How To Disappear Completely - Seraphim (2019) (Full Album)

Seraphim II (2023) (New Album) bit.ly/3Kni6rX
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Seraphim (2019)
1. Seraph I (00:00)
2. Seraph II (08:16)
3. Seraph III (24:32)
4. Seraph IV (32:21)
5. Seraph V (48:05)
6. Seraph VI (57:21)
7. Seraph VII (01:04:40)
8. Seraph VIII (01:18:33)
9. Seraph IX (01:25:32)
10. Seraph X (01:27:54)
Mer de Revs: Seraphim
"A dream will free us from our chains, mysterious and infinite, a sweet trembling runs through us − as if an echo sounded from the depths of our despair."
A study in deliberately soothing textures designed to give the listener space to find stillness and collapse into rest - late night lullabies.
How To Disappear Completely presents Seraphim - a coda to our experimental sleep music project, Mer de Revs series. To be honest with you, we’ve been considering and wanting to make this kind of record after recording Seraphim II on the first volume of Mer de Revs. Material for this album was composed and recorded over the last two years during MdR recording sessions. The end result is almost 2 hours of music that we hope you’ll enjoy as much as we did recording it. (HTDC)
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Seraphim II (2023) (New Album) bit.ly/3Kni6rX

[@o09o]

wonderful sequel

[@wtiisau]

ITS FINALLY RELEASED!!!

[@sadrestlesssoul]

Amazing album

[@david.cutipa]

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[@justice1395]

How to disappear completely: 1) Come into being. 2) Wait.

[@pjc7729]

The second step is not necessary

[@viibeknight]

laughed hysterically at this

[@gabrielahimsa4387]

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[@discringydude7698]

@@gabrielahimsa4387 ooo cool font.

[@maciejpartyka5341]

) cover yourself in oil

[@MegumiHayashida]

Your future self is looking at you rn through memories.

[@rickc2102]

My future self is bored; quarantine sucks.

[@loopy6474]

My future self has forgotten this. Bitch has terrible memory

[@Ceshua]

@@loopy6474 haha same

[@TheCoin100]

nice one

[@KidAteMe1LetsBuildsAndMore]

dementia go brrrrrr

[@saroyamohit]

**Listens to the album** "Hey, that's pretty good" **Disappears completely**

[@mcAzcrew]

We miss you

[@goldyone272]

Looking through all the comments, one quote comes to mind that perfectly summarizes the effect this song has on people: "Art is supposed to comfort the disturbed, and disturb the comforted".

[@wondermittens1844]

Heyyyyy Antonin Artaud!

[@wyvernharries4788]

Well that's one way of putting it.

[@ObscuriaDragunAed]

Just as long as we're talking about disturbing that crappy band Disturbed. Gods I hate them as much as I hate generic Smurfs.

[@alvarosamayoagamez5211]

Y no es paja que no se

[@Wind-nj5xz]

I must be pretty disturbed then.

[@SUNSHINE-fd4vb]

We interrupt your existential droning crisis to bring you: Spanish McDonald’s Advertisement

[@pixiljuiceitme2711]

I had the same thing

[@boxsnake419]

ADBLOCK

[@the_dart_one3105]

Oh my god me too

[@Zarathoustra-cc8mj]

Ad block is your friend

[@Vysair]

praise and glory to the vanced

[@zakarius4851]

Instructions unclear, I've now become an omnipotent primordial soup

[@onrch]

that's what it's supposed to do

[@bochen1079]

Hate it when that happens

[@aestheticaliber566]

you've become azathot

[@RobertWadlow292]

Wtf

[@motorax11]

It is what we are in essence. These meat bags we occupy are merely vessels to contain us within this experience.

[@relicondqypq]

It reminds me of something I call "dream radio". Sometimes, when I don't fully wake up, I can hear similar melodies and sounds levitating somewhere between dream and reality

[@pinkmark4047]

I've had this since as long as I can remember! How nicely put. "Dream Radio,"

[@Daniilshifeband]

Same! last night I heard what sounded like a choir of angels, beautiful yet unfamiliar to the human ear.

[@pippilangsok6523]

i like that word. "dream radio". i like to think that we communicate through that state of being. me and a friend used to hug each other while in that state of being. we'd close out eyes, and fall into a trance, then we'd see each other, and hug. it was so comforting. i hope i can talk to her again soon. i hope she still cares about me.

[@nexum1676]

Wish I could record a few songs from dream radio before I forget them eventually

[@deadplaya]

I also hear this "dream radio" when I know I'm gonna lose consciousness or getting close to being in a state of semi-conscious and in between. Especially after standing up too fast or having low blood pressure.

[@Burgerplayer3920]

Turning 20 not long ago, i went up to a mountain and sat on a bench, i am surrounded by the swedish forests, hills and rivers. That day on my birthday i sat up there with my speaker listing to this and cried. I am not sure why, but it just felt like i had to. Many people spend their 20th birthday with family and freinds. But i spent my day in nature, in forests, on hills and a mountain. That day many where confused to what i was doing on such special day. But to me, this was probably the best birthday i had. I listen to this album more than any other song or album in a while. I am not quite sure why. It's just something that thouches my soul in a way that no other song or album does.

[@markrieke8753]

A wonderful age to be, sounds like you are an old soul

[@bluesky6905]

all of the comments philosophizing about life and death and existence when the band just wanted to make us homies sleep easier

[@FuelAirSparkTime]

I know... It's like they're trying to outdo each other for most pretentious comment award.

[@zyzy7102]

sleep is a wild thing

[@Risingofthephoenixxx]

Well Seraphim is an angel of the highest order in the celestial hierarchy so there is a deeper meaning to this and how we're all feeling but maybe not as dreadful as people are making it out to be. For goodness sake this is named after angels.

[@wasteplace1705]

Risingofthephoenixx x yeah it ain’t that deep tho

[@atlascove1810]

@@Risingofthephoenixxx and serenity, like what angels posess, is what they seek to give to the listener

[@ruanjordaan6216]

Oh wow, a save room

[@Nev3RmiNd]

@Ezra Gilgeours herb is enough

[@fakdolan]

Permanent save room.

[@litovietbui]

"Looking at this makes me feel like someone's groping around inside my skull... It gives me a weird feeling."

[@jogabrielcosta4788]

RESIDENT EVIL 4.

[@christianpecora9859]

“What are ya boyin”, “what are ya sellin”

[@emskisses8475]

This is so comforting...but so sad too. Its like looking at a sky with no stars and desperately trying to find one.

[@MrNecryptic]

Nicely said. Thank you, you just inspired me.

[@emskisses8475]

@@MrNecryptic i'm glad i did

[@s4veoursanity]

At the same time, I think there is something similarly sad and comforting about looking at the endless stars and feeling like nothing more than a speck of dust.

[@technologystrong5190]

or perhaps looking into night sky is finding uncountable stars? realizing our infinitesimal impact on the universe? similar to when humans begun to realize weren't in the center of a heliocentric system and, in reality, we don't matter at all.

[@technologystrong5190]

@@s4veoursanity i love that statement

[@jagermainman10yearsago25]

This music perfectly describes dissociation, Just floating around in a void-dreamlike state no thoughts or emotions, just void

[@SOLIDSNAKE.]

Take shrooms

[@SOLIDSNAKE.]

Take shrooms

[@jenkemprovides6531]

Don't take shrooms

[@jenkemprovides6531]

Don't take shrooms

[@disorganizedclutter5513]

why take shrooms, why not take shrooms?

[@B1G_MO3]

I'm in that cool part of KZbin again.

[@oholandesvoador9164]

That one without people offending others right? I feel safe here too. Also in my dreams while listening to this. Nice to meet you.

[@nevabegovic2905]

❤️

[@jeday4370IsGod]

No you are not

[@B1G_MO3]

@@jeday4370IsGod Go back to playing your Minecraft kiddo.

[@sketcharmslong6289]

Welcome. Get comfortable my friend :)

[@MultiHemlock]

We are amateur astronomers from Ireland and we bring a small speaker into the black dark mountains and play all 3 of these albums all night as we look deep into the centre of the galaxy with our equipment. This music is truly made for this. It really helps you to launch out into the galactic plane. When a track like Seraphim 2 is playing and you are observing the Orion nebula up close or the Galactic centre around Sagittarius , its an almost spiritual and transcending moment of which little can be conveyed in words.

