I'd love to leave you alone, but I can't let you go [dads&daughters]

So much of these are things I wish I could say to my dad. I wish I could tell him what he'll miss out on. I wish I could tell him I know that none of the shit he put me through is my fault. I wish I could tell him that I'll be 100x better at being a parent than he was.
And that sounds as if he's dead, he's not. He's just out of my life because I got tired of the drama and the bullshit, and the way he treated me like I was never good enough. And I feel guilty every single day that I don't speak to him, because I grew up thinking that I had to allow the emotional and mental abuse, because he was my dad and he loved me.
It took me 18 and a half years to finally get rid of that relationship for good, not that it was ever healthy to begin with. We were two mentally ill people who clashed in every way, and it got to a point where he was doing more harm to my depression than anything else in my life. No matter how hard I tried and how much I was praised by my mum and my sister and my teachers and my friends, all that I could hear was him telling me I was fat and useless and stupid and that I should've done better. All I saw when I closed my eyes was him ripping my teddy bear from my arms before tearing it to shreds because I was too old for it - I was 10.
He was toxic, and I had to remove him from my life.
It's time to put that behind me and be okay.
Thanks for watching.
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Fandoms: Shameless; One Tree Hill; One Day at a Time; Riverdale; Valor; Girl Meets World; Arrow; The Vampire Diaries.
Characters: Fiona Gallagher; Brooke Davis; Elena Alvarez; Veronica Lodge; Nora Madani; Maya Hart; Felicity Smoak; Caroline Forbes.
Song: For the Love of a Daughter
By: Demi Lovato
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[@lovelyangel7964]

It hurts when you think this person u call daddy, father was supposed to protect u, love and guide u through life but instead places the first knife in your heart

[@JJBluebell]

This is so heartbreakingly beautiful. If there is anything I learned from my father, it's that sometimes the people we love, aren't worth loving. X

[@elysianchaosproductions]

Thank you! That's probably one of the truest things I've read in a long time

[@user-sk5lr9xu3k]

I hate when people say “at the end of the day he is your father he is not a bad person” You don’t know anything about it....

[@heybicheshehe5231]

This hurts when your dad wasn’t physically abusive and he didn’t leave but was never there for you and you always came last no matter what and you only realised who he truly is when your sister left because she couldn’t take it anymore

[@addition6302]

Sadly my dad will go three months without talking to or seeing me and my brothers Then we have a talk on how he's gonna change that but never does

[@hi.howareu]

Felt this. I haven’t talked to my dad in 4 months. Haven’t seen him in 4. :/

[@zoi9237]

My dad only calls on holidays or birthdays… he left almost a year ago.. I haven’t heard from him in two months. When I was really little he was amazing…. He was a police officer and he was really great at it(so much so I wanted to be one when I grew up, that changed… going into the AirForce next summer) but as soon as he retired it was like he retired from everything. He became distant, unavailable, and his words became more hurtful. Then my parents separated on horrible terms and he decided that none of my siblings or I were enough for him to stay(when I asked why he was leaving us…his exact words were “ there is nothing here for me…”) If anyone ever needs someone to talk to.. I am here for you. God bless you all.

[@hi_im_cricket_im_ur_consci2194]

Shameless and One Day At a Time always manage to break my heart…

[@lovelyangel7964]

One thing my father thought me was dont believe what people say and the only one who can protect and u can rely on is urself

[@alexcurtis123]

This makes so sad because I know how it feels to not have a father In your life mine hasn't been in my life for 18 years and it sucks it really honestly does. Love the video though.

[@hannahwilliams5681]

Wow. Thanks for making me cry. This was so beautiful and heartbreaking

[@elysianchaosproductions]

Aw, I'm sorry for making you cry! But thank you so much for commenting

[@katherinewright388]

I wanna hate him so so bad. But I can’t help but love him.

[@saydaiemyers8106]

Ik if my dad dropped dead right now I wouldn't have one good memory I would remember the pain, the scars, the blood, the bruises, the tears, the feeling like I was never enough, the memory of thinking he hates me so much, the memory of the anger in his eyes every time he looked at me, so if he died today I wouldn't remember anything from my dad just the anger, and pain the feelings I felt every day because of this man

[@fabricofdreams.]

I've made a similar experience in my life as you. I'm done with school now and I hope I can finally move out and let this life behind that kept me in chains, and the home I loved but where I felt unwelcome and out of place because of my father. Unlike what he keeps telling me, I am not supposed to be grateful for anything, least of all his fatherly duties he never fulfilled. He feels like a complete stranger by now, but I just hope I am able to remove him from my life and not hang on to my old life forever. 💔

[@breelynn8810]

Just read the caption, and darling, I just wanna send you so much love. I get it. It sucks so bad. But you are so great. He doesn't deserve you. You are an absolute treasure, and I am in awe of your strength.

[@elysianchaosproductions]

That means so much! Thank you for your kindness💗

[@ameliasings19]

watching this day before father's day great edit

[@montgomerymulti3594]

This video is so amazing if you ever need to talk I'm here

[@elysianchaosproductions]

Thank you so much

[@hollyhocks67]

Once a year, my dad rocks up, we spend the day at the beach, he gives me $100 and leaves. I used to think that was normal.

[@soniaspnlover2469]

Go you! if you ever wanna talk about it all with someone who's gone through something similar (my dad loves the word useless too and yeah whilst he never ripped a teddy bear of mine up or anything he did his fair share of shit too me) feel free to message me and ask for my Facebook or something

[@elysianchaosproductions]

Thank you, you're too nice! The same goes always

[@sadepiphany7820]

beautiful ass edit :”)

[@ilovewolves2827]

This is very sad and I read your description and I hope everything is ok and you are better in sorry to ask this but I was wondering if you could tell me the name of the moive with the girl in the weel chair because I can’t fined it

[@Florencehehe_march]

Shit i'm cryging :'c This beautiful,amazing and...sad wow 😔👍

[@elysianchaosproductions]

Aw thank you, you're so nice!

[@Florencehehe_march]

thanks jsjs,i love your edit

[@alejandramendoza7886]

You should do one only with Veronica and Hiram. It will awesome

[@michaelacronje7923]

Hey, if you need to talk.. just let me know... I'm going through the same thing rn 😳

[@elysianchaosproductions]

Aw thank you so much! I'm sorry that you're struggling

[@theshortangrylesbian]

Slightly shocked not to see Dale + Gert...

[@HONEY-tz8tu]

To my dad : You don't care about me you never did You dont give damn

[@rye581]

What's the first clip from?

[@jureparreno5549]

i was born wthout a dad ..and..my mother wanted me to die..my life is a mess ihate my life iam questioning myself why ..am i still alive my family is broken now..

[@sadepiphany7820]

i have an edit i made a while ago w this same song, mine is trash asf compared to yours 😭😭😭

[@elysianchaosproductions]

Aw I'm sure its not! But thank you so much for your support!

[@sahidahmed4737]

My dad loves for everyone he don't love me he try to kill me

[@shantiz]

What the name of the show 1:09

[@carawall8481]

2:50-2:55 What show is that?

[@lilybelle7344]

It's Shameless

[@rachelburdick2078]

This was me my dad left me and then grow he chose my rapist and said he wish I would be dead

[@lilybelle7344]

1:06.. the show? 💕

[@shannonharding1677]

One tree hill