i could write my magnum opus or i could simply go to bed

[@explore2265]

“I wanna make it good, but I also just wanna make it. You know?” I felt that too hard.

[@i-love-comountains3850]

That got me too

[@Jigglypoof]

Damn. I was scrolling and started reading this comment at the *exact* same point that she said those words in the video. That hit deep

[@kode-man23]

Algorithm has blessed ME with this video. It kept getting recommended to me, and I kept putting it off and putting it off. Glad that I finally decided to watch it before it disappeared forever.

[@stonedpotath0e]

yes

[@steve-os5oc]

somedays just making it through the day is as good as it gets.If we are lucky tomorrow might be better if only a tiny bit

[@randyprime]

"making things is like deciding to spend your life playing a rigged, demented slot machine except instead of quarters you're gambling everything that's ever made you feel something" took the words right outta my mind

[@ericwang6802]

how's arcana coming along so far?

[@UnderZero]

big randy here!

[@masterpig5s]

Yep. Completely agree

[@L0wPressure]

This video is probably in my recommended because of Randy :)

[@Velocitist]

That's why she's poet, and we're the audience.

[@i-love-comountains3850]

"This is as good as I can do, and I hope it finds you well." I don't know why that phrase made me cry so hard but I guess I really really needed this. Thank you.

[@prawiraagung4011]

cry some more pls

[@PresenceMusic]

I felt like I was listening to my own inner-dialogue throughout the entirety of this video. Thank you for this.

[@floofygod]

Your internal dialogue is plugging books?

[@PresenceMusic]

@@floofygod yes

[@citrus4419]

@@floofygod -_-

[@yehorboiaryntsev7123]

Same here, I couldn't believe that I'm the only person who has all of these thoughts stacked up and gathering dust in my head, I was trying to look for a person who has at least something close to what I feel/think and then I found this gem. God, I'm not alone, wow.

[@rona8278]

I felt the same

[@MaxwellNichols]

"everybody is doing what I do and they are doing it better" I don't think there is an idea that bothers me more or more frequently

[@amirfigo]

but nobody does it like you...

[@Nick_Lamb]

but nobody does it like you...

[@AliceDiableaux]

They're not though. They're just doing it diffently. I don't have this feeling because I've decided long ago I would never make my art my job, but I've always been surrounded by artists, professional or just for fun. Just to give an example: years ago I was dating this guy, and he made music. He was odd, and his music was odd too, and he never really got much attention for it, maybe because we had so many friends who were doing music professionally. But _I_ *loved* his music. I put together an album from his songs just for myself. At one point he told me how happy it made him that I was actually listening to his music in that way, because I was the only one. No, he wasn't the best. Not out of everyone nor the people we knew. But his music touched _me._ I still listen to it 8 years later! It doesn't matter if other people are 'better', whatever the fuck that means with art, it matters if you reach someone, anyone. I may not be an artist but I am a teacher and the same principle applies there. If you change just a single person's life with your work, it has been worth it, and what or how other people do it doesn't matter.

[@MaxwellNichols]

@@AliceDiableaux love this

[@thewastemanagementcompany]

that is exactly how i feel with my music

[@yayamakes]

"sometimes everything i make just feels like an elaborate scheme to get the people close to me to tell me good job." I felt that man... This is the first video/work/anything I came across from you Savannah (tbh what drew me in was the light setup you had in this video's thumbnail), and your soul is brilliant. I don't know anything about what makes good writing, but Savannah the self-awareness and honesty that you carry is powerful. On my end it's 'sometimes everything i make just feels like an elaborate scheme to get people to want to hang out with me.' - no one will read this but it feels good to share (with at least myself).

[@bluefleur57]

This: "Making things is like deciding to spend your life playing a rigged, demented slot machine, except instead of quarters you're gambling everything that's ever made you feel something"

[@lovetownsend]

True. All depends on what you call success. Is success making something you think is fukin amazin? Or making something someone else thinks is fukin amazing too? Or just making a living off the art you created?

[@mustang4636]

@@lovetownsend imo, why tf shouldn't success be measured by how much YOU like what you've created as opposed to how much someone else likes it? Why should anyone else's opinion matter when it really comes down to how you feel about what you've accomplished? It's your fucking accomplishment. You've done a hard thing. That is fucking YOURS now.

[@lovetownsend]

@@mustang4636 True, good point.

[@AnnaLVajda]

Yes because real art comes from your soul and you invest yourself emotionally. Tortured artists are stereotypical for a reason. Then people will misinterpret your work probably too and mock you for being a cliche misunderstood tortured artist type.

[@chillaxTF]

@@lovetownsend All of those things, in different amounts, for different people

[@LaytonObserves]

Didn't realise how much I missed your cadence and way with words until now. Your mix of cynicism and uplift really hits the spot. But yes, whilst the attention economy rewards us for consistent output - I, too, quite like the Bo Burnham approach: hide away from the world, make a thing, disappear again, return when ready.

