I Hate Myself - Natsuki Subaru's Words

[@AdarshMishra_07]

When someone Express Your Feelings For You, Better Than You

[@iiitrifle9895]

😊❤️

[@Idk_2939]

I... absolutely agree with you...

[@dekudezo4915]

@@Idk_2939 I hope you realize how cringy this was

[@younesfilali4562]

IDC what anyone says Subaru is the best and realistic mc out there

[@crazedbutcher6672]

Yup..... I really do hate myself...... this scene was and always is....... extremely hard to watch or listen to. It's just about how I feel towards myself, and it's tough to watch play out

[@justinmitchell4192]

I used to hate Subaru so much but after I heard this i realized that it was because I saw myself in him

[@iiitrifle9895]

😊♥️

[@skeptical_guy]

I never hated him cause i always thought he was like me but a extroverted person with less self control which is 100% ohkay I love his character

[@wockyslush2108]

@rio bro thinks he’s the mc😂😂

[@annawakefield6545]

I think you hated him because it reminded of yourself and how you see yourself,you already figured that out have it you

[@WarVeteran213]

Same dude

[@patrickhazel7804]

I hate myself for having to memorise this. It's the only way I can describe what I'm feeling and they aren't even my words.

[@grahamstrickland3040]

Hey, relying on the words of another to express yourself is not a bad thing. Lots of things can be learned from others. I hope you are feeling better.

[@patrickhazel7804]

@@grahamstrickland3040 thank you. I'm sure a guy like you hears this a lot but I've been cursed with true insanity. There's nothing left for me in this world and that simple reply warmed a soul I though was long dead. I truly thank you from the bottom of my empty heart.

[@grahamstrickland3040]

You're welcome.

[@iiitrifle9895]

@@patrickhazel7804 It's not hopeless! You can always dig yourself out of this pit! ♥️♥️

[@erickurquidez8944]

Same

[@YourBoiJonah117]

This moment means a lot to me. When I watched Rezero I was at a point in my life we’re I was pathetic and had no true aspirations. If I had died back than it wouldn’t have truly impacted the world in any way. I use this video to clip to remind myself that I have made progress and my life now has meaning and I have gotten past that point.

[@user-bq8zf7qn7n]

How? I dont get it.

[@YourBoiJonah117]

@@user-bq8zf7qn7n what I mean is that I was at a point in my life where I felt like I had no connection to the world or others around me. I barely talked to people and didn’t talk or really know my own family. I was essentially a shut in. I isolated myself from society and accomplished nothing meaningful. I was wasting my life. Since then I have made connections in my life. I have actual friends and hang out with people. I got fit and don’t spend all my time by myself. I actually know the people I live with and I have been starting to meet my goals in life. So I use this video to remind myself of my progress and how much further I have to go

[@user-bq8zf7qn7n]

@@YourBoiJonah117 that's what I was asking, how? I don't get it But still, Good for you

[@iiitrifle9895]

Keep moving, buddy! 💪😊♥️

[@iloveanime5711]

@@user-bq8zf7qn7n he is saying what Subaru is saying doing nothing with your life and letting it all go but he did not kept pushing on

[@gangorcaking5375]

People can say Subaru a “cry baby” but bro…gotta respect him for not just offing him self everytime we returns by death🤷🏾‍♂️

[@bgm3999]

Some people try to downplay Subaru’s life before he came to the Re Zero world from Japan but if you really think about the fact a 17 year old child has this amount of low self esteem is honestly fucked up and it really hits you how fucked his situation really is he was already holding all of that in then he’s whisked away to another world and for ages has had to watch his friends the woman he loves with all his heart die and suffer whilst dying also to save them even if it’s in the most gruesome ways possible every time he can’t save someone he hates himself even more

[@w1nther930]

Like dude gets transported to a whole other world and somehow his life becomes more shit than it already was.

[@rainaiyesa9976]

​@@w1nther930yeah dude Subaru Thought He Can Start A New Happy Life

[@ImNote69]

It's not harem isekai, you gotta suffer

[@baranjan6969]

It's like if parody and psychological horror genre combined "here all all the shitty isekai tropes and now you let your guard down here is some bunnies

[@darktheloser]

I thought he was 18

[@JuanLuisPerezOtero]

"you really are an amazing guy, Natsuki Subaru"

[@UndeadSoul47]

This episode legitimately broke me the first time I saw it. It hit so close to home that I was just a teary eyed mess for nearly 3 full hours afterwards. I honestly thinks it's the most I've ever resonated with a piece of media.

