I don't know who needs to hear it, but... here's what helps me manage depression - VLOGUST day 11

[@jasminjadore]

6:58. "You don't wanna die, but you just dont want to exist." This resonated with me on another level. No one I know talks about mental health. To hear someone say the very thing I think everyday, but dont say out loud. I dont want to die because im sad or hate my life or anything like that. I'm just so tired, its the only way I can describe it. Stay positive.

[@mazmcculloch6528]

Gosh its weird, this came at just the right time. Thank you Nikki, I relate so much to so much of what you talk about and who you are and how your mind functions... I want to fade away into the mist and not exist anymore. Listening to you comforts me in knowing I'm not alone, I hope our minds get lighter.

[@xXxSaBakkaxXX10]

I'm having such a bad day today and seeing you posting that ... it really helps and be reminded that I'm not alone feeling like this... I appreciate you being so vulnerable with us

[@MM-619]

Thank you for sharing Nikki 🤗 It’s a reminder that I’m not alone, and I’m the complete opposite and very private and shut off when I go through depression and I find it so brave and amazing how you are able to talk about it. You truly are helping others 💜

[@FrommSalem]

i also get so mad at myself when my depression comes in or when i genuinely feel upset and cant find a reason why. my parents taught me to never show emotion and now that im 25 im learning that probably wasnt a good idea to teach your kid. know youre not alone (if that makes you feel better, it helps angry me feel kindof better like "look other people do it!!") AND everyone loves and supports you on the party chanel!

[@jungersrules]

“It is no measure of health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society.” ~Jiddu Krishnamurti This saying reminds me that there’s nothing wrong with me and my emotions. Same for this quote from Anais Nin: "I must be a mermaid, I have no fear of depth and a great fear of shallow living."

[@FilMaltez]

The making a list tip has honestly been one of the best things for me too, and I also seem to do better doing the small things first for the same reasons you mentioned. Depression just sucks. Like when I hang out with people later in the day and they ask what you've been doing all day and tell you about their day. It's basically trying to find the energy to have to get up, get dressed, and leave the house to see said people, but I get so embarrassed (even though I shouldn't) and say I was just cleaning the house or something. Thank you for sharing as always!

[@sarahruzickrealtor]

Love the jewelry info. I would certainly invest in a longer wear of the f*ck perfect line. I wore my bracelet out 🤣💜

[@applefructose]

I literally didn’t want to hear this due to my depression not even wanting someone to give me productive tips, but I rewinded the vid to hear the advice again, and that’s insanely relatable and some sort of dealing mechanism.

[@AshleyChiassonID]

For the jewelry - Is it an option to do quality tiers? That way individuals could choose what they could afford? I totally get it not being an option if you need to sign on for X number of pieces per release though.

[@RJyn83]

This was me today, couldn’t stop crying, my heart was heavy but no reason why….! I hope you’re feeling better today, sending you lots of love and positive vibes 🤍🤍

[@Kaciesbooksnthings]

I'm ready. I always need more tips on managing my mental health. 💖💞🙏

[@0n3c3nt]

Oh the classic “stop crying or ill give you something to cry about”

[@tasiacross5173]

I'm so happy your open about this. Cause this happens to me on days. I have anxiety and depression. I've been having good days lately. Trying not to thing negatively. You got this queen. I love you and praying for you. You made me take my mental health as a priority

[@jungersrules]

“You don’t want to die, but you just don’t want to exist.” OMG thank you for validating exactly how I feel! That means I def suffer from depression and not just anxiety. 💕😻😘🙏

[@MrIronFiled]

I hope you ok. Been a fan for a minute. Stay strong.

[@guatonaaa]

Wow. Idk how else to say this but I'm kinda glad we're both feeling the same. I don't feel so alone/crazy anymore. I'll try making a list for the day and tackling the smaller tasks first. Thanks for the advice ❤️

[@ilsesadventures6167]

When you said the part about not wanting to die, but also just not wanting to exist, you described exactly how I feel at those days! You made me feel seen and heard, and I'm very thankful for it. Also, as far as crystals: Have you heard of Moldavite? It is both earthly as from space, and it has the highest vibration. I have a piece, and when I hold it, it feels like it wants to go inside my hand and I feel it pulsating. Such a cool crystal, maybe you'll like it too! They are rare, and the real ones only are found in Chech Slovakia, so be mindful of fakes

[@twyatt75]

I'm so proud of you and how you overcome your depression.I love you Nikki!!!!

[@kristinakelly5720]

For some reason I’m worse when “nothing happened” to make me feel anxious and depressed. Right now I’m going through a nasty break up..got physical broken nose.. and I just want to work and be productive. Back at my moms at 27, she’s out of town for work, and I am kinda nervous how my mind might turn on me when I’m alone.. I have a suicidal past I can’t ask a friend to watch me.. I love you Nikki, thanks for sharing.

[@make.and.believe]

The struggle is real. I have a few things that help me when it gets really rough. Creation is a big one. I have a tendency to dive into a creative project to break out of my mind, sometimes I dive into something crazy huge, something that takes a lot of concentration and a whole week or two to accomplish. I guess that's avoidance, but it works and it's positive, so creating is my go to. When I don't have tons of time though and can't escape, I exercise. Sometimes it works wonders, sometimes it comes right back as soon as I'm done. But a good long workout session usually helps on my end. Good on you for speaking out on this. So many ppl just share when things are going right. And it's never really always right for anyone. You've got this. You can do that thing. Much love.