[@acultural_]

lesser known as the The Frank Ocean Method

[@edwinbloemendaal1519]

With all the writing videos I’ve watched in the past year, YT finally recommended this one to me. I’m 71, retired after decades of mind-numbing 9 to 5, I finally “have the time” to work on the novel I started (I thought brilliantly) 20 years ago…but I’m on a medication that just makes me want to sleep. And although I don’t take seriously all that self-doubt gerbil-wheel pseudo-analysis of existence that passes for philosophy, yeah, those kind of thoughts still occur. The important points are that (a) you continue to write/create, even though perfection is unobtainable, (b) you continue to get “Good Job!”;from your readers, listeners,viewers, (c) you continue to create an emotional impact on your audience. I’m impressed and subscribed. This video is on my “Watch periodically” list, and I’m off to see what else you have.

[@foolproofmayonnaise7407]

i’m glad that one thing i share with a past generation is a “watch periodically” list, i find it necessary to have new thoughts and reconsider past biases

[@ObaiduzzmanMourtaza-si4gk]

Cool

[@joy7367]

"watch periodically", that's good. i'll borrow that idea

[@carliewolff1649]

the fact that, even just speaking, sav’s words almost sound like poetry. her vocabulary and the way she strings her words together is just so unique and beautiful and I LOVE IT SO MUCH 😭 i could listen to her talk forever

[@fractiousfauxpas1368]

It's the reason I keep coming back. She could read me the back of a shampoo bottle on repeat and I would happily sit and listen.

[@whalejawjones1152]

Yeah truly, just her intro has me mesmerized.

[@loewe5029]

sav's voice is incredibly soothing, i could listen to her speak forever

[@r1verrebel596]

I would like this comment but its at 666 likes so I cant

[@jaredclark9795]

Exactly like where did she go to school to learn such an amazing vocabulary? I wish to be this fluent with my words and the way I speak.

[@sorenwood4997]

I am shocked how everything she just said was a much prettier way of expressing everything that cycles through by mind every single damn day. 16 minutes never went by so fast. Thank you.

[@i-love-comountains3850]

Same for me. I needed this more than i ever thought.

[@jetstarfish]

this video describes all of my indescribable thoughts

[@aim1534]

mom! savannah's making me want to become a writer again!

[@DarkTwinge]

Meaning, feeling, a story too - Any reason at all will do! Let your ideas take flight: You don't need a reason to write.

[@jessienb1165]

i’m about to go to college to major in English and me too buddy me too

[@maocharlisme]

Gold.

[@jessienb1165]

@12 34 thank you for the advice!

[@Nick_Lamb]

Hey look, you already started!

[@teitheartist7056]

The vocabulary of her speech makes it known that she's a writer, I love it!

[@seetheanimal5867]

No dummy it’s just that she is smart

[@0xC2]

"everyone's favorite internet graduated musical comic also discovered projectors the fucker"

[@relight6931]

Yeah.. Super unique, she sounds as if she is at least 400 years old, with twice as much experience and wisdom, while actually being completly down with current slang, it is weird, captivating and beautiful..

[@jayblack5231]

I feel sad because this video reminds me there are people out there who express themselves like this; I'm yearning to share space and life with them, and I've never met them. Savannah, thanks for being you.

[@Amandasbarros]

Same

[@nerrrh]

they are all around you, but like anything good it takes a little risk.

[@ThatTsukuya]

god damn this is 100% how I think about writing music. It's so hard to be genuine and vulnerable without cringing at myself, and whilst writing music is one of the only things that makes me happy, it's one of the only things that makes me truly sad, specifically when I can't write what or how I want. This is a super powerful and important video.

[@sadbiscuits]

Please express yourself with your music

[@ElleAura12]

I feel the exact same way ;___;

[@Rose-vl9qe]

That’s crazy because that is exactly how I have been feeling! It’s been making me sad lately and causing me to give up on the craft all together

[@iCrimsonKing]

I am a musician since i was a little boy. I composed hours and hours of music in my life that i dont feel like sharing with anyone. That way, i am sure that what comes out is an unedited version of me, the real me: which i have so much fear to show to others. On the other hand, it makes me question why i am even doing it, since i dont think anybody will ever listen to those pieces or take a look at the scores, even. Maybe in the hopes that i will find the courage to perform them for a public someday?

[@davemanuel4619]

never heard a tongue that feels so familiar .. the jumpyness, the tonality changes, the changes in speed, the eye movement, the self observing 3rd person view inside yourself being present like a second person inside of you.. and of course the jumps between "i wanna say this", "how will people perceive this" and the pain fighting through this anxiety. brave

[@TDGCmote]

i was having exactly the same realization the whole video. its baller, I could really understand s lot of it closely as if that were myself thinking and speaking through these things

[@nicksneider5463]

@@TDGCmote Exactly this. But her bravery is what I admire and envy.

[@twilso12]

Fuck. I started crying at the point you said, “don’t forget me” I see myself in you so much. I see myself in many lately but very much so in a certain type of soul.

