders too. Are you too? Thank you for the sub and God bless you too. 💚

[@pattymc4726]

I’m very sorry that you’ve had to endure this. If you were my daughter I would love and be proud of you. The loss is your mother’s and your grandmother’s and all the fools who have turned their backs on you. The pain on your face says it all. I wish for all good things for you from now on. Take care of yourself.

[@jillcassill8743]

thank you for having the courage to tell your story. you are young andbeautiul and have the whole rest of your life to make wonderful. I hope you will get/have received good solid counseling becuz this level of trauma is too much to bear alone. please keep us updated on how you are doing. sending love and prayers..

[@ThisSideoftheNuthouse]

Thank you Jill. That really means a lot. I have been in counseling on and off. I have done a lot of self help over the years. Healing has been a journey but totally worth it. I will do a follow up video soon. Thank you for watching and commenting with your kind words.

[@reece1929]

It takes a while to truly feel better. I was in that organization for over forty years. So you can imagine how much is implanted in how you think, talk, dress, and walk. It's like your mouth is saying "I'll be fine and screw them!", but your mind is saying "I'm wicked and I'm going to be destroyed because Jehovah doesn't like that." That unhealthy fear is implanted in such a way, that unfortunately for most of us, it's hard to find balance within ourselves. We either try too hard to be nothing like the way we grew up, or we can't seem to get rid of our "that's not nice don't do that, sorry for not pleasing you" mentality. When you started biting your nails, I started crying. I used to bite my nails down to the core, then just like anything else, when I stopped, I went to the extreme other end. My nails used to be so long, people thought I had on extremely long acrylics. Now after all these years, I found some balance...medium length nails, that are beautiful. 😊 It's not your fault...it's not your fault. If you have to study yoga and meditation...do it. You didn't lose any friends because you never really gained any..at least not in the org. As for that nasty thing that touched you, and his crack pot wife, they'll get theirs one way or the other. You're a beautiful person.You're still young, so go fly birdie fly! 😊 I wish you the best. Know that you are not alone. Enjoy every minute with your little ones. Stay safe.

[@ThisSideoftheNuthouse]

I totally agree. It took years before I could even talk about leaving them. They really do a mind trip on you.

[@JWEscape]

Thank you for your story, great job. I have been shunned by my family for more than 30 years as a result of leaving that cult. It is a horrible organization.

[@ThisSideoftheNuthouse]

Thank you. I am so sorry they are shunning you. It is a really horrible organization.

[@charlottedavis-browne5954]

Your “family” do not deserve you. Stay strong. x

[@yodaries3301]

You are so brave to tell your story. I love you friend. 💚

[@ThisSideoftheNuthouse]

Aww thank you. I love you too.

[@christinesotelo7655]

I applaud you for telling your painful story. We need to hear these stories because so many of us have been through the WT abuses. I was a JW when the world was going to be destroyed by Jehovah in 1975. Though there have been so many many changes due to sudden or painfully slow “New Light”, the one thing that never changed was their “class system”, as you implied, of “ranks”and of CSA. My own young husband, a JW, drove an adult babysitter home one night and she fell madly in love with him for preaching to her. I was so innocent and trusting that I never knew about their affair until I was disfellowshipped for arguing and asking questions about the No Blood Doctrine to the elders. He was not disfellowshipped. So I understand your pain. I can see it was very hard for you to tell your story but you did an excellent job of it. Among us “Apostates”, know you are well-respected and I hope more and more people come forward with their experiences. We had a few recovering addicts among the younger people and dry alcoholics among the older men, but for the most part, they ladies were elitist and nice only while they were winning a recruit. After the “kill”, they could care less. Keep moving forward, you’re doing great! ❤

[@rxa-z1124]

Thank you so much. You’re very courageous and a superwoman! Enjoy your freedom.

[@ThisSideoftheNuthouse]

Thank you.

[@MajasDad]

Thank you for telling your story. It was extremely moving

[@ThisSideoftheNuthouse]

Thank you! You too!

[@jameskennedy721]

Glad you got a new start . Keep us updated on how things are going .