[@thenavigator2559]

Beautiful

[@fronatomy6280]

I'd love to be able to join something like what you guys do. Just gaze into that vast void and feel smaller and smaller until it feels like you're not there anymore. Almost like you...."Dissapeared Completely" *wink *wink.

[@jeskahaley9616]

Now that’s on my bucket list

[@TheeChaoticCookie]

I can only imagine the beauty that experience brings. That sounds so nice.

[@travisphelps6694]

I'm an amateur astronaut and I like this music too

[@mememan3799]

As a child, I experienced the world with such deep feelings. Deep happiness, boundless wonder, an emotional understanding of every event that happened around me. From the special days to the mundane days, I valued and felt them all. Now, as a young adult, each day goes as fast as the last. Meaning very little and feeling like nothing. The special days are less special. Birthdays and Christmas dont have the same shine they used to, and the average day bleeds into the last, its events forgotten, yet perfectly remembered, because they were the same as every other day. Clearly God decided I'd had my fun, perhaps there is some lesson here he is trying to teach me. The older I've gotten, the more I've learned and experienced, the more I've thought, the less I have felt. In truth, I would like to stop thinking so much, and simply be. But I dont know how to do that anymore and i dont think I'll ever know again.

[@johnny_baldosa]

oh god

[@blanco737]

I’m just a spectator to life. Third person (self awareness) comes with a great price. I feels like I chose this path for which I was to curious. I’ve realized that it’s a part of a cycle of suffering.

[@user-dd4fv6qj8g]

I found the solution to this. Find a way to make those wonderful days for someone else. See it all again through their eyes. God sure has a plan for you, but it doesn't end here. We're given joy to share it; we transcend by transcending others ahead of us. Good luck.

[@cornwallacemontgomery]

This is not the will of God, it is not His will that you feel this way. His will is the garden. His will is eternal peace, absolute good. However, He is a gentleman, and He will not force us into it. He is accessible to everyone, though. He is waiting for you with open arms, and when you embrace Him he will grant you eternal joy, just as you were as a kid. This world is corrupt and evil, and we will face corruption and evil as long as we are here, but God is with us, always and forever.

[@mememan3799]

@@cornwallacemontgomery and this is what I dont understand. My belief hasnt wavered, yet these last 3 years my happiness has perished. Not only my happiness but my ability to feel much at all other than deep internal sorrow. When I'm with friends and family it goes away, buy when I'm alone, it's the background operating system for my mind. I'm not gripped by existential fear, I listen to the bible every day, searching for reassurance, yet it's a seldom day I find it. I can only assume this is part of his plan, this era in my life. That I will emerge from this moment a new man. At least that's what I hope.

[@kllerwhale994]

I lost my father a week ago, he's precious to me and the feeling of loosing someone very dear to you is unexplainable. Words cannot describe how bad and lonely I feel right now. Some people would send warm wishes and condolences but at the end of the day they still move on to their own lives. While I am here, stuck and I feel like my soul is getting sucked day by day. Some people would say they are "here beside me" and will "support me" but don't show up and it's making me feel empty. I learned that I should be strong and I should move on because no one can help me but me. I learned it the hard way. For people who are struggling and is in the same situation with me, cherish the people around you, tell them you love them and you appreciate them because time passes by too fast. How your life goes is within you, be brave and strong. I hope the world will be a better place for the people to live on. And if you reached this far, thank you for reading i just need to vent out a little of my thoughts. Excuse the grammar, not my mother tounge. Have a great day.

[@chriscarlone527]

Your English is excellent. We all know the pain and suffering of loss. It's a shared human experience. The difference here is that it was someone very close to you. To me, at face value, he was just another human being. However it is when I read of stories like these on the internet I take a second before I assume anything about most people I run into in public. I hope you are doing better than when you wrote this. Luckily for me my family is terrible so I don't feel much of anything not speaking to the ones left alive. The good ones are all dead.

[@trafficatthefishpond130]

My father got diagnosed with brain cancer a year ago, he is now weeks away from his inminent death, I have been struggling with feeling of loneliness for years now and got diagnosed with depression (among other mental illnesses) recently, I know you just said how people say they will always be by your side and not be there at the end of the day, and I completely relate to that, however, I can tell you, that even though I don´t know you I understand exactly what you are going (or went) through, my father was the only real person that I loved in my family (all the other members are a pain to burden) and now that he is gone I feel lost, we will get trough this man, I believe in us and thanks for sharing your experience... Edit: He just passed away on Christmas

[@victoriadondo5450]

I am so sorry for your loss. ❤️

[@aaronoli3729]

This is what I fear the most. Losing my dad will be the killer for me. He's so precious to me that the thought of it alone just put me in a very sad broken state. I hope you are doing well buddy. May each passing time be kinder to you. Stay strong bud! Hugs.

[@theo-iv5ie]

@@trafficatthefishpond130 i'm so sorry for what's happening rn. Please just remember that every problem we fight against is just our imagination, i know that could sounds weird but the first source of problems is us, our brain, ourselves. Anxiety, depression, fear of loosing someone, illness, they are just feelings and you as everyone could fight them understanding who you are, what you want, and that nothing is forever. I'm sure i can't understand what you're feeling, but i have friends in bad situations and that's how i think we can resolve problems, everything could be a simulation, mabye we're not what we expect to be and that's why i can't destroy myself if i have to understand where i'm living. Hope you can understand what i'm saying, Unfortunately english's not my first idioma

[@In_time]

I feel like this is what a lost sock in the dryer hears as he floats away...🧦 🌌

[@mikulasknazovicky8523]

it never fails to amaze me how creative people get in yt comments

[@retrorenaissance9497]

being a sock is the key to time travel

[@SeelkadoomPL]

I love the idea of some urban fantasy dryers that are in fact portals to a strange world beneath our own, but nobody tries to use them, so it's only filled with socks

[@thesiggysin3100]

@@SeelkadoomPL lol why did you say this now I'm just imagining an alternate universe full of socks

[@atrocious_pr0xy]

wow. Thanks. i love finding answers to questions i didn't know i asked.

[@wasbeer6961]

This feels like something you should play while in a sensory deprivation tank

[@YonatanReich]

Hell yeah

[@fueltek4362]

@@YonatanReich bruh i said "hell yeah" in my head right before i saw your reply weird

[@orionhammerfall1874]

But it wouldn't be sensory deprivation then :(

[@thebadguy08rtz]

@@orionhammerfall1874 exactly my point

[@bingbashbosh1]

I'd love to try a sensory deprivation wank.

[@judgejorgensen9045]

I see a lot of comments saying “this doesn’t disturb me” or “surprisingly this is comforting”. Am I missing something? Why would anyone find this disturbing? This is beautiful and mellow, and melodic. I’m pretty sure anyone who finds it disturbing is the outlier.

[@TheShubLub]

Makes them reflect

[@Wifgargfhaurh]

Music like this can be a catalyst for any emotion or memory. Good, bad, indifferent

[@iowaamoi]

ur missing more than something

[@ChiTownProdigy]

I’ll take a stab at it and say this. It disturbs them because they quickly dismiss these things as “edgy”. They do this for fear of being judged. What they’re more afraid of though, is contemplating the void, the emptiness. Doing this would shatter their “sunshine and rainbows” worldview and force them to look deeper within themselves. Just a guess

[@vlatstrapes3931]

Many people are too used to constant chattering and bright lights so ambient/noise songs with simple images disturb them. It's like when someone catches you being still and looking out the window or staring at a wall and call you disturbing or creepy.

[@portedit]

We are all came here by the voice of the Universe. Maybe we are all already dead. Maybe we ARE alive after all those messed up things in our lives. But we kept going. No matter the shame, pride, pain, loneliness. We are here. Now. In this very moment. And we will remain here. Forever. HTDC, by making this album - you've gathered everyone with mental issues in one place, and made their lives.. maybe not-so-meaningful, but worth living. And for those, who are reading this, right here, right now? Thank you. Please, leave something here as well.

[@DigitalImmortality]

Not depression, nor mental illness. Not struggle, nor happiness. Just void and meditation.