[@EmptyKingdoms]

I find it interesting, as a literary scholar, that all characteristics you've attempted at defining "important", were _social._ And social in a capitalistic, consumerist society sense. As Agamben reminded the words of Benjamin: "certain literary works remain unforgettable even if no one remembers them". To live up to that fact is the most difficult thing for an author today. Writing, nowadays, is mostly standardized rhetoric and repetitive structures. Yet, there's not a single, certain way to write - at least to write anything that is of any interest. To write is to carve a way out of waylessness - that thing the ancient Greek used to call _aporia._ To write is to open paths, dig tunnels through mountains with one's bare hands.

[@honeysluiced]

beautifully said.

[@thedchen]

ooooof

[@Elletanvilla]

that’s a really freeing way to look at writing, and art in general. maybe I don’t fully understand your view but...I think that we should always have others in our mind when we write. Because writing is so subjective and individual, I feel it is most magical when that extreme nuance happens to cross borders and touch someone else...(this is also why sometimes I have qualms with abstract art) But maybe, the best way to communicate is to get rid of any preconceptions and be authentic??? Ahhhhh too many thoughts

[@afriendofjamis]

Hello stranger, you don't know me but I would like to read some of the works you've written. I nearly cried reading this.

[@SC-gw8np]

Beautiful ❤

[@monicahernandez1966]

Heck if this isn't a manifestation at its finest. I'm in the dissertation writing phase of my doctoral program and before opening KZbin I thought to myself, "I could open my laptop or I could just watch a movie that would be a distraction to the clusterfuck of creativity in my head". I'm doing it. I'm opening it. Thank you.

[@phillyphakename1255]

Well, it's been a year, how'd you do?

[@monicahernandez1966]

@@phillyphakename1255 I earned my doctorate last August! Thank you for asking! Now I have to manifest my dream job! But that's my main goal for this year! I hope your manifestations are working in your favor! ☀️✨🌙

[@phillyphakename1255]

@@monicahernandez1966 congrats! Doctorates are hard. Heck even undergrad was hard enough for me! Thinking back to August, the company I was working for was really struggling, layoffs coming, no promotions or raises for a while longer, so moved on. Found a great job where I'm learning a lot while using a lot of my knowledge and experience. It's a fun job with great coworkers. And then last Friday, the office manager who was insulating us from the scumbag owner quit, leaving us... Uninsulated. I'm thinking January is going to be a new August, and I'll be moving on to find a better job free from that toxicity. So yeah, I think the future is looking pretty bright, even if there's a storm moving through today! Best of luck to you and me in our job search!

[@kathleenkaleookalanismith8724]

Clusterfuck of creativity in my head!!! Thisssssss

[@araujo_nj]

​@@monicahernandez1966did you get your dream job yet?

[@nternetrat]

what a fucking gift it is to be able to completely and easily (at least as far as i can tell) articulate your thoughts and feelings. and you may have been doing it your whole life so it's out of your view because it's so close to you but it's just really admirable- your vocabulary, how thoughts flow easily and effortlessly and form into actually sound and beautiful, funny, or wise things such a calming and wonderful video, which came at a perfect time when i just sat down and tried to make a video for youtube and nothing came up, or it was hard for me to talk. just the title alone of this video is really cool and i can tell i already fucking love your mind just from the title. it's great anyway. love what you do, sending love, kisses, mwah

[@PsychedLVTHN]

this^ ditto

[@danielhester9575]

You explained the explanation so well. You are just like savannah and your gifts are beautiful. I aspire to be as open and wise as sav ☮️🌚

[@nternetrat]

@@danielhester9575 thank you. haha - reading my post a year later, I do think projection comes into play. You notice another's gift through the presence of your own. Which also then applies to you :) yayyy

[@codenamesleepy5367]

420th like 😎

[@nternetrat]

@@codenamesleepy5367 slay

[@tiffanyferg]

your videos are so comforting, it’s such a joy when one pops up!! And I absolutely cannot wait to read TTWDS

[@savbrown]

TIFFANY it's so nice to see you here!! thank u so much and i hope you're well!

[@TheTreWalker]

Two of my fave youtubers in one spot 🥺🥺

[@mattemery4081]

Honestly though these videos are free therapy.

[@mattatm3227]

@@savbrown YES YES YES 🙌 I needed this so much

[@Zikeal-d4l]

@@savbrown Just discovered your channel, I'm starting to like this girl version of exurba1

[@Crazy_0007]

That monologue in the middle was something else, it created a path of self reflection that makes it relatable to many artist, musicians, writers, etc. What an absolute gem of a video.

[@calacatchy]

savs lighting just hits different

[@treenutspeanuts]

would you say it conveys joker tones at least a little bit though ???

[@deepanshupal]

every. single. time.

[@Murdrocks]

The editing, lighting, music and basically everything about this video is mesmerizing. It perfectly accompanies your message and almost makes it a piece of art in and of itself.

[@Songson]

Almost????

[@user-xq6cf3iw4w]

simp

[@romchompa6858]

duh...

[@sperk01]

yes !!

[@qiyzgg9045]

@@user-xq6cf3iw4w ?