[@wakan14]

You're not alone. The "voices" can be brutal. Take any credit you can from the small victories. They are what keep us going!

[@temetnosce2095]

Brilliant piece about how life exists but not the self. Brilliant.

[@jungersrules]

Thanks Nikki.

[@tasnimkhan1624]

I’m so happy to hear you’re “upping” the quality 🤗🤗 id love to extend the wear time of your jewelry!

[@katwilliams9483]

Life - sometimes it figures and other times it’s a puzzlement, but in the end, ain’t it grand to be here!🎢

[@Joe.D.Sheppard]

That's the worst part about depression. There is often seemingly no reason for one feeling so down.

[@saralynn9012]

I 100% understand that dont want to exist feeling. The world can be so overwhelming and I just wish I could not exist for a while, then come back and be a human adult.

[@jessicanot6663]

Wow this is so nice and helpful, I’m struggling with my mental health for the first time in my life so knowing how to function as a human and also deal with questioning everything has been difficult. I’m 21 and I aspire to be like you when I get older. I hope you feel better soon ❤️

[@ArminciaEdwards]

Oh how timely.

[@mejt223]

you da best Nikki

[@bwnpnut]

Yes please up your gold plated quality in your pieces! I got the Fuck Perfect ring right away bc I loved it! Been wearing it everyday, all day long and now it has tarnished all the way but I'm still rocking it bc to me it's totally an investment piece. I work in healthcare and I think the hand sanitizer/hand washing all the time really did a number on my ring 😅

[@chibihotaru]

Yes. I would pay extra for the more gold 10/10

[@NorseButterfly]

Nikki, would you ever consider adding a silver option to any of your jewelry lines? It might be a less expensive way to upgrade the quality without adding too much to the overall cost. Something to think about anyway. 💞 Hope you're feeling better💜

[@rachel.doremi6974]

I got my kittens & coffee today! I haven’t worn earrings in literal years, but i know your are the best quality you can produce for that price so it’s going on me!!! Also… i also feel guilty when i need to cry it out bc my mom always told me that “crying won’t help you, so stop” as a kid… being awkward af, I gots no friends irl (lmao, i am pulling baby Nikki energy bc i am a mod on Antione’s channel)… but like dude 😂😂😂, feelings of “no reason” hurt!!! So bad at masking though…

[@katherinehernandez5521]

Thanks Nikki!!!

[@ashleychavez2634]

Nikki, have you thought about having the necklace stone be able to touch the skin? So like a ring of metal around it vs. cupped so that the back of the stone is flush with the skin? That would be super neat! Also my old fuck perfect necklace broke and I loved it so would def invest in a better gold one to have it last a long time! 💛💛💛

[@DelightfulDissident]

Yesterday I was listening to Mathew Walker on the Lex Fridman podcast talking about sleep/dreams (check it out!), and I just woke up from one of the most vividly heartbreaking dreams I've ever had. It's has been a heavy morning because of it. I needed this very much today. Thank you 🙏

[@OonaghFae]

Lists are definitely helpful and getting smaller stuff done will always feel like an accomplishment. Things don't have to be big in order to feel like you checked something off. Will you ever offer sterling silver jewelry options? :)

[@nitzkit]

I’ve been doing the list thing and break one step into even smaller steps too. It fucking works.

[@akshayar517]

I love your nails in this was there a video on you doing them and I just missed it? And btw this video couldn’t come at a better time right when I felt depressed for no reason at all and going through a Cycle of being depressed and then angry at myself for feeling that way.

[@rosiemujica9510]

Have you considered using any other metals for the jewelry line? I typically wear more silver toned jewelry than gold toned

[@jessicaj2885]

Love you 💕

[@serjluvr15]

Nikki!!! Where did you get your sun stone from?

[@-amosc.presley-7192]

How do you come up with these great ideas for Ya’ merch❓You got it Going on

[@Ikamara21]

Nice

[@kiraknuckey4098]

PLEASE look into PMDD! (pre menstrual dysphoric disorder) symptoms like can’t stop crying, “wanting to crawl into a hole”, not wanting to exist, guilt, anxiety, inability to do tasks, lack of focus etc are very common, theres psychological and somatic symptoms. its due to a sensitivity to hormones. do you notice u get these symptoms monthly/in line with ur cycle? i just notice a lot of red flags coming up when u talk about this and i get a lot of these with my PMDD too, cant hurt to look into it :) theres also a lot of evidence of a link between PMDD, ADHD and mood disorders too btw. check out iapmd.org - its also in the DSM-5 and ICD-11.

[@nikki]

Whoa, yeah it actually is PMS week! Will def look into it, thanks!

[@-amosc.presley-7192]

I know you had told me to shut up but somehow I’m listening... Even though you had apologized I’ve accepted... You is forgiven📌

[@sunvavachi]

Lol

[@-amosc.presley-7192]

@@sunvavachi, Hahaha how are you❓

[@DanteBogdan]

Kinda just gotta let it out, get it out of your system and out of your mind.

[@xXxSaBakkaxXX10]

never clicked so fast on a video lmao

[@bncurwick]

I'm know I'm late to this vlog, but you're not a bitch! Or a baby! Prioritizing helps me a lot too, and you aren't a lame ass bitch for feeling your feelings. On emotional days, all you can do is your best and take it easy on yourself.

[@nadinelgarza1161]

I cried when I was pregnant. Hormones 😂.

[@reapinthebenefit56]

It would b nice to have a lifetime piece id pay the extra