[@ironrex6979]

It is healthy to consider the last sentence a form of paradise?

[@DigitalImmortality]

@@ironrex6979 Paradise is never-ending state of pleasure

[@eeonegoncharov]

​@@ironrex6979 Ты знаешь, что в Боливии не думают о рае всегда? С давних пор, с древности. Там климат интересный - и холод и жара и сухость и влага. Откуда же явится этим мыслям о рае? Рай - это постоянные изменения. Ад - это погружение в постоянство ( и к мысли и к чувствам, к идее, к атмосфере, к боли и даже влюбленности. Но не любви.)

[@eeonegoncharov]

Депрессия - это усталость от ненастоящей части себя. Ешё депрессия - это подавление чувств, превращающееся в образ жизни. Нужно отдохнуть. Но подавлять чувства очень тяжко

[@non-existent0373]

Something I yearn for.

[@hippohugz9966]

this music is how i feel when the blanket is fully over my head

[@saturatedneowax]

i remember being like 5 years old and able to ball myself up inside a pillowcase, that's this music for me

[@mercedesbenzdelos90s]

Best feeling in the world

[@anxiousscribe]

@@saturatedneowax I did that too. It's a wonder I didn't suffocate. Also hid in my toy chest frequently. Kids are weird, man.

[@Serenity-tn4yn]

OOF

[@mynamefrank6567]

huh, I'm listening to this with the blanket fully over my head, I can't really breathe but it's worth it

[@moonchild3370]

“There is longing. So much longing. I am afraid to be so incomplete.” - Vi Khi Nao

[@drenchedinsyrupp6059]

What book is this from?

[@moonchild3370]

@@drenchedinsyrupp6059 fish in exile!

[@LucidAnomalies_]

Seraph II has been a song I've been playing for years now. Usually before sleep. The eerie isolating coldness this song provides is refreshing in weird way.

[@jordanleon6377]

Everyone is so cool in this comment section. If you’re reading this, you’re cool.

[@asciicatface]

no you are

[@fishlemonade2114]

You are cooler

[@alielpls_5783]

that is what a cool guy say, thanks cool guy

[@saturatedneowax]

@Deadman thats not nice bro, be kind to yourself kzbin.info/www/bejne/imGqnaKordd3fqM

[@iwasbornthatway8411]

You’re cooler

[@CavemanBearPig]

I wish I could restart the years when my siblings were younger. I wish I was more patient with them. I wish I could restart life. Same family, but none of the messed up childhood. I wish I can forget about this world and drift. I wish I wasn't trapped in uncertainty until everlasting blackness takes me.

[@kinkajuu1]

crazy thing is you wont stop existing, ever. your perspective exist's here, and in infinite other places. if you die... those other ones will still be there. exactly like you. exact thoughts. exact actions. exact down to the DNA. you exist. and you cant stop it.

[@prabhat4700]

"i wish I could restart the years when my siblings were younger" this hit so badly

[@aljaz7426]

dont regret a thing

[@MrKooCies]

i have similar feelings about my younger siblings. its never too late to start being patient. i try to remind myself of that everyday. :)

[@mrman44944]

memento mori.

[@cour8259]

I was absolutely starstruck and amazed when I heard Seraph I in S.T.A.L.K.E.R Anomaly. It fits perfectly given the atmosphere and tone of the game. Absolutely love it.

[@user-qi6qm3ke8j]

This is the way to describe the feeling you get when your lost at sea but oddly comforted by it. You feel the time is appropriate. There's no storm, no sharks no big waves, no nothing.At first you feel dread, but strangely enough you've come to terms with it .Sadness isn't affecting you at all. Seawater isn't a burden, its a void. The paranoia no longer exists . So you let the tides take you. You drift. But not farther away, nor closer. You let the void consume you, and embrace it.

[@LxCa_Vm]

Wow…. Accurate!

[@matigolem9371]

best thing to read while on acid, it's like a bad trip medication: "let the void consume you, and embrace it"

[@phoenixmode6909]

Like learning your way out of a rip current. Or learning not to fight an undertow. Once you know, you know.😎👍🏻

[@Snippyyy]

my relationship is currently falling apart, this comment describes exactly what im going through, im lost at sea, feeling like i could drown, but at the same time, its just me, the waters shook me and killed me for a bit, but now, its silence, and that silence drowns me far more then a wave ever did, the absence of the wave kills me, the feeling of it all being over, the feeling of just floating and all those things that hurt me or healed me being nonexistent, this silence means nothing to me, and means everything all at once, sorry if what im saying makes no sense, but i hope someone can relate. some days i hope the water overtakes me, drowns me and leaves me as nothing but empty space. And other days i fight and kick and scream to return to what once was, only to get pushed back by the waves

[@stereo-soulsoundsystem5070]

Thank you Skyrim in comment form

[@lordofolimpia1]

I was actually expecting this to be an instruction about disappearance.

[@Serenityintrust]

Best!

[@sherlytanco2835]

Patrick Sky Same

[@yomommy6861]

How to disappear completely -in the woods Lol

[@hatsunewrld3408]

same thats why i clicked

[@sinisterdomain7194]

ummm.. it is though?

[@DaBeastBeats]

This is what a distant memory hears when it’s about to be forgotten

[@calvinrivera5463]

Fuuuuck

[@vincentlaw1415]

this is kinda beautiful.....but in a depressing way

[@jennydeath420]

it's just a burning memory

[@TheJojoguy]

damn the writing on that one slapped

[@fenrirrising131]

Poignant but not in a pretentious way. Forgetting is a tragedy in itself.

[@Agothygoth]

I clicked on this video becuase the thumbnail captured me. This is absolutely stunning.

[@architectoftranquility]

i wholeheartedly believe that this album is one of the best ever created. this album helped me to overcome anxiety and fear in so many different ways. the meditative aura of the music and sounds allow me to dive into my mind with such depth. while listening to seraphim i have reconstructed and found myself in ways previously not experienced. when listening i feel immersed in a very dark but beautiful realm of clouds, tunnels, rock formations, and wind. being in the dark realm allows for a serious level of dissociation from one's mind and body to occur. i highly recommend listening to this album while simply closing your eyes and breathing. let your mind wander and sink into itself, you need to look inside more often. you are the only thing holding yourself back and once you realize and accept that, you can move forward. accept all of your past mistakes and craft a new future for yourself. spread love and do your best to abolish hatred even when times get hard. everyone is a result of their circumstances, so judge lightly and realize you are one and one is all.

[@blanco737]

i dont know where to start. Ive accepted my past but not myself.

[@architectoftranquility]

@@blanco737 before you can accept yourself, you have to forgive yourself. forgiving yourself is really just a matter of realizing that mistakes are necessary in this life. sometimes you have to make mistakes to find out what is right and wrong in your own subjective experience. every human ever has made many mistakes, but it's whether you learn from them. take it easy on yourself and tell yourself you love yourself. the place to start is in the present moment of reading this. take a deep breath and feel the moment, your life will end one day so make the most of it while you're here. love you friend :)

[@blanco737]

@@architectoftranquility thank you brother

[@brucetax3364]

not reading alat im 14 btw

[@BAzzaRProductions]

What a story Mark!

[@savepointsyt]

this is almost painfully blissful and grounding. almost feels like sitting and watching a cliff be worn out by the ocean over a thousand years, without closing your eyes once

[@-thesignpainter9486]

idk how you thought of that analogy but its perfect

[@lucasoverhill6217]

this is honestly one of the most beautiful things I've ever heard

[@ArunIyer]

this is accurate description in this sea of accurate descriptions that is the comment section

[@shenzhong2942]

50% stoners sharing their shower thoughts 50% depressed teenagers going through an existential crisis

[@phantomlord5568]

lmao the latter is me

[@madvillain5536]

What if I'm both tho?