[@epti3539]

bro she just like me fr actually so thankful for this video. it leaves me with a lot to think about. I see people like Savannah and I realize that the people around me might not understand me, but there is someone out there who feels how I do. I can take comfort in that fact when no one is around to validate my feelings.

[@Yarblocosifilitico]

People not only don't understand any of this, they resent you for it. Creativity is weird in that when it's there, it gets overwhelming, and when it's not, you feel numb. But then there's the sweetspots where everything just flows out of you, and it's so beautiful. Thanks for this video. I'm currently writing a couple books and short stories (-> short novels?), plus rap rhymes on the side. Plus regular work, of course. People don't get how distracting it is to be constantly on the verge of finding that piece of the puzzle that solves everything somewhere in the depths of your mind. But, to a creative person, that ever-reaching is the purpose of life itself. They call us daydreamers and what not, but they would do the same if they could ;)

[@rileymachelle4088]

I feel exactly like this, it's kind like there's this frequency that only artists can tune into. I often like to say that English isn't my first language, artistic expression is. Not to get all full of myself saying I'm "enlightened" or some shit, but it is different. It's a different way of living compared to what's deemed as 'normal'. Kinda like with Stunt performers, there's something about the rush of adrenaline. For them, the stunt is what makes them feel most alive. I deal with anxiety, depression (what artist doesn't amirite lol), and ADHD. So I do kinda feel numb when my creative drive isn't there, and I always get distracted from my brain which is constantly stumbling over itself. But when the stars align, when I hit the sweetspot, when I get inspired and I'm actually working on things? That's when I feel most alive! My heart starts beating again, and nothing else in the world exists while I'm in that blissful state. It's literally the point of living for me, I'm a creativity junkie lol. I'm also a writer (among many other things), but in more of a film context. I've been developing this 5 part series for like 5 years now (I'm 21), and I'm really proud of it so far! I dont expect it to be done for like 10 years, but I have most things figured out, with some storyboards, flowcharts, and it's already gone through like 3 major revisions which vastly improved the overall story. Buuuuut I know it needs 1 more revision at the very least before I can actually start a proper screenplay and script. 1 more just to make sure everything makes sense and resonates properly. It's just like you said man, I'm looking for an important peice of the puzzle that will unlock my brain. Like Zelda, I'm constantly scrounging around for a key that can unlock the right chest

[@soniachauhan4459]

Spot on. When I feel like I am stuck in this maze of mirrors - the weight of creativity, the burden of marketing, the conflict of creating 'content' - I tell myself, again and again, that it is a privelege to be able to write. To have another world of characters and stories inside your eyelids. That you can close your eyes to reach it. Its a massive privelege.

[@adolfogarzachaires394]

i thought this was an update vlog did i missed something ?

[@G.Man-]

​@@adolfogarzachaires394 Yes...

[@adolfogarzachaires394]

@@G.Man- actually i didnt

[@sebastianrooks6778]

You had me at "I have the disposition of a haunted 18th-century lighthouse."

[@pseudo_jam]

You know what, you're right. Making stuff is scary. I thought I was procrastinating a lot of things in life for the longest time, but I think I'm actually just terrified. Making anything is honestly horrifiyng for me, especially progress. I just want to create something. I haven't known what for the longest time. But now maybe I might have an inkling. I did not know who you were before I saw this video today of all days. Curse the algorithm and all that, but I think it helped me find you at the right time in my life. Thanks Savannah, you're pretty cool. Have a good one!

[@KhanStopMe]

i personally wouldn’t mind more ‘promotions’ of the book if it means we get more of these. i’ve missed these videos.

[@diondredunigan5282]

omg it’s taha!

[@jeshweedleon3960]

oh shit it’s TAHA taha oh fuck oh god oh jeez

[@JustinNathanielAdams]

Sometimes I wonder why we as humans care so much about having a lasting legacy when we won't even be around to bemoan the fact.

[@jungerhansmann6608]

we like to exist and not existing is frightening to us. Having something we made last after we are gone makes us feel good maybe. Evolution made us so we always think "existing good, not existing bad" and this is a weird human extension of that.

[@manscapedgrinch1427]

I really don't have that... I take comfort in knowing that ultimately how I'm perceived by others, either in the present or the future, is irrelevant. I don't have any intrinsic skills, but that's fine.. even if I did have one and honed it to perfection I'd likely still not be remembered. Or to take it even further, even the most will known will not be remembered forever, because eventually mankind and all of our works will cease to exist.

[@morgandale3594]

The ego denies its mortality and so seeks to immortalise itself however possible

[@tiagomelo8543]

that's why it's a legacy but words right?

[@connorkennedy1794]

Don't you want to be more than yourself? I think it's perfectly natural to want a legacy when it can mean that others were impacted in a hopefully positive way. That spirit drives the human experience in a way and the accumulation of generational knowledge and technology and culture uplifts more people as the years pass. Even if most info is lost, and everything eventually turns to dust, you can still be part of the driving process and maybe there's virtue to be found in that.