[@dannysweeto9683]

What episode is this?

[@UndeadSoul47]

@@dannysweeto9683 Episode 18 "From Zero"

[@Krpzfr]

Fr like people were to busy getting angry that he rejected rem but i was to busy recovering from that emotional scene.Any hate i had for Subaru prior to this died instantly never sympathised with a character this hard in my life

[@ReggyCupcake]

The way he says “you know I’m right” fucking shatters me

[@skeptical_guy]

"Wanting to accomplish something important When they've never done anything to earn it Goes way beyond the limitation of arrogance " Every overpowered protagonist needs to hear this

[@Kuudere_Fanboy]

At least Kirito and Saitama worked hard to become stronger.

[@luqha7886]

@@Kuudere_Fanboy not really saitama just did a normal work out rutine and kirito plays videogames.

[@whateverwhatever4476]

@@Kuudere_Fanboy Subaru actually has earns his keep unlike those two

[@Blinkehyo]

@@luqha7886I think the joke with Saitama is it’s not exactly a ‘normal’ workout routine. It’s actually pretty rigorous for a normal human. But he stuck to it and got insane power from it

[@dragoncat5767]

@@luqha7886 kirito as a vr game character did actually grind in Sao death game. After that he did later improve as a person

[@baconslayer218]

This video hits my heart every time I watch it because I can sometimes relate to this

[@georgenoel3847]

The same here.

[@iiitrifle9895]

😁♥️

[@iiitrifle9895]

@@georgenoel3847 😊❤❤

[@TANGXIAN_]

I fully relate and thinking about it brakes my heart i feel a kind of pain in my heart 💔

[@iiitrifle9895]

@@TANGXIAN_ 💪😊❤

[@_411_]

This is exactly i feel everyday.......

[@iiitrifle9895]

😊❤️❤️

[@iloveanime5711]

Same man same

[@noxy6778]

be more kind with yourself and be better Just keep going

[@trentonharper9042]

Some of you listen to this video on repeat, comparing this to yourself. I know this because I used to be there with you. I persevered through these ugly thoughts, and you can too. It's up to you to find self-worth, but you can do it. There is something in everyone, and even though you may think you aren't everyone, you have it in you too. As an anonymous stranger in the comments on KZbin, I believe in you.

[@Hmongkid777]

That’s easier said than done, this is reality. Plus I don’t have anyone, if anything I end up pushing people and myself away

[@trentonharper9042]

@Hmongkid777 Trust me, friend. I know it's not easy, but the alternative is taking away any possible light you'll have to look forward to. You probably don't see it now, but stay living. You'll thank yourself later.

[@theratinator1148]

I didn’t cry when I heard him say these things. Anyone who has ever been down at some point felt that they were just like him in that moment. I cried when I heard rem respond to him because I knew that many people felt like him but didn’t have a person like rem to tell them what they needed to hear. He had someone and many people don’t have that person. I think he was correct and wrong. Yes he is all of those things but he is those things because he is human. We all make mistakes over and over again. That’s life. Not everyone is some great hero.

[@fantasynx4730]

I'm in the exact same position... No one wants to listen to me.. I tried to believe that there was someone out there that could understand what I'm going through. Its the harsh reality we have

[@jakethesnake4040]

I was pathetic when I watched this show. And even still these words didn't hit me then. Now that I'm working to improve. These words hit hard. Because this is how I felt at the point I decided I needed to change. Or I needed to die. So I started trying to change. See how far I get. I'm already further than I thought. I'm 25. If your character was rotten. Broken. If you hate yourself. Everything about you. Or maybe just a few key things. You can grow. You can change one step at a time. Don't rush. Don't try to do everything you think you should at one moment. Develop each aspect and quality. Forge them in the fires of your self hatred, reinforce yourself as a stronger individual. Read proverbs. Read books like the daily stoic. Start going for long walks. Or exercise. Don't let yourself feel like you can't change or grow. One year of determination. Can turn around an entire lifetime of laziness. If I didn't start changing I'd have just killed myself. I had no purpose. No drive or ambition. Funnily enough studying the Bible helped me find purpose, maybe start with God and ask him for help.

[@mikedanielespeja6128]

You're the first person who wasn't preachy about this sort of thing. Maybe I should actually. I don't actually fully know or believe He exists but it's better if He does isn't it?