[@ThisSideoftheNuthouse]

Thank you. I will try to keep things updated.

[@marwatson7408]

Sorry you had to experience that but I’m a former witness here I was in 3 years and so glad I got out of that nonsense I was so tired of the fear, guilt,and shame. You can never do enough for this organization. Yes they prey upon people vulnerabilities and emotions that’s how they hooked me my mother was diagnosed with Breast Cancer at the time I was studying.

[@kadeja325]

You are a brave person even though you may be shaking inside. I hope that your life just gets better and better. It just sucks that a child doesn't get to choose who raises them and who their parents are, and are subjected to the choices their parents make. My heart goes out to you. Know that you are a beautiful soul and deserve all the good life has to offer.

[@ThisSideoftheNuthouse]

Thank you so much that really means a lot. 💙 Your words are very uplifting. I am working really hard on making this new chapter I am in and the next the best ones yet.

[@SimplyRochelleParanormal]

I'm so PROUD of U for being so freaking BRAVE!! I'm so glad U made it THRU to the other side 💜👑💜 U have made it thru a HELL that some of the strongest ppl wld absolutely BREAK frm, some just DNT know.... I have a few ex FLDS friends, frm the order, and I've dealt with Satanic cult myself, Thank U for doing this 💜💯 bringing awareness where ever and when ever it can be done is NEEDED FOREVER!! A friend of mine in the recovery community has a saying that I Love "WE RECOVER LOUDLY, SO THAT THOSE WHO ARE STILL SUFFERING, ARE NOT SUFFERING IN SILENCE "💜💯 And a fav saying of my own I heard yrs ago is " THEY SAID TO HER, U CAN NOT WITHSTAND THE STORM! .... SHE SAID BACK I AM THE STORM " 💜💯 U are amazing for making this, and U never know who May need to see THIS today 💜 So much love and appreciation frm Florida 💜🌴🌴💜

[@ThisSideoftheNuthouse]

Thank you so much for the encouragement. I like to think that by sharing what I went through others won't feel so alone. Thank you for being so supportive and loving. Sending love back to you in Florida.

[@valntine755]

they take advantage of those who are vulnerable, i’m so sorry that you went through this, i wish all the best for you and your family

[@BonitaBLove]

So sorry for your trouble. You're stronger than you think. Keep the faith and your head up. Walk tall, you're a beautiful person.

[@ThisSideoftheNuthouse]

Thank you so much. That means a lot and I really appreciate the encouragement.

[@vusimngomezulu2500]

@@ThisSideoftheNuthouse You leaving Jehovah's witnesses to where John 6:66-68?and who is the name of the only true God according to the bible Psalms 68:4,91:14,John 5:43,10:25?

[@isaachenderson1725]

@@vusimngomezulu2500 what are you tryna say?

[@susanjansen9172]

87uuu

[@vusimngomezulu2500]

@@susanjansen9172 leaving Jehovah's witnesses to where John 6:66-68?and who is the name of the only true God according to the bible Genesis 35:1,John 17:3,1Corinthians 8:6?

[@bogartbacall633]

I remember vividly being in a locked room in the basement of the Kingdom Hall with 3 men whom I had looked up to as a child, who now scared me as an adult, at 19, when I was disfelowshiped. Knowing there was a 99% chance I would never see or speak to my close family and friends after I signed that paper. Thank you for sharing your story, it's disgusting that you had to go through anything like that, you're so strong and beautiful 💕 It makes me sad to think of how many people I helped brainwash into the cult I was born into.

[@ThisSideoftheNuthouse]

Hugs I hate how many people this cult has hurt. I agree I signed my letter of removal knowing I would not be speaking to my mother again. I am so sorry you had to experience that.

[@JINNIBOO4477]

I remember beatings in women's bathroom and seeing other girls being beaten..we look at each and cried during lashes..at whittier, CA congregation

[@R.Oates7902]

@@JINNIBOO4477 My little cousin was pulled between two cars while out in service ( in public) and spanked for being cranky! I mean, really? She was just a little girl and tired. Kids get tired and cranky! That happens. I can still hear her crying. It was not right. I got spanked. It's a cultural thing with these ppl and God tells them to do it.