[@Tackk6]

"i wonder things in trains of thoughts which are concluded only by a spirited return to the beginning to ride them all over again." sums up my life in a way I never thought possible. thank you for your continuous and jarringly thought provoking content :)

[@andykww]

It's hard to walk that line between confidence and humility. You need confidence to sit in front of your keyboard and write. But you need humility to discern your faults and improve your craft. I think having peers whose opinions you respect (a publisher, a manager, a fellow writer whose work you like) can go a long way in helping you make story decisions and bounce ideas off. The constant anxiety that what you write might suck can become crippling. Writing is an investment of time. And time is very precious in this short life.

[@andykww]

Writing is all I think about when I'm not doing it. But when I do do it, I find it incredibly hard to muster the energy to continue. "I hate writing, but I love having written."

[@Nick_Lamb]

@12 34 Would you mind explaining the significance of your number?

[@Nick_Lamb]

@12 34 How'd that attitude work out for the Mac?

[@Nick_Lamb]

@12 34 I am very curious how you derived this number for yourself. If you would tell the story I'd read it. To me this number symbolizes success through pereserverance. Don't give up on your goal.

[@Nick_Lamb]

@12 34 A lovely story, I can see it. One step at a time huh? I think the habit of rejecting or dismissing meaning is unhealthy for us, especially us artists. Personally I consider myself a Denihilist. There is meaning everywhere. Well, you likely won't like this video but I was listening to it last night and it reminded me of OP's angst and the simple but complex cure of belief: Give it 5 min if you're curious, or don't: kzbin.info/www/bejne/ZpLLi5mYapZri5o Keep on keeping on.

[@stealthyrevolt9182]

I feel this way about reading

[@stevenspencer306]

I love this video so much. I've never been good at getting words on page or out of my mouth, but you've said so many of the raw, vulnerable, and brave things that go swirling around in my head "in trains of thought which are concluded only by a spirited return to the beginning to ride them all over again."

[@karretjee795]

Lol this discribed the endless thoughts so wel. The funny thing is tho, hearing the same sentence over and over again when listening music will make me completely frozen in discomfort. So sometimes I get the same with an endless stream of thoughts and I make it a thing to frease the same thing in as much different ways. Making analogies to explain it. Somehow hoping that I can unlock why this makes so much sense to me and how I would ever ever ever could have known what someone actually meant. Bc what they said was just something COMPLETELY DIFFERENT.

[@elrayo4456]

I officially love whatever this is.

[@nghtfall]

“I’m not writing to try and convince people who don’t like what I do I’m writing for the people that would have liked it anyway” wow I really needed to hear that

[@sleep6837]

This is the most elegant, eloquent and resonant video I've ever seen personally. It borders on an enigma for me: I'm an artist out of Ohio who remains adamantly fascinated by different avenues of art and self expressionism (film, music, drawing, etc...) My creative process is plagued by persistent overthinking, until finally I create a finished piece. It went on like that for years, and then one day I was like, "What do I do this for? Is it just hedonistic self expressionism? Am I looking to touch people with this? Am I desperate to make something that I will be remembered by? Will this outlast me?" It's so grating, and the occasional bout of existentialism doesn't improve my motivation. I guess I was just so satisfied hearing another knowledgeable and grounded person vocalize such a constant mental struggle in my life. So....thanks I guess?

[@MrAlbinoGhost]

I really love that embroidery metaphor - it's so hard to forget about what's behind the curtain once you've seen it, and you are utterly embroiled in the goings-on behind said curtain as you create things. you don't GET to see anything else really so it's incredibly easy to be overly critical and pessimistic about your work. the only way you can avoid having it spiral out of control and make you lose your drive is just to trust people and accept their evaluations

[@AleksWorkshop]

I really like your way with words

[@flux202]

I'm in awe. From the title being my nightly thought. The opening line being extremely amazing. Her incredible voice. Her nice hair. I've fell in love with a video.

[@joeswanson5520]

no

[@flux202]

@@joeswanson5520 no?

[@gorancavar6636]

@@flux202 no

[@diushikaola]

watch breakdowns of 500 days of summer, dude

[@user-yj7cu5sk2w]

I like this comment it’s very fanciful

[@elephantnut]

“everyone’s favourite internet-graduated musical comic also discovered projectors, the fucker” hahahahahhaha

[@cockidk]

who is this? I don't have enough pop culture knowledge

[@Benny-eq6no]

@@cockidk Bo Burnham. He's got a new Netflix special called "Inside"

[@rvch883]

@@cockidk If you have the time, watch his other 2 specials before. If you don't, the last one is his masterpiece

[@ashleyedwards3082]

“Don’t forget me” gosh 😭 I have spent so many years terrified I won’t leave anything important behind. This was such a heartfelt meditation on what it means to create, wonderful 😌. Nearly had me in tears at the end 🥺

[@TonytheCapeGuy]

I love the way you talk. The precision, the style, the vocabulary, that's the clearest sign that you're a writer by trade. :)

[@EliteInferno14]

As an artist, the struggles you talk about definitely resonate, even across different fields. I constantly struggle with the validity and impact of my work, but in the end, I always remind myself that I do what I do for me, and I hope other people happen to enjoy it along the way

[@AliceTyrell]

I have never seen you before, never heard your name, and somehow in 16 minutes you took the scrambled knot of screaming thoughts in my head, and pulled them all out one by one with understanding and care, and handed them back for me to read, finally crystal clear. I think every sentence changed my life in a little way.