[@user-eo4gn7sj8g]

@@mikedanielespeja6128that’s where faith comes in. Nobody, not even “knows” he exists, but they believe. This is faith, and i’d like to say, to keep faith in yourself. sometimes you look and you can’t see the light, but light is what casts shadows, even if you don’t see it now, you’ll be blinded once you first bask in it. Go for walks, i cant clear my mind so i won’t tell you to do that, but understand it.

[@14th_Prince]

That's why subaru is best character in fiction the amount of things he went through and his character development is unmatched in light novel 😔🛐🛐

[@Krpzfr]

Even in anime so far he’s up there

[@14th_Prince]

Yep 🗣️I just said ln so mf who hate on him after not even finishing the anime won't have a talk in this saying

[@XzavNav]

Most relatable speech I’ve ever heard

[@AndrezyOne]

I am still coming here to listen.. Nothing changed..

[@GLAVU]

When anime teaches better than schools about life, pain and struggles

[@odinm.9373]

Im not good with words, but a couple of years ago each and every word during this speech stung me because I never realized how much I hated myself. However, now after so much time reflecting and working on myself and relationships, I can proudly say life has become better. So if youre in the place I was years ago, dont lose hope. You also have room to change and become the person you can be proud of. Take care everyone. Wishing you the best

[@aced3stacks]

When Subaru realized he's just another background character really hurt me

[@djdragons69420]

But then he realises he's the main character with the most busted ability in the series. Seriously who can beat rbd, Pandora, Reinhard?

[@aced3stacks]

​@@djdragons69420you mean who can escape death not beat it

[@Wicked_Gaming_]

@@djdragons69420 all u have to do is what garfiel did in season 2. Lock him up and keep him alive and he's completely useless. But they would have to catch on that he has that ability first.

[@ecl1pse-idky731]

​@@djdragons69420honestly if Pandora knows about RBD she might be able to overwrite it maybe? Or find some way to make his loops impossible. Granted we don't know the conditions for her authority at the moment.

[@3dsmaster537]

Never will you hear an anime character of all characters speak so deeply about themselves like this. We get internal monologues all the time but none of them carry the weight of this speech. It's just so raw and sincere. Mad props to the va, he's one of my favorites for this role alone

[@High.devontion]

This is exactly how I feel. Everyone keeps asking me “are you okay?” “What’s going on?”. Tf are you gonna do if I tell you how I feel? Fix it? Change it? Nothing will change. The whole world could know and nothing will change how I feel.

[@bankai_soul]

Sorry to hear that brother, i guess our boat of depression is keep getting bigger and bigger....anyways...There is always hope to change, Change is not under anyone's control but time. Have patience, i know that things will turn around for people like us.....Why i am saying this to you, i don't know maybe i wanted to make myself feel better and make you feel better too, so that in my entire life i wouldn't be looser anymore, nobody ever said that to me but that's how i feel really. I just wanted to make difference in my life, no matter how small or big, just once in my life i wanted to say that "Because of me this this this ....good thing" happened. Anyways all the very best brother, i hope you find your way out of this mess.

[@obarich]

There is somebody in the world that cares about you

[@nb16zo_mono1]

Facts ..

[@parkervo6778]

This hit absolutely deep in my thought. The anger, the sadness, the emptiness. Try to bring all of that up and you can finally be awaken

[@Chenastu]

Subaru is my favourite protagonist

[@iiitrifle9895]

The series is Rezero. The episode is Season 1 Episode 18.

[@iiitrifle9895]

Just for those wondering.

[@cale4394]

big thanks my guy, was looking for this comment

[@iiitrifle9895]

@@cale4394 You're welcome!! ❤

[@iiitrifle9895]

@@cale4394 👍❤

[@iiitrifle9895]

👍👍👍

[@lllapp1892]

He always knew what person he is from the beginning.He tried to change it and thought he is a hero of this story.But reality is different.He understood how bad and weak he is,he understood he always hated himself

[@rebelsoul4306]

anyone else put this on loop daily? XD

[@mayankkaushik9294]

Here i am

[@iiitrifle9895]

💪😁💓

[@justadumbuselesspotato08]

Yep!

[@juniorsantiago8269]

Yup.