[@jimh781]

I am the center of this venn diagram

[@ayms2587]

I would like but you are at 69 likes so i cant mess up the balance BUT if you get to 70 i will come back and like it Its the natural order of things

[@antoinemcmahon5198]

balanced as all things should be

[@ego3968]

I’m starting a new job tomorrow. It’s a ten hour workday and I’m not physically sure my body can keep up. I’m chronically ill but I’ve never told anyone I’m suffering because I know they won’t take me seriously. Nothing is looking up. I’m about to make more than twice the money I did before but all I feel is dread. There’s no one rooting for me and it’s so lonely to be a man right now. I see women with support systems of people who would die for them and who stick by their side no matter what and I always wonder why they’re afforded that with no problem. When I try to open up to anyone it’s always met with confusion because I’m a man, I’m supposed to be fine. I’m about to rip my body apart for money and I’m not even sure if it’s enough to cover rent here. It’s so lonely out here. Maybe if death sounds like this, it will be okay.

[@yiannirizas5649]

I’m sorry to hear your struggles my man. I know I’m late but I really hope things got better. I’m rooting for you, you got this ✊🏼

[@AROCODED]

I hear you. The system we live in is so unfair. I hope you find a support system that treats you well.

[@KIBITKO]

I hope you are ok.

[@jdyoung5331]

Confessions from a Friend… I’m not mad that you’re gone, I’m mad that you didn’t tell me why. I’m mad because you didn’t give me an escape, while you had one all along. I wonder if you knew how much that meant to me, knowing that you always had my back. It always made my day better. I remember when we were younger, you and your girlfriend would sit in my garage, while I played the piano for hours. All of us talking about what our lives would look like. We were 21 and the future was anything that we wanted it to be. I often think of those days when I feel alone or like the sky is no longer the limit. I’m 32 now, and sometimes wonder if my dreams have already come to pass. I think of the choices I made and I tell myself, that the years went so fast. Maybe I failed too much, too often that I couldn’t catch up. Maybe that’s why you left, perhaps I was already too far gone. When we started to fade, I tried to grab your hand, but the further I reached, the further you went away. With me, I carry collections of pain in the hopes that I’ll be able to bury them someday. I wish our paths wouldn’t have diverged. You disappeared swiftly and without pause. I didn’t notice you leave, you didn’t say goodbye. Maybe I have to let you go one piece at a time, or maybe I was the one who disappeared, and now you’re the one that’s lost. Come back my friend, JD

[@mj2you22]

Thank you for sharing your Confession...i felt your pain and disillusionment but what i want most to convey is that you are a natural writer and hope you find more ways to express and share that...i wish i had the patience...since i am still here.

[@justlittleoldme4589]

Confessions such as yours and the perspectives they bring are the main reason why i still exist. I lost the spark long ago , never imagined what i would do after school cus i thought i would never come this far , now that im here , its just as empty and meaningless as i thought it would be , i dont know what the future holds , and i hardly care . So i continue existing for one simple reason , people will miss me , my funny ideas and the fake smile i put on as i distract my mind from thinking about reality. Thanks to confessions as this one i understand how much it would hurt , so i will continue walking forth as long as there are people that care , that remember. It wont be long now , of course , the only true family i have is my parents , one day i will have to say goodbye to them , and the only friends i really have are the friends i met online, so close to me yet so far away , so full of life and hope for the future. Im excited to see them grow , start families , drift away into a more happy existence , move on from the internet and lead their own lifes. Only then , finally all alone, mostly forgotten , just a guy you knew once ,i will have no more regrets , i will close the doors behind me and leave in peace.

[@fueltek4362]

hope i dont sound like some cringey "deep" guy by saying this but, what i love but also hate thinking about is there's probably some people who have a distant memory of me. people that have seen me somewhere and thought nothing of it. i wonder if any of my old friends remember who i am, and i wonder if anyone that saw me randomly on the street remembers me. i have a memory of seeing a homeless man sitting on the sidewalk. i waved and smiled at him, and he waved back. it was nice, and i still remember him well. it's comforting knowing that i exist (although foggy) in other places, but i feel alone knowing that everyone is just an extra in this movie. im just "some kid who i kinda remember back from 2nd grade" to someone. great music

[@juliusdepravedprince7104]

No dude we need more people being honest like this. Nothing wrong with being deep

[@santos5969]

I enjoyed reading what I sense you enjoyed writing.. keep it up...

[@daniaelayan]

this was some deep stuff man. i feel you. you're not alone. and this wasn't cringey either, it hit home. hope you're doing good wherever you are in life my guy

[@camdenwyeth316]

Never head anyone else vocalize this but it echos my sentiments as well.

[@MrStarmuller]

Idk but finding something you have tallent for helps overcome the meaninglessness of everyday mundaeness, let it be cooking, pingpong or anything you know you could exeed others by the sheer love you have for the thing you do. Apperently its love and affection that counts. Here

[@ferouihamza]

i'm not here this isn't happening

[@sami6998]

Ayyyyyyyyy

[@leocalostros7442]

that there, that's not meee

[@stimulatemyexistence5669]

Here not im! Happening this isnt :)

[@rhubarbdude3347]

@@leocalostros7442 IIIIII goooooo where IIIII pleeeeaseeeeeeee

[@Adamoss66]

In a little while I’ll be gone

[@lanthelmebrasillon5169]

« Meaninglessness inhibits fullness of life and is therefore equivalent to illness. Meaning makes a great many things endurable-perhaps everything. » - C.G. Jung, Memories, Dreams, Reflections. What this song does to me is it somewhat, somehow sooths and numbs out the evergrowing pain of living in a world that's losing its meaning - or rather, the pain of being less and less able to find meaning in a world that never had any, to begin with.

[@gasp8372]

Just haven’t found Him yet. It may sound aloof but it does pull a great weight off at some point or another. I am anxious of the future, I do not like that I live in a place others suffer in while I life fine. I question why this whole existence started in the first place, no matter what you believe in, live is an intriguing mystery. I may not understand the why, I may not ever know. There is meaning, though, I know there is.

[@hamzapervaiz9698]

The world's falling apart and this gives it the proper ending.

[@charliehardwick6573]

hamza pervaiz perfectly sums it up

[@rickc2102]

The world will be fine. Unless you live in the United States or Brazil.

[@Ahrone1586]

@@rickc2102 why

[@prophetofbeans6781]

@@Ahrone1586 Because we have the highest/highest rising number of cases of the Rona in the world. Our countries either didn't think it was as big of a threat as it could be, didn't listen to the professionals, or the people just want to get back to "normalcy" before the danger has passed. TL;DR: people are stupid.

[@ajfrost3382]

The world is not falling apart any time soon.

[@psychodiver]

I go to sleep to this almost every night...melts the stress away before violently awaking up in Silent Hill. Cozy dreams...

[@mirrta4598]

U mean silent hill is like real life?

[@linbrown2766]

Silent Hill has Wifi?

[@jackoliverx]

Ambient Hill

[@TheCivildecay]

...In my restless dreams, I see that town... Silent Hill

[@cheese5081]

@@TheCivildecay aren't you Maria?

[@idrinkbones3653]

It's like the music manifested a feeling I've been fighting for so long. I don't want to die, I just want to be undone. I want to disappear and for everyone who knew me to forget I ever lived. I don't want to cause a big mess for anyone or to hurt my mom and dad. I just want eternal nothingness. Is that what's waiting for us?

[@kuri3798]

I think i know what your'e feeling... The kind of mind bending thoughts, which never fully leave your head, even when being "happy". Keep your chin up, my friend!

[@kellarkenderson9875]

I like this album. Isn't dark or evil. For me sounds peaceful, like when you are looking at the grass un-conciousless and the sun it's pretty bright, you are without a thought in your mind, but feel strangely good. Quiet, then something distract you and come back in time , but hell one wish those minutes staring at something that amazed like when you were younger and naive could last some more. Weekends are times for admiration, I not only relax my body, I listen to albums like this from time to time to remember not everything it's so bad after all. I don't know if all this is going to collapse, I'm tired of thinking about it, if I were bring here 1st place, I just wanted to live in serenity. Be safe out there and healthy folks. 💯💯

[@snakegoat7650]

Between the music and the comments this is taking me down a hard path. My mom likely passed away before I could make it to the hospital. She had been in and out of the hospital for about a week, and during that time I had to travel for work. Doctors said it was nothing serious, but the morning of my flight home she had a seizure and they sedated her. My 11 am flight was delayed so long I switched airlines completely, but I didn't make it to her side until about 2 am. She didn't come out of sedation the next morning, and over the next two days we learned blood had stopped flowing to her brain, and it had swollen considerably. She was brain dead. When I got into the ICU at 2 am, it felt like this album. I talked to her for nearly 2 hours in a dimly lit room. I told her a lot about my dreams and aspirations, stuff I had never opened up about before. I cried and held her hand, but I was sure I'd see her the next morning. I don't personally believe in an afterlife, so all the times people say "she was listening" makes it harder to bear. She was long gone by that point. It's a difficult memory, and it was so dramatic and emotional sometimes it feels like a movie. Anyways thank you for this album, it made that experience real again. I planted sunflowers on her birthday, April 18th, and they've all sprouted and are about 4-8 inches tall now. I'll be planting roses on Mother's Day. She's disappeared but not completely.