[@foolproofmayonnaise7407]

this is such a baller community and i want to see the average amount of time each comment took on phrasing

[@slack__]

bless the youtube algorithm for delivering this video to me... i'd call it an emotional rollercoaster, but it's more like an emotional teacup ride - a smooth, flowing and rhythmic journey through the mind, sprinkled and layered with emotion in every sentence

[@Purplepentapus_]

Maybe this isn't the right word, but the word that comes to mind when I hear you describe things and use imagery is "kaleidoscopic"

[@yahuahstar8212]

Shem -Alka - Shen

[@andyzhang7890]

This was one of the most therapeutic, enlightening, relatable, and profound rambles I've ever had the pleasure to experience. Thank you for creating and sharing this. I think it reached a spot in my heart that I didn't even realize that I didn't think anyone could touch.

[@FM95.5]

So well put, this was moving!

[@miniclipsmore2787]

You’re one of the most, if not the most, authentic KZbinrs out there. This is the first video I watch from you and I can already tell that you’re a real diamond in this world of counterfeits. Importance isn’t something you have to look for or measure based on the outside world’s demands. Importance isn’t something you create through yourself within your works either, it’s something you create through your works within yourself.

[@sydneycottrell6742]

“I just want to make someone feel Something” babe, I’m literally crying right now. You’ve succeeded

[@i-love-comountains3850]

Ah jeez I'd just stopped crying here we go again lol it's good though we have to cry sometimes or we go nuts.🤪💚🤟

[@maddieesme9564]

the sound of the books hitting the floor physically hurt me

[@savbrown]

it's ok those were just the prop copies

[@stefaniacampos4992]

I actually really liked the sound hehe

[@Laika997]

no sav books were hurt in the production of this video

[@kuma-khameleon]

It SENT me

[@jeffreysherman8224]

In Savannah's own words, they SLAP.

[@edwardrocca]

I encountered this video in passing, at 3:30am, while feeling pretty down, and just wanted to say that seeing your personality in it's purity just feels candid. I may never see a vid of yours again, I may never read your books, but in creating this video you've participated in becoming a part of everyone who watches it. It's genuinely moving to listen to someone going through these identity defining questions in life. You're doing good in exploring your thoughts this way, and keep doing what you're doing, keep being you. These discussions are exactly what make us human. Thank you for the 16 minutes of thought provoking discussion. Imma listen to it again as I go to sleep now. Have a great life ✌🏽.

[@anfisachern8570]

"Not An Entirely Selfless Endeavour", a third novel by Hank Green

[@braden_m]

YES I LOVE THIS

[@Norman834]

Also fits the protagonist because really, no one would assume any of her actions selfless

[@shaboora777]

“She’s here to market her new book” was indeed a thought I had ngl

[@LarryCalcGOAT]

it feels so good being reminded that others have the same thoughts as me every once in a while, and how I have gotten better at being happy doing work that in one sense is pointless and lame, but yet allows me to yearn towards moving forward and what the future holds

[@debora4293]

as a queer young writer with no platform ttaks absolutely hit the small bullseye that makes up my heart and i think everything you do is just like that, savannah. you put writer's inner thoughts outside and make us all feel like a big connected blob and maybe it makes us feel more or less human.

[@DylanoftheDead]

“… because i’m simply intrinsically wired to enjoy it or because i received well-timed praise at impressionable periods of my life…” yo relaxxxx

[@TomGrizzSimmonds]

I come back to this video every few months, something about the sincerity of understanding really does shine through! thankyou for making this, thankyou for sharing your emotions, thankyou for reminding me that these emotions are universally shared amongst creative types, again thankyou!

[@lp8865]

I tried to think of some clever way to put this, but honestly I just love the way you say things

[@LLoKKa]

I feel you, my mind thumbles with every sentence

[@crownshyness3520]

@@LLoKKa She speaks poetry, cause we are poetry.

[@QuinnArgo]

It DID hit me at the right time though. All of it. I read TTAKS a while ago and I do believe I am a different person after having read it. I read a lot of books, philosophy and fiction, barely knowing why, but I know that after reading this book I had new, and more open, eyes to the world and people around me, and the value of experiences I can make. Looking forward to reading more of your works

[@savbrown]

hey! this comment has very profoundly affected me ha thank u so much for reading

[@QuinnArgo]

@@savbrown That makes me glad to hear ^^ New book just arrived, didn't expect it to come on release day, but I'm not complaining, in fact I'm happy like a little kid ab it. So uh, I guess I know what I'll be doing now

[@rxqv33n]

love ur pfp lol

[@jauxro]

Hm. I've seen this before, but it's suggested to me again as I tear myself up over losing control of the day, wondering if I should push into the night

[@kylethescientist]

Find someone who looks at you the way Savannah Brown looks at the left side of the screen

[@raivo_4447]

She’s looking at the script on her laptop lol

[@sandroselladore3506]

loll

[@Janelou42]

This is like a hug for my soul. Comforting the circumstances of struggles and giving a bright outlook.