[@tarawoodard1028]

Here are my pepl

[@adod_hamid0_0]

"I'm an empty shell; there is nothing inside of me at all. I know there isn't" Damn, I really hate myself

[@ddjsoyenby]

this is really relatable as someone whose gone through similar struggles, and this exemplifies why i like re zero it gets dark you see subaru suffer but it also shows there's hope and you can get through the dark moments to get to the light and it's worth it.

[@va67889]

I come back to this speech so much because I relate to Subaru so much. His voice actors did such a spectacular job conveying the pain in this scene.

[@bullymaguire8292]

I wish I could give Subaru a hug

[@zaredsilverlake8170]

I feel the same way as Subaru. I do the same dumb things over and over and I always tell my self that the next time will be different but it never is

[@AndrezyOne]

I.. love this anime so much

[@kureria_sama]

You know episode ?

[@AndrezyOne]

@@kureria_sama Re:ZERO -Starting Life in Another World- Season 1 Episode 18 that is is the sub version

[@kureria_sama]

@@AndrezyOne ok thx 😁

[@iiitrifle9895]

@@kureria_sama Season 1 Episode 18!

[@primordial_dm]

Never has any single batch of media I've consumed so far made me ever internalize as much as this speech does. Granted this isn't the first, or fifth time this video has flashed across my screen, frankly I can't count how many times I've remembered these exact words. Each time I wondered if I wouldn't tear up the next, set expectations and by my inability and inaction; failed. Every word reverberates with my heart, every sentence cuts deep and serves to remind me of the loathsome failure that I am. I wanted to be better, perhaps if not for me, then for those around me… yet in that too I have failed. Hence, as adamant as I am incompetent, I leave this comment here, with the singular hope that the next time my tears flow not for regret, but for having overcome myself, if not, so help me God. To anyone who reads this, I pray that you find yourself in better straits.

[@Createyourworldextra]

No worries Subaru every hero faces a moment of doubt and pain but that's what makes them what they're giving it a thought you've suffered so much since you came to this l can't even imagine dying when you don't want to takes a lot of guts

[@TheChaosAdonis]

He is the most misunderstood character ever. I love when people talk a big game like they could do better. But you have no idea how you would react in his situation till you’re in it yourself. He has been tortured beaten died so many times ive lost count lost so much wears the scars and seen the ones he love most die over and over again. I would be mad also going through that but he still finds some strength because of the bonds around him. Im confident to say most people on this planet couldnt go through half of what he has without there brain shutting down. Stop hating on my mans and find some comprehension people that don’t understand this is weak minded your weak. So hating on subaru is pretty embarrassing

[@Anvaya24]

This is insane 🔥🔥 the moment it registered itself in history

[@chaosfr3959]

After almost 2 years, it still hits me so freaking hard. Really really hard. I really felt the exact same in highschool. I wished I could just vanish from everything.

[@gagansinghgolar6051]

This speech of subaru is an accurate description of my entire life... Empty shell

[@Jond8945]

To be honest with you, I have nothing in my soul but sadness and sorrow. And this whole thing is accurate to me.

[@YasuYoshiro]

Honestly this moment in the anime hit diff

[@iiitrifle9895]

✅️♥️

[@Alexbychafa]

Something I really like about Re:Zero is that Subaru is the weakest character among his allies, but Subaru is shown as someone that is strong because he is surrounded by people who appreciate him.

[@irishprince4284]

This perfectly explains my entire life, all 28 years so far...I need help but I have no idea where to start

[@anon8206]

Make a goal for where you want to be in the future, regardless of how you feel about yourself. E.g, Wife, career, adventure, etc. Write a list and do research on how to achieve that goal, one step at a time. Everyday, build a block that will eventually be the tower which you can stand on. It's never too late to be the pwrson you want.

[@shlokhoms8081]

Subaru is one of the most selfless characters i watched in anime. i like how no matter how weak he is he still tries to save others, he's a brilliant character in my opinion.

[@havingfun1921]

This is what and how i feel everyday.

[@TyShark6810]

Only 1 of 2 characters that I have been able to relate to, I used to never do anything with my life, I had dreams but never did anything to get there. If only we could restart from zero

[@jarktonsley4717]

Is Thorfinn the other character?

[@TyShark6810]

@@jarktonsley4717 👍

[@jarktonsley4717]

@@TyShark6810 Fuck yeah

[@Mr.Don_Pikachu69]

I don't think the voice actor is acting. It feels like he's reflecting himself. But this is reflecting me too 😅

[@HurricaneHomer9]

If I’m not mistaken he said he was reflecting on his own life at the time

[@anf2972]

Everything he is saying, I can relate

[@toomuchfreetime7194]

My most favorite monologue ever in any series.

