I Don't Feel God, Now What?

11/06/2013
Pastor Jeff Vines

[@Whero1964]

Awesome..Thanks for delivering God's encouragement

[@oneandallchurch]

Tatiana, we're so happy you feel encouraged!

[@survivingthepousinis7602]

awsome preaching thanks jeff

[@rexbesana499]

He was our pastor in North Shore Auckland :)

[@oneandallchurch]

+Rex Besana Thanks for checking him out here at CCV! We love him.

[@robertgill1634]

Rex Besana

[@MrCyrilmathew]

Pastor Jeff Vines Rocks (y)

[@angelaaguilar2785]

Thank you Pastor Jeff for reminding me that God desires us to seek him through through his word. Take God with me in all things, in dire times of tribulation or rich times of abundant blessings. He wants to be with me through it all. it really is a divine romance, one that is eternal. It really is the greatest love ever.

[@Katertot75]

Thank God, I desperately needed this. I've struggled with this my whole life. I'd like to know what he would say about handling horrible repetitive insidious doubts about God's existence. It's painful, it drives me insane.

[@mytubeisassy2]

Today I saw a rainbow it was a double rainbow that I could not help but to praise god ,in Jesus holy name for!Knowing the events that lead me to a close friends house for piece of mind . I know for a fact this may have been filmed years ago but this is what put it together for me . I am not sure if I was there that day because I was doing the first faces for a while in the evenings. I know that today it made sense I want to come back home to my CCV family and yes I have been not feeling period after my father had passed and strangely the few months before I was out of my mind. I have come a long way . Today I had to come to this conclusion it IS in GODS TIME , not mine to realize , my connection with OUR GOD !! I was so hurt this weekend I had a near death experience when I woke up I did not take it for granted I realized that I have a calling . I have been telling the people around me that I have a calling and I am almost there. Yes , I definitely wish I could call one of my church friends and tell them my discoveries instead but I have not gone for years because of my time of living in the ways of the world. Now my family my own family , seems more dangerous to be around then the so called minorities, uncivilized people, the thugs out here. My own family has succeeded in taking my child at her weakest points and disbelief in God and I her mommy, they used her insecurities and took that hurt and used it as a tool to make sure I don't come around . They are intimidated by God's presence that I strongly bring in the atmosphere with me , they do not like me and the very people my so called friends that say they love me are all seeming to treat me like I am crazy and do not welcome me anymore. (thank you James and Clarissa I love You guys they accepted me today ) It seems as if everything is falling apart when I know ...God is just calling me out . He is yelling out to me whether I want to listen or not , he is Talking to me in every way. I barely picked up that bible yesterday (thank you Christoper Roman I Love you , the beautiful pink Bible) yesterday , for the first time in two years. Wow ......... This is my calling being a minister or preaching the gospel traveling the world helping others. Until I picked up the word , I felt so unloved abandoned destroyed within my soul because of my family's betrayal and my very own little girl that I gave birth to has joined the dark side at this moment and time she says she doesn't believe in him. From the miracles that I have witnessed and that Jesus has reviled himself to me in the flesh, I have never thought for once from that day that God screamed at the demons that rattled my sleep since a very young age and proclaimed his daughter here on earth "me " Franci .... I never thought he was not there that thought has still not crossed my mind. In this world of sin that I live in I choose not to listen to the propaganda still and the decisions that I make may not seem like the right ones, but in this world of corruption they hate me. I know they do and therefore I really want to despise being in the situations to the point of no return. I do not want to come back to these mean savages but they are my family and so called friends that I have been trying to please for the sake of peace, and they just got 10 times worse, I could have yelled irate and brought violence but I did not . Because god is still with me he has never left my side through all of this . so the restraining order that my sister(demon ridden)who is the mind control freak that has poisoned my family with dark thoughts and anger worry and anxiety. I see the signs I read John 15 and ,16:1-28 ....Jesus the true vine( the beautiful pink K.J.V. version Thanks Oreo) ... and it led me to the Cross to the answer " I must Love them" . Must Love because he Loves Me and I can not bear fruit , unless I abide in him . The scary one was John 15:6-9 if a man not abide in me he is cast forth as a branch withered; and men gather them and cast them into the fire and they are burned ." I will be burned forgotten no longer alive I was listening to the God inside me that has never left me that very moment I realized that I need to seek him and stop helping those who are still living in the ways of the world . I will not be accepted for the very reason of me being a child of God and I refuse to live in the ways of the wicked and I no longer seek temptation I no longer want a life of wreckage , I have been lazy and I am not going to be that person they all lie and say that I am . Yes I am alone but I have Jesus right Now and he is by my side showing me these beautiful sights of rainbows and eclipse and phoenix shaped clouds and amazing animals that feel your emotions . Music equipment is not needed to me music is in my soul I loved being a worship leader at new journey ministries , but I also like speaking on the message to others and "yes feeling ALIVE" !! well slowly I am coming back , but in Gods time . Be patient be kind be loving that is what my dad would say today,if he were alive I miss my friend, my hero, daddy teacher of god ,who was homeless and bad mouthed by the very people who are doing it to me today , I realize what my father has been through because I am on that bike with a back pack right now learning I am sort of homeless now but I still have the people that let me stay over . My father , Thank you Jesus Christ , our father still led me to watching Jeff Vines , how ironic in the bible the very first verse and chapter the word that I read to revive me it is called Jesus the True Vine.... I performed shackles and saw that they tried again this year .. this year is my year ... this year is a year of realization I will be 36. this year I Feel as if I will be 3,792 years old today for some reason. God this event is happening for a divine reason and thank you Jeff Vines thank you for doing what you always do so well what I miss the most is you summing up my whole week with your 45 minutes of life lessons from our father through you . Your confirmation on what I am feeling and what I have been communicating is just as similar in the message you deliver. as Pastor Jeff Vines says "choose your friends wisely if they bring you up and the closeness and nearness exudes from them and that's who you hang out with and if they take you away from God and move you further from him you need to remove yourself..." and then he goes on to saying "it is the strength of this group that will give you the POWER to change this group!" so true I am amazed of how exact God can be even a few years down the line ...Amen !!!! That is when I know for a fact that God connects me back to this church for the very reason of my calling in life . I have not yet traveled the world but maybe I should NOW with CCV ministries.... I need to get out of her for a while anyway ...

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Prayers for you, your family and ministry. Be strong and courageous!