[@classickruzer1]

You get disfellowshipped and blame the J W's.. OMG .. You're just like all the other J W BASHERS.

[@kittyface7kat327]

I'm so sorry to hear what you and others went through. It's awful they tried to protect the individual who abused you and others and that you were judged by fanatics. I'm glad you got out.

[@shirleydrake1602]

My daughter was a sociopathic. She died at 44 leaving three daughters behind. Long before she died the children were out of the home. I got the youngest at about age 14, she was such a pleaser of her mother. She constantly tried to rescue her mom. After her mom died, Tiff transferred her need please to whatever man she was with. She ended up in one abusive relationship after another, she became a addict and latter a alcoholic. She becomes addicted to whatever she does, work, man, sister, pet whatever she does. Her need for attention and family is so bad she is always trying to form family from who ever she is associated with. When her friends and boyfriends start pulling back from her neediness she hold on tighter and puts up with anything. Now, after a nasty marriage and divorce, during which she became alcoholic, she is angry, angry, angry. About time, right? Any way, I think the obsessive need to win your mother’s love is a condition of being rejected and ignored by your mother, or caregiver, With or without drugs being involved. My daughter had three children by the age of 19. Tiff was the third child , the last two were less then a year apart. She didn’t bond well with the third one. She took care of her physically but just didn’t provide the emotional support needed by a child. Sounds like you received about the same treatment, thus your need to people please. Thank you for revealing this situation and your personal journey, as well as revealing these archaic cult practices, being practiced by the fastest growing institution in the world.

[@markellwilliams3594]

I’m so sorry love that you had to go through that. I feel your pain. My mom is still in it and her 3 kids are not. I’m praying for you because I know this is traumatic. Thanks for sharing your story. I don’t have the guts yet. Have a blessed week you and your family darlings 💝💐💝

[@ThisSideoftheNuthouse]

Thank you for the support. I am so sorry to hear that your mother is still fully in. I am glad your siblings left though. I am sending you much love and support for you and your family.

[@fayprice1]

Thank you so much for being brave and sharing your story. You have so much to be hugely proud of. I can't imagine the agony of going through all this. As a human being can I please apologise to you that we live in a world where people can get away with abuse in religious contexts (and of course any context!). It is a travesty and is utterly utterly wrong. I am a 'normal' Christian and want to say to you that God loves you hugely and that he loves you more than anything. I am so so sorry that you went through this. You are amazing. I am so pleased that it sounds like you have found someone who is loving you properly.

[@ThisSideoftheNuthouse]

Thank you for the support. I know there are wonderful Christians out there. I am only wanting to shed light on the fact that this group is not a harmless sect of Christianity. Thank you so much for the support and love.

[@jokich6379]

Thanks for sharing. It takes strength and a lot of personal growth to become the best person you can be. Tolerance and understanding is important. Dysfunction within the family is serious, especially serious dysfunction.

[@ThisSideoftheNuthouse]

Thank you for watching and being supportive. It is really hard to leave disfunction and break the cycle.

[@jokich6379]

@@ThisSideoftheNuthouse It is difficult and a journey many struggle with.

[@matilda4406]

Wow! I really enjoyed your story. You obviously have done a lot of healing and processing, wow! well done, that's amazing. You say it like it is, so you must be a great Mum to your kids! You beat WT at their game and you won girl, I am so proud of you. You may be surprised to know that your type of story is repeated thousands of times, WT prey on kids without fathers, I've been saying that for a long time. I think you may have some really strong genes from your biological father, I think he's given you something great even though you haven't met him yet. Hope you find him one day. Thank you Sweetie for sharing your story. It means a lot because the nature of these abuses needs to be exposed and you have done a fantastic job in sharing your experiences of these abuses. Let you mum and grandmother sort out their own problems, you look after your husband and kids. Enjoy life. This video needs to be kept up in public for a very long time. Take Care. God bless. Xx

[@ThisSideoftheNuthouse]

Matilda thank you so much for the kind words and support. It really means a lot. I like to think I inherited something good from my biological father. I hope I meet him one day too. I am taking my time and letting my mother and her family sort themselves out. I have not had a good road with them but I am happy to not be dealing with them and focusing on my husband and children. Much love to you. xx

[@MariaLopez-zz7iy]

This story was a trigger for me. I'm sorry this happened to you. I couldn't finish the video. This is crazy that so many have suffered so much.