[@FallenHalfWingedWolf]

When i heard this i wanted to cry because i hear my own thoughts

[@131mohammadubaida6]

I have watched it many times and still I'm replaying it again and again.

[@Nalbant-Littlestar]

Ngl listening to this kinda makes me relaxed

[@theabyss5647]

I wish I could say it's relatable, but as opposed to him, I have never sacrificed anything for anything or anyone, and I don't even want to. And I still want to have it all. Subaru isn't the lowest of the low. There are worse than him.

[@RS-vu4nn]

You can be better, it's a choice

[@coltonk5]

Despite leveling up in life and feeling like I’m moving forward, I always somehow come back to this video. I always feel as if I’m sent back to level zero. I envision a path, act on it, and it somehow turns into the beginning all over again somewhere along the way.

[@altadeam]

I feel like this, that door looks bigger and hard to push and open it... But after the first step I took, it's actually not that hard. And after meeting different people, it changed my mind and the way of thinking about myself

[@darktheloser]

Why is this so relatable?

[@theeliax7374]

[DON´T WORRY NO SPOILERS] There's a scene in acr 7 that subaru is alone with non of his powefull firends near, but one, so in order to save his friend, he sacrifise everything and he considers his live worthless, so the only think he can do is to fight desesperately, accepte all humiliation, pain and hate from everyone including the friend his trying to save. That part also hits as hard as this one.

[@DrassyNot]

I wanna read this specific part where can I.

[@theeliax7374]

@@DrassyNot basically all the first part of arc 7, but u can read especifically cap 11 the ritual of blood and cap 12 The vollachian Empiere. Also cap 29 To Each Their Stance and cap 30 Self-proclaimed Hero Natsuki Subaru. You can find sumaries on KZbin if you dont want to read them. If u speak spanish i recomment Yuuya onichan channel. This two parts hits hard, since is one of his friends the one that hurts Subaru the most [ cap 11 and 12 from others perspective and 29 and 30 hurts him badly in the fellings, especialy since his doing his best to save that person].

[@DrassyNot]

@@theeliax7374 which friend is it out of curiosity?

[@theeliax7374]

@@DrassyNot Rem

[@ritikmehra9551]

Anime

[@joselopez-pv7nc]

Dam I've never seen this b4 this goes way deep I felt my heart

[@BordeauxEdits]

Don't pity yourself, once you go down that road, life turns into an endless nightmare

[@katarinaslife]

best motivation video ive seen in a while

[@X-2Cold]

he just like me fr

[@MrChezzieman]

its hard to change theses type of feelings but if you look deep within youl find your trueself no one said make instant changes but look forward to those small changes youl see your worth the effort. you may know yourself but try to see how others see you to really improve take it with a grain of salt but smile. Your the only you.

[@mohamedal-qadeery6530]

this video relates to me so hard .. subaru is most real human character

[@tinorovetti5707]

This made see so much about myself but it was to late so now I refuse to hate myself so I can protect what's important to me

[@christian-2002-e3d]

Basically me as a 21 year old bum, listening to this right now…😢

[@jesse8160]

This is me honestly i truly do hate myself more then anyone in this world

[@aLittleNightmare.]

Everything about this hit close to home, but the most one that did was “I absolutely… hate myself…”

[@1Ayanokoji]

I hate my self and I hate everything and nothing gonna change that

[@arichuwu3490]

i dont wanna be like this anymore

[@ZenithintheMaking]

This was a man who hated himself.....

[@arsenhere7020]

Appreciate the self awareness from Subaru

[@AnimeGalaxyhq]

Great speech whenever I feel demotivated I come here

[@zerorequiem1020]

It synchronised with my current form Resonates like raindrops crushing me from within

[@Blinkehyo]

So true bestie. Same 💅

[@iiitrifle9895]

😁♥️

[@Artanime35]

When he says “I hate myself and I feel like a fraud” I feel like that too. I have depression so it’s very hard for me to stay happy for my friends but I’m losing friends I’m always left out.