I love listening to you speak. It’s so relatable and your voice is so soothingly smooth.

[@johnwhipple2720]

this was super helpful to hear. hearing someone from my actual age group talk about creativity in a way i think about it was incredibly comforting and made me feel so much less alone. thank you

[@LanieBrice]

KZbin just randomly recommended me this, and it's exactly exactly what I needed to hear. You read my mind, and it was an incredibly cool experience. Amazing title too.

[@nternetrat]

my thoughts exACTly. down to the title.

[@n00bitaww]

Same

[@finch4309]

“the most important works are those that made even one person not want to die” and that person can be yourself

[@mindofbasit5992]

Bruh, i feel like I've just had all my 3am thoughts, cited back to me. In a concise, eloquent and visually aesthetic bow. I found this video very comforting knowing I'm not the only one who allocates way too much time to questions we probably will never have the answers to haha Amazing video💜

[@benji8690]

bruh i could listen to you talk for hours, you have so much wisdom and insight for someone so young. all of your open ended questions permeated through my mind like a sound wave through an empty swimming hall. good on you

[@benji8690]

man what the fuck was i saying, i was down bad

[@sunnydeee_]

The title of this video alone is so interesting to me, like the title of some mid 2000’s YA novel a la John Green. Then i watched the video and now this is immediately going into my youtube video essay hall of fame.

[@Spoeism]

Speaking as a writer, you're exceptional at summarizing the inner thoughts of writers while elegantly articulating them out loud. Which is a challenge for most writers I find. Your confidence in being vulnerable is both inspiring and intimidating. Hopefully that's an insight that holds some value.

[@malibusky8701]

This is like a conversation with myself at 3am after turning in an descriptive essay that I poured all creative bullshit into.

[@novayer]

the way she speaks eerily reminds myself of my internal dialogue- I feel as if whenever she asks questions I can hear her continue her reasoning in my own head as my own reasoning, and i find that comforting.

[@jonegm4672]

I don’t think any piece of media has ever been this impactful and validating to me ever. Thank you so much. I’m sure there’s so many people who really needed to hear all this.

[@goirkens]

The tone feels like Bo Burnham's "Inside" and that's the exact level of angst I need in my life right now.

[@everope]

0:40

[@pavkin]

"Sometimes everything I make feels just like an elaborate scheme to get the people close to me to tell me 'good job'" yeah, that's about right.

[@PlantGothKira]

Got out of a psych ward days ago due to my thoughts being just like this. As a creative as well, this really helps. I enjoy your voice and thoughts.

[@samhayler9942]

As someone who's been to a psych ward before, I hope you find some peace with your mind soon. It's as deserved as it is inevitable.

[@nikotandashvili8302]

The realization of not drowning alone in these feelings and thoughts, just sweetened my standard meal of bread and ketchup, brightened away my guilty shadows holding me under and made my soul breath again. Thank you.

[@sziartopeter8943]

nigga has a ukranian flag as his pfp 💀💀💀

[@lmmn5780]

"All bad poetry springs from genuine feeling."

[@LiminalDoll]

"Does it matter? Did i try hard enough? ...Don't forget me don't forget me..."

[@indipindy16]

i dont think anyone has ever been able to verbalise how i feel about creativity like you do. this is wonderful

[@olie7247]

This has long been one of my very favorite videos, and a significant reminder that I both want and NEED to be a writer. Thank you for creating something so comforting, so special. Words really do nourish the soul huh

[@Tasmetu]

Oh my god, I remember following you when you first started out on KZbin and then so much changed and I switched accounts and I lost you in this wide world of the internet and now you randomly got recommended to me and you speak exactly what my soul has been feeling about social media and writing and creating, aaaaaah! I was "forced" to become a freelance creative / writer when I lost my job in 2020 (I am grateful but DAMN was I unprepared and DAMN is the financial anxiety horrifying) and I also really want to be an author and it has been SO HARD to balance things and to write everyday to pay my bills while keeping space and joy for my book projects. This February I took time off to actually work on my novel and it made me reflect so much on the attention economy and how our society sees you as a failure if you do not succeed in everything you touch as soon as you try it for the first time. And how you are supposed to create new masterpieces every goddamn day but that things like writing books just take time. And life. You need to live a good life in order to write good books. And I don't mean being happy, I mean actually being alive and experiencing the real world and crying and laughing and meeting people and watching people and being bored and forgetting you ever had to write anything, because you are too busy being alive. But the bills and social media and society just put such a pressure on you that you simply cannot do that. And then it paralizes you and you do nothing. What a f*ed up world. Thank you for your video. ❤️

[@taylorhuber7370]

I’ve been watching your videos for nearly a decade, since I was 13, and every time you make a video it feels like seeing an old friend and your videos are just so comforting and I’ve loved seeing you grow over the years while I’ve grown up too!