[@ThisSideoftheNuthouse]

Maria Lopez I am sorry it triggered you. Thank you for the support and for watching as much as you did. I know my story is not for everyone

[@stephenleblanc4677]

Thank you so much for this video. It is excellent.

[@cynthiarichardson8189]

I am so sorry you had to go through that. But i thank you for being brave and strong and sharing your life with us.

[@ThisSideoftheNuthouse]

Thank you for your support. This video was hard to make and share. I am just hoping that it helps someone feel less alone.

[@MarlomRV]

Greetings from São Paulo, Brazil. I left that controlling group 4 years ago. Lost my older brother to the cult. Fortunately, my parents were never Witnesses, so it was a little easier for me when I left. Anyways, thanks so much for sharing your story!

[@ThisSideoftheNuthouse]

Hi Marlom. I am so sorry to hear that you lost your brother to that horrible cult. Hopefully because you and your parents are not witnesses, he will wake up soon. I really appreciate you watching and leaving love on my page. I wish you the best and I really hope you get your brother back.

[@davidxbeats]

soooooo sorry this happened to you. Sadly, it's an all too common story. Thank you for sharing it.

[@greenbladezdenver7193]

I can relate to your horrid story, been contemplating starting my own story reveil, but I'm still not at a point to show my face do to the fact i'm still 'counted'. Seeing my fellow sister's hurt and nothing done just solidifies my cutting ties. Thank you for your strength to come out and tell your story. I will, but, I might do it in different ways, so I'll have to post something soon.

[@ThisSideoftheNuthouse]

I understand. Speaking your story has lots of reprications. I had to come to terms with the fact that if I told my story mending my relationship with my mother would never happen before I shared my story. Thank you for your support. I understand if you can't tell yours right now. Being here to cheer on people talking is an amazing thing. Maybe you can do a video where it is pictures and stock video and your voice as a voice over if you can't show your face. Much love and good luck being able to get away.

[@ThisSideoftheNuthouse]

If you share your story, I will be here to support and watch. I am so sorry you have gone through so much.

[@greenbladezdenver7193]

@@ThisSideoftheNuthouse Thank you! I was thinking about doing it kinda like that, while I'm on a walk or something. We need to support each other dealing with all this bs! It's been a long battle, only up from here!!

[@ashleegoodrich513]

I totally support you telling your story and posting. It’s what helped me wake up and feel sane and supported. All exjw need to support each other. 😀

[@greenbladezdenver7193]

@@ashleegoodrich513 thanks Ashlee! I did post a couple videos. I took a couple of the ones I posted down too. I’m working on getting more out, I’ve been so busy I haven’t had time.

[@Djbetterjusthavingfun]

You are a great speaker, so interesting and engaging!

[@ThisSideoftheNuthouse]

Thank you 😃

[@JINNIBOO4477]

We need more like u! Many of us have been abused horribly in that hall...but we can overcome! We can still b successful human beings despite thier negative energy!! Namaste!!

[@ThisSideoftheNuthouse]

I agree we can definitely over come all of this craziness that they have tried to put us through. Thank you for speaking out and being so encouraging. Namaste.

[@zetharerey3761]

Congrats on your new life, hope you, your kids, and hubby get to have a beautiful, happy, long life together.

[@ThisSideoftheNuthouse]

Thank you so much. 💙

[@wngrisy]

This is insane! I never knew there was so much abuse involved in this cult. I am so sorry this happened to you. I actually have a similar story of abuse in my childhood by a family member. I unknowingly started working for for a jahovah's witchness family of which the husband was obviously in charge. At the time when I was hired I was going through a rough time recently cheated on and left by my husband. The owner of this business totally tried to take advantage of the situation of my fragility and sort of be my mentor and shoulder to lean upon. He also offered me lot's of money various times to help with my car situation I was having so that was a red flag.I later discovered he was trying to be sexually involved with me and almost locked me in the space when we were alone one day! Thank God nothing happened but he probably would have. I freaked out and started screaming after he started bragging about all the girls in the industry that were throwing themselves at him, truly disgusting. In the meantime his secretary which was also somewhat related to him and also a jahovah's witchness was trying to get me involved in their cult and took me to their Kingdom Hall a few times. They are a very organized religion and strange I try not to generalize because I know not all of them are probably weird but WOW!