[@AgSilver-q5f]

I know it's not gonna help you that much. But let's not lose hope. One day the pain will surely end and the reward will be far greater whether it be on earth or in heaven/afterlife ❤

[@Artanime35]

@@AgSilver-q5fthanks😀

[@kunaljethwani925]

This is me on the inside. People think I study hard, but score less marks, and when i get less marks i blame it on external factor that dont make sense. I dont know what to do i am just a idiot who judges other people but on my inside am a faliure. I have dissapointed everyone and now i am just tired of life.

[@er_claire7178]

this is a powerful one. dang.

[@Monkey_D_RY]

People that have the same feeling just like subaru 👇

[@vividchilling2492]

At your core, You ARENT Weak Natsuki Subaru!!! Your in a tough spot right now, make sure it never happens again!

[@kingfightingshark1175]

Anyone else feels guilty when they listen to this. Like reality is smacking you

[@juliodoming7119]

The best protagonist of fiction

[@baconnomania4814]

This speech turned into my inspo for making a monologue for a school activity 😭

[@dylancormack6935]

I feel that way sometimes, but I know to stay strong

[@shvm.]

I remember this scene :'/

[@benie_boi2021]

what ep was it

[@shvm.]

@@benie_boi2021 don't remember the episode but it's from S1

[@iiitrifle9895]

@@benie_boi2021 Season 1 Episode 18

[@SAB3R_0]

Then he says I love Emilia, but for some reason I can relate a lot to him, I hate myself a lot and I do nothing with my life, I’m sitting here in bed watching things like this when I could be doing something else, I brought everything I could hate about life myself so I shouldn’t hate life or others, I should hate myself and I have every right to wish myself death but the only reason I’m still here is the three friends who would cry for me, they have always helped me and even though I’m lonely because of myself they share the blame and love anyway

[@fitmotheyap]

Different circumstances eh, I live just to spite death and nothing more, I don't really have that many friends and I wouldn't show a vulnerable side of me anyway, I already feel empty and hopeless since I put myself on the wrong track whenever possible, when both choices I have in life are bad I don't know what to do, sometimes it's impossible for someone to not wish they were born better, I was that close to not having to worry about life as much as I am now, all I needed was to be slightly luckier, for once I can blame a factor I could not control and I despise that. If there is a god out there, I pray for a 2nd chance, a better chance, though I worry I'd repeat the same mistakes all over without my memories.

[@nathanielvernon6747]

This speech made me binge the whole show

[@anonymousbothersome-way17953]

I can relate too, i just waste time of my life. even now i can see myself just like some kind of parasite just a being that can only convert oxygen to carbon dioxide. I actually watch this anime a few years ago but i dont get what he says, i feel like a retard Shame on me!! But now i finally understand or maybe still dont comprehend some of his word or the messages, but i will fight, i would never give up on struggle, i still dont know what will i do or what will becomes of me but i decided to begin with simple workout and btw i decided to read and download the light novel and webnovel from zero, so let me say do your best author and everyone involved in production of this series, I love your tale so much. So let this comment be my reminder of myself. Thus let me state fellow fighter, "I hate myself and I am the worst!!"

[@anonymousbothersome-way17953]

Sorry for all of you please seeee bofuri, i am alone because hikikomori. I can wake up just see bofuri i can

[@mikedanielespeja6128]

Unlike Subaru, I realize I really haven't done anything worthwhile. I've tried... God have I tried... but I'm still fricking up. The few I've helped were in complete accident and if I wasn't there, things really would have improved anyways. I'm still the damn attic dwelling neckbeard that I've always been. And the worst part... is that once I fall asleep and wake up... I'll go back to my usual daily crap of ruining the lives of people who frankly have done way more to society as kids than I might ever do as I am... and I would forget this until I return to my absolute bottom. Stand proud, Subaru. You are not pathetic.

[@mikedanielespeja6128]

I'm so tired but I've done absolutely nothing.

[@jarktonsley4717]

​@@mikedanielespeja6128 I feel you bro

[@mikedanielespeja6128]

Back here again.