[@Thommmmmmm]

Sorry for your loss, this brought me goosebumps and real emotions. You got my full support.

[@aljaz7426]

i teared up

[@luisadrianlara5561]

Thank you for sharing your story.

[@seannathomas4700]

God bless you and your mother. Rest in peace momma. I love you homie.

[@IwantShawn]

Quit fucking around learn about your soul, your love, your emotions aren't a by-product or evolutionary hiccup, think long and wide about why you miss her and why this song makes you remember that moment and why you are so deeply touched by it- its not just you in there

[@kaleeshsynth9994]

This album is lying, I still exi

[@pan0cha]

That's the name of the Band/author

[@catattack885]

oh fuck they're dead

[@user-vi3pi9rf7w]

I don't feel so good....

[@TheAndermany]

What is everybody talking abo

[@mintypickle4]

*No I don’t wanna disappe-*

[@ferd1572]

I've never been amazing socially. I would say I'm not even that great at it. Ever since I was little, I've always liked to be by myself, more than being with others. I was sexually assaulted when I was 13 (2017), and ever since, it's been hard for me to get to know and to trust other people. I've been in and out of depressive periods for almost 5 years now (2021), and I've thought about taking my life multiple times. I've never done self harm, but I've been to some dark corners of my mind. Places I never want to go back to again. I've talked to over 5 different therapists in that time, but I needed to do a lot of the work myself. 2020 was a shit year for everyone involved, and was a new low point for me. I was determined to make 2021 the year of change. My year. That's what I set out to do. I signed up for a bandcamp at the end of the summer, and got to meet some new people. People with the same interests as me. People I still talk to to this day. When I finally came back to school in the middle of August, I felt refreshed and ready to start over again in a sense. I could not have gotten placed in a better class. These are some of the friendliest, nicest and most genuine people I've ever met. I never thought they would take a liking to me, but they did. I got invited to eat lunch with them in school, and they constantly hang out with me and want me by their side. It's unbelievable how far I've come, by just being a little but more open and approachable. Once I got to the end of October this girl from my parallel class took contact with me. I invited myself over to her place that Sunday. It was Thursday, and I was visiting some family in Oslo that weekend so it wouldn't work until that Sunday. We talked a lot before the visit and found that we share a lot of interests. She gave me compliments like "You look so pretty today", "I love your earrings" and "I only want what's best for you". I've never gotten that type of attention from someone before. It felt genuine, real and true. We meet up and we start to talk about out feelings right away. She has a history of trauma, and we agree that we will contact each other if we need someone to talk to. As I am about to leave, I put my jacket on, and I am about to say goodbye. As I am saying it we both go in to hug each other. She says "Don't forget to contact me if you ever need someone to talk to". It was a beautiful moment; I never really wanted to let go, it was just so trance-like. Her birthday was Thursday the week after so I decided to buy her something. I get to her place, and she loves the gift. We listen to some music, and I figured that it was time for me to make my move. We sit on her couch. I lean my head over on her shoulder, she accepts it. I ask her if she wants to lay on the couch with me. She sits up at the upper part, and I lay in her lap. We listen to music, and turn the volume down, and we whisper as quiet as we can, just loud enough to not fall asleep. She starts touching my chest and me her hair. I have never felt such intimacy with someone, and here I am? I couldn't believe it was happening. It was a zen-like experience and we both loved it. It had definitely been the highlight of the year. It was mostly her doing the communication the first week but after that it's been mostly me. I don't know what's going on, she seems so distant and cold now. The first week we had together will go down as maybe the best week of my life currently, but as of now it's hard to get in contact with her, and it seems like she's a completely different person. It seems like I've never met her. Maybe because it's mostly over text and what not, but she still isn't behaving like she did the first week. Maybe it's her, but my ADHD, social anxiety brain thinks it's me. Am I being too agressive am I being too quiet? What is it? It's hard. If nothing comes out of this and we either remain just friends, or we don't talk anymore at all, I want to her to remember that she left a huge impact on me as a person, and gave me hope in humanity and life, that there are still people that wish you well in life. She's an amazing force, and a charming person. I just wish she was more approachable. As of the time I am writing this it is December 22th, 2021 and the time is 3:20 at night. I am sitting in my room and writing this, thinking. I am incredibly fortunate to have the people around me that I have, and wish them all the best in life. I can't fathom that I'm actually here. Here, 18 years old, calm, happy, collected and satisfied for once. I did finally break out of my destructive cycles and start giving a shit about my life. It was the people around me that kept me going, but music has always been there. I want to especially thank Dave Gahan from Depeche Mode, for being such an inspiration for me, for wanting to get up and get my life started back up again. I want to thank my friends for being there for me every day now. It feels good to have a group you can trust. I also want to thank mom and dad for also being supportive and cool, and not stopping to get me into therapy whenever I needed it. I also want to give a thank you to my therapists that have helped me along the way. You have given me different approaches to life that I needed at the time, and I thank you for listening to me. Lastly I want to thank myself for being brave and committed to make this work. I was determined in 2020 to make 2021 a lot better, and it has been one of the best years I've had in a good while. I want to wish everyone out there struggling right now, be it mentally, physically or anything else: keep going. It's gonna be worth it. I swear. I am just some random stranger on the Internet, so what? But what I am saying is true. After everything I've been through, of abuse, loneliness, depression, sadness and abandonment, did I keep going? Yes? Was it worth it? Absolutely yes! I never thought I would get to a point where I would feel like myself again, get new better friends, cuddle with a girl, or heck, to even feel at peace with myself. It all seemed som distant only a year ago, and now I'm here. I've made it. I am happy to be where I am right now, and I appreciate everything and everyone that has made it possible but most importantly myself. I don't really know if there is a god, but if there is he/she/they would come in the form of music. I feel it here. I feel like it is in our best moments that god will be with us and smiling at the result we've gotten to. He/she/they're proud of you and what you have accomplished, as long as you're still alive... I would pray, but I'm not that religious, so I'm sending virtual hugs your ways;) I love you all and I believe in you:) - From Ferdinand, Norway, December 22th, 2021, 3:35

[@lisek-this4172]

I'm happy things are better for you now, much love.

[@ferd1572]

@@lisek-this4172 are you doing alright?

[@idkwmytuni]

I read this wrong and I was like "Wow Archduke Ferdinand had such a crazy life" lmao

[@drenchedinsyrupp6059]

"There will be pain. And then there will be darkness." "We will see you up ahead."

[@ironrex6979]

Only in darkness can light truly shine and burn it away

[@VaporwaveMusic1998]

◉ • ◉7 see you....O7

[@cheekofnut]

what is this from?

[@artempatrushev6684]

u good bro?

[@drenchedinsyrupp6059]

@@artempatrushev6684 It’s a quote from Entropy Zero.

[@TJCarter_426]

When your mind is tired of love and pain, sometimes all it wants to feel is nothing at all.

[@coolbrains142]

.. to stare peacefully into the abyss, the void. Without a single thought in mind. To commit suicide without actually dying...

[@Chiri21]

Love? Don't know her 💅

[@ctrip6668]

That's where I am at. Rebuilding my pleasure centers. Right now, nothing gives me joy anymore, except my faith and my spirit, and will to go on despite trauma.... But this.....this is music to float to. The ability to breathe in the vaccum of space...

[@TJCarter_426]

@@Chiri21 You do know it. You just haven't received it. It's in every human soul. Some choose to give it, some choose to hide it away. Look for it inside yourself, and when you find it, choose to give it freely to everyone and everything around you, even if that means giving it to yourself. When you do that, you will not only give and receive it, but also understand it.