[@ThisSideoftheNuthouse]

I am so sorry you went through that. They prey on people who are vulnerable. They have books written in their religion on how to persuade people to convert. Many of what it says is to try to talk to those that have lost a spouse or are divorced recently. I am glad you were able to get away. While generalizing a group in most situations is not good, you just described basic operations for JWs. The men are in charge and they preach that a man is head of household and women are a step below them. A 10 year old baptized boy is above his mother in decision making for a family. Women are second class. The man who was messing with you probably looked at it as not that bad because you are not a JW. They believe that all women not in their religion will sleep with who ever comes along. The secretary was doing her job to recruit you. I am surprised they hired you, most JW's who own businesses only hire JWs because they only have friendships with other JWs. The whole situation you were in was completely inappropriate. I am so sorry that happened to you.

[@wngrisy]

@@gamersTV5617 I am a bit confused by what you are saying. I want to let you know that Jesus was not about religion and he wants a relationship with the individual person. most of all God knows the heart so trust in God and not religion seek him and not men. Read the true word of God and not a magazine. Jesus is the way the truth the life and no one goes to the Father except though him, because he himself is God and died on the cross for our sins and rose again in the 3rd day.

[@anneyhorlacher8792]

The day I left the organization was the best day of my life!! I have never looked back. ( They disfellowshipped me a year after I left. ) Sending you hugs and prayers....

[@ThisSideoftheNuthouse]

I am so glad you are out and I totally feel the same. My life improved so much when I left the organization. I am sorry you are being shunned but I am happy you no longer have to deal with them.

[@DakotaandFamily]

I have heard of some bad stories about this cult. Heard they believe in medical treatment great way to parent i am sure you will educate them when they are more mature great job on sharing your experience

[@ThisSideoftheNuthouse]

They are horrible. They do not believe in blood transfusions and they refuse most treatments that have anything to do with blood. Which is just ridiculous. Thank you. Yeah I plan on educating them as they get older and mature. I feel like we learn best from personal stories. Thank you for watching.

[@utdforever9236]

I have 'heard' of some bad stories......Even though I am no longer a religious person, I know this organization very well and I have attended so many meetings but I know so many lies are said about them. The best thing is to directly ask them questions, read their books or attend few meetings to hear what they teach, don't depend on rumours or other religious leaders, religions hate each other contrary to Jesus' teachings

[@ladymaiden2308]

This is my first time watching any of your content, and when you sang part of the intro it seemed like the most natural and adorable thing in the world. I'm just sayin. Now that I've watched this episode in its entirety, I'd like to congratulate you on your strength and encourage you to do as many of these as is healthy for you.looking through the comments it looks like you're helping a lot of people who've been through the same thing or know someone who has. Keep kicking ass girl!

[@ThisSideoftheNuthouse]

Lady Maiden thank you. Your kind words are so very appreciate. You take care. 💙

[@robertdawson2743]

I really admire your honesty mate, well done. I was truly awoken by my best friend who realised the Bullshit way before me, tuned me onto the Australian Royal Commition child abuse scandal footage and let me wake up for myself. Were as close as real Brothers but he,s now dying of Cancer which breaks my heart after everything. To be fair I didn't get the shitty time you did tho I had a very abusive father who was eventually diagnosed with Bipolar and Scitzophrenia. I really loved and still love my now estranged family, I just wish they could Wake up but they have been entrenched for years. You are so brave telling all this and as I said, much respect and I will say unconditional friendship and genuin love to you and your family. Keep your channel up. Were all survivors weather good or terrible experiences. And I will also say this, Fuck all those high ranking Abusers and their Organisation...if God really judges, The Governing Body and All their cronies will definitely be punished. Stay strong mate, much love.