[@ProdByArtVolé_YT]

8:53 is where it really got to me and hit me in my heart. I felt like the only one battling this and this really boosted the morale in my camp that makes up my brain. Literally everything after this finding this today. Helped me so much on figuring out the complexity of my Art/music and spoke to my soul. Don’t get me wrong all this was lovely pieced together. This really made me really vulnerable and happy that I’m not the only one that deals or relate. I find it hard expressing these thoughts. I appreciate you and your words! I really love this the mind of a crazy creative I love it! This spoke to my spirit on levels I couldn’t imagine anyone comprehending 😭👌🏾.

[@TheBestNameEverPt2]

Wow you really have grown as a human, without losing yourself. You're as fascinating as ever, but somehow more complete in your thoughts and how you express them. Looking forward to seeing your videos whenever creativity permits.

[@augustinfrancotte3163]

Your marketing strategy is amazing. I don't say that as a reproach, I mean it. The way you sell your books is both sincere, and convincing. By showing vulnerability you connect with the individual far deeper than a random add, it's more interesting, it's more profound, it's more true, and finally, I predict it's more efficient. It's what ppl thirst for, authenticity.

[@cpnCarnage666]

If someone called my sincere thoughts about the struggle of being a creative in this world a marketing strategy I'd ask my dad where he keeps the shotgun

[@augustinfrancotte3163]

@@cpnCarnage666 try and hit me. I don't blame u for being naive.

[@cpnCarnage666]

@@augustinfrancotte3163 itd be for myself not u lmao

[@oldtimemachine]

@@cpnCarnage666 i mean she literally is selling her book, I don't think op has ill intentions with their comment,.

[@cpnCarnage666]

@@oldtimemachine I mean, I didn't think op had ill intentions either, but the content of the video itself came off as rather sincere and vulnerable, and when I saw this comment, I guess I felt offended on the creator's behalf. Like, yes, to a degree it is, but to call it a mere 'marketing strategy' felt reductive and to some degree insulting. And if in some world where I had made a similar video, I just wouldn't have liked to have seen my work described that way. Thank you for your time.

[@aestheticdepression109]

8:42 Watsky’s one of my favorite artists out there and this is the first time i’ve heard his name mentioned so casually in a random youtube video this makes my day

[@PaulOfThebesMC]

Some times there are voices that I love to hear, just the pure clarity, the cadence in speach, a surprising inflection, tonality. Others have something worth listening to because of an important message, a thought shared to ponder on, long after words winged away. Then there's the very rare combination of both that I've been graced with here today.

[@zirdi2334]

you should do a podcast! I could listen to your thoughts endlessly!

[@CardHeroes]

This is a heated blanket for creatives on a cold night of seasonal depression, it’s fuel to my spark of optimism in a dark room that needs heat and light and hope that there’s something out there past the brick wall of trying to create in an exhausted moment. That feeling after working 12 hours on something where you wonder “is all that working going to amount to a few seconds of a viewer or passer-by seeing if they even see it at all.”, and then you just take that innocent moment that you have in surplus in childhood and think “it makes me happy so I think it should be shared cus it special” without concern for how far it’s seen or how many numbers it does. A feeling it’s cool to me so it needs to be loved. These the ramblings of a madman getting ready for his 9 to 5, and having a slight existential crisis of bliss because of your time and effort. Thank you.

[@misstonix]

“the disposition of a haunted 18th century lighthouse” 😭

[@julipani1214]

1. your voice is the most soothing sound I've ever heard, I could listen to you for hours 2. you, your hair, the aesthetics, wow, just gorgeous 3. this is the first video I see from you and it definitely won't be the last

[@nternetrat]

yeah this is the kind of video you need to bullet point what's so great about it for sure

[@bl4ck1911]

last time i read a book it was 5 years ago and it had 50ish pages. im usually more of a movie guy but everything you said and the way you said it hooked me into reading whatever your mind will transform into reality

[@trenthaynes7779]

You've perfectly put into words the creative struggle that so many fight, and in doing it, made it all seem more manageable. Thank you. You have the elegance of a good poet. Think I'm going to have to buy your book, you've sold me :)

[@lauracruz3858]

Your videos are a masterpiece!! The way you talk about how much writing means to you, your views on the world and society, how openly you talk about your ideas and feelings, your jokes... there's something about it that has inspired me so much!!!

[@endgamesbeats]

She makes me feel... A good version of existential and I am addicted to it...

[@balloonxm]

Phoebe bridgers keeps finding a way to eclipse my sanity

[@artsybetsy_]

i like how she disappears but always comes back with everything beautiful 😩

[@savbrown]

i have to go find it before i can bring it back : 0

[@brittsvids]

Almost every sentence in this video is a quote I want to write down on my arm. I know you don't come here much, Sav, but to echo the other comments: your cadence, the mood you invoke videographically (and existentially), the way you put things together, it's art and it's absolutely like no one else and I want So Very Much More Of It