[@enterbalak]

@@coolbrains142 Dissolve the ego, and let your spirit sing to the abyss.

[@fruitsarealive]

this must be what Aurora Borealis sounds like

[@phil_cassidy]

Aurora Borealis? At this time of year? At this time of day? In this part of the internet? Localized entirely within this video?

[@dominicdcocco3361]

@@phil_cassidy Yes!

[@phil_cassidy]

@@dominicdcocco3361 May I see it?

[@dominicdcocco3361]

@@phil_cassidy ... No.

[@nicolekinder3111]

@@phil_cassidy 🤔🤯

[@bingandbongcouch]

I honestly can't help but dose off to this album, it's like a lullaby for me

[@pikadab6666]

I don’t think I was ever built to create long lasting happiness. Everything falls apart when I touch it. It’s like I have a disease or I’m a parasite, leeching off everyone slowly but surely. I made a terrible mistake and I don’t think I can atone for it. I could never properly atone for anything. I need to maintain a sadness so that I’ll never expect or hope for too much. I hate myself

[@aeroslothy]

I think I was built to create long lasting happiness. Everything manifests itself when I touch it. It's like I'm King Midas, turning everything into life slowly but surely. I just had this moment of epiphany and I don't think I should take it for granted. I could never throw away everything. I need to pursue this happiness so that when it happens I can appreciate it after all those times of failure. I love myself

[@eigerultra6478]

Imagine visiting Iceland & going for a hike in the wilderness with this as the soundtrack.

[@synthwhore]

i was in Iceland in december! now I wish I could've played this!

[@eigerultra6478]

@@synthwhore So jealous of you.

[@jinsaotome3607]

this does sound like a snow level to a video game

[@Cinebon]

This is what I would feel being under the surface of the middle of the ocean in the middle of the night. The rays of moonlight that slowly move with the swell of the sea.

[@luna_888]

Bennamon Cinnamon and you slowly realize how fast you’re enveloped into the deep. all around you lies the unknown... cool words man

[@CoastalConservancy]

Beautiful.

[@cristin97]

YES

[@daysfordays678]

I agree with you there.

[@lite-lofi9160]

The cat sits atop the ledge, watching the city, like a gargoyle in the rain; never leaving its post.

[@andreitarkovsky3214]

all these comments are cringe

[@321uzkj]

@@andreitarkovsky3214you wouldnt understand now get back to watching skibidi toilet lil bro😭😭💀🙏🏽🙏🏽

[@travisrohrbaugh6019]

It dissolves into its shadow, Circulating where it can not be seen. Returning to post after patrolling its territory. The senses never knew it moved

[@zofiakordas123]

listening to the Seraph II makes me want to lay on the beach in the moonlight, just within the reach of the waves and let them gently wash over my body while the cosmos above and all around be makes sounds like this song. and everything is so soft and perfectly calm. no thoughts, just observing the sensations on my skin.

[@puff4puff982]

Very depressing. Knowing one day I’ll grieve my whole life and never exist again. No one wants to fade away. No one had a choice to do through this. I don’t want to sleep forever.

[@andrewgross1835]

no one had the choice . but, the rustling in the sand left from your feet, the path of the mid afternoon breeze, the echoes of your voice will not fade away. there is always something left, even if that something is nothingness itself

[@theExperiencedVirgin]

Life will replace non-existence, just as it had the first time.

[@joshuaroa8503]

I'm convinced that after dying you definitely go somewhere else, more specifically, change your point of view from one life to another. I just hope that it is an intelligent form of life again and not a rock lol.

[@Gutted925]

Do not fear the inevitable, accept it and act on it, cherish what you have. Realize that this is just the flow, the way everything is in balance, see the beauty in smaller things and you’ll feel more complete and less worried about the future and more engaged with your present.

[@enterbalak]

@Kyrsten Sinclair Life is but a dream within a dream? Is that a David Lynch quote?

[@bruhsoundeffect2882]

Nothing ever happened, and you never came here.

[@klord3677]

Bruh sound effect

[@salamexx]

Who are you

[@leokun8523]

Thanks Thom

[@hitenmitsurugi3225]

This is gonna be my soundtrack while falling calmly into the endless void.

[@cybergrape2077]

Songs named after angels always have this otherworldly energy to them, yet are quite different in many regards. These songs and "Thirteen Angels Standing Guard 'Round The Side of Your Bed" by A Silver Mount Zion have a similar vibe, yet the tone and presentation differs wildly. In any case, the songs are all hauntingly beautiful.

[@doommastermclean8238]

“It takes four wipes, to know it took three” Edit a continuation: "...But it takes three wipes to know it'll take four"

[@grime_12]

Me taking a shit

[@venerablebrothergoriate5844]

My worldview just cracked the fuck open

[@xXCHubacaSlay3rXx]

The last one is for good measure

[@shaneshane8482]

Hahaha

[@caudex9610]

But two to know it would've took none.

[@foxliasgriffinYT]

me: calmly listening as I deeply try to relax 2 ads in a row: so anyways, I started blasting

[@VAL3NTIN3]

Was looking for How to Disappear completely by radiohead and KZbin gave me this . 😘😎

[@matthewscott2202]

Somehow, no matter what hardship I find myself in, I always return to this album. It’s almost like the music feels me and understands whatever I’m going through

[@matthewscott2202]

Well it’s been 8 months and we’re here again

[@HellYes000]

Yes

[@wolfieboy820]

Hope you doing well sir

[@lightwishatnight]

Thank you, I enjoy your art very much. I listened while making lunch for my children.

[@menschfreund]

That comment is so wholesome. I like you.

[@PhysixProductions]

Hey I found Waldo

[@zzegovia449]

Wholesome AF

[@benettholmstrom1563]

This was incredibly wholesome; we need more people in this world like you, arc

[@agall664]

@Beach Mango get your Soy boy buzzwords here .

[@TheWanderer1000000]

This music isn't really disturbing to me. It's more comforting than anything else. Comforting in that even if I have no friends. I have others who resonate with this music listening right now who feel comfortable too. And that makes me happy. You're never alone when other people feel the same way. Edit - I decided to listen to this album again. It's still as beautiful as I remember it. I almost forgot about this comment. But I didn't. Now that I see all the replies I just want to say. With all my heart. Thank you for making me feel not alone. I will keep on fighting to live the way I want to and you should too. Never give up. You are never alone.

[@KalebRuss]

Never alone

[@rxvenxx]

Never alone.

[@efsgn]

never alone.

[@papuanewguinea8038]

Never alone

[@AtlasFox_]

Never alone amigo.

[@eviewalters9245]

I can only imagine that this is what it will feel like for those who are caught up in the rapture. The peaceful and indescribable calm of being brought to meet the Lord, after the 7 years of trial and tribulation. We will finally enter into the life we were created to live, in authority with God over the earth, as partners in stewarding and keeping one another company in peace. No memories to pain us, no ailments to hinder us, and no more flesh desires to rip and pervert. Just the everlasting glory of being in the presence of God. 9:17

[@overpoweredsathanaas]

As a bipolar person with several melancoly depression trouble , this album help me to escape reality . I close my eyes when I listen this and imagine myself sit on a rock and gigantic forest / mountain in front of me , with a lot of mist Sadness and void …. But tranquillity

[@supertajnykana8146]

That's very comforting knowing someone feels the same way. I'm in a horrible state of mind rn so I also listen to it and imagine I'm in some different unworldly place. Everything seems so hard and unbearable but hope we'll get better soon

[@4dee9arr6]

Everywhere At The End of Time - Stage 7

[@KarlBigBus]

Stage sevens description: *error*

[@hypergogic3269]

so basically the afterlife?

[@matthieubaker6956]

If we're going off the actual 7 stages, this would be the point in which that person is mostly non-responsive and non-functioning. Most lose a good portion of their speech, their motor skills are usually incredibly deteriorated, they can barely move without assistance and other general major things. If we call this stage 7 then I wouldn't say it's nessisarily wrong, I'd just say that it's incredibly organized. I like to believe that after all of the awful chaos dementia is, that person's mind would at least allow them solice in some comforting moments. It could also be recollection of memory before death- some dementia patients actually have sudden recollection of memory they previously had issues with right before death, which makes me feel comforted myself considering all they went through.