[@ThisSideoftheNuthouse]

Thank you so much for the support. I am glad to hear that you were able to wake up and see them for what they are. So sorry to hear about your friend. So sorry your family is still in. I hope they wake up and see what you were able to see too. We are definitely all survivors and need to support each other. You stay strong too and much love.

[@patricialazalde8964]

Thank you for sharing. You are such a strong beautiful person. May God keep you safe always

[@ThisSideoftheNuthouse]

Thank you. You're so kind. ❤

[@NancyCronk]

This is such a vulnerable story. Thank you for your courage in sharing it. You are a beautiful human being and you have inherent worth and dignity. Sending you much love.

[@ThisSideoftheNuthouse]

Thank you so much. 💗

[@Lisa-py8eh]

You are so strong! I am an empathetic person and felt every emotion as your story unfolded. You have overcome more than most. I too have really been researching cults and find every story so intriguing. Is it okay to ask ... Did the group initially lead you to believe in God? After your horrific and traumatizing abuse and then to be shamed and then re-victimized by the members, your mother and then shamed! I can't say if i would ever believe after all you BATTLED. Thank you for sharing and even though we are strangers, thank you for not giving up on life! I wish those hypocrites knew that " Those he think they will be first will be last" God bless you and your family.

[@ThisSideoftheNuthouse]

Thank you for the support and love shown. It's totally ok to ask. I had a belief in God and spirituality as a young child. It is more of a belief in source and spirituality now. I honestly have been working on not letting my mother or these people take anything else from me. Blessing to you and your family too.

[@baileylemoine8991]

you are so strong and brave! kudos to you ❤️

[@ThisSideoftheNuthouse]

Thank you. 💚

[@wardelliaenoch8936]

Thank you for your courage in sharing. I didn't know about the doomsday part. My neighbor is JW calling me to ' check up " on me. I am a widow, elderly and have health problems. Prime target. Thank you for the warning. I've watched other videos of ex JWs. I hate what happened to you. Again thank you for your courage to share.

[@ThisSideoftheNuthouse]

Thank you for your encouragement. Yes definitely a prime target is how they look at you. They do seem nice when they reach out but unfortunately their only goal is to convert the person they are talking to.

[@kayleighwickersham1828]

Thanks for sharing. My husband is a faded witness. I'm sorry for what you went through. You, as a child, were responsible?! Oof, makes me want to scream. Did anyone ever inform the police about this dude? So glad your family is free.

[@ThisSideoftheNuthouse]

They believe I led this man to stumble. No one every called the police. No one made a report. When my grandmother found out she yelled at my mom but that was it. My mother is still in but I was so glad to leave with so much of my life still ahead of me. Thank you for the kind words. I am glad your husband is out and your family is not dealing with these crazy people.

[@frick6946]

what is a faded witness?

[@kayleighwickersham1828]

@@frick6946 Someone who wakes up and stops attending meetings and quietly distances themselves from the religion. Usually in an attempt to allow their family members to maintain relationships with them and avoid being disfellowshipped.

[@RadiantBeingInc]

Wonderful job here. Thank you.

[@DutchBarbra]

you are so strong! i wonder how much it still has influence on you now and your family

[@ThisSideoftheNuthouse]

Thank you for he support. I know for sure coming from this background has made me super protective and skeptical. ❤

[@maltesetony9030]

Brave woman. Well done on getting out! Keep on trucking!

[@willj1598]

You are definitely very strong. Those from outside probably really don't understand how hard it is to do this. There is nothing but disbelief and blaming of victims. Especially when it comes to sexual matters, even a very young person will be blamed for "tempting" and "stumbling" an adult by dress, behavior etc. They always preach personal accountability but only to their god. By removing accountability to each other it dehumanizes the crime and let's the perpetrator avoid facing their true victim. In their minds, the "brother" didn't assault her as defined by any of the various laws that would apply wherever she lives. He only "made Jehovah sad", to quote Caleb and Sophia's parents. Since we are all sinners, what he did is viewed as no more egregious than any infraction she may have committed in life. It gives a very convenient license to shame and ostracize the victim. Glad to have you on the outside.