[@requiem_1117]

I’ll tell you what kind of man I am. I have no strength but I want it all, I have no knowledge but all I do is dream. There’s nothing I can do but I struggle like an idiot! I… i hate…. I hate myself! All I do is talk a big game and make myself sound like a big shot, when I can’t do anything! I never do anything, but I complain with the best of them like it’s my job or something… who the hell do I think I am?! I’m a fraud, it’s amazing I can live like this and not feel ashamed! You know I’m right?! I’m an empty shell, there’s nothing inside me at all! I know there isn’t, guess that’s obvious, anybody could see that. Before I came to this place… before I got into the situation that led me to all of you, do you have any idea what I did with my life? - I did nothing, that’s what. I’ve never done a single thing worth mentioning, I had all that time and freedom but I just squandered it away on nothing. I could’ve done anything with my life but I never did a damn thing! And what you’re looking at now is the result! -This cowardly weak worthless crybaby! All of my powerlessness, all of my incompetence is the result of my rotten and pathetic character. Wanting to accomplish something important when I’ve never done anything to earn it, goes way beyond the limitations of arrogance! The cost of my lifetime of laziness and all the wasteful habits I forged along the way, just ends up killing both you, and me! That’s right; I have no character, even when I thought I could go on living here, nothing changed about who I really am. The old man back at the manor saw that part of me perfectly, didn’t he? I wasn’t trying to get stronger or make things better, that was a lie! I was just striking an obvious pose to justify myself, to say that I was trying my best, that it wasn’t like I wasn’t doing anything. To be able to appear to be doing everything I could! I wanted to say “I couldn’t help it”, to be told that “it couldn’t be helped”! I was only pending to push my body to the limit so that all of those excuses would be possible! Even when I had you help me study, I was just posing to cover up how embarrassed I felt to be such an incompetent idiot! Deep down inside- at the core of my heart, I’m just a small cowardly, filthy piece of trash who’s always worried about how others see me- how they’ll accept or judge me! … and nothing- … NOTHING ABOUT ME HAS CHANGED! I’ve known it since the very beginning … everything that was happening, was my fault… I’m the lowest of the low. I absolutely … hate myself

[@R_ayan.10]

Perfect

[@dj-um7el]

Exactly

[@YesImEclipse]

I'll tell you what kinda man I'm really am I have no strength but I want it all I have no knowledge but all I do is dream there's nothing I can do but I struggle in vain like an idiot I I hate I hate myself all I do is talk a big game and make myself sound like a big shot when I can't do anything I never do anything yet I complain with the best of them like it's my job or something who the hell do I think I am I'm a fraud it's amazing how I live like this and not feel ashamed you know I'm right I'm an empty shell there's nothing inside me at all I know there isn't I guess that's obvious anybody can see that before I came to this place before I got into this situation that led me to all of you do you have any idea what I did with my life I did nothing that's what I've never done a single thing worth mentioning I had all of that time and freedom but I just squandered it away like it was nothing I could have done anything with my life but I never did a damned thing and now what you're looking at now is the result this cowardly weak worthless crybaby all my powerlessness all of my incompetence is the product of my rotten and pathetic character wanting to accomplish something important when I never done anything to earn it goes Way beyond the limitations of arrogance the cost of my lifetime of laziness and all of the wasteful habits I forged along the way just ends up killing both you and me that's right I have no character even when I thought I could go in living here nothing changed about who I really am the old man back at the Manor saw that part of me perfectly didn't he I wasn't trying to get stronger or try to make things better that was a lie I was just striking an obvious pose to justify myself to say that I was trying my best that it wasn't like I wasn't trying to do anything to appear like I was doing everything I could I wanted to say I couldn't help it that it couldn't be helped I was only pretending to push my body to the limit so all those excuses would be possible even when I had to help me study I was just posing to cover up how embarrassed I felt to be such an incompetent idiot deep down inside at the core of my heart I'm just a small cowardly filthy piece of trash who's always worried about how others see me how they will they accept or judge me and nothing nothing about me has changed I've known it since the very beginning everything that was happening was my fault I'm the lowest of the low I absolutely hate myself

[@ikanberapi2189]

Great to see you can reset even tho it hurts Meanwhile Us who cannot reset must endure the past that we hold from now

[@EmberEdgeDesigns]

Always want to relate to the cool anime MCs, but deep down this is the MC that relates the most

[@JoshuaMcKay1]

This is how people with imposter syndrome feel like. If you or your friends feel like this, I would highly recommend therapy ❤

[@Ahoyendahl]

Some pepole hate Subaru cuz he remind him of us

[@callmekermy9946]

Why's this inspirational to me? Maybe it just being called out makes me not wanna be like me

[@Wicked_Gaming_]

Powerful.

[@devanshbajpai8197]

Listening this after Being mean to your mom even when all she wants is the best of you, makes me sob like an idiot

[@fear_dis5151]

Ive never hated this man i felt sorry and sad for him. 😔