[@pokpuri]

Did you just

[@MBIRTIRoma]

Caretaker was overrated. 6 albums exploration of dementia when you could just listen to one disintegrating tape loop for hours

[@supertajnykana8146]

"The inner machinations of my mind are an enigma"

[@ButteredToast32]

*milk spills in thought bubble*

[@supertajnykana8146]

@@ButteredToast32 xD

[@CoastalConservancy]

Human weapons control you, not your mind, but them.

[@zayonkiber2510]

Got milk?

[@ranmindyt2902]

hmm

[@temg]

I can't stop listening to this. For me, this doesn't sound unsettling. I don't really know why. It just feels empty. Like an empty plain of existence. Hell, this reminds me of EATEOT, more specifically, Stage 6 - Place in the world fades away. In fact, this is probably why I love this so much. HTDC and EATEOT are very unique in the realm of albums and music.

[@lorenzosilveira2872]

True

[@ChadKingOfficial]

ITS SLEEP MUSIC. ITS SUPPOSED TO BE RELAXING.

[@pb913_]

​@@ChadKingOfficial it's not supposed to be relaxing, ambient music is not supposed to be relaxing, this isn't for meditation, this is Dark Ambient.

[@jcin9129]

I sort of enjoyed the quiet of stage 6 after the cacophony of stages 4 and 5. This being my first time hearing Seraphim, I feel a deep peace with these this ambient sounds.

[@andreitarkovsky3214]

yeah so?

[@zs3473]

This really helped me today, I've been feeling like absolute garbage for the past half year and this took my own emotions and made an ocean out of the infinite reflectionss, and I just lied down and started being washed away, and for the first time in a while not having a direction felt nice.

[@Anthony-em3sb]

me and my gf sat in bed listening to this album and by then time it ended i felt i had a deeper connection with her, we seemed to talk about everything and nothing at the same time. The silence between the conversions were so beautiful because of this album thank you

[@fleaship6134]

And then you gave her the diddly

[@Anthony-em3sb]

Fleaship I raw dogged her bro, that’s how good this album is

[@lawconic1]

Damn I thought y’all just like went to sleep after the album was over. Did you really raw dog her :(

[@Synthis_Bioji]

... whatever

[@marionow6227]

Cool that you can listen to this together

[@lesbianhangver4180]

i feel like i'm faking my emotions but i can't really tell cuz i've gotten better at lying to myself. this reminds me of it and it's scary. i wanna know when this numbness is gonna end, i feel like i'm wasting my days and my life yet i can't change it.

[@iQUAVERable]

Same. It’s all about faith

[@marcar19]

Always remember you are the one who chooses to feel a certain way about the things that occur in your life. I'm not trying to blame you for feeling this way, I'm trying to tell you that realizing how *you are in charge* of your reactions towards life will empower you to take action and move towards better days... I hope you're feeling better and I highly suggest therapy, it improved my mental health incredibly

[@williammyers1088]

Choose to not hide. Bit by bit. Meditate. Journal your honest thoughts down. Eat a lot sleep a lot do a lot never be lazy

[@who2449]

Same... You're not alone.

[@jaymzwoods7569]

I do feel that. Hope things get better for ya

[@jocelynr4940]

This is so wonderful. I keep coming back to it.

[@liambyrne1102]

i was not expecting this at all..... absolutely beautiful. i had a rough day at work and smoked a shit ton before getting home wanting to listen to something fun while stoned. i scrolled aimlessly and found this gem. i dont know what i thought it was going to be but the second i hit play, i just.... floated away. i'm drifting off somewhere and i absolutely do not care where that is, i want to know where it will take me. i'm gonna do what that astronomer said and look at space pictures and stuff. i want to see the universe as i have never seen it before. godspeed.

[@benbuurman254]

Saw the cover and came for ambient black metal Stayed for the beautiful music

[@solfaur0]

I had the exact same expectations. I guess this isn't Happy Days (in case you heard o' them). I would recommend you Les Amesoeurs for some ambiental black metal :]. All the best !

[@elkyubi4281]

Expanding the comfort of the taste is really satisfactory

[@thefool1086]

Drone music

[@yossdne9755]

We all did man, we all did ..

[@nick-.t]

... and born to write stupid comments on youtube. xerobot people

[@kidonthemoon1247]

Imagine yourself, where ever you are right now, listening to this, looking at my comment. We may never met in real life or we might. We might be strangers with different personalities, we could have the same name, same trauma, same tastes. The possibilities are infinite. But all I know is that we are here, together. The world is billions of years old, and we happen to exist at the same time as this. I hope that one day, once this global pandemic is over, we can meet one day, and share our experiences. We are all human, we are all real. We breathe the same air, and live on the same Earth. We are here. We are home. But home has different meanings. It could be the place you visit the most. It can be where you are forced to inhabit. Or it can be somewhere you feel safe, comfortable, at home. You look like you’re tired of reading my comment. Take a breather. You need it. Rest your mind. You wont have it for long, but thats okay. We don’t know what we have until its truly gone. Something has to exist to be gone. We cant lose something we don’t have. Whether you’re religious or atheist, there is one way of creation. Without creation, we wouldn’t be here. We have a creator, we never know. We might know if we die, we might know if we are told or taught. But thats a different story. Now back to what i was saying. We are total and complete strangers, stars in space, small compared to the rest of the universe. We might have drank the same water, blink at the same time, breathe in sync. We will never know. Although we are strangers, I care about you. The world wouldn’t be what it is if you were gone. The world would be a world without you. Imagine that. Crazy huh? There is atleast 1 person in this 7 billion population planet that has love or compassion towards you. You might be the reason someone hasn’t tried to commit suicide. So rest, and stay safe. I love you ❤️

[@maddiesinclair3426]

wow. i haven’t really felt anything in a while. this really made me feel something. love you to. thanks for being here

[@lydiaatteberry5257]

Thanks man.

[@soylentcompany5235]

thank you

[@begs1333]

Maybe someday we can meet! Love you too man, thanks for being part of the world I live in.

[@garethalien164]

kzbin.info/www/bejne/g3WohKGMZ7eAjaM i like you

[@mr.unorganized6862]

3 years ago I heard this EP my junior year in Highschool in coding class and I was mesmerized, I thought of how I would want it to be the atmosphere music for a certain quest in D&D if I ever became a DM. Here I am 3 years later DMing a group of my closest friends and girlfriend, I never forgot that memory, as I just spent 20 minutes trying to remember the name of this and finally found it. Thank you, for providing such beautiful atmosphere music that I can return so much later to retrieve one of the EPs. For anyone wondering, the party is going to be teleported to an identical world of their own, with all the same people in it, and yet no one knows who they are, their families, friends, and loved ones have never met them in their lives. And it will be their struggle to find a way back home, they all have in-depth backstories to their characters so it will be hard hitting once they face their past lives without anyone even glancing their way.

[@pb913_]

EP?

[@pippilangsok6523]

this album puts me in a trance. i realise stuff while listening to this record. scrolling through the thousands of comments, hours flying by. finding way more wisdom than one would expect. that ripple feeling totally filling my body. it's hard living. i'm close to just ending it all. but i've come to realise; all emotions are equal. and if i die, i'll still exist eternally. as a ripple. and as smoke. hope everyone here gains something from reading and listening. maybe i love all of you. maybe some of you. maybe none. - pippi

[@XrpAndy]

Hope your still here. Or I hope you have found what you were looking for

[@nobodyofimportance3922]

"Is it possible that existence is our exile and nothingness our home?" - Emil Cioran

[@strangebliss1095]

we are all just walking each other home

[@sensemusic3491]

Accepted

[@danasheys9300]

Cioran....Much wisdom

[@danasheys9300]

@@strangebliss1095 good one

[@angeloraul8483]

Im romanian, i studied Cioran at the Philosophy university. Cioran said that in that complete nothingness, in that obscurity and void, god us taking a peak at what you have accomplished. That feeling is noble.

[@glof2553]

There's something simultaneously warm and cold about this music

[@TheKrokomaster]

This music is like 9 degrees celcius

[@tharealverminsupreme135]

Dreams are messages from the deep.