[@ThisSideoftheNuthouse]

I totally agree. They find some way to always blame the victim. They also will hold up the offender and defend them if they come from the right family. I know of ones abused by an elder or their children and they were blamed because elders can do no wrong. I also hate that they refuse to see it as a crime. When you lump everything in as sin you lose sight of the actual horrible offense that these things truly are. Thank you for watching and sharing your point of view.

[@lasaundrawatson4564]

I know your journey has been hard but I wish you continues grow and eventual contentment .

[@ThisSideoftheNuthouse]

Thank you

[@CK-fj5ql]

Thanks for sharing. Your story wasn’t jumbled at all. It’s ironic because I actually became a Christian partly by observing the cultish behavior of JW’s and realising their interaction with me was unusual. Hope you are doing well.

[@ThisSideoftheNuthouse]

Thank you for watching. I think for a lot of people they can see how odd they are. I am doing very well thank you for asking. I hope you are doing well too.

[@kathrindoll6903]

Thanks for the great audio, usually ex jws have the audio too low n I can't watch it. My mother rejected me , because of it, I still like to be up under women but thank God I am not gay. A mother's rejection can pevert your sexuality n especially what was done to u by that horrible man, imagine not being protected by your own mother. I pray for your healing.

[@ThisSideoftheNuthouse]

Thanks I try to stay up on how to keep audio clear on my channel. I am so sorry your mother rejected you because of JWs. They do that a lot to families. They make the parents feel like they have to choose between god and their child. My mother abandoned me in many ways as a child. This is just one of the many ways she chose to do so. Thank you for the prayers. I hope and pray that you find healing also.

[@bevenbusu7]

You are one strong girl. Thanks for your story. Glad you escaped from these evil people

[@ThisSideoftheNuthouse]

Thank you. 💙

[@incognitofade9574]

You were a child! And for his wife to blame you for what her grown ass man husband did is infuriating!??🤬🤬🤬

[@HarvardChickie]

Bro you are so strong; don’t ever forget that… Edit: Ok I can’t help but be mad at what happened to you like I am beyond livid! And these damn organizations use hide these perpetrators and nothing happens to them but the kids? They live a lifetime of self abuse, pain, disassociation, self harm, SI, and drugs etc. and they’re the victims… so infuriating! I am so sorry, you are so worthy, you are so strong, and you are so loved. F this place!

[@ThisSideoftheNuthouse]

Thank you so much for the love and support. I agree F these organizations. They completely hide all of the grouse things these people do. I really appreciate your kind words. I hate that there are so many people like me out there that are self harming because these horrible people acted so very selfishly.

[@HarvardChickie]

@@ThisSideoftheNuthouse Don’t thank me; thank yourself for having the strength to leave but like you it bothers me so many pervert scripture to benefit them and so many others hurt because of it. I’m just glad you’re out cuz man you are sooo much better than that “religion.”

[@dimaphotography2926]

you did good! i can see only a beatufull and creative person in you

[@chaelynn6209]

thank you so much for sharing your story. yesss pls more storytimes

[@chaelynn6209]

am i the first sub?

[@ThisSideoftheNuthouse]

Thank you. I am planning out some story times for the second half of October. Lol I had been hiding my subscriber count for now.

[@chaelynn6209]

@@ThisSideoftheNuthouse oh haha duhh. that makes so much sense lol. i didn't realize you could do that.

[@MadlyinLovewithJesus-1953]

I am SO GLAD you have found your way out of that cult...!!!!! Even their "bible" has been changed to fit THEIR false gospel.

[@ThisSideoftheNuthouse]

Thank you. You are very correct, they did reprint the bible just to reflect their dogma. It is quite sad.

[@Kaysimplicity]

This is so sad 😞 I hate you went through this . I’m happy you made it out !

