I HAVE LOST MY GIFT OR GOD TOOK IT!!

PROBABLY THE MOST SERIOUS VIDEO I HAVE DONE TO DATE..... I GOT HOME AFTER A VERY INTERESTING NIGHT AND I JUST NEED TO VENT... FOR THE LAST MONTH I'VE WATCHED WAY TOO MANY PEOPLE IN MY LIFE THIS PAST MONTH HURT AND CRY OVER SOMEONE WHO HAS BROKEN THEIR HEARTS... FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE... I HAVE LOST THE CONFIDENCE TO COMFORT THEM ... STILL WAITING ON MINE TO HEAL! I FEEL LIKE A FAILURE AS A FRIEND. .. FML