[@elemanielpagan8519]

this is a certified hood classic

[@JasonCalungsod]

Waiting in the human civilization lobby while the game updates be like

[@goldenproject1892]

Then you read the 2022 update logs. [Added: Nuclear War Event]

[@hassaanbangash4294]

@@goldenproject1892 Underrated reply to an underrated comment

[@gavinbongfortinet6009]

@@goldenproject1892 At least we won't feel any pain.

[@adroitone8911]

@Joshua F surely we will all die from the resulting 'Blood Wars' before we have to worry about the long-term effects of radiation !

[@SummerOf1987]

Oh, I wish … this world needs a complete update right now

[@gaygranola]

This album is really affecting me in a profound way. I’m diagnosed with borderline personality disorder and it’s near impossible for me to feel a sense of negative and positive emotions simultaneously. I’m either dissociative, feel extreme despair, or extreme happiness. However, music has always been a language I can understand and a great tool for me to understand mixtures of feelings that don’t come naturally to me. When listening to this, I feel a sense of emptiness and mourning, but also finality and triumph. The closest thing I can relate to the feeling this album gives off is the dissociation that follows one of my blow-ups. Beyond the dissociation I will either experience a mild sense of relief that it’s over, or a sense of dread for the consequences of my actions. Somehow, this almost seems to emulate both those feelings simultaneously. It’s what I’d imagine I’d feel if I were able to understand both of those emotions simultaneously and without the fog of dissociation - how I’d feel in that circumstance without my affliction. I feel reflective and grounded listening to this, but also lost and confused. I feel like I want to cry but I can’t tell if it’s with sadness or joy. The duality seems harrowing and distressing, but unbelievably freeing. I haven’t had that from an album in a while.

[@goth11223]

I have BPD too and this made me feel dude. Music is a godsend for people like us. I hope you heal.

[@dusk_en]

Yep. Same here. There are many like us who understand.

[@baringozi2214]

when the youtube algorithm actually recommends good shit

[@schnoz2372]

thats exactly the thought that appeared in my head

[@hippohugz9966]

imagine this was a comment that is secretly an ad by youtube to improve the algorithm, if i like the comment it knows im liking this path

[@samnorris6533]

@@hippohugz9966 FBI open up

[@allaboutbeebo4092]

Bari Ngozi yup

[@deadpool4397]

when the youtube algorithm actually recommends good shit 420 likes Nice

[@nicolasestebansalazarvilla9133]

Maybe this comment will get lost in the other thousands of comments around. But this is for you Felipe. I will always be in debt with you, for all the love and patience you've showed me. For all the good things you've taught me. For everything you've done. I love you and I hope, that in a near future, I can give back all that you've given to me. Thanks for loving me despite me being so weird and difficult to love. Thanks

[@clintvee]

I used to dream of playing music to big concert halls filled with adoring fans. Now this is my dream, to carve out a little resting place for peaceful souls. One day!

[@TheHorrorExperiment]

Sounds like Heaven, Purgatory and Hell all in one

[@vain.a2]

indifference

[@bochen1079]

Sounds like when i forget to exist

[@aysedarakc]

looks like someone watch Supernatural

[@RobertWadlow292]

You mean you can't make up your mind what the prevailing mood is behind the music? I sure can't

[@leopoldo3884]

that is the world we live in

[@RydaChet]

Sometimes I wonder if people remember me from my school, years YEARS later after graduation, I am literally turning 21 and even though I see those people by coincidence, it can be paranoid wondering if people remember who you were and what impact you made on people’s lives. I had a good life and you probably have too, but there is always a mutual feeling we all have. It is the thought of not knowing what impact in the world you have made even when you know what you have done, there is ALWAYS a different view on your character.

[@rickc2102]

I'm more than double your age and frequently remember random people and interactions from way back, so you'll surely be remembered, too.

[@caioawols8434]

I seek art to comfort me, it's like an conversation between souls.

[@GrilledSoup]

If death sounded like this, I wouldn't be afraid of dying.

[@CosmosYY]

I am not depressed anymore. I am in my bed, listening once again the music which helped me going through it. I am in peace. And I'm not smoking weed. Hope that you are doing great too. Much love from a stranger ♥️🖤.

[@zalolo0542]

your message touch my heart, thx

[@natestathes]

Much love to you from a friend

[@dabitiel]

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[@thisischriz6895]

Same, exept the weed thing...

[@Mortiferuz]

Feeling great after a depression, too. Besides the fact that I'm smoking weed. Lol

[@deltafox399j]

Who thought it was a good idea to make an album out of the PS2 start up sound?

[@frank2bad]

deltafox399j and ps4 lol

[@BuiltbyF]

That actually sounds like a great idea.

[@aman5141]

☠️☠️☠️☠️☠️☠️😂😂😭😭

[@elkyubi4281]

Well, it's inverse. Somebody pick ambient pieces and put it into his works.

[@caplinGrey]

Yes ! Didnt hear it until i heard you say it. Now i know why i love this so much. Ps4 purgatory..

[@yrxsx]

There will be happiness, there will be sadness. You will enjoy things, you will endure pain. You're gonna laugh together, you're gonna end up crying alone. Today you're watching at a starry night with your lover, tomorrow you're gonna stare at the hospital wall. It doesn't matter what it was, what it is, what will be. It is always gonna be about you, don't take it personally, it's only life. Never lose yourself.

[@AndrewMabon]

The beginning of Seraph IX reminds me a lot of the Bionicle ambient tracks from 2001. Very cool, love the album. Just the right amount of auditory stimulation to be suitable for playing in the background whilst writing.

[@CalvinWiersum]

I have a love-hate relationship with sleeping. I love being asleep, but hate waking up...

[@thenavigator2559]

*Around The Clock, Everywhere.* 5:15, in the morning... You muttered to yourself, as you washed your hands and left the restroom. You walked back into the backroom and opened the left desk drawer, searching for the instructions your boss left. *TO DO* 1.Check the slushy machines, we've gotten complaint that they aren't working. 2. Unlock the restrooms, they're finally fixe- What? A sense of unease set in, you just used the restrooms, they weren't locked. They also weren't broken yesterday, right? Now feeling unsure about your own memory, you went back over to the restrooms. Unlocked... You felt an ease wash over you. Maybe the boss had just forgotten that they were already unlocked or maybe them being broken was a false alarm and he hadn't bothered to update the list. You headed back to the backroom and looked over the list. *Sweeping, restock the the shelves and fix the "BLADE GUNNER" arcade machine* ? Huh, thought it was " *BLADE RUNNER* " oh well. After finishing the list off and opening up you wondered, why did your boss ask you to come early? This is hardly anything different. Who knows at this point? Seemingly, on cue the door opened with a ding. You got behind the counter and waited for the customer. It was a tall white guy, with overly gelled hair and a New California Republic T-shirt on. "Fallout fan, huh?" You said at and attempt to make small talk. "A what?" The man said back in a tone as if you had just spoken in tounges. "Oh uh nevermind.." you said assuming he didn't actually know what Fallout is and not wanting to make it more awkward. The man went back to looking at the shelf, as if this was the most important choice he would make. As you waited for the man to finishing searching, you looked outside. It was still dark, but there was hint of color in the sky, a color you could hardly recognize... Blam! The sound of a bag of Chuffles and a six pack hitting the counter brought you back to "Earth" "All that for some off brand chips you had never heard of." You thought. You rung the man up and as he was walking out he turned and said "Nobody knows you, exist." "The heck.." You thought to yourself. As your heart sank. (Not really) Why would he say that? *End of part 1* ... (This music gave me inspiration, idk why. Maybe because it's pretty ethereal and I imagine it playing in the gas station.)

[@poss4305]

this is amazing, you wrote this?

[@thenavigator2559]

@@poss4305 thanks that means alot, and yeah I couldn't really word the story the way I wanted so I was nervous.

[@helloeverynyanz]

when’s part 2 coming out

[@toastlikes2draw357]

If you made a whole book about this, I’d read it. I’m not kidding. That was interesting af.

[@marcar19]

Hi, it's been 2 months, please write part 2

[@shambles.8989]

Thank you for bringing HTDC into my life! Until I started looking around your channel I had never heard of them and now I listen to them at least once a week. 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