[@ThisSideoftheNuthouse]

Thank you that really means a lot. 💗

[@PrettyBlueSkyeEyes]

Thank you for being raw because I survived being under the scapegoating of a narcissistic mother within also our family was a little cult. Much the same though it's fundamental Christianity. We both have this internal restlessness that I get picked on about. People make fun of my PTSD/religious trauma symptoms

[@BooBooBugalugs]

A cult is a cult, and an abusive mother is an abusive mother. The pain is the same, and the damage is very real. You are a cult survivor, therefore, to me, you are family.

[@gracegarcia3927]

You’re a brave young lady I’m so proud of you for not giving your life to THEM . Much love ❤️

[@ThisSideoftheNuthouse]

Thank you so much ❤

[@barryford1482]

I used to be a seventh day adventist this church having similar origins to the JW church . I was more of an evangelical type and would argue with them nearly week they wouldn't change their position and I wouldn't change mine so I left and joined the Anglican church . All these 19th century churches are cults. Glad your life is on a different path now and cult free. Greetings from Australia

[@ThisSideoftheNuthouse]

Thanks for sharing your experience. I agree the 19th century churches are definitely cults.💙 Thank you for the well wishes.

[@Eyemredeemed]

You are so brave and mature. Thank you. Former JW myself. 😊

[@ThisSideoftheNuthouse]

Thank you.

[@joangreeley7212]

You weren't "jumbled" and no, there aren't people "who could explain things better than you". Everything that you said was heartfelt and that's what mattered.You were abused by "Alan" "Jessie", the elders, your family, you've been through the very worst that a cult like JW's could throw at you and you SURVIVED. I didn't add the word "intact" as none of us did that. I admire you so much for reaching a point where you can tell your story to help others to see what a soul destroying and evil cult this is. We are on this earth to be happy, something that no JW can ever truly be as they have the view that everything outside their cult is evil , reversing what is the real "truth". You have a husband and family, love them and enjoy them and remember that you are a worthy person and, of all people ,YOU deserve to be happy and your happiness is the best way to answer these gloom- mongers who are content to be manipulated by those vile puppeteers at the top. I wish you all the good things that you and your family deserve in life but , most of all I wish you peace of mind, you've had more than your share of the other. Don't let those vile parasites known as the governing body leach any more from your life. Show 'em how to really live life by finding the beauty in every moment! P.S. Sending a huge hug from Bolton in Lancashire , England across the "pond" to you.

[@vivianembery4588]

Glad you r,out.it is very depressing when you're out and your not part of family.But I survived,and I'm glad you did too.

[@ThisSideoftheNuthouse]

Thank you. Yeah it can be hard with no family but not being treated poorly is worth being without them.

[@heathershortridge6850]

I also grew up jw and the pecking order is so real! Im so happy you are free from them now. I wish you the best in all of your endeavors, much love.

[@malalaliyah]

Found you because I'm desperately searching for others like me in the hopes that their experiences will make me feel less alone and less hopeless. I'm 24 years old, have been raised within this cult for all of my life, and I'm currently still trapped by my mentally, emotionally, and psychologically abusive father. He has recently found out, via a foolish slip up of mine, that I don't wish to be part of the cult anymore and as a result has taken away my cellphone with service and is attempting to bar me from using the internet without supervision in an effort to cut me off from my support group from outside of the cult. Luckily, I have an old, hidden phone that I can at least use with wifi that he doesn't know about, but I of course can not set foot outside of my bedroom with it for risk of him seeing it and taking it. He has been an abusive hypocrite for all of my life, has destroyed both mine and my mother's lives, and has now been Relentless in doubling down on shoving the cult's teachings and rules in my face. My mother and I want to get away from him, _I_ want to get away from the cult, but we're both trapped here with nowhere to go.

[@Nica-Ra-Wata]

Check out Santos Bonacci, exjw and really nice guy with a lot of info you will love...by the way there is no god so just be happy...

[@ThisSideoftheNuthouse]

I am so sorry to hear what you are going through. I have an email listed on my main channel page in the about me section. I would love to have a conversation and see if I can connect you with someone who could help or if you are in the process of getting out maybe I can be a support. I know it is so hard in the beginning when you are trying to leave.

[@zemuellerz]

Heartbreaking what was done to you. Much love ❤️

[@ThisSideoftheNuthouse]

Thank you for your support and kind